Tiffany's Diaper Tales Volume I By BabyInDiapers Written 06/09/2004 Chapter 090 I woke up the next morning still in bed with mommy and daddy. I yawned and opened my eyes. My diaper was soaked and full of poo. Mommy woke up and said, "You did a poopy in your didee little baby girl." She said as she laid on her side and patted my diaper bottom. I smiled at her. "Yeah, I really had to go last night so I filled my baby pants mommy." "Well, let's go change that yucky diaper and mommy will fix you something to eat ok sweetie?" she said as she got out of bed. By this point daddy was waking up as well. I followed mommy into my room and she laid me on the bed and changed me and dressed me. "I need to stop at the store today and get more baby wipes." She said as she finished brushing my hair. "Mommy?" I said as I looked at her. "Yes baby?" "I miss Tammy." I said as I frowned slightly. "Me too honey." Mom said. We walked out to the kitchen and mommy put me in my highchair. She fixed me some cereal. I wasn't very hungry but I ate it anyway. "Don't forget mommy is picking you up from school today to go see Mrs. Woods." Mom said while sitting down at the table with a cup of coffee. "Mommy, can I bring Mr. Fluffy with me?" "Sure honey, I'll bring him along when I come pick you up." She said while taking a sip of her coffee. A while later after sitting in the rocking chair with mommy, I had to go to the bus stop. I hugged and kissed mommy goodbye and I went on my way. I saw Laura and Emily were already there. "How are you doing Tiff?" Emily asked. "I'm ok, I guess, I just miss my sister." I said with my head hung down slightly. "I know." Emily said as she hugged me. "She'll come home after things settle down some." Laura said as she also gave me a hug. "I hope so, I really miss having her around the house. It's different without her." I said. Just then the bus came and we got on and rode to school. I didn't say much during the bus ride. We got to school and I went to see Miss Megan to give her my cloth diapers that mommy had washed during the weekend. "What's wrong hun, you seem sad." Miss Megan said while changing Emily's soggy diaper." "My sister ran away this weekend. She and mommy had a fight and she left." I said while trying not to cry. After Emily was changed Miss Megan gave me a hug. "I'm sorry to hear that. I hope she will come back home soon sweetie-pie." She said while holding me and gently rocking me while running her fingers through my hair. This helped me to feel better, at least for now. We went to class after that. I couldn't really concentrate on what was going on. I spaced out a lot. I was day dreaming, trying not to think about what happened this weekend. After class my teacher called me to her desk. "Honey, is something wrong? You aren't yourself today." "My sister Tammy ran away this weekend because she had a big fight with my mommy." I said. "Oh my! Do you know where she is?" "Yeah, she went to one of her friend's house." I said. "Well at least you know she's safe then honey. I'm sure things will work out and she will be back home in no time." "Yeah I hope so." I said. "Well go on to your next class so you aren't late ok?" "Otay." I left the classroom and Emily and Laura were in the hall waiting for me. We went to our next class. I still couldn't think very much about schoolwork. But I did better than in my earlier class. In my last class before lunch I started to cry. I didn't want to, but I couldn't help it. My teacher walked with me to the office. Miss Megan heard me out in the lobby and she came out to see me. "Why don't you leave her with me for a while. I'll send her on to lunch later on." She said. "Ok, that's fine. I'll have one of her friends bring her stuff to lunch for her." "Ok." Miss Megan said. She walked with me to the nurse's office. I sat next to me on the bench. I wasn't crying as much now but I still had tears running down my cheeks. "Aww sweetie." She said while hugging me. She wiped away my tears and just held me for a while. There wasn't much she could say. Her just being there and holding me helped me to feel better. The lunch bell rang. "I'll walk you to lunch ok?" she said as we left her office and headed down towards the cafeteria. She even stayed with me in the lunch line, and sat with me at a table until Emily and Laura came over to sit down with me. "OK hun, I'm gonna go back to my office. If you need me, you know where to find me ok?" she said as she took the plastic off of my fork and opened my milk for me and put the straw in it. She then got up from the table and left. "She's so nice." Laura said with her mouth full. "Yeah." I said softly. Emily didn't say much. I think it was mostly because she didn't know what to say to make me feel better. She was there when everything happened, so she knew how it all went down. So did Laura for that matter. After lunch we wend to Mrs. Henderson's class for the afternoon. My diaper was wet but I didn't feel like getting changed. After a few minutes of class I just put my head down on my desk. I didn't feel very good. "What's wrong Tiffany?" Mrs. Henderson asked. "I don't feel good." I said. "Do you need to go to see the nurse?" she asked. I just shook my head and put it back down. She continued her lesson and just let me alone. During our first break she came over to my desk. "Do your mom to come get you?" she asked. "Yes." I said. "Ok." She said as she helped me put my stuff in my backpack and walked with me to the front office. She had the lady behind the counter call my mom. I sat in one of the chairs in the lobby with my backpack at my feet and my arms crossed in my lap. "Ok, your mommy is on the way. I have to get back to class, I hope you feel better honey." She said as she patted me on the head gently. She then left the office. A while later Miss Megan sat next to me to wait for my mommy. "I don't feel good Miss Megan." I said. "What's wrong honey?" "My tummy hurts." "It's probably because you're upset about everything. Sometimes when you're upset, it makes you not feel good." She said as she put her arm around me. I leaned closer to her and rested my head on her shoulder. A few minutes later, mommy came in and signed me out. "Thanks for sitting with her." She said to Miss Megan as she knelt down to hug me. "Mommy." I said as I started to cry again. "Aww baby what's the matter?" "My tummy hurts." I said. "Ok let's go home." Mommy said as she held my hand and walked me to the car. I sat in the front seat with Mommy. I was to big for my car seat now. So I had to sit in the seat like a big girl now. It was ok with me though, the car seat was getting to be a bit of a tight fit there for a while. We pulled into the driveway. Mommy walked with me into the house. "Do you wanna lie down?" she asked. "No." I said as I climbed into the rocking chair. "Mommy come rock me and hold me." I said. "Ok baby." Mom said as she picked me up and sat down and held me on her lap. She gently rocked me. She patted my back for a while. I turned around and laid my back against mommy. She put her hand gently on my tummy. I yawned and closed my eyes. "Honey?" "Yes mommy?" "Do you have to go number two? Maybe it will make your tummy feel better." She said while rocking me. "No, I don't have to go right now." I said. "OK, well when you do, just go in your diaper and mommy will change you." She said as she rested her hand in my lap. She gently squeezed the front of my diaper to check to see how wet it was. I was pretty squishy, but mommy didn't say anything she just let me sit there in her lap. I fell asleep for a while and then mommy woke me up. "Honey it's almost 4:00. Do you still want to go see Mrs. Woods?" she asked. I rubbed my eyes and yawned. "Yeah, I do." I said. "OK then let mommy change your diaper and we'll go ok?" "Otay." She changed me on the floor in the living room. She then went to the kitchen and fixed me a bottle of juice. She handed it to me and I sucked on it. "Go get in the car, mommy has to go potty, and then get Mr. Fluffy for ya." She said while walking down the hall. I sat in the car for a couple minutes and then mommy came out. She turned to lock the door. She had her purse on her right shoulder and Mr. Fluffy in her left arm. She got into the car and handed him to me. "Good you're all buckled and ready to go. She said while starting the car. A few minutes later we pulled into the parking lot. "Mom? Will you come with me today?" I asked. "Sure, if you want me to honey." Mommy signed me in at the counter and we were about to sit down when Mrs. Woods came down the hall. "Tiffany." She called. I got up and held my bear. Mommy followed close behind me. "Hello Mrs. Walker." She said as mommy sat on the couch next to me. "I wanted my mommy to come with me today, is that ok?" I asked. "Sure honey." She said while sitting in her chair across from us. "I see you brought Mr. Fluffy with you today." "Yeah, I wanted to bring him." I said while yawning. "So, how are you doing this week Tiffany?" She asked. I was quiet for a moment. "My older daughter, Tammy, we had a fight this weekend, and she ran off to a friend's house. Tiffany has been really upset about it, which I don't blame her. It was a hard weekend for our whole family." Mom said. "Oh I see." Mrs. Woods said. "I haven't felt good all day. I cried a lot, and my tummy hurts cuz I'm upset about everything." I said. "I know how you feel sweetie. I sometimes feel sick in my stomach when things are bothering me." She said. "So what was the fight about?" "Well, it was about my sister and her friend Kimmie." I said. "Tiffany honey? Maybe mommy should go wait outside. I want you to be able to talk to Mrs. Woods without feeling like you can't say certain things while I'm here. Do you know what I mean?" Mom said. "Yeah, but you can stay if you want to?" I said. "Well, I'll be in the waiting room. If you need me." She said. "Ok mommy." After mom left I told Mrs. Woods all about it. I told her that my sister liked girls, and that mom and dad didn't think it was right. "I don't see why mommy was so mad. She lets us wear diapers and enjoy being a baby, and that is something that a lot of people don't think is right. But she still let's us. And so now Tammy likes Kimmie and wants to be her girlfriend, and mommy got all mad at her. So did daddy." I said. "Are you angry with your mom for what happened?" "No, I mean, sort of, but not really. I don't know." I said as I held Mr. Fluffy close to me. "Well, how do you feel about what your sister is doing?" she asked. "I don't know. I mean I like boys, but I don't see why liking girls is a problem. Mommy says it's because God doesn't want people to do that. She says that's what the Bible says and what our church believes." I said. "I can see how this would create quite a problem in your family then. Your parents probably feel like they have to uphold there beliefs, even if it means having to stand there ground. I've seen this happen lots of times, where people's beliefs cause them to have differences with family members and friends. One of the most important things that you and your family can do is accept her, even if she does things that are against what you believe. Do you know what I mean?" "Yeah, but mommy says we can't compromise with sin, that we have to stand our ground. Even our pastor says that." I said. Mrs. Woods paused for a moment. "Have you ever heard the expression, 'Hate the sin, but love the sinner?'." "Yeah, but how can you do that, it doesn't make sense." I said. "Well what it means is that you can tell the person that what they're doing is wrong, and that you don't agree with it at all, thus not backing away from your beliefs, but 'loving the sinner' means that after you've told them what you think about what they are doing, that you still love and accept them as a person. So many people throw out the baby with the bath water." She said. I giggled. "What's so funny?" "Throwing out the baby with the bath water?" I said while smiling. "Yeah, another old expression." She chuckled. "Oh ok." "Honey, right now your sister is upset with your parents, and your parents are upset with her. It will take some time for them to both calm down. Then I'm sure they will talk things over and it will work out." Mrs. Woods said. "I hope so. Maybe I should tell my mommy what you told me. Maybe it will help." I said. "I would wait a couple days. Let your mom deal with her feelings first. Right now she's probably still upset, not only at your sister, but maybe even herself. She probably feels somewhat responsible for Tammy leaving." "Yeah, I kind of sensed that. I think she felt bad about yelling at her and when she slapped her, I know she really felt bad about that." I said. Mrs. Woods nodded in agreement. We continued to talk for a while. Mrs. Woods was always such a big help to me. She always had the right things to say. After talking for a while, my bowels began to move. I couldn't even control it. I just unloaded into my diaper. After I realized what was happening I blushed. I hadn't ever gone poopy in my diapers in front of Mrs. Woods before. "Honey, did you go potty in your diaper?" "Yes." I said. "It's ok sweetie. I'll go get your mommy so she can change you." She went out into the waiting room. She came back with mommy. "Hi mommy." I said while still blushing. "Hey baby. I knew you had to go poopy. What did momma tell ya." Mommy said. "You can change her in here if you want, I don't mind." Mrs. Woods said as she sat back in her chair. Mommy talked baby talk to me while changing me. After I was all cleaned up put a disposable diaper on me and then pulled my pants up. "There we go." She said as she put the cloth diaper in a plastic bag and then put that into the diaper bag. "I'm sorry, my daughter really makes a messy when she has to go." Mom said. "It's fine, it was interesting watching you two interact." She said. For the last few minutes of the appointment mommy and Mrs. Woods talked. I just sat there with Mr. Fluffy. I was glad that mommy was talking to her. They didn't talk so much about what happened, and why, and all that, they just talked about things in general. When my time was up Mrs. Woods shook mommy's hand and also gave me a quick hug. "It was nice talking to you Tonya." She said while walking down the hall with us. "Yeah, you too." Mom said. "Well I'll see you next week Tiffany." She said as she turned and walked back down the hall to her office. On the way home mommy teased me about going poopy in my diaper while at Mrs. Woods' office. "Tiffy filled her diaper up with soft mushy poopy-poo. And she's a stinky little girly too!" mom said as she giggled. "Mommy!" I said as I blushed. We pulled in the driveway. "Mommy?" "What do ya want Miss poopy droopy pants?" I blushed and then leaned over in the car seat and hugged mommy. "I love you." I said. "I love you too Tiffany." We hugged for a moment and then went inside. I laid in the playpen and fell asleep while mommy made dinner. Daddy was in his office doing some work. Teala was down for her nap. Amy and Aunt Kathy wouldn't be there for dinner because they were both working. I wondered if Tammy was at work. She usually worked Monday nights. A while later mommy walked down the hall. I heard her tell daddy that dinner was ready. She then went into my room to wake up Teala. Mommy was in there for a while. She was changing her diaper I figured. She then came back out and reached into the playpen and tickled me. "Mommy!" I said as I giggled. She reached her hands toward me and I steadied myself and then climbed out of the playpen. Since I was getting bigger now, I could get out by myself sometimes. But mommy always helped me when she was around. But that's what mommies are for. She checked my diaper before putting me in the high chair. I was a little wet. Daddy and Teala came out and helped mommy put dinner on the table. We all sat down. "Mommy can I say grace?" "Sure hun." She said while setting a hot dish on the table. She then took her seat. "Dear God, we thank you for this food. Please take care of Tammy while she's gone. Please bring her back home soon. In Jesus name, Amen." "Amen." Everyone else said. We began to eat. "Yum! This is good." I said as I ate my peas and corn. Teala must have been hungry because she gobbled her food and had a second plate. I drank my milk from my sippy cup and it slipped and I dropped it. "Oh no!" I said while leaning over in my high chair trying to reach it. Daddy wiped his hands and reached down and picked it up and set it on my highchair tray. "Thanks daddy." "You're welcome baby." As we were finishing desert I asked mommy if I could call Tammy. "Honey, why don't we give her some time to herself. As much as I'm sure she would love talking to you, I think you should wait a couple days. Ok sweetie?" "But mom!" I said. "Honey, please, I really think it's best if we wait a little while ok?" mom said while holding my hand. She then took off my bib and wiped my face. She let me down from the high chair. I left the kitchen and went to my room. I was upset because I couldn't talk to my Tam Tam. A while later mommy came into my room after finishing the dishes. "Honey, do you wanna watch a movie with Teala?" "No." I said. "Look honey, I know you miss your sister, so does your daddy and I." she said while sitting on the floor across from me. I didn't say anything. "Please don't be mad at mommy." "It's your fault she's gone!" I said as I got up and ran down the hall into Amy's room and slammed the door and locked it. I laid on the bed and cried. A few minutes later there was a knock at the door. "Go away!" I said as I put my head on Amy's pillow and screamed. "It's me." Teala said from the other side of the door. "I don't wanna talk to anyone." I said. "Ok. I just wanted you to come watch a movie with me. It's the Rug Rats one you really like." She said. "I don't care, I HATE Rug Rats!" I yelled. "No you don't, you just are mad, and I understand that. I know what its like to be mad at your mom. My mom was always mean to me and I used to get really mad at her." Teala said. "I don't care." I said as I began to cry more. "Yes you do. You're a nice person, I know you care. Look Tiff, I love you. I guess I'll go watch the movie by myself." She said. I heard her walk away from the door. I just cried even more, burying my face in Amy's pillow. After a while I quit crying. I sat up and wiped my face with my arm. I could feel how soggy my diaper was. I must have peed when I was crying and throwing my little tantrum. I felt bad for being mean to Teala. I sat there for a few minutes. Then I got up and opened the door. I walked into the hall and stood at the end. Teala turned around to look at me. She got up and walked over to me. "I'm sorry." I said as I lost it again and started to cry. She knelt down and held me. "It's ok. I love you so so much Tiffany." "I feel bad for yelling at you." I said while crying. "Don't feel bad, I know you were just mad sweetie." She took me by the hand and sat with me in our room. She handed me some tissue. I blew my nose and wiped my face. "Is mommy mad at me?" I asked. "No, but I think you hurt her feelings a little bit. But she'll be ok." "Where is she?" "She is sitting by the pool reading her Bible." Teala said. "Oh." I replied while still sniffling a little bit. Teala and I talked for a little bit. "Can I still watch the rest of the movie with you?" I said as I looked up at her. "I never started it, I was waiting for you. I knew you'd come around." She said as she kissed my cheek. We sat down and started the movie. Somewhere in the middle of the movie I heard mommy come in from out by the pool deck. She walked by the couch and went into her room without saying anything. Even though I was engrossed in the movie, my thoughts flashed back the scene in my bedroom earlier. The words "It's you're fault she left" kept echoing in my mind. I felt so bad for saying it. I just wished I could take it back. Teala noticed my sad face and she paused the movie. "Honey, why don't you go apologize to mommy. You'll both feel better. I'll wait for you to get back and then we can finish the movie ok baby?" she said. I knocked on the door. "Mommy." I said timidly, and trying not to cry. There was no answer. "Mommy, I'm sorry." I said as I began to cry. I sat down on the floor by the door and held my face in my hands. The door gently opened. I looked up at mom with tears in my eyes. She reached for me. I grabbed her hand as she helped me up. "I forgive you." She said as she picked me up. Usually mommy didn't pick me up, because I was getting to big. But this time she just held me and then took me out to the couch next to Teala and sat down with me in her lap. Mommy was crying too. "I didn't mean that. I was mad, I wish I didn't say it." I said. "Shhh. It's ok baby. I know you didn't mean to hurt mommy." She held me until I stopped crying. Mom kissed me and then set me next to Teala. "Finish your movie, and then you and Teala can have some ice cream." Mom said as she smiled. She got up and went back to her room. We heard the water running. She was taking a shower. After she came out of the shower she sat down next to us to watch the end of the movie. "Gosh this movie is so silly." Mom said. "Yeah dats why me likes it." I said in baby talk "It's cuz you're silly." Teala said. Later in the kitchen, with ice cream all over my hands and face, daddy came into the kitchen. He had gone to a bible study after dinner. "Hi girls." He said as he sat down. Mommy got him some ice cream and we sat there. We had a family prayer time after we ate. After that we sat there and talked for a while. It was good for us to all sit down and talk about everything, and how we felt about it and so on. It was past my bed time. Mommy gave me a quick bath and breast fed me and laid me in Amy's bed. They had stopped to eat on the way home so they would be home any time now. Teala read me a story and then she went to get her shower and go to bed. I lie in Amy's room alone for a while. I heard Aunt Kathy and Amy come in. I heard them talking for a while. I then fell asleep. I was awaken when the light turned on. "Oh, what a surprise. It's Tiffy!" Amy said as she sat down on the bed. "How was your day?" she asked. I yawned. "Aww, you're sleepy. I'm sorry I woke you hun." She said as she leaned down to kiss me. Aunt Kathy came in. "Amy, let's get your diapered and ready for bed." She said as she diapered her on the floor. She had just gotten out of the shower so she hadn't put one on yet. After she was diapered, she was put into her jammies. She crawled into bed and snuggled next to me. Aunt Kathy turned out the light. A while later Mommy came in and laid Mr. Fluffy on top of me. "Night mommy." I said softly. "Good night baby. I love you." "I love you too mommy." Amy was already asleep. She had a hard day's work. I was also tired. I prayed for Tammy for a while. I then turned onto my Tummy and held Mr. Fluffy. I tinkled in my diaper. After a few minutes sleep overtook me. I hadn't had a good night's sleep in a couple days but tonight I slept the whole night through.