Date: Thu, 13 Feb 2003 17:39:00 -0800 (PST)
From: JACK BROWN <jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com>
Subject: gay/celebrity/boybands/brian &jack/ chapter 12

WARNING: the following story contains material that might not be
appropriate for all readers. So if you are not allowed to read this,
then don't do it!. The following is a fictional story containing guy
to guy sex and fantasy's of being with a celebrity, the celebrity
being Brian Littrell from the Backstreet Boys.  I am a fan of theirs
and in no sense is any of this story true.  Its just a little
fantasy.
You must be 18 or of legal age in your state to read this. So read
on and I hope you like it, it is my first time writing a story like
this so I hope you all like it.

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ok, I think I'm posting on a regular basis I guess :) To all of you who
keep writing and sending me your comments, I thank you because I really
appreciate it.

Anyway, let's get moving...


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Well, I arrived at my place around lunch time. I went inside, but I
couldn't find a soul, my house was completely empty. I went up to my room
and got settled.

I changed clothes and then I went downstairs. I walked to the kitchen I and
was about to prepare myself some lunch, when the front door opened. I
peeked my head out and saw both of my brothers coming in.

"hi boys" I shouted

"you're back!" John said happily as he ran towards me to hug me. He carried
me and gave me a few spins.

"well, aren't we excited?" I said and laughed

"I'm glad you're back, that's all" John said and put me down. Paul came
over and hugged me.

After a few seconds we broke the hug and then I told them everything I had
done over the tour. We had lunch and I also told them what had happened
with Justin.

"oh dear" Paul said preoccupied.

"I know" I said and looked at him.

"well, let's not get sad" John said cheerfully

"ok, but I want to discuss this matter further more later on" Paul said
looking at me. I just nodded in agreement.

"whatever" John said as he got up from the table and began clearing up the
plates.

"I meant just Jack and me" Paul said as he got up from the table too.

"so now I'm left out?" John said in a hurt tone of voice

"oh shut up" Paul said and laughed.

I could hear them arguing in the kitchen, while I just sat at the table for
a moment. My brother John was very sweet and I loved spending time with
him. He was very easy going and cheerful. My brother Paul, on the other
hand, was the one who I turned to when I had a problem, he was a shoulder
to cry on and he would always try to give the best advice he could give
me. He was a bit mothering, you know, always worrying where you're going or
what you're wearing, always looking after you.

My brother Paul was much more mature than John, even I was more mature than
John, I guess.

"what's up with you?" John said as I came back to reality.

"huh, nothing" I said as I got up from the table and headed towards the
kitchen. We spent the whole evening chatting and watching tv.

Brian arrived at my place around 7. I, as usual, was not ready. When he
knocked on my door, I was just finishing getting dressed.

"someone get the door" Paul shouted from the tv room.

"I can't" John shouted too

"neither can I" I shouted from my room "I'm getting dressed"

"ok, I'll get it" Paul shouted again.

After a few seconds I recognized Brian's voice, so I knew he was there. I
was looking at the mirror when I heard my brother John go down the stairs
and greet Brian. I knew I had to get ready quick since John was with Brian
and he was always a pain in the ass telling Brian stories about me.

I grabbed the small box that had the ring inside and put it in my coat
pocket. I was really looking forward to giving it to Brian.

I went downstairs and I could hear them laughing, so I just hoped that they
were not talking about me.

"hi Bri" I said as I got closer to him.

"hi sweetie" he said as he got up from his seat. He came closer to me and
kissed my lips.

"we were just talking about you" Brian said with a cheeky grin on his face.

"really?" I asked as we all sat down "and what were you talking about me?"

"I was telling Brian that you've dated quite a few people in the past" John
said and laughed

"how dare you, that's private" I said

"don't worry, I didn't say much" he said as he put his arms behind his head
and laid back.

"what did he tell you?" I turned to see Brian

"well, that you've dated quite a few people" Brian answered and smiled.

"but why don't you tell him yourself" John said

"yeah go on, tell me" Brian asked

"no, why don't you tell me about yours?" I asked hoping that Brian wouldn't
want to talk about it

"I'll tell you and then you'll tell me?" Brian asked

I wasn't sure what to answer, I really thought that Brian was going to drop
the subject, but he didn't. I knew that I would have to tell him some time,
so why not now?. I was also quite curious how many people Brian had dated
in the past, I was sure that he would have dated very important people.

"ok, Brian, I'll tell you if you tell me"

"excellent" Brian said

"well, how many people have you dated?" I asked interested. He was quiet
for a second and then he answered.

"two" Brian answered

"what?" John and I said in disbelief "yeah right"

"it's true, I promise" Brian answered.

"I don't believe you" John said.

"I'm telling you, it's true, I've only dated a guy called Nate and now you
Jack" Brian said and by looking right into his eyes I could see that he was
telling the truth.

"oh dear" I said as I sat back on the couch.

"how about you?" Brian asked

"well..." I started " a few more"

"how many more?" Brian asked

"just a few" I replied

"you liar, tell him the truth, you've dated loads of guys" John said and
laughed

"loads?!!?, who were them?" Brian said.

"tell him all about them" John said

"I don't think so" I told them

"please?" Brian asked as he gave me puppy eyes.

"ok, ok, ok, I can't stand those puppy eyes" I said and smiled

I told him about the people I had dated. The first guy I remember dating
was Sam, we dated for a while when I was 17, he was 18 but we still shared
quite a few nice moments together. He was the football player on my school
team and we lasted a few months, but then his dad was transferred to Spain
and we broke up, from time to time we wrote letter to each other until we
stopped writing. Then I dated Ian, he was my next door neighbor while we
were in England. He was cute and sweet, and we dated for a while too, but
then my parents died and I came to New York and we kind of lost touch.

As soon as we moved here, I met Steve, he was a trainer at a gym that was
really close to our place. I met him when I went to work out and we clicked
almost immediately, again, we dated for a while and then he turned out to
be married. I was really bummed because he had completely used me. Then I
met Tom and you know that part...

When I broke up with Tom, I was on the road with Britney and I tried to
focus on my job. Britney's support act was a British group called Steps, it
was made of two guys and three girls. They were very nice people and since
we were together on the road, they noticed that I was sad. One of the guys,
Lee, tried to get closer to me and comfort me.

Lee was a really nice guy, he was sweet and a total gentleman. At that
moment I couldn't think of him as anything but a friend. Time went by and
he went back to England when the tour ended. We kept in touch for a while
and I was really getting into him. He invited me to England to stay with
him for a few days, but I was always busy with Britney.

When I decided to become a designer, I went to England to promote my
designs and I met up with Lee again. We spent a lot of time together, he
tried to be with me as much time as possible, we dated for a few months,
until he had some global promotion with Steps, and then it was actually
impossible to get hold of him. We decided to take a break and see how
things worked out for me and him on our own...

"...and I haven't seen Lee since then"

"do you love Lee?" Brian asked

"well, I did back then, but it's been so long" I answered "and now I'm in
love with you"

"oh, well, that was quite a life you got there" Brian said and I could see
a tear escaping from the corner of his eye.

"I know" I said and smiled

"well, but those aren't all" John said in disbelief

"well those are the ones who I dated for a longer period of time and I got
to know them better, I guess" I smiled

"...and fell in love with them too Brian" my brother finished and
laughed. I just smiled

"but he has gone out with thousands of guys" John started

"how many?, name them" Brian asked John

"well, there was Andy, Drew, Barry, Jon, James, Matthew, Ashley, Kian,
Robin, Aaron, Michael, Ernest, Damian, Nate..." John kept going until I
decided it was time to stop him.

"ok, John, that's enough" I said interrupting

"wow that was a long list" Brian said and smiled.

"and I still haven't finished" John said

"well, that's enough" I said again.

We spent a while talking about anything really, until Brian decided it was
time to go.

"my love?" Brian asked

"yes dear?" I answered. I always loved the way he called me his love.

"well, I think we better get going now"

"ok, let's go" I said as I got up from my seat and walked to the door.

Brian followed me and we both grabbed our coats from the perch. My brother
John said goodbye and then walked up to his room. I led Brian out of the
house and then he guided me to his car. As usual, he opened the door for me
to get in.

He drove for a while and then we stopped at a nice Italian restaurant. The
valet quickly came over and took away the car to park it. Brian and I went
inside and a waiter took us to our table.

The restaurant was very pleasant, it had candles on each table and it was
nicely decorated. It had photographs of Italian landscapes on all the
walls. There wasn't one that I liked the most, I just loved all of them.

It was really crowded even tough it was not that late. It must have been
around 9.

"I really like this place Brian" I told him and smiled

"I thought you might like it" he said pleased "I've been here a couple of
times and the food is just great"

"I can imagine" I responded

"I'll be back honey, I'm just going to the bathroom" Brian said in a low
voice. I nodded and he left.

A waiter came over and handed me the menu. I started looking through it
wondering what to eat when I felt someone tap on my shoulder.

"back so quickly?" I asked thinking that it was Brian

"I didn't know you were expecting me" a voice said. I immediately knew that
it was not Brian, but Lee.

"oh, hi Lee" I said happily as I got up from my seat and faced him

"what's up Jack?" He said as he came closer to me and hugged me. I hugged
him back

"not much, but what have you been up to Lee?" I said as I broke the hug

"not much either, are you here on your own?" he said and smiled.

"no, Brian is in the bathroom, he'll be back shortly"

"John told me about you two, I'm really happy for you" he smiled.

"have you been talking to him?" I asked

"well, I talked to him a few months ago and he told me more or less about
you" he answered.

"gosh, I'm so happy to see you" Lee said and we hugged me again.

When Brian came over, Lee was still hugging me. I quickly broke the hug and
introduced Brian and Lee to each other. They shook hands and smiled.

"I've heard a lot about you Brian" Lee said.

"really?, well, I've heard some things about you too" Brian answered and
smiled. All the time Lee kept looking at me and I was looking at him
too. It had been such a long time since the last time I saw him that I was
very pleased to see him again.

"why don't you join us for dinner?" Brian asked out of the blue.

"well, thanks Brian, but I've got to get going. I'msupposed to meet some
friends in a few minutes, maybe another time" Lee answered

"hey, why don't you come over for our Christmas party. It will give you a
chance to see my brothers again and catch up on all the gossip"

"well, I wouldn't turn down that offer" Lee said and laughed.

"you better not" I said and laughed too.

Lee shook Brian's hand as he was leaving, I was about to shake his hand
when he took me in his arms and hugged me tight. I was taken by surprise
but I hugged him back too

"I was glad to see you again"

"yes, me too" I answered. With that, Lee left.

Brian and I sat down again and we ordered our food. Brian was acting a bit
strange and I didn't know why. I looked at him and tried to see what was
wrong, but he just turned the other way. After a few minutes, the waiter
brought back our food.

"this looks delicious, doesn't it Bri?" I asked him as I looked down at my
plate. I had ordered some kind of new pasta, but it looked absolutely
delicious.

"yes it does" Brian answered.

"are you ok Bri?"

"yes, why wouldn't I be?" he answered.

"is that I think..." I was talking when Brian interrupted me.

"let's not let this delicious food get cold, let's eat"

"ok" I said and started eating. We ate our food in silence and we didn't
talk about anything else all night.

Brian paid the bill, as usual. He was a true Southern gentleman in the best
sense of the phrase, he would pay the bills, open the doors for you,
etc. He was always really sweet and tender. Tonight he was rough and sour
and I knew that something was bothering him so I decided to ask him.

"something is bothering you, is it me?, is it the fact that I saw lee
tonight?"

"no, I'm ok, I'm just tired, I had a long day"

"no that's not true Bri, you're never act the way you're acting tonight"

"I'm upset ok, happy now? he said upset

"why?"

"because I think you're still in love with Lee!" Brian blurted out

"what?" I said and smiled "that's stupid, Lee and I broke up long time ago"

"yeah, so?, you still love him!" Brian said and he sounded more upset

"why don't we drop the subject, it's our anniversary, remember?" I said
trying to change the subject

"no, you wanted to talk about it, so now we're going to talk about this"

"it's a stupid conversation Bri"

"I don't care" Brian shot back "you are in love with him, I could see it in
your eyes"

"what are you talking about Bri?, that's not true"

"oh please, I saw the way you looked at him and the way he looked at you"

"that's not true" I said again "I love you Brian Littrell"

"save those words! Why don't you go and hug Lee again or maybe do something
else to him" Brian shot back, probably without thinking what he had said

"what did you just say?" I asked taken back.

"let me get this straight" I said really pissed off "you're accusing me of
cheating on you? With Lee?" Brian looked at me without saying a word

"I know what's going in your head" Brian said bitterly

"do you really Brian?!, I don't think you do, did you know that tomorrow
night I'm going out with Nick and Aj instead of you?...Did you know that
the only person that's being absurd is you? And did you know that I'm so
mad at you that I can't even look at you right now?!" I said as I got up
from my seat.

"wait a second!" Brian said as he grabbed my hand. I turned to see face
him.

"I love you very much Brian, but sometimes you can be a complete jerk" I
said as I pulled my hand away

"oh, and by the way..."I started as I pulled out the ring box that I had in
my coat pocket "happy anniversary darling" I said upset as I put the box on
the table.

I grabbed my coat and headed towards the door. I walked out of the
restaurant and looked for a cab. I was really sad for what Brian had said
and I started to cry. I could see a cab coming over and I stopped it. Brian
must have realized that he had pushed the wrong button, because he ran
towards me and tried to stop me. As I was getting on the cab, he ran out of
the restaurant in my direction.

"wait Jack, I'm sorry"

"no, Brian" I answered as I got in the cab. I told my address to the cab
driver

"wait, please, let me explain..." I heard him yell as my cab drove away. I
turned around to see him and he was just standing there in the middle of
the street looking at me.

I just sat there on the cab thinking about what had happened. Brian had
changed completely, he had always been a bit jealous, but tonight he had
been such a jerk that I was really mad at him. I was also disappointed
because I never thought that Brian would ever think that I would cheat on
him.

On my way home I cried and cried. The cab driver kept looking at me through
the mirror and asked me if I was all right. I told him that I wasn't.

I arrived home after a while and I paid the driver. I stepped out of the
cab and walked up to my door. I pulled the keys out of my pocket and then I
went inside. I closed the door behind me and then I just slammed myself
against it. I slid down until I was sitting on the floor with my back
against the door. I was so upset and disappointed for what just happened.

"Jack?" I heard Paul say "oh my god Jack, what happened?" he asked as he
came closer to me and pulled me up.

"Brian thinks I'm cheating on him" I said I hugged him

"oh, baby" he hugged me and ran his hands through my hair.

"do you want to talk about it?" he asked

"not now" I answered.

I was glad that my brother was there with me, because I really needed some
one to comfort me. After a while John came down from the stairs too and he
hugged me too. Even tough we fought quite a lot, I really loved my
brothers, because they gave me support whenever I needed it.

When I calmed down a bit, I explained more or less what had happened at the
restaurant. They just listened to me and comforted me.

"don't worry dear we'll work it out" John said as he rubbed my leg.

"yes sport, but I think you need some rest, we'll talk about it in the
morning" Paul said and smiled at me.

"ok" I nodded and headed for the stairs.

"I'll fix you my super trouper drink" John said enthusiastically as he ran
to the kitchen.

"but without liquor, that's the last thing he needs right now" Paul yelled
as he walked towards me.

"actually wait here Jack" Paul said as he stopped me and sat me down by the
entrance "I'll just go and make sure that he doesn't put any liquor into
your drink".

John's super trouper drink was a revitalizing mixture of sodas and
juices. It actually tasted quite nice and it always cheered me up. I was
just sitting down, when I heard someone knocking on my door. At first, I
thought that my brothers were going to open the door, but after a few
seconds, I noticed that they were arguing about the liquor in the kitchen
and probably hadn't heard the door, so I decided to see who it was.

I open the door and to my surprise it was Brian.

"hi" he said in a low voice

"what are you doing here?" I asked

"well, I couldn't leave things, the way they were" Brian said as he came
closer to me "I love you and I'm sorry for what I did tonight, I behaved
like a complete jerk. I said many stupid things tonight and I know I hurt
you..." Brian leaned and was bout to kiss me but I put my hands on his
chest to stop him.

"no Brian, not now" I said upset and disappointed

"but give me a chance to explain..."

"not now Brian, it's not a good moment right now"

"let me make it up to you" Brian stated

"I think you've done enough for one night Brian" I answered "please go now"

"please forgive me, I guess I was just afraid" He said lowly

"well Brian, if you're afraid of being in a relationship, then don't be in
one" I said angry and closed the door.

I closed the door behind me and sat back down. John came over and asked me
who was that, I just told him that I had been a salesman and then I walked
towards the stairs. They helped me up to my room.

Paul brought me the drink and I took a few sips of it. I must have been
really tired at that time, because as soon as I put my head on the pillow I
fell asleep. My brothers left the room when they noticed that I was asleep.

During the night I opened my eyes and lost my sleep. I was lost in
thoughts, I was really preoccupied for my relationship with Brian. I was
sure that I had to talk to Brian about this jealousy thing if we were to
stay together, but I wasn't sure how or when.

I walked towards the window, looked at the sky and began to cry. Had I gone
too far with this?, was I being too harsh on Brian or was I making the
right choice?...I just couldn't answer these questions, at least not yet...

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well, that's it for chapter 12, I'll see you in chapter 13

:)

write to: jack_ga_2002@yahoo.com if you have nay comments or anything.

"Enjoy life and always be yourself"

bye for now

Jack