Subject:     New Year's Resolutions 
Story Codes: nosex
Diary Date:  January 1, 2008
Author:      Kelly <pghpa_girl@yahoo.com>

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Summary
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I've never been much for New Year's Resolutions but this year should be 
so different from any other year in my life that it seems fitting to take 
a look ahead.  These aren't really in any particular order, just how they 
came out.

#1 Do all things to bring honor to God.

What more can I say about this one?  Anyone who knows me understands that 
my faith and religion are Number 1 in my life.  I believe that if 
everyone abided by this resolution we would have a much better world – 
wouldn't you agree?

#2 Honor my parents.

As one of the Ten Commandments, we all are to honor our parents and that 
is what I have always strived to do.  Second to God, my parents are the 
most important people in my life and have the biggest influence on me.  
My father is also a man, which means he has needs and desires that only 
I, as his daughter, can fulfill.  Of all my resolutions, this should be 
the easiest to keep as I enjoy pleasing him, not just sexually but in 
every way I can.  Fortunately for me, I love my dad so giving myself to 
him has never been something I looked upon as being a chore or unwelcome.  
Before anyone asks, yes, I DO believe that a father has a right to expect 
his daughter to submit herself to him totally but ONLY if he shows her 
the same love and respect in return.  Nobody has the right to hurt or 
abuse anybody, no matter what the situation or who they are.

#3 Accept myself for who I am.

This may sound a little silly but the issue of self-acceptance was 
something I have really struggled with during the past few months.  After 
leaving home to live in my own apartment I had a lot of time to think 
about who I thought I SHOULD be.  In doing so, I got caught up by who I 
thought I should be in terms of what the world expects rather than 
worrying about what was best for me.  As a result I did a number of 
stupid things which I regret today.  For instance, I quit my escorting 
job (which I loved) and applied for what turned out to be a boring 8-5 
marketing position.  My "self-revelations" created tension between me and 
my parents, especially my mom, when I accused her of using me as a 
teenager to satisfy her own desires by living out her fantasies through 
me.  Fortunately through prayer and a lot of heart-felt discussions with 
my friends and family, I eventually realized how far off the deep end I'd 
gone so now I think I'm back where I should be.

So who am I?  In short, I would describe myself as a young Christian 
woman who is looking to simply enjoy life for the time being.  I have 
strong ethics and morals.  I am loyal to my friends and family.  I 
realize that I have issues caused by sexual addictions which I am 
addressing with the help of my family.  In the meantime, I will seek 
employment where my social behaviors are acceptable rather than 
conforming to someone else's requirements.

#4 Do not pester my cousin Kristi regarding her career choices.

At first I had a really hard time dealing with Kristi quitting college 
and going to work full-time as a prostitute.  Of course, SHE doesn't call 
it that but face it, she's a whore whether she want to t admit it or not.  
It's one thing to be a slut as I don't see anything wrong with being one.  
Personally, I think most girls secretly wish they had the courage to be 
more slutty and I have never regretted for a minute anything I've done 
sexually.  However, It's quite another issue to sell yourself to someone 
without having any say in the matter.  At least as an escort I always am 
in control and get to make the final decision.  So far as sex goes, my 
goal is to enjoy myself, not to earn money.

Now I have come to terms with the fact that my cousin has different 
morals and values than me and that I really have no right to impose mine 
on her.  While I'll never be HAPPY about it so long as Kristi remains a 
whore, at least I can love her for who she is and support her in hopes 
that someday she will change her ways before anything serious happens to 
her.

#5 Do not have sex with anyone I don't want to.

This may sound strange but what it really refers to (at least for now) is 
my Uncle Jim.  Over the years I have allowed him to fuck me only because 
my dad has wanted me to.  My dad LOVES fucking my younger cousin Tammy 
and he has always felt that it was only fair that he let my uncle fuck me 
in return.  Finally this past summer we went out on the boat and I was so 
disgusted with his behavior that afterwards I finally got the courage to 
ask me dad not to make me give myself to him anymore.  Of course he said 
it was OK and I have to ask myself why I didn't do this years ago!

#6 Do not gain any more weight.

What would a list of resolutions be without something about your weight?  
Actually, I'm pretty happy where I am now but I know if I'm not careful 
that it would be easy to add a few pounds living alone with my junk food.

#7 Travel

While I tend to be a bit of a homebody, I've always dreamed of going to 
either Amsterdam or Hong Kong as both seem to be incredibly erotic and 
exciting.  If I had to pick just one, I would say Amsterdam as it would 
offer me the opportunity to realize one of my biggest and oldest 
fantasies – to be fucked on stage in front of a crows of strangers.

THE END