Date: Wed, 08 Aug 2001 22:02:02 -0500
From: Danni Bailey <dannibailey@hotmail.com>
Subject: No More Secrets - Chapter 7

Disclaimer: This story is purely fiction.  I don't know any members of
NSYNC personally (unfortunately) and this story is not meant to imply
anything about their sexual preferences.  If you are offended by homosexual
themes, if you are too young to be reading the material or if you are a
huge Nick Carter fan and are easily disturbed by him not being portrayed as
a "good guy" read no further.

I'd love to hear from the readers.  I haven't gotten much feedback on this
story, so I would REALLY appreciate your comments, both good and bad.

Dannibailey@hotmail.com

Thanks and enjoy,
Danni


"So, now that we finally have some time, how did your appointment go?"

"I think it went really well.  He wants to see me once a week for a while,
and eventually he wants you to be in there with me.  For now, he said he
needs to deal with me one on one."

"Well, whenever he wants to talk to me, I'll be here."

Justin smiled widely.  "I know.  That's what I told him.  That I was
married to the most wonderful guy in the world.  That you're always there
for me, even when I'm an asshole."

You laughed.  "You have your moments, but so do I.  It's not like I haven't
been a jerk at times."

"Yeah, but you don't do stupid stuff.  I make really bad decisions."

"Nick was the only REALLY bad decision you've made.  You've acted at times
without thinking, but trusting Nick was something we all warned you about."

"Gary, I've known him forever, since we were kids.  Why did I see him so
differently than everybody else did?"

"Probably because you wanted to.  Nick was a fun guy to be around.  He
loved to party, and at a club no one had as much fun as Nick.  I know you
enjoy that, so do I to a point, but Nick always took things to far.  Nick's
lifestyle consists of living for the moment.  All the drinking, all the
sex.  He never considers the consequences."

"You're right," he said softly "but why was I so drawn to him?  I love
going to clubs, but I can go all night and just have a couple of beers.
When I was with him I felt like I had to keep up."

"I'm not sure.  Maybe you felt like he wouldn't be as accepting of you if
you weren't into what he was.  To be honest, I never really enjoyed being
around him.  I always felt like I needed to watch my back."

Justin sighed.  "Once again you were right."

You moved your arm so that you were now resting on your elbow staring down
at Justin with his head on your pillow.

"It not a matter of being right.  It's a matter of not wanting him hitting
on my husband."  As you talked, your hand playfully pulled at the waistband
of his boxers.  "If anybody is gonna hit on you, it's gonna be me."

He broke into laughter.  "That was funny!"

You had no idea what he was referring to. "What was funny?"

"Its gonna be me.  You know, like the song."

You shook your head.  "So you think its funny do you?"

You sat up and straddled him and he anticipated your next move.

"No Gary, please don't!" he pleaded.

His pleas went unanswered as you began to tickle him.  It wasn't until
tears of laughter were streaming down his face that you halted your
assault.

"Had enough?" you teased him.

He could only nod as he was still trying to catch his breath.

You couldn't help but to tease him further.  "Sorry, you're so winded.  I
was planning on making love to you, but guess I'll have to put that off
until another time."

He was still struggling to breathe, but a smile covered his face.  "Give me
a minute, just one minute.  I'll be fine, I swear."

You leaned down and gently kissed his lips.  "I don't think I can wait that
long."

After being with him for almost 14 years, making love to him was just as
exciting now as it had been in the early years.  There was definitely
something to be said for long term relationships.  Sexually, you knew each
other so well.  Had you wanted to, you could have brought Justin to an
orgasm within a few shorts minutes.  You knew exactly where and how to
touch him.  You had even made a bet with Chris once when he mouthed off
that `no matter how good you are, nobody can get to the finish line in
under 5 minutes.'  Three minutes later and $100.00 richer, you proved him
wrong.  Over the years, that had been necessary at times, with schedules so
jam- packed that there was little time for romance.  Tonight was not such
and occasion.  Tonight needed to be slow and gentle. A time of intimate
passion, forgetting about the past and focusing only on the future.

The touch of your lips on his still carried that same electrical charge,
and you could feel yourself becoming hard even though the kiss was one of
tenderness and not passion.  He moaned softly as your hand ran across his
chest, tweaking each nipple slightly as you did.  Your lips returned to
his, this time with passion.  His mouth opened, welcoming your intrusion.

Suddenly he pulled away and sat on the edge of the bed with his back to
you.  "Gary, we need to talk."

"Now?" you asked in a shocked voice.

"Yeah, before we go any further."  He turned to face you and the smile had
vanished.

"Gary, we're gonna have to use protection.  I was tested today at the
counselor's office, but the results won't be back for a while. He gave me
some condoms to use. I don't want you taking any chances.  It's bad enough
I put myself in this position."

"I had no intention of taking any chances."  You rubbed your hand gently
across his cheek.  " So can we continue now?"

He looked at you as if you had not comprehended a word he had said.  "Are
you serious?  Do you realize what we're talking about here?"

You pulled him close to you.  "Of course I do.  I also realize that as much
as I hate Nick Carter, I don't think he's stupid enough not to use
protection on a regular basis.  If he didn't, he'd be dead by now. Yes,
there is still some risk and I'm not foolish enough to think that it
couldn't happen, but to be honest I'm not really concerned.  This fits Nick
perfectly.  He knows we've been together and exclusive for 14 years.  Sex
with you would be safe. Its just another perfect example of how Nick takes
advantage of every available opportunity."

You cupped your hands under his chin and brought his face close to yours.
"Until your tests results come back we'll have to use protection.  It's not
the ideal situation, but we'll deal with it."

Relief covered his face and he brought his lips to yours. "I love you,
Gary."

His lips touched yours and the hard-on that you had lost during your brief
conversation returned immediately.  You wanted him and needed him, almost
as much as he needed you.

As your lips still pressed tightly against his, you allowed your hands to
begin to explore the body that had been absent for the past several days.
It was like a rebirth, even though you had only been apart for less than
two weeks.  You were fully aware you had missed him emotionally, but until
now you did not comprehend how much your body had yearned for this physical
touch as well.  As your fingers traced the outline of the muscles on his
stomach, you found it almost impossible to take things slow.  You wanted
desperately to make love to him.  To feel the tightness of his body around
your rock hard cock.

Allowing your fingers venture lower, they brushed over the soft hair of his
love trail and you could feel the dampness of the pre-cum inside your
boxers.  Your hand slid beneath the waistband of his shorts and you could
hear Justin moan softly as you removed them allowing you to see his
throbbing organ.

Within seconds your tongue was teasing him, running slowly up the length of
his cock until finally your mouth enclosed around it and the familiar taste
of leaking pre-cum excited you further.

Justin's body quivered as he enjoyed every moment of your seductive game.
Your gentle touch and warm caressing mouth was a haven for his body as well
as his soul.  His body ached to have you inside of him, not only for the
physical pleasure, but for the reassurance.  As it had been for the past 14
years, he needed to know the depth of your love.  His insecurities had only
heightened during your separation.

You pushed his body to the edge several times, backing off only when you
knew he was close to loosing control.  While your mouth worked feverishly
on his cock, your fingers had entered him amid soft moans and his whispers
begging you for more.

Finally, your willpower succumbed, and you stopped long enough to awkwardly
slip a condom on your increasing impatient dick.  You had never used one
before, and weren't particularly thrilled about it now, but your body and
mind were willing to compromise.

With Justin on his back you pressed yourself against his waiting hole,
pausing briefly knowing how eager he was for you to be inside him.

"Gary please," he pleaded.  "My God, you're driving me crazy.  Don't stop
now!"

You entered him slowly and the two of you lay motionless for a moment
savoring the intimacy.  He ran his fingers softly across your ass and you
began to slowly pump your dick inside the velvety softness of his tight
ass.

Again, with your hand stoking him and your dick rhythmically moving inside
him, you brought his body to a frenzied state time and time again.  You
could not remember any time during the 14 years that you had been together
making love for so long before allowing your bodies their final reward.

Finally, you could feel his entire body constrict and his hot fluid shot
onto your chest.  As you plunged deeply inside him, his hands held your ass
close to him as you body exploded time and time again.

You collapsed onto his chest, both of you covered with sweat and unable to
speak.  The two of you stayed that way for several minutes, not saying a
word.  Not needing to.  You wondered how long it would be before you had
the strength to move.  You had almost drifted off to sleep when Justin,
trying desperately not to disturb you, got up and went to the bathroom.  He
returned moments later, with a warm moist towel and gently wiped the sweat
and cum from your body.  When he was finished, he curled up next to you and
gently kissed you as he tossed the towel on the floor.  Moments later you
both were sleeping soundly, wrapped in each others arms.

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Justin rolled over slowly and felt a gentle touch on his cheek.  He opened
his eyes to Mandi's face only inches from his.  He glanced over at the
clock on the night stand.  6:30!!

He smiled widely at her and lifted her up so she could lay on top of the
covers resting her head on his chest.

"Girl, don't you ever sleep?"  he teased.  He was playing with her curls
and nearly asleep, when the phone's ring startled him.

"Hello?" he asked.  It was 6:45.  No one ever called at this time of day.
All of your family and friends knew that you and Justin were not early
risers.

"Justin, its Chris.  We're on our way to the hospital.  Can we drop the
boys off with you?"

"Sure, no problem," Justin answered as he tapped lightly on your shoulder.
"Would it be easier for us to come get them?"

"No, your place is on the way to the hospital and Danni is, uumm how shall
I say this….. ready to leave now."

Justin chuckled.  He knew Danni so well after all these years together.
You knew she had this whole scenario orchestrated.  Bags were packed, for
her and the boys.  Important phone numbers were posted on the frige, and
extra meals had been made and frozen so that Chris could just re-heat them
and the "gang" would be taken care of.  That was Danni, she never missed a
detail.

"Well, just load the boys in the car.  We'll fix breakfast for them when
they get here."

"Thanks Justin.  We'll be there in about 15 minutes."

Realizing that the tap on the shoulder had no effect, Justin leaned over
and kissed your neck softly.

"Hey, sleepyhead.  You need to get up.  We're about to have some company."

"Company?" you mumbled.  "Who's coming over at this hour?"

"Chris is dropping the boys off," he answered as he struggled to pull on
his boxers amid the twisted covers.  "Danni's having the baby."

Reluctantly, you sat up and ran your fingers through your hair.  Damn, that
bed had felt good.  Then the realization hit you.  Five kids!

Justin had taken Mandi downstairs, no doubt to heat up a bottle for her,
and you headed into the shower.  The hot water was soothing.  Last night
had been exhausting and you were hoping the shower would work its magic and
take the stiffness out of your weary body.  You hurried your routine more
than you would have liked knowing that shortly the boys would arrive and
calm that was now present would vanish.

As you stepped out of the shower you picked up on the scent of two of your
morning favorites.  Coffee was brewing and bacon was frying.  You dried off
quickly and threw on a pair of sweatpants and a t-shirt before heading
downstairs hoping to enjoy a quick cup of coffee with Justin.

You were too late.  As you reached the landing to doorbell rang and before
you could reach it, the door opened and in rushed Chris' two youngest boys
each carrying a backpack evidently filled with essentials for an overnight
trip.

"Hi Uncle Gary," they yelled in unison as they ran past.

"Hold on a minute you two, don't I even get a hug?"

Both boys stopped in their tracks and ran back quickly, hugging you and
nearly knocking you off your feet.

"That's better" you informed them. Still, the third brother had yet to
enter the house.  "Darren where's Jarrod?"

"He's in the car, talking to mom and dad.  Then grinning he added, "He's in
trouble."

His timing couldn't have been worse as Danni now stood in the doorway.
"Darren Christopher, come here!

Shocked, he walked slowly over to Danni and softly said "Yes, ma'am?"

"Do you think it's funny that your brother is in trouble?"

"No, ma'am," he answered in his most innocent voice.

Danni smiled at him "I didn't think so.  Now why don't you see where Uncle
Gary wants you to put your bags.

"Hhhmm, let's see.  How about we let Blake sleep with Kyle and you and
Jarrod can share one of the guest bedrooms?  Is that okay?"

"Yes, sir" he said agreeably as he headed upstairs with his bag.

You leaned over and kissed Danni's cheek.  "You okay?"

"I'm fine.  We just didn't need Jarrod's attitude today, but I'm pretty
sure Chris is taking care of that."

She peered over your shoulder obviously looking for something.

"Where is that precious angel?"

At that moment Justin walked in from the kitchen with Mandi firmly planted
on his hip.

"I'm right here," Justin beamed.

"Not you! I was talking about that beautiful baby girl."

Mandi wiggled in Justin's arms and reached over hoping Danni would hold
her.  Other than you, Danni was the only person that Mandi would leave
Justin for.

Danni sat down to enjoy a few moments with Mandi when Chris and Jarrod came
in from outside.

It was obvious that Chris had come down on him pretty hard as the usual
carefree demeanor was absent.

"Sorry guys, we just had a little disagreement that we needed to clear up."
Chris said apologetically as he glared at Jarrod.  "We really appreciate
you taking the boys.  I know you kinda have your plate full right now."

Justin put his arm around Chris' shoulder.  "No problem, the more the
merrier.  Now why don't you and Danni get going.  The boys will be fine."

Chris gave Justin a hardy hug.  "Thanks man, I know they will be."

He turned to Danni.  "You ready baby?"

Danni laughed.  "That's an understatement."

With Danni and Chris out the door, Justin turned his attention to Jarrod.

"You okay buddy?"

"Yeah, I guess.  Dad is just really mad at me for not wanting to come over
here.  He said I had an attitude and was being disrespectful."

Justin was surprised.  "Why didn't you want to come over here.  We've
always had a great time together."

Jarrod realized how his comment must have sounded.  "No, no, its nothing
like that.  I love spending time with you guys, but now I'm surrounded by
little kids.  I don't think I need a babysitter.  I could have stayed home
by myself."

Justin grinned.  "Well, if you hadn't come over, we would be missing out on
some time to work on the album.  I've got a couple of tracks I wanted you
to listen to.  I think we can probably use you on more than one of them if
you'd be interested.  I understand the pay is pretty good."

"Oh my God!" Jarrod yelled loudly.  "Are you serious?  I'd do it for free.
Do you know how awesome this is gonna be?"

"I thought you might like the idea" Justin remarked as he dodged Mandi and
Blake who were feverishly chasing each other throughout the house.  "You
know how to use the equipment in the studio, right?"

Jarrod nodded excitedly.

"Okay, listen to tracks four, eight and eleven and see what you can come up
with.  As soon Gary and I finish up with breakfast we'll buzz you on the
intercom and you can grab something to eat.  Then I'll listen to what
you've done so far.  Is that a deal?"

Jarrod was already headed out the backdoor to the studio.  "Sounds great!
Thanks Uncle Justin."

You walked up to Justin with a freshly brewed cup of coffee just as he and
Jarrod has finished talking.

"What is he thanking `Uncle Justin' for?"

Justin took a sip of his coffee, heavily doctored up with extra cream and
sugar before he answered.  "Nothing much really.  I just told him to go
listen to a couple of tracks for the new album and see what he could come
up with.  I think we can use him on more than one."

"Justin, do you think he's ready for that?  He's only 12."

"Almost 13," he reminded you.  "Gary, he's very good and he needs a little
something extra right now.  I think he's kinda overwhelmed being the oldest
kid with all these little ones.  Think about it.  He's got 2 younger
brothers and baby sister coming home in a few days.  On top of that, every
time we all get together the kids kinda pair up and he's left out of it,
except to help take care of them."

"You got a point there.  I just hope he isn't in over his head."

"Gary, the three tracks that I'm having him listening to are easy.  I'm not
gonna set him up to fail.  He'll be fine."

You looked around the den which was now filled with legos and matchbox
cars.  Kyle had heard the commotion and now joined the others.  You found
it amazing how quickly four kids could destroy a room.  You looked at
Justin as he continued to sip on his coffee and commented jokingly, "Jarrod
may be fine, but what about us?"

48 hours later, your life had returned to normal.  Danni had easily given
birth to Ashley Danielle Kirkpatrick, who just might be the most beautiful
newborn you had even seen.  The boys had stayed with you an extra day,
allowing Chris and Danni some quiet time alone to get settled in with
Ashley, and other than their constant quest for food, the boys had been no
problem.

Justin had been right.  Jarrod had sounded great when he had played along
with the three chosen tracks and Chris beamed as he listened to his eldest
son.

Remarkably, you had even had some time to discuss with Justin the upcoming
court appearance requested by the judge and although you could have
predicted his initial reaction, he was resigned to making the best of the
situation.  Tuesday would not be pleasant, but you both had survived
unpleasantness before.

Justin had met again with his counselor and he began to speak more freely
to you about the issues that had haunted him over the years.  You had
always known he was insecure, but now Justin was able to see it as well,
and more importantly could discuss why.

To be continued....