Drew
Riding the bike and winning the awards and championships were great, but all too often I was seen as Gaby. It all started with the charity tandem race I rode with Mum. Jules was supposed to, but she got hurt and Mum drafted me. We won for best Costume and best time which was nice, but having to present the check was not. I had to wear a Gaby costume for both while Mum was Xena. I was hoping that that was the last of Gaby, but it wasn't. [sigh]
Maddy had the idea of the gang attending an Easter cosplay convention. The only thing is that we all went as girls. That was O.K. for my best mate Rhod because he wore a Japanese kimino while I wore a minidress. Maddy made sure that she and I dressed as Chi Light and Chi Dark. I had to wear several knickers to hide my boy bits and that skirt was drafty too. At least Maddy was dressed like me.
When I won the prize for best costume, the girls tried to cash the check for me, but I had to be Gaby and go to the bank. I opened up an account as Gaby Bond, I did not know that i could have endorsed it and then have it deposited in my Drew account Until much later.
Then, Mister Woods got me to dress as Gaby for a new school brochure. He saw me at the convention and thought that I would make a good model. I did it after Mum and Dad agreed. Then I went to Sylvie's to get ready and I was also given breast forms, a gaffe and girls uniform. I fooled everybody and even gained a boyfriend in Clive. [shudder]
I danced with him at a school dance, but he developed a crush upon me and at the next dance, I broke up with him publicly. I hated doing it, but I had to protect myself from being outed. The girls, Rhod, and a few adults knew, but if word got out, things could get dicey.
Well, the first day that I went as Gaby to school, was weird. After school, Maddy and I showed each other our bras on a dare, then Maddy dressed me in her yellow minidress and we went to tea. But we did not fool her Mum, mu Aunt Carol. She accepted the news and has since then grown a bit fond of Gaby, but one time, she hurt me terribly and it has taken a long time to forgive her.
She asked me to help her get some things for Maddy. Maddy and I are the same size and since I was out of school due to being sick, I could help. Well, I was disguised so that I did not look the same and we went shopping on the understanding that when I got uncomfortable, that we would go. Unfortunately, she forgot that I was Drew and when I finally got through to her, the damage was done.
I thought that of all the adults, that she would never hurt me. Mum has by starting Gaby off and Daddy just goes along with it. Sylvie keeps on making me look like a girl. Mister Woods wants me to be a girl model. When Mrs. Peters hurt me, I wanted to cry out, but Maddy was there for me. Thanks to Maddy, and her being cold to her Mum, Aunt Carol knows how I feel. Maddy has been responsible for me being Gaby several times, but I also bring it on myself too.
I have all too often had an accident where I had to borrow clothes from my family or strangers. Unfortunately, every time, it was another time to be Gaby. I have a very bad habit of not packing enough clothes or having my bags end up lost or still at home. I even packed Gaby's stuff at times. It seems as if Gaby is taking over at times. [sigh]
Even when I am dressed as Drew, I am seen as Gaby. It is only at school that I am Drew away from home. When I race, if John the Timekeeper is there, he sees Gaby. In Germany, they know me as Drew on the Apollinaris Team, but at school there, I am seen as a girl all too often. [sigh]
In the mall, Sarah sees me as Gaby and is always trying to sell me shoes from her store. It never matters if I am in Drew mode or not, she sees a girl. And all too often even in Drew mode, they see a girl. At times I her them and want to correct them, but then an adult will either not hear them or ignore it. I have spoken to my 'rents and Aunt Carol about it and they have agreed to start correcting them when I am in Drew mode.
I am scared that Gaby will take over one day and I will be Gaby playing as Drew. Right now, my body is not producing enough testosterone for me to have a male puberty so I am basically developing as a girl. I have wide hips and a narrow waist as well as having to wear a trainer bra for my breasts. Luckily, I can hide it under my shirts, but I dread the thought of others seeing me as I dress. I trust my family and friends, but not stranger.
At times I have had fun as Gaby. I met the author of the HARRY POTTER books and had my picture taken with her too. Unfortunately, I was dressed as Hermione at the time and as Gaby, I have met many famous people. I just wish that it could be as Drew. [sigh]
I know that my family supports me as Drew or Gaby, but at times, they can't choose who they want me to be. Maddy wants for me to be Gaby at the conventions or Drew in a dress. My Mum has asked me to be Gaby at time as well. Even Aunt Carol. At least my Dad and Uncle john have not asked me to be Gaby.
Jules has, but only at the house and I did get grounded as Gaby. Anna, asked me over to a slumber party as Gaby. me and Jules went and we went to a bar and got drunk. We were both grounded, but we got that witch back for her stupid forfeits idea.
She came up with things for us to do and she thought that mine was not bad enough. I can never trust her with my secret because she would take great delight in outing me. Well, she got paid back thanks to Jules and Brit tricking her. Now that witch looks like a clown and is grounded for life.
I have mixed feelings about Brit and Deb. While here, they acted as if I was a girl and did what they could to get me into being Gaby. It was only as they were leaving that they told the truth. I expected for them to tell their parents, but they did not, so I was Gaby for six weeks thanks to them.
In Germany, they think that Drew is a girl. In school, they now that I am a boy, but all too often, i am seen as a girl. I have been in a few races here and have begun to make a name for myself in Germany, but in school and out, Gaby seems to shine a bit. [chuckle]
I got a job as a waitress at a local pub. The uniform is a white blouse and black trousers, so I can be Drew in a way. What floored me was when I was appointed as a local Wine Princess. I had to wear the dress and white tights for the celebration and at times, make a public appearance.
Then I was selected to impersonate a pregnant girl. I was the only one selected that actually went to school looking like a girl. That garnered me top marks for my part and more than a few comments from my friends. At least i have no boy here trying to snog me. No, that all is back in Warsop.
But there is a girl here that is as bad as Maddy or Brit about getting me in a dress. All of the girls know about my being Gaby and about Maddy getting me to be Gaby. I made the mistake of going to a convention dressed as a girl. Well, actually as a guy dressed as a girl, but that gave them the idea of me being Gaby at school.
I lost a bet and on a field trip, I was Gaby. The worst part about it was the short skirt!! Why couldn't have been trousers or a long skirt? And why do I keep on finding girls that want me in a skirt?
I have spoken to Maddy and she loves me as both Gaby and Drew, it is just that at times, she gets too much fun out of me being Gaby. Now, Maddy has promised me to ask me to be Gaby and to elp me to be Drew. I need her because I still tend to ruin my clothes and need a spare or forget to pack enough.
Mum feels regret for bringing Gaby to life in the first place, but she now knows that my body is going through its own puberty. I am still a boy, but my body is feminine. I hope that in time that my body goes more masculine. Mum loves me as Gaby and Drew and at times has wanted Gaby. I know that she wants for me to be happy and I will be Gaby if she wishes, but I prefer to be Drew.
Jules at times is jealous of me as both Drew and Gaby, but she loves me. It is just that at times, she needs time with Mum or Dad. She has helped to bring Gaby out, but she also was there to protect me. When we went to Anna's sleepover, I could have been hurt, but both Anna and Jules kept me safe.
Dad has been easy going about my being Gaby, but I can tell that he is worried about me too. He wonders if i will decide to be Gaby or Drew. He has been there for me when I needed him, but he can't seem to give voice to his worries. If he would only talk to me about it, but he can't. I know that he will be there for me and that is enough.
Aunt Carol loves me as both Drew and Gaby. She has been there when I needed a shoulder to cry on when being Gaby was too much. I know that she does not want to hurt me, but she did and I have forgiven her. Aunt Carol truly regrets hurting me and it has taken time to get over the hurt for both of us, but now I look forward to scarfing down one of her meals.
Uncle John just takes everything in stride. When I am Gaby, he calls me Gaby, when Drew, he calls me Drew unless he sees Gaby. [sigh] Then he calls me Gaby. He is a gentle giant and he was the reason for the Cultural Exchange Program. If he hadn't gone to America, I would never have gone to America.
I have lived quite an exciting life as both Drew and Gaby. I find that i am able to find a bit of happiness as Gaby when I choose to be Gaby. When I choose, I am more content because I am not being forced in any way and I am in charge. I have come to find that Gaby is a part of me. I hope that in time that i can meld Gaby into Drew.
I have my entire life to decide who and what I am and my parents have let me take my time to decide upon my identity. I know that Mady will love me no matter who or what I decide to be and that will make my decision easier.
