Date: Tue, 15 Feb 2000 18:59:05 EST
From: MrClean290@aol.com
Subject: Destiny 3-4

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				  Destiny
				 Chapter 3

	" You've got mail."
	" Shit!  Well I'll have to get it later, Scott should be here any
moment."
	" Jas?"
	" Ya?"
	" Scott's running late, check your damn mail before you have a
heart attack."
	" Shut up Ape!"
	Jas pressed the mail box icon and sure enough there was one letter
in her box.
	` 12/28/1999 ScoopJLB@aol.com. A letter for JD Bass.'
	" That's strange.  I don't know this address.  Oh well."  Jas
thought out loud.
	" Talking to yourself again Jas?"
	" Scott!"
	" Hey Sis, what's up?"
	" Nothing, but this email."
	" Well read it then come down to dinner k?"
	" Ya, k!"


Jas clicked into the letter and started to read.  She couldn't help the
tears that ran down her face.  He shut her door and turned up the stereo so
April would not hear her.
	` Dear JD, I don't know what to say.  There is so much to be said
but I don't know who to do it.  I don't even know if you know who I am
anymore.  So let me introduce myself.  My name is James Lance Bass, I'm
 in the group NSYNC, and I'm your brother.  If you know about your life as
my sister please respond, if not, then forget I exist.  I love you Desty.
I never meant to hurt you as I did.  I was young and stupid and in love.
Please, if you can find it in your heart to forgive me, do so.  Until we
meet.  I love you.  Your brother, Jamie.'


Jas printed out the letter and sat on her bed rereading it.  She sat in
disbelief, she was
 related to Lance Bass.  No, that couldn't be right.  Her last name was
Bass, but she was a member of this Bass family.  The one that lived in New
York.  Not the one that lived in Florida.  What was going on?  She dried
her face and walked down stairs.  She replayed the letter in her head.  She
stopped when she got to the last step.  That name.  That face.  Jamie, that
name which had been haunting her.  Lance Bass, that face which was on her
walls.  Her body crumbled underneath her.  She remembered.

BJ sat with Justin holding hands while they watched as their friends talked
with each other.
	" Just?  Are any other guys in NSYNC, you know, gay?"  Justin burst
out laughing.
	" Ya, like all of them!  Well, not Chris, he's got a girlfriend,
pretty serious, Joey and JC bat for both teams, and Lance is, but you know
that already.  It gets a little lonely sometimes, being the only one
without someone to love."  BJ smiled at him and squeezed his hand.
	" You don't have to be lonely anymore."  Justin looked at her and
smiled.  He knew that he would never be lonely again.


	" Jas!  Jas wake up!"
	" Aww, Ape, shut up!"
	" Are you okay?"
	Jas looked around the room her parents; sister, brother, and Emily
were standing over her, concerned.
	" I'm fine, really.  Is it too late for dinner?"
	" No, let's eat."


Jas got up and sat down with her family to eat.  Her family.  This was the
family that raised her, for the most part.  This was the family that loved
her.  Why couldn't they always have been there.  Jas listened as Scott told
their parents he was going to marry Emily.  She listened as they all
 congratulated him.  She listened to Ape retell her day.  She was there
physically but mentally she was
 miles away.
	" Jasmine?  Are you alright?"
	" Yes, I've just got some things on my mind that's all."


After dinner they gathered in the den to watch a movie.  Jas went to her
room though; feeling sleepy and light headed.  In the middle of the night,
she awoke, covered in sweat and calling out for Jamie.  She ran from her
room and into Scott's.  She stopped when she saw Emily in the bed with him.
She turned around and ran downstairs.  She paced around the kitchen for a
few hours trying to figure things out.  But she couldn't, not with out
answers.
	" Jas?"
	" Huh?"
	" Jas, go to bed, it's too early for you to be up."  It was Scott.
His voice was tired but concerned.
	" No, I'm ok, thanks."
	" What happened last night?  I heard you come in then leave."
	" I had a dream, but Em was there, so I came down here."
	" Oh."


Scott walked back upstairs.  When he reached his room, he cried for his
sister's pain.  He went back to bed and wondered how to help her.


Jas walked back to her room and decided it was time to write back to Lance.
She signed on
 and started to write.
	` Dear Lance, Or should I say Jamie.  I got your letter and it
confused me.  The JD Bass you knew disappeared years ago.  But now, after
your letter, I suddenly remember things about my life before my family took
me in.
 I remember calling you Jamie.  I remember BJ.  She was my best friend.
But I get the feeling that she was my only friend.  I remember a blond boy
who used to laugh at me; his eyes were as blue as the sky.

Then I thought about the Nick Carter I met at a concert last year.  He
changed so much.  He was cuter.  But he had grown up.  And this was a good
thing.  I did not know at the time, when I met him,
 of who he was in my past but I know now, that that blue eyed boy who would
laugh at me is now one
 of the sexiest men in the world.  I also remember something that you told
me.  You told me that you liked that blue eyed boy.  Are you and he
together?

I remember my parents. But I don't know anything about them.  Did they love
me?  I can't imagine they did, but I always shiver when I think of them.  I
have a good life here.  I have parents who love me.  A brother, who is my
protector, always has been.  A sister who I look out for.  I have friends,
and a life that I can call my own.

I appreciate your letter but I don't know how to reach you, to see you to
get answers.  How is BJ?  I want so much to see you again, and April would
love that too, she's my little sister, not so little at 16, but still.
Please write soon.  Love, Jas

PS- In the years that I have been this new person I have learned to forgive
the images from my past, even though I didn't know what or who they were.
So what I'm saying is, who ever is responsible for
 sending me away, they are forgiven.  And maybe I should thank them, I have
a family now, as good as any biological family.  PPS- my number is,
914-555-4839


Lance read the email and was crying so hard that he woke both Nick and BJ.
They ran down
 the steps and found Lance curled up in a ball with a piece of paper in his
hand.  His body shook from
 the tears.  Nick ran to him and held him tightly.  BJ reached for the
paper and began to read it.  When she finished she too was crying.
	" BJ?  What is it?"
	" She wrote to him."
	" Who?"
	" JD."
	" What?"
	" Look."
	Nick read the letter and the three of them sat together on the
couch and cried.  Nick got up and held the phone and gave it to Lance.
	" Call her."
	" How?"
	" She wrote in her number.  At the end of the letter, you must have
missed it."
	Lance grabbed the phone and the email and dialed Jas's number.  It
rang a couple times then the machine picked up.
	" Hey party people!  It's Jas!  Ya well leave me a message.  And if
this is for Ape or Scott,
 CALL THEIR LINE!!!  This is for me only!  And if this is Ape or Scott, get
a life!  Well, I should go and let y'all leave that message.  Have fun now
ya here?  Talk to ya soon!  Bye!"
	As soon as it beeped Lance spoke to the machine.
	" Uh hi, I don't know what to call you.  So I'll just stick with
Jas, since that's your name now.  This is Lance Bass, Jamie, Scoop,
whatever you wanna call me.  I got you letter and I will be in NYC in a few
weeks.  Call me.  Please.  I miss you.  Well I love you and I have to go.
Bye!"


April listened to the message and shrieked in delight.
	" JASMINE!!!!!!!"
	" What?"
	" What is this all about?"
	" Huh?"
	" Wake up!  You just slept through the most wonderful message."
	" Ya well.  Hey why are you listening to my messages?"
	" This is not the time to be yelling at me.  You just got a call
from a famous person!!!!  And ya wanna
 know who it was?  The one and only James Lances Bass.  AHHHHHH you know we
share the same last name maybe we're related.  Call him, he left a number.
I won't tell a soul, but call call call!"
	" Ok ok, leave and I'll call."  Jas walked to the machine and
listened to it.  She called the number and asked for Lance.
	" Hello?  Is Lance there?"
	" Lance?  Let me check, he may have left.  May I ask who's
calling?"
	" This is Jasmine Bass."
	" JD?"
	" Well, yes.  Who is this?"
	" It's BJ."
	" BJ?"
	" Yeah."
	" Wow!"
	" Yeah."
	" So is Lance there?"
	" Uh, he is but he's sleeping at the moment.  Can he call you back
later?"
	" Ya sure, it was nice talking to you BJ."
	" You too."


Jas got off the phone and signed on.  She had a few letters, but one caught
her eyes.  The one from NickyNickNGC@aol.com.  She opened it and for the
umpteenth time that day, she cried.
	` Dear Jasmine, I got your letter yesterday, and it really hit
home.  There I was going on with my life, not giving a second thought to my
past.  But then your letter shows up and wow.  First off, I need to
apologize to you.  I took your brother away from you, and the minute after
you left I realized what a bad person I
 was.  I am so sorry I took Lance from you.

And I know this will sound bad but he saved me.  I thought I had sent you
to your death or something, and he comforted me and loved me.  I know all
this is not comforting, but I feel as though you need to know.  I don't
know how much you remember of if you just remember the feelings of the hate
and betrayal.  But whatever you do, I'm sorry for the role I played in your
life.

When I met you a year ago, I knew I knew you, but I didn't know how.  Now I
do.  As for prom, I don't know how comfortable you'd be going with your
brother's boyfriend, but I'm sure, I could find you another member of
either of our groups to go with you.

Please write or call soon.  The number Lance gave you was mine.  The three
of us cannot wait to see you again.  Be well.  Sincerely, Nick Carter


Jas finished reading and was so confused.  Yesterday all of this made some
sense today, it didn't.  The memories were not coming to her.  At night,
after her dreams, they were clear and present,
 but then they would fade.  What was happening to her?  She knew that she
knew these people, but
 how?  She curled up in bed and went back to sleep, she couldn't deal with
all this now.


Nick and Lance sat outside holding each other tight.  They didn't want
anything else to come between them.  Across from the two of them sat
another pair of love birds, BJ and Justin.  Love was in the air.  Who would
be next in the game of love?
					Chapter 4
				Three weeks later in New York.


Lance walked around the venue, both bands were on tour together.  He was
thankful for this.
  It gave him and Nick even more time together.  Tonight's show would be
special.  He had made sure
 that Jas and her sister would be in the audience.  More over in the front
row.  He wanted this to be
 special for her.  He had not heard from her since the message she left
with BJ, and Nick had not heard from her either.  This scared them but they
hoped that the show would show Jas just how much she meaned to them.  He
walked to the stage and watched as the Backstreet Boys practiced on one
side and the rest of NSYNC practiced on the other.  He hopped onstage and
went over to his band to practice.


Jas wondered why she had received two front row tickets with backstage
passes to the opening show of the NSYNC/BSB tour.  So much had happened in
the past weeks since she received
 those letters.  She knew that she knew the people who sent them but when
she slept was the only time when she could relive the past as soon as she
awoke the memories went away.  She tried to hard to remember just a little
bit of what she was writing about in that letter she wrote to Lance.  As
hard as she tried to push her brain to remember, the harder it pushed back.
But she was going to go, and she was taking April.


As the two of them drove to the venue she was preoccupied with why she had
these tickets.
	" Jas?  What's wrong?  We're gonna see the best two boy bands in
the world!  Why are you not smiling?"
	" Oh!  I'm fine just a little tired."
	" Well wake up!"  April turned on the radio and blasted the volume.
	" Ok, ok, I'm up!"


They sang all the way to the concert and even on the way in to the concert.
As they walked in they remember the last concert they had been to.  But
this one had a different feeling, BSB and NSYNC fans were either fighting
or in peace, but for Jas this concert was going to change her life.  She
didn't know how, but she knew when she went home tonight, her life would be
forever changed.


NSYNC had just finished performing ` I want you back', and now Lance was on
stage alone.
	" This next song is dedicated to two people that are here tonight.
I love you baby, and Jasmine, please come back to me."
	" You sheltered me from harm
	You kept me warm, you kept me warm
	And you gave my life to me
	You set me free, you set me free
	The finest years I ever knew
	Were all the years I spent with you

	And I would give everything I own
	Give up my life, my heart, my home
	And I would give everything I own
	Just to have you, back again

	You taught me how to learn
	What a time, what a time
	You never said too much
	But still you showed you cared
	And I knew from watching you
	And nobody else could ever know
	The part of me that can't let go

	And I would give everything I own
	Give up my life, my heart, my home
	And I would give everything I own
	Just to have you, back again

	Is there someone you know
	Loving them so
	Taking them all for granted
	You may lose them one day
	Someone takes them away
	And they don't hear
	The words you long to say

	Give up my life, give up heart
	Everything I own
	Everything I own
	Everything I own
	Everything I own

	You know baby
	My love for you will always be true (That's right.)
	Cuz there is no me without you

	I would give everything I own ( everything I own)
	Nobody can love you love you love you love you like I do
	And I would give everything I own (Everything I own)
	Give up my life, my heart, my home
	I would give everything I own
	Just to have you back again
	Just to have you back again."  (`Everything I Own', from NSYNC)


Lance stepped back and looked into the front row.  He caught Jas's eyes and
smiled.  He didn't know that the girl he smiled at was his girl, but he
smiled anyway.  Jas on the other hand knew full well who the man on the
stage was and why he smiling.  She smiled back but was unsure of who
 she smiling at.  Nick was backstage and he was smiling as well.  Now he
had to show Lance that he too had his heart.  But how?


Nick walked onstage ready to perform his solo, ` I need you tonight.'  Then
he realized that that song was a dedication for love, his love, for Lance.
	" Hey New York!  I would like to dedicate this next song to someone
who is here to night.  I love you baby."
	" Open up your heart to me
	And say what's on your mind
	I know that we have been through so much pain
	But I still need you in my life this time

	And I need you tonight
	I need you right now
	I know deep within my heart
	It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right
	I really need you tonight.

	I figured out
	What to say to you
	Sometimes the words
	They, they come out so wrong, oh yes they do
	And I know in time that you will understand
	That what we have is so right this time

	And I need you tonight
	I need you right now
	I know deep within my heart
	It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right

	All those endless times we tried to make it last forever more
	And baby I know I need you
	I know deep within my heart
	It doesn't matter if it's wrong or right

	I really need you
	I really need you
	I need you tonight
	I need you oh I need you baby
	I need you tonight
	It's gotta be this its gotta be this
	I know deep within my heart
	No, it doesn't matter if it's wrong or it's right
	All I know is baby
	I really need you
	Tonight."  (`I Need You Tonight', from Millennium)


When Nick finished Lance had tears in his eyes.  The two bands finished the
show after four encores.  They went backstage to meet and greet and
whatnot.  Jas and April went backstage as well.
	" Man, Jas, I can't believe he dedicated a song to you."
	" Ape, there must have been dozens of Jasmines there, it couldn't
have been me."


Jas wanted to convince herself that, but she knew that he did in fact sing
that song for her.  They walked to the line of loud fans and stood there
waiting.
	" Ape, I'm gonna go find a bathroom."
	" Ok."


Jas walked off a bit.  This was the scary part.  She had to get away from
her sister so she could find her brother?  It was so weird.  She walked
down a hall until she reached the door that said NSYNC.  She knocked a few
times hoping that whoever answered the door could answer her questions.
	" Hey pretty lady, you're a little ways off from the meet and
greet."
	" Yes, I know, I was actually looking for Lance Bass."
	" Aren't we all?  Kidding, come on in."  Jas walked in and looked
around, if she was is typical fan mode she would have been eyeing
everything but she calmly sat down and waited.
	" What's your name?"
	" Jas, Jasmine."
	" You are the girl he`s been talking about huh?  I'm Joey."
	" Pleased to meet you."  Jas and Joey shook hands and they could
feel a shock go through their hands.
	" Lance is over with Nick, he should be here soon."


Just then, the rest of NSYNC stampeded in, with Nick following closely
behind.  They all ran to showers and undressed, totally unaware of the girl
who was sitting to their left.  Joey closed the door to the bathroom, turn
to Jas and smiled.
	" Forgive them, they can be pigs sometimes."
	" No, it's alright, I have an older brother I know what guys are
like.  But it's nice to know that
 gay guys are just as pig like as straight ones."
	" Excuse me?"
	" Forgive me, I don't know anything about that, I just know about
Lance and Nick."
	" How?"
	" Well, because," Jas found herself embarrassed.  She thought the
Lance had talked to the guys about her, but I guess he was talking about
someone else.  She quickly got up and reached for the door.
	" I'm sorry, I must have made a mistake.  Tell Lance I was here,
good-bye."
	" No wait!  Wait!  I'm sorry, it was just surprising that you knew
about our sexual orientations.  But please stay."


Jas sat back down on the couch and waited for the boys to come out of the
shower.  As soon as she sat down Chris, Justin, JC and Nick emerged from
the showers.
	" Nick, don't you have showers down the hall?"
	" Yah, but down the hall I don't have my boyfriend."  He saw Jas
out of the corner of his eye as he said that and his hands left his towel
and went to his mouth.  His towel dropped to the floor.
	" Shit!  Did I say that out loud?"
	" Hello Nick."
	" Uh hi." He got his towel from the floor and wrapped it around
himself again.
	" Hello, I'm Nick."  Jas got up, walked over to him, and looked him
in the eyes.
	" I know."  Jas didn't know where or how she knew him but she did.
Her arms circled his neck and held him tight.  When she let go all the guys
were staring and Lance was almost crying, he had emerged as Jas hugged
Nick.  Jas looked over Nick's shoulder she saw a teary eyed Lance.
	" Oh Jamie, I'd never steal your boyfriend."  Jas stepped back,
alarmed at what she had just said.  This was the Jamie that she had been
dreaming about.  Face to face with a memory.
	" Oh G-d.  Oh g-d, I, I, I have to go now."
	" NO!"  Lance stepped forward, held Nick's hand as he reached for
Jasmine's.  When Lance had Jas's hand in his, she felt at home.
	" Who are you?"  Jas backed away from Lance.  She shook from fear.
	" Who are you, and what do you want from me?"
	" Jas, I want to be your brother again."
	" I already have one.  And I have a sister too, I don't need you."
	" Please, what happened in these weeks?"
	" I don't remember what I remembered a few weeks ago.  I'm sorry if
I mislead you, but I have to go now."


Jas walked out the door and went back to April.
	" So did you see any Backstreet Boys?"
	" Ya!  But I didn't see Nick, oh well.  I can't wait until NSYNC
comes out."
	" I'm sorry Ape, but we have to go now."
	" NO!  Look I don't really understand why you being like this but
I'm not leaving until I see Justin."


Jas gave up and sat down on a near by chair.  As she sat all of NSYNC came
rushing to the crowd.  Jas turned her head away so she wouldn't see them.
She turned back to see April chatting it up with Justin and she smiled.
She only wished she could understand why she was there.


Meanwhile back in FL

Diane Bass paced around her kitchen, she had just gotten off the phone with
the adoption agency.  They had said that when they gave up their rights as
parents that it was only until JD was well enough to come home.  She was
well now, and the agency thought it was a good idea for her to go back with
her biological family.  Diane had no idea how her daughter was doing, but
she was about to find out.


Jane Carter rushed into the house yelling frantically.
	" Diane?  Diane!"
	" What's wrong?"
	" Well, nothing.  BJ just told me that she spoke with JD last week.
And that she is doing wonderfully.  Lance and Nick have been in contact
with her.  Isn't that wonderful?"
	" Yes, it is."
	" What's wrong?"
	" The agency wants her to come home."
	" Oh."
	" I should never have given up on her."
	" No Diane, you shouldn't have."


Jas and April got home that night full of energy.  They walked into the
house expecting everyone to be sleeping, but to their surprise all the
lights were on and there was shouting coming from the kitchen.
	" She is our daughter, you have no rights to her, She will be 18 in
a few days, you can't take
 her away."
	" I'm sorry ma'am, but we have been ordered to bring he back to
Florida, to her real family, tonight."
	" Tonight?"
	" Yes."


Jas and April listened to them and before April could ask Jas what was
going on Jas turned and ran out the door.  She got in her car and raced
back to the venue.  She sped into the parking lot hoping that the bus would
still be there.  It was.  Jas parked next to it and raced to the door.  She
knocked on it several times.  A large man opened the door and eyes her
questionably.
	" Yes?"
	" Is this the NSYNC/BSB tour bus?"
	" No, this is just the BSB tour bus, NSYNC left about 20 minutes
ago."
	" Shit!  Fine then, is Nick there, I need to talk to him now!"
	" Oh really?  What's your name?"
	" Jasmine Bass."
	" Just a moment."  Jas stood there in the cold of New York's winter
breeze.
	" Jas?  What's wrong?"  Nick had appeared at the door.  " Come in,
please."
	" They are taking me away."
	" Who?"
	" I don't know, police.  They are taking me back to Florida.  Can
they do that?  They say I am going to be with my real family.  I don't want
to leave NYC, please Nick if you can help me, help me remember, anything,
just don't let them take me away."
	" Stay here with us, on the tour, I'll help you remember
everything.  Until then, we should get some things from your house before
we go.  I'll go in, talk to your sister, get stuff and come back out.  Ok?"
	" Yes, thank you."


They rode in silence to Jas's house.  Nick got out and knocked on the door.
April answered it and almost fainted.
	" Shhh, April, please, I'm here for Jas.  I need to get some
clothes, and some personal things for her.  Ok?  Will you help me?"
	" Yes, is she ok?  Are they taking her away?"
	" Not if I can help it."
	" Why are you helping her, you don't know her."
	" Yes I do.  And by doing this I can start to make up for the wring
that I have done to her."
	" The wrong?"
	" I will let Jas tell you later, it's not for now, we have to hurry
though."


Nick and April hurried to Jas's room.  April gathered a duffel of clothes
and personal items.  Nick
 gathered some pictures and went to get a stuffed animal from her bed.  He
reached down and picked up a ratty old black teddy bear.
	" What's this?"
	" It's her favorite, she's had since she came here."


Nick knew about this bear.  BJ had given it to Jas as she was leaving.  BJ
said that they would always be best friends, and this bear proved it.  Nick
held it close and realized that Jas's home was here, and he was going to
try as hard as he could to make sure she stayed.
	" Nick?"
	" Yes?"
	" She'll be 18 in two days, they can't make her go there."
	"Two days?"
	" Yes."
	" Hopefully by then, this whole mess will be over and done with."
	" Nick?"
	" Yes?"
	" Uh, here are her things.  Tell her that I love her k?"
	" Of course."


Nick walked out of the house, with Jas's things not sure if she would ever
se her home again.  Nick walked into the bus and found it peacefully quiet.
Brian, Howie, and Kevin had gone to sleep.  Jas and AJ were quietly talking
in the corner.  As Nick approached them, they flew apart.
	" Nick?  Did you get my things?"
	" Right here.  AJ, can I talk to for a second in the kitchen?"
	" Sure man."  The two went into the kitchen and Nick looked at AJ
very seriously.
	" Bone, I don't know what your feelings towards Jas are, but please
don't hurt her."
	" Nicky, don't worry.  First off, I am still with-."
	" Really?"
	" Yes of course."
	" Really?  Wow, glad to hear it man."
	" Yes, now as I was saying, and Jas does like someone, and it's not
me, so it's not me you should be warning."
	" Oh, sorry man. So since we're talking about it who else is with
who?  And who does Jas
 like?"
	" Wow, full of questions tonight, you must be antsy from not
getting any from Lansten."
	" Fuck you!  Answer my question."
	" Alright, Brian and I, Justin and your sister, you and Lance,
Howie and Kevin, and well, Jas likes two guys, but doesn't know if either
of them is gay or not."
	" Who?"
	" Joey and JC."
	" They both are bi aren't they?  Well do either of them like Jas?"
	" I think Joey thinks she's nice, but as for being a couple, I
don't think he's ready for that."
	" Why?"
	" Because he and JC broke up a few weeks ago."
	" He and JC were together?"
	" Yes."
	" How come I was not aware of all this."
	" Their relationship was always a little rocky, and finally JC
decided that until they could be together and have it not be unsteady that
they should be apart."
	" And JC?"
	" He doesn't even know who she is, yet."
	" Ok, lots of info.  How come I didn't know about all these hook
ups?"
	" Because they are not hook ups Nick, all the couples love each
other and they have gone through hell to be together."
	" Oh?"
	" Yes."

Well?  It is confusing, I know, but hopefully next week, when I get 5 out
it wont be as confusing.  But please keep the feedback, comments, ?'s,
ideas, predictions, anything keep it coming, it givces me ideas!  Thanks!
MrClean290@aol.com