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\pard\plain \ltrpar\s34\cf0\qc\tx0{\*\hyphen2\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax0}\rtlch\af4\afs48\lang1081\ab\ltrch\dbch\af6\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs48\lang1033\b\loch\f4\fs48\lang1033\b {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs48\lang1033\i0\b Chapter 9}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s33\cf0\qc{\*\hyphen2\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax0}\keepn\rtlch\af4\afs60\lang1081\ab\ltrch\dbch\af6\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs60\lang1033\b\loch\f4\fs60\lang1033\b {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs60\lang1033\i0\b Christie\'92s Life:}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s33\cf0\qc{\*\hyphen2\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax0}\sa120\keepn\rtlch\af4\afs60\lang1081\ab\ltrch\dbch\af6\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs60\lang1033\b\loch\f4\fs60\lang1033\b {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs60\lang1033\i0\b A Series of Unfortunate Events}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s34\cf0\qc{\*\hyphen2\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax0}\sa240\rtlch\af4\afs48\lang1081\ab\ltrch\dbch\af6\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs48\lang1033\b\loch\f4\fs48\lang1033\b {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs48\lang1033\i0\b by knight_b_4@hotmail.com}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\sa240\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0{\rtlch\ltrch\hich\b\loch\b Story codes:}}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0  Mff, hum, les, rom, preg}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0{\rtlch\ltrch\hich\b\loch\b Author\'92s Note:}}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0   This story involves sexual activity between a variety of people, some of whom are underage. If it is illegal in your jurisdiction to read about such things, please delete this story immediately. (And know that you have my sympathies for liv
ing in such a repressive atmosphere.) This story is entirely a work of fiction; none of the events described herein actually took place (at least not to the author\'92s knowledge). The author does not condone sexual activity with minors, although he {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i does }reco
mmend most of the following if done with a consenting adult.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s35\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi283\sa240\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 This story may be posted {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i with no changes or deletions }on a free site, or the free area of a commercial site. The work is copyright 2012 by the author, and all rights are reserved.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Mom and I live in this crappy little apartment near Elm and 10{{\*\updnprop10000}\up9 th}. Know the area?\'94 I nodded. It was a pretty rough part of town. If trailer park trash moved in, the area would move up a couple of notches in social status. It wasn\'92t where the crack dealers 
and the hookers hung out, but they were only a few blocks away and probably drove through it on their way to \'93work.\'94 \'93It\'92s the\'85\'94 her lips moved as she silently counted \'93ninth place I can remember living, and the first place I can remember, I must\'92ve alread
y been 3, maybe 4.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I\'92ve never met my Dad, because even Mom doesn\'92t know which one he was. Mom\'92s a drunken slut who\'92ll fuck anything that moves.  I mean, she\'92ll fuck guys that would make Lily gag. {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i Most }of \'91em would make Lily gag. Guess I came by it naturally, huh? A genetic 
slut.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I opened my mouth to protest, but she shook her head.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 No, Harry. Don\'92t say anything, not anything at all. This is hard enough. Just let me talk.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I didn\'92t have to tell Mom I was staying at Lily\'92s last night. I didn\'92t have to tell her anything, \'91cause she never knows if I\'92m there or not and doesn\'92t care enough to check. Last night was Friday night, and that\'92s bar night #2 for Mom. She went out, got 
drunk and brought some sleaze bag home to fuck. She might\'92ve fucked a couple of guys in the parking lot first, maybe even blown one or three or a dozen in the bathroom too. Doesn\'92t matter to Mom. Keep the drinks coming and she\'92ll do anything. Sometimes, sh
e even remembers it.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 She never wanted a kid, and she\'92s let me know that for as long as I can remember. She\'92s always told me I\'92m a fucking {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i accident. }When she thinks she\'92s being funny, she calls me her {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i fucking }accident. And then she tells me to get her another drink and a beer 
for Uncle Tim. Or Uncle Fred. Or Uncle Jack. Or whoever\'92s attached to the cock she\'92s rubbing right there in front of me. I can mix a lot of different drinks, Harry, at least the ones Mom likes, and she likes variety. I had to learn how to cook on my own, b
ut Mom taught me to be one hell of a bartender. And I learned quick, Harry, \'91cause if I didn\'92t mix it just right, I did it again and again until I did, then went to bed without dinner.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 A lot of times I went to bed without dinner anyway, or maybe got a couple of crackers or some bread. Mom wasn\'92t real big on grocery shopping. And if some guy was there, little Christie got sent to her room if she\'92d eaten or not. Couldn\'92t have the fucking 
accident around while Mom got laid, now could we?\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Not that it ever bothered her much if I walked in on her. The first time it happened, I must\'92ve been about 6 and some guy had his dick shoved in her ass, pumping away for all he was worth. Mom was moaning and grunting, and had that look on her face people
 get when they\'92re about to cum- all scrunched up, looking more like they\'92re in pain than like they\'92re having a good time. I thought the guy was hurting her, so I ran up and started hitting him with this little stuffed bunny, yelling at him to quit hurting 
my Mommy. He just laughed at me and kept fucking her.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Mom, though, got pissed. She reached back and grabbed my arm and threw me across the room, so hard I slammed my head on the wall. And while I was laying there, holding my head and crying because I hurt so bad and the bad man was hurting my Mommy, she star
ted screaming at me to \'91get your fucking ass back in bed, you little cunt.\'92 I was wearing one of her old t-shirts, \'91cause pajamas cost money, and Mom always thought good booze was more important than clothes for Christie. It must\'92ve ridden up when I slid d
own the wall, \'91cause I was laying there with my legs spread and my bald little pussy out in the open. And the guy behind her looked over and said, \'91Nice cunt there, little girlie. Want me to do you next?\'92 \'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 And Mom, dear sweet Mom, told him, \'91Finish me first, you bastard. If you want the little cunt, it\'92s a hundred bucks. The big slut\'92s free, but the little slut\'92ll cost you, Rex.\'92 And she laughed. Funny how I still remember his name after all this time. That
 was the first time she said that, \'91the little slut\'92ll cost you.\'92 Wasn\'92t the last time, though. Not by a long shot. And no, Harry, Rex didn\'92t do anything to me. Guess he wasn\'92t into little girls, or blowing his load in Mom\'92s ass was enough for him. But I c
rawled back to my bed- and I mean I crawled, because my head hurt too much to stand up- and cried myself to sleep and he never came in after me.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Mom seemed to like her new phrase. Whenever I came out and found her getting fucked or sucking some guy off, she\'92d tell all of \'91em, \'91The big slut\'92s free, but the little slut\'92s a hundred bucks.\'92 None of \'91em ever took her up on it, not then at any rate, and
 by the time a couple of \'91em did, I was already fucking on my own so it didn\'92t really matter. That made Mom happy- she was finally getting some use out of her little accident.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Mom wasn\'92t all one-night stands. Sometimes she\'92d have a boyfriend for a few weeks or even a couple of months. Most of \'91em were broke ass losers who moved in to sponge off her, although a few somehow managed to get and keep jobs. Usually, they ignored me, 
other than as something that could fetch their beer or make \'91em something to eat. Some of them tried to act like they were my friend, but they weren\'92t very good actors. They really would\'92ve preferred not to deal with me, but since I was there, they at leas
t pretended to try.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 A couple of them were actually nice to me. I remember this one guy, Paul, when I was maybe 8. He was kinda bugged by the way Mom treated me. Paul bought me a few clothes, probably from Goodwill, because everything I had then was at least a size or two too
 small. He bought me a doll and some stuffed animals and some books and a couple of games, too. I think that made Mom jealous, and that\'92s why Paul didn\'92t stay around too long.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I see that look in your eye, Harry, but no, Paul wasn\'92t like that. He didn\'92t try to touch me or anything, he was just nice to me. He didn\'92t really seem interested in talking to me or being around me though. Once he\'92d given me my presents, he was kinda don
e with me, so I went back to my room, outta their way.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I spent a lot of time in my room. I\'92d probably have gone nuts if I hadn\'92t learned early on how much fun books could be. Books could take me away from whatever shithole place we were living, away from being an accident, away from Mom and her current asshol
e, away from feeling worthless and crappy.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 She sighed and was silent for a few seconds, staring at her fingers twisting around each other.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 When I was 9, we moved into this big apartment building that had a lot of other kids in it. Most of the other places didn\'92t have too many, for some reason. I don\'92t know if Mom picked those kinds of places on purpose, or if it just worked out that way, but
 I didn\'92t have too many friends growing up. Plus, since we moved so much, whatever friends I did have, I didn\'92t get to keep very long.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 The new place was better, though. There were probably 4 or 5 kids about my age, and I don\'92t know how many more older and younger. There was this girl Karen who lived on our floor, she was my age and we hit it off right away. Mom liked that, because I spen
t a lot of time over at Karen\'92s place and she didn\'92t have to have me around as much. We used to play with dolls, and play games, and giggle about the stupid boys at school. I think that\'92s the first time I ever felt almost normal.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Karen had a brother, Pat, who was two years older than me. He was really cute, and would always say Hi and talk to me for a few minutes when I went over to see Karen. I started thinking about Pat-- a lot, and wondering if he had a girlfriend, wondering if
 he could ever like me.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I found out soon enough that he did. I went over to see Karen one time, and she was off somewhere with some other friends. I don\'92t know where their parents were, but it was just Pat at home, playing some game on this old computer they had. I\'92d dressed up 
nice before I went over there, or as nice as I could with what I had. That meant jeans that were only a little too small, and a t-shirt that had been washed so many times it was almost see-through.\'94 She laughed a little, a tight, bitter laugh. \'93Lily would\'92
ve liked that t-shirt. You could almost see my nipples through it. If they could\'92ve gotten hard, they would\'92ve poked holes in it.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 But anyway, no Karen, no parents, so it was just me and Pat. And we talked for a while, and then he started telling me how nice he thought I was, and how I was his favorite of all Karen\'92s friends, and how pretty I was. You get the idea, Harry. Eleven year
s old and he was playing me, and I was eating it up. And it wasn\'92t too long before I was eating him up.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Yep, that\'92s right, Harry. I gave my first blowjob at 9 years old. I mean, Mom was my example on how you acted around guys, so I thought that\'92s just what you did for a guy you liked. I probably wasn\'92t very good at it, but it was his first too, and he sure 
liked it. And he asked me if I\'92d be his girlfriend, but I\'92d have to be his {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i secret }girlfriend, because Karen would get mad if she found out.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 And I bought it. I was a stupid little kid and I thought I was in love and for the first time in my life I thought someone actually cared about {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i me, }the fucking accident.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I started looking out the window to see if Karen was outside playing, and if she was, I\'92d go down to their apartment and pretend to be surprised she wasn\'92t home. But Pat would ask if I wanted to play a game or some other excuse, and we\'92d go into his room 
and he\'92d stick it out of his pants and I\'92d blow him or he\'92d stick his hand down my pants and we\'92d have a little fun. He was too young to squirt, so we never had to worry about a mess to try to hide. His Mom was there a lot of the time, but she never caught
 us. Sometimes, he\'92d come down to my apartment while Mom was working or passed out on the couch and we\'92d actually get naked and do it.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 It wasn\'92t too long before he asked if he could put it in me, \'91just to see how it feels\'92. I didn\'92t care; I loved him, it must feel good because Mom liked to do it so much, so I said yes. And it wasn\'92t too bad. He wasn\'92t too big, and I didn\'92t even bleed. Do
n\'92t know if I was lucky or maybe just didn\'92t have much of a cherry, or if maybe it\'92d popped some other way. But my first time didn\'92t hurt at all, and after he moved it around a little, it started feeling pretty good. It didn\'92t last long enough, though; aft
er shoving it in and out a few times he pushed hard, held it there while he groaned, and then pulled out. I wanted him to put it back and keep going, but he was limp and made some lame excuse and left.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I felt good about it, though. I knew I\'92d made him feel good, and he\'92d kissed me before he left, so I thought I was a good little girlfriend.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 We fucked a few more times before I caught him behind the dumpster kissing Kim Fisher, a girl in his grade. I started yelling at her to leave my boyfriend alone, and you know what he did, Harry?\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I shook my head. I was so numb with pain at this point I couldn\'92t have talked if I wanted to. I was hurting so badly for Christie, and I think I was crying, too.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 He laughed, Harry. Told me I wasn\'92t his girlfriend, just some dumb little whore who sucked his cock and fucked him. A whore just like my mother, and he wanted a cool girl for a girlfriend. And Kim laughed at me, too, and said,\'94 and Christie drew a deep sh
uddering breath, \'93and said, \'91Go away, little whore, and leave my boyfriend alone.\'92 And she kissed him, and he told me to go the fuck away.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 They call it puppy love, but a puppy can hurt just as much as a big dog. I cried for hours. And when I finally came out of my room, there\'92s Mom on the couch, one guy\'92s cock in her mouth, one in her pussy. And I thought it was {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i so }unfair that she got to hav
e two guys when I couldn\'92t even have one.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Pat had a friend, Josh, and Josh came up to me a couple of days later and said he\'92d heard I liked to fuck, and did I want to fuck him? And that\'92s when it hit me, Harry. I was a {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i fucking }accident, so the only way anyone would like me was if I fucked them, l
ike Mom did. That\'92s how she got guys to like her, so I guessed that was the only way they\'92d like me. So I decided to be just like her.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 So I said yes to Josh. I said yes to his friend Adam, too. And his friend Ryan. And a bunch of other friends and guys he didn\'92t know and even a couple of girls who wanted to get their rocks off but weren\'92t ready for boys yet. And so little Christie the fu
cking {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i accident }became little Christie the {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i fucking }accident. \'91Cause when they want to get into your pants, even if they know you\'92ll make it easy for them, they tell you they like you and they tell you you\'92re sexy and they make you feel, just for a little wh
ile, like you matter. Like maybe they care, even when you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i know }all they care about is their cocks and cunts.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 It wasn\'92t too long after that that Mom finally got her first taker on her hundred dollar special on \'91the little slut\'92. It was maybe a month or so after I turned 10, and he was some scrawny little guy, not Mom\'92s usual type at all. Mom likes \'91em big and bee
fy. I was watching TV when they came in, drunk as shit and pawing all over each other. And they weren\'92t inside 10 seconds before Mom had his cock in her hand, and I saw why she picked him up- he was hung like a horse. To this day, that\'92s the biggest cock I
\'92ve ever seen. I mean, I know I was only 10 but I\'92d already seen a lot of cocks, and this sucker was {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i huge.\'94}}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s36\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi283\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 When they finally noticed I was there, the guy said, \'91Is that the little cunt you were talking about?\'92 Mom took her mouth off his cock long enough to make her \'91big slut/little slut\'91 joke, and when she started to suck him again, he stopped her and said he\'92
d take it. Mom whined for a while about didn\'92t he want her instead, how she wanted his big dick so bad, but he told her he\'92d do her after. When he pulled the money out of his wallet, Mom shut up. She told me to take him to my room and do whatever he asked.
 He\'92d paid for me, and I was gonna make him happy or she was gonna make my life hell. Yeah. Like it could get worse.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Even with all the fucking I\'92d already been doing, there was no way that thing would fit in my 10-year-old pussy. He tried. Oh God, did he try, until I wanted to scream from how much it hurt. But I didn\'92t. Maybe Mom would use a little of the money to get m
e a pair of pants that fit, or maybe she might remember to buy food. But even if she didn\'92t, she\'92d be really pissed if I screwed this up, so I just laid there and cried while he tried ramming it into me.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 When the stupid asshole finally caught a clue that it wasn\'92t going in, he yanked me up by the arm so I was sitting on the bed, stood next to it and tried to shove his cock down my throat. Hell, I couldn\'92t even get the head in my mouth, it just wouldn\'92t op
en that wide. I was still crying, and he just grabbed the back of my head and tried to force it in. I couldn\'92t get my mouth around it, but I could tongue it, and I licked that thing as fast and hard as I could. I wanted him to cum so he\'92d quit hurting me. 
But it didn\'92t work. My tongue wasn\'92t good enough for him, so he finally quit trying.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 So he did the only thing left. He had me get up on all fours and shoved his cock up my ass. First time I\'92d had a cock in my ass, and the bastard didn\'92t even bother spitting on it first, and I hadn\'92t got it all that wet with my mouth. It hurt. Oh my {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i god, }h
ow it hurt. And I didn\'92t say anything. I just cried. He grabbed me around the waist and started yanking me back and forth, pretty much just using my ass to jerk himself off.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 That was my first time to get paid. 10 years old and I was officially a hooker. It\'92s enough to make a mother proud. But Mom wasn\'92t proud enough to share the money. She got booze for a couple of days, and some pizza she shared with her guy-of-the-night but
 not me. Probably got some other stuff too. But Christie got bread and a stale Twinkie for dinner, and wore the same old torn jeans for another three months, before they finally ripped so bad even Mom knew I couldn\'92t wear \'91em any more.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 By the time I was 11, Mom was whoring me out every 2-3 weeks or so. She\'92d even got to the point of calling me out of my room and asking \'91em if they wanted me, before she\'92d even done anything with \'91em. She liked the money, and if it was a choice, she\'92d be 
happy to take the money instead of getting fucked. After all, she could always go back to the bar and find someone else to fuck her.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 And it\'92s been like that ever since. I fuck guys and girls for free, because I want to, and Mom\'92s guys because she gets money for me. I don\'92t have a {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i clue }who this kid\'92s father is. I\'92m usually pretty careful about condoms, but sometimes I like it bareback s
o I don\'92t. Picked the wrong time once, and now the fucking {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i accident }has her own little {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i fucking }accident. And I\'92m gonna try my best, but I\'92m probably gonna screw it up like I\'92ve screwed up everything else, and this poor kid\'92ll wind up as fucked up as his mo
ther and grandmother.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 She stopped, tears rolling down her face but head up, fingers laced together on the table in front of her. And she just cried and breathed deeply for a few minutes. And I couldn\'92t talk, couldn\'92t move, couldn\'92t sweep her up in my arms and just hold her and 
hug her and never let her go.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You remember the night we went to Murray\'92s? When I finally got home, Mom was pissed as hell at me. I\'92d just had such a wonderful evening with you, and she\'92s waiting for me with another \'91customer\'92 for me to fuck, some guy who\'92d done me before and wanted so
me more of the pregnant kid. I had to fuck the guy then suck him off for his second cum. And while the guy was cumming in my pussy and mouth, Mom drank herself stupid and passed out on the couch.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I wanted to puke, Harry. Puke up that guy\'92s cum and puke up all the other shit I\'92ve had to swallow. After a while, I went into the kitchen to get something to eat, just to get the taste of his cock out of my mouth. All we had was some moldy cheese. I went
 to the knife drawer and when I opened it, right on top was this big butcher knife. And I picked up that knife and I just stood there, for a long time. I thought real seriously about just cutting my throat and putting an end to all the shit. And I walked i
nto the living room, stood over Mom for a while and thought real seriously about just cutting {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i her }throat. I\'92m still not sure why I didn\'92t do either, but I finally cut the mold off, ate some of the cheese and went to bed, and laid there for a long time thin
king how nice it\'92d be if I just died in my sleep.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Christie shuddered and took a deep breath.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 So that\'92s the story of my life, Harry. Pretty fucked up, huh? So now you know. I\'92m screwed up, I\'92m a hooker, and I\'92m so not good enough for a nice guy like you. I\'92ll just get dressed and go home and you\'92ll never have to see me again. But thank you for one
 of the best times in my life, and I\'92ll never forget you.\'94 She put her hands on the table and started to push herself up.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 SIT THE FUCK DOWN!\'94 I roared, and shocked both of us. Christie\'92s head snapped up and she stared at me, scared, but she slowly sat and put her hands on the table and just watched me. I was breathing hard, and I\'92m sure my face was red, and I have never, eve
r in my life been as angry as I was right then.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I tried to say more and couldn\'92t. You\'92ve heard the phrase, \'93incoherent with rage\'94? I was so far beyond that I couldn\'92t see it with a telescope. So we sat there for a while and I tried to push the rage down far enough that I could talk. And while I was work
ing on that, I was picturing all the things I\'92d like to do to Christie\'92s mother, and most of them even the Spanish Inquisition would have rejected as too extreme.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I finally took a deep shuddering breath and managed to force some words out. I spoke low and slow and may even have managed to sound calm, although I was far from it.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You are {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i never }going home- no, you are never going back to {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i hell }again. Even if I have to kill that cunt so you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i can\'92t, }you are NOT GOING BACK THERE.\'94 Christie jumped again when I shouted and slammed my fist on the table, and I could see fear in her eyes. I 
hated the idea she was afraid of me, but I was furious and couldn\'92t stop.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 My dearest, darling Christie. Don\'92t you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i ever again }tell me you\'92re not good enough for me, not even as a joke. I don\'92t {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i care }if people have paid to fuck you. I don\'92t {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i care }how many people have fucked you for free. Or been blown by you, or eaten you, or screw
ed your ass, or any other {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i goddamned }thing they could do with you, because it doesn\'92t fucking goddamn {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i matter.\'94 }I was breathing hard, and my voice was starting to rise, so I took deep breaths and tried to calm down.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You are truly an awesome and amazing person, you know that?\'94 She looked skeptical at that and opened her mouth, but this time {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i I }told {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i her }to just shut up and listen.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You don\'92t think so? Then let me ask you something. You get drunk a lot?\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 She shook her head, started to say something, then just shook her head again.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You like to smoke pot or take pills? I know you don\'92t do needles, \'91cause I\'92ve seen you naked.\'94 She gave a weak grin, but shook her head.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You ever ask anybody to pay you if they wanted to fuck you? Not your mother, but you yourself. Ever get paid by somebody other than your mother\'92s guys?\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Again, a head shake, hard and emphatic.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You steal from stores, grab money from a guy\'92s pants when he\'92s not looking, take things when you visit a friend\'92s house and then sell them?\'94 Emphatic shake.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 And you don\'92t understand why you\'92re awesome and amazing?\'94 Puzzled shake.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Because you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i don\'92t }do any of those things. My God. With all the shit that\'92s been done to you, you should be so fucking bitter and angry\'85\'94 I held up my hand as she opened her mouth, \'93and yes, I know you are, but not by half as much as you ought to be. Not n
early half. You have been abused since the day you were born, and mental abuse is worse because bruises eventually heal. You have been fucked over so bad, you ought to be spending most of your time drunk or high so it doesn\'92t hurt so much. You should have 
given in and started charging because, hey, if you\'92re going to do it, you might as well get something out of it. You should be stealing clothes and CDs, ripping guys off while they\'92re laying there recovering from a good fuck, stealing from your friends, an
ything to get a little money and get everything you can however you can because the world fucked you over so the world fucking owes you.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93 \'91}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Cause that\'92s what most people would do, Christie. They\'92d have said, \'91fuck it!\'92 a long time ago and just started grabbing everything they could get for themselves, and saying \'91fuck the rest of the world.\'92 And you\'92re not like that. Because somehow, some w
ay, through a pile of bullshit bigger than a mountain, you\'92ve miraculously managed to stay a decent person. People have fucked you over one after the other, and you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i don\'92t get even by fucking over others. }You reached out to people and got kicked in the teet
h every time, but you {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i kept reaching. }You didn\'92t give up and you finally got lucky enough to reach out to Lily and then her family, and you found a little of the caring you wanted. And now you\'92ve got me, and you\'92ve found all the love and caring you could ev
er want, {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i if }you\'92ll let me give it to you.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I told you that, Christie, remember? I said I couldn\'92t imagine you telling me anything so ugly it would make me stop loving you. And boy,\'94 I laughed bitterly, \'93I couldn\'92t have imagined anything t{\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i his }ugly, alright. But it doesn\'92t make me love you less. It 
makes me hurt, for that poor little girl who got called a fucking accident when she should\'92ve been called a fucking blessing. It makes me mad. I want to bitchslap Pat and his little buddies, and I want to put my foot up the ass of every son of a bitch who 
ever paid to fuck you, and I want to choke the living shit out of your mother until her eyes pop out and her head explodes, but I do NOT\'94 I was shouting again \'93EVER want you to think that you\'92re not good enough for me and have to leave.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I finally remembered how to walk, so I got out of my chair and knelt at Christie\'92s feet. She pulled back, still looking scared, so instead of grabbing her arms the way I wanted to, I just rested my hands on her thighs.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 You\'92ve made it through now, you\'92re safe. You\'92ve put up with the worst fucking horseshit for your entire life, but now I\'92m going to help you get out of it. Somehow, some way. Yea, though you\'92ve walked through a valley of bullshit, you need fear no more evi
l, for Harry is with you.\'94 She managed a small grin at that. \'93Because I\'92m going to help you to- well, I guess you probably won\'92t ever {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i forget }all that, but I\'92m going to try to make it hurt a lot less. And I\'92m going to show you how sweet it can be when someo
ne {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i really }cares about you, {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i you-\'94 }and I jabbed my finger at her chest \'93and not how good a fuck you are.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Her eyes were big and shiny now, and her lip trembled, but she still managed to sound bitter.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 That would be so nice, Harry. But I\'92m 13. I can\'92t just tell Mom to go fuck herself and leave. If Mom wasn\'92t getting money out of my ass she probably wouldn\'92t care. But she likes that extra cash, and if the cops come to take me back, they\'92ll take you away.
 And I can\'92t let that happen to you. I\'92ve gotta go home.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Drop that!\'94 I ordered sternly. \'93Drop it right now. That shithole was never a home, and quit thinking you have to go back to it because that\'92s not even an option anymore. I meant it. If I have to kill your mother to keep you away from her, I will. And I\'92ll
 go to jail, and you\'92ll get stuck in foster care, but no matter how much foster care sucks, it can\'92t be as bad as living with that cunt.\'94 I paused and took a deep breath.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch \'93}{\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 I know what else you being 13 means, too, Christie. It means that after a little while you\'92ll probably decide you\'92re tired of me and want someone else, someone younger and better.\'94 I held up my hand when she tried to talk. \'93And don\'92t say anything, because
 you don\'92t know the future. Maybe some day you really will be Mrs. Potter. And maybe some day I\'92ll walk you down the aisle and give my darling Christie\'92s hand to another man, for him to have and to hold forever after. And if that\'92s your choice, I\'92ll do my 
best to be happy for you. Christie, this is your home- a {\rtlch\ltrch\hich\i\loch\i real }home- for as long as you want it, on whatever terms you want it. If you want me to be your lover, I\'92ll do that and be overjoyed. If you want me to be your father, or your big brother, or your fr
iend, or something else, I\'92ll be that, too, and be happy. I just want you to stay here until you\'92ve had time to heal, time to grow up, time to learn how to face the world on better terms than you\'92ve had to face it so far. Because I love you. And I want you
 to be happy, with me if possible, without me if it\'92s not. But you can always call this place home.\'94}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 She started crying again then, and pulled me into a tight hug. We stayed there so long my bare knees started to hurt from the linoleum, but I ignored them. The pain wasn\'92t much compared to the pain Christie was releasing, finally, into me.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 Shared pain is halved, or more.}
\par \pard\plain \ltrpar\s3\qj\tx360{\*\tlswg8236}\tx720{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1080{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1440{\*\tlswg8236}\tx1800{\*\tlswg8236}\tx2160{\*\hyphen3\hyphlead2\hyphtrail2\hyphmax2}\aspalpha\li0\ri0\lin0\rin0\fi360\rtlch\af4\afs22\lang1081\ltrch\dbch\af5\langfe2052\hich\f4\fs22\lang1033\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033 {\rtlch \ltrch\loch\f4\fs22\lang1033\i0\b0 We wound up in the living room. I sat at one end of the couch, and she curled up and rested her head on my lap. We sat there for a long time, silent, my hand stroking her, her hand resting on my leg. And while we sat, the glimmers of a plan started to form
. And I chased after it while it darted this way and that, until it finally became solid enough that I could grab it and start to build it up into something workable.}
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