Date: Sun, 24 Feb 2013 22:51:43 -0500 (EST)
From: Michelle Aguilera <michelle.aguilera001@aol.com>
Subject: My First Love - Chapter 5 - Bisexual - Adult Youth

  Chapter 5


      Within the next few months, academic classes and swimming continued
normal for me and Allison. Allison, Coach Lambert and I would have sex and
even have threesomes after hours after school, but it was very late at
night when no one was around. We kept hoping we'd never get caught.


      Then in our summer break, Allison noticed that her belly was getting
bigger. She was three months pregnant but she seemed to be six. That's
because she was pregnant with fraternal twins. One was mine and one was
Shane's. I'd gotten used to calling him Shane. He was just another friend
to me.


      It was Allison's birthday, June 19th. That morning everyone at her
house got up. Allison went to the bathroom, but not just to brush her teeth
and pee this time. She'd been hiding her pregnancy symptoms from her
parents because now that she wasn't coming home earlier than midnight
lately, even on school nights, they realized they let her go too far and
started paying more attention to her and actually staying home with her in
the afternoon and at night instead of taking off. They'd even gotten back
together, and Allison's dad had stopped seeing his mistress.


      Allison's mom, Gabi, went into the bathroom. Allie was still throwing
up. Her mom placed her hand on her shoulder. Allie stopped throwing up and
looked back at her mother, but it wasn't even a few seconds until she
started throwing up again. After giving birth to these babies, Allison
would never get pregnant again. She wasn't strong enough to deal with this
hell, and she had six more months to go. I prayed that she would survive
this. She was too young and immature. "I know what's going on, dear, and
it's my fault."

      "What are you talking about? How can this be your fault? You didn't
get me pregnant or bring a man in here to get me pregnant."

      "I know, but I got caught up in my own problems and forgot that I had
a teenage daughter with her hormones gone through the roof."

      "It wasn't your fault. Even if you had taken care of me, I still
would've gone out and gotten pregnant."

      "Who's the father?"

      "Arnold is."

      "Of both babies? Those aren't identical twins, but they are twins. I
can tell."

      "How do you know I'm having twins?"

      "Because your Aunt Allie was pregnant with your
fraternal-twin-cousins and she was experiencing the same symptoms."

      "Oh, mom..."

      "Does Arnold know?"

      "No. He thinks I'm just fat. I can't blame him. I eat even more than
any pregnant woman's supposed to."

      "Don't say that. Is your relationship like formal, or is it just
sex?"

      "Arnold and I are not in love, but we're best friends. It could never
be 'just sex'. We've known each other since we started swimming class back
in January. We hang out all the time and I'm the one he calls when he needs
help with anything. I've helped him pull up his grades. He only has to
repeat half of this year."

      "Why don't you tell him?"

      "I'm afraid he's gonna freak out and bolt."

      "Arnold's not like that."

      "Come on, we're talking about a guy that won't even do his homework."

      "Why don't you call him and tell him? If he 'bolts', your father and
I will help you take care of these babies if you decide to keep them."


      * * * *


      Allison armed herself with courage and called me. I was busy cleaning
the bathroom and didn't answer the phone. It was probably Saul calling me
to complain to me about the problems between him and his girlfriend, and I
really didn't want to hear it. Why didn't they just break up already? I
wouldn't have stayed with a girl or a boy if he or she made me unhappy. I
now realized I'd been fucked in the ass way too many times by a man to call
myself straight, so I was bi. I still liked girls more, but if a hot guy
like Mr. Lambert prepositioned me, I would give in to him in a
heartbeat. I'd been fucked in the ass for a period of six months every
single day, and the more it happened the more I enjoyed it. The only reason
why it still hurt was because my partner was too big. It seemed he was so
big he'd hurt everyone he was with. I imagined that was the reason why his
relationships didn't last.


      Until he met me.


      And Allison.


      I panicked and called Allison back. She picked up the phone after it
had only rung once. She was crying, thinking this was an act of rejection
on my part, like I'd suddenly decided I didn't give a fuck about her. "Why
won't you answer the phone?"

      "I'm sorry, I was cleaning the bathroom. When I stop doing a chore
and I'm not done, my mom yells at me like she's being stabbed right in the
heart."

      "Your mom's a bitch. You should just ignore her and pick up your
goddamn phone. I have something extremely important to tell you, something
that will change our lives forever. I'm pregnant with fraternal twins, and
one of them is yours."

      I felt like a bucket of cold water had just been thrown at me. When I
recovered, I said, "How far along?"

      "You're not questioning your paternity? I've been fucking two men at
the same time. How can you just take my word for it?"

      "Because I'm one of the two guys you've been...sleeping with, so of
course one of those babies has to be mine if they're fraternal. After all,
most fraternal twins are from different fathers, are they not?"

      "I don't know why you won't do your homework because you're pretty
damn smart."

      "I'm 15 and sexually active. I have to do research on that kind of
thing so it doesn't punch me in the face. OK, I can't talk to my parents
about this. They're way too fucking uptight. I'm going to have to figure
this out, but you ought to know Coach Lambert is not going to take care of
that baby. I mean he's 31 and more than mature enough, but how will he
explain to everyone the mother of his child is a 16-year-old?"

      "My parents told me they'd help me take care of the babies. If worse
comes to worse, I'll just ask Mom and Dad to adopt the babies as their own,
and I can be their mother in the eyes of the law later, when Shane
disappears from our lives."

      "He won't just disappear."

      "That's not what I mean. I mean when I stop sleeping with him."

      "Are you sure you're going to be able to? If you could, you already
would've, don't you think?"

      "I don't think the sex has anything to do with it. The reason why I
can't stop seeing him is because I'm in love with him. That's why I can't
resist when I'm with him. He can't resist me either. You know I always
wanted a guy to really fall in love with me, but I never expected that guy
to be 15 years older than me. Holy shit, I know I'm bi, but I can't just go
and tell my parents I'm bi. I have to build a life with a nice man, start a
family, get married, you know, live my life the traditional way. My parents
did steer away from me because they got caught up in their own problems,
but that doesn't make them any less conservative and uptight just like your
mother, except your mother treats you like shit and she's a bitch. All
right, I'm going to talk to Shane and see how we're going to figure this
out. God, what a mess. I'll talk to you later."

      "Bye, Allie. I love you." I hung up, lied down on my bed on my
stomach, started crying, and I didn't stop until I had no strength left.
Then I fell asleep.



Michelle Aguilera
michelle.aguilera001@aol.com