Note: This story was dynamically reformatted for online reading convenience. Chapter 6: Fel & the Secret Diary Hello, my dear diary (and also hello to any anonymous readers of my mind). I'm sorry that you're just an imaginary diary since I can't read or write. Even if I would be able to do those things, I probably wouldn't dare to write down the things that happen around me. For two weeks I now have been traveling with a woman called Fel and every day on her side pushes me closer to the verge of lunacy. Oh, by the way. My name is Niu. Before I begin to describe the madness of Fel's daily life, I have one thing I want to tell you right away, dear diary. I am in love with Fel. And although it may very well be my demise, I have decided not to leave her side, whatever may happen. Why will it be my demise, you ask? Well, let me tell you about Fel. First of all, she is an incredibly violent woman. She's very quick to become angry and gets into a lot of fights. And I haven't seen her lose a single one of those fights. Rather, she wins them without a scratch. If she leaves one of her opponents alive, then only to humiliate and torture them afterwards. And in the end, they all face death by her hand. Although I have seen my share of atrocities in the Water Temple, Fel is on a completely different level than the priestess I once feared so much. Hardly a day goes by without Fel killing someone. It's as if a human life doesn't have any value for her. She kills for fun, she kills because she's angry and she also kills for no reason at all. Why am I still alive then, you may ask, dear diary? That's a good question and to be honest, I have no idea myself. Fel had decided for me to be her comrade, but I can't count on her remembering this decision forever. See, she gets drunk a lot. And when she's drunk, she's even less sane than normally. On several occasions she literally almost killed me by accident. Not because she thought I was an enemy... just because she thought I was some unrelated girl that she could just slice up for fun. I screamed at her and tried to make her remember that I was Niu, her comrade. It always worked out in some way up until now, but I'm not confident at all that it will always be that way. Luckily enough, I have already accepted a long time ago that my life could end every day in some cruel way. So it's not like I'm living in fear. Rather, I'm enjoying my life more than ever before! That's not to say that there aren't any downsides to living with Fel. Rather, the downsides are so many that it's impossible to name every single one of them. For one thing, Fel is really... unhygienic, I guess. Or rather, filthy. For instance, she farts a lot. And with a lot, I mean like way over a hundred times a day. For some reason, her farts smell far worse than a human should ever smell. Fel's diet consists entirely of meat, sweets and alcohol, so that might have something to do with it. On top of that, she really seems to enjoy farting. And letting other people smell her farts. On a lot of occasions, she deliberately pulled down her panties and stuck out her naked ass so that everyone could hear and smell her fart to its fullest. More than once I had to throw up after smelling that. But you can't imagine how uninhibited she is about it. There might be dozens of people around her and she will still pull down her panties, expose her naked butt and let out a disgusting fart. I would die at the mere thought of doing such a shameless thing. Well, it doesn't stop with farting. She also... takes a shit while other people are around. And let me tell you: Fel's farts may smell horrible, but they are nothing compared to her shit. For some reason, her turds are gigantic. It makes me blush to tell you about such indecent things... but I have to watch these things every single day, my dear diary! The piles of shit don't look in the slightest like they have been produced by a human being. Sometimes I wonder if Fel is even human... You might not believe this, dear diary, but... even more than having other people watch and smell her shitting, Fel enjoys to take her dump right onto other people. Preferably children. It happened before that she saw a little girl running around on her own and decided to have some fun with her. She pushed her to the ground, pulled down her panties and took a huge shit right onto the girl's face. I'm amazed that the kid didn't suffocate. Fel always tells her victims to eat her shit, but I have never seen anyone who was able to obey this order. On other occasions, Fel had shitted on girls right after killing their parents. Imagine that, having your mother killed in front of your eyes and then, while you're still crying and mourning, her killer shits right onto your face. I can't imagine what it must feel like, honestly. For one thing, I never had any parents, so I can't imagine what it must feel like to lose them. Strangely enough, the feelings I have for Fel are pretty close to what I imagine how someone would feel for their mother. She feeds me and protects me, after all. She looks after me. ...Oh, I feel so silly for thinking that! Because, actually Fel isn't the kind of woman you'd rely on to care for you at all. Rather, she's a person you should try to stay away from... as far as possible! I have seen her doing things that are so horrifying that I'm sure even the priestess at the Water Temple wouldn't have been able to do them. But she never does these things to me. And that's why I love her. This whole world is a hellhole where people are tormenting each other whenever they can get away with it. Having someone who doesn't want you to suffer is the best thing you can hope for. Although... I'm not quite sure if she really doesn't want me to suffer. Shortly after I had met her, there was an incident where Fel almost raped me... and after that, she probably would have done other nasty things to me. What stopped her were my scars. When she saw them, she said that it's a shame and that she preferred her victims to be unscathed. In a way, the tortures which scarred my body have probably saved my life. I guess I should be thankful... but I can't help being ashamed of them. Especially the way I am dressed now. Fel gave me new clothes and... they're just as shameless as her own! I literally walk around with my naked ass hanging out. I wonder what the people think when they see me. They probably think I'm a prostitute. When they see that I'm attached to Fel, they probably think I'm her slave. I guess I don't mind them thinking that way. I probably wouldn't mind really being Fel's slave. Rather than that... I'm ashamed to say it, but the thought of it actually gives me an erection... Wow, I'm blushing really hard right now! The downside of Fel being revolted by my scars is that she probably also doesn't ever want to have sex with me. And Fel usually has a lot of sex. When she hasn't slept with anyone in a day, she gets really grumpy and then she tends to rape the first person she meets. Fel always takes what she wants, but there are also girls who voluntarily sleep with her. She's incredibly attractive, after all. Those who haven't seen her ugly sides yet are stunned by her amazing body. It doesn't take Fel more than a few suggestive words to seduce them. As you can guess by now, my dear diary, I tend to get very jealous of these girls. I probably take comfort in the thought that most of these girls end up getting humiliated, tortured or killed after having sex with Fel. Sigh... I guess I'm a bad person myself. Lately, I like to give myself to the illusion that Fel wouldn't torture me after having sex with me. I mean, if she wanted to do those things, she would've probably done them a long time ago. If I could only get rid of those scars... My best chance for that would have been to bathe in the Spring of Life after the priestess was killed. But as it turned out, the Spring lost its powers as soon as Fel had captured the Azure Spirit... Oh! I ended up talking so much about Fel that I didn't even tell you about the third member of our party yet! I'm sorry, my dear diary. Our third comrade is the divine Azure Spirit who once guarded the Spring of Life. I don't really understand it, but the Azure Spirit submitted herself to Fel. Although she acts more cocky in front of Fel than I would ever dare to, she still seems to be frightened of her. I can understand very well how a mortal being would be afraid of Fel, but why even a divine spirit fears her I can't comprehend. Her submissiveness goes so far that she allows Fel to keep her in a bottle and only let her out when she feels like it. Although she treats her that way, Fel really dotes on the Azure Spirit and affectionately calls her 'Azu'. Fel said that she always had wanted to have such a cute summon... whatever that means! Alright, my dear diary- that's all I have to tell you for now. Fel calls me. She wants to hit the trail again. Walking so much is a pain for me and since I'm limping, we're not moving very fast. But Fel doesn't really seem to mind that. Why this is so, I have no idea! See you soon, my dear diary!