Date: Mon, 18 Jul 2005 19:54:47 -0700 (PDT) From: Jake summers <dickdan272@yahoo.com> Subject: Confessions Chapter 1 Disclaimer: This is a work of pure fiction and in no way is stating the sexuality of anyone mentioned within the story. I am aware that in real life Nick Lachey is married to Jessica Simpson and I wish them nothing but pure happiness. If you are under 18 or the appropriate age to read material like this than please leave now. If reading stories about homosexual or heterosexual relationships upsets you then please read no further. Chapter 1 A hotel room somewhere in New York, Nick Lachey sat in his room holding on to a pillow for dear life. "Could it be?" "Can I be?" where just some of the thoughts running through the solo artist's mind at the moment. Recently he had come to a startling discovery that he might be gay. Of course no one would have ever guessed, because he was married to the pop star, Jessica Simpson. Tears were flowing freely down his face by this time and now he was starting to feel tired. He laid himself down to rest and still crying, he cried himself right to sleep. In California at the Lachey/Simpson Residence Jessica took a warm cup of tea from a spot on the table and looked out the window seeing the dark sky emptying rain onto the earth. She sighed to herself and then looked at the pictures of her husband that were all around the room. She remembered when they first had gotten married, he was so happy and everyday was like a paradise. But, now he seemed a little cold and dark at times. Jessica could never figure out what was wrong with him and anytime she asked him he would just say it was stress from working. She placed the cup down onto the table and picked up her cell phone dialing a number that she always knew by heart. Three rings and no answer after the beep of the phone she left a message and hung up. She then found another number in her phone and dialed it getting an answer almost instantly. She slowly spoke into the other end of the phone. "Hey it's Jessica, can you come over I need to talk to you." She asked and then smiled hearing a simple "Yes" from the other end of the phone. Jessica closed the phone in her hand and then looked out the window waiting. Back in the hotel suite of New York Nick awoke with a tear streaked face and felt weak. He remembered everything very vividly. He sat up and yawned not knowing what he was going to do. He remembered that he had brought with him for California his laptop. He walked over to his bags and pulled out his laptop plugging it in. It turned on and Nick sighed to himself. "Should I do this?" "Do I really want to know?" Were just some of the questions that passed through the celebrities head at the moment. He sighed on to his instant messenger account and a faint smile crossed his face when he saw that one of his buddies was online, so he sent him a message: Nicholas 73: Hey Ethan! I am so glad that you are online. Ethan Lives: Hey Nicholas! Thanks, how are you doing these days? Nicholas 73: I am a wreck buddy, I can't stop thinking that I might be... or that I am... At those last words Nick once again began to cry to himself and knew that it was something he couldn't bare to say, not even to himself. Lachey/Simpson House A car had pulled into the driveway and the occupant had walked to the front door and let himself in. He had a key to the house and used it knowing that Jessica was upset, from his phone call with her. Jessica's head slowly moved from its stare out the window and then she jumped up running over to the guest. She began crying so hard into his shoulders, "Drew thank God you came" she said letting her emotions finally take over. Drew instinctively wrapped his arms around her to comfort her, "Jessica you need to calm down and talk to me." Drew said and rubbed her back trying to help her regain her composure. After a few more minutes of not being able to talk Jessica straightened up and sat down. Drew followed her example and sat down beside her. She looked at him and could only think of Nick, but she had to be strong and talk to someone. "Drew, please tell me that you know what is wrong with my husband." She half stated and asked it. Drew was completely floored by what she had just said to him. It took him a few moments to muster and answer, "Jess, even though I am his brother he doesn't tell me everything. I didn't even know anything was remotely wrong." He said honestly, because he hadn't even spoken to Nick the past few weeks and now he wished he had. Hotel New York Ethan Lives: First you need to calm yourself down before you do something stupid and second you need to take time and think about what you were about to tell me. Nicholas 73: Ethan, I can't it is so hard. I have been thinking about it ever since I started to question it and I still can't bring myself to that thought. I am so scared of what might happen. Ethan Lives: Nicholas, you need to talk with someone. Do you have anyone to talk to? Nicholas 73: Other than you no. Ethan Lives: Where the hell are you? Nick was hesitant to answer the question Ethan had always wanted to meet Nicholas, but he would be surprised when he got Nick Lachey. Ethan didn't know that Nick was using his whole first name in order to find someone to talk to. This was a big choice for Nick did he want the possibility for someone to know that he was gay? Nicholas 73: I am in New York. Ethan Lives: And you didn't tell me! Never mind, where are you? Nick took a deep breath and finally decided that this was the time that he was going to have somebody a real person to talk to. Nicholas 73: I am at the Hilton room #294 Ethan Lives: Ok, Nicholas I will be right there hold on. Moments later Ethan had signed off and Nick turned off his laptop. He called down and informed the front desk that a visitor was coming and that they could let him up. California Jessica looked at Drew and her mouth dropped, "What do you mean you didn't know anything was wrong with him." She almost shouted to him, but kept herself under control. Drew looked down at the floor and felt himself feeling worse by the minute. "Jessica, I haven't talked to him in a few weeks, but I am sure that it is nothing bad." He said and then looked around wondering something. His head looked up from the floor and to Jessica, "Where is my brother?" he asked. That was the final thing that made Jessica go over the edge, "That is a very good question Drew. The only thing he left me was a note that said." She began to remember the note she had read this morning. She pulled it off the table and handed it to Drew. Dear Jessica, You are the love of my life and I would never do anything to hurt you or anyone for that matter. But, I need sometime to think about myself and my problems. When you get this note I won't be home or even in the same state, but you mustn't look for me. Love, Nick Lachey Your loving husband PS Drew don't think about trying to find me! Drew set the letter down and then looked at Jessica. She was a wreck and this was taking a toll on her. "Jess, listen lay down and rest. I am here and if Nick calls then I am here to answer it." He said calmly trying to get his sister-in-law to finally relax. Jessica nodded to Drew and laid down sobbing into a pillow and the drifted off into a deep sleep. She hadn't been able to relax all morning and it had taken a toll on her. Drew placed a blanket on Jessica and sat down in a chair near her. He placed a hand over his head and then a picture of his brother and himself on the mantle. "What is wrong bro." he whispered to himself, wishing that Nick was there to answer him. <<<<<TBC>>>> Well that is the first installment in Confession series. I hope that you all enjoyed it. I know that it isn't much, but it is just the beginning. But, then what will happen next time? I would love to get some feedback from you guys so please e-mail it to me at dickdan272@yahoo.com. I will have another installment ready within a few days. But, I will not work as fast as promised if I don't receive any feedback.