In Defense by Buckaroo Bonzai ThereÕs a movie called ŅDefending Your LifeÓ in which Albert Brooks stands before an afterworld jury and defends the various decisions heÕs made in his lifetime on earth. A suitable title for this little treatise might be ŅDefending My Lifestyle,Ó as it places me before a jury of readers and challenges me to explain how an average family man can so quickly embrace a life of carnal depravity. How I could spend an entire evening naked, on my knees, before a semi-nude woman, desperately hoping to be rewarded for good behavior with a sexual act that is so degrading that most men cringe to even think of it? That it happens so rarely as once a month would not be perceived as pertinent to the jury. That it occurs strictly (with rare exceptions) at my behest wouldnÕt figure into a strong defense. What are most interesting, most spellbinding, and most shocking, are the actual acts that are performed. The why is discarded in favor of the what. The who is given over to the how. Yet since it is my defense, you must hear the why and the who to get to the what and the how. Suffer through it. The example day in question could best be described as brutal. No moment was without turmoil. No decision had less than long-term consequences. I balanced between a rush of creative energy and outright despair. There was no hope that the simple ride home would dissipate these violent energies. I needed something else. After a quick phone call to my wife Lynn I was able to relax a bit. Relief would soon be mine. SheÕd agreed to an evening together. And her parents would surely agree to take the kids overnight. WeÕd need an empty house for this adventure. I made it through the rest of the day holding her promise to me as one would a life preserver. The day, the conflicts, the traffic, all receded into the haze as I focused on the upcoming events. How would it unfold? How would my wife react? I knew how I would act, simply because I wanted to throw the whole of myself into the role. But to get it hitting on all cylinders, both participants need to buy into the script. I was ready. Was she? Before I walked in the front door, I exhaled sharply. The anticipation had my body and mind tingling. I was ready to start. But I knew from experience that Lynn might not start right away. She might make me wait, letting me suffer from my own expectations. It all depended upon how interested she was in playing this game. Whether she was doing this with me or for me. Two steps into the house I had my answer. Sort of. As I hung up my coat in the closet, Lynn stepped into the foyer. I knew what was coming before she even said it. ŅStrip. Now.Ó Were you to take a quick look at my life, you would come away with a feeling of simple, predictable normality. I am the father of two, and have been married to the same woman for about 13 years. I own (with the help of the bank) one house, two cars, a time-share vacation home, and the various material goods that comprise Ņthe good life.Ó My wife is attractive, understanding and forgiving, an excellent mother and a fine person to share a life with. My job, however, I wouldnÕt wish on anyone. ItÕs a pressure-cooker, requiring split-second decisions upon which thousands of dollars and many livelihoods might ride. A good week is one in which the number of jobs I destroy, the number of families I devastate, is equaled by the number of jobs I help create. Lately, the latter hasnÕt even come close to equaling the former. In my job I experience the same adrenaline rush every day that a police officer, fireman or soldier might experience, but without the attendant heroic feeling. On the surface: normality. Below the surface: a seething cauldron of doubts, insecurities, plans and desires, all brought to a boil by intense stress and pressing responsibilities. ItÕs the responsibilities that take the greatest toll. So many rely upon me for so much, and IÕve yet to learn the art of diverting the negative aspects. In short, I am emotionally connected to every decision, for better or worse. Over the long haul, itÕs made me anxious, testy, and not just a little bit frantic. I need decompression Š serious decompression. When faced with similar situations, some guys turn to alcohol or drugs. Some engage in contact sports, or work out until theyÕre quivering puddles of sweat. Some spend weeks in the company of other men, hunting, gambling, drinking and competing. Some paint letters on their chest and stand outside in freezing weather cheering on their favorite football team. Some get into fights for the pure thrill of it. Most are trying to build up an adrenaline high , so they can burn off their troubles as their body burns off the adrenaline. TheyÕre taking control of their emotions by channeling it through their bodies. That doesnÕt work with me. I need less adrenaline. Less competition. Less involvement. Simply put, I need less control. This is the best way that IÕve discovered so far. I quickly pulled off all my clothes, leaving them in a pile on the floor. The wrinkles or dirt on my wardrobe would be of no concern to my wife. She was most interested in what was under the clothing. ŅTurn around and let me see you,Ó my wife ordered. I did as she wanted. When I returned to my starting position I just stopped and waited. I knew IÕd never hear any comments of appreciation from her. ŅNow get it going,Ó my wife ordered. I didnÕt have to ask what she meant. This was a common element of our repertoire. Grabbing my cock in my right hand, and placing my left on my balls, I proceeded to jerk off, careful to make sure that Lynn could always see what I was doing. I worked at it quickly, squeezing my cock tightly, because I know that Lynn likes things to advance at a certain pace. Soon I was sporting a proud hard-on, the first of what would probably be many over the course of the evening. Lynn had watched my efforts like an eagle, and I in turn had watched her watching me. It was humiliating to be made to perform like that. It felt wonderful. Reaching out, my wife grabbed the shaft, hard, and pulled me along into the family room. SheÕd closed all the drapes this time, though sometimes she makes me perform in font of a partially open window. I noticed a half-empty bottle of wine on the table, along with a mostly empty glass, and felt a thrill go through me. Wine loosened her inhibitions. And when that happened, she took a much looser interpretation of the rules. The rules. The rules were the outline, the foundation for all our activities. Lynn took her cues from the rules, which kept us on the right path. She could freelance as she went along, of course, as was her right as the Mistress. But the rules set down the basic plan and our ultimate goal. The first time we tried to perform as Mistress and submissive, the results had been OK, but not as good as IÕd imagined. IÕd spent much of my time making suggestions as to how she should treat me. She accused me of Ņtopping from the bottom.Ó Lynn isnÕt completely unaware of the domination scene. She was right. IÕd been trying to direct the action. I had certain things I wanted to accomplish, and I needed a way to communicate those to her. So before our next session, I presented her with my suggestions for the rules. Rule #1: The slave, me, must always appear totally naked before the Mistress, to demonstrate his vulnerability. She could, of course, order him to wear any clothing she desired, male or female. Rule #2: The slave must often kiss or lick the feet or other designated body part of the Mistress, to demonstrate his complete devotion to serving her needs. Rule #3: The slave will often be spanked or otherwise painfully punished, for real or imagined misdeeds, to show his willingness to learn. Rule #4: The slaveÕs body can be used as a sexual or functional play thing by the Mistress, to give her any pleasure, physical or mental, that she might desire. Rule #5: The slave should be in pain or humiliated often, as a reminder of his submissive and degrading standing. So far, not so bad, right? But thereÕs more to the list. After moving the coffee table away, I quickly knelt down in front of Lynn. Then, bending way over, I deposited a light kiss on the top of my wifeÕs foot. Then another. And another. Soon I was ravishing kisses all over both her feet, panting as I strove to cover every inch of the tops with my warm lips. Just as IÕd started to work up towards her ankles, she imperiously lifted one foot and pressed it right in my face. I took the obvious cue and began licking the sole of her foot, cleaning it, worshipping it. I could feel myself changing with every moment. I wasnÕt just submissive. I was a dog, unworthy of licking even this lowly portion of my Mistress. Yet it was at the moment the only way I could show her how much I was willing to serve her. Soon enough she swung her other foot to me, and I licked and kissed it as thoroughly as possible. To some it might seem gross, but this wasnÕt particularly bad. In the past, sheÕd made me lick her feet clean after running through the dirt, and once after walking in the mud. She knew that the more I got into this, the more compliant I would be later in the evening. As I worked on one foot, lavishly licking her sole and toes, I could feel her other foot sliding steadily up my leg. Even though I was expecting it, the touch of her foot on my cock caused me to groan in pleasure. Soon, she and I were licking and rubbing in tandem, going faster and slower as her mood dictated. Abruptly, she pulled away her foot from my mouth and presented me with the other one, which now had a goodly amount of my pre-cum on it. I told you I liked to be subservient. I didnÕt flinch a bit as I moved to tongue it off. IÕd do that, and more, for the thrill of being rewarded later by my Mistress. And that was what she was now. My Mistress. Once I began kissing her feet, we went from husband and wife to slave and Mistress. She was now totally in control, governed only by a few rules, which she also had the right to throw by the wayside. ŅThatÕs enough, dog,Ó my Mistress said, pulling me back to her by my hair. ŅGo and get your toy box. Now!Ó ŅYes, Mistress,Ó I replied, scampering to get the locked box from the depths of our closet. That she hadnÕt asked for anything in specific either meant that she didnÕt have a plan in mind, or that she might be experimenting with any number of toys. I returned packing a medium- sized plastic overnight case with an expensive and complicated combination lock on it. Our kids or their friends wouldnÕt be discovering my secret side anytime soon. I stood passively as my Mistress opened the box and checked inside. She didnÕt make a move toward the double-locked compartment inside. But it was much too early for that, anyway. ŅKneel here!Ó Lynn barked at me, pushing the box to the side. She revels in making me wait for my pleasures and pains, in taking abrupt right turns when I expect her to go left. I dropped to my knees like a rock, my hands behind my back and my eyes lowered, as IÕd been taught. In truth I want to grovel before her, to writhe on the ground like a worm, to lick her feet endlessly and hope she favors me with some punishment. Despite being braced for it, I still cried out when she suddenly reached out and pinched my nipples, pulling and twisting them harshly. With intent to inflict pain, she then pulled them taut and dug her fingernails into the soft skin. I moaned, giving myself into the pain, then struggled to answer as she asked, ŅWhat are you?Ó ŅIÕm a dog, Mistress. A dog.Ó ŅAnd what do you want to become?Ó ŅI want to become your bitch, Mistress. Your filthy, fucking bitch! Ooooooh,Ó I moaned, ŅUse me Mistress. Use me and abuse me.Ó She released one nipple and went to work on the other. Her fingernails raked across my skin, leaving ugly red marks. The next day was Saturday. She could mark me without any qualms that the damage would be spotted. She leaned forward suddenly and bit the nipple, making me cry inwardly but sending a jolt directly to my cock. I know IÕll spend much of the night in this frenzied, half-erect state, wanting to cum but wanting something else even more. After a few minutes of sharp, short and delicious pain, My Mistress gave up on torturing my nipples and instead bent and wrapped her hand around my cock. Her intent wasnÕt to bring me off, though. Her intent was to make me hurt. ŅStand slave!Ó she ordered, tugging roughly on my meat. Placing both hands on the shaft, she twisted and pulled on it, yanking it around and around. Then, with one hand pressing it against my body, she used her other hand to spank my balls, winding up and slapping them with a vengeance. Again and again she whacked them, as my moans of pleasure turned into gasps of pain. Then, when she noticed that her hands were slick with my pre-cum, she held them out and I immediately bent to lick them off. I must keep my Mistress as clean of my bodily fluids as possible. She still hadnÕt humiliated me enough, though, so she ordered me to lay face up on the floor with my legs spread as far as possible, and my hand continuously stroking my cock. Reaching behind her, she brought out a camera to take pictures of me jacking myself off, completely in her power. Our collection includes over 500 images. Each one has the power to get me hard or get me off. ŅTell me how many ways you serve me, you filthy dog,Ó she said, taking another long sip of her wine. I noticed that the bottle only had another two glasses left in it. Would her need to dominate me end when the wine ended? That worry swiftly left as I concentrated on the answer. ŅIÕm your lap dog, Mistress. IÕm your fuck toy. IÕm your play doll. IÕm your ball boy. IÕm your cum slut. And if IÕm very, very good, IÕm your bitch.Ó Each name is a code word, designating a certain way that I serve my Mistress. As her lap dog, I lap at her cunt, breasts and body parts, all for her pleasure. As her fuck toy, she uses my hard cock, fingers, tongue, toes, and anything else to her herself off. As her play doll, I have to wear anything she wants me to, from womenÕs clothing to kink-wear to walking around naked. As her ball boy, IÕm here for her to physically and mentally torture, squeezing my balls, dripping wax on my cock, spanking and beating me to her heartÕs content. As her cum slut, well, that pretty much explains itself. And if I serve her very, very well, and sheÕs in just the right frame of mind, IÕll be allowed to do each one for her. And for me. But even if we just do one or two, the thrill of not being in control for just that long feels like a vacation to me. ŅFreeze!Ó she ordered, and I stopped jacking off with my hand almost to the top of my shaft. There, just seeping out of my cock slit, was a large drop of pre-cum, glistening in the waning sunlight. Stepping forward, my Mistress carefully lowered her foot onto the head of my cock, rubbing the sole up and down and coating it with my seed. Then, moving forward, she held it over my lips, making me strain upwards to lick it from her. It tasted a little saltier than usual, probably from the sweat I left there earlier. I can only wonder how sheÕs going to make me cum this time. And how much IÕll have to eat. Rule #6: The slave shall be forced to eat his own cum, as a lesson in humility and as a reminder that the session only ends when the Mistress says it does. See, IÕm all Mr. Gung-ho to do this and that when IÕm on the cusp, when my orgasm is just within reach. But like every other man, once the sperm leaves my body, all those hormones and adrenaline leave too. And what seemed like a good idea before suddenly seems like a bad idea. And so, if I had my own way, any session would end after my first cumshot. Not terribly satisfying if youÕre a Mistress with a plan. The answer, then, was this rule, which also serves as a gateway. The understanding is that if I fulfill this after the first cumshot, then I can have access to greater pleasures, and pains, after IÕve had some time to recover. My Mistress has also learned that my needs and compliance can be even more intense if IÕm building up to my second shot of the day. IÕll literally do anything, anything, to get off again. And by adding a cock ring to the equation, she can keep me hard for hours. That was all just a theory at the beginning. It appealed to Lynn, too, because she had always been asking me to lick my cum out of her pussy after I came. There just wasnÕt enough incentive for it. Not that I could explain it to her that way. Even with this in the rules, I knew that IÕd try to wiggle out of it somehow. So before we started the next session, I suggested that she attach some reward and/or punishment to my actions. This was well before weÕd worked our way up to my ultimate reward, for which IÕll do anything. That night I licked her feet and abased myself before her. I got hard as she twisted my nipples and got excited as she spanked my ass. I posed as she took pictures of my naked body, and I worked myself into a sweat as I licked her cunt. Finally she ordered me to lay on the coffee table and tied my ankles and one wrist to the table legs. She had me masturbate with my free hand while she took degrading pictures of me with the digital camera. Finally, with her permission, I shot my load onto my stomach. ŅScoop it up to your mouth and let it drip in,Ó she ordered, setting up to take pictures of this historic event. I hesitated for just a moment. But it was long enough. ŅIÕm going to leave you here for 20 minutes,Ó she stated flatly. ŅWhen I come back youÕll eat that cum and weÕll continue. If you donÕt, IÕll leave you here for the rest of the night. I mean it.Ó With that she walked away. I spent the next 20 minutes not working up the courage, but berating myself for hesitating. Of course IÕd eat the cum. IÕd do anything to get to where I wanted to go. By the time she returned my cock was completely flaccid and the cum on my stomach had turned watery. I only waited for her to set up for the photo before I scooped up as much seed as I could get and let it drip into my gaping mouth. She had me scrape it all off my stomach and then lick my fingers clean before she would release me. Once untied, she punished me severely, spanking my bare ass with a rubber spatula. At the end of the night, after IÕd shot my second load deep inside her cunt, I licked it out with a vengeance, thrilled to be a good slave to my Mistress. ŅDo you want to cum, dog?Ó my Mistress asked disingenuously. I paused, sensing a trap, then answered, knowing that sheÕd easily see through any lie. ŅYes, Mistress, I want to cum for you.Ó ŅHow typical, dog, letting yourself be led around by your dick. I think you should be punished, instead.Ó ŅYes, Mistress. I need to be punished,Ó I said eagerly. On a day like this, punishment would feel soooooo good. ŅWhat sins have you committed, that you need to be punished for?Ó my Mistress asked expectantly. This threw me for a loop. Sins? I quickly thought through my day. It would have to be something believable, something close to the truth. But not something so bad that IÕd get into real trouble Š marriage trouble. ŅMistress, I confess. At work today, I tried to look down one of the womenÕs tops. I think she was braless, and I wanted to see her tits. I wanted to see her topless, and in my mind I imagined what it would be like to suck her nipples into my mouth.Ó There. It was true enough, but without any serious repercussions. I expected to head right to the punishment phase, but she took another twist. ŅIÕm going to pull out my shirt, and you tell me how much of her tits that you saw.Ó She pulled out her shirt, and I told her to stop just a little farther than I had actually seen. ŅAlmost to the nipples, you raunchy pig! Would you have been happy to spy her nipples? Would that have made your cock get hard?Ó I answered the only way I could, ŅIÕm a dog, Mistress. A dog. My cock makes me do things I donÕt want to do. IÕm a dog and I need to be punished.Ó But that didnÕt have the placating effect IÕd hoped for. She just didnÕt want to let it go. ŅDid you think her tits were sexy? Well, did you?Ó Now I was in a really bad spot. IÕd be in trouble no matter how I answered. ŅYes, Mistress, her tits were sexy.Ó I paused. And then regretted the next words as soon as I uttered them. ŅBut theyÕre not as sexy as yours.Ó She leapt upon that like a cat on a mouse. ŅWe werenÕt talking about mine. So if you want any hope of seeing them tonight, youÕll keep to the subject. Now IÕm really going to have to punish you, so you can learn not to be a dog. And if you want to have any hope of being my bitch later on. My bitch. She held that reward over my head like a carrot. Of course IÕd take my punishment for that. At her orders, I stood in the middle of the room stroking my cock. She brought a dining room chair into the room, bending me over the seat and tying my wrists to the bottom of the legs. It was a simple but effective bondage position, giving her full access to my ass. Her weapon of choice was a ping-pong paddle, not modified in the least. I strained to look back as she drew her arm back, poised for my punishment. Whack! The paddle landed flat on my ass cheeks, stinging like a thousand bee stings. Then three in succession. Then a pause. Then two more. She likes to mix things up to keep me guessing. After 27 swats she stopped. I count automatically, because if she asks for the count and I donÕt know it, sheÕll start again É from number one. I could hear her reach into the bag, but couldnÕt see a thing. What was she pulling out? ŅSpread your legs, you mutt,Ó she ordered, pushing my thighs apart. I felt her hand, then, on my cock, which was now soft and pliable. In a moment I knew what was happening. SheÕd tied a thin rope around the head of my cock, and could use it to pull my dick in any direction she wanted, even back up between my ass cheeks. Which was exactly what she did. Now she started a truly devious punishment, which sheÕd discovered on the Net. Pulling my cock back and up, she held the rope taut in one hand and used something hard and small Š her crop? Š to paddle my cock and ass at the same time. The first time sheÕd done this had been exquisitely torturous, as the more she paddled my cock, the harder it had become. And the stiffer it got, the less it could be pulled back between my legs. That first time, IÕd nearly collapsed from the pleasure. This time it felt no less exciting. ŅI need a reward for all my hard work,Ó Lynn said, finally laying down the paddle. ŅMove your ass over here,Ó she ordered, indicating a spot in front of the couch. After awkwardly carrying the chair beneath me over to that spot, I knelt back down and twisted my head to watch her. With little fanfare she unsnapped the waistband of her shorts, unzipped the zipper, and pushed them to the floor. Then, knowing I was watching her, she slowly lowered her panties to the floor, leaving her bottom half naked. Hopping on the couch she positioned herself so that her open legs were just inches from my face. ŅIs this what you want, dog? Is this what gets you hard?Ó ŅYes, Mistress, I want your sweet pussy in my face. I dream about your cunt. IÕm your dog. And I want to be your bitch!Ó ŅLetÕs just see how good you are as a dog, first. Eat me out, you lap dog. Drink my juice. Make me cum.Ó With that she scooted forward until her cunt was full onto my face. I eagerly shot my tongue into her hole, tongue-fucking her and then sliding up her slit to her tiny pearl. My Mistress isnÕt big into teasing around her clit. She wants to feel it hard and fast. She smelled sharp and tangy, and tasted kind of rough. But I still loved it. I wished I could use my hands to pull her even tighter against me. In truth, when IÕm feeling this way I would rather fuck her with my tongue than with my dick. It makes me feel like IÕm really her sex slave. Like everything I do is simply and solely for her pleasure. Which it should be, when sheÕs in charge. So I strained to press myself harder against her steaming slit, to push myself deeper into her juicy hole. As I crammed my face hard against her cunt, my Mistress shifted her legs so I could reach the tight, crinkled skin of her asshole. Taking my cue I licked my way down, spearing my tongue into her spastic hole as deep as I could press. She moaned then, from deep within her, and I knew that IÕd scored some major pleasure points. Again and again I violated her anus, filling her with my lively, flicking appendage. Finally she let her legs fall back down, tearing me away from the dessert and back to the main meal. ŅUgggh. Ummmmmmmmgh. Aummmmmmggggghhhhh! Ņ she cried as she grabbed me by the hair and pulled me tight against her slit. I worked her wet cunt savagely, now totally devoted to stimulating her hard, quivering clit. Finally she came, bucking up and down as though my face was a dildo, hard and rough enough to prolong her ecstasy. In fact, in the past she has kept me at it, tonguing her to orgasm after orgasm, until she was so exhausted all she could do was lay on the floor and pant. And until my tongue was so sore I had to eat soft foods the next day.. I donÕt know what it is, but eating her cunt when IÕm submissive like this is different from eating her out when weÕre making love. I think itÕs much like the different kinds of blowjobs a guy can get. If itÕs freely given, then it feels pleasurable enough. But sometimes a guy just wants to stand over a woman and tell her, ŅSuck me, bitch,Ó and then watch as she bends her naked body to the job, her only role to give pleasure to the man-beast towering above her. HeÕll fantasize then, about being able to order her to do his bidding anytime, anyplace, her entire being tasked to fulfilling his every wish. ItÕs power that only the kings and emperors of old could enjoy. When I bend to eat her pussy, itÕs almost like IÕm as helpless as the wenches and concubines who served their king. Just as they sucked his cock, the source of his power, I suck the source of her power. Just as they were forced to lick his shaft and worship his balls, IÕm forced to cleave her slit and tongue her clit, pulling her power-drenched juices from the depths of her. SheÕs raping my mouth. And IÕm giving into her power. My Mistress understands this now, and uses her pussy for both her pleasure and my punishment. Sometimes she sits bottomless on the couch, and IÕll lightly lick her slit as she uses her laptop or watches television. A few times she has allowed me lick my way up her legs, but stopped me just inches from her pussy, forcing me to look but not touch, to smell but not enjoy, until she is finished with her program or her book. Occasionally sheÕll get on her hands and knees and force me to lick her from behind, as a dog would. IÕll cram my face between her ass cheeks and slide my tongue as far into her hole as I can, before lapping ferociously at her hidden clit. She loves to use this position to make me give her a rim job, too, where I lick her asshole to get it wet, then shove my tongue inside. ItÕs a sure way to get her moaning. And for her to show me whoÕs really boss. After she finished using my tongue as a dildo, my Mistress fell back against the cushions, her pussy bright red and covered in her juices and my spit. She was still wearing the white shirt sheÕd presumably worn all day, and I wondered if I was ever going to get the privilege of seeing her tits. But instead of replying to my unspoken entreaties, she simply got up and headed to the bathroom, leaving me trussed to the chair like forgotten sex toy. When she finally returned, she looked much fresher, whereas I felt dirty, sweaty, and nearly frustrated to the point of exhaustion. As though reading my thoughts, she sat next to the chair and began pulling and twisting my dangling cock, stretching it to its full length and letting it snap back. Moving upward, she grabbed my balls in one hand, her fingers separating them, then squeezing them with a gradually increasing intensity. She tugged at the short hairs there, painfully stretching the skin as the follicles refused to part. Sometimes sheÕll strap me down and pull single hairs out, an operation that leaves me panting from the pain and pleasure. For extra effect, sheÕll pull out two at once, leaving me feeling as though she was pulling a nerve straight from my body. SheÕll even make a game of it, trying to find the longest one. ŅAre you ready to cum, slut?Ó she whispered in my ear. ŅYes, Mistress,Ó I pant, my cock hard in her hand. She tugged at the ropes until they fell away; she never knots them because she knows I want to be there. ŅLay on your back,Ó she ordered, as I forced my cramped body to obey. Laying flat on the floor, my dick stuck up like a flagpole from the V between my legs. Without a single comment she lowered herself down on my hard cock, her steamy wet cunt encasing me in its heavenly tight grip. She rode me then, as an animal might hump a branch, with no regard to anything but her own pleasure. Regardless, the tight feel of her pussy, and the sight of my cock disappearing inside her, brought me to the edge of oblivion. ŅIÕm, IÕm going to cum, Mistress,Ó I announced, though sheÕd set no limits on my behavior when it came to cumming this time. With no admonishment to stop, I let myself spasm, my cock squirting a huge load of jism deep into her sexy hole. Just as I finished my orgasm, she reached down and pinched my hardened nipple, the pain causing me to twist beneath. A not so subtle reminder: even though IÕd finished this part, I still belonged to her. ŅThat was quick,Ó she commented, pushing against me to help herself stand up. Instead of moving away, though, she took two steps forward until her sopping pussy was directly over my face. I could clearly see the angry lips of her cunt, the curly V of her cunt hair, and farther up, could catch occasional glimpses of her joyous tits. As I strained to see more, I felt a drop of liquid splatter on my face. Then another. Was that a drop of her juices? Or something else? She turned around to face my feet, then began to set herself down. Onto her knees. Onto my face! As she slowly bent down, her pussy slowly pulled open. And what I had just shot inside now began seeping out, as surely as gravity pulls any liquid to the lowest point. Without a bit of fanfare she sat on my face, and I instinctively tilted my head back so I could get my tongue into her deep hole. I didnÕt do it, yet, instead enjoying the almost claustrophobic sense of her cunt upon me. I could only breathe through my nose, and one wrong move backwards would leave me literally breathless. This is my favorite pussy-eating position because IÕm completely at her mercy, as forced to perform as if she were raping me. Finally I thrust my tongue up into her waiting hole, only to feel a stream of sticky, salty semen coat my tongue and flow down into my mouth. I swallowed it quickly, the taste and viscosity as familiar to me as any other, as familiar to me as it is to her, in fact. Urgently I pushed my tongue back inside her, seeking more of the holy fluid. She wanted me to clean her out, to suck my cum from her cunt in an orgy of masochistic pleasure. And I wanted to eat it all, to prove that I was worthy of continuing. That was the key; the unwritten pact. If I proved myself sufficiently at this stage, she agreed to continue to greater punishments and pleasures. Even though I had already cum. Even if she had already cum. Even if we were both, momentarily, drained of passion and desire. Because my desire would return. And I would want more. IÕd barely finished cleaning her slit when she abruptly knelt forward and took my rapidly shrinking cock into her mouth. Now the touch that I wouldÕve welcomed just minutes before became a new form of torture for me. Licking just the tip of my cock, she stimulated the most sensitive part of my body Š made ultra-sensitive by just having orgasmed. The result was an intense burning sensation, not unlike placing a hot iron on exposed skin. But not excruciatingly painful; just extremely intense. In the right circumstances, it can be exceedingly pleasurable. These were not the right circumstances. My legs thrashed and cramped as her tongue dipped into the slit at the top of my cock. She had my upper body pinned to the floor, and I could see nothing but her ass and the bottom of her pussy. She continued at her task, seemingly oblivious to my cries and gasps, now using the palm of her hand to gently rub the dry helmet, creating friction of immeasurable degree. My hands were locked beneath her knees; my body locked between her legs. She rubbed the ridge between the helmet and the shaft with the side of her thumb. The friction was so intense, so hot, my feet began to tingle. And still she persisted, her actions bringing a reaction from every extremity. I felt weak, drained, and yet I could feel that passion and desire building, building. I was nearly ready for Round Two. Finally she pulled the whole of my cock into her mouth, her tongue soothing where it had once been excruciating. After sucking me gently she rolled off me, the look in her eyes telling me all I needed to know. IÕd passed the test. We were going to continue. We took a few minutes break, she sipping her wine, me washing my face and groin. I stank of sweat, juices and cum, but all I could do was get an extra shot of anti-perspirant. Sometimes my Mistress takes a quick shower during a break, and I attend to her. But usually she uses the time to plot her next move. She motioned to me, the break at an end. I dropped back to the ground in front of her, kissing and licking her toes and feet. IÕm openly groveling now. I want her to abuse me like a two-dollar whore. Because thatÕs what I am. A whore that will do anything for a little pleasure. With a single spoken word, she had me kneel astride her, so that my chest was at the same level as her face. Urging me to lean against her, she lightly flicked her tongue along my right nipple, raising it to attention, before doing the same to the left. I moaned softly, the sweat breaking out on my brow. Through much use, and abuse, sheÕd turned my nipples into finely- tuned sexual organs. They responded to both pleasure and pain, and could almost, by themselves, bring me to the brink of orgasm. Softly, slowly, she licked them, worrying at the little nubs. Then, as I began to relax into it, she bit one, the pain exquisite as it shot through my body. The threshold broken, she began gnawing and twisting them in her teeth, causing me to whimper in wonderful helplessness. She continued on, relentlessly, alternating bites, pinching and pain with soft licking and blowing. I writhed against her, wanting to pull away and yet not wanting to. She could ravage me all night and IÕd enjoy every second. She reached down, between my legs, not stopping at my cock or balls, but farther back to press her finger against my anus, my golden hole. I was so ready, so willing. I pressed my chest against her, arching my back, despite the fact that she was now viciously biting my sensitive nipples. Her fingers danced around the surface of my ass, touching my tight bud often enough to send waves of anticipation through me. ŅGo get Number One,Ó she ordered, suddenly ceasing her ministrations. I nearly tripped over myself as I scampered to comply, the combination lock on the inside of the travel bag slipping through my fingers. Reaching inside, I found it by touch, then eagerly returned it to my Mistress. My obedience was soon to be rewarded. Rule #7: The slave shall be treated as though he is being trained to do whatever his Mistress wishes, including performing sexual acts on another man. ThatÕs one of our shared fantasies. And what could make a man feel more powerless, more helpless, than being at the mercy of not only a woman, but another man. Me. On my knees. Another man standing before me. A stranger. A bi-sexual stranger. HeÕs touching my naked wife. Kissing her. Sucking her full nipples. Stroking her bare cunt. And me at their feet. Their mutual sex toy. Kissing their feet. Groveling before them. Hoping to be used and abused. Wanting to watch another man fuck my wife with his big, thick cock. Bigger than mine. Thicker. With huge balls dangling in a taut sack. IÕm her present to him. A mouth to warm him up. A receptacle for his cum. And an easy, tight fuck. Waiting to be his bitch. Their bitch. I lie flat on the floor, heatedly licking their feet. I look up in wonder, and fearful anticipation, as they tower above me. I can smell their sex already. HeÕs half firm. Her slit is beginning to swell. HeÕs kissing the nape of her neck. SheÕs pressing her full breasts against him. His fingers stroke the folds of her pussy; a spot only I have touched for the last 13 years. She touches his cock. I can see the wonder and admiration in her eyes. Only half-erect, itÕs already as big as mine. Soon my wife will get a good fuck. A hard fuck. A fuck from a rough man whoÕs not her husband. The fuck she has wanted, secretly, for so many years. Finally she looks down and notices me, groveling for attention. ŅSuck his cock,Ó she orders, pulling from his grasp and sitting down to watch. ŅSuck him hard, so he can fuck me hard with his big, thick, beautiful cock. Suck him good, and maybe, just maybe, IÕll let you help him put his nasty cock into your wifeÕs pussy.Ó I climb to my knees, as IÕve been taught. His cock sways in front of my face, the head an angry purple. Gently, oh so gently, I grasp the shaft in my fingertips. I bend forward. This is the real thing. Softer than any dildo, yet hard enough to split my lips, and my wifeÕs pussy, straight open. I concentrate on that image as I press my head forward, feeling the tip, the ridge, and finally the shaft bump over my lips. He tastes of cum and sweat. His girth is hard to handle. I run my tongue up and over the shaft as best I can, getting a feel of it. Suddenly he pulls me toward him, crushing his cock deep in my mouth. I know what he wants and give it to him, mouthfucking him with abandon. Exactly as I was trained. Trained for this fantasy. My wife quickly strapped on the harness, the leather already sized to fit her. In the front extends a seven-inch dildo, about one-and-a- quarter inches in diameter. ItÕs flesh colored, but not particularly life-like. ThereÕs no cock-tip, no ridge and no balls. ItÕs called Number One because itÕs the first strap-on we purchased. Number Two is much more realistic, with a hard helmet, a deep ridge, and two testicles at the base. ItÕs also larger Š eight-and-a-half inches and one-and-a-half inches in diameter. A nub of plastic is attached to the inside of the harness just below the balls. The nub stimulates the wearer as the dildo is being used on the recipient. ItÕs perfectly situated to hit my wifeÕs clit. IÕve nicknamed Number Three ŅThe Punisher.Ó It looks less like a dick than a glass tool of some sort. Made of clear Pyrex, it has a smooth shaft that is only interrupted by a deep ridge, designed to make you feel it going in É and coming out. This harness has two smaller dildos that can be attached to the inside. One goes inside the pussy. The other goes inside the ass. ItÕs one all-around hardcore piece of equipment. ŅKneel,Ó my Mistress said to me, standing above me. I drop to my knees, the dildo now at mouth level. ŅSuck me off,Ó she ordered, pressing the tip of it up to my lips. IÕve done this many times before. I take the fake cock into my mouth, sucking hard on the plastic. Now my fantasy really takes flight. IÕm not just sucking a dildo for my dominant wife. IÕm sucking the cock of that stranger. Making it harder. Making it thicker. Licking the big, stiff shaft that will soon deliver to me a mouthful of hot jism, sprayed across my face as an animal might mark his territory. Globs of it on my tongue, held there until ordered to swallow. And then the inevitable clean up session, my tongue wrapping around the deflated shaft, hunting in crevices and hair and skin for every stray speck of semen, until his big cock and balls are clean and ready for another round. Kneeling before my Mistress, I did a simple blowjob, using my hands to steady the long dildo as I licked and sucked at it with abandon. In the past she has taken my spent cum and applied it to the shaft, so that it would feel as though I were cleaning a strangerÕs cum from his cock. This time, though, despite my enthusiasm, she quickly tired of the game. And she pushed me away, abruptly ending my fantasy as well. ŅThat was terrible,Ó she said disdainfully. ŅI canÕt imagine you pleasing anyone with such a terrible blowjob. ItÕs obvious you havenÕt learned your lessons all that well. And since it canÕt be a problem with the teacher, it must be a problem with you. A blowjob is something any woman can do. Maybe you need to think more like a woman.Ó I could already tell where this conversation would lead. She confirmed it with her next words, ŅBring over the box thatÕs in the laundry room. And hurry with it.Ó I leapt to my feet and ran to the laundry room, grabbing the box and dropping to my knees to present it to her. ŅOpen it up and dress yourself,Ó she ordered, taking a seat on the couch. I opened the box and looked inside with some trepidation. IÕd expected just what I got: a wardrobe of womenÕs clothing. What worried me was the kind of clothing it might be. My Mistress has complete control over me, even to what I wear or donÕt wear during the session. SheÕd placed me in womenÕs clothing before, but sometimes she would make a point about subjugation and such by the type of clothing she provided. I especially hated being forced to wear pantyhose. TheyÕre uncomfortable enough for a woman. TheyÕre damn near unbearable for a man who has an extra appendage to fit into the panty part. This time, though, I got off lightly. Nothing more than a plaid skirt. IÕd be a school girl for her pleasure. A schoolgirl that sheÕd soon be fucking. At least I hoped. ŅNow that youÕre better focused, letÕs try that blowjob again,Ó she said, grabbing the fake cock protruding from between her legs and gesturing to me. I scampered over to do her bidding, this time much more enthusiastically licking and sucking the hard dildo. I was grateful for having another chance to please her, and grateful for the chance to return to my fantasy. My Mistress knows I sometimes do this during a session. She lets me, as long as it doesnÕt interfere with my service to her. In my fantasy, IÕm licking the balls of the man who will soon fuck my wife. His balls are big and full, about the size of immature plums. They dangle from his body in a stiff sack, which barely gives way as I run my tongue up and down the skin. I suckle at each testicle, reverently kissing the source of his jism, the powerful semen that will soon coat the inside of my wifeÕs deepest crevice. My Mistress wants his cum to be as hot as possible. As I slurp and lick at his cock and balls, I imagine what kind of Master he would be. Would he be fair and giving, allowing me my pleasure after IÕve given him his? Or would he be cruel and demanding, binding me to the furniture and fucking my ass repeatedly? Would he make me his personal slave, or share me with his friends, reducing me to a tight hole for the horniest of them? The thought of both scenarios excites me, and I redouble my efforts to get him ready. Finally my wife reclines on the bed, her legs spread and her pussy eagerly awaiting his fully engorged sword. At her direction he positions himself over her, holding his cock just inches from her hot, wet pussy. I slide my hand between them, grasping his staff, and he lowers himself slightly so I can rub the massive head up and down my wifeÕs trembling slit. Finally I position him at the entrance to her tight cunt. He waits only until my hand is clear before lowering his cock straight down into her cunt, until their bodies are flat together. She moans contentedly, her hole filled with more cock than sheÕs ever had, save for the bigger dildos weÕve played with in the past. This cock, though, has a determined owner, and two balls filled with heavy semen ready to explode inside her. HeÕs not wearing a rubber, nor does he need to. The magazine ad and screening process assured that we were all free from disease, all diseases. So we can all fuck, and be fucked, without any fear. I watch with wonder as his massive tool slides in and out of my wifeÕs pussy. SheÕs already raised her legs far into the air to get as much of his rod inside her as possible. The lips of her pussy pucker in and out as he goes at her, as if her cunt is stretched to the limit. She has a dazed look of ecstasy on her face, and she exhorts him to fuck her harder, harder, harder, her grin widening as he complies. Finally he stiffens, and I know heÕs hosing her insides with his seed, spurt after spurt splashing against her cunt walls. He pulls out then, and I look to my Mistress for instructions. Him? Or her? She gestures to her cunt and I slide my face between her legs. The scent of his cum and her juices is heady and overwhelming. Without waiting for a prompt I shoot my tongue into her hole. Her cunt is so full the cum seeps back out around my tongue. I lap it up eagerly. IÕm eating another manÕs cum from my wifeÕs cunt! It tastes the same as mine. But thereÕs so much of it! With balls that big, he mustÕve shot a gallon into her. IÕve cleaned her out in a couple minutes, and then turn back to him. HeÕs watched the whole thing from a seat nearby. His cock is nearly flaccid, though he hasnÕt wiped the excess jism from the shaft. My Mistress told him thatÕs my job. I kneel before him, playing the part of the submissive slave. I take his cock back into my mouth and suck off the mixture of juices and cum. IÕm willing to serve both of them, in any way necessary. My Mistress pushed me away, this time looking satisfied with the job IÕve done. ŅGet me Number Two,Ó she orders, unstrapping the current strap-on from her waist. I fell over myself to get it to her. With luck, this means she will give me what I want, and get something for herself in the process. Rule #8: The slave shall allow himself to be fucked in the ass with the tool of the MistressÕ choice, to show that he is nothing more than a bitch, an animal to be used and abused for anotherÕs pleasure. You see, in the beginning I sold this aspect to Lynn as a kind of punishment. Punish me. Fuck me. Quickly, though, she figured out that it wasnÕt a punishment for me. It was what I wanted. It was my reward. So the session expanded into my earning the reward, and her deciding whether IÕve done enough to get it. Believe me, there are many sessions that donÕt end up with me getting fucked. Or sessions in which she gives it to me by another means, such as a vibrator or vegetable. But the ones that do end that way are the ones that keep me coming back for more. ItÕs not just the feeling of it that obsesses me. ItÕs the whole idea of it. Me, bent over, on my hands and knees, with my wife behind me, fucking me with a thick cock. Or me on my back, with my legs canted up, watching my wife slam her hard cock into me, exhibiting her ultimate power over me. Using me. Showing me who is in charge. Proving that she has the balls to bend me to her will. And me, staring up at her, watching the power fill her face. Seeing the breasts that I have teased now waving over me. Seeing the cunt that I have pounded now pounding into me. IÕm fully at her mercy at that point. She holds my manhood in the palm of her hand. Or, more accurately, at the point of her cock. Roughly, my Mistress pushed me over the arm of the couch, flipping up the skirt. Now I virtually felt like a schoolgirl, chastised and vulnerable, trembling as she awaited penetration from her boyfriend. Or her teacher. Or her drug dealer. My Mistress took the blunt end of the cock and ran it up and down my crack, teasing me with its implied power. SheÕd applied a little oil; the cool wetness left me feeling even more exposed. Suddenly it was at the hole to my anus, pressing against the muscles, insistently demanding entrance. I strove to relax, rewarded with the feeling of the head pressing inside, followed by mile after mile of the hard, thick shaft. She had me pinned then, her bitch, her fuck toy, spearing my ass with her powerful, powerful tool. I had sacrificed everything to be here: my control, my manhood, my dignity, my body. All to be used like this. I felt a great release, more powerful than an orgasm. For a short time, I had been relieved of all responsibilities. I could simply bend over and be taken. Grasping my hips in her strong hands, she fucked my ass with abandon. Her cock slammed deep into me, despoiling every inch of me. No longer was it an inanimate object. Now it was her cock, her rod, as hungry and powerful as any manÕs. And it wanted to subjugate me, to spit its seed inside my ass, as surely as the man in our fantasy would ultimately take me and use me. All for my MistressÕ pleasure. We didnÕt initially use such a thick and hefty dildo, of course. Penetration was my desire, not permanent damage. At first, my Mistress fucked me with her fingers, getting my ass used to the infiltration. Then we graduated to the handles of certain kitchen utensils, gradually increasing the thickness. Finally I was at the point where I could handle more (so to speak), and then we purchased the first dildo. But thereÕs no limit to what she can put inside me. SheÕs fucked me with carrots and cucumbers, gourds and screwdrivers. The more humiliating the object, the better it is. Sometimes sheÕll take me into my workroom, tie my hands to the rafters, and violate my ass with all manner of tools and objects, recording each successful insertion with our digital camera. At other times, sheÕll put a vibrator inside me, just as a means to torture me with the sensations. This time, though, there was nothing subtle about it. She fucked my ass with strong and sure strokes, as confident in her domination of me as any person could be. Unbidden, I begged and whispered for more, ŅOh, yes, Mistress. Please fuck me. Please fuck your little whore. Make me your bitch. Make me your fucking bitch. Fuck your whore. Fuck my tight ass. Make me be nasty for you.Ó She responded by speeding up, slamming her hips against my ass again and again. I could tell that the nub on the inside of the harness was hitting her clit just right, by the way she bent over me and drove home her big cock. My own cock was stiff beneath us, though I just couldnÕt get it to rub on the couch for a little relief. Sometimes sheÕll fuck me and give me a hand job at the same time. ThereÕs nothing to compare with the feel of shooting your load with your MistressÕ hard cock shoved up your ass. Instead, I let my mind wander to our fantasy, imagining that our big dicked stranger was laying on the couch below me, and I was mouth- fucking his cock as my wife sodomized me. I could almost feel his flesh quivering in my mouth, the blood pounding, the cock stiffening. I could only watch, helpless to stop it, as he rolled away from me and positioned himself behind her, his resuscitated cock swaying at the entrance to her pussy. And my Mistress, pushing me onto my back, moving up to straddle my face, so that IÕd have a wormÕs-eye view of his thick stick pressing inside her waiting hole. IÕm mesmerized by the sight of his wet, purple head penetrating her pussy lips, stretching the skin, finding a home inside her. Soon he begins to fuck her in earnest, and my face is quickly splattered with flecks of liquid, her red-hot juices mixed with his copious semen. ItÕs as if IÕm being blessed by the product of their passion, and I open my mouth wide to take it all in. Pulled back to reality, I felt my Mistress begin to stiffen behind me. Her orgasm was very, very close. Sometimes sheÕll simply pull out and lay on the floor, forcing me to complete the job with my tongue and fingers. Sometimes sheÕll mount me and ride my stiff cock to bring her off. This time, though, she stayed inside me, pressing herself more and more urgently against my ass. When she came, she grasped heavily at me, gouging and scratching my back and sides with her long nails, even while determined to push that big cock as far up my ass as possible. Finally she pulled away, the vacancy in my body a palpable disappointment. IÕd gotten what I wanted, and so had she. But I still hadnÕt cum yet, and my body was screaming for relief. Rule #9: The session is only over by mutual agreement, with the Mistress having the most say. It can last as long as the Mistress determines. Rule #10: The Mistress can refuse any requested session without explanation to the slave. The Mistress shall be accorded the opportunity to demand a session up to six times per year. These shall be denoted by a black chip, which will be handed to the slave. IÕd guess this stage is the same for both men and women, no matter what type of sex youÕre having. The place where one of you is perfectly sated, but the other still has something to complete. Of course, as a sex slave, I have no right to demand an orgasmic finish. And, in fact, on a few occasions my Mistress has left me to wallow in my frustration, denying me a finish either as a punishment or for her own amusement. Fortunately, this time she took pity on me. First, she directed me to grab a dinner plate from the kitchen. Seated imperiously on the couch, she first made me kneel on all fours and suck her toes, while she used a crop to whip my bare and well-fucked ass. Then I was made to kneel upright before her, while she used the same crop to smack my now throbbing nipples. Finally she let me begin to jack off, slowly dripping lubricating oil onto my hard-working hands and cock. By this time IÕd been hard and soft over a dozen times since my last cumshot, assuring that IÕd built up a huge reservoir of cum. It didnÕt take long for me to get to the edge and inform her of it. Daintily, she put the dinner plate on the floor and placed her feet on top of it. Just moments later, I shot a huge load of cum all over her feet and on the plate, my sticky seed quickly coating her ankles, feet and toes. So explosive was my orgasm that I literally swayed back and forth, my legs threatening to give out altogether. ŅLook at the mess youÕve made,Ó my wife said, lightly rapping my hyper-sensitive cock head with her crop. The mere touch sent darts of pain shooting through my system. ŅClean it up. Now!Ó The edge in her voice was a sharp as the pain sheÕd just delivered, and I fell to the floor to begin licking the viscous fluid from her feet, licking where I could, sucking it from her toes. As I did, I flashed a final time to my fantasy. The stranger on the edge of orgasm, fucking my wife from behind. Me beneath them, watching his big manhood pump in and out of her, stretching her pussy and teasing her clit. And me, reaching up to thumb her nipples as they sway above me, then reaching down to rub his big, hard balls in their tight sac as they prepare to coat her insides. But at some unseen signal from my wife, he pulls his thick, slick cock from her cunt and begins to jack it off. Pulling my eyes from the sight of the angry slit disappearing again and again inside his meaty hand, I tilt my head back to see my wife watching us lustfully, anticipating this cumshot as much as the man about to provide it. I shift my gaze back to his cock just in time to see the first spurt fly toward my face. Reflexively I close my eyes as the hot liquid splashes on my nose, cheeks and lips. When the second spurt only reaches my chin, I open my eyes to witness the rest of it splattering onto me, seemingly by the gallon, dripping into my chest hair, glops of it slowly sliding on my skin. As he squeezes the final drops onto my stomach, my wife sidles backward until her cunt is positioned over the largest pool of cum on my chest. She then sits down on me, squirming from side to side to transfer his semen onto her body. Then, inching forward, IÕm forced to lick his cum off my wifeÕs legs, thighs and pussy. With all the cum that I can still feel on my body, I know that the nightÕs not going to end until IÕve cleaned both of them of his hot, salty, viscous cum. And that my wifeÕs surely going to schedule another rendezvous with this well-hung man, so she can enjoy his big, thick dick one more time. ThatÕs what I imagined as I sucked my cum from her feet. And as she pulled her feet from beneath me and pressed my head down into the cum puddled on the dinner plate. The taste of it didnÕt matter, nor the depravity of it. I knew that I was already auditioning for the next session. And though the urgent need to be dominated had fled from my body with the onrush of cum, I knew that it would return again. It always does. The End. In Defense Page 17