Date: Fri, 12 Mar 1999 23:51:19 PST From: Jay P <jakedane@hotmail.com> Subject: Backstreet Lust 2 Ok Folks here goes! This story is complete fiction (wish it wasn't, but it is), so I am not implying anything about Brian Littrell of the Backstreet Boys. I hope you all enjoy this story! If you have any comments, constructive criticisms, or just want to say "hello" then you can send me mail at jakedane@hotmail.com ...I'd love to hear from you! Remember, this is complete FANTASY!!! I know you've all been waiting for this part, so I hope I don't disappoint with it. Backstreet Lust Part 2 I woke up from the most wonderful dream in the arms of the most handsome guy in the world. But all those feeling were cut short all of the sudden when I realized that someone was yelling at me. As more sleepiness faded and the real world came back to me I discovered my father standing at the foot of my bed. At that moment, a thousand things where funning through my mind; here I was in bed with Brian Littrell of the Backstreet Boys and now my father had caught us in bed. I was ready to crawl under the sheets and die. "What the fuck is going on here Jay?" My father shouted at me. Brian stirred and sat up next to me. When he saw my father standing there, he turned white and he grabbed my hand under the sheet and held it. I was at a loss for words at that moment and just stared at my father. "ANSWER ME GODDAMMIT!" he shouted at me again. Brian suddenly got a look of anger and defensiveness on his face. "Dad, I don't know what to say." I managed to spit out before the tears fell from my eyes. "You don't have to say anything. Just get dressed and pack your stuff. I want you out of this house in 30 minutes." He said in a flat angry voice and then turned and left the room. I just broke down and cried, Brain took me into his arms and held me tightly. "Don't worry babe, everything is going be okay. I'll help you pack some stuff and we'll go back to the Hotel and work things out. I went to my closet and grabbed a few bags and started to pack my clothes and a few memories I could fit into the left over space. While I was doing this Brian grabbed his cell phone and dialed a number "Hey cousin, we have a little bit of a situation here. Me, no I'm okay, but something happened with Jay just now. I need you to bring the limo out here and pick us up, the sooner the better. I don't have time to explain it all now. Thanks Kevin" "Well, Jay, how ya doing?" Brian asked "Okay I guess considering, I have most my clothes packed up and stuff. I'm ready to leave this life behind." I said as I started to cry again. "Oh, come here Jay" Brian pulled me down on the bed and rocked me in his arms. "Why don't we take your stuff outside and go for a walk. I think that it would do you good Jay" "I think your right Bri" Back at the hotel... Kevin is gets dressed and walks out into the hallway. "Oh God, what has Brian done now?" He wonders to himself Just as he walks past Nicks door, Nick steps out "Hey Kev, where you headed off too so early in the morning? Getting a bite to eat before our busy day?" "Oh hey Nicky, no, I gotta go pick up Brian. He sounded like there was some kind of trouble. He spent the night at Jay's house" "Well, then I want to go with you too. Brian is my best friend in this world, like a brother to me and Jay seemed like a great guy too. " "Okay, but it sounded urgent. So we better get going." Kevin said urging Nick along. As me and Brian began walking around the neighborhood I did begin to feel a bit better. The morning air was still a bit crisp, and Brian kept his arm around me to keep me warm. After a bit we came to this small park with some swings. We each sat on one and kind of just swayed back and forth. After a few minutes of silence Brian looked over at me and said with such sincerity "I am so sorry Jay" "It's not your fault Brian. There was no way of know this was going to happen." I replied to him. "I don't want you to worry about anything either Jay, I want you to be with me. I really do love you. After last night I came to really realize that. There has only been one other time when I've felt like this, and he was my first love." Brain said, his voice trailing off. "Are you okay Brian?" "Yeah, I just haven't thought about Rick in a long time. Lots of memories" "Good or bad?" I asked "Both. It was an interesting time with him. We had our share of up's and down's." "Did you love him like you said you loved me?" "Yes, I did. But this is something more I feel with you. Rick and I where only 15 when we met. He had just moved to Kentucky, and was in a few of my classes. I can remember it like it was yesterday. I was sitting in English class when he walked in with the consoler. She walked over to the teacher. Then the teacher shook his hand and announced to the class, "Everyone, I would like you all to welcome Rick Knight. Rick, why don't you go take the empty seat next to Brian." Rick walked over and sat down beside me. I leaned over to him and said "Hi, Brian Latrell, welcome to Blue Valley High." "Thanks, Rick Knight." He said shaking my hand and smiling. I don't know why, but when Rick smiled I felt something inside of me. I quickly turned back to what the teacher was talking about. Throughout the period I kept having the feeling that Rick was watching me. Out of the corner of my eye I could see him looking at me just for a quick second or two. Finally the bell rang, lunchtime! I packed up my stuff and headed back to my locker. I walked back to the cafeteria. Scanning the room for a seat, I saw Rick sitting alone at one of the tables. I walked over and sat down. "Mind if I join you?" Rick looked up at me and smiled, "Sure, I haven't really met anyone here yet, other then you." "Well, I hope we can get to be good friends." I said. All during lunch we talked about school and life, and stuff. He moved here from Missouri, but he wouldn't tell me much about why they had moved, He would just quickly change the subject and if he didn't want to talk about it, I didn't want to push it. Over the weeks Rick and I got to be close friends, we where in a lot of the same classes. Pretty soon we became the best of friends. Hanging out at each other's home's and doing everything together. One weekend Rick was staying at my house while his parents where out of town. We had gone to a late movie and decided just to crash back at my house. It was pretty late and we both where pretty tired. I striped down to my boxers, and Rick had on his boxers and a t-shirt. "Hey Rick, is everything okay?" I asked "Huh? Oh, yeah, everything's fine." "You sure? You just seemed kind of out of it tonight." "Nah, I'm fine just got a few things on my mind." He replied looking kinda off into space "Do you want to talk about it? "NO! I'm sorry, I don't think I can talk about it with you Brian." I could tell that what ever it was it was really eating him up inside. He looked like he was a on the verge of tears. "Please talk to me Rick, you can trust me. I will be your friend no matter what." "Okay, I guess so. Remember when we first me, after I moved here. That day we where talking in the lunchroom. I never did tell you why we moved here." He said and took a deep breath. "Well, the reason we moved here is because I'm.I'm gay Brian." He just looked at the floor and I could tell he was crying. "Oh man, it's okay Rick. I still think of you as the same person." "Really?" He asked with a sniffle. "Of course." I told him. "That still doesn't quiet explain why you moved here?" "Well, some people at school found out I was gay. And soon it was all over school. People would whisper when I would walk down the halls. At one point some of the jocks cornered me after school one day. They beat me up and threatened to kill me. I was so scared. I had to tell my parents about everything. Thank God they supported me, but the school didn't believe my claim. That's when my dad was able to get another job out here. So we moved away from it all." At that point Rick just broke down into sobs. I don't think he had ever told anyone about this before. I just held him in my arms as he cried. "It's okay Rick, it's not your fault. I love you and I wont let anyone ever hurt you again." I told him as I rocked him in my arms. "What did you just say?" Rick asked looking at me with a look of astonishment "I said I love you, and I wont let anyone ever hurt you again." I told him "Your gay?" he asked "Yeah, I guess I've always had these kinds of feelings, but it finally hit me when you walked into class that first day." I told him. I reached over and wiped the tears away and leaned over to him. I gently kissed him. I could feel him tense up at first, but the he let go and opened up. Our tongues wrestling. We spent the rest of the night just kissing and snuggling. I remember waking up snuggled up next to him, my arms around him. "We just had the best times when we where together. Being with him made me so incredibly happy" Brian told me "And I felt the same way when I kissed you last night Jay." Brain said looking over at me and holding my hand. When he said that the tears just streamed down my face again. Things where changing for me so fast now, but I could really hear the sincerity in his voice, and I was ready to be with him. The sun was just starting to come overhead. I hadn't realized we had been gone for so long. "I think we should be heading back to your house Jay. Kevin should be getting here soon." Brain said to me as he stood. "Yeah, I guess we should be heading back. I just don't want to face my family again." I said starting to choke up again. "Don't cry, oh Jay please don't cry. Your father seemed pretty upset and I doubt they will cause more trouble." Brian said taking my hands and pulling me up off the swing. We started to walk back towards my house. We walked back to my house in silence; Brian kept his arm around me the whole time. I could really tell that this was going to last. When we got back my parents where gone and they had placed all the bags we had packed by the garage door. "Why does it have to be like this?" I thought to myself. Just then a horn honked and as we turned to see the limo pulling into the driveway. Kevin and Nick stepped out of the car. I was a bit surprised to see Nick but I was also happy to have him there. "Wow, you guys look like you've had a rough day so far. Is everything okay?" Kevin asked. I just looked down at the ground. "Nick why don't you and Jay wait in the limo. Kev, could you help me with these bags and I can tell you a little bit of what's happened." Brain said. "Sure thing Brian. Come on Jay, you look like you could use some water." Nick said helping me into the limo. Inside we couldn't hear what Brian and Kevin were discussing but their voices where raised. Nick and I just sat there and looked at each other. After a few moments of silence the door opened and Brian and Kevin climbed in. Brian sat next to me and Kevin next to Nick. "Driver take us back to the hotel." Kevin directed at the limo driver. The whole ride back to the hotel was made in silence. I just stared out the window thinking back over what had happened so fast. Tears just rolling down my face. Brian just kept his hand on my knee, rubbing my leg to try and comfort me. We arrived at the hotel a short time later. We got out and a Brian instructed the bellman to take my bags up to his room. "Hey Brian, I think it would be best if we met down in my room in like 15 minutes with the other guys to update them on what's going on. I'll have some food sent up. I'm sure where all hungry." Kevin said as we rode up the elevator. "Okay Kev." Brian replied The doors opened and Brian led me to his room and Kevin and Nick walked to their rooms. I was not looking forward to this talk. ------------------------------- Well, I know this part was a bit short and no big love scenes, but every story need one of these chapters. As always, send your comments to me at jakedane@hotmail.com. Any suggestions would be appreciated.