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My Seven Sins
Chapter 3: Gluttony
(MF, college, alcohol)
I was in no rush the next morning, as my drive was even
shorter than the previous one. So I did not pull myself out of bed
until about 9 o'clock. Halfheartedly, I texted Lizzie to see if she
wanted to meet for lunch. Knowing how busy she was, I did not
check my phone until after I had worked out for an hour. The
response was as expected, thanking me for everything the night
before, but saying that she was very busy. So instead, I loaded
my car and drove a few miles to the university where Lizzie and I
had graduated. I found the half-diner, half-restaurant at which
we had gone on our first date and toasted her with a glass of
orange juice while eating my bacon and eggs.
It was early afternoon when I got on the road to my next
destination, Youngstown, Ohio. I had never been there before,
but it had been the hometown of the next major woman in my
life, Heather Long. In a way, it was going to be the strangest of
the meetings. We had never been a real couple, not even really
friends. Instead, we were buddies who had more of an
understanding. It was getting towards the end of college, so
neither of us was looking for anything serious. However, we were
both young and had needs.
I had spent all of the first semester, and most of the second
semester of my junior year ambivalent towards dating. I do not
know whether I needed time by myself after things ended with
Lizzie Franchini, or whether I realized that with other priorities in
my life, trying to start a serious relationship would be foolish. But
as the weather began to get warmer and the spring days got
longer, I decided that I was ready to at least have some fun.
In a way, Heather and I had met the day it became clear
that I should not be serious with anyone for the rest of college. It
was the middle of April, and I had just been offered a job from a
tech company based in Chicago. I would work in the small
Pittsburgh office over the summer, and then after graduation, I
would be guaranteed a job at their headquarters. There would
even be a stipend for my senior year, and a token signing bonus.
Though the check had not arrived, I decided my friends and I
would celebrate anyway.
A couple of my friends were still underage, so we decided to
go drinking at one of the underage bars. It was a dark, smoky
establishment just around the corner from campus. It was not
really known as a hook up joint, you are much more likely to see
somebody puking on the floor than people making out. However,
I was feeling particularly adventurous, and so I started talking to
a girl wearing a heavy metal T-shirt at the table next to us.
Heather was not the most attractive girl I had ever met and
we did not have much in common, but from when we started
talking, I saw that she had a "fuck the world" attitude that I really
enjoyed. Eventually, I ended up ignoring my friends and listening
to her cynical take on just about everything from music to
politics. And as we drank, she got more attractive.
I do not remember asking her to go home with me that
night, but my buddies maintained that I did. Luckily, they draged
me out of there before she could say yes. Unluckily, I ran into her
a few days later on campus.
We ended up having lunch together on a Friday. She was
back to not being close to attractive. She was short and fat, with
scraggly red hair. Her natural expression was a scowl, and she
constantly stank of cigarette smoke. Normally, I would have run
screaming. However, her refreshingly negative attitude left me
laughing most of the time. I do not know whether I was laughing
at her or the sarcastic comments she made about just about
everything, but I decided it might be interesting to hang out
together. So I gave her my phone number and told her to call
some time.
It was the typical dead Sunday night when she called two
days later. Pretty much everybody I knew was either recovering
from a hangover or preparing for classes the next day. So when
she invited me to come over for a beer, I decided that I would
give it a try.
When I knocked on the door of her off-campus apartment,
she greeted me wearing a super long, beat up black T-shirt. As
she led me into the smoke-filled haze, I noticed three empty beer
cans sitting on a table next to her bed. In general, the apartment
was kind of nasty. The sink was filled with dirty dishes. There was
clothing thrown all over the floor. The mismatched sheets on the
bed looked as if they were rarely changed.
Rather than sitting on the bed, I sat down on the floor as
Heather went to get a beer for me. I tried to be polite and not
show my disgust with her room by playing it off as feeling rude if
I sat on a girl's bed uninvited. Luckily, she seemed to accept that.
In the time it took me to drink my one beer, Heather had
drunk two more. I could tell she was tipsy as she swayed side to
side a little bit while she talked. Normally, I would have thought
somebody would be drunk after five beers, but this girl was able
to carry on a coherent conversation which greatly impressed me.
However, after about an hour I started feeling tired and excused
myself to leave.
Before I could stand up, Heather was on top of me. With a
force more like a football tackle than a hug, she knocked me to
the ground and straddled me. Then leaning over, she started to
kiss me while she dry-humped me through her clothing. Though
her mouth tasted like cigarettes and beer, it had been so long
since I had been physical with somebody other than myself, I was
immediately excited. In a minute, I was an active participant
thrusting my hips up against her.
Though Heather may not have had the most attractive body,
she knew how to use it well. After we had wrestled off all her
clothes except my boxers and her panties, she hung her
enormous breasts, over my mouth. At her direction, I squeezed
her breasts together so I could suck on both nipples at the same
time. While I did that she moaned in a way that neither Carly nor
Lizzie ever had. This was not playful teenage sex, it was adult
fucking.
After a few minutes, Heather crawled her way backwards
down my body. With no gentleness, she pulled off my boxers and
took me into her mouth. When Lizzie had given me blowjobs,
they were slow and sultry, more foreplay than an act unto
themselves. Heather did not care. She seemed perfectly willing to
go to completion, as she would take me deep in her mouth,
almost to the point where she would gag. Then, she would slowly
slide off of me and worked around the head with her tongue. She
even let me grab the back of her head and move it at a pace I
liked.
I was ready to come in a woman's mouth for the first time,
when Heather pulled off. She did not even bother looking at the
disappointment on my face, but instead asked if I ever came
inside of a woman before. When I said that I had, she specified if
I ever came inside a woman without a condom. The one time I
been with Carly and every time I been with Lizzie, I had worn
one, so I did not even think about the ramifications when I told
her that I had not, but I would like to do it.
Without a word, Heather grabbed my cock. Holding it
straight upwards, she slid herself down on top of it. It was warm,
wet, and slippery-like nothing I had ever felt before.
Immediately, I decided that I hated condoms and that as long as
she would let me, I would fuck Heather just like this.
As Heather began to rock herself back and forth, I could feel
her wiry pubic hair cutting through mine. It was not the most
pleasant feeling, but the feeling of being inside a woman the way
nature meant it to be, more than made up for a little bit of
scratching. In fact, the new feeling and her skill with her body,
made up for any possible imperfection Heather might have. All I
knew was that I wanted to keep fucking he, just like this.
It was not that long before I was shooting inside of Heather,
harder than I ever shot before-harder than with Carly, harder
than with Lizzie, or harder than any time by myself. The feeling of
my sperm disappearing inside of her, instead of collecting in a
balloon around my penis, was exhilarating. I even pulled Heather
down and kissed her again.
I had never thought about the possibility of getting Heather
pregnant, but as we lay naked on the floor, breathing heavily
from the exertion, I began to get worried. When I said we should
have used something, she laughed and said that she was on the
pill, but had not had sex in a long time anyway. She did not think
guys found her that attractive. As I put my clothing back on and
got ready to leave, Heather said that she hoped we could do it
again. I sincerely told her that I would definitely be back.
Through the rest of the semester and over the summer,
Heather and I met up often. We never went out on a date and
never even acknowledged each other in public. I was afraid my
friends would be upset that I was fucking the woman they tried to
get me away from. A few times a week, when one of us was
horny, though, either Heather or I would call the other. Then we
would get together and have the same hot sex. The only
stipulation was that I needed to bring alcohol with me.
Heather was already a more experienced drinker than I was.
In addition, I never drank enough so that I would not be able to
do my schoolwork the next day. So needless to say, she always
drank more than I did. The worst part, though, was that once she
started drinking, Heather did not stop. It did not matter whether I
brought a six-pack of beer, or a bottle of whiskey. Inevitably, I
would drink a little and she would drink a lot.
I did not really care, though. I was having great sex
whenever I wanted it, and the woman was asking for nothing
more than beer in return. Though during the summer my job kept
me busy enough that we only saw each other about once a week,
when the fall semester restarted I had money to spare, and was
ready to have sex every night.
Deep down I must have known something was wrong
because first I stopped bringing liquor. And then instead of a six-
pack of beer, it became a four-pack of sickeningly sweet malt
beverages. We both found them disgusting, but Heather drank
them all anyway. Occasionally, I tried going by without any
alcohol, but Heather never really seem to be in the mood those
times. So as the semester wore on, I continued to enable her.
And then after Columbus Day weekend, she was gone. When
I had gone to her apartment on Friday night, she seemed worried
about something. However, after a couple of drinks, she was bent
over her bed as I pounded away behind her. As I was leaving that
night, I made an offhand comment about seeing her later in the
weekend. Rather than telling me to call her if I wanted to come
over, like she normally did, she said she would get back to me.
When I got back from going out with my friends the next
night, I gave her a call, but her answering machine picked up.
That was odd. Heather did not really have many friends, so she
was usually available any time I called. Disappointed, I chalked it
up to a freak event and went to bed. When I called again on
Sunday, the phone just continued to ring. I tried again Monday
and Tuesday night. By Wednesday night a message said her
phone had been disconnected. The next Saturday I finally went
by her building only to see an empty apartment with industrial
fans trying to blow out the cigarette smell.
On one hand, I was furious that Heather had taken off
without telling me what was going on. On the other hand, I had a
deep seated feeling that I may have had something to do with it.
However, I concentrated on finishing the semester and preparing
for my last few months in Pittsburgh. When spring semester
started, I sought out a few people that I knew were
acquaintances with Heather. None of them knew what was going
on either, though a few had mentioned they thought her drinking
was a problem.
January became February, which became March, and soon
enough I could see the end of my college career. At the same
time, I had to finish one of my most difficult semesters in college,
wrap up loose ends in Pittsburgh, and spend several weekends in
Chicago looking for a place to live. There was no room in my
mind for a friends-with-benefits relationship with Heather long,
and so she passed out of my mind.
* * *
Often, Youngstown, Ohio is the punchline of a joke.
Occasionally, it gets listed as one of the depressing Rust Belt
towns were nothing really happens, good or bad. However, for
me, the city had a bit of charm. It reminded me of my hometown,
if you added about 65,000 more people. Two days ago I may
have had a different opinion, but after seeing Carly and the
potential of the town where she had stayed, I thought that
eventually something good would have to happen to this town
too.
Until a few years before, there had been a club affiliated
with mine in the downtown. Unfortunately, it had gone bankrupt
and I had to find a hotel at which to stay. As the city was not
famous for its great hotels, I ended up staying at one just off the
highway. It was not the kind of place at which I would have
preferred to stay, but at least it had a workout room and a
swimming pool.
Heather was to be the third women I met on the trip. Unlike
Carly and Lizzie who there may have been a vague thought that I
could have had something with in the future, I was only really
interested in seeing her so I could understand what happened
back in college. I needed to see if her disappearance did indeed
have something to do with me. I did not think about it a lot, but
when I did I usually felt a twinge of guilt.
As I drove clear across Youngstown to meet at a random
diner, I thought about how different my contact with Heather had
been. Where is Carly and Lizzie had kept up at least a little
conversation with me before we met, this woman's approach had
been much different. When I found her on Facebook and said I
was going to be traveling across the country and would like to
see her, there was no immediate response. About two weeks
later, right as I had given up hope of hearing from her, I received
a message telling me that she was back in Youngstown and would
like to know when I was coming through. After giving her my
travel dates, she said she would meet me on one condition. We
would meet at a diner for coffee and that was all. All in all, I had
a bad feeling about it.
When I got to the diner, I told the hostess that I was there
to meet somebody. Surprisingly, she seemed to know for whom I
was waiting. After telling me that the person I was waiting for
was not there yet, she led me to a table. Where I expected a
small intimate booth, I was led to a table set up for four. I sat
down, ordered coffee, and waited.
About 10 minutes later, Heather walked in. She was older
and the years had not treated her well. Though we were the
same age, I could see the wrinkles on her face and some gray
streaks in her red hair, which was pulled back in a ponytail
behind her. There was one improvement, though. She was much
thinner than she had been in college, which looked amazing in a
tailored business suit.
I had not noticed the older woman who had come in with
Heather, but when the hostess pointed to where we were a very
matronly looking woman followed her with a hand on my old
lovers shoulder as if to give reassurance. I stood as they
approached the table, half expecting a hug or at least a
handshake. However, when the two women got to the table, they
simply said hello and sat down. There was definitely tension as
we sat across from each other in awkward silence for a few
minutes.
The small talk at the beginning of the conversation was brief
and consisted only of Heather asking me how my drive was and
whether I had found a decent place to stay. I told her that I had
come up from Pittsburgh, so it was an easy drive and told her at
which hotel I was staying. It seemed as if that met the requisite
pleasantries, and the woman I had known many years ago
started down a path that in hindsight I should have expected.
First, Heather introduced the other woman as Dolores, her
sponsor. Immediately, I realized why she had left college. I
should have seen the signs all those years ago. The entire time
we had our relationship, she had been an alcoholic. And in
exchange for sex, I brought it almost whenever she wanted it. My
heart sank.
I do not know if Heather could tell how I felt, because she
pulled a piece of paper out of her jacket pocket and unfolded it.
After telling me that Dolores had helped her get it into the right
words, she started to read. She told me that she had started to
drink at parties when she was in high school. By the time I had
met her, she had already developed a problem. She did not drink
every night, but when she did she could not stop. When we met,
she was already barely hanging on. She had not found me
interesting or particularly attractive, but she thought that I might
be able to get her alcohol when she did not have enough money
to get it herself. So she used sex so that I would buy her what
she needed. At the same time, when she was unable to go to
class because of her hangovers, she blamed me. Finally, her
parents and brothers had come down that Columbus Day
weekend to take her home. She had already been suspended for
the semester and they knew she was on a destructive path. After
she left college, she blamed me for ruining her life. For years, she
was unable to hold a job or do anything other than drink. But 12
years ago after her last boyfriend threw her out on the streets,
she realized she had hit rock bottom. Homeless and scared, she
walked into an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. She had not had a
drink in over 10 years. She was afraid that by telling me this, I
might blame myself, at least for part of what happened, but she
did not want me to. She had gone back to college, and was now a
licensed clinical social worker, specializing in drug and alcohol
recovery. She had a good life, a good job, and a supportive
network of friends that helped keep her sober. Finally, she
wanted to make amends to me first for taking advantage of me in
college, for blaming me for her own weakness, and for hurting
me, just in case I was blaming myself now.
I was speechless, not because I was surprised at what
Heather had told me. Rather, I was surprised that she did not
blame me for being her supplier. It seemed as if she was telling
me that everything was her fault all along. Though she tried to
stop me, I told her that I was sorry too. Deep down, I had known
that something was wrong. I explained that I had at least
subconsciously made the decision to reduce the amount of
alcohol I was bringing, but I kept bringing it because I wanted the
sex. I assured her that I had not even considered she was using
me, because I was focused on how I had been using her.
The mood lightened enough that Heather offered her
condolences for my late wife that she had read about on my
Facebook page. She thanked me for meeting with her. Then she
and Dolores excused themselves to go to a meeting. As I sat
alone with my coffee, wondering what I should do with the rest of
my evening, the hostess came by and told me that the coffee was
on the house. Furthermore, the women were regular customers
and had told me they would pick up the tab for whatever I
wanted for dinner. Grateful, I ordered the meatloaf.
The unfortunate thing about Youngstown is that if you are
from out of town, there is just really not much to do at night. So
after lingering over my dinner for a while I decided to take a slow
drive back to my hotel. I would go to bed early, since I had a
relatively long drive the next day. Ominously, it started to rain,
as I pulled back into the hotel.
It was about 9 o'clock and I could hear a violent downpour
outside, as I finished up my bedtime preparations. It would
already be a long drive through the endless fields of the Midwest
the next day, and the drive would be almost painful if it was
raining this hard. I was about to send out an email suggesting a
change in my travel plans to the next person I was to meet, when
I heard a knock on the door. I probably should have looked
through the peak hole or fastens the safety lock, but for some
reason I just opened the door. Standing in front of me, in the
same fitted business suit which was now soaked and hanging off
her, was Heather Long.
"Please, let me come in," she pleaded. "After seeing you
today I want to know what it feels like when I'm sober, just this
once."
I was stunned. I had not expected to see or hear from
Heather again, but here she was, somehow knowing where my
hotel room was. My body reacted and stepped aside letting her
into my room. When she had gotten all the way in, she asked if
she could take her jacket off. After I nodded, she removed it to
reveal a white blouse that clung to her chest so that I could easily
see her bra beneath. I had not expected anything, but now I
knew I wanted to have sex with her.
Thinking she might have been cold, I offered to get Heather
a towel. Looking at me directly in the eyes, she suggested a
shower might be better, and that I should get in with her.
Instinctually, I knew it would be better to let her take the lead. I
let her approach, and start to kiss me. Instead of cigarettes and
beer, her mouth tasted slightly of peppermint as if she had been
chewing gum on her way over. Gently, I slipped her blouse over
her head and unclasped her bra. My hands wandered her chest
and explored in a way I never had back in college. For her part,
Heather worked my T-shirt over my head and then pushed my
boxers to the floor. As I unzipped her skirt and let it drop to the
floor, I noticed that she was not wearing any panties. Giggling,
she whispered that she still had to have a little bit of a slut inside
of her. With that she took me by the hand and led me to the
bathroom.
As the warm water of the shower raced across our bodies,
we kissed. Standing on the tips of her toes with both arms locked
around my neck, Heather hung from me pulling her mouth to
mine as if to devour me. I held her close with one hand on her
back and one buried in her red hair, which was still scraggly after
all the years. Years ago, our bodies had pressed together often.
But then it was with either her or me on top one of us in power
over the other. In the shower, we were equals. Both of us had
made a lucid choice to be there with neither bribes nor clouded
judgment.
When we were done, we gently toweled each other off,
playfully and innocently teasing each other's bodies. Eventually, I
led Heather to the bed. Laying her down gently, I looked over her
body. Though she was thinner, she was still not the most
attractive woman I had ever seen, and the years had definitely
not treated her well. But without the smoke and booze, she
somehow looked younger and less experienced than when I had
known her in college. Back then I had used her for my own
pleasure. I had never considered how what we did affected her.
Today, I wanted to please her. I wanted to make it all about her.
I helped Heather prop herself up on the pillows, so she could
see what I was about to do. Then I slid down with my face
between her legs. The scraggly pubic hair I remembered from
college was gone. Instead, she was well groomed and trim short
enough to be clean without being stubbly. So my face did not feel
at all uncomfortable as I slowly ran my tongue up the sides of her
pussy. I teased her, coming close to her clicked before reversing
direction and working back to the bottom. Eventually, I attacked
the middle sinking my tongue deep inside of her. She gasped and
pulled my face hard against her. Then I replaced my tongue with
two fingers and worked my way back up, so I was licking her clit.
I started gently, but eventually realized that she liked firm
pressure. In a few minutes, my tongue was exhausted, but
Heather was arching her back, panting in orgasm.
After a few minutes rest, Heather said that it was my turn.
Rather than laying me down on the bed, she sat me on the side
and knelt between my legs. It was her turn to tease me. She
started at the bottom of my cock and slowly kissed her way up.
With her tongue she teased the edge of the head, before kissing
her way back down. After taking several minutes to build me to
an iron erection, she took me into her mouth. She was tentative
at first, and only worked the head. Soon enough, though, she
started to take me deeper and deeper, even gagging as she took
it into her throat. Finally, she let me shoot in her mouth. When I
finished, she had a huge smile that silently said, "Mission
accomplished".
Though I was middle-aged, I was so turned on that when
Heather asked me if I had another round and me, I only needed a
few minutes before I was rock hard again. Now, it was time for
sex. Unlike our first time, which had started with Heather
practically tackling me, this time she gently lay down on her back
and guided me between her legs. I had no trouble sliding inside,
so it was apparent that she was his turned on as I was. I started
slowly, and with every thrust Heather moaned and arched her
back, showing that her body enjoyed every moment of contact.
As I started to thrust harder, Heather propped herself up on
one elbow, and with the hand holding the back of my head thrust
back into me. Eventually, you could hear our bodies slapping
together, as she moaned that she did not remember it being that
good. Remarkably, though, it was she who was so much better.
In the heat of passion, the sober Heather was much better than
the drunk Heather.
Eventually, my body began to tire. After all, I was middle-
aged and was on my third day in a row of passionate sex.
Heather must have realized this after her second orgasm because
she asked me what would help me cum a second time. When I
said I did not know, she started dirty talk that took me back to
the days in college. She asked me if it was hot to fuck her bare
pussy, and if I wanted to cum in it. When I huffed that I did, she
asked me if I wanted to, even if that pussy was fertile. Lost in the
moment, I said that I did. When she told me that her body was
mine and I could knock her up if I wanted to, I ended up shooting
deep inside of her. As we collapsed onto the bed, Heather giggled
and told me she was still on the pill, so I did not need to worry
about anything.
I looked at the clock and I saw that was almost midnight.
Lying next to me, Heather looked tired, barely able to stay
awake. I do not know whether it was concern about her driving or
the desire to share more than just a physical intimacy with her,
but asked Heather if she wanted to stay with me for the night.
With a yawn, she said she hoped I would ask. She grabbed my
room key, and excused herself so she could get things from her
car.
Twenty minutes later, we were lying curled up together,
while Heather softly snored.
The next morning was slightly rushed. Heather was not used
to getting ready for work somewhere other than her apartment,
and had to improvise for things she had not brought with her. I,
on the other hand, was not use to having a woman who needed
to run around and get dressed up in the morning. So I spent
most of my time being in the way. But somehow things worked
out, and it 8 o'clock, I was embracing Heather as we stood next
to her car.
With a smile, Heather said that though last night was not
the most sober thing she had ever done in her life, she did not
regret any of it. However, she also said that she did not think it
go any further. I had been a big part of one of the most toxic
times in her life-one which she very well might not have
survived. She honestly did not blame me for anything, but did not
know if she could be psychologically reminded of that time on a
continuous basis. I was always welcome to visit, and if we were
both single we could have a repeat. But even if I was looking for
something more than we had the night before, and she did not
think I was ready for that, it probably would never happen
between us.
I could not help but smile. I really did not know what I was
looking for on this trip. I had known the Carly was married when
I met her, and I had never considered that Lizzie could be
interested in something other than her work. However, I had no
ideas about or expectations of what Heather would want, when I
had made contact with her. Other than being sober and really
good in bed, I did not know a thing about her, at this point. I
wanted to stay in touch with her, so I probably would get to know
her better. But I still would have no expectations.
With a sigh, Heather gave me one last hug and a kiss on the
cheek, and then lamented about what might have happened if
she were sober in college or could at least have gotten help for
her drinking. I halfheartedly agreed as she stepped into her car.
Something wonderful may have developed, but then 10 years of
something wonderful with my wife never would have happened.
One thing Heather said did have a big effect on me. With as
bad as her drinking had become, why did Heather not get help?
As I walked back to my room, I realized how scared college
students who have drinking problems and know they have
problems must be. It was likely that they might end up kicked out
of school under some kind of zero-tolerance policy if they were
caught. Some were probably afraid that their parents might not
let them come home to sober up.
I decided that I needed to do something. So as I walked
back to the hotel room, I left a voicemail message for my lawyer
saying that I wanted to set up a fund to pay for drug and alcohol
treatment for students at my old school.