Date: Tue, 4 Dec 2001 00:38:20 -0500 (EST)
From: maxwelllite@webtv.net
Subject: Lee & Me 16

I spent another sleepless night.  This time with the image of the photos
Ms. Ying had shown me filling my thought's.

Surely she had not been serious in her suggestion that I should transform
myself into such a Buddha like creature to suit a whim of Lee's.

But of course she had been serious.  Ms. Ying was a woman to be taken
seriously at all times, and like Lee, an imposing figure to be obeyed.  At
least that is how I saw her.

The idea was repugnant, but for that very reason the idea became all the
more exciting.

What better way to convey to Lee my total subservience, his absolute
mastery.  I was getting hard just thinking about it.

Should I confront Lee to discuss this.  No, I had a better idea.  His wish
had already been made known to me by his mother.  I would simply comply
with that wish.

It was still early.  I looked out of my window to see Ms. Ying's car still
there. I dressed and went over and knocked on the front door.

"Yes, Toad?  Is there something I can do for you?  Lee is still
sleeping. He was out very late last night.  Being with that absolutely
gorgeous girl friend of his, I'm surprised he comes home at all."

She liked jabbing at me about Lee having taken my girl friend, and what a
prize she was.  As if I didn't know.

"I was wondering, Ma'am, if you could get the keys to my car from Lee.  I
have to run into town for a little while."

Here I was, practically asking permission to use my own car.

"Well, I don't know exactly what his plans for today are.  He sometimes
runs over to Kay's house about noon."

"Oh, I'll be back long before that.  I should be gone for only about an
hour or so."

"I suppose it will be all right.  I'll go up and ask him."

Incredible wasn't it?  She would ask Lee if it would be all right if I used
my car for a little while.

He might feel generous and say yes, or he might decline and I would say
nothing and ride my bicycle into town.  That would be strictly up to Lee.

Ms Ying returned and said, "Lee was sleeping so soundly that I didn't want
to wake him.  The key's were on his night table.  I shouldn't do this, but
here they are.  Be back promptly as you said, or Lee will be very upset.
He wouldn't want to disappoint Kay, and I'm sure you wouldn't want to upset
Lee."

"No ma'am, I wouldn't.  I'll be back as soon as I can.  About an hour."

At last, behind the wheel of my car again.  Amazingly, it was the first
time since the day I got it and drove over to Kay's...the night that I
introduced her to Lee and he had taken over control of her and the car.

I rolled the top back and it felt great with the wind in my face and hair,
and a weird thought entered my mind, "Boy, it must really be something to
have a car like this."

Lee had no doubt thought the same thing, especially since it was mine and
he had unrestricted use of it.

As I got closer to town I thought about what I was about to do.  Would I
really go through with this simply to placate some bizarre desire of Lee's?

No, I thought, and actually turned the car around, determined not to give
in this time; not to give Lee another victory.  Especially a victory of
this magnitude.

As I got closer to home that old feeling emerged once again--the
overwhelming compulsion to obey Lee; to be subservient to him.

I turned around again actually thinking that I had wasted time and should
hurry.  Lee might wake up and want the car, and as Ms. Ying had said, "You
wouldn't want to upset Lee."  Or, of course, disappoint Kay.

I took a chance on time and drove a little farther to the next town where I
didn't know the barber.  I went in, sat down and said, "Looks like it's
going to be a hot summer...take it all off."

He just shrugged and said, "O.K., if that's what you want."

As he started with the electric shaver, I looked in the mirror and it
occurred to me that my hair was probably my best feature.  Strawberry
blond, thick and wavy.  I almost backed out again..almost. Ms.Ying's words
reverberated in my ears, "It would please Lee."

When the barber had finished, he had left still the outline of hair. Sort
of like when one goes in the military.

Even though I was appalled by my appearance, it occurred to me that this
was still not exactly the look Lee or Ms. Ying wanted,

"Do a close shave please"

Again he shrugged his shoulders, "O.K. any way you want it."

The shop I was in did tattoos and piercings also.  I felt it would be just
too much for my family to accept to add the nose ring at this time.

I decided to ease up to it by placing a small emblem in my eyebrow as I had
seen some of the teens at school do.  Even Lee had a small ear ring
piercing.

That type of thing would be acceptable and not too far out of line.  The
haircut?  Well, there was nothing anyone could do about that now.

I took one quick look in the mirror and wished I had not--I looked
outlandish.

I hurried back as fast as I could.  It had taken longer than I thought.
Once again I thought, "Do not upset Lee...or Ms. Ying"

Again I knocked on the front door.  Ms. Ying was still there.  "I'm very
disappointed in you Toad.  You said you would be back in an hour, and just
look at the time.  Lee got up a little earlier than usual so I had to give
him my car to pick up Kay and it has changed all my plans."

"I'm very sorry ma'am, I didn't realize."

"You should indeed be sorry.  But no matter, Lee is out back with Kay.  You
may go out and return the keys to him.  By the way, I love your new hair
style.  It definitely becomes you.  I think Lee will be pleased, but isn't
there something missing?"

"Yes Ma'am, but they didn't have that item," I lied, "But I will take care
of that tomorrow."

Damn, but she exuded that same authoritative demeanor as did Lee.  It would
have seemed proper to bow and back away from her.

"May I leave the keys with you ma'am?"

"No, Lee might have some use for you.  Besides, he will probably want to
see the new you, even if it's not completed."

All I could think of to say was, "Yes Ma'am."  But how I dreaded Kay seeing
the new me.

Lee and Kay were sprawled out together on one of those double hammocks in
the shade.  As usual, they both wore the skimpiest of bikinis and neither
one was more beautiful than the other.  A true God and Goddess.  I
suppressed an urge to grovel.  That's the way they always affected me.

Upon seeing me, Kay sprang up and put her fingers over her lips as if to
suppress a laugh, as she sometimes did, but not suppressing her laughter at
all this time.

"Oh my God, Lee!  I thought you were joking.  Did you really make him do
that?

Lee rose, put one arm around Kay and studied me as if I was a painting or
some object he had created and said, "Well I did suggest that he might look
good that way."

"Come on, Lee.  you know he does anything you tell him to do.  You made him
do it."

"Well O.K., I guess your right then.  I made him do it.  What do you think?
I hope you like."

They were discussing me as if I wasn't there, as they had sometimes done in
the past--as if I were an inanimate object.

She studied me again and said, "What's to like.  I think it's grotesque,
but there's also something very exciting about it all.  I mean that you
could make him do something like that.  That makes it beautiful somehow.
Do you know what I mean?  Lee, you are really something."

She then kissed him passionately as I looked on like a nerd...a bald nerd.

When he came up for air, Lee said, "Something's missing, isn't there Toad?"

I, of course, knew what he meant and answered, "I'll take care of that
tomorrow, Lee"

Kay said jokingly, "Oh no, don't tell me there's more."

"Maybe a little.  You'll see tomorrow, right Toad?"

"Yes Lee, whatever you say."

Kay then said to Lee, "I'm hungry, how about you Lee?"

"I could eat."

Then Kay now seeming to be brimming over with confidence said, "Toad, run
inside and fix something for Lee and myself."

"Yes Kay, right away."

As I left she said to Lee, "I can hardly wait for Carter and Dawn to get
here and see him.  I'll bet Dawn will bust a seam laughing.  He is not
exactly one of her favorite people.

Carter and Dawn arrived a little later accompanied by the ever present
Worm.

Kay had been correct about Dawn's reaction to the new me.  She laughed
hysterically, as did they all, including Worm.

I was glad when Worm and I drifted off to the side and the others conversed
amongst themselves, as was the norm.

Worm looked at me and shook his head saying, "I'll bet that was Lee's idea,
right?"

Discussing things like this with Worm posed no problem for me, no
embarrassment.  "Sure it was. You don't think I would want to do something
like this do you?"

It occurred to me that my answer was about as close as I could get to
acknowledging verbally that I was Lee's slave.  I did whatever he wanted,
not what I wanted.  This act of obedience was really significant.

Worm thought for a moment and said, "I hope this doesn't give Carter any
idea's."  Then he added, "Or Dawn."

I dreaded going home, but finally had too.  My mother looked shocked and
said, "What have you done to yourself?"

"It's a style that's going around for the summer called skinhead," I lied,
"But I guess the barber got a little carried away."

"It's dreadful."

"Mrs. Ying liked it...so did Lee."

As soon as I mentioned Mrs.Ying, her attitude changed.

"Oh, she did, and Lee also.  Humm, interesting.  Well, if that's what you
want.  And of course it will grow back."

Little did she know that would be entirely up to Lee.  She didn't seem to
mind the piercing at all and when I told her that I might be getting
another, she shrugged it off also.  I was relieved to get this part of my
humiliating ordeal over with.

The next day, I was able to borrow my car once again...who knows when Lee
might be generous again, I thought...and went back to the same place and
had the nose ring affixed.

It was about the size of a nickel in circumference.  I got the smallest
they had.  I know if Lee had been there he would have chosen one the size
of a silver dollar...or even larger.

I had a strange thought.  If it wasn't for my family, I would have also
chosen a larger ring, to more please Lee and Mrs.Ying.  Despite some
numbing liquid, it was a painful experience, but well worth it for the
desired result, as I'm sure Lee would agree.

Once again, I dutifully went to return the car keys to Lee.  That act alone
was a turn on for me.  I was acknowledging that the car was Lee's to use as
he pleased and any use of it he might grant me was an act of generosity for
which I should be humble and grateful.  Bizarre, I know, but that was the
effect Lee had on me.

Mrs. Ying had a smug amused expression when she answered the door. "Well
Toad, I have to say I'm really impressed with the new you look.  I'm sure
Lee will be also."

As I handed the keys to her, she said, "You may take them to Lee yourself.
He's up in his room.  I'm sure he's anxious to see you."

"Yes Ma'am."  Damn it, why did I always feel like genuflecting to her.

Lee was just coming out of the shower when I entered his room.  He was
naked, covered with little beads of water, drying himself with a towel.  He
seemed more impressive every time I saw him.  I was in complete awe of him.

I instinctively fell to my hands and knees, nose to the carpet.  It was no
longer a game or a lark sort of thing--it seemed natural and appropriate.

I couldn't, see but I heard him cross the room, and then finally the snap
of fingers.  It occurred to me once again that if I did not hear that snap
he could keep me as I was for who knows how long.

When I rose to a kneeling position, he was sprawled out on a couch type
chair, looking at me inquisitively.  I actually found myself hoping he
would be pleased at what I had done.

He pointed to a phone on a nearby table, and even though the phone was
closer to him, said, "Dial Kay's number."  I was in such an obedient mode
that I didn't even rise but hobbled over to the phone on my knees--I had
not been given permission to rise.

After a couple of rings, Kay's voice answered, "Hello?"  As I handed the
phone to Lee, I thought of how many times that hello had been for me.
There was just something about her voice and that little "hello" that
rekindled the remorse and feelings of jealousy in me big time.

They began chatting about nothing in particular as I knelt there.  Lee
tossed his towel at me exposing himself completely and pointed to his
feet. So there I was, on my knees drying his feet, while he chatted
pleasantly with the girl I had loved and lost to him.

As he conversed with Kay, I heard the snap of fingers. Lee had gotten an
erection and casually pointed to it.  The connotation was clear.

What once would have been unimaginable was now an accepted part of our
relationship.  Lee bent one leg at the knee and I moved forward to take his
rigid member that was standing straight upward into my mouth.

This was something I still had not gotten used too, but which was becoming
an exciting experience none the less, although I hated to admit it.

Lee remained motionless allowing me to bring about the eventual result,
which was of course Lee's pleasure, moving my head down and up slowly,
humiliated beyond belief as he continued his casual conversation with my
former girl friend.

The thought occurred to me: what would she think if she could see me at
this moment?  Her former steady boyfriend on his knees with her new
boyfriends rod in his mouth.  Now that would be interesting.  Somehow I
thought the new Kay would find it amusing and not be shocked at all.  I'll
bet Lee was thinking along those same lines.

Lee was telling her about a formal dance coming up that weekend at the
country club and that he had to wear a tux.  He said, "We'll make it
special.  Chauffeur driven limo and all."  I had no doubt as to who the
chauffeur would be.

My name must have come up because he said, "Of course, who else?  Besides,
he looks like that chauffeur from the comic strip, what's his name...Punjab
from the Annie strip."  And he laughed.  I'm sure she did also.

Lee seemed to be getting closer.  His hips twitched slightly.  I felt a
throbbing vein near the tip and pressed my tongue into it.  His hips sprang
forward and he gushed into my mouth.  One spurt after another until I lost
count.  He went right on talking.  My first thought was, I wonder if Kay
noticed the break in his voice when he came.  My seconded thought was, I
wonder if this is also on tape.

Without a word as he continued, he put the sole of a foot on my face and
pushed me away, as if to say, "I have no further use for you now."  I had
never hated him more, but strangely I had never admired him more.

I stayed in my room most of the time for the next couple of days, wanting
the new me to be seen as little as possible.  Friday Lee called telling me
I would be his chauffeur for the dance the next night.  "Go into town and
rent a chauffeur's uniform.  I'm using Worms town car."

"Yes Lee.  What kind?"  Boy, was I whipped.

"The kind that buttons around the neck.  Oh, and no cap."  Of course not,
he wanted his own Punjab.

The afternoon of the dance I washed and waxed Worm's town car until it was
gleaming.  Mrs. Ying called me in later to iron some of the wrinkles out of
Lee's tux shirt and press his pants.  She of course could have done that,
but why should she when her son had his very own personal slave?

When I came down as Lee finished dressing, Mrs. Ying handed me a box and
said, "Hurry over to Kay's with this.  It's a little gift I picked up for
her..."

"Yes Ma'am."

When I rang the bell no one answered, but Kay's voice from upstairs said to
come up as she wasn't ready yet.

She was seated at her mirror fixing her face as they say.  Not that hers
needed any fixing at all.  She wore a very brief black cocktail dress that
was so short, that, when seated, her magnificent legs were exposed almost
to the top.

Her hair was drawn up in what I believe is called Grecian style with a
tiara.  Her eyelids were blue, her lips crimson.  The words magnificent,
even stunning, came to mind.  It was plain to see why she was unanimously
voted prom queen.

Of course the old remorse and jealousy feelings emerged, but also the
strange excitement that she was Lee's and I had delivered her into his
hands.  Crazy, bizarre, I know.

"I'm glad your here.  It's getting late.  Get my shoes out of the closet.
The black open straps with heels."  It was not a request, like, 'will you?'
It was a command.  I liked that.

When I brought them over she continued what she was doing and said, "Well
what are you waiting for?  Put them on me.  I said it's getting late."

"Sure Kay.  I'm sorry."  I don't know what I was sorry for, but got on my
knees and slowly, almost reverently placed the pumps on her feet.  She
always wore open shoes.  She had perfect feet and knew it.  I could see the
polish through the black hose she wore.  I got hard just looking and must
have lingered too long.

"You can get up now," she said sarcastically.  Then, "What's in the box?"

"Oh, that's something from Mrs. Ying."

"Well open it."

"Sure Kay," and once again, I added, "Sorry."

It was a bra and panty set, jet black, with lacy edges.  The bra was only a
half, for uplift I thought.  Kay didn't need help in that department.  The
panties were like a thong...very brief.

Kay said, "Hey, I like them.  Mrs. Ying has good taste.  It's late but I'm
going to wear them.  Open my dress at the back."  Her mini dress covered
her breasts and stopped below her shoulders.  When I unzipped it, she said,
"Open the bra, stupid.  Do I have to tell you everything?"

"Sure Kay, I didn't know if I should."  I had removed her bra before at the
drive in, but now that she was Lee's girl, I didn't think I should.

Sweet hometown girl friend Kay had gone almost overnight to, 'Bitch Kay',
and I liked 'Bitch Kay' better, strangely enough.  Then she said, "Better
take advantage--it's the last time...Toad."  The addition of the "Toad" was
a kick, but what the hell, that's who I was.

She kicked off her shoes and pulled down the panties she wore.  As she was
about to remove them she said, "Get over here and help me balance."  I
hurried over and got on one knee for her to use my shoulder.  Then she
stepped out of them and pointing to the new pair said, "Well, what are you
waiting for?  Last chance, you know."

I got on both knees, as she stepped into them.  I slowly worked them up her
legs, pushing her dress up until all was revealed.  I could smell the sweet
aroma of whatever fragrance she had applied to her mound of Venus.  So
close, yet a million miles away.  Gone forever; now Lee's.

I hesitated, not wanting to close off the view of what I was witnessing.
she was silent for several moments and then said, "Go ahead, enjoy it while
you can.  As I said, it's the last time.  And if we are late, I'll have to
tell Lee why.  I don't think you want that do you?"

I felt embarrassed and stupidly said, "I'm sorry, I didn't realize I was
staring."

"Put on my shoes and lets go," She said disdainfully.

When she was all set to go, I looked up at her while still on my knees.  My
favorite word, "Wow!!"  Magnificent, outstanding, gorgeous...all the
superlatives I had ever heard came to mind.

I had a sudden urge to kiss her feet and beg her to forget what happened so
recently and we could start over.  But of course that was ridiculous.  Just
as ridiculous as I must look to her now that I was Lee's Buddha toy.

When I got home and put on my uniform, I went over and waited for Lee and
Kay to come out.  When they did, Mrs. Ying was nearby and said, "My, what a
beautiful couple, don't you think Toad?"

"Yes Ma'am"

"And don't you look nice in your uniform. Drive carefully."

"Yes Ma'am"

I opened the door for Kay, and then hurried around to open the other side
for Lee.  When he got in next to Kay, her dress was all the way up to the
top of her thighs.  I felt myself getting hard.

As we drove on, I could see Lee was all over Kay.  Her legs probably got
him hard also.  Lee said, "We have plenty of time, drive around the
lake... slowly."

"Sure Lee, anything you say."

I had a front row seat, and could see it all in the rear view mirror.  I
was sure Lee knew that.  After some face mushing and panting by both off
them, Kay slipped her skimpy dress over her head, and then her panty hose
and panties were off.  She was now naked in the back seat.

She twisted herself around and sat on Lee's lap facing him with her knees
bent.  It didn't take much imagination to know where lee's tool was as Kay
began moving her beautiful naked butt slowly up and down.

It was starting to get dark, but I could see it all very clearly. Then as I
watched, Lee looked into the rear view mirror and we made eye contact as he
bit his lower lip and jerked upward, just as he was about to come.

Sure I was jealous--I'm human--but even if I had the opportunity to change
places with him, I knew I wouldn't.  I was where I belonged, and Lee was
where he belonged.  Watching him fuck the girl I probably still loved in my
own way had been the biggest turn on in my life.  I was more in awe of him
than ever.