From: cowgirl stupid [cowgirl_stupid@yahoo.com] Sent: 22 February 2001 21:10 To: stormbringer@bimboslutz.com Subject: Trixy on parade (use THIS draft instead) Dear Storm, Its me again. I re-wrote some of it. I think it's beter now. please Ignore that last draft, and use THIS DRAFT please. (also the synopsis in the other letter is still good.) jen :-) __________ Trixie on Parade cowgirl Terresa works as a secretary like me. She's in her thirties and still looks pretty good for a mother with a teenaged daughter and two little ones. Her dirty blond hair a skinny figure fit my impression of her as the annoyingly passive, sad little person she is. I say annoying, because unfortunately Terresa's married to a stupid man who beats her up and treats her like garabage. I count count the times I've pleaded with Trixie to leave him, but she just..won't. It makes me so angry!!! Now, what's really odd is, it also turns me on. Not him beating my best friend - Goodness no! I just have a hard time understanding why I, well,I find it oddly erotic that some of women like Trixie PUT UP with the things they do.Now, I'm not condoning volence against woman! But It's like a part of me is rooting for Trixie to stand up for herself, and another gets so *wet* inside the more mistreatment she happily laps up. Weird huh? I know. It's terrible of me! But, and I care for Trixie too much to ever let her know my sick little secret. Then one evening I discovered .Trixie's got a secret too. Last night I my friend from work, had Sherry drop me by the resturant Terresa's been mysteroiusly moonlighting at. I knew Terresa was as a waitress, but this was no waitressing outfit she wore tonight! Well, I must say, I totally misjudged "poor-little-abused-wifey" Terresa! Both Sherry and I stood there with my jaws on the floor as we saw someone we barely reconized! It was Terresa all right, but her now classy looking usually dirty looking hair was pulled back in a smart spiffy bun and she sported a tasteful burgandy blazer that went to her hips, dark red silk blouse and some slimming black slacks. We both agreed Trixie looked positively radient and looked sucessful and nothing like she was at work! Sherry had some earnds, so I stayed and chated with Terresa during her break. Turns out, all these secret night classes have resluted in Terresa being promoted up to . (get this) . ."Asistant Manager"! (proud smile) Yup! Our silly little office doormat's been taking night courses in buisness managment, and been a wolf in sheeps clothing, or grew into a wolf, or something like that! Anyway - it paid off. Terresa and I sat down in a booth, and I felt a little giddy seeing thher newfound authority as the waitresses all rush to kiss her butt. I could even see envey in the these waitress's eyes at Terresa working her way up, but they held their jealoues little tounges, since THEY were too stupid and lazy to better themselves and work their way up the ladder like my "Little Miss Asistant Manager" here did! Terresa and I even giggled about the poor hapless cocktail watresses in the bar conncted to the resturant. Terresa was amazed that all the watress's all would jump at the chance to become "work their way up" to being a silly cocktail waitress, (IF they have the looks to pull it off she laughed), just because the tips are larger and more frequent in the bar. I felt guilty for suddenly noticing the "in your face" desgine of the bust of the cocktail watress who'd brought our drinks, and though I'm not into other woman, I found myself oddly aroused at the angry way Terresa kept using words like "degrading". I could sence how much distain she had for the cocktail girls, probaby because they were all priettier than either her or I. Terresa waved the cocktail waitress who served us drinks away, snearing that no amount of tips were worth being reduced to such a silly and humiliating outfit. She even let slip her own daughter had expressed intrest in becoming one when she turned eighteen, after overhearing one of the better looking coctkail girls braging about the "tips" being worth the "gropes"). When Terresa told me she's firmly told her daughter to "forget it", I was impressed. This WAS a new Terresa! Though I wondered how her hubby felt about her riseing up from waitressing by nights into upper management, and her silence around the subject told me he probably didn't know. Well, she at least was in comand here, right? On step at a time. I tried those odd wicked little feelings again, but tried to do my best to suport the "new" Terresa. I didn't want to undermine her, even if she seemed a little, well, high on her horse. She'd earned it, right? .But why the change? Did she flurish here because we somehow undermined her at work? A guilty preverse rush of power swept through mesavoring the thrilling notion of my having that much control over Over my dignified looking frien, to shake her self image. I tried to Ignore her upitty atitude about the witress and cocktail bimbos, and tried not to be jealouse at the changes I saw, realizing she'd be back to her old self under our thumbs in the morning at work with in the steno pool with the rest of us peons. Terresa seetehd with hatred about those "stupid cocktail bimbos, spending all day in heels with their stupid red sequenced bustie, minature little blazer that only came to their mid rif's". She said their blazers were similar to hers, and they "mocked" the seriousness of her legitimate uniform! I agreed, but I reminded Terresa that this was all these poor things had, their looks and tired tooties and soon to be saging boobs. Being ornimental eye candy for drunks and raising a few eyebrows when they flounce into the regular restruant to deliver orders to booths in the resturant. At least the waitress'preserved some dignity by having only had to wear knee leangthed skirts and starch white blouses. Though I'm no lesbian, all this talking about humiliating uniforms and seeing how prissy Terresa was being was getting me aroused and angry at her. I found myself fantasizing the weirdest things, and longed to push her off that pedistal of hers, but pushed such thoughts away. Iwas her friend after all for god's sake! I would suport her, no matter what. I could understand after seeing this why Terresa stayed with a pig who mistreated her like her husband.It didn't add up, the strong, sucsessful Asistant Manager, buisness woman who and stood before me, and the tired defeated submissive little Trixie at work who's secretarial chores had caused her to mouse around like a little wimp. Listening to Terresa I realized how secretly she must hate being so lowly at work. No wonder she was obcessed with not lossing her status here, being a loser at work, not to mention what she puts up with at home! Well, somehow, thank god- even in this ONE part of her life, Terresa had escaped. She WAS somebody here, at least. I wanted to ask her how, WHY, she stayed with him, but I didn't want to rain on her parade. She could see the new respect in my eyes I had for her now. I found myself feeling guilty that I'd secretly fantasied such horrid mean things about Terresa! I was embarrassed ashamed by my becoming aroused by Images that she'd eventuall fail and give all this up and revert to the office wimp, or maybe go back to doing dishes or being a water girl or something when i saw this resturant. I'm not sure why, but part of me got that framiliar weird RUSH from seeing someone try and dig themselves out - only to fail. Part of me was actually disapointed and, dare I say it, sexually frusterated to see Terresa not only dug herself out, but had passed all of us secretaries at the office up. Maybe it was me who had the problem. As Terresa showed me out to the car, I put my jealous feelings aside and said my goodbyes. There was a bus coming, and she still had work to do. I fumbeled to save face about a buss ride home to my my sympathtic friend, explaining my car was in the shope. I wondered if i detected pity of compassion, and felt aroused, angry and embarrassed all in a second. Suddenly Terresa froze in her tracks, and so did i... We both watched as her husband sat in his car parked before us a few feet away, apperntly . He didn't see us, but a woman's head kept appearing and disapearing, into his lap area. I grabed Terresa's arm. "Oh honey, I'm sorry." I managed to whisper, feeling a huge guilt that I was capable of getting an erotic rush as her hubby would actually be calouse enough to risk a blow job in the parking lot where she worked, during buisness hours! As Terresa clutched my arm, and we both timidly walked closer, I was shocked again. " Oh my god!!!" I heard Terresa groan. And it was none other than little Katie Burns, from work! I remember I'd asked her to drop those pamplets to Terresa's husband, but the little slut just fell to her knees, I'm disgusted to see. My eyes shot to Terresa, and she looked all hyper and pulled be back away from the car. Terresa spoke with a trembeling angry voice. " Jen - It's over." " I know honey...It's okay. I'll be a witness, believe me. I don't care what lawyer he gets - He's toast." " - no Jen. what if he *leaves* me. I can't...I wouldn't know what to do...jen...he can't find out I know. I can;t risk him leaving me." Terresa whispered as we started at katie's boobing head, a few feet away. I felt such anger at Terresa at that moment, i really did! I wanted to shake her, scream at her, stratch her eyes out even - for giving up so fucking easily!!!! But I didn't... I just took the bus home. ****** I spent all my lunch hours talking it all through with Terresa. I was fearful of that strong exteriour possibly crumbeling, but I also confess to masterbating to what a wimp Terresa was to rule the roots (in what was practically her own buisness) at the resturant, while passivly letting another woman suck her husband off in front of her, then desperately worry she might "lose" him! Terresa just came apart before my eyes, turning into spineless jello. I don't know why - but seeing a chink in her armor like this *really* got me aroused. I was also appulaed by how I'd taken to undermining Terresa lately. I guess i was angry at her, and wanted to punish her, though I don't know why. In the few weeks since the "incident", I'd even shamefullly weakened her self worth enough to get her to giving up her night courses all together. I sheepishmy shruged her it might upset her hubby and savored the tear which trickeled down her cheek. Part of me was only so mean because I hated how vulnerable and dippy she'd become, over a man too! Part of me watched, waited, hoped, even prayed she'd tell me to fuck off. She didn't. It also helped I undermined her at work too, where Terresa felt like a nobody. I took a sick sexual delight in bringing her down a peg, letting it slip she'd quite night class. It was "for the best" she'd sheepishly find herself agreeing. I would get a little thrill each time she passively sunk to being the office pushover again. Terresa the sucess was soon a dim memory to us all, and I went home and masterbated each night to it! Partly I was testing her, but she'd never disapoint me and "failed" each time, bringing me more pleasure then she could fathom. It's as if i knew her secret that night in the parking lot. How weak she really was. Even it was clearly her husband who was wrong, we both, in effect, abused and blamed Terresa for it. I even couldn't think of her as my "Terresa" any more, so I slipped into calling her a silly little nick name. I was surprised that she drew the line here, and actually asked me to please remember her name at least, which I did. Part of me was impressed, but another was sorta peeved. So.I pushed back, just a little. Just the other evening, well, I know it's terrible. But i just, well, wanted to see if she would. That's all. I was stunned when she mumbeled how she'd followed my advice, and had quit her job as asistant manager altogether. I couldn't believe she was stupid enough to pariot my words, tearfully explain to her boss, "she just didn't feel capable or *smart enough* to do it anymore. He tried to build her up, but she actually talked him out of it! This made me want to play with myself right in front of her as she spilled her guts in tears. Then I looked down and saw the cute little pink name tag with her new "nick-name". I guess they could have made on up that said Terresa, but she was worried about my being angry, plus she thought her hubby would like her new little nick name better to: Trixy. I asked her what *she* thought of it. She shruged, a flash of angrily fliskering through, saying she "thought it was stupid." She pouted that no one would take her seriosuly anymore, esspecially re-naming herself this. I sweetly asked her if it didn't fit her better though, as she simply wasn't mangement materal, let alone bright enough to be a silly little waitress anymore. She noded her pretty head, a angry little tear pooling in her eye. I left her and returned to the booth with the rest of her family. I didn't want to come to this dumb social gathering, but her husband wanted some friends from work to come by and see "the new Terresa". Sherry was there, and Terresa's teenaged daughter and two little ones. I thought it was a little mean for her husband to bring Katie Burns along too, but I held my tongue, knowing his temper. I felt a rush of blood pounding through me seeing Trixie come parading out like that and serve us drinks in her stupidly sexist little cocktail uniform. I could feel the anger and humiliation burning in her as the former buisness woman pranced around in her degrading heels and humiliating little blazer,tights and bustie. She acted the ditz for her own family, just as she did for every other costumer. I could see the embarrassed look her daughter had, the leer of her husband, and the rest of us girls avoiding her meager little boobs her ourfit tried desperatly to display. I'm sure Trixie felt under equiped playing the sex pot with her modest chest and skinny frame, but what she wanted didn't matter now, right? Apreantly she was more happy this way. She later confessed someone as "plane and flat" as herself had to pull a few strings with the new asistant manager to even GET this position. It was one of her conditions on her demotion, that she be allowed to wear this humiliating get up even though she was to "plain and unattractive" to pull it off, she winced, telling me. It was cute seeing little Trixie get bright red while confessed to wearing her little uniform to bed sonetimes. Well, most times actualy. She's poutingly mumbeled she's now talking now her OWN daughter into working as a cocktail girl when she's eighteen. I said I thought she was against it, but she said"If mom's stupid enough to do it, she'll probably may as well do it too." Trixie shruged defeately and made a sad joke about them being sort of a "mother daughter" team. Well, her husband though it was funny when her fucked her face while drunk last night, so that's the direction Trixie's daughter's professional life is now headed. Now I know it's mean of me, coming by for drinks at the bar where she works ( so she's serving *me * as well ), but i can't help it. I know that Trixie deep down must really hate me for doing all this, and this awful sexy little twinkle I get in my eye for enjoying how misserable she looks, but i think she hates *herself* more than anyone. Trixie hates herself for throwing her freedom away like that. For giving up on herself. And for, (as she tearfully confessed), crouching on the floor of her husbands car and collecting his "stuff" in her open mouth as it drips off of katie's mouth after kate's been giving Trixie's husband blow jobs. I spoted a fresh stain I decided not to ask about on Trixie's blazer as she oblivously recounted it all. I felt sorry for her, and couldn't wait to get home and masterbate over that sticky little stain. I couldn't believe Trixie wasn't becoming aroused at some level by all this. But maybe it was just the "one down" position that aroused her, of acting more and more like a bimbo, which she was fast surrendering into. Something about her Bimbo-ish persona brought our people's hostility. I noticed the stupidier she behaved, the worse I treated her, just like her hubby did. Maybe it wasn't even sexual for stupid little Trixie anymore, maybe being a non-sexual stupid ditzy little bimbo was it's own reward. But I WAS *sure* I senced arousal and fury under that ditzy smile when she pranced over and poutingly handed me her car keys like that. She's agreed to give me her old car, which I needed after mine finally croaked. Beside's, her husband said she didn't need a second one now that she was just a stupid "cock-tease waitress", as he put it. She confessed to having an orgasm when he'd said that. She also tried to hide that sad angry look in her eye, as she forced a ditzy giggle about rushing between breaks to clean up whoever was blowing hubby in the parking lot, which happened to be that new girl a lot, Wendy. "Well, at least you get great tips." I laughed. She echoed it politely like a good little Ditz. She look down and whispered that her teenaged daughter was mortified the other kids were laughing about Trixie wearing her her cocktail uniform when she droped her daughter off at school. Her her daughter now taken to sarcasticly snearing: "Trixy's On Parade". . She cheerily confessed her daughter had taken it out on her in particularly cruel ways. "How?" I asked, now totally hooked. She said her position of authority became the family joke as her daughter now setteled arguments by ordered her mother stand with her nose pressed in the corner while dressed in her little cocktail waitress uniform, while her daughtr threw garbae at her while the rest of the family watched TV and Ignored her. "Sometimes bottomless too." Trix blinked confusedly. Next Trixie sheepishly recounted how,well. aroused she got when her daughter had made bitchy sacrastic comments that her mother "should actually give her CUSTOMERS tips or money instead of recieveing them, since she was such a " flat -chested ugly doormatt" to look at. "She actually *said* that to your face" I asked, now totally wet. "uh huh." Trixie pouted, her anger surrendering to that vacant bimbo expression she sought the refuge into with each new humiliation. "Trixie, please don't tell me you've been paying these drunken louts moneyfor the "privledge" of waiting on them! Your daughter was just mouthing off. You didn't have to take her literaly. She's your daughter - YOURE the mom, remember???" I said trying to work myself closer, aroused beyond words. "Well, uh.I don't exactlly pay them with..uhmoney." she giggled sadly. " Your screwing them?" I asked breathlessly. " Well, I blow most of them. How do you think my lips get this pefect little *O*? " She whispered, her lips forming a pink little oval. I couldn't decide if I wanted to slap her, or melt my tongue doen her throat. I definatly was hot as hell just drinking her in like that. " I know, I know! I'm a total ditzy air-head to my whole family, co -workers, eveyone!. But I supose I DO deserve all this, if I won't stand up tfor myself, right ? " Trixie asked, looking truly confussed standing there as she shifted her feet back and forth. "Trixywhat's the matter?" I asked. "Oh, my shift's all most over and I have to piddle, but the everyone thinks it keeps me on my toes if I hold my potty it in till my shifts over. The other girls like to joke that "Trixie's On Parade" when I do my little pee pee dance. I told them about my daughter saying that, and they busted up, and now it's just stuck: Trixie On Parade. It's the least I could do, to keep everyone amused, right? " Trixie said as she bit her lower lip, and started whispering "Trixie's On Parade, Trixie's On Parade " under her breath, as the woman I once respected did her little pee pee dance before a small group of cruely smirking customers and better looking cocktail waitresses, dancing in her uniform in the most eroticly amusing way. I said a quick goodbye, picked up her keys and headed for the door. I felt a little guilty as i could barely keep my hand from disapearing down my pants, stroking myself as I drove away in her car. Moments later I was poor little Trixie standing at the bus stoop, prancing from her left foot to right, doing her little dance, hair in a pony tale, dolled up in little high heels and tights, her overcoat doing nothing to cover her skimpy redicoulse cocktail uniform, as she waved half-hartedly goodbye ot me. I couldn't decide if who I hated more, her for ALOWING it, or myself for encourging it, or both of us for getting off on it,but I fingered myself to several blissful orgasm just the same as I fantasised how I'd love to spit on her, laugh at her, humiliate her, and even pee on her.... .for taking the bus home. __________________________________________________ Do You Yahoo!? Yahoo! Auctions - Buy the things you want at great prices! http://auctions.yahoo.com/