Date: Wed, 11 Dec 2002 10:59:47 -0800 (PST)
From: JACK BROWN <jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: brian & jack part 10

WARNING: the following story contains material that might not be
appropriate for all readers. So if you are not allowed to read this,
then don't do it!. The following is a fictional story containing guy
to guy sex and fantasy's of being with a celebrity, the celebrity
being Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys.  I am a fan of theirs
and in no sense is any of this story true.  Its just a little
fantasy.
You must be 18 or of legal age in your state to read this. So read
on and I hope you like it, it is my first time writing a story like
this so I hope you all like it.


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well, here we are again, another chapter. Thanks for all your feedback and
all your comments, I really appreciate it

anyway, onto the story...


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I felt someone tap my shoulder and I opened my eyes to see that it was
Justin.

"come on, we're here" he said and smiled.

"ok" I said as I ran my hands through my hair and then I got up.

I gathered all my belongings and then we walked out of the plane. When I
stepped out of the plane I was so stunned seeing that there was a huge
crowd waiting for the guys. I just looked around and I could only see
screaming fans waiting for the guys. There were not only girls, but boys in
the crowd as well, they were holding up banners, posters and all the N*SYNC
merchandise you could possibly imagine.

"lots of people, eh?" Josh asked behind me and laughed

"yes" I said and starting walking down the plane.

Rob, our security man, told us to stay close together and move quickly
while we walked thorough the airport and into the limo. The guys and I
stayed as close together as we could. Fans, photographers, journalists,
etc. were all over the place and just taking pictures of all of us.

While walking through the airport, I could see that not only people where
holding up N*sync's photos but I could also see a few people holding up
some of my photos. Some of them were very recent and some of them were a
bit older, but as I skimmed through the photos, was stunned. There was this
man holding up a big picture of me in underwear!. While I was a model, I
wore all the different types of clothing and swim wear, but only once I
posed wearing only a thong.

I didn't have anything against it, it was just that I didn't enjoy doing it
very much. The only time I did it, was for a Calvin Klein advertisement. I
can remember it very well, it feels like it was only yesterday that I did
it...

I got asked to do it, since I was young, I thought it might be a good
idea. For the shoot I had to wear only a sort of thong and nothing else! Of
course, I was not the only one, there were also a few others models around,
and they were all wearing thongs. The photos were a bit naughty and had a
hint of sexual attraction between males. With those photos, the CK campaign
skyrocketed and sold millions of products.

There was only one photograph that didn't take part in the campaign. It was
a picture of me where I was just wearing a thong and I seem to be working
out. Since it didn't take part in the campaign, they threw it away, but
only one person kept a copy of it was...Tom!

"look, they've got a picture of you in your underwear too" Josh said as he
pointed at it. The guys turned to look at it, but didn't say a word.

"I know" I said lowly as I looked at the man holding it. It was Tom...

I hadn't seen him in a while and he seemed fine. He looked healthy and
happy, he then smiled at me. As soon as I noticed that he was smiling at
me, I quickly turned away and continued walking.

"Jack! Jack! Jack!" Tom shouted from behind as I walked a bit quicker.

"Jack, I think that man knows you" Joey said and turned to look at him.

"I don't know" I said as I continued walking fast. I really did not want to
see him at that moment.

"he seems familiar" Chris said

"he does, doesn't he?" Lance said again.

We all continued walking until we got into the limo. As soon as we got
inside, the whole crowd surrounded the limo and started to bang on the
widows. I was sitting next to Justin and Jc, across from us, were Chris,
Joey and Lance. The driver, Lou, started the engine, but it was impossible
for us to leave since people were all around the limo. I just turned to
look out of the window and I found Tom.

"oh, crap!" I said as I turned around

"what did you say?" Josh asked

"nothing" I answered "I said  'oh, crab', I'd really love to eat a crab
right now" I rubbed my stomach and hoped that they didn't recognize Tom.

"oh, look, it's that guy again" Chris said as he pointed at Tom

"isn't that the guy in the photograph at Jack's home" Joey said rubbing his
head.

"yes, his name is Tom" Lance said

"he is your ex, isn't he?" Chris asked

"yes" I nodded and I turned to look at him. He couldn't see me through the
window, but I could see him.

"he is looking for you" Justin said

"I know, but I don't want to talk to him" I said and turned away.

The driver could finally drive  out of there and I thanked God a million
times for it. While the driver took us to our hotel, the guys went to sleep
for a while. It was very late, it must have been around 4 or 5 in the
morning!, anyway, they were sleeping while I just looked out the window and
thought about Tom.

I hadn't seen him in a long, long time and when I him I didn't know what to
do. I just wanted to get out of there as fast as I could. I had mixed
feelings, on one hand I hated him for cheating on me and hitting me, but on
the other hand I was grateful to him. If he hadn't cheated on me, I would
have never met Brian, who is the best boyfriend a guy could ask for

But what did Tom want?, would he be looking for me again?, I knew that Tom
was up to something, but I couldn't figure out what.

We arrived at our hotel a few minutes later and we went up to our rooms. I
was to tired to do anything else. The guys had their rooms next to mine

"we have to be at the rehearsals at 11:00" Josh said aloud before we went
into our rooms. "we'll meet for breakfast in my room at 10, ok?, do not be
late". We all nodded in agreement and went into our rooms.

As soon as I opened my bedroom door I just fell onto the bed and went to
sleep.

I opened my eyes and looked at my watch, it was already 9:00, so I decided
it was time to get a shower and get ready for breakfast. I went into the
bathroom and when I looked at the mirror I realized that I had slept with
my clothes on. I looked at the bed and noticed that it was made.

"so I slept with my clothes on and didn't get in the bed" I said to myself
as I ran my hands through my hair. "you better not get used to that Jack" I
laughed.

While I was showering, I heard someone knocking on my door. 'great' I
thought and got out of the shower 'it must be Justin'. I grabbed a towel
and wrapped it around my waist, then I headed towards the door.

"Isn't it a little early for you Justin" I said while I opened the door. I
was shocked to see who it was.

"It's not Justin" Tom said.

I was speechless for a second or two, what was he doing here?.

"can I come in?" he asked

"erm... no"

"come on, I've come a long way to see you, I need to talk to you" Tom said
again. "please?"

"ok, but only for a while, because I need to get ready for work" I told him
"yes, yes, it will only be a few minutes" he said and he went inside.

He walked in the room and then he stared at the made bed.

"you didn't sleep in your bed" he said amazed

"I slept on it, not in it" I stated

"you slept on it?" he said amazed again "that's not very typical of you"

"are you here to see where I slept?" I said and was getting a bit angry.

"no, not at all"

He sat on the bed while I got out from my suitcase a casual suit that I was
going to wear that day.

"we can talk while I get changed" I said as I grabbed my clothes

"sure" he said as he raised his head.

I walked to the bathroom and was about to close the door behind me when Tom
spoke "where are you going?"

"I'm going to get changed, just as I told you" I told him

"why don't you get changed here?"

"I don't think so"

"when we were together, you always got changed in front of me"

"you said it, when we WERE together, past time" I said as I looked at him
"things change Tom"

"I guess so" he said lowly.

I got changed and walked out of the bathroom and faced him.

"you look as beautiful as always" Tom said standing up

"you still haven't told me why you're here" I answered him

"well..." he started "I was hoping that we could just try to work our
things out"

"I'm sorry Tom, but it's too late"

"it's never too late" he said in hope

"well, for me it is, I'm already with someone else"

"with that Backstreet boy isn't it" he said with bitterness

"his name is Brian" I shot back

"ok, but he's a celebrity and..." he started but I cut him off

"and what?"

"well, he has his own world, and you're not part of it"

"what?" I told him pissed and walked to my suitcase and got out my hair gel

"I mean that a relationship with him might be a bit difficult" he said lowly

"more difficult than it was with you?" I said as I looked at him "I don't
think so"

"does he make you happy?" he asked

"he doesn't make me cry" I answered looking at him "and yes, he also makes
me the happiest man on earth"

"you used to say that about me"

"well, you did make me happy...long time ago"

"listen, I just think, that maybe, if we try again..."he said in a sweet
voice.

"how beautiful sounds, doesn't it?" I said sarcastically. He came over and
put his arms around my waist.

"no, no" I told him as I moved away quickly "that's over, and it's better
if you leave"

"no, wait, listen"

"no, Tom, you listen, I'm happy right now, and I don't want to get back
with you ok?" I said as I walked to the door. I opened it and then I
extended my hand showing him the way out.

"I was a fool for letting you go, but I promise you one thing" he said
seriously as he walked to the door and stood in front of me. "I will win
you back somehow"

"well, good for you" I said sarcastically.

"so long Jack" he said as he left.

I closed the door as soon as he left and then just leaned against it. My
eyes started to fill with tears and then I couldn't control it anymore, I
cried. I just sat down on the floor with my hands on my face. Why was I
crying? I guess it really hurt me seeing Tom again. After all this time I
thought that I was really over him, but by the way I was reacting I was not
completely over him.

I walked to the bathroom, grabbed a glass and filled it with water. I
looked at the mirror and saw my face. 'why did he have to come back I
thought

"damn it" I said upset and threw the glass across the bathroom until it
smashed against the wall. The glass broke in lots of pieces and then I just
walked out of there.

I was looking out the window when my cell phone started ringing. I went
over to the bedside table to pick it up and flipped it open.

"hello" I said in a low voice.

"Hi shaky" Brian said excited

"oh, hi Bri, how are you?"

"I'm fine, but I can hear that are not that fine, what's wrong" he said
worried

"I'm fine really" I said trying to cheer myself up, so that Brian wouldn't
get worried.

"Jack Brown"

"yes?"

"you tell me what's wrong with you or I'll go down there to get it out of
you" He said in a mothering voice.

"ok, mother, I'll tell you...Tom was here" I finally told him

"what? Tom? Why was he there? what did you do? what did he tell you? Did he
hit you? Are you ok?" he said worried

"yes, Tom was here, I don't know why he was here, I let him in and we
talked for a while, he said he wanted to get back with me, and I'm fine" I
answered all of his questions at once and then I was out of breath.

"what you mean get back with you?, after all he did to you?"

"well, he said he had been a fool for leaving me and he said he wanted to
get back with me at any cost".

There was a long pause from both sides of the line, none of us said a word.

"and...are you?" Brian sounded really worried by then.

"no silly, of course not, I could never forgive him. Right now I'm as happy
as I could because I'm with you" I said lovingly.

"well, baby, this is as good as it gets" he said cheerfully.

"I bet it's true" I answered and laughed

"I love you so much Jack"

"thanks, so do I Bri"

"do you want me to go there and be with you?" Brian asked

"no, Brian, thanks, but I'm fine thanks"

"are you sure?"

"yes"

"are you sure, sure, sure?"

"yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes, yes," I answered him and we both starting
laughing.

"Brian, stop talking to your boyfriend and get back here now!" I heard
someone yell at Brian.

"who's that?" I asked

"that's Tim, the choreographer" he replied

"he really makes you guys work your butt off doesn't he?" I said and
giggled

"I know, please come and save me" he whined

"I can't Bri, I'm working too"

"please come to save me from this mean old man" He raised his voice,
probably he did it so that Tim could hear him. I just laughed.

"give me that" I heard another voice say and then Brian saying no.

"Jack?"

"yes"

"hi, this is Tim"

"hi Tim, how's it going?" I asked

"it's going well, but your boyfriend here is being lazy and doesn't want to
rehearse at all" he said laughing. I could hear a lot of noise, maybe they
were fighting over the phone or something.

"why?" I asked

"he said that he was tired from last night, he said he was awake until 3 0r
4 in the morning because you two were at the airport waiting for your
plane, is that true?"

"don't answer that Jack!" I heard Brian yell in the background.

"that is so not true Tim, he dropped me off at around 8, so he had plenty
of sleep!" I said and laughed

"excellent, that's all I wanted to hear, I'll make him pay for that" he
whispered and giggled

"here Bri, say goodbye to your Jack" Tim said to Brian and he put him
through

"Shaky?"

"yes?" I said nonchalantly

"you'll be sorry for this, now Tim is going to make me work extra hard"

"you shouldn't have lied dear"

"you shouldn't have blown my cover away"

"you'll be fine" I said and laughed

"well, I better get back to work"

"I think I should be getting ready too" I told him as I looked at my watch.

"are you sure you'll be fine?" Brian asked again.

"yes, Bri, now get back to your rehearsal"

"ok, I love you"

"I love you too B, bye"

"bye"

I ended the call and closed my cell phone. I looked at my watch again and
noticed that I was late, since it was already 10 o'clock. I quickly grabbed
again my cell phone and put in my pocket. I went over to the mirror and
looked at myself anymore. My face had changed completely in a few
minutes. I looked happy again and I was not feeling down.

"thanks Brian" I said quietly as I ran my hands through my face.

Brain did make me very happy. He knew when to say a joke or something to
make me laugh...He always said the right things at the right moment.

I walked out of my room and headed towards Jc's room. I mean Josh's
room. From all the time I had spent with the guys, I had come to notice
that Jc prefers to be called Josh, obviously because that was his name and
also because Jc was his sort of 'celebrtiy' name, if you know what I
mean...

Anyway, when I knocked on his door, he opened immediately. He invited me
in, all the guys were already there and they were having breakfast.

"help yourself" Josh said as he pointed at the food.

"thanks" I said as I grabbed a plate and put some fruit on it. I also
grabbed a glass with orange juice and the I sat down next to Josh and
Justin.

"did all of you sleep well" I asked looking at everyone

"yes"

"no"

"sort of"

"my bed was not comfortable"

"mine neither"

They all answered at once and I just looked at them. They spoke so quickly
that I couldn't understand a word they said.

"oh, really" was all I said.

We had breakfast fairly quickly since they still were not quite
ready. Justin and Lance were not dressed yet, they were only wearing shorts
and t-shirts. Joey was still half asleep-half awake, so he excused himself
and went to have a shower. The only ones who were practically ready were
Josh and me...oh yes, and Chris was ready too.

Anyway, the day went by very quickly. By mid day, we were at the dance
rehearsals. Wade was the choreographer again. They were practicing a new
dance routine for their new video 'Girlfriend'. It was to be shot after we
returned from our Christmas holidays.

The guys rehearsed for a few hours, and repeated the dance routine over and
over again. Wade was a little disturbed, he looked as if he couldn't think
of any new moves. I was just looking at them from the other side of the
room. I was just sitting on a chair watching them rehearse.

"Jack, could you come here for a sec" Wade said from the other side of the
room

"yes, what's up?" I asked as I went closer to them

"I can't think of any new moves, why don't you help me" he said as he ran
his hand along his face.

"well...I've learned more or less the dance routine, so maybe if we do it
again, we can come up with new ideas" I told him.

"sure, on 5,6,7,8!" he said and we started dancing.

Both of us did the whole dance routine twice and then I just let myself go
and carried on dancing. I came up with quite a few new moves that Wade
obviously liked a lot. The guys were very impressed to see with how much
facility I could come up with new moves.

"wow" they all said in unison "where did you learn that from?

"well..." I started "I was a dancer before I was a designer"

I explained a little bit about my career, and how I had met Wade and
Britney. I did not tell the story in detail, but just the general idea.

"and that's how you got to know Wade?" Josh asked

"exactly" I assured him

"well Wade, there you go" I said as I faced him and went back to my seat.

"thanks for the new moves, but why don't you finish off" he asked me

"no thanks, wade, I'm a bit rusty" I said and smiled

"come on Jackie" Justin said "come here and dance with us"

"I don't think so" I answered again

"just give me one good reason" Justin said, not giving up

"because..." I started "I don't want to get sweaty"

"why?" Justin asked again. I was starting to get annoyed from all this
stupid questions, but I controlled myself.

"because from here I'll be meeting up with Sandra and Cory to get the
outfits ready for tonight and I won't have time to shower"

"that sounds like a good reason to me Justin" Chris said

"yeah, ok" Justin finished

The rest of the rehearsal ran smoothly. We were there until 4:30, then the
guys headed towards the hotel to get showered and rest for a while before
that night's show. Meanwhile I went to meet up with Sandra and Cory at the
place where the guys were going to have their show that night.

When I arrived there, there were lots of people running around. People were
getting the place cleaned up and doing the last sound and light check
before the show. The show that night was supposed to be at 8, but I always
had to be at least 2 hours before the concert began, so that I could get
all the outfits ready.

Anyway, I walked backstage and I found Sandra and Cory there already
waiting for me. Sandra and Cory were my assistants too, but when we went on
tour, Daniel didn't come with us, but instead Sandra and Cory did, since
they were also the dancers.

We went into the guys changing rooms to get the outfits ready. Sandra and
Cory helped me getting all the clothes out of the suitcases and I just hung
them on the clothe rail.

When I went on tour with either N*SYNC or the BSB, their outfits, were
always kept in a suitcase, so that they could be carried around
easily. Every time we arrived at our destination, I would have to get all
the clothes out of the suitcases and check if they needed to be ironed or
something, before their concerts.

That night was no different from all of the others. We spent at least the
next two hours getting the outfits perfectly ready.

"well, guys that's it" I said as I hung the last piece of clothing on the
clothe rail.

"then Jack, we're off" Sandra said happy

"yes guys, rest for a while" I said as I looked at my watch. It was already
6:30.

Sandra and Cory grabbed their stuff and walked out of the room. I just
stayed there, since there was no point on going back to the hotel if the
concert was going to start in about an hour. I went to the bathroom and
washed my face. I got my hair gelled and tried to look more presentable.

The guys arrived at around 7:30. By that time there were already many fans
waiting for that night's concert. The guys went into the changing room
where I was in.

"I'm gonna do it tonight" Justin said as he walked in, without realizing I
was there

"please don't do it, you'll ruin what you have now" Josh said. He turned
and noticed that I was there and changed the subject.

"hi Jack" Josh said immediately as he looked at me.

"hi Josh" I answered

"hi Jack" the rest of the guys said in unison

"hi guys" I answered "ready for tonight?"

"oh yes, definitely Jackie" Justin answered excited

I have no idea why, but Justin liked calling me 'Jackie'. I never told him
that I hated being called that, long time ago at school some kids used to
call me Jackie and I detested that nickname, no one else had used that
nickname again until Justin came. There was actually nothing wrong with
being called Jackie, but I didn't like it, because I always thought it was
really girlish...

I had loads of nicknames, I was called Shaky by Brian, Maverick by John,
Chap by Paul, Faye called me bubble, the BSB called me butthead because of
my big bum , and the N*SYNC guys called me...called me...I guess they just
called me Jack, because I can't remember any particular nickname...hehehe

Anyway, the guys started to get ready for the concert, while I went to sit
on one side of the stage.

The concert ran smoothly, every time the guys were to have an outfit change
(which was like every 2 songs or sometimes even one!), I would have to go
into the changing room and hand them their next outfit. I didn't spend much
time sitting down, I would be rather busy getting their outfits ready...

Well, everything went well until it was time for Justin's solo. The guys
were busy changing clothes when Josh came over to me.

"Jack, I need to talk to you about something really important"

"ok, but now it's not the time I'm really busy" I said as I was walking
around the room.

"it's very important" Josh said again in a serious tone of voice.

"ok, tell me" I said as I looked at him

"well, you see it's Justin..." he began

"oh, shoot the hat!" I said as I looked at one side of the room and noticed
that Justin had left his hat behind and it was part of his solo outfit.

"the hat?" Josh asked as he looked at it "what about it?"

"it's Justin's I have to give it to him before he goes on stage" I said as
I grabbed it and ran out of the room

"but wait..." Josh said before I left the room.

I ran quickly to the stage, but didn't make it on time. By the time I was
about to give him his hat, he went on stage. 'Damn it' I thought as I
walked to one side of the stage and showed him his hat. Justin just looked
at me and smiled. I just smiled at him too.

"well, are you having a good time tonight!" Justin yelled at the crowd.

>From where I was standing I could see very well that the place was sold
out, thousands of people were there that night.

"well, the next song I am going to dedicate it to someone really special to
me..." Justin said and the crowd just yelled.

'let's who's the lucky person' I thought to myself and giggled.

"this is a song for you Jackie!" Justin yelled and quickly turned to look
at me. Almost all the lights went out, except a few which were shining on
Justin, then the music went on and he started singing...

It's the things that you do
So physical
It's the things that you say
So flammable
You know I can't resist
Boy it's such a shame
Do you belong to another?
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But my heart just can't hold back
It's the way you make me feel
The way that you make me feel
Spinning my world around
Tell me, how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway
It's the way you make me feel
I'm gonna make you mine
It's not impossible
Got to let you know
I'm irresistible
Baby can't you see
You're the one for me
But you belong to another
I don't wanna hurt nobody
But my heart just can't hold back
It's the way you make me feel
The way that you make me feel
Spinning my world around
Tell me, how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway
It's the way you make me feel
When I look into your eyes
Every time you smile at me
Oh I go weak inside
Baby I just can't hide, my love
It's the way you make me feel
The way that you make me feel
Spinning my world around
Tell me, how can I walk away
I don't care what they say
I'm loving you anyway
It's the way you make me feel.
I love you Jackie with every bit of my heart...
By the time the song ended, the whole crowd was going completely wild,
yelling, screaming and clapping, etc.
I, on the other hand was shocked why did he say he loved me?, is he high or
something?, I had so many things on my mind that I was completely
speechless...Justin was in love with me?...

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song credits:

1.- song:   It's the way you make me feel

    artist: Steps

    Album: Buzz

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 well, that's it for chapter 10, I'll see you in chapter 11

write to: jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com

"Enjoy life and always be yourself"

bye for now

Jack B.