Date: Sun, 29 Aug 1999 23:39:22 EDT
From: wesleym2@yahoo.com
Subject: Brian's Savior

Legal Notice: You must be at least 21 or the legal age were ever you are to
read this. This story is completely fiction it does not imply that any of
the Backstreet Boys are gay or Bisexual.


Author's Note: Hello again, on this segment I had help from Tony author of
`When You Say Nothing At All' I suggest you read his story it is really
good. I want to thank him and to all those who e-mail me with your
comments. Also the story `NSYNC Love' is really good and so is `Brian &
Justin/ Just Beginning'. This is a first for me and I apologize that the
last chapter was so short. I also want to thank Nifty for having the
archive and David for taking his time to post all the stories. The next
part may not be out for a week or so. I invite all of you to send me your
comments at wesleym2@yahoo.com or you can reach me on ICQ my # is 47618266.


"Mmmm. what a way to wake up." I said and smiled when Brian kissed me to
wake me.

"I thought you would like it, we have to get up so we can leave in and
hour. We have to be in Ft. Lauderdale, FL tomorrow." Actually, I still
needed my sleep, but since Brian woke me up gently then I decided to get
up. Brian dragged me to the bathroom since I was too lazy to get a
shower. After 20 minutes taking a shower, I went out and find some clothes
on the bed, which Brian picked for me earlier to wear; I decided to wear
the blue one, since it was his favorite color. Since I hadn't pack my stuff
yet, Brian helped me with it and it didn't take long. We still had 30
minutes before leaving, so we both went to Kevin's room for breakfast; the
other guys were waiting for us and all of them half finish with their
breakfast; I greeted all of them and they replied back to greet me. Brian
gave a plate and put some foods on it plus a cup of coffee. Finally we all
could manage to start our trip on time.

"Mark, I want you to know that since you are going on tour with us you have
to have a title. So we thought you could be a backup singer or something."

"Well I can sing but not that good. Is there something else I could do?"
Then Howie said the one thing that would allow me to be near Brian the
most.

"How about our personal body guard?"

"Don't you guys all ready have those?"

"Nope we have security guards not body guards. Also it can be legit because
you saved Brian's life and you would most likely do the same for the rest
of us, so why not, plus you get to go anywhere with us and you stay near
us/Brian all the time so it's not that bad. How about it?" I looked over at
Brian who had the biggest grin. I knew this is what he wanted.

"Okay, But remember that I still have to recover from the last attack."
Everyone nodded as we all loaded the bus. The trip would be tiring but at
least I was with Brian. I wish I could show Brian just how much I love
him. That's when I decided to talk to Kevin.

"Kevin, could I talk to you alone for a while, there are a few things I
need to ask you."

"Sure we can talk as soon as we get started and can find a place on this
bus that is private." I smiled and knew that Brian would want to know what
was said but he would just have to wait. We had gotten on the interstate
when Kevin sent everyone to the back of the bus so that me and him could
talk.

"So what's up Mark?"

"Well I know Brian loves me and he shows it I just feel like I haven't
really shown him how much I love him. I really don't know how. And another
thing Leigh Ann wrote a letter to Brian and he wont tell me what was said,
I feel like all I'm doing is causing him pain and suffering." By now I had
tears running down my face. Kevin hadn't heard about the latest thing with
Leigh Ann.

"Mark, Brian knows you love him, but I can help you with some thing to show
him that you do. When we get to Ft. Lauderdale, Me and you will go to a
jewelry store and you can pick something out for him, but now I want to get
Brian in here to see what Leigh Ann is up to" With that he got up and went
to the back. I sat there and then the thought of losing Brian came to me
and I just broke down. A few sec. later Brian walked in with Kevin.

"Mark!! What's wrong babe?" He held me tight. I cried on his shoulder for a
while and then I calmed down enough to talk.

"I just don't want to lose you." Brian had tears in his eyes he placed a
kiss on my lips and said.

"You won't ever lose me. Now what's wrong Kevin?"

"Will you tell me what Leigh Ann said in the letter she sent you."

"Oh that" Brian said with a sigh, "Well she has supposedly gotten a hold of
management and got them to agree with her about that Mark can't stay with
me and that he needs to leave, also that if I contest it she will make me
pay she didn't say what but you know her.  She thinks that me and my house
belongs to her and that she has a right to make Mark leave. Then if that
didn't work she will press charges against Mark for abuse when he never
touched her."

"Well let me call management and see if they know anything." Kevin picked
up his cell phone and dialed a number and waited. "Hello, yes you can this
is Kevin and I want to know if Leigh Ann Wallace has been in contact with
you about Brian and Mark........ Ok thank you." He hung up with a smile on
his face. "Well she had talked to them but they already had you working for
us as a personal body guard and told her to leave and to leave you two
alone, they also plan that if she continues to be a problem they will press
charges." Kevin was happy and so was Brian but I knew that she would do
something stupid. I smiled at them and then looked out the window.

"Mark you ok babe" Brian asked

"Yeah I'm just tired, I think I'll go lay down, would you join me?"

"Sure" We both headed for our bunk. We crawled in and soon we were asleep.


***Dream***

	I was going to meet Brian when a dark figure jumped out of the
shadow and shot Brian in the chest. I ran to help Brian. I got to him and
he was hurt real bad.

"Why didn't you save me, you don't love me." I was crying hard and then the
dark figure turned and pointed the gun at me.

***End Dream***

"Nooooooo!!!!!!!" I was crying because I really thought Brian was dead I
looked around and didn't see him and got really scared. Just then both
Brian and Kevin appeared.

"Mark what's wrong you were yelling" I grabbed on to Brian and cried.

"I. I .t..thought you were. dead." I sobbed.

"Shh. it's ok it was just a dream, come on lets get you up and come sit
with me so I can watch you." I got up and went with Brian to the lounge and
sat down next to him. He pulled my head onto his shoulder and I stayed that
way. A.J., Nick and Howie had looks of concern but said nothing. They were
watching something on a movie I really wasn't interested. Some how during
the final leg of the trip I fell asleep on Brian's shoulder because the
next thing I remember was someone shaking me.

"Mark it's time get up." Brian said softly.

"Okay, I'll get up." I really wasn't feeling very good but I wouldn't let
Brian know. We were at the hotel they were to stay at while they were
here. Brian had gotten all our stuff into the room and ready to be
unpacked.

"Brian I'm going to lay down for a minute." I went over to the bed and laid
down. By now I really, really wasn't feeling good and I knew I had to lay
down or fall down. Brian just let me lay down.

"I'll join you in a little bit I have to go see what we have planned
today."

"Okay" I mumbled. I laid there and started to get very shaky and cold. I
felt of my head and it was very hot. "Bri. Brian." No answer. I got up and
went to the door to call. I opened it and stepped out side the
door. "Brian. help!!!!" Then I blacked out.

	In Kevin's A.J. heard some one call for help and looked out the
door. And saw me on the floor.

"Oh MY GOD.. BRIAN IT'S MARK HE'S PASSED OUT ON THE FLOOR!!!!!"  Brian
jumped up and bolted for me. He was white as a sheep. Kevin called for the
medic.  Brian picked me up in his arms and held me. He felt of my face and
head I was burning up.

"Kevin he is burning up, we got to get him to the hospital." Kevin then
called to let the hospital know that they were bringing some one in and
that they better have someone waiting on us. Brian carried me to the rented
car and Kevin drove to the hospital. It took about 15-20 min. to get
there. Brian checked my breathing and noticed it was very shallow. They got
there and there was a doctor waiting on us.

"Hello I'm Dr. Farr, lets get him to room 12." They ran me to the room got
me on the bed and the doctor asked for them to leave. Both Kevin and Brian
stepped out side to wait.  They watched as different techs and nurses ran
in and out of the room I was in. They had placed a heart monitor on me and
it was beeping very slowly. And that's when Brian heard the words he
dreaded. "Hurry or we are going to lose him." Brian just cried. He didn't
want to lose me. Kevin decided that Brian needed to get away from the room
so that he could calm down. He took him to the other side of the waiting
room. They had been there for about an hour when the doctor came out.

"Well we got him stable, we will move him to intensive care for now. He had
a very bad reaction to medication. I need all the medication he has to take
so we can determine what happened." Kevin pulled out his cell phone and had
A.J. grab my medications and have them brought to the hospital. "Brian I'm
not supposed to do this but since you are the only thing he can say I want
you to stay with him."

"Okay" with that the doctor left. Brian got up and headed for the ICU.

"Brian we will find out what is going on." Kevin said as he followed Brian.

"Kevin I don't want to lose him. He means so much to me that if he left I
would die."  Kevin knew that both me and Brian loved each other. When Kevin
got Brian to where I was he went back downstairs to wait on A.J.

**The Hotel**

	A.J. looked through my stuff and found the medicine I was taking
for my headaches. He grabbed them and another bottle that said it was for
allergies. He then left for the hospital. A.J. knew something wasn't right
but he had to wait to find out. It took A.J. 30 min. to get to the
hospital. When he got there, there was reporters every where.  `Shit why do
they all ways have to do this.' He said to him self as he parked. He got
out and ran to the emergency room doors. Kevin saw him and met him at the
doors.

"This is all I could find."

"Thanks lets get this to Dr. Farr." They went to his office and waited for
him to see them.  He was on the phone talking to some one about a patient
he had that had a rare illness. He turned in his chair and saw Kevin in the
door way and got off the phone.

"Kevin is that the medicine he takes"

"Yes it is" Kevin handed them to him and Dr. Farr went straight to the lab
with them.  Kevin followed him as well as A.J.

**My Room**

	I was unconscious still. Brian sat next to me holding me hand. `why
does this always happen, what's wrong with him why is he having this.'
Brian cried while he thought. He knew that his love for me is undying and
that we will make it.

"Mark please wake up, I need you. I don't want to lose you, I love
you. Please come back to me." Brian just cried, as he held my hand which
was cold and life less. The only comfort he had was the fact that my heart
was still beating. He watched the heart monitor because it was the only
thing that let him know that I was still alive.

	I could hear him crying and wanted to go to him but I couldn't
because I was too weak. I was fighting as hard as I could. But I felt like
I was losing. The only thing that kept me going was that I need to be with
Brian.

**Dream**

"Mmmm. what a way to wake up." I said and smiled when Brian kissed me to
wake me.

"I thought you would like it, we have to get up so we can leave in and
hour. We have to be in Ft. Lauderdale, FL tomorrow." Actually, I still
needed my sleep, but since Brian woke me up gently then I decided to get
up. Brian dragged me to the bathroom since I was too lazy to get a
shower. After 20 minutes taking a shower, I went out and find some clothes
on the bed, which Brian picked for me earlier to wear; I decided to wear
the blue one, since it was his favorite color. Since I hadn't pack my stuff
yet, Brian helped me with it and it didn't take long. We still had 30
minutes before leaving, so we both went to Kevin's room for breakfast; the
other guys were waiting for us and all of them half finish with their
breakfast; I greeted all of them and they replied back to greet me. Brian
gave a plate and put some foods on it plus a cup of coffee. Finally we all
could manage to start our trip on time.  I waited to take my medication
after we got on the bus. I remember going to the fridge to get a coke and
took something for a head ache and my allergy pill.  Afterward I talked
with Kevin and then with Kevin and Brian and him. All the while I was
getting sleepy.  I think about the medicine and remembered that they are
gel cap but they were covered with a powder. Why were they like that?

**End Dream**

	I felt stronger now and warmer. But I still couldn't open my
eyes. I could hear Brian and the Doctor talking with Brian crying and
sounding very angry with him self.

"Brian do you take a heart medicine and anti depressant?"

"Yeah, why?"

"Well some how Mark took your medicine and he is allergic to it. It did the
opposite of what it was meant to do. But we caught it in time."

"I did this"

"No he just took the wrong medication." Everyone was trying to calm him
down and console him but he wouldn't listen.

"Bri.Brian..hold me" I whispered out. The only one who heard me was A.J. He
came closer to me and bent down. I repeated what I said. A.J. was excited.

"Brian Mark wants you to hold him!!" Brian turned to me and saw I was
trying to reach out to him. He quickly grabbed me and held me. He knew I
was on the road to recovery.

**Three days later**

"Ready to go Mark?" Brian asked.

"Yep" I was feeling much better and the doctor released me. We left and
headed for our next stop which was Charlotte, NC. There we would meet up
with Britney Spears, who would be joining the tour as an opening act. We
didn't take the bus because it was to far and we were running out of
time. So we went by plane. At the air port, we were the last to
board. Kevin made sure that me and Brian didn't sit together because of
their career.  Brian sat with Kevin and I sat with Howie. The flight took
about six hours. When we landed in Charlotte, NC Britney was waiting for
us.

"Hey guys." She said. They said hi gave her a hug. I stayed behind because
I didn't want to intrude on their reunion. `No one noticed, not even
Brian. Oh well, I guess I'll just head on over to the limo.' I walked off
toward the limo. The driver knew I was with the BSB and let me in. I waited
for about ten minutes when the door opened and Britney got followed by the
guys. She sat across from me and then Kevin, A.J., and Howie. Brian sat
next to me and then Nick. The door closed and we were soon on the way to
the hotel. I never looked at them I just looked out through the window. I
knew that I had to do this because of Britney, but it didn't keep me from
being hurt from earlier. Britney decided to break the ice with me.

"So Mark, how have you been?"

"Okay I guess." I said she knew I was upset.

"Mark I'm sorry that I didn't say hi before, will you forgive me?"

"I forgive you."

"Are you seeing anyone?"

"Yeah I am."

"Who's the lucky girl?"

"I prefer not to say."

"That's okay I understand, being that you are working with the BSB and
Britney Spears you don't want anyone to get jealous."

"I guess you could say that" That's when she busted out laughing as well as
Brian and the others. "What.?"

"Mark I know you are gay and I know that you and Brian are an item." I
smiled at her.

"Thanks, but I'm just tired, I get this way after flying."

"Okay then but I want you to know that I want to be friends." I shook my
head okay and leaned against Brian's shoulder. I soon fell asleep to his
heart beat. It was steady and loving.

"He must be tired" Britney said.

"Yeah he's had some rough ground to hoe, but I think he will make it."

"Well we are almost to the hotel do we wake him or do we carry him?"

"We wake him but not until we get there. And get all the stuff out and in
to the rooms."  A few minutes later the limo pulled into the drive of the
hotel and let the guys out. Brian had told the driver to wait and he would
come back to get me.

"Mark,. we're here come on." I awoke and got out.

"Where's my stuff?"

"I took it to our room"

"Okay." Was all I said. We headed for our room. I stayed quite, it just
seemed since Brian got that letter from Leigh Ann he has been distant. It
bothers me that he won't share his inner most thoughts with me. But maybe I
expect to much too fast. Brian opened the door for me and let me go
in. When I looked around I was very shocked.  There where candles every
where, roses on the dresser, it all was just so beautiful. He did love
me. I was so touched that I was crying.

"Babe, what's wrong?"

"It's just that it's just so beautiful, and thank you." I gave him a kiss
on the lips. "Brian do you mind if I go ask Kevin a favor, just for me and
you stay here?"

"Sure" I knew Brian was hurt a little but I knew what I needed. I went to
Kevin's room and knocked.

"Come in"

"Kevin do you remember what me and you talked about on the bus?"

"Yep and I took time while you were recovering to pick it up for you." He
handed me a velvet box. I opened it and there were two rings. Both engraved
with our names. The one for me had Brian on it and then on Brian's it had
my name. I thanked and hugged Kevin then left to go to Brian. When I
returned Brian was ordering room service for two. He saw me walk in and
smiled. I also had a smile on my face. Before I left Kevin's room I asked
him to keep the guys from bothering me and Brian. He agreed. I sat down
next to Brian and kissed him on the neck. Then I mouthed `I love you'. I
saw his eyes sparkle with love. I knew he was something special. He soon
hung up and turned to me.

"I thought that me and you could use a little time to our selves for a
change."

"I know I asked Kevin to keep the other guys occupied while me and you
spent some real time together." He smiled at me knowing that I was thinking
of us. I leaned in and gave Brian a kiss on the lips. Brian returned the
kiss. Soon we were tasting each others mouths with our tongues. Then the
room service arrived.

"I'll get it" Brian said. I stood and straightened my shirt and watched
Brian speak with the man out side and then close the door and brought the
food over to the bed. We sat down and Brian served the drinks. There was no
wine or champagne it was a tea for him and a large Dr. Pepper for me. We
ate dinner and talked about odd stuff. But soon I was lost in Brian's eyes,
the way they sparkle when he talk's about one of the guys or his
family. Then his smile. His smile always sent shivers up my spine.

"Mark you okay?" He asked with concern. I came out of my trance and smiled.

"I'm sorry, I was just thinking about you." Brian smiled again. I reached
into my pocket and with drew the small box I was carrying with me. "Brian I
have some thing for you."  I gave him the box and he opened it. His eyes
got tears in them. "I had Kevin get those for me. One is for you and one is
for me, I want them to resemble the love we share and know that nothing can
break it." Brian was letting tears of joy fall down his face. He stood up
and came over to me and gave me a kiss that topped all kisses. He put one
ring on my hand and one on his.  We got up on the bed and we then spent the
next three hours making love to each other. We then fell asleep. We both
knew tomorrow would be rough because of the concert and then having to
leave right after it.

I awoke to the sun light coming in the window. Brian had held me with love
that I really didn't want to change but I needed to get up and shower. I
slowly got out of bed and got things ready for a shower. I had just got out
of the shower when the phone rang. I ran over to it so as to not wake
Brian.

"Hello"

"This is Kevin I just wanted to let you know that we gotta get going in an
hour so we can get ready for the concert. And breakfast is at the
coliseum."

"Okay I'll get Brian up and we will meet you down stairs."

"Okay bye."

"Bye" I hung the phone up and saw that Brian was awake and smiling. "You
need to get showered and dressed to practice and get ready for tonight's
concert."

"Okay, I'll get up." When he got up I kissed him and he went to get
showered and ready.  It took him about 20 minutes and we were on our
way. When we got down stairs we saw the Howie and Kevin were the only ones
here.

"Where are the others?"

"They should here anytime now." Kevin hadn't completely said that when both
Nick and A.J. appeared. "Okay lets go." We all headed for the limo and took
off for the coliseum.  It took us about 20 minutes to get there. The limo
stopped and we got out.

"Britney is already here she had to practice before us and all." Kevin
stated. We walked in and headed for the dressing rooms. Britney took a
break and came over to us.

"Hey guys yall ready for tonight." She said.

"Yep we are just going to go over some songs and dance moves before hand
but we're ready." Kevin said.

"I'd love to stay and chat but I gotta get back and finish practice." Then
she left. I told the guys that I was going to look around and then go sit
in the front row and watch. I was walking and walked right past were some
new security guards were and they stopped me.

"Hey how'd you get in here?" One of the guards said angrily.

"The same way the BSB did" I said. He grabbed my left arm and jerked me
down the hall to the exit. I pulled out of his grip. "What do you think you
are doing?" I asked

"I am taking you out side where you belong." He reached for my arm again.

"You touch me again you won't be able to use it for a week." He just
laughed and grabbed my arm. I then swung my other arm and hit him broad
side of the face. He stumble back and let go of my am. I got ready for him
to come after me. He did and just as he got close enough I grabbed his arm
and twisted it and pulled it behind his back and held it. I was causing him
pain beyond belief. I got him walking back the way we came.  When I got
there Kevin was talking to the other guard. He stopped when he saw me and
the guard who was almost crying.

"Mark I think you can let him go he won't bother you again or he will be
looking for a new job." I let him go and walked over to the front row
seats. Kevin stayed behind to make sure that all the guards knew who I was
and that they are not to interfere with me.  When I sat down I started
rubbing my left shoulder. As I was rubbing it I felt something wet. I
pulled my hand up and looked and saw some blood. I opened my shirt and the
scar had been pulled open.

"Shit." I said. Brian heard me and turned to see blood on my hand and
shirt. He ran off the stage and came over to me.

"Babe what happened?" He asked in a hurry. I told him and he called Kevin
and a the medic. Kevin came over and he got really pissed. The medic
arrived. He stopped the bleeding and put a bandage on it and left. I told
them I was fine and that they should be getting ready for tonight. They
finally agreed and let me be. It was nice but I do know of one security
guard who will be out of a job. But enough of that. I sat and watched the
boys for about three hours when they decided to break for lunch. They had
ordered pizza and had it delivered. We all went to their dressing room and
ate including Britney. We all told jokes and had fun but it all too soon
was over. Nick said something to Brian about me and Leigh Ann that really
made me mad especially when Brian replied.

"Hey Brian, what's the difference between Mark and Leigh Ann?"

"Well I for one don't know, what."

"One can kiss and tell and the has to kiss and hide." Nick broke laughing
as well as Brian. I got pissed why I don't know I guess because I hate to
be made a joke. I stormed out of the room. As I was leaving Brian realized
what had happen and so did Nick. Both got up and took off after me.

"Mark please wait up." Nick said.

"Why so you can make fun of me or turn me into a joke."

"Mark I'm so sorry please I said it with out thinking."

"Me too Hon I just got caught up in joking that I forgot and I am really
sorry." They both gave me the puppy dog look and I forgave them. We all
went back and finished lunch.  Now it was time for the sound checks and
getting dressed.

**concert**

Britney was first. She sang about 6 songs. Then the set was changed. The
first song was Larger Than Life. I kind thought the dancers were too much
but the crowd liked it. Then they sang Hey Mr. DJ then they ran off stage
and Howie started his solo. He finished then A.J. When he finished Kevin
went on. When Kevin was done Brian was on. He sang That's What She Said.

"I wanna dedicate this song to a very special person in my life." He sang
that song with so much emotion that it was unreal. When he finished he had
tears in his eyes and so did I. Nick was last and he sang Heaven In Your
Eyes. They took a short break to change for All I Have To Give. During the
concert Brian kept looking over at me when he got a chance. They sang a few
more songs and then ended it with Everybody (Backstreet's Back). The lights
faded and we all climbed aboard the bus so we could head for Washington
D.C. To the place that would change my life forever, and a new addition to
the tour.