Date: Mon, 05 Nov 2001 05:28:27 +0000
From: Suma L <sumacumlaude@hotmail.com>
Subject: Double Jointed Delay

Dear fans or readers of my stories Double Jointed or Pinball Wizard...
hell...  even The Beauty..

I don't know when I will post next. But it will be delayed. How long? I
have no idea.  Things are going really bad for me right now, and I'm not
sure if they're ever going to get any better. My own best friend, the one I
thought I could count on more than anything, told me tonight that he was no
longer my friend. He wants nothing to do with me.. I don't.. understand.  I
dropped out of school, and started an alternative program that will get me
out faster. It's like, classes, minus the teachers, so everything is
accelerated... but... it's like no one supports me on this.. I've always
done everything to make people happy, and it's not good enough.. It's NEVER
good enough...

I have to go now, but I just wanted to write and tell you all that it may
be long before I post another chapter. But I will.  Just...  not...  now...
And I leave you with a poem I wrote last night..  somewhere in my mass
confusion fighting with my ex boyfriend... So.. till next time...

---Love,

-Sum<3

sumacumlaude@hotmail.com

~Flow~

What once was beauty and is now pain
Causes bursts within my veins
Hate and anger spark to splice
The peaceful path that flowed so nice

When the morning is finally around
Rays of light hit the ground
That which doesn't kill will justly stay
Creating hurt within the day

And as the pain still lingers
Blood does trickle down my fingers
As this story not yet done
Makes this person a solitary one

In the end when all is dead
No feelings of warmth will yet spread
Hate will return with vicious flurry
Red returns to eyes in such fury

Nothing is as ever was
But blood will flow as always does
And feeling release may cause this
Knowing pure and true eutopian bliss

Copyright 2001 - Sum L.