Date: Fri, 28 Apr 2000 23:13:18 EDT
From: WriterGray@aol.com
Subject: Don't Want You Back-Part6

This is a Homoerotic story based on celebrities living or dead. If you are
under the age of 18 or live in a place where it is illegal to read such
materials please leave now. When we say celebrity, we mean a person who is
famous in reality. This does no imply anything of the sexuality of the
people that we intend to portray.

Authors notes:

Well all thank you for writing. I hope you enjoy the newest branches of the
saga. I am going to now try to pick up the story line a little. There is
drama and sex on the way. Not in this installment but soon. Hell, the
characters aren't even 48 hours into their little story life here. But, as
I said, it is definitely on the way. *grin*

Narrative update from my roomie:

Two weeks latter and the author has 3 installments. Realizing he has left
you all hanging, he quick whitely hands in part 6 .. Okay now I hope you
all like where this is going and I thought I would let you know the story
line is going to get interesting soon. Really interesting as a matter of
fact. I read all of it ahead of time as he writes it and let me tell you..

Comments or questions send to writergray@aol.com


                      Don't' Want You Back-Part 6
                           Dreams of Reality
                          By Grayson S Vellar




"The only thing we should be thinking right now is what kind of damage
Manerva is going to do at her trial," Chuck said not really to anyone in
particular.

"What do you mean honey," Jeff asked making me smile at his reference to
Chuck.

"Well, does she know about the whole gay issue here?" Chuck asked.

"I had not even let that sink in yet. Your right this could be a problem,
for Michael," Kevin said staring straight ahead as he pulled the Explorer
into a lone parking slot. "We need to talk to management about all this
latter. It would be easier if none of this came out in the papers. But, I
just don't see that happening," he said stepping out of the car.

"Oh, look Jeff a news stand," Chuck said trying to give us some space no
doubt.

"Look Kevin I don't want to be the one everyone blames for the Backstreet
Boys break up." I said as we walked side by side towards the front of the
huge building. There was a silence as we walked along. I could tell he was
in deep thought. I only hoped his mind would come up with an outcome we
would not regret later.


~~~~~~~~Backstage at the Theater~~~~~~~~~~

Jerry stood fighting with the flashlight one last time before his life was
to change forever.  He had no idea why but his dream was more haunting him
than existing around him. It was his mind trying to tell him to get
ready. It was his soul trying to show him the meaning of his
loneliness. His haunting began again shouting out to him to learn and live.

'Brian I need to tell you something,' Jerry saw himself telling Brian as
they walked through the darkly lit backstage.

Brian turned to Jerry and grinned while placing his index finger to Jerry's
lips. It felt so good to have him caress his lips. It felt so good in fact
that he never wanted Brian to stop. In time the past he had waited for this
moment to come. But, now that it was happening, Brian would not let him say
it. He would not as he only grinned, his childlike beautiful grin at
him. Jerry's frustration grew, as he could no longer wait.

'No, I have to tell you how I feel,' Jerry said while slowly pulling
Brian's hand away, not letting go of his hand they now faced one another in
silence. His blue ocean eyes stunned Jerry. He felt his heart surge.

'You need to tell me what I long to hear,' Brian said fading into
blackness.

The Backstage was all he saw now as his dazed mind finally returned to
reality. The Flashlight flickered on and off as his hands shook holding it
tight.

~~~~~~~~~~~In the theater~~~~~~~~~~~


"Where are the lights Fatima?" Brian asked as they stepped through the
doors leading into a main auditorium.

"I don't know. But that lantern down there tells me there is a good chance
Jerry is here," Fatima said as a dancer suddenly appeared out of no where
and pulled her back into the Lobby where Glen Howie and AJ stood. Brian was
alone.

"Hello?" Brian asked walking down towards the lantern. The low light showed
across a set of stairs to the right of the stage. Brian could make out an
opening in the curtain leading to the backstage area. He began to head
towards them and suddenly thought he should wait for the others to arrive
before heading back into an area with no light.

Jerry was still tinkering with the fuse box behind the curtain as his cell
phone rang at his side. He thought he had turned it off. He wanted no more
interruptions he wanted everything else to go as planned. Brian could hear
a ringing as he headed in the direction of the Lobby. He turned around and
headed back towards the chirping sound, as he was now curious to its
location.

"Hello," Jerry asked into the phone, but there was no one there. He thought
it was strange but there was also allot of steel rigging back here he could
have been out of rang or just distorted to the other person he hung the
phone back up and placed it in his pocket.

Brian had made it to the curtain where he had heard Jerry answer the
phone. But, there was nothing more of the noise. He was certain he heard a
phone. He was also now more curious than ever. Brian made his way behind
the curtain. Pitch-blackness took over his senses as he stood staring off
towards the backstage area. Jerry's small flash light blinked on and off in
the distance. Brian clearly could see at the light about 25 feet away. It
was apparently fading in and out, as the batteries began their path to
dying. Brian began to walk towards the flashing. Here he had found the man
he simply knew as a friend. What Brian didn't know was this man would
change his life forever.

"Hello," Brian said as he was now about 10 feet from Jerry. Jerry was
surprised to hear a voice as he dropped his flashlight to the floor and
jumped.

"Are you alright," Brian asked, while Jerry bent down to pick up his fading
light. He had heard him again; he knew the voice as he began to shake. It
was a dream. It was the dream.

"I'm fine but I can't get the lights..." Jerry said as he turned around and
shown the light on Brian who stood as he had in the dream last night. "Is
this a dream," Jerry asked smiling to himself not knowing if Brian could
see him or not.

"I don't know is it," Brian played back remembering the banter they used to
have back and forth. The flashlight died as he finished his words. He could
hear Jerry crying as the light was now completely gone and the dream
replayed in his mind.

"Brian I need to tell you something," Jerry heard himself say remembering
again.

"Tell me Jerry?" Brian said hearing the sobs immediately stop while taking
an uneasy blind step towards the voice. He didn't know why he was so
upset. He only wanted to help him. It was always Brian's nature to help, to
comfort.

"You'll never hear it, you'll disappear," Jerry said feeling alone
again. He was struggling with his reality and his dreams. He knew it would
all end in just moments. But this time he was going to say it. He was going
to tell him how he felt all this time.

"I promise to hear you and understand, what ever it is," Brian said taking
a step forwards as the flashlight flashed on dimly. Brian reached out to
Jerry pulling him into his arms.

Jerry grinned while placing his index finger to Brian's lips turning the
tables on the dream as he always wanted to do. Brian felt so good to have
him caress his lips. It felt so good in fact that he never wanted him to
stop. In the past he had waited for this moment to come now that it was
here his heart was melting.

"Tell me what I long to hear..." Brian said holding him not knowing what he
was saying only reacting to Jerry's tears. He wanted to comfort him. He
wanted to make it all right.

"You're coming here soon to dance Brian, This may be a dream. I may even be
dead. I keep thinking of this moment from the dream I keep reliving it
wondering why I never can tell you how I feel. It all started with the fire
I saw it I heard it I cried like there was no more living. I love you
Brian. I can't hold it back anymore. But I am only left with a dream,"
Jerry said bracing himself for Brian to disappear. Instead, he felt Brian
pull him in tighter. The lights above his head began to flicker as
electricity rushed through the lines and filled the bulbs to life.

"Dreams?" Brian said kissing Jerry. "Do they kiss?" Brian asked pulling
back and seeing a stunned and happy man. "Jerry, a dream is what we all
have been living. This is reality. But, until we have spent time together,
the reality is I can not tell you I love you and mean it truthfully. I want
this more than anything. I really do. But, I must be honest and say that we
should hold back a little until we are both sure," Brian said all of this
while still holding Jerry. The lights died down, as Jerry did not look up.

"Brian I give you my heart freely. I will wait for yours to come. Now all I
want to do is show you how I feel," Jerry looked up at Brian and could not
hold back his smile as tears began to fall down Brian's cheeks.

~~~~~~~~~~Front of the theater~~~~~~~~~~~~~


"Kevin what do you have in mind for controlling this?" I asked half in
shock and ready to cry. I was scarred of loosing him. Here we were just
getting started.

"We stand by one another. That is all I can think. Look, you know as well
as I do what my life is like. I have the entire world looking at me for
mistakes. All they have to do is find one thing and I am done for. That
does not mean that we are, that mean my career as a boy band member is
over, not us. But, now I have one thing that makes me happier than the
band. I can't say that I will be happy losing it all. But, I have you and
that makes it all worth it. I have." He said taking my hand in his in full
daylight. "You," he simply stated pulling tight to me.

"You need to be careful though right," I said questioning his judgment.

"Careful yes. Downright disrespectful of what I feel, no," he said sending
a shiver through me. Here I had found someone to spend my life with and he
was willing to give his all to me. Every second I spent with him, he was
proving it to me repeatedly. We lingered only seconds longer and continued
to the double doors leading inside.

"By the way I love you," he said as reached out to the door with his free
hand.

"I love you too and thank you Kevin," I said only confusing him as he gave
me questioning looks. "You have given me more than anyone has as far as
support goes. You always know how to stop my worries," I answered the
confusion.

We headed into the theater to find Fatima and AJ standing with some dancers
talking at what appeared to be a concession stand.

"Where's Brian," Kevin asked.

"Oh he must still be in the theater Kevin," Fatima answered looking to AJ
for an answer.

"Lets go check on him," I said just as the lights flickered on. I must have
had a shocked look on my face as I saw the complete detail of the gold leaf
paining along the ceiling.

"Jerry is working on getting the light to stay on behind the stage. This
used to be his fathers little project," Fatima said to me as I was leading
Kevin towards the doors leading undoubtedly to the main auditorium. What we
didn't know was AJ was following us the whole way.

~~~~~~~~~~Jerry & Brian~~~~~~~~~~~

Brian looked at Jerry right in the eyes and found peacefulness there that
he had not found in another man in so long. He was longing for this
moment. He felt it to be right. He knew it was the time for it to happen.

"One promise?" Brian asked Jerry and waited until he nodded his
head. "Promise me to talk to me when you want to tell me something. I will
listen. I know this life I have is a hard one. I know it can be
overwhelming some time. I just don't want you to feel like I love you less
than you love me over time. I want us to be able to tell each other what is
wrong when it is wrong. I want this to work," Brian said pulling Jerry into
a hug.

"I promise with all my heart," Jerry said, leaning forwards as the two
kissed. Kevin and I walked up to see the emotional scene and both smiled
knowing it was Brian's dream coming true.

"Well, well, well, looky what we have over there," AJ said clearing the
back curtain and standing next to Kevin and I. "Looks like we will be
having one big happy family here soon," AJ finished.

"Yeah with the exception of you and Fatima everyone is hooked up," I said
laughing at my own words since I had seen the way he looked at her earlier
today.

"Well we all have our own things going on," AJ said looking at me
grinning. Kevin tensed as Fatima walked up silently standing behind AJ
smiling with an evil grin on her face.

"AJ baby could you please go and get Nick down here so we can start. I
think I saw him coming in with Mandie in tow, just when I was coming down
here," she said in a sweet adulterate tone of voice. "Now" she finished in
her more commanding familiar voice. AJ looked like he was about to pass out
from embarrassment or maybe it was just the lack of oxygen since he was
frozen holding his breath. He had been flirting with this dangerous cat for
months unbeknownst to my knowledge. But, never the less Kevin, Fatima,
Jerry, and Brian all were laughing so hard they could hardly breath. AJ ran
up the isle to the lobby no longer shaken, only laughing at himself along
the way.

"That will teach him Fatima," Jerry said walking up with Brian. They were
holding hands, as they approach not so much in the slightest bit trying to
hide it. Fatima saw this as her chance to get at them next there was no
stopping her and he slighted humor now. I was watching I could see it
coming. Although I had only known her for a short period, I somehow could
already read her. To be honest I could already read all of them except
Howie and AJ. I mean I could generalize and read them. But I suspect that
it was because they were part of the heart of the Backstreet family. But
they still had their distance to protect for privacy's sake and that
explains my difficulty there.

"Oh, so you finally opened your eyes and heart I see," Fatima said directly
to Jerry who only stood there confused. I grinned at Brian and nodded
towards he and Jerry's interlaced hands. He immediately got the picture and
squeezed Jerry's hand.

"I.. Uh, I guess you could um...." Jerry stumbled only to be saved by
Brian. Brian raised their hand to his face and kissed the back of Jerry's
hand. There was a moment when Jerry went completely silent and looked at
Brian deep in the eyes. I could see the love building as they intently
stared at one another. Jerry turned and faced Fatima directly without
letting go of Brian's hand.

"You could assume anything you like. What I will say is my darkest dreams
are coming true," Fatima, Kevin and I were completely confused as Brian
began to laugh whole heatedly. It was good to see him so happy I never
thought it would be so soon after the way he wished for it yesterday. Most
wishes in my experience over the years never came true. But in my case, I
finally had the best wish of all standing right next to me.

"Hey, I know Brian is a nightmare to deal with some times. But, your
darkest dreams," Fatima asked turning towards the curtain and holding it
open for us.

"Pitch Black," Jerry said walking through with Brian in tow. They released
hands just as they cleared the other side.

"Straight from our hearts," Brian said turning back still laughing.

"There is something really strange going on here," I said.

"I know what you mean. Did we act like that yesterday?" Kevin asked Fatima
while he reached over to my hand.

"Worse actually," Fatima paused while in deep thought for only a
moment. "As long as their is no fire or other natural disaster today; I
don't really care," Fatima said letting go of the curtain and leaving Kevin
and I alone in the dim lighting of the back stage.

"You know we could just head out the back door over there and um go cuddle
up for a while away from everything. Just the two of us with no
distractions," Kevin said grinning while leaning on my forehead with his.

"You know you could be even worse by taking me in your arms right here and
now kissing me and telling me how you love me," I said grinning at him.

"To truly tell you I love you," Kevin said wrapping his arms around me,
making feeling his entire body as it pressed against mine. This sent shock
waves of adrenaline though me. "I would have to have you for a lifetime to
express how I truly feel," he said kissing me. Our lips brushed closely as
they always had before but the passion and the energy that I felt in such a
brief moment was overwhelming. His warmth his depth he heart flowed through
my soul as I realized the truth in his words. I pressed my tongue forwards
slowly as he moaned opening his mouth to me. There was no struggle, no war
of passion, just our moment of freedom and expression as we slowly worked
the kiss into love and life.

"Excuse me but we could use the two of you upstage here with everyone
else," Jeff said laughing. Kevin and I did not quickly break the kiss. We
had become engrossed but not ashamed of how we felt. We broke apart never
removing our eyes from one another until I began to reply to Jeff's
request.

"Just a minute we have to finish this first. He was just showing me the
meaning of love," I replied in sappy tone.

"If you don't get up here Fatima is going to show you the meaning of whoop
ass," Nick said appearing out of no where next to Jeff who drooped the
curtain leaving us to ourselves for a brief moment longer.

"We better go out there you know," Kevin asked looking deep into my soul.

"I know but I would rather stay here with you... alone... in the... dark,"
I said snuggling into his shoulder. I was being way too cute for words and
I knew it would never work. I just never expected his reaction.

"You me alone in the dark? What should we do?" Kevin said kissing my neck.

"Stop before we get caught by Fatima since she is looking through the
curtain at us," I said, knowing she wasn't. But, Kevin not knowing jumped
away from me instantly trying to compose himself immediately. I was
laughing lightly to myself and he saw it in my eyes as he swiftly moved
close into me again.

"From now on I am going to finish everything I start with you," Kevin said
kissing my awaiting lips. Soon enough though Fatima did stick her head
through the opening and cleared her throat.

"Fatima I tried to stop him," I said as Kevin ignored me and continued to
kiss down my chin to my Adams apple.

"That won't work so easily this time," Kevin growled as he licked and
caressed my throat.

"Kevin Scott Richardson!" Fatima shouted sending everyone into a fit of
laughter just on the other side of the curtain. Kevin immediately pulled
clear of my neck and frowned at me.

"Don't look at me. I tried to warn you," I said innocently as I kissed him
quickly on the lips and jogged towards the curtain.

"But I like to look at you," Kevin whined laughing as he turned around and
followed me onto the main stage.

I noticed immediate that we were not alone. Not only had the dancers shown
up but also on stage with all of us looking out at them was a young
girl. He blond hair was about the same shade as Brian's. I looked her over
with the intent to figure out who she was just as I was trying to look away
I got caught. He eyes met mine showing me nothing but hate. Nick took her
hand in his and squeezed gently letting her know he was there. Still
nothing changed in her eyes, as her contempt was apparent to me.

"You must be the new guy?" She said approaching me. I grinned at her as
Kevin held his hand up to her.

"Not now Mandie," Kevin said.

"So you're Mandy I said sticking out my right hand to greet her," I said
watching her eyes turn to anger.

"You can pull you hand back I wont be shaking it today or any other day,"
Mandie said confusing me completely.

"What the hell did I do to you?" I asked, crossing my arms across my chest
closing off any possibility of her thinking there was a chance in hell I
was now going to be nice.

"It's not what you did per say. It's the threat you pose to my Nicky,"
Mandie said in a condescending tone of voice.

To be continued.

I know this one is short. But lets take a look at what you all have learned
so far.

1. 	Kevin is gay and loves restaurant fights.
2. 	Fires can be dangerous to Boy bands.
3. 	Manerva is a total bitch.
4. 	Michael has a brother that is married and BI-sexual who is with a
	male partner as well. 
5. 	AJ Likes Fatima? OMG!
6. 	Brian and Nick have a weird friendship over all...
7. 	Nick and Nurses don't mix well.
8. 	Is Mandie a total Bitch?
9. 	Is Kevin going to get pushed out of the closet by Manerva?
10. 	Is Fatima going to give in to AJ..?

8-10 All coming up in future installments.

Oh and my favorite Kevin's gonna get some!

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