Date: Sat, 19 Jun 1999 23:33:51 -0700
From: JM <Lionclaw@Bellsouth.net>
Subject: Brian & Justin (Parts 89-94)

Brian & Justin (Chapter 89)
By JM

   ---- Voted by readers - BEST STORYLINE & MOST ROMANTIC COUPLE ----

*** General Announcement: Okay this story and the following stories are
going to be a slow down pace for me.  I am going to slow down the quickie's
and add the romance to the stories.  But don't get me wrong, there will
still be plenty of sex and fun for the boys.  Yes, these stories will
mostly revolve around the relationship between Brian Littrell (of the
Backstreet Boys) and Justin Timberlake (of 'N Sync), but there is going to
be guest appearances from all of the guys of the Backstreet Boys and 'N
Sync.  I can't always guarantee action for them though, because I am so
hooked on Brian and Justin.  The stories will also follow the same path
that the others have left off with.  So that means, these stories follow
where I left off with 'B-Rok B-Day', 'Round And Round, and 'The First
Week'.  I want everyone to know that I don't plan on stopping after this
story, so don't worry.  I get e-mails all the time about that.  I do hope
you enjoy the series of stories to come and do wish to hear all of your
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**** This is THE 89th STORY!!!  It follows along with the rest, so if
you're still not caught up, you had better get reading.  Hope you enjoy
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Also, for those who still want the lyrics to the all 'Justin & Brian'
soundtracks (only lyrics).  Soundtrack features old and new songs from the
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have read.  And thanks to Calguy19 for great works, with his storyline
'Bangin' B-Rok'.  Also thanks to Zeo for creating 'N Sync Love.  It's a
great story!  And finally, thanks to Chris, Adam and JJ Vascardi's for
being a good friends and great authors.  I also want to thank Yas for the
GREAT story ideas he has given me.  VERY SPECIAL thanks to Netboy for
designing and maintaining the website for me.  And to Cabby for her
continuous support.  So until the next time... please keep reading the
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		"You two okay?" Joey whispered as he knelt down next to
Brian and Justin.  Justin looked over to his friend and could give no
answer.  Brian looked at Justin for help.  Joey cocked an eyebrow at both
of them, still awaiting an answer.  "You look okay." Joey finally tried to
answer for them.  "Thanks Joey." Brian replied softly.  "Don't thank me.  I
was only doing what I thought was best for both of you." Joey turned his
attention to Brian.  Brian responded with a small nod.  "I just hope the
others will understand like I did." Joey sighed.  Justin gave Joey a
concerned glare.  "We don't have to tell them." Justin whispered.  "I
didn't say I was going to, but you two will have to.  And if you don't,
this will." Joey replied, raising his hand to Justin's lip.  "And if that
doesn't say enough, he will." Brian added, pointing to Nick's room.
		The added tension between Brian, Nick and Justin didn't
help the situation.  "Can we all just drop it." Justin requested bitterly.
He slowly stood and began to walk into his and Brian's room.  "No Justin,
we can't just drop it.  What happened last night is something serious and
it's something we can't hide." Joey argued.  "Joey shut up!  Brian feels
guilty enough as it is." Justin barked at him.  "That's his duty.  He knows
he's done something wrong and now he has to deal with the guilt." Joey
argued reason.  "I don't want him to deal with it." Justin was losing hope.
Brian stretched and then stood from the floor.  He placed a hand on Joey's
shoulder for attention.  Joey peered to his right and then looked at Brian.
"I'll talk to him." Brian whispered.  "Are you sure that's wise?" Joey
questioned softly.  "He's my fiancé and sometimes, I'm the only he'll
listen to." Brian reminded Joey.  Joey groaned lowly with defeat.  "I'll be
getting my stuff together." Joey whispered to inform Brian.  Brian nodded
and removed his hand from Joey.  He walked into the room as Joey walked
down the hall silently.
		Brian left the door slightly opened and approached Justin.
Justin sat quietly on the bed, staring at the floor with hopes of getting
an answer.  He twiddled his thumbs as he heard Brian's footsteps.  "I know
you don't want to admit this, but Joey's right." Brian was the first to
speak.  Justin lifted his head to look at Brian.  Brian knelt down next to
Justin and grabbed his hands.  "I hate to say this but I have alot of guilt
right now.  A tremendous amount.  So much that even I'm unsure of why you'd
still stick with me." Brian confessed.  "Because I love you." Justin
whispered.  Justin nibbled on his own lip and looked away from Brian.  "I
know you love me but what I didn't doesn't make it right." Brian reminded
Justin.  "I didn't say it was right, but that doesn't mean I want to leave
you." Justin replied, gazing off to where Tyke slept peacefully.  "I know I
have to tell the guys what happened.  And no matter what they do or say, I
want you to stay out of it.  Don't defend me." Brian spoke softly.  Justin
snapped his head in Brian's direction.  Brian gave him a stern stare.  "I
don't want you to suffer through any of this.  You suffered enough babe."
Brian reasoned his choice.
		Justin pulled his hands away from Brian's.  "I understand."
Brian whispered as Justin looked away from him again.  "You don't
understand," Justin disagreed.  "Even if I don't defend you, I'm still
going to suffer.  Brian I can't stand to see you hurt." Justin whimpered
out.  Brian ran his hand lightly over Justin's cheek for support.
		"I was scared to death last night when I couldn't find
you." Brian changed the subject with need.  Justin let Brian grab his hands
again.  "I was torn apart inside when I realized what I did to you.  And on
top of me hitting you, I turned my back on you for Nick.  I promised Joey
and myself that I'd do this," Brian stated.  Justin found the courage to
look at Brian again.  "Justin, as long as I live, I won't lay another hand
on you.  And me and Nick, that's nothing anymore.  He will be my friend but
I won't support him unless he really needs me.  And I won't touch another
drop of alcohol." Brian promised sincerely.  Justin looked at him with
love.  "Well, not until our wedding day when we take that first sip of
champagne together." Brian chimed.  Justin finally smiled at Brian.  He
leaned down and gave Brian a loving hug.  He didn't need to tell Brian that
he understood or that he trusted him.  He knew deep in his heart and soul
that Brian knew.
		"While we're up here getting all emotional, uhm, I think
it's time we pack to go." Brian suggested with a laugh.  Justin released
Brian with a small smile.  "Where is that smile that Brian loves so much."
Brian requested.  Brian lifted his hand to Justin's chin in search of
Justin's honest side.  Justin removed the small smile from his face as he
looked at Brian.  "Oh, you're playing hard to get with me?" Brian
questioned.
		Brian pushed Justin back on the bed and then began to
tickle him furiously.  Justin screamed out with laughter as Brian tickled
him.  "Where's the smile?" Brian asked of Justin as he continued to tickle
him.  "I don't know!" Justin hollered out with laughter.  "Then I'm not
stopping." Brian grinned as he continued to roam Justin's body with his
hands.  "Okay!" Justin screamed.  Brian released Justin and Justin fell
back on the bed with uncontrollable laughter.  Tears streamed down his face
as he tried to regain composure.  Brian leaned down and kissed Justin
lightly on the cheek.  "I missed that smile." Brian whispered and held
Justin.  Justin elbowed him the side for revenge.  "You stupid asshole."
Justin heaved out.  Brian kissed Justin's neck as Justin tried to recover.
		"I think we had better get moving." Brian suggested while
placing another kiss on Justin's neck.  Justin ran his hand over Brian's
leg that was rested on Justin's hip.  "Okay." Justin gave in.  Brian left a
small hickey on Justin's neck before releasing him.  Justin sat up on the
bed and tried to escape from the entanglement of the sheets.  Brian scooted
next to Justin and laid his hand on Justin's thigh.  "You forgive me?"
Brian asked.  "Of course I do." Justin assured him.  "You're not saying
that because you're afraid to lose me, are you?" Brian questioned.  "At
first, I would've but then I realized... Brian Littrell has been the best
thing that has ever happened to me.  So if what happened last night was a
mistake, then I understand." Justin replied.  "It was a mistake.  A SERIOUS
mistake!" Brian assured him as he laid his head on Justin's shoulder.
		"You're pretty tired, aren't you?" Justin asked.  "I didn't
sleep all night." Brian responded.  "Because of me?" Justin laid another
question for Brian to answer.  "I was scared you'd never speak to me or
look at me again." Brian replied softly.  "Joey let me see you last night
while you slept.  You were so precious and so adorable.  I'd had to never
see that again." Brian added.  "You gave me a kiss, didn't you?" Justin
wondered.  "Yeah, I did.  How did you know?" Brian asked, lifting his head.
"I don't know," Justin shrugged.  "I just felt that you were there." Justin
explained.  Brian smiled and rubbed his hand over Justin's thigh.
		They heard a small knock at the door before the door
opened.  Britney peeped her head inside and looked at the two.  Her eyes
bulged out when she saw them.  "When Joey told me, I didn't want to believe
it." Britney said bitterly as she pushed the door open.  "Told you what?"
Justin questioned.  "That you forgave him." Britney hissed.  She gave Brian
a stare that he would never forget.  "Britney, calm down a sec.  Of course
I forgave Brian." Justin tried to ease her emotions.  He didn't have much
accomplishment.  "Of course?!  Oh yes, I forgot that this world is filled
with abusive boyfriends and everyone is just supposed to forgive them."
Britney replied sarcastically.  "Hold on there Britney.  Brian is not an
abusive boyfriend.  He has never laid a finger on me until last night."
Justin warned her.  "The first time doesn't make it the mistake." Britney
said with intelligence.  "I understand your anger Britney.  I am sorry for
what I've done, but you're right, I can't change it." Brian spoke up.  "And
with you saying sorry, Justin just jumped up and forgave you?  It's so easy
you for you to play off Justin's naive nature." Britney chastised him.  "My
naive nature?  That's got shit to do with this.  I forgave Brian because of
love and understanding." Justin argued.  "Justin, come off it.  You forgave
him because you feared being without him.  If Joey ever laid a hand on me
it would end right then and there.  You should know better then this,"
Britney caused Justin shame.  "Look Britney, this is isn't Ike and Tina
here.  Brian didn't beat me down and leave me in the hallway.  He slapped
me and that was the end of it." Justin barked at her.  Brian grabbed onto
Justin's arm and stopped him.  Brian gave Justin a knowing look.
		Justin rolled his eyes and ended his argument.  "Are you
finished Britney?" Brian questioned.  "What, does he got you wrapped around
his finger now?" Britney asked of Justin.  "Your quarrel shouldn't be with
the love of my life Britney.  It should be with me." Brian got her
attention again.  "Fine Brian, are you truly sorry?" Britney asked.  "Yes,
I am." Brian replied quickly.  "Then you should make Justin understand that
it was wrong and that he should leave you alone." Britney warned.  She
turned from both of them and walked out of the room.
		Just as she left, BJ came running inside.  "I'd say she was
mad." Brian made lightly of the situation.  "I hope everyone else isn't
like that." Justin sighed.  Brian's guilt was more than he wanted, but he
hid it from Justin.  "I'm sure they won't be that mad." Brian did his best
to comfort Justin.
		An hour went by as Brian and Justin packed their clothes.
It was a silent hour as both of them thought about the past 24 hours.  They
somehow went from the happiest couple within the three groups to the most
guilt-filled and depressed couple.  Yet they hid it from each other.  If
they spoke the words that they knew they were thinking, it would mean
obvious end to a strong relationship.
		"Have you seen my Kangol hat?" Brian asked while stuffing
one of his shirts into his bag.  Justin picked the hat up from the floor
and handed it to Brian.  Brian grasped the hat and then grabbed Justin's
hand.  "Are you okay?" Brian asked softly.  Justin licked his lips quickly
and gave Brian a straight face.  "You're not okay." Brian answered for him.
"I'll be fine." Justin assured him.  "No you won't." Brian sighed.  He knew
when something was bothering Justin that it was stuck on Justin's mind
until Justin talked about it.  "Brian, all I want is to know that you are
okay." Justin requested.  Brian looked at him funny.  "As long as you're
right here." Brian replied.  Justin smiled and Brian could help but melt
right before Justin.
		"Hey lovebirds, it's time to go." Joey said from their
doorway.  Justin and Brian glanced at him and smiled.  "Wait, before we go,
I have something to ask you Joey." Justin stopped Brian.  Joey gave Justin
his full attention.  "First off thanks for saving a relationship that was
slipping." Justin smiled.  Joey smiled back at him.  "Anything for my
friends." Joey responded.  "Joey, me and Brian are getting married
soon... and well lately, you've been the one person I can count on.  You
are one of the best friends I could ever have and I love you for it.  So I
wondering if... if you'd be my best man when I get married." Justin
stuttered out with all the nervousness his body could muster.  Joey was
thrown by Justin's question.  "Are you serious!?" Joey's excitement soon
showed.  Justin nodded.  Joey ran into the room and lifted Justin in the
air.  Joey screamed with excitement as Brian and Justin laughed at him.
"Thank you sooooooo much!  No one has ever asked me such an honor." Joey
bragged as he let Justin down.  Justin hugged Joey lightly and then backed
away.  "You've been there for me and I just wanted to show you much it
meant to me." Justin replied.  "To us." Brian interrupted him.  "Thanks
Joey." Brian extended his hand to Joey as he spoke.  "No, thank you." Joey
chimed.
		"I had better let you two finish packing.  The bus is
downstairs waiting when you guys are done." Joey said, still smiling
widely.  "Okay, thanks." Justin waved him off.  Joey stumbled out of the
room with joy.
		"Well, it seems you made a choice." Brian whispered to
Justin while wrapping his arms around Justin's waist.  "One of the hardest
choices ever." Justin agreed.  "Why?" Brian asked, rubbing his cheek to
Justin's.  "Because I know that J.C. won't be happy about it." Justin
replied.  Brian gasped lowly, realizing that Justin and J.C. had a tight
bond.  "But J.C. has alot on his mind now.  I think he just needs time to
deal with his relationship with Lance before he could think about handling
the responsibility of being a best man." Justin stated.  "Spoken like a
wise man." Brian teased.  "I just hope that J.C. can work out his problems
before things go too far between him and Lance." Justin sighed.  "Don't
worry about them.  They're grown boys." Brian assured Justin.
		J.C. sat by the elevator door with his bags sat on the
floor.  He had watched Britney and Joey enter the elevator happily, Chris
run from room to room looking for his Tommy shirt and Kevin grumbled about
how tired he was.  Not once had he seen his boyfriend, Lance, grace his
presence.  J.C. had slept in Lance's room all night, holding Lance to
comfort him.  Now he wondered if Lance was still too sick to make it out of
the room.
		"Hey cutie, looking for someone?" J.C. heard a familiar
voice question him.  "Yep." J.C. responded clearly.  Nikki smiled at him as
she stood next to him.  "Me too." Nikki laughed.  "Isn't it strange how me
and Britney dated you and Justin and now you're both in love with guys?
Where did we go wrong?" Nikki joked.  "I think it was that time that you
made us dress up like Barbie dolls." J.C. joined in.  Nikki pushed him
lightly as she laughed.  "Well at least you're happy with Kevin and
Britney's with Joey." J.C. commented.  "Yeah, things turned out pretty good
for us two.  What about you and Justin?" she asked.  "Can't you tell?!
Justin couldn't be more happier if you painted a smile on his face!  And
me, I'm good." J.C. cheered.  "Just 'good'?" Nikki asked.  "Adjusting."
J.C. added.  "Filed with mystery.  That's how you always were." Nikki
giggled.  "Hey, you weren't so bad yourself Nikki." J.C. reminded her.
"Yeah, but I can say I'm very happy with Kev'.  He's, hmm, well he's fun
when he wants to be.  But his serious side is so sexy." Nikki bragged.
"Okay, more than I wanted to hear about Kevin." J.C. teased.  "Of course
Lance has those erotic eyes..." Nikki joked.  "Hey, those are mine!"
J.C. warned her with a laugh.  "What?  Now you won't share?  You used to
with Nick," Nikki cackled, but in the end she knew she was wrong.
		"It wasn't by choice." J.C. frowned.  "I know, I'm sorry
Josh." Nikki responded without laughter.  "It's okay.  You can't escape the
past." J.C. sighed.  "That's true.  But you can look forward to the
future." Nikki comforted him.  "And that future is walking down the hall."
Nikki whispered, bringing J.C.'s attention to the hallway.
		He glanced down the hall and saw Lance dragging his bags
towards the elevator.  "See ya later cutie." Nikki whispered and left
J.C.'s side.  J.C. was too caught up in finally seeing Lance.  lance threw
his bag next to J.C.'s and heaved for air.  "God, it seems I always end up
leaving with more than I came with." Lance joked as he leaned against the
elevator door.  "Well we just have one more stop before you can stop living
out of a suitcase." J.C. lightened his attitude.  Lance nodded.
		J.C. pushed the down button on the elevator.  "We don't get
much of a summer beak, do we?" J.C. asked.  "About a week and a half off.
Then we head into the studio to finish up the last two songs on the album.
After that, it's promotion time!" Lance answered in a business-like manner.
"What last songs do we have to do?" J.C. asked.  "The one that Justin wrote
awhile back, '...Sunrise', and then 'Forever'." Lance responded.  "Is the
song with Blaque going to be on the album?" J.C. asked as the elevator
doors slid open.  "Uhm, I'm not sure.  I hope so because it's a pretty cool
song." Lance shrugged while he responded.
		J.C. leaned down and grabbed his bag and watched Lance once
again struggle with his own.  "How much time do we get in Hawaii?"
J.C. pondered.  "Uh, I think like three days.  But Justin gets the week
off." Lance coughed out his answer.  They both stepped into the elevator
and J.C. lightly pressed the button for the lobby.  "I'm so jealous of
him." J.C. sighed as the elevator moved downward.  "Jealous?" Lance asked
softly.  "Justin's getting married Lance?  I mean, come on.  That's
something that I thought I wouldn't see until he was like thirty.  he's
eighteen and getting married to a man that he loves!  What a thrill this
must be for him." J.C. exclaimed.  "Yeah, it's still hard for me to think
of.  It's almost like he's leaving us." Lance agreed.  "Yeah, but he's
still gonna be in the group.  I just can't believe he's getting married!"
J.C. wailed.  Lance laughed at J.C.'s enthusiasm.
		"He'll always be my 'Curly' though." J.C. sighed as he and
Lance stepped off the elevator.  "Yeah, he'll always be 'Mr. Smooth'."
Lance agreed with accord.  "But just think?  He'll have a ring and
everything.  I wonder if he'll change his last name legally?" J.C. pondered
as they approached their friends in the lobby.  "I doubt it.  Management
wouldn't let him." Lance became technical.  "Oh fuck management.  This is
Justin's life and he wants to be Justin Randall Littrell, then I say go for
it." J.C. replied strongly.  "There's a lot of paperwork behind that
though," Lance added.  J.C. rolled his eyes at Lance's comments.  "Lance,
if I wanted to be Joshua Scott Bass, then I could careless what Johnny
Wright or RCA had to say about it." J.C. gave an example.  Lance took the
example to heart.  "Is that what you want?" Lance chimed.  "Well I mean..."
J.C. was stuck.  "Someday." J.C. finally confessed. "What if I wanted to be
James Lance Chasez?" Lance offered.  "Then I guess we'd have to talk about
that." J.C. laughed.  Lance smiled and walked with J.C. to his friends.
		Justin and Brian stepped into the hallway of the upstairs.
It seemed like they were the only ones left on the floor.  Brian gazed over
and could see that Nick's door was still partially opened.  He looked and
Justin and frowned.  "Uhm, you go ahead downstairs.  I have to talk with
Nick for a minute." Brian stated.  The name caused Justin to drop his
backpack to the floor.  "I'll wait here." Justin responded flatly.  "It's
okay J..." Justin didn't let Brian finish.  "That's okay.  I'll stay here."
Justin repeated.  "Justin, do you trust me?" Brian questioned with a slight
anger.  "I don't trust him." Justin replied.  "He's probably too hung over
to try anything.  Look Justin, you don't have to worry about anything."
Brian replied plainly.  Justin was unnerved by the idea.
		"Did you have sex with him last night?" Justin asked
softly.  Brian's eyes grew large as he heard the question.  "What!?" Brian
asked loudly.  "Did you sleep with him?" Justin repeated the question with
shame.  Brian took the question with care.  He placed a hand on Justin's
shoulder and sighed.  "No, I didn't sleep with him.  He tried his best, but
my mind was on you." Brian replied.  "Did you want to?" Justin queried.
"No." Brian answered.  Brian leaned forward and kissed Justin lightly on
the lips.  He rubbed Justin's cheek with sincerity.  "I love you.  I don't
want him and that's what I'm going to tell him.  So go downstairs and get
on the bus." Brian smiled as he spoke.  Justin nodded and grabbed his
backpack.  He picked up BJ and cradled him in his arms.  "Don't worry."
Brian whispered.  Justin nodded again and walked down the hall towards the
elevator.  He took one final look back as Brian carried Tyke into Nick's
room.

Brian & Justin (Chapter 90)
By JM

		Justin didn't mind the wait in the lobby for Brian.  He
took the time to talk with J.C. and Lance about the wedding and what their
plans were for the next album.  "I still can't believe you're getting
married.  Man, I can still remember when you were this little kid on the
Mickey Mouse Club, dreaming of a big house in Miami!" J.C. boasted.  "Yeah,
it's alot to take in." Justin smiled brightly.  "And uhm, I've gotta talk
to ya'll about something." Justin chose his moment with careful timing.
"What's up J?" J.C. asked, taking a seat next to him.  "I love you two alot
and you'll always be my best friends." Justin exclaimed.  "We'll always
love ya too Curly." J.C. assured him.  "And please don't be offended, but I
chose Joey to be my best man." Justin quickly stated.  "Joey?" Lance asked,
cocking his eyebrow at Justin.  J.C. was shocked by the notion.  "As long
as he doesn't flirt during the whole wedding, I guess it's cool." Lance
shrugged.  J.C. didn't have an answer for Justin.  Justin looked over at
J.C. for approval.  "Yeah, uh... it's cool.  Joey will make a good best
man." J.C. finally stumbled out.  J.C. stood from his seat and walked over
to the nearest window.
		"He'll be fine." Lance whispered to Justin.  "I would've
made him best man..." Justin started.  "But Joey's been there for you
lately." Lance finished the sentence.  "Yeah." Justin agreed.  "I can see
that.  Joey's backed you up on a lot of things and I think the rest of us
could learn from him.  We've all been in this selfish mood where we care
only about our own relationships." Lance understood and spoke wisely.  He
ran his hand over his hair and then looked towards J.C.  "Me and J.C. are
both sorry for not being a little more sensitive to you and Brian.  But
it's kinda hard to do that when you have your own barriers to cross." Lance
stated.  "I understand Lance.  You and J.C. are just getting serious and
it's alot for you two to take on after months of just... sex." Justin shyly
responded.  Lance nodded, not getting offended by Justin's remark.  "But
we're still apart of the wedding, right?" Lance asked, trying to lighten
the atmosphere.  "Of course!  Ya'll are like my brothers and I wouldn't
dare forget about ya." Justin chimed.  "Good because I didn't want to be
stuck doing nothing." Lance laughed.  "I wanted ya'll to be my groomsmen."
Justin replied.  "Serious!?" Lance jumped up when he heard it.  "No, I was
hoping you could be the bartender." Justin joked.  Lance leaped on Justin
and playfully punched him.  "Thank you so much!" Lance screamed as he
punched Justin.  "Okay, get off me!" Justin hollered.  Lance rolled off
Justin and onto the lobby floor.
		Justin lifted his head and could see that the group was now
receiving stares from workers and other hotel guests.  Justin ran his
fingers through his hair to fix it and then discretely slumped in his
chair.  "Ya'll have got to calm down." Kevin chastised both Justin and
Lance.  "Okay, we're sorry." Lance replied.  "Yeah, sorry Daddy." Justin
joked evilly.  Kevin shook his finger at Justin, trying to control his
anger.  Justin snickered, trying his best not to give a full-fledged laugh.
Kevin walked off, avoiding any further attention from onlookers.
		"Justin, what happened to your lip?" Lance asked, finally
taking notice of the cut on Justin's lower lip.  Justin placed his hand to
his mouth.  "I didn't do that, did I?" Lance asked with fear throughout his
tone.  "Oh, no, you didn't do it." Justin assured him.  Joey glanced over
at them and gave Justin a disturbed face.  He was doing his best to urge
Justin to say something.  "Brian hi..." Justin began to say before Kevin
interrupted him.
		"All right everyone, let's get on the bus now.  We wanna
make it out of here so I can get home." Kevin announced to everyone.  Lance
grabbed Justin's arm as Justin began to stood.  "He hit you." Lance had
caught onto what Justin said.  Justin's lip trembled when he heard it out
loud.  "Did he hit you?" Lance asked sternly.  Justin was too scared to
respond to him.  "Yes, I hit him." Brian whispered to Lance.  Lance leaped
with surprise when he heard Brian's voice.  He released Justin's arm
quickly.
		Justin backed away from Lance and then stood next to Brian.
"What the hell is wrong with you." Lance hissed lowly, trying to make sure
no one heard him.  "I know I was wrong and I was drunk and wasn't thinking
clear.  But I'm not saying I was right, but I am sorry." Brian stood up for
himself.  "Hey ya'll, come on!" Amanda called out to them.  "I don't care
how sorry you are Brian, you have no right to lay a finger on him." Lance
chastised Brian while grabbing Justin's arm.  Brian nodded and grabbed his
bag.  He threw it over his shoulder and headed towards the bus.
		Justin watched Brian walk away.  No matter how much he
wanted to run after him, he knew Brian didn't want that.  "I can't believe
you didn't leave his ass." Lance huffed as he grabbed his own bags.  Justin
turned to look at Lance.  "I know this going to be hard for you to forgive,
but it's something you're going to have to forgive.  I love him." Justin
stated.  "How can you love someone like that?" Lance barked at Justin.
"Easily.  He's never given me a reason besides last night to doubt him."
Justin responded.  "So you were going to breakup with him?" Lance asked,
intrigued.  "The thought crossed my mind, but it didn't stay for long.
Last night was one of the biggest mistakes Brian has ever made, but it
would have been my mistake to let him walk away." Justin tried to
explained.  "Justin, it's your mistake for not letting him walk away."
Lance disagreed.  "I guess then I'm making the biggest mistake of my life
by going after him now." Justin responded softly and grabbed his bag.  He
stepped away from Lance and then followed Brian's trail.  Lance frowned and
felt for his friend.  'God, why can't that be me?  Why can't I say I'd give
up everything for the one I love?' Lance criticized himself.  He coughed
and cleared his throat before walking out of the hotel.
		Justin stepped onto the bus and gazed towards the back.  He
made his trek towards the bunks before finding an empty on the floor.  He
stuck his backpack inside of the bunk and then closed the curtains.
"Justin, dude, hungry?" Chris offered from the front.  "Uh, yeah." Justin
replied and walked to the front.
		Justin grabbed a bowl from the cupboard and then a spoon.
"Oreo O's, just like you love 'em." Chris said as he passed Justin the box.
Justin brought all of his tuff to the small booth and sat down.  He poured
some milk into his bowl and then added the cereal.  "Feeling okay?" Chris
asked as he scooted next to Justin.  Justin nodded and then took a big
spoonful of cereal to his mouth.  "I wonder how he could be feeling okay."
Lance commented as he passed by.  Justin rolled his eyes and then continued
to eat.  "What's his deal?" Chris questioned.  "Just ask Justin what
happened last night." Lance responded before leaving for the bunks.
"Lance, do I sense attitude?" A.J. joked as he passed by Lance.  "You sense
anger." Lance replied.
		"What's up J?" Chris asked Justin.  Justin sighed and
placed the spoon in his bowl.  "Something went down between me, Nick and
Brian last night." Justin soughed out.  "Like what?  Ugh, don't tell me
ya'll are doing threesomes now." A.J. teased him.  "No, something serious."
Justin answered with a straight face.  "Don't make that face Justin, it
freaks me out.  You're never this serious unless..." A.J. stopped himself.
"Ya'll broke up?" A.J. questioned quickly.  "No, we didn't but it came
close to that..." Justin responded.  "What almost came to that?  Justin,
stop freaking me out." A.J. became serious as he looked at Justin.  Chris
examined and studied Justin's movements and face.  "What's this?" Chris
asked as he reached for Justin's lip.  Justin saw the hand coming and
quickly jerked away.  "What the fuck is it?!" Chris barked.  Just as his
words came out, Brian stepped into the front area.
		"Brian, what's up with your fiancé?" A.J. turned to look
at Brian.  Brian knew the conversation was headed in a bad direction when
he saw Chris and Justin's facial expressions.  Brian cleared his throat to
distract Chris's attention from Justin.  "I think what Justin is trying to
say is that I messed up severely last night." Brian stated.  Justin looked
at Brian with horror.  'Don't do it.' Justin mouthed to Brian.  "Last night
I went out and got drunk and went clubbing with Nick.  When we got back,
Nick offered for me to go to his room.  Justin saw us and tried to stop me
from making a serious mistake.  I didn't listen and while arguing, I hit
him." Brian's words brought dead silence to the three individuals
listening.
		"What'd he say?" A.J. asked with astonishment written on
his face.  Chris jumped up from the booth, getting ready to punch Brian.
Justin grabbed the bottom of Chris's shirt and quickly pulled him back into
the booth.  Justin pulled Chris into a headlock and held him in his place.
"Stop it!" Justin barked, trying to overpower him.  Chris growled and did
his best to pull away from Justin.  "Dude, tell you didn't hit him."
A.J. pleaded of Brian while Chris and Justin battled.  Brian couldn't look
A.J. in the face.  His shame was now building.  "Dude, tell me you didn't
fucking hit Justin." A.J. barked at him.  "I can't say that because I did
hit him and I'm sorry." Brian responded, his eyes flustering with tears.
"And it cost me alot when I did it." Brian trembled while looking at
Justin.
		Just Brian's stare caused Justin to release Chris.  Chris
stood once again and looked Brian right into the eyes.  "Why?  Why would
you hit him?  Justin gives a hundred percent to you while you give him
twenty-five." Chris hollered at him.  "Chris, I can't do anything about it
but make Justin understand that I love him deeply." Brian replied softly.
"If you loved him, you wouldn't have hit him." Chris remarked coldly.
"You're right." Brian agreed with guilt.
		"What is all the noise about?" Howie asked while
approaching with J.C. and Kevin behind him.  "Brian thinks he's a man now
because he hit Justin." Chris responded, still giving Brian a death-filled
stare.  "What!?" Kevin yelled out.  "Quit playing around Chris." Howie
laughed while seeing them.  Justin stood and looked at Chris with anger.
"He's not playing around." A.J. added.  The sound of A.J.'s voice was the
chilling part for J.C.  It was the look he received when he saw Justin.
"You bastard." J.C. hissed, trying to push by Kevin and Howie.  Kevin held
his ground, partly from the shock.
		"Chris, just back up off him.  He has nothing to prove to
any of us.  The thing that matters is that Justin still loves Brian and
he's forgiven him." A.J. stated, pulling Chris away from Brian.  "Have you
gone loco on us Brian?  I mean... what the hell?" Howie snapped at him.
"He was drunk." A.J. defended him.  "I don't care if he was high, drunk and
on Prozac, he should've never put a finger on Justin unless it was loving."
Howie argued.  Brian stepped back from their argument, knowing it was
headed for unfriendly territory.
		"Brian, have you... have you apologized?" Kevin tried to
remain rational.  "Apologize?!  I don't care if he pleads on his hands and
knees, this wedding is off." Howie turned to Kevin.  "That's not your
decision." J.C. spoke up.  He had found the time to get over his initial
anger to think clearly.  "Forget making decisions, you can't just pick up
where you left off because you love each other." Howie chastised both Brian
and Justin.  "Howie, man, shut up." Kevin begged with anger.  "We
haven’t just gone back to the way we were.  We haven't had enough time
to do that." Brian spoke up.  "Brian, I gotta step in here and say this was
the stupidest thing you've ever done.  Now whatever reasons there may be, I
want you to take the steps to make this right... with everyone." Kevin
demanded of his cousin.  "I'm trying to." Brian responded, softly.
		Justin pushed by Howie to get to Brian.  "Go get some
sleep... I'll try and handle some of this." Justin whispered to Brian,
placing a light kiss on Brian's cheek.  "No, you don't need the stress."
Brian began to argue softly.  "Brian, I can handle it." Justin replied,
hushing Brian but not silencing his fears.  Brian finally gave in and then
leaned forward.  He gave Justin a quick kiss on the lips in front of his
friends.  "Be careful." Brian warned him.  Justin nodded.
		Brian pushed by everyone and walked towards his bunk.
"Leave him alone, all of you." Justin said to everyone with slight anger.
"Justin, how can you..." Justin stopped Howie.  "Don't worry about it
Howie.  You don't know what went down between me and Brian this morning, so
just let it go." Justin finished Howie's sentence with a clear statement.
"Justin's right.  We don't know what has happened between Brian and Justin,
so we can't judge or control the situation." Kevin agreed plainly.
		J.C. plopped down in the booth, still feeling shaken by the
whole idea.  The crowd soon disbanded as Howie and Kevin walked to their
bunks while Chris walked to the back.  Justin took a seat next to J.C. and
laid his head on J.C.'s shoulder.  A.J. took a seat across from them and
looked out the window.  "You're out of your mind." J.C said lightly.
"Please say you'll understand." Justin asked of him.  "How can I?  Justin
this is serious." J.C. sighed.  "I know it's serious but J.C. I don't think
I should lose him now." Justin whispered.  J.C. twiddled his thumbs, trying
to think.  "You're right, I suppose.  Brian has messed up, but as long as
you know in your heart that he's not going to do it again then I'll know
too." J.C. replied.  Justin snuggled his head to J.C.'s shoulder and
smiled.  "But I mean if he puts one more..." Justin lifted his head and
gave J.C. a knowing look.  J.C. stopped his speech for the moment.  "I
understand." J.C. sighed to calm Justin.  "I know you do J.C." Justin
nodded.  "I gotta find Lance." J.C. commented, trying to move Justin out of
the way.  "He already knows." Justin whispered as he got out of the booth.
"He does?  And he didn't tell me?" J.C. questioned.  "He just find out."
Justin assured him.  "Well at least I won't have to break the news to him."
J.C. shrugged.  He gave Justin a small hug for assurance.  Justin returned
the hug, showing his friend that he was happy.  J.C. walked off with a
small smile to find Lance while Justin took a seat in the booth again.
		"Isn't it ironic?" A.J. asked.  "Don't you think." Justin
joked.  A.J. smiled Justin's way.  "Seriously, we were just talking about
the whole tabloid thing and how they said I hit Amanda.  And now, boom,
Brian hits you.  I mean that is the less expected thing and it happened."
A.J. pondered.  "I don't wanna dwell on it A.J." Justin retorted.  "That's
fine and all but the rest of them will." A.J. answered.  "I know." Justin
said softly.  "Did he leave that mark on your neck?" A.J. questioned,
pulling his sunglasses down to admire the bright, red mark.  "Yeah, but
that was from something else." Justin smiled brightly.  He had almost
forgot about the hickey Brian had left on his neck.  "You two... forever
necking and making out." A.J. cooed.  Justin nodded, still smiling strong.
"That's good though.  At least you two can grow past these things.  Brian's
a great guy and I'd hate to see him lose you." A.J. commented.  "I'd hate
to lose him too." Justin agreed.  "It doesn't look like you while though.
He's pretty hooked on his 'Just'." A.J. teased him.  Justin blushed shyly.
A.J. couldn't help but laugh at Justin's modesty.  "You gonna be okay?"
A.J. asked, standing.  Justin nodded and watched A.J. stretch.  "Okay, then
I'm gonna go chill with Chris and see if I can clam his happy-go-lucky ass
down." A.J. stated.  He stumbled off as the bus continued it's long journey
towards Lexington.
		Justin stayed seated as he saw Nick walk into the front
area.  Nick didn't bother acknowledging Justin.  He grabbed a bottle of
Evian water from the mini-fridge and then took a seat across from Justin.
"Ya'll are some loud ass folks." Nick grumbled and then took a sip of the
water.  "Is there something you want Nick?" Justin asked bitterly.  "Just
wanted to know if you talked to Brian yet." Nick replied.  "I haven't had a
chance to chat with him since this morning, why?" Justin worried.  "Cause
he called things off between me and him." Nick frowned.  "I hope you're not
expecting me to say I'm sorry, because I'm not." Justin replied.  "Brian
was close to admitting his love for me.  But no, you go and shake your
virgin ass for him and then he leaves me for you.  Now when he's ready to
have sex with me, he falls for your games again because he was scared you
were hurt." Nick grumbled.  "He wasn't going to have sex with you.  And for
the record, Brian did not get with me because I was a virgin.  We fell in
love asshole." Justin mocked him.  "Oh yeah, that's real mature.  Justin
give it up.  Your innocent and 'oh so loving' game is done.  Brian was
gonna sleep with me last night." Nick boasted.  "Brian told me he didn't
fuck you and that's what matters.  Maybe you're the one shaking your virgin
ass for him to fuck, but he doesn't want it." Justin responded coldly.
Justin stood from the booth.  "Look Justin, I'm kind of sorry that Brian
hit you last night, but for him to practically end the friendship that we
built for you is painful for me." Nick stuttered out.  "Maybe if you
treated him like a friend and not your first fuck, he could've been the
best friend you had." Justin chastised him with no shame.  "Oh and I owe
you this for the kiss at the bar and last night," Justin added.  He pulled
back and then released.  With a strong force, his fist landed right on
Nick's cheek.  Nick fell back into the booth with hurt.  He groaned and
grasped the side of his face "Don't test me again." Justin warned him and
walked off.

Brian & Justin (Chapter 91)
By JM

		Justin shook his head from pain.  'God, his jaw is like
rocks.' Justin thought to himself as he strolled towards his bunk.  When he
reached his bunk, he saw Brian sitting out of the side of it.  Justin was
confused when he saw Brian.  Justin knelt down to where Brian was and could
see Brian was cuddling BJ.  "Something wrong?" Justin asked with concern.
"What can I say?  I missed ya." Brian smiled.  "Really?" Justin asked with
surprise.  "Nah, I just felt like sitting here and playing with this mutt."
Brian laughed and scratched BJ's head.  Justin giggled and crawled into the
bunk.  He sat up next to Brian and placed an arm around Brian's back.  "I
am so sorry for what I did Justin." Brian whispered, laying his head on
Justin's shoulder.  "Brian, you've apologized like a billion times now.
The first time was enough." Justin replied.  "I know but I feel real guilty
and no matter what the others think, I feel in my heart the only one I
should say sorry to is you." Brian added.  "Well you don't have to say
sorry anymore." Justin assured him.  "Well can I say I love you?" Brian
requested.  "Until your lips fall off... and even then, you can use sign
language." Justin joked.  "You're not funny." Brian attempted not to laugh
while speaking.  Brian kissed Justin lightly on the neck and then played
with BJ lightly.  "I think me and you should catch up on some undivided
attention." Justin suggested.  Brian eagerly roughed BJ up and then placed
her on the floor.  "Then let's get back to basics, shall we?" Brian
cheered, pulling the curtains shut.
		Brian and Justin laid back on the bunk, Brian running his
hands over Justin's cheeks.  Justin and Brian turned their heads to each
other and began to kiss deeply.  Justin's lips ran over Brian's with slight
pain, but that was the last thing on Justin's mind.  He felt Brian's leg
fall onto his as they kissed and made out.  Their lips ran furiously back
and forth over each other.  Justin muffled a moan as Brian's hand grasped
his thigh and squeezed.  Brian ran his other hand over Justin's hair,
holding their kiss tight.  Justin felt Brian's feet kicking off Justin's
shoes and then his own.  He couldn't believe how flexible Brian was, enough
to push Justin's sneakers off in their position.  Brian's mind spun in
circles as he made out with Justin.  He missed the moments they shared just
kissing each other.
		J.C. found himself passing by the bunk that held the two
lovers.  He saw the two pairs of legs sticking out, moving around with
muffled sounds of ecstasy coming from inside.  "You two are forever at it!"
J.C. laughed as he knocked on the top of Justin's bunk.
		J.C. kept moving past Brian and Justin, bypassing them and
walking to the bathroom.  He lightly tapped on the amber-wood door.
"Lance, hurry up out of there." he called towards the man inside.  He was
desperate to see the face of the man that he loved.  "Okay, I'll be out in
a minute." he heard Lance respond.  "I hope you didn't fall in." J.C. joked
as he left the door.
		Little did J.C. know what Lance was really doing in the
bathroom.  Lance's eyes were firmly shut as he sat on the counter.  His
jeans and boxers were tightly tangled around his ankles.  His legs were
spread so that he was comfortable and his back was pressed against the
wall.  His yellow, Tommy jacket was bunched in a corner of the bathroom
while his shirt was right bellow his pants.  His right hand was greasy with
baby oil and pre-cum while his left hand was lightly grasping one of his
nipples.  His mind was focused on a picture of him and J.C. having sex for
the first time.  It was a beautiful picture to Lance because it was the
dawn of something that made his dick come to full mast.  Lance's hand rose
and fell with precision.  It was a slow rhythm to start out with.  His hand
ran over his rosey, red head with care.  His lip curled as he tried to hold
in his moan.  He could see J.C.'s hips moving up and down as they fucked.
It was a picture perfect memory for him.  He tilted his head up and sighed
gently.  His hand was quickening his pace.  'Why didn't I just have
J.C. handle this?' he thought to himself as he came closer to cumming.  His
ass was convulsing slightly from the pressure of almost cumming.  Sweat
dripped lightly from his forehead as his hand reached the top of his dick
again.  "Come on Lance, just let it go....' he thought.
		The picture of J.C. soon faded and a new appeared.  That of
Nick.  Lance was seeing the picture of him getting fucked by Nick behind
the curtains at the Backstreet Boys video shoot.  The image turned Lance on
incredibly.  Lance gasped for air as he began to come over his fist.
Lance's hand moved with need over his penis as he shot several loads on his
chest.  Lance's eyes opened slowly, still thinking of Nick.  'What's wrong
with me?  Why am I thinking about him?' Lance asked himself.  'If you could
take his virginity, would you?' Lance heard his conscience question him.
Lance pondered the question as he grabbed some toilet paper to clean his
mess.
		Brian was comfortable in Justin's bunk.  They had finally
rearranged themselves so that they were laying inside the bunk fully.  Tyke
was resting next to Justin while Brian took the very inside of the bunk.
Brian's head was rested on Justin's shoulder as he held him.  Brian blinked
his eyes open slightly and yawned softly.  The smooth ride made it easy for
him to sleep so early in the day.
		He felt Justin's body cringe in his arms as he began to
rest his head again.  He lifted his head and saw Justin's eyes shoot open.
"Ah shit." he heard Justin murmur in pain.  Brian looked down at Justin
with a sudden shock.  "What is it?" Brian asked with concern.  "I've.. I've
got a serious cramp... in my stomach..." Justin whimpered out.  Brian was
thrown by the pain in Justin's voice.  "Do you want me to stop the bus?
Get you to a hospital?" Brian offered with a tremble in his voice.  "No,
just let it ride." Justin responded, trying to calm his stomach.  Brian
didn't like the response he received.  "Just hold me Bri..." Justin
pleaded.  "But Justin..." Brian was too scared to help.  "Just hold me and
I'll be okay, Bri." Justin assured him.  Brian laid back down and wrapped
his arms around Justin.  Justin snuggled to Brian and tried to relax.
		Brian found himself unable to relax with his hurting
fiancé.  Even the sounds of the road or the dim lit bunk didn't ease his
sleepy mind.  "I love you." he heard Justin whisper.  "I love you too."
Brian responded naturally and hugged Justin tighter.  "Are you sure you're
going to be okay?" Brian whispered the question into Justin's ear.  Justin
nodded and closed his eyes.  Brian sighed lowly and closed his eyes.  He
did his best to sleep with Justin in the bunk.  Soon enough, he was able to
relax enough to fall asleep with Justin.
		Three hours went by before Brian heard someone knocking on
the side to the bunk.  Brian lifted his head woozily to see who it was.  He
lifted his arm to pull the curtains open and looked outside.  The blazing
light of the bus caused his eyes to squint to the feature.  "Brian, we're
at a rest stop.  We're gonna grab something to eat, ya'll want anything?"
he heard A.J.'s rusky voice question him.  "Yeah, hold on and we'll be
there." Brian responded softly.  "Okay, just hurry up because we don't
wanna be at this stop forever." A.J. whispered back.  Brian nodded and
watch A.J. closed the curtains.
		"Justin... are you hungry?" Brian asked softly.  Justin
rubbed his ear and opened his eyes.  The soft whisper that Brian spoke was
enough to wake him this time.  "Mmhmmm." Justin responded.  "Well come on
and let's go get something, okay?" Brian suggested.  "Okay." Justin
replied.  Justin yawned loudly and tried to stretch in the cramped bunk.
Justin pushed himself out of the bunk and closed his eyes again.  He took
the moment to get his eyes adjusted to the light.  He felt Brian step out
of the bunk, leaving Tyke sleep inside.
		Brian smiled as he saw BJ run by towards the back of the
bus.  "I wonder what she's been doing all of this time?" Brian asked.
"Terrorizing me." J.C. responded lightly.  Justin giggled softly, still
exhausted from the ride.  Brian grabbed Justin's hand and held it while
they stood waiting.  "Ya'll can go ahead off and get something.  Everyone
else is already out there." J.C. informed them as he began his chase with
BJ again.  Brian nodded and walked Justin to the front of the bus.  Justin
stumbled along, trying to shake off his sleepiness.
		Brian grabbed his Kentucky hat from the front and then
stepped off the bus with Justin.  Justin looked around and saw the
McDonald's that everyone had seem to migrate to.  "You go on ahead.  I
gotta run to this video store and grab something." Brian whispered to
Justin.  Justin looked to his left and saw the small video store Brian was
referring to.  "Do you want anything from McDonald's?" Justin asked.
"Yeah, grab me a number two with no onions." Brian responded, handing
Justin a five dollar bill.  "You got it." Justin smiled and walked off
towards the fast food restaurant.
		Justin stepped inside the busy McDonald's and found his
friends quickly.  He bypassed people, trying not to get noticed and then
took a seat at one of the booths with the rest of the guys.  He watched and
laughed as Chris toyed around with his Pug, Busta.  "Where's your
loverboy?" Lance asked sarcastically and with a hint of anger.  "He went to
go buy something." Justin replied with ease.  "I hope a First Aid kit."
Lance added.  "Knock it off." J.C. warned him.  "Sorry, but sometimes I
don't like my friends getting beat up on." Lance responded to J.C.'s words.
"He didn't get beat up Lance." A.J. corrected him.  "Oh right, now you're
defending him?" Lance questioned A.J.  "Tables turn so easily, don't they?
A.J. defending Brian like you used to defend Nick?" Joey added.  Joey knew
the situation well enough to know where to hit Lance with his best shot.
"Where is Nick?" Kevin questioned.  "Recovery." Justin smiled.  "Huh?"
Kevin shot Justin a look of pure confusion.  "Don't worry about it." Justin
assured him.  "Look guys we have a serious problem here and that's our
constant involvement in Brian and Justin's relationship.  Now I know that
I've had my wrong's in the relationship, as many of us have..." Kevin began
to lecture everyone.  "Uhm point of order Mr. Richardson.  I haven't done
anything to Brian and Justin.  I've supported them all the way." Chris
brought to Kevin's attention.  "Okay, well except Chris..." Kevin corrected
himself.  "No, no, no, point of order Kev.  I haven't done anything wrong
either." A.J. smiled brightly towards Kevin.  Kevin gave A.J. a disturbed
grin.  "And A.J. too." Kevin added.  "But we all need to stay out of it
now.  Justin's eighteen and capable of making his life choices.  Brian is
someone that I trust dearly and I know that he loves Justin.  As we all
know that he loves Justin.  So he messed up, I'm not saying forget, but I
am saying forgive." Kevin stated wisely.  Everyone stared at him as if he
had given the most powerful and endearing speech of his life.
		"Mother Love here is right." A.J. was the first to joke.
"Thanks A.J.  I just want the rest of our time together to ride smoothly
until after the wedding.  Then we can all attempt to breakup Lance and
J.C. or Britney and Joey." Kevin joked.  "Whoa, is Daddy getting soft on
us?" J.C. snickered.  "Eh, ya'll are going to try and breakup me and
Amanda?" A.J. joked with sadness.  "Nah, you do that all by yourself."
Howie replied with a laugh.  "Shut up." A.J. barked.  "I guess all I want
is to be able to say that Lil' Justin here in my cousin.  And I gladly
welcome him into the family." Kevin said with love.  He placed an arm
around Justin for care.  "Thanks Kev.  You're more like an older brother to
me." Justin smiled.  "Okay enough before the water works begin." Howie
teased them.  Everyone laughed with him.  "Okay, grab your food and let's
get back to the bus you jokers." Kevin ordered in his regular tone.  "Uh
oh, he's back!" A.J. laughed.  Kevin cocked an eyebrow in A.J.'s direction
and A.J. quickly hopped into one of the waiting lines.
		Justin stepped out of the McDonald's with J.C. and Howie
and looked towards the bus.  He could see Brian chatting with Kevin, Joey,
A.J., Lance and Chris outside of the bus.  "Hmm, wonder what they're up
to?" Howie asked as they walked to them.  "Probably planning out how to
kill Justin." J.C. joked.  Justin didn't take the joke seriously.  "Eh
Justin, what are ya'll gonna do for your bachelor parties?" he heard Lance
ask.  "Oh, let's hit a strip bar and try to figure out where I went wrong."
Justin joked a suggestion.  "Did you go wrong somewhere?" Brian asked him
with a concerned look.  "Yeah, I went wrong when I didn't kiss you
goodbye." Justin quickly recovered.  He leaned forward and pressed his lips
to Brian's gently.  His friends stood in a circle watching them with awe.
"That's cute." Kevin cooed.  "More like sickening." Lance disagreed with
obvious anger.  "God, can we all pray for something like this?" A.J. joked.
Justin released Brian's lips and smiled.  "Who needs a bachelor party?  I
won't miss that life." Brian responded to Justin's gesture.  "Sucker!"
Howie shouted and lightly punched Brian in the arm.  Brian began to
playfully run around with Howie while the others boarded the bus.  "If
ya'll don't get your happy asses on the bus, we're leaving." A.J. warned
them.  Brian and Howie made a mad dash for the bus just as the doors were
closing.  "I think he was serious amigo." Howie laughed as they walked onto
the bus.
		Brian peered past everyone to see Justin sitting in his
bunk quietly eating.  Brian smiled with relief.  He walked passed Kevin,
A.J. and Chris and then made his move for Justin's bunk.  Joey quickly
grabbed his arm to warn him.  "Eh Bri, I know you're doing your best to
make amends with everyone else here, but keep in mind that Justin is the
real and only concern.  So... maybe you could do a little something for him
while we are in Lexington.  You know?  Something sweet." Joey suggested
with a kind, but low tone.  Brian nodded to show Joey that he understood.
"I think I can get something together." Brian replied.  "Good, because
right now, in his condition, he could use it." Joey agreed.  "When do you
think Justin will tell everyone?" Brian asked Joey.  "You're marrying him,
ask him." Joey responded, shrugging at the end.  "I'll see what I can do."
Brian smiled at him.  Joey patted Brian on his shoulder and sent him on his
way without worry or prenotion.
		Brian reached Justin and stood over him.  "Are you going to
get in here or are you going to head for your bunk?" Justin asked flatly.
Brian sighed and nudged Justin.  "Grab your food and my food and come with
me." Brian whispered.  Justin looked up at him as if he was crazy.  "For
what?" Justin questioned.  "Quality time." Brian responded cheerfully.
Justin rolled his eyes and then smiled.  "Okay." Justin responded with a
mouthful of french fries.
		Brian led Justin back to the lounge.  Justin walked inside
and took a seat on the couch next to the back window.  Brian dimmed the
lights and walked over to the T.V.  "Eh, what's up with the lights?"
J.C. questioned.  Brian jumped with surprise.  "Geez, I didn't know you
were in here J.C." Brian replied, catching his breath.  "And he's not
alone." Justin added, pointing out Lance.  Lance and J.C. were cramped
together in the small chair in the corner.  Justin could tell that the two
were making out when they interrupted them.  "I'm sorry ya'll, I thought
the lounge was gonna be empty." Brian sighed.  "No, we're sorry Brian.  We
can see that you and Justin need some time alone... to uh, make up."
J.C. responded.  "No, ya'll don't have to leave." Justin assured them.
"What's wrong Curly?  Scared to be in the same room alone with Brian?"
Lance joked.  His joke hit Brian hard.  "You know what... maybe I should be
the one to go." Brian suggested, dropping what was in his hands to the
floor.  Brian shimmed past everyone and stepped out of the lounge.  "That
wasn't smart." J.C. shamed Lance.  "I didn't mean it... he's shouldn't be
so damn serious." Lance replied to J.C.'s comment.  "Serious has nothing to
do with it.  Brian is guilty enough as it is for what he did and now you go
and say something like that." J.C. argued.  "Is this how it's gonna be for
the rest of our relationship?  Arguing over Brian and Justin's problems?
At least with Nick all I had to worry about was him having wet dreams about
Brian." Lance said bitterly.  He scooted off the chair and walked out of
the lounge.
		J.C. didn't take Lance's snap easily.  He sliuched back on
the chair with disgust and pain.  "I'm sorry J.C.  I didn't mean for you
two to get in the middle." Justin apologized.  "Nah, Lance will be fine.  I
think he's just adjusting to the pain that he went through with me and
Nick.  We really did put him through the wringer and now he has to come
back to the reality of love." J.C. stated.  Justin agreed with him
silently.  "He wasn't right was he?  You're not scared to be alone with
Brian, are you?" J.C. pondered.  Justin wasn't afraid to answer the
question with all honesty.  "Brian hasn't given me a reason to be scared of
him.  I just feel bad that he has to suffer through stuff, like what Lance
did, for a long time." Justin explained.  "Do you want me to go talk to
him?  Apologize for Lance's actions?" J.C. offered.  Justin took the offer
into consideration.  "No, I wanna talk to him." Justin replied with
maturity.  "You sure?" J.C. offered once again his services.  "Yeah, he
needs to hear from me right now." Justin assured him.  Justin stood and
glided out of the room with no hesitations.
		The minute he stepped out of the lounge, he heard slight
sniffles coming from the bathroom.  Justin opened the door and saw Brian
standing inside.  Justin squeezed himself inside and closed the door.  He
looked at Brian with deep concern.  "You're crying." Justin whispered.
Brian tried to hide the small and few tears that slid down his face.
"Justin, you don't have to be in here right now.  I'll be okay." Brian
stated clearly.  "Well I am here right now and I want to be here right now.
Here for you." Justin answered.  "Like all the other times." Brian
whispered.  "Yes... but this time it's different.  Brian, I know you're
suffering." Justin replied.  Brian shook his head.  "I'm supposed to.  What
I did was wrong." Brian said with a stern face.  "What you did was wrong,
but forgiven." Justin did his best to help Brian see.  Brian wiped away the
few tears and looked at Justin.  "That's what you say, but I know that's
not how you feel." Brian whispered.  Justin couldn't believe that Brian was
challenging his love.  "Brian, never have I said something to you that I
didn't mean.  I forgive you for what you did.  I love you too much not to
forgive." Justin assured him.  Brian didn't respond this time.  "I know
because Lance and Howie and the others don't say it as much as I do, you
don't believe it.  But in my eyes, only you count and not them.  I know you
feel the same way too." Justin tried to stir Brian's emotions.  Brian
blinked his etes lightly, letting another tear fall.  "I'm sorry that Lance
is such an asshole, but sometimes he's the best asshole I know.  I love him
still.  So don't give up because of him." Justin whispered, wiping away the
tear.
		Brian tried to hold back his need to cry.  "I feel.. feel
so bad for what I did to... to you, I... I don't know how you can love
me.. because the guilt is so strong... and so deep inside of me... and
I... I know that you love me but.. I don't know how you can forgive me... I
don't understand how you can just let it go... but that wasn't me last
night Justin... I'd never cause you that much pain... I promise you
that...." Brian stuttered all of his words out in a blustering fit.  Justin
watched Brian break down before his eyes.  Justin grabbed Brian and pulled
him into a comforting hug.  Justin hushed him and rubbed his hand over
Brian's cheek.  "It's okay babe.  I forgave you because I know that wasn't
the Brian Littrell I know last night.  Whether it was Nick or the alcohol,
I know it wasn't Brian." Justin whispered.  "I know you feel guilty, but
I'm here to help you." Justin reassured him.  Brian let the tears roll from
his blue eyes with shame.
		"Now... can I be with the Brian Littrell that I fell in
love with?" Justin requested.  Brian lifted his head with a smile.
"Somehow, for an eighteen year old, you know more to love than I do." Brian
laughed.  "That's because I learned from you." Justin responded.  He leaned
forward, tilted his head and then began to kiss Brian's lips.  Brian closed
his eyes and began to return the kiss freely.  Justin wiped away the tears
as he kissed Brian.  Brian tried to capture the moment and slid his tongue
into Justin's mouth.  Justin ran his tongue over Brian's with sincerity in
mind.  Brian let himself fall back onto the toilet and let Justin sit on
his lap.  Brian's kiss was becoming more than Justin expected as Brian
began to lift Justin's dark gray, North Carolina shirt.  Justin lifted
Brian's hat and then dropped it to the floor.  Justin felt his shirt come
off and the realization that they were about to have sex hit Justin.
Justin backed off Brian with concern and stood.  Brian felt rattled by
Justin's sudden leave.  "What's wrong?" Brian asked softly.  "I don't think
it's wise we have sex Brian." Justin replied.  "It's not wise?  Why?" Brian
asked.  "It just doesn't feel right." Justin replied, folding his arms
across his chest.  He felt the cold air chill his upper body.  "Okay, if
you think so.  I don't wanna pressure you into anything." Brian agreed.
Justin didn't smile.  Instead he thought.
		Brian sighed and looked at Justin with wonder.  Justin made
his decision and walked over to Brian.  He knelt to the floor and grabbed a
hold of Brian's zipper.  "No, you just said no sex." Brian stopped him.
"And if I did?  I can change my mind." Justin replied flatly, pulling down
Brian's jeans.  Justin pulled Brian's erect cock from the pee-hole in his
boxers and slowly began to lick the head.  "You're a bad boy." Brian
laughed and then soon was overcome by the pleasures of oral sex.
		Lance passed by the bathroom and could hear the slow and
erotic sounds of Justin's slurping on Brian's penis.  He placed his ear to
the door and could hear Brian's pants and muffled moans.  'Just like the
first time.' Lance grinned from ear to ear.  "Eh Lance, what's up?" Howie
asked as he walked up to Lance.  Lance quickly backed away from the door
and looked at Howie.  "Uh.. uh... just trying to find J.C." Lance quickly
lied.  "Oh, I think he went to bed." Howie gave Lance a crooked stare.
"Okay... whew, I'm tired too.  Think I'll go grab a nap before we get into
Lexington." Lance said, faking a yawn.  "Okay, see ya buddy." Howie
shrugged and walked into the lounge.
		Lance sighed and walked away from the bathroom.  'At least
they're happy.' Lance thought to himself as he reached his bunk.  He looked
to his right and could see Nick's feet sticking out of his bunk.  Lance
sighed again.  'Poor kid.' Lance thought to himself.  He walked over to
Lance's bunk and knelt down.  He lifted Nick's legs and stuffed them into
Nick's bunk.  He then sat in the bunk and pulled Nick's cover over Nick's
sleeping body.  Lance found himself leaning down and giving Nick a quick
kiss on the cheek.  He thought of the past times when he would do that for
Nick after sex or after a moment that they had shared.  Lance pulled back
in surprise.  "Sweet dreams Nickie." Lance whispered as he backed away.
"Lance..." he heard Nick whisper.  Lance stayed in his position, stiff from
surprise.  He was afraid that he had been caught and that Nick was going to
tell J.C.  "I'll always have a place for you in my heart, Lance." Nick
whispered and then tried to fall back to sleep.  "I'll always have a place
for you too, Nick." Lance replied softly.  He rubbed Nick's leg softly and
then stepped out of the bunk.

Brian & Justin (Chapter 92)
By JM

		Brian and Justin crepted out of the bathroom, gazing around
to see if anyone noticed them.  Brian was thankful that no one had come by
the bathroom to use it.  He held onto Justin's hand as they stood in front
of the lounge.  "Thanks again." Brian whispered and kissed Justin on the
cheek.  Justin nodded and walked with Brian into the lounge.
		They saw A.J., Howie and Chris sitting around the room
talking.  Brian walked Justin back over to the couch and let Justin have a
seat.  "Ya'll don't mind if I pop in a movie, do ya'll?" Brian asked.
"Nah, that's cool." A.J. responded for the room.  Chris lounged in the
chair that J.C. and Lance had once occupied while Howie sat on the floor
listening to a CD.  Brian placed the movie in that he had bought and then
took a seat by Justin.
		The movie started and Justin soon took notice that it was
'While You Were Sleeping'.  Brian relaxed on the couch and let Justin rest
his back on his chest.  Brian began to chow down on one of his
cheeseburgers while Justin began to eat Brian's fries.  Brian draped one
arm over Justin's chest as he watched.  Justin found himself getting
comfortable again and lifted one of his leg to the couch.  He kicked off
his shoes and then nuzzled to Brian.  Justin listened as Brian's breathe
went slowly up and down.  "Eh Justin, look." A.J. pointed out to Justin.
Justin looked up curiously and saw that Brian was fast asleep.  Justin
smiled and then kissed Brian on the lips.
		"Wow, he sure did go to sleep quickly." Chris whispered.
"He's tired.  He was up most of the night last night." Justin replied.
"Because of you?" A.J. wondered.  Justin nodded.  "Where were you?  Brian
came to me and J.C.'s room looking for J.C." A.J. stated.  "I was in Joey's
room." Justin replied.  "He was your comfort zone, huh?" Chris worried.
Justin nodded.  "He said he's gonna be your best man.  Even though wish it
could've been me, I can see that he's the one.  He's been around you alot
and just real supportive." Chris stated with pride.  "Has Brian said who
his best man is?  Dropped any hints?" A.J. asked with intrigue.  "Nope.
Not a thing." Justin replied with a devious smile.  A.J. pouted and
returned his attention to the movie.  "Don't tell A.J. this but I think
Brian wants him to be his best man." Justin playfully whispered to Chris.
A smile soon dawned A.J.'s face.  "Sucker!" Justin laughed and threw one of
the small pillows at A.J.  "You dufus." A.J. pouted again as he grasped the
pillow.
		Chris was too caught up in laughter to see Brian wake from
his slumber.  "I'm gonna go to my bunk and try to nap." Brian whispered to
Justin.  Justin was shocked when he heard the voice.  Brian pushed Justin
up and got off the small couch.  "Oh, okay." Justin finally responded as
Brian stumbled out of the room.
		"He's got quite a hangover." Chris giggled.  "You suffer in
love." Howie spoke poetically.  "What do you know about love D?"
A.J. laughed as he joked.  "Hey, you're talking to the Don Juan of love
baby." Howie joked.  "More like the Bill Clinton of love!" Chris boasted.
"I did not have sexual relations with that woman." Justin joined in the
joking.  "Man Howie, Justin has gotten laid more than you and he's
eighteen.  You're friggin' twenty five." A.J. teased him even further.
"Hey, I don't get laid." Justin reminded him.  "Oh, I forgot.  'Me and
Brian make love'." A.J. cooed.  "Make love, fuck, doesn't matter." Howie
argued lightly.  "Oh it does.  Cause either you Don Juan or the minute
man." A.J. stated.  "And you know about that 'Minute Man', eh A.J.?" Chris
laughed.  "Tattooed right on my ass." A.J. smiled.  "Well I got the Don
Juan." Justin announced to all of them.  "Please, I know even Brian has had
his 'Minute Man' moments." A.J. disagreed.  "A.J.'s jealous because his is
the 'Thirty Second Bang'." Chris smiled.
		"Okay, enough about me and Amanda's exploits, okay?"
A.J. pleaded with a snicker.  "He's right, let's get back to Brian and his
'Ride 'Em Cowboy' sex scandals." Howie suggested.  He then smiled brightly
towards Justin.  "Well at least he never has to worry about being the Lone
Ranger." Justin mocked Howie.  "As long as I have my 'trusty steed' and
'Tonto'." Howie replied, pointing from his hand to his crotch.  "Nasty!"
Chris sneered.  "Hey, at least Howie can admit he doesn't mind spending
time with his hand and dick." A.J. pointed out.  "I don't have that problem
anymore." Justin smiled and leaned back on the couch.  "Oh, like you ever
had that problem.  Justin didn't learn what masturbation meant until he was
what... sixteen or seventeen and then next thing you know, he's losing his
virginity." Chris mentioned.  "Jealous?" Justin teased.  "Hardly, I think I
lost mine before you." Chris assured him.  "One point for Chris."
A.J. announced with a laugh.  "But I am jealous that you have a good thing.
Not that I want a man, but a love that I can count on." Chris spoke
honestly.  "Yeah dude, he's right.  You've got something in Brian.  Me and
the guys always said he was going to make someone very happy." A.J. agreed.
"Well I'm that someone then because I couldn't be more happier with him."
Justin beamed.  "Hopeless romantic." Howie cheered.  "Nah, he's just
hopeless." A.J. joked lightly.
		"Kiddies, we're just about here." Kevin announced as he
walked into the lounge.  A smile covered his appearance as he took a seat
next to Justin.  "Excited?" he asked Justin softly.  "More like nervous.
Me and Brian haven't sat down with his parents since Jersey and well
uh.. that didn't go over too well." Justin replied.  The butterflies in his
stomach helped to build on the fear he had developed.  "Ah, it's nothing.
Uncle Harold and Aunt Jackie are like good apple pie.  It's always best
served with ice cream!" Kevin responded in a deep southern accent.  "Ill,
now you sound like Brian." Justin snickered.  "We folks from Lexington are
always humble and southern." Kevin assured him.  "Do you know how long
Brian sounded like that when we first started out!" A.J. complained.  "I'm
guessing longer than you wanted." Chris responded first.  "It didn't bother
me.  It was funny actually." Howie answered next.  "I think Brian's accent
is cute." Justin shrugged.  "You would!" A.J. said, making a gagging face.
		"Seriously though Justin, I've talked with Aunt Jackie and
honestly, she loves you to death!  She has no problem with you and Brian
being in love and she thinks you make Brian's life shine a little more.  So
don't sweat it." Kevin gave Justin his full knowledge on the situation.  "I
don't think I'm really worried about Brian's mom.  I'm more concerned about
his dad and well uh... Harold." Justin sighed.  "Harold?  That brat!  He's
no big deal." Kevin laughed out an answer.  "So you say." Justin whispered.
"And as for Brian's dad, as long as he knows that you're making Brian happy
and that you're serious, and I mean SERIOUS in all aspects about marrying
Brian, then he'll be fine." Kevin gave Justin advice.  Justin wasn't as
confident.
		"Just speak what you feel.  I remember way back, like a
year and a half ago, when Leigh Ann had this thing about pretending to be
Brian's girlfriend for some publicity stuff we we're going through, she
told Brian's dad that they were planning on getting married.  Brian's dad
had a fit because for one he doesn't like Leigh Ann too much and two, he
knew that Leigh Ann wasn't serious.  They didn't know that the label sorta
set up Brian and Leigh Ann so Brian could avoid any further questions about
a so-called engagement of his, but Brian wasn't thrilled when he found out.
That's when he broke it off with her." Kevin stated.  Justin was
indifferent towards the story.  "Yes Justin, Brian and Leigh Ann Wallace
were an item for like a week and a half.  They were friends LONG before
though and sometimes I thought they were going out, but Brian said it
didn't get serious until later on." A.J. explained.  "But in all honesty,
Brian never looked at her more than a friend.  I think I saw him kiss her
like twice while they were together and that was by her request." Kevin
added.  "So Brian called it off?" Justin pondered.  "Oh yeah, of course!
He didn't appreciate her lying to his father for whatever reasons she had
or even going to that level.  Brian has never really been ready for
marriage since he's never had a steady love after high school." Kevin
replied.  "Yep, always the lonely one.  Even Nick kept a girlfriend or two.
But not Brian... he was always saving himself for something 'real'."
A.J. agreed whole-heartedly.  "And that's supposed to be you, Justin."
Chris whispered.  "I can admit, you are the real deal.  He's head over
heels for you." A.J. agreed.
		"But Leigh Ann and Nick are always going to be there."
Justin sighed out.  "Somehow, I doubt that seriously." Howie disagreed.
"Of course Nick's gonna be there, but Nick used to play a rather serious
role in Brian's life.  He doesn't now.  I mean, Nick, he was the one!
Brian's parents loved him, Brian loved hanging with him and if there was
anyone that Brian ran to... it was Nick." Kevin bragged without worry.
Justin slowly began to withdraw from the conversation.  He could tell the
aspects and strong issues Brian's had with friendship have changed greatly
due to him.  "Kevin, Nick was just there to make Brian laugh and for little
comfort." Howie reminded him quickly.  "Right, what I was trying to say is
that Brian has actually drifted from Nick for several reasons.  Yes,
Justin's one of them but another was when Nick thought that he and Brian
had something more than just friendship.  Brian sees Nick more of a younger
brother than anyone of a love interest.  I think that's what hurts Nick the
most.  He can't have Brian." Kevin finished.
		"Did I hear my name?" Brian asked groggily.  Justin's mood
brightened when Brian made his return.  "Yes you did bro." A.J. replied.
"I hope nothing bad." Brian yawned out sheepishly.  "Some good and some
bad.  The guys were just breaking down your love life for me and Justin."
Chris responded absent-mindedly.  Brian's eyes quickly shot open.  "My love
life?" Brian questioned, looking at everyone's faces in the room.  "More
like 'where Brian went wrong, but how he made it right with Justin'." Howie
tried to lightened the situation.  "Where I went wrong?  Oh, this should be
interesting." Brian gave everyone a disturbed face.  "Nothing to fret over
cuz, we just tried to ease Justin's mind about seeing your parents." Kevin
assured him.  Justin quickly elbowed Kevin in the side.  Kevin grasped his
side in pain and shot Justin a look over anger.  "Ease his mind?" Brian
repeated the phrase with a dramatic question written on his face.  Justin
bit his lower lip shyly and didn't look up at Brian.  "Hmm, I'm guessing it
would have helped if Justin would have mentioned it to you first?" Kevin
asked, looking from Brian to Justin.  "Yeah, I guess it would have." Brian
nodded arrogantly.  "The kid's worried B-Rok.  Come on now, you'd be too if
you weren't sure how his parents felt about your choice in marrying him."
A.J. defended Justin proudly.  "I know how he feels, trust me, I know.  I
just wish Justin would have said something." Brian replied calmly.  "Okay,
Justin's right here in the room." Justin tried to joke.  "I can see that."
Brian gave him an awkward stare.
		"All we did was talk about how Leigh Ann and Nick messed up
a good thing with you." Howie changed the subject briefly.  Brian gave
Howie a doubting look.  "I don't see how you guys would know how they
'messed up' things with me.  I've never discussed that with anyone." Brian
stated.  "Maybe that's your problem, Brian.  You're not too open about how
you feel about things anymore.  You're just wrapped in this tight, little
shell that even Justin can't get past." A.J. lectured him with a mild tone.
Brian agreed with A.J. silently.  "There's just some aspects of my life I
don't like to discuss." Brian replied to A.J.'s statement.  "Boy, you'd be
no fun at confessional." Howie laughed.  Chris found himself joining in
with Howie.  "That's fine and we respect that Brian.  I just think Lil'
Justin here is a bit insecure about that." Kevin spoke with comfort.  "So
why doesn't Justin tell me that?" Brian questioned his cousin and Justin.
"Because it's none of my business and I don't want to pry." Justin answered
first.  "I'd add onto that, but I said it wasn't my place anymore to be in
ya'll relationship." Kevin smiled as he answered.  "Justin, whatever I have
is yours.  So if you wanna know... just ask." Brian assured him with his
endearing, blue eyes.
		"I think there's something else I think we should discuss
now." Joey suggested, stepping into the room and interrupting the group
discussion.  "What's up Phat One?" Chris questioned as Joey dragged Lance,
Nick and J.C. into the small linge with him.  "I don't mean to put Justin
on the spot like this... but uh, I think he has something he should tell
ya'll." Joey spoke up, looking over to Justin with concern.  "Yeah, he
should tell ya'll." Brian agreed, trying to build his fiancé's
confidence.
		Justin's hands shook as he felt all of the eyes were on
him.  "Okay... well uh guys, I've been real sick lately and it hasn’t
been the flu.  The other day, me and Joey went to the doctors and
uhm... the doctor said that I have Gastritis, but it's a more serious case.
It may have developed into a more serious stomach condition that's causing
serious inflammation in my stomach.  Well uh.. she said if I don't get
better, they may have to operate." Justin stuttered out his condition with
sheer nervousness.  Brian wasn't at ease with the situation and took that
moment to excuse himself from the room.  Justin felt lonely as his one sign
of hope left the room.  He received no response from anyone, just surprised
and saddened stares.
		He looked to the floor with less confidence.  He felt two
arms wrap around him and he looked up.  J.C. stood over him, hugging him
with pure affection.  "I wish you would have said something sooner."
J.C. whispered as he tried to comfort Justin.  "Wow, that's serious."
A.J. replied, feeling fully bummed out.  "Do you know if uh... if you'll
have to get surgery?" Lance asked with worry.  "I won't know until the day
after our last show." Justin replied.  "Thank God you found out when you
did.  That way we can end the tour and you'll have plenty of time to relax
and recover." Kevin did his best to comfort Justin.  J.C. just kept his
tight grip on Justin.  "Why didn't you tell us Joey?" Chris asked softly.
"Justin asked me not to." Joey replied while staring at J.C. and Justin.
"I'm sorry Justin, I know it must be rough." Nick spoke up.  Joey looked at
Nick with utter surprise.  "Thanks Nick." Justin whispered his reply
without looking towards Nick.  "What's... what's Brian going to do?"
J.C. asked, a small tear falling from his eye.  "I don't know." Justin
answered.
		"He's not going to his death bed, so let's stop talking
like he is." A.J. demanded.  Kevin could tell that A.J. was not one to take
to bad news easily.  "He's right." Joey agreed.  J.C. finally released
Justin and looked at his face.  "If you have to get surgery, I'm going to
be right by your side.  And when you go back to the doctor's, I'll be right
there too." J.C. assured Justin.  "Thanks J.C., but when I go back to the
doctors, as much as I want my friends there, I really want Brian there this
time." Justin responded softly.  J.C. was hurt by Justin's response.  He
felt as if his friendship with Justin was being cut by the ends.  "That was
nice of you Joey to help him." Lance changed the direction of everyone's
eyes.  "Justin needed me and I was there." Joey gave a simple answer.  "So
all of those times you were throwing up and just plain sick?"
A.J. pondered.  "It was all Gastritis." Justin replied with a nod.  "God, I
wish I had known sooner or something." J.C. grumbled.  "It's okay J.C.  You
know now." Lance did his best to help J.C.  J.C. grabbed Lance's hand and
held it for comfort.  He hated to know that his best friend was suffering
and he could do nothing to help him.  It was a feeling of helplessness.
		Justin stood from the couch and pushed passed everyone.  He
walked out of the lounge and to the front of the bus.  He saw Brian sitting
at the table, eating a bagel.  Justin sighed lowly and took a seat next to
Brian.  Brian kept his attention on his food so that Justin would not see
his pain.  "Don't do this to yourself." Justin whispered for encouragement.
Brian took another bite from the bagel as Justin spoke.  "I try not to, but
I can't help it sometimes.  I put you through hell last night and look what
happens... you turn up sick and I just added more stress to it." Brian
replied softly.  "You didn't know." Justin assured him.  "But you knew and
that makes it even rougher.  Why didn't you tell me when you saw me?  Why
didn't you stop everything and tell me something was wrong?" Brian asked
with hurt in his eyes.  "Because I couldn't.  I couldn't ruin things
between us by having you worry about me." Justin replied with uncertainty.
"I have to worry about you!  Justin I'm marrying you.  I have to be able to
care." Brian whimpered.  "I know that... but Brian, I wanted to make every
moment happy." Justin tried to explain.  "It won't be happy if you're not
here." Brian sighed.  Justin placed his elbows on the table and looked away
from Brian.
		"I know what you went through when I was in a coma because
I'm going through that right now.  I'm scared Justin because I don't want
you to have to get surgery." Brian stated, his voice rising and falling.
He threw his arms around Justin and hugged him.  "I don't want you to be
scared Brian.  I want you to be the one to tell me things are okay.  To lie
to me and say it'll all be fine if we're together." Justin whispered with
pain.  "That's not a lie Justin." Brian whispered back.  "I know... but I
wanted to hear you say it." Justin sighed.
		"Could we suffer anymore in this relationship?" Brian
questioned.  "No, I don't think we could." Justin replied.  "It's not a
sign from God." Brian assured him.  "I know because when I'm with you, I'm
overjoyed.  I think it's because we let too many things in and not being
able to keep to ourselves." Justin responded.  "That's what fame can do to
people." Brian agreed.  "But not us." Justin giggled softly.  "Yeah, we're
special." Brian smiled and gave Justin a light kiss.  "We're Brian Thomas
Littrell and Justin Randall Timberlake." Justin boasted.  "Soon to be
Mr. Brian Thomas Littrell and Mr. Justin Randall Littrell." Brian chimed.
"Mmhmmm.  Just me and you." Justin smiled chipperly.  "Or should it be
Brian Thomas Timberlake?" Brian pondered.  "Nah, I like your name better."
Justin laughed.  "We could always change our name's to Brian and Justin
Smith." Brian joked.  "Oh yeah, there's real excitement in that name."
Justin replied sarcastically.  "As long as I have that ring on my finger.
It doesn't matter." Brian responded.  Justin nodded as the bus came to a
stop.  "We're here." Brian whispered.

Brian & Justin (Chapter 93)
By JM

		When the bus came to it's full stop, Brian gazed out the
window to see the place that he once called home.  They were parked in the
back of a luxurious hotel to prevent fans from hunting them down.  "I'm
home!  I'm home!  I'm HOME!" Kevin shouted as he ran down the bus.  "What a
loser." Brian joked playfully.  "Hey, don't hate me for missing my brothers
and my mom." Kevin warned him, losing his excitement.  "It was a joke,"
Brian replied flatly.  "Oh, well in that case, I'm HOME!" Kevin shouted and
quickly pulled Brian into a nuggie.  Justin laughed loudly as he watched
the two cousins wrestle.  "Okay, I give in!" Brian shouted and pushed Kevin
off of him.  Kevin smiled broadly and ran back to the bunks.  "What's your
rush?" Justin asked him.  "I'm getting out of here.  I get to home and
spend time with my fam' while ya'll are stuck in the Bates Motel." Kevin
replied as he pulled some of his bags from the overhead.  "Actually, me and
Justin are staying at my parents Kev.  And I know things will go over well
there." Brian assured him.
		"What time is it?" Nick asked groggily as he stepped into
the front.  "It's like nine at night." Brian responded.  "Nine?  Ugh and
now I have to go to that stupid hotel room." Nick complained.  "The life of
a celebrity." Brian joked again.  Justin found himself laughing with Brian.
Nick gave both of them a scowl and he walked back to the lounge.  "Let's
get our bags and head out of here." Brian suggested with a whisper.  Justin
nodded and they both stood from the booth.  Brian grabbed Justin's hand and
held it as they walked back to their bunks.
		"Hey, what are ya'll gonna do after tomorrow night?" Kevin
asked as he grabbed the last of his things on the bus.  "I'm headed back
home for some much needed rest before we go back to the studio." Lance
replied.  "Same here." J.C. agreed with a bright smile.  "I'm gonna tour
around with Amanda because they're headed to Miami for a special radio show
concert." A.J. cheered.  "Uh, I'm headed home for like two days since I
know we've gotta start promotion on the new album soon." Howie replied as
he walked by them.  "We're staying here for a day after the show and then
we're headed back home for final plans for the wedding." Brian replied.
"And when do we get our invitations?" A.J. requested.  "Tomorrow at the
show.  I had my mom handle all of that today." Brian answered.  "And what
about best men?" Kevin pondered.  "Uhm, well Justin already picked his best
man." Brian gave a shady answer.  "Yeah, Joey." J.C. nodded with little
interest.  "And you?" A.J. put more pressure on him.  Brian pulled his
backpack from the overhead and didn't answer.  "Uh... I'll let ya'll know
at the show tomorrow night." Brian replied softly.  Justin felt the
pressure on Brian and did his best to ease it off of him.
		"What are you guys going to do?" Justin asked Joey and
Kevin.  "I think I'll stay here for the two days I have free and then head
to New York when we have to go to MTV again." Kevin replied.  "And I think
I'm going to go to Orlando with Britney and see what we can do for our free
time." Joey answered.  "What about you Nickie?!" A.J. called out.  "I think
I'm gonna go home to see my mom in Cali and just try to start things over
for myself," Nick replied, frowning Brian's way.  Brian turned his face
from Nick and finished grabbing the rest of his things.  "We will be sure
to meet up in Orlando in a week so we can go to the wedding, right?" Justin
asked of everyone.  "Of course!  Then we can have some bachelor parties to
kill time!" A.J. roared to get the others excited.  Brian and Justin
laughed along with the others.
		Brian and Justin stepped off the bus with their bags on
their arms and their puppies in their hands.  Brian and Justin nonchalantly
walked to the front of the hotel and Brian spotted a familiar car.  "Our
ride is here." Brian whispered to Justin and led him over to the car.
		Jackie leaped from inside of the car and ran to her son.
"I'm so happy to see ya'll!" she bellowed as she pulled both Brian and
Justin into a hug.  Brian and Justin stumbled to her and tried to hold
everything as they hugged her.  Jackie realized their dilemma and gave up
on the hug.  "Come on, let's get ya'll home." Jackie suggested in her deep,
country accent.  She popped open the trunk for them and Brian and Justin
tried to squeeze some of their bags into the trunk.  Brian then opened the
backseat door for Justin and let Justin and BJ slip inside while putting
bags on the otherside.  Brian hopped in the front seat with Tyke and
awaited his mother to pull off.
		Jackie pulled out into the streets and began to her drive
back to her home.  "I'm so glad that ya'll are here." Jackie repeated as
they rode.  "We're glad to be here." Brian replied with a ginger smile.  He
rubbed Tyke's head and then gazed out of the window.  "Justin doesn’t
seem to think so." Jackie added, looking at Justin through the mirror.
Justin looked up at her with a smile.  "He's just nervous mom.  He doesn't
think you guys like him." Brian quickly ratted on Justin.  A frown quickly
covered Jackie's face and she signaled to pull off to the side.
		Jackie exited to the side and stopped the car.  Brian
looked at her with utter shock.  Jackie turned her body around to look at
Justin.  "Justin, don't ever feel like that.  Even if Brian was joking,
don't ever feel like we don't like you.  We do.  You saved my son's life
several times and you make his day brighter.  You're gonna be in my family
now and I'll think of you as a son.  So don't ever feel like we don't like
you." Jackie begged of him.  Justin nodded to show her he understood.
"Plus you make a cute husband." Brian added with laughter.  "Stop it."
Jackie demanded, lightly popping Brian's leg.  "Always joking around." she
smiled and then started the car again.
		Justin relaxed as the ride became a short one for him.
They pulled into the driveway to Brian's parent's house and quickly exited
the car.  "Just grab whatever bags you'll need for tonight and then get the
rest tomorrow." Jackie suggested and headed for inside the house.  Justin
placed BJ on the ground and dipped into the trunk.  Brian stepped behind
him and placed his hands on Justin's hips.  "Are you mad at me?" Brian
whispered his question.  "Yeah." Justin replied stiffly.  "For what?" Brian
asked boldly.  "Don't play stupid with me B-Rok.  You know what you did."
Justin replied as he pulled his bag out.  "B-Rok?  Oh, I must have really
messed up because you never call me that." Brian laughed quietly.  Justin
pulled away from Brian and began to call BJ.  "Okay, wait, wait." Brian
pleaded as he grasped onto Justin's hips again.  "I don't wanna go in there
mad at each other, so how about we just end this now.  I'm sorry for
telling my mom what you were feeling but at least she was kind enough to
tell you how she felt." Brian stated.  Brian stepped in front to look at
Justin and make sure he was okay.  Justin gave him a half-hearted smile and
then looked towards the door.  It was still open but no one was standing
near it.  "Now, can we make up?" Justin asked softly.  "I thought you'd
never ask cutie." Brian said with a light southern accent.  Brian tilted
forward and placed his lips to Justin's.  Justin leaned forward a bit and
began to kiss Brian.  Brian placed a hand under Justin's chin and tried to
control the kiss.  Justin's lips ran over Brian's with an erotic nature.
Brian knew that Justin was still a bit horny, but he had to control his
intentions while at his parents' house.  Still, he wanted to be with Justin
in every way possible.  Brian's other hand began to grope Justin's shirt
and that's when Justin got the sign that they needed to quit.
		Justin pulled back off of Brian's lips and kept his eyes
shut.  Brian regained his normal stance and looked at Justin.  "Sorry, I
just..." Brian stopped his words.  "I just missed the way we could lay
together all day." Brian sighed.  "Yeah, me too." Justin agreed, opening
his eyes to look at Brian.  Brian searched Justin's face for a loving
expression.  Every corner and dent that he saw showed nothing but love for
Brian.  "This is the part where we go inside and fall to sleep in each
other's arms on my bed." Brian whispered to Justin.  "If it were only that
easy." Justin replied.  Brian smiled and grabbed the one bag he needed.
		They found themselves walking inside silent to avoid any
attention.  Jackie sat in the living room with her husband and Brian's
father, Harold Jr.  They watched as Brian and Justin crept in.  "It's about
time, what were you two doing?" Harold questioned them, shattering the
silence.  Brian dropped his bag to the side and ushered Tyke and BJ inside.
He closed the door and then looked to his father.  "We were just talking."
Brian finally explained.  "I hope there's no trouble," Jackie sat up with
concern.  "Nah, not for us." Brian assured her as he held Justin's hand.
		"Well come in and relax your dogs.  I'm sure you two are
tired from the long drive." Harold suggested with his country humbleness.
Brian walked in and took and seat and awaited Justin.  Justin lifted BJ
from the ground and walked in to take a seat next to Brian.  Brian placed
his hand on Justin’s thigh and slouched into the couch.  "Well, how does
it feel to know you'll be getting married in a couple of weeks?" Harold
Jr. asked, looking directly at his son.  "It feels great." Brian assured
him.  "I can't believe you're getting married before your brother Brian.
It's hard to believe since you live a much more hectic life.  Are you sure
you and Justin can handle that?" Harold sent his questions in with
precision.  "Dad, I've said it a million times.  Me and Justin can handle
it." Brian replied with a deep sigh.  "I'm just telling you son." Harold
eased off.  "More like warning me." Brian replied.  "I understand that
you're grown.  You're twenty-four now.  I'm just concerned because poor
Justin there is only eighteen and he may not see his... his 'husband' for
months at a time if you tour separate." Harold explained.  "We're not
concerned about that.  If Justin needs me, I'll take time off to be there."
Brian responded.  "That's a perfect plan." Harold replied with sarcasm.
Brian rolled his eyes at his father's choice of words.
		"I got the invitations like you asked Brian.  Have ya'll
made out a guest list yet?" Jackie asked.  "We're working on that.  We want
to keep it pretty small." Brian responded.  "We just want our close family
and friends.  Like the guys from the groups, maybe their parents and our
families and some of management since they've been a big help and keeping
us touring together." Justin added.  "Good.  Then you guys don't have to
worry about it getting out to the public." Jackie cheered.  "Oh, we don't
have too many worries.  It would seem Kevin and the guys are setting up
this quaint spot for us to get married.  Sort of away from public view you
could say." Brian responded.  "That'll be nice." Harold joined in.
		"Do ya'll want some pie?  I made a fresh apple pie just for
the two of you." Jackie offered.  Justin gave Brian an awkward look and
then returned his smile to Jackie.  "Sure, that would be nice." Justin
replied politely.  Jackie leaped up and walked towards the kitchen.  "Have
you two set up time for the... er, honeymoon?" Harold was reluctant to ask.
"Yep.  Just enough time to be alone." Brian replied with a gigantic smile.
It was enough to make Justin smile but unsettle Harold even more.  "Well as
long as you two value the time you have together." Harold caved in to his
sincere side.  Brian gave his father a loving look.
		Just as Jackie stepped into the living room, the doorbell
rang.  Brian looked toward the door with aggravation.  "Who could be here
at this time of night?" Brian asked bitterly.  "Your brother." Jackie
responded as she pulled open the door.  Just as her words spoke, Harold III
was standing outside with a bright smile on his face.  Reflecting the image
of Brian with a little more age, Harold III stepped inside to hug his
mother.  "Hey mom." he spoke with his everlasting accent.  Jackie quickly
hugged him with one arm as her other hand held Justin's slice of pie.
Harold III released her with a twitching nose.  "Ah, your pie!" Harold
cheered and snatched the plate from her.  "Hey, that's for Justin." Jackie
snapped and grabbed the plate from him.  "You go in the kitchen, wash your
hands and cut your own slice Harold." she ordered and turned her attention
back to Brian and Justin.  "Geez, you invite company and all of the sudden
son's aren't welcome anymore!" Harold joked and ran off to the kitchen.
"And I love how you took the time to acknowledge your father's and your
brother's presence.  Oh and I love how you said hello to your future
brother-in-law too!" Jackie boasted with sarcasm.  She handed Justin his
plate of apple pie and a fork to eat it with.
		Harold III stepped back into the living room with a plate
of pie.  "I'm sorry ya'll, it's been a long day and I'm hungry." Harold III
replied with a mouth full of pie.  Jackie shook her head at her son with
shame.  "Hey there dad, miss me?" Harold III asked of his father.  "Always
Harold!" Harold Jr. laughed.  Harold III smiled brightly with his father's
response.
		Harold III walked over to Brian and Justin and wedged a
space between them.  He plopped down on the couch and looked at Brian.
"Hmm, I can see I ticked you off by doing that." Harold III chimed.  "You
sure are good with hello's Harold." Brian sarcastically responded.  "You're
right, I'm sorry.  How are you lil' bro?  I did miss you while you were
away." Harold III apologized with honesty.  "I'm doing fine Harold.  I
missed you too, well, for five minutes at least." Brian joked.  "Hey, I was
nice to you and now you're hitting me with the joke-crap." Harold
complained.  "One turn deserves another." Brian replied, still laughing.
		Harold III took another fork of pie into his mouth and then
turned to look at Justin.  "How ya doing Justin?" Harold asked with
friendliness.  "I'm cool Harold.  How are you holding up?" Justin responded
calmly.  "I'm fine now that I have a new girlfriend." Harold chimed to
everyone.  "We're happy to hear that.  Who is she?" Jackie was the first to
ask.  "Actually... it's rather funny you should ask that.  It's actually
Leigh Ann." Harold replied, gazing towards his younger brother for
acceptance.  Brian just gave him an evil stare.  Justin scratched BJ's head
and tried to stay out of the conversation.  "Leigh Ann?  As in that girl,
Leigh Ann Wallace?  The one that Brian used to date?" Harold Jr. asked with
more anger than concern.  "That's her." Harold nodded.  "Oh, how could you
make a mistake like that?  Did you learn from Brian?" Harold Jr. complained
bitterly.  "She is not a mistake dad.  Whatever she did then, she's
changed." Harold III argued.  "Yeah, she's changed all right.  She schemes
even more now." Brian stated.  "Don't start that bro.  I have yet to
complain about you and Justin." Harold III warned him.  "And what right
would you have to complain about us?  Justin hasn't done anything like
she's done to me." Brian argued seriously.  "Whatever Leigh Ann did was the
past.  I don't want to discuss Justin right now because he's not a
concern." Harold III responded coldly.  Justin was crushed by Harold's
reply.  "Harold, don't you say stuff like that.  Justin is going to be your
brother-in-law and you need to have respect for your brother's
relationship." Harold Jr. quickly interjected when he saw Justin's
expression.  "I have respect for them.  But as a couple, I still have some
'adjusting to do." Harold III explained.  "Well adjust quickly because
Brian is getting married soon." Jackie forewarned him.  Harold nodded to
spare himself of the lecture he was going to receive.
		"I was hoping I could bring Leigh Ann to the wedding as my
date?" Harold asked of Brian.  Brian rolled his eyes quickly at Harold.
"Well, uh...." Justin was quickly interrupted by Harold.  "I was asking
Brian, Justin.  I know how you feel about Leigh Ann and that's why I didn't
even bother to ask you." Harold snapped lowly at him.  Justin had taken all
that he could of Harold's comments.
		"Well then ask Brian.  I'm tired and so I guess I'll be
heading to bed now." Justin said, faking a yawn.  Brian stood from the
couch to look for a sign from Justin.  "Goodnight babe." Justin whispered
and gave Brian a small kiss on the cheek.  He wasn't afraid to show his
affection for Brian in front of Brian's parents.  Brian couldn't say
goodnight because he didn't want to.  "Thank you for having me here Mr. and
Mrs. Littrell.  I hope that one day I'll be just as loved as Brian and
Harold in this family." Justin said proudly to both adults.  "Justin, you
are loved." Jackie reminded him.  "Yes Justin, as long as you and Brian
stay happy, we care for you." Harold agreed.  Justin smiled.  "Justin, just
take your bag up to my room.  It's the second door on the right.  You can
sleep in my bed," Brian instructed to him.  Justin gave Brian a nod and
then carried BJ and his bags up the steps.
		As soon as he heard his bedroom door close, Brian spun
around to look at Harold.  "How could you Harold?  All I ask of you is to
be my older brother and have some love and respect for my choices in life.
Instead you go out and hook up with my ex-girlfriend and throw it all in me
and Justin's face.  And on top of that, you treat Justin like he's lower
then Tyke or something." Brian snapped at him.  Harold kept his eyes on
Brian with no shame.  "I should have the right to speak my mind and date
who I want.  Keep in mind lil' bro', I am the older one." Harold spoke
clearly for Brian.  "That doesn't mean you have the right to hurt Justin."
Brian argued.  "Look, it's not like he's dying inside because I thought my
brother's opinion on something meant more to me than his.  Brother-in-law
doesn’t make you my brother." Harold stated arrogantly.  Brian was fumed
by Harold's words.  "I can't believe you.  You'd be fine if me and Justin
called it off, wouldn't you?" Brian questioned with scorn.  "Stop it you
two.  You're not kids anymore.  You are grown." Harold Jr. stopped Brian's
words from going any deeper.  "Don't bring Leigh Ann to the wedding." Brian
warned Harold.  "If she doesn't go than I don't go." Harold III boasted.
"Harold, you don't mean that.  You have to be their for your brother's
wedding." Jackie hissed at him with little concern.  "Don't bring Leigh
Ann, Harold.  Justin has enough stress as it is." Brian repeated.  "Stress?
What?  He doesn't like a little friendly competition?" Harold jested.
"Anything from that girl is not friendly." Harold Jr. warned him.  "Dad,
she's not that bad.  But she must have something with Brian for Justin to
be that stressed out." Harold replied, looking back to Brian.
		"You idiot, Justin doesn't need any stress in his life.  He
may already have to get surgery because of it!" Brian shouted, letting
something slip from his mouth that he knew he shouldn't have uttered.
"What?  Surgery?" Harold Jr. quickly asked.  Brian murmured under his
breath when he realized his mistake.  "Justin has been having serious
problems with his stomach and now he may have to get surgery because of
either too much stress or lack of good eating habits." Brian explained.
Jackie sat dumbfounded at Brian's revalation.  "Excuse me?  Why didn't you
tell us before now?" Brian's father questioned.  "Because I just found out
this morning." Brian responded sadly.  "You just found out?  What, Justin
didn't take the time to tell you that he was sick or you were too busy to
notice?" Harold III deamnded an answer of his younger brother.  "A little
of both." Brian replied softly.  "Something wrong?  I mean are you and
Justin having problems?" Jackie worried.  "We were for a little bit and it
was my fault.  But I think we were past them until Harold decided to get
rude." Brian replied, looking at his mother and then his brother.  "Don't
put the blame on me for your relationship problems." Harold III quickly
spoke up.  "What kinds of problems?" Harold Jr. demanded to know of.  Brian
looked at the floor, his blue eyes filled with shame.  "Brian?  What did
you do?" Jackie asked softly to try and coax Brian.  "I don't really want
to talk about it right now.  I'm tired and I'm more concerned about Justin
right now," Brian gave his reply.  "You should be concerned about him if he
may have to get surgery." Harold III agreed with a sour smile.  "Okay son,
we understand." Jackie replied for herself and her husband.  Harold Jr's
eyes didn't give the same response as his wife's.  "Why don't you go get
some sleep and make sure Justin's okay." Jackie suggested.
		Brian nodded in her direction and began his walk out of the
living room.  "Mom, can I talk with in the kitchn for a minute?" Brian
requested as he was leaving.  Jackie looked at her husband with concern.
"Find out what's wrong." he whispered to her as she stood.  Jackie nodded,
showing that she understood.
		After a calm discussion with his mother, Brian found his
way into his room.  The lights were out and everything was silent.  Brian
ushered Tyke inside and then closed the door behind himself.  Brian
carefully and lightly placed his bag on the floor and pulled out an old
Kentucky Wildcats shirt.  Brian looked around the room, admiring his old
basketball trophies and accomplishments.  He even saw the old and small
football uniform that he got for Christmas when he was younger.  He could
remember the times he played football with Harold in the yard and it
brought a smile to his face.  'Why couldn't we be like that anymore bro?'
Brian questioned in his head.  He knew Harold's response would be along the
lines of, 'Because you're getting married and you wouldn't have time for
me.'  He knew that's how Harold really felt, but yet Harold was in denial
about it.  But Brian understood.
		Brian ran his fingers through his hair one last time and
then looked towards his bed.  Justin slept quietly in the bed as Brian
approached.  Brian smiled and admired his sleeping lover.  Justin had a
face of child-like innocence and his breathing was light.  Brian knew
Justin was a light sleeper, so he did his best not to wake Justin.  Brian
pulled the covers back slightly and slid into the bed.  It was a single
bed, not leaving Brian much room to get in the bed.  He hoped that his
parents didn't come into the room for they would see Brian and Justin in
the same bed together.  Brian laid his head down so that he was facing
Justin's face.  He tried to scoot into the bed, causing Justin to wake
slightly.  "Brian?" Justin whispered in a woozy tone.  "Justin go to sleep
Just." Brian replied and gave Justin a kiss on the nose.  Justin smiled
lightly and snuggled closer to Brian.  Brian's smile grew as he felt
Justin's head nuzzled next to his.  Brian placed an arm on Justin and
relaxed.  "Goodnight Bri." Justin whispered, trying to fall back asleep.
"Night Just." Brian replied and rocked Justin to sleep.  Tyke ran over to
where BJ slept and found a spot next to BJ for himself to rest.  As his
eyes shut, the room fell to a stature of sleep.

Brian & Justin (Chapter 94)
By JM

		The morning sprang upon Justin unexpectidly.  He rubbed his
eyes lightly and tried to catch the lsat bit of his sleep.  He failed at
the attempt.  Justin peeked his eyes open and Brian was no longer asleep
with him.  The spot that Brian slept in was now empty.  Justin raised his
strawberry blonde head to look around the room for Brian.  He kept his eyes
closely shut, with just enough room to peer through.  There was no sign of
Brian in the room.  Justin looked to the floor and even Tyke and BJ were
missing from the room.  Justin gave a loud yawn before rubbing his eyes
again.
		Justin pulled back the covers slightly and sat up in the
bed.  Justin looked to the side and saw a note sitting ontop of the
dresser.  Justin looked at the noe with a puzzled face.  Justin shrugged
and pulled the covers off of his body.  Justin rolled out of the bed with a
grumpy modd in mind.  Justin walked to the dresser and grabbed the note.
He opened it and read it:

	Dear Justin,
		Good morning babe.  I love you.  I'm downstairs getting
something for you.  Just wait in the bed for me and I'll be right there.
And don't worry about BJ and Tyke, they're taken care of.  I'm sorry for
last night, I'm sure Harold didn't mean anything when he said what he said.
Please don't be mad.  Don't worry, I still love you and that's all that
should matter.
	I love you,
	Your Bri P.S. Don't think of sneaking downstairs to see the
surprise!

		Justin smiled sincerely as he read the note.  Usually he
was tired and grumpy in the morning but this moment, but this time he
couldn't stay angry.  He placed the note back on the dresser.  He stumbled
back to the bed and got back under the covers.
		Just as he got comfortable, the door opened slightly.
Brian crept inside with a tray in his hands.  "Good, you're up." Brian
smiled as he saw Justin looking at him.  Justin nodded, keeping the quiet
mood he had attained.  Brian walked over to the bed and placed the tray in
Justin's lap.  "I made you breakfast." Brian whispered as Justin looked
down at the tray.  It was filled with bacon, eggs, grits, a muffin and a
banana.  "Wow, thanks." Justin replied.  "Well actually, mom made
breakfast.  But I got these for you when I went to the florist." Brian
responded, pointing to the small pile of baby blue orchid petals that were
next to the glass of orange juice.  Justin's eyes grew at the sight.
"Those are the same flowers I ordered for our wedding." Brian whispered
into Justin's ear.  "And while I was out, I got looked at some nice tuxes
for us." Brian added.  Justin was thrilled that Brian had made effort to
prepare for the wedding.  "Thanks." Justin spoke gently.  "Don't thank me.
I would have done it regardless." Brian assured him.
		Justin grabbed a fork and began to eat some of his eggs.
"Mmmm, I've missed good ol' country cookin'." Justin chimed at the taste of
the eggs.  "Mom sure knows how to make you feel good." Brian replied.
Brian relaxed on the bed and grabbed the banana.  "This is for me." Brian
said softly.  Justin shrugged and took a spoonfull of his grits.  "Just the
right amount of butter and sugar." Brian pointed out to him as Justin ate.
"It's perfect Bri." Justin assured him with a smile.
		"I sent my parents and Harold outta here so me and you
could have some private time." Brian informed Justin.  "They probably
thought you asked that so me and you could you know..." Justin cocked an
eyebrow Brian's way as he spoke.  "Nah, mom and dad don't think all we do
is have sex.  Mom understood that sometimes two people need quiet moments
like this to express their love." Brian gave a short and summarized reply.
"Well at least they're open and understanding." Justin frowned.  "Your
parents are too.  It's just sometimes they're more protective of you
because you are young and special.  Trust me, I would be the same way
because you are so special." Brian responded softly.  Justin smiled again
for Brian.  "I'm melting." Brian teased after looking at Justin's gorgeous
smile.  "That's okay, you already gave me the sunshine I needed." Justin
responded.
		Brian laid his head back and looked to the ceiling.  Justin
quickly finished the rest of his food and swallowed down his orange juice.
Justin ushered the tray aside and rolled over so that he could hug onto
Brian.  Brian turned so that he was facing Justin.  "You gotta a little
something there." Brian whispered as he pointed to a drop of orange juice
on the side of Justin's lip.  He leaned forward and kissed the drop away.
Brian held his face right next to Justin's with a straight face.  'How
could I hit such a beautiful face.' Brian thought to himself with pure
shame.
		Justin made the move and kissed Brian back.  Brian closed
his eyes and returned the gentle kiss.  He kept a slow movement to show
Justin that he didn't want to be rough or too forward about things.  Justin
followed Brian's movements and placed his hands on Brian's covered chest.
He eased Brian back and took a more controling stance.  He bega to kiss
Brian's cheek and then Brian's neck as Brian ran his hands over Justin's
back.
		"Do you want to?" Brian asked first of Justin.  Justin
continued kissing Brian's neck until he pulled a moan out of the depths of
Brian's body.  "Yes, I want to..." Justin replied as he gave Brian a small
hickey on Brian's collar bone.  Brian nodded and kept his eyes shut.
Justin crawled ontop of Brian as he continued to make out with Brian's
neck.  The flesh ran gently next to Justin's smooth tongue.
		Brian gave Justin a small sign to remove his clothes and
Justin sat up.  Brian peeled Justin's shirt off and then placed it on the
side of the bed.  Brian pulled his won shirt off and then grabbed Justin's
arms.  He pulled Justin back down ontop of him to resumre their kissing.
Justin gladly returned his lips to Brian's and ran a hand over Brian's
hair.  Brian ran a hand over Justin's leg to arrouse Justin even further.
Justin's muffled moans were enough to let Brian know that they were going
to have sex in that bed within minutes.
		Brian pushed Justin over to the other half of the bed and
stepped out of the bed.  Justin frowned and looked up at Brian.  "It's
okay, I understand." Justin assured him as he tried to grab his shirt.
Brian looked at Justin with confusion.  "Oh, no, I want to have sex with
you.  It's okay, I just needed to get something first." Brian assured him.
Justin's smile returned.  Brian bent down and grabbed something from his
bag.  Justin took a moment to admire Brian's sleak legs and round ass
through his boxers.
		Brian stood up straight and turned to look at Justin.
Justin bit his lower lip with insecurity.  He clunched a red object in his
hands and ran back to the bed.  He hopped in and grasped Justin.  "I just
wanted you to have this." Brian whispered as he flashed Justin a condom.
Justin finally understood and took the condom from Brian's hand.  "Now,
where were we?" Brian asked as he leaned in and began to suckle Justin's
neck.  Justin moaned lowly and fell under Brian's control again.
		Justin pushed Brian back down and ran his hands between
Brian's thighs.  Brian moaned loudly and spread his legs for Justin.
Justin grasped Brian's plaid boxers and then pulled them down.  Justin saw
Brian's cock fly up when it was released from the boxers.  It stood in it's
long and erect form for Justin.  Justin found himself rubbing his hands
from Brian's belly button to his sandy brown pubes to his rosey red head.
Justin smiled happily and pulled down his own boxers.  Justin grabbed both
pairs and dropped them on the floor.
		Justin used his teeth and tear open the condom and then
unwraveled it.  It was as scarlet red as the wrapper it came in.  He placed
it on his penis and prepared for his moment.  Brian didn't show any signs
of fear or pain to Justin.  His trust was more powerful then any fear that
seem to grow with each waiting moment.  Justin pulled Brian closer to him
and prepared to enter him.  Brian spread his legs again for Justin and
lightly locked his ankles behind Justin's back.  Justin closed his eyes and
then moved forward towards Brian.  His penis entered Brian sharply, making
Brian squint his eyes shut.  Brian gasped lightly, but not enough for
Justin to stop his entering.  Justin ran his lips over Brian's to ease what
he flt in Brian.  Brian's ass gripped Justin's cock and swallowed it as
Justin went further.  Justin then began his slow bucking in and out of
Brian.  Brian grapsed onto Justin's neck and held it loosely.  His cries
filled the room as the bed shook.  Justin's pace continued to increase with
each touch.  "Oh... Brian..." Justin groaned softly.
		Brian opened his eyes to look up at Justin's expressions of
ecstasy.  "Keep going..." Brian whispered, running a finger over Justin's
lips.  Justin nodded and kept his hips bucking.  Jusitn leaned further down
to let Brian suck on his shoulder.  A hickey soon formed there.  Brian's
need for Justin to cum now became evident as he scratched Justin's back.
Justin's finger drew a trial over Brian's scar to his belly button.  It was
an erotic touch and feeling that Brian enjoyed.  Justin's loud moan
informed Brian that Justin was cumming inside of the condom.  Brian smiled
brightly and held Justin in his arms.
		Brian rolled Justin over, causing Justin's soft penis to
slip out.  Brian began to kiss from Justin's neck to his chest.  He didn't
want their moments alone to end so easily.  Brian's lips ran over Justin's
chest with care.  Sweat caused Brian's hair to stick to his hand, making
him even more attractive to Justin.  In any light, any dark or any illness,
Brian never lost his appeal to Justin.  Jusitn leaned his head back and let
Brian kiss his chin.  Brian finally moved up and passed Justin's lips to
kiss his nose.  "That was wonderful." he whisepred to Justin.  Justin
nodded.  "I think you should get a shower while I uh... try and tiddy this
mess up." Brian suggested.  "When do your parents get back?" Justin asked.
"Uhm, in like forty-five minutes." Brian replied, trying to figure the
time.  "Will you take a shower with me?" Justin pleaded his request.  "I
can't.  I gotta clean things up here and get things situated so we can go
to rehearsal." Brian replied with sincerity.  Justin frowned and gave Brian
his puppy dog eyes.
		Brian slipped off of Justin and got out of the bed to
stretch.  Justin followed his lead and rolled out of the bed.  He grabbed a
new pair of briefs and then a shirt and jeans.  He walked out of the room
with no clothes on and into the bathroom.
		Justin closed the door to the bathroom and then turned on
the hot water.  He knew he had his bathing down to a time due to 'N Sync's
constant rush to get from place to place.
		Justin heard the bathroom door opened and he turned to look
at a naked Brian.  "I didn't want you to be sad or anything, plus I missed
you." Brian explained before Justin could ask.  Brian gave Justin a
comforting hug that caused a tear to slip from Justin's eye.  "You're too
good for me." Justin whispered.  "No, you're too good for me." Brian
responded.  Brian leaned down and lifted Justin into a craddle position in
his arms.  "What are you doing!?" Justin saked with pure shock.  Brian
didn't give Justin an answer.
		Brian carried Justin into the shower stall and closed the
shower door.  He let the water splash against their bodies before placing
Justin's feet down.  Justin stood up and looked into Brian's blue eyes.
Brian ran his hands over Justin's cheek and neck, just admiring him.
Justin let Brian's hands roam as they wished.
		Brian turned Justin around and then pulled him into a hug.
Brian placed his hands around Justin's front as the water splashed off
their backs.  Brian began to kiss Justin's neck as the water fell over them
like a waterfall.  Justin relaxed his head against Brian's shoulder to show
Brian he felt comfortable.  "I love you... I love you... I love you..."
Brian whispered with each kiss to Justin's neck.  Brian held his normal
standing position with Justin to show Justin that things were the way they
always have been.
		"Oh Brian, I want our lives to go like this everyday.  Just
me and you taking time for each other." Justin requested with a loving
sigh.  "I want that too Justin," Brian responded, still finding areas of
Justin's neck to kiss.  "And if we have to take a month off from work to do
that, then we will." Brian added.  After he spoke, he gently nibbled on
Justin's earlobe.  Brian ran his left hand over Justin's left shoulder
where he had left the hickey on Justin.
		"We should get out of here and get dressed.  No telling
when my mom and dad will be back with Harold." Brian suggested.  He wasn't
eager to suggest it, but yet he knew he had to.  Justin nodded and grabbed
the bar of soap.  Within five more minutes, Justin and Brian were squeaky
clean from their bathing.
		Brian wrapped a towel around his waist as Justin did the
same.  Brian pulled his hair back tightly and then looked into the mirror
at the two of them.  They were a perfect relfection on an honest and caring
couple.  Something that Brian had rarely seen outside of his home when he
was growing up.  "Thinking hard aren't you?" Justin commented as he leaned
on Brian.  Brian nodded.  "You're rather mature for an eighteen year old,"
Brian commented back.  "I learn it from you." Justin alughed out an answer.
Brian placed his arm around Justin's hips and guided him out of the
bathroom.
		Brian and Justin walked into Brian's bedroom with smiles on
their faces.  Brian relesed Justin's hips and stared into his dreamy eyes.
"I wanna kiss you." Brian whispered as he inched forward to Justin.  "Go
ahead." Justin shrugged.  Brian backed away with less enthusiasm.  "Just
'go ahead'.  Not 'I want you ro kiss me too'?" Brian questioned his lover's
weak response.  "Do we always have to be so mushy?" Justin questioned with
a laugh.  Brian frowned.  Justin thought of the perfect way to bring
Brian's hopes up again.  He lifted Brian's chin with his index finger and
then caught Brian's gaze.

	Because you are the way you are
	R you just a dream?
	I feel as if you'd never hurt me
	A fight couldn't tear us away from each other
	Never will I do that to our lovin'

		Justin thw rods that Justin sang reminded Brian on the time
he spent with Justin when he wrote that song.  Justin leaned forward and
pressed his lips to Brian's.  Brian returned the kiss eagerly, rubbing his
hands over Justin's shoulders.  Justin ended the kiss short with a smile.
"How was that?" Justin asked.  "Geez, I need to find a man who can't do
EVERYTHING!" Brian joked.  "I can't do everything.  I can't make myself
smile when I miss you." Justin replied with a romantic tone.  "But you can
melt my heart in a second." Brian cooed.
		"Have a seat while I go get something." Brian advised as he
walked out of the room.  Justin nodded and walked over to the bed.  He
couldn't believe how daring Brian was to walk out of the room with just a
towel wrapped around his waist.  Justin decided not to sit right away and
walked to the nearby window.  It was a picturesque view that Justin didn't
take in.  He closed the curtains so that no one would look inside and see
him with just a towel on in Brian Littrell's room.  'The Star would love to
see that!' Justin thought to himself with a dazzling smile.  He walked back
over to the bed and sat on the edge.
		Brian reemerged in the room holding a plate of apple pie.
Brian closed the door behind himself and walked over to Justin.  "Miss me?"
Brian asked as he looked down at Justin.  "Yep." Justin replied with a
grin.  Brian decided to take a seat in Justin's lap.  Jusitn gladly
welcomed him and held him in place.  Brian snagged a piece of apple pie
onto a fork and brought it to Justin's lips.  Jusitn opened his mouth and
took the pie into his mouth.  Brian grabbed a fork-full for himself and ate
it.  "You're mom sure knows how to sooth the Southern soul." Justin teased.
Brian nodded happily.  Brian gave Justin another bite of the pie.  "Do you
ever get tired of feeing me?" Justin asked with a joke.  "Nah, you're cute
when you eat too." Brian replied with a laugh.  Brian leaned down and gave
Jusitn another kiss on the nose.  "And you just got this adorable nose!"
Brian cooed in a sarcastic way.  "Why thank you." Justin laughed out a
reply.
		"I'm kinda tired Justin.  We have about an hour or so
before we have to go to the arena.  I think we should take a nap." Brian
suggested with a yawn.  "Yeah, I'm tired too." Justin agreed.  "Okay, let's
hit the hay then." Brian advised as he stood.  "What about your parents?"
Justin questioned in fear.  "They won't mind.  I talked to my mom last
night about us and she assures us that she made my dad feel comfortable
about the way we act around each other.  She says that he's fine with it as
long as we don't get out of control or cause any problems." Brian
explained.  Justin was overwhlemed by Brian's response.  He couldn't
believe how much more laidback Brian's parents were compared to Justin's
parents.  "Okay," Justin nodded to show he was okay.
		Brian nibbled on his own lower lip as Justin stood.  "Do
you think we should put on some boxers or something?" Justin asked with
little concern.  "Nah, we can sleep in the flesh.  No one will know." Brian
assured him with his response.  "Okay, take a seat." Justin replied.  Brian
nodded and dropped his towel.  he quickly folded it and placed it ontop of
his bag.  He peeled the covers back on the bed and sat down.
		Justin gave Brian a curios grin and began to remove his
towel.  He removed it erotically just for Brian.  H pulled the side from
side to side with his tongue slowly licking his lips.  "You know if you
weren't in 'N Sync, I see a promising career as a stripper." Brian teased.
"We prefer the term exotic dancer, thank you very much." Justin responded
with a laugh.  Justin threw the towel at Brian and then grabbed a hat from
his bag.  "Wear this." Justin requested as he handed Brian the North
Carolina Tar Heels hat.  "Why?" Brian pondered as he put the hat on
backwards.  "Because you look adorable in blue." Justin replied with
honesty and seriousness.
		Brian opened his arms for Justin to hug and they fell onto
the bed in each other's arms.  Brian laid his head back and let Justin hug
him.  He pulled the covers up so that they just covered their lower halfs.
Brian kissed the top of Justin's head gently and whispered the words for
Justin to hear again, "I love you."  Justin smiled and closed his eyes.  He
ran his fingers over Brian's chest, forming the letters 'I-L-O-V-E-U'.
Brian smiled to himself and closed his eyes.  They let the sleep that
convinced them to nap take over.
		A half hour seemed to slip by with Brian and Justin sleep.
"Eh Brian, I think Just left some clothes in the bathroom." Harold III said
as he entered Brian's room.  He was shocked when he saw his brother sleep
in the bed with Justin and from what he could tell, they were shirtless.
Harold almost felt disgusted until he saw his btoerh's expression.  Brian
had a semi-smile on his face as he held Justin tightly.  Harold found
himslef smiling at the two.  'At least he's happy again.' Harold said to
himself as he dropped Justin's clothes by his bag.  Harold walked over to
them and looked at them.  "I hope he makes you happy Brian." Harold
whispered as he pulled the covers up further on them.  'Just like Leigh Ann
makes me happy.' Harold thought to himself as he exited the room.
		Harold closed the door back as his mother passed by.
"Everything okay hon?" she asked of her eldest son.  "Yeah, everything is
fine.  Brian and Justin are just taking a nap." Harold assured him.  Jackie
smiled brightly.  "Mom, you've been around Brian and Justin more than me,
is Justin the real thing?  I mean is he really head over heels with Brian
and is Brian the same?" Harold asked softly.  Jackie didn't have to think
out the question.  "Harold, I could only wish we could all have what they
have.  Brian really, really, really loves Justin.  And from what I can see,
Justin is the same way.  So yeah, Justin is the 'real deal'." Jackie
replied.  Harold couldn't believe how easily his brother had falled in love
with another guy, but even more, how he had fallen in love with anyone.

					TO BE CONTINUED...

*** Thanks everyone for holding on for this one.  I do appreciate it.  And
thank God I did finish.  I had to say all of that first.  Okay, I hope I
still have a srtong fan-base because I can see I have what some may call
"rivalry", but what I call "new friends" on Nifty.  And I do mean there is
a LOT now!  So... please stick with me through this.  But of course, I'll
always have one reader that I can depend on if everyone goes away and
that's myself.  Thanks to everyone who told me to take my time with this
because I needed to know that.  But that really messes me up now because
I'm trying to have Chapter 100 done on July 4th, which gives me two weeks
to write that and the last chapters before that!  Not much time at all!!!
So please, PLEASE forgive me if I don't get it done till like July 5th
because I do get busy alot of times and can't get to the story. ***

** I got a new computer this weekend and so I had to do alot of work there.
But guess what?!  I no longer have ALL of the old messages I used to have.
SOOOOO I need readers that have written me to write me again when you tell
me what you think of this one so I can stay in contact with you all.  I
would appreciate that.  Same goes to people that I had on my ICQ list.  If
I haven't already gotten you back on my list, please let me know by sending
me a message.  I would appreciate that. **

* The FINAL message for this set.  Okay, for one, I realize that it takes
longer to get from Denver to Lexington, but bare with me.  I had to get
other things done.  Another, alot of people took it rather odd about Brian
hitting Justin.  Some say Jusitn shouldn't have went back to him, some say
that it was a good point, others say that I need to change some things
around because of it.  Please, I know that it's hard to adjust to, but this
is how the story is going.  Thanks for the support anyway.  And everyone,
let Leprechaun know that JM misses him on ICQ and wish that he would keep
writing 'Bad Boy B-Rok'.  Lastly, I've had some rather unusual complains
about who I am picking for best man.  As you can see, I still haven't
picked Brian's.  So e-mail me and let me know if Joey was a bad choice for
Justin and what not of who you want to be the best men.  I like my choices,
but a some people (and one person knows who he is) doesn't like it too
much.  So let me know what you think and who and why you think that person
should be best man.  Thanks and hopefully the next part will be up next
week! *