Date: Sun, 10 Oct 1999 19:04:00 +1000
From: Jason <sheragem@ite.net>
Subject: "Finding Love" Part 5 By: Jinray

Okay. Heres the next part of the story. This story is completely from my
imagination and fantasies, and in no way implies that anyone is gay. On with
the show......


"Finding Love" Part5
By: Jinray


      After everything cooled down, everyone went to their rooms to get
packed. We were leaving for Orlando in the morning. After packing we went to
dinner. We hardly spoke to each other the whole time. I guess the guys were
still a little mad; Brian didn't even make eye contact with me. The silent
tension was just so uncomfortable that I had to run to the bathroom, Kevin
immediately got up and followed me.

" Kev, I'm sorry but I just couldn't stand the tension anymore."

" I know what you mean. I've never seen the guys this angry. I thought the
forgave us."

" Let's just ignore them. It was a joke and we already apologized. There's
nothing else we can do. They'll come around. Okay" Kevin assured me.

Kevin and I walked out and sat back down in our seats. The food came and
everyone was already eating. The guys still didn't say anything. Kevin saw
that I looked sad. So he started to talk to me. He made all kinds of jokes
and asked questions about myself. After a while I just pretended the other
guys weren't there and had a really good time talking with Kevin. On the way
out Brian grabbed my hand and pulled me to the side.

" We need to talk okay." He whispered to me. I just nodded. He told the
others to go on ahead without us, and that we were going for a walk.

      Brian and I walked in silence. He walked into a small cafe, I just
followed him in.

" Look Jason i'm sorry for ignoring you. I was just a little mad at you I
guess." Brian said as we sat in the corner.

" Bri I said I was sorry. It was just a joke. If I knew you guys were going
to be this upset, I wouldn't have done it." I said looking straight in his
eyes.

" I know. Let's just forget it ever happened.Okay." I nodded

" Good. Now give me a smile." " That's better, you look so cute when you
smile." I blushed a little.

We walked back to the hotel and went to our room.

" We should get some sleep. Were leaving early in the morning." Brian said.
We each took a shower( separately ) and went to bed.

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The next morning.
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      I awoke. Brian was still sleeping. I have always been a morning
person, so naturally I wanted to get up. But the big oaf had his arms
wrapped around me. I thought that maybe he would wake up, knowing that we
had to leave for the airport at eight. I glanced at the clock and it was
still six, so I decided to let him sleep more. It was really difficult
removing Brian's arms from me without waking him up, but I managed. I
showered and packed the rest of my stuff. It was still 6:45 and I couldn't
just sit there until eight rolled around. So, I left the room and decided to
go for a short walk around the hotel. While passing by Kevin's room I heard
noise. 'Maybe Kevs up' I thought. But I didn't want to bother him so I kept
walking to the elevators.

" Jay?" Kevin called.I turned around to see Kevin.

" Hey. Good Morning Kev." Kevin walked over and got in the elavator with me.

" Didn't know you were a morning person too." I said

" Always have been. Where you goin'?"

" Just for a walk. To kill time."

" Mind if I join you?" Kevin asked.

" Not at all." I smiled at Kevin.

We got of the elevator and Kevin went straight to the counter. He informed
the lady there to tell the guys that we went for a walk and will be right
back. Kevin and I walked for a few minutes, when our stomachs led us to a
small cafe.

" So, excited about going to Orlando?"

" Oh yeah. I've always wanted to go their. I've never been to Disney World
so I have to see it atleast once." I explained excitedly.

" You'll love it. Hey, maybe we could take you there when we get home."
Kevin said

" Really??"

" Sure. It'll be fun." Kevin smiled. I just knew that Kevin and I were going
to be good friends.

" Oh shit!! We better get our butts back to the hotel. It's already 7: 40."
Kevin yelled. We ran really, really fast back to the hotel. The guys were
already in the lobby waiting for us.

" Why didn't you wake me! And why do you keep hanging around with Kevin?!!"
Brian yelled at me. I just stood there speechless. He walked straight out
and into the awaiting limo. He even left his bags on the ground. Howie
laughed out loud and ran into the limo. I was just totally shocked. I picked
up Brian's bags and walked to the limo. After placing them in the trunk I
entered the limo. I was so confused. 'Why was Brian so mad?' I thought the
whole way to the airport.

      We arrived at the airport and got out of the limo. Brian got his bags
out and threw them on the ground next to me. Kevin just shook his head. I
picked it up and followed the guys in. We boarded the plane and sat at our
seats. Brian just stared out the window. I didn't bother to say anything to
anyone. When we finally landed and got off the plane, Brian threw me his
bags again.Tears formed at the corners of my eyes, but I quickly wiped them
away.

      We all piled in the limo again and drove towards the guys house. Once
there, everyone got into their own cars and drove their separate ways.
Brian, Kevin, and I were left by ourselves. I carried Brian's bags in. Brian
went straight to his room and closed the door. Kevin shook his head again.

" Are you okay Jay?" Kevin asked

" Yeah, I'm fine. Confused but fine." I replied looking at the ground.

" Jay i'm sorry but I don't think today would be a good day to go to Disney
World."
I just nodded.

      Kevin leftto take care of some business. I just fell asleep on the
couch, I didn't want to bother Brian. I slept the whole day and finally woke
up around five in the afternoon. I decided on taking a shower. There was a
problem, I couldn't find my bags. I looked all around like a mad man, but
still couldn't find it anywhere. I sat back on the couch. The stress fulness
of the day overwhelmed me and I started to softly cry. Just then, Kevin
walked in.

" Jay what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Kevin asked while sitting next to
me.

" Everything. Brian hates me and I left my bags at the hotel in North
Carolina." I cried loudly.

" Oh Jason. Don't worry we can have your stuff brought to us; and Brian
doesn't hate you." Kevin said as he held me.

" Your right. I know that Brian loves me." I said gathering myself.

" Tomorrow we'll go shopping for some clothes okay. My treat." Kevin said
with a smile.

" No, I will pay you back somehow." I sternly said.

" Okay, okay; but you can't stop me from treating you to lunch tomorrow."
Kevin said equally as stern.

      Kevin and I watched some TV and ordered a pizza. When it was time for
bed, I was nervous of seeing Brian. I was planning on sleeping on the couch,
but Kevin insisted that I go patch things up with Brian. We said our
goodnights to each other and went to our rooms. I slowly opened the door.
The room was really dark, so I assumed that Brian was already sleeping. I
walked over to the bed and sat on the edge.

" Brian we need to talk." I said. No answer. " Brian wake up please." Still
no answer. I turned on the lamp on the desk and saw that Brian was not
there. Where was he.
I felt so emotionally drained and needed sleep. It took a while but I cried
myself to sleep.

      In the middle of the night Brian walked into the room. Suddenly I felt
his body on top of mine. His alcohol breath completely woke me up. He
removed my boxers. I struggled but couldn't get him off me. He rolled me on
to my stomach. I was so shocked that I couldn't speak. Then, I felt a pain
like never before. Brian stuck his dick in my ass. He pumped in and out
rapidly, and shot his load in me. He then pulled out and fell asleep on the
other side of the bed. I just laid there crying. I couldn't move due to the
pain from my body and the pain from my heart. I did not sleep the whole
night, I just kept crying.

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The next morning.
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       I slowly got off the bed and put on my boxers. It was so hard to walk
because the pain was still there. I slowly walked to the bathroom and took a
shower. I thought that maybe I would feel better but I didn't, not at all. I
finished my shower and dried off. Remembering that I had nothing to wear, I
put on a robe I found hanging on the door. As I was stepping out of the
bathroom, I heard noises coming from the kitchen. I made my way down there
and saw Kevin making breakfast.

" Need some help?" Kevin jumped a little.

" Shit. You scared me."

" Sorry." I apologized.

" No problem. There's some clothes on the table for you to wear." Kevin
pointed to the clothes.

" Thanks. I'll be right back." I went to put the clothes on.

When I returned Kevin was sitting at the table eating. He looked at me and
whistled.

" Stop your making me blush." I said.

" I thought that I was going to be the one borrowing clothes from you."
Kevin laughed.

" You want some breakfast?"

" No, i'm not that hungry."

" Oh. Well i'm done. Let's go to the mall." Kevin jumped from his chair and
dragged me out the door in light speed. We hopped into his truck and drove
towards the mall.
Kevin dragged me into thousands of stores and practically bought something
from everyone.

" Kev I appreciate this and all...but how am I going to pay you back?" I
asked

" Don't you worry about it. Just have fun" Kevin demanded me.

Then, when he pulled me by the arm toward another store, I yelled in pain.

" What's wrong?"

" Nothing...i...i'm...f..fine.augh." I cried.

" No your not, let's go sit down." Kevin sternly said. He helped me walk to
a table. I started to slowly cry.

" Damn you Brian." I whispered as I sat down.

" What? What did Brian do.!?" Kevin yelled

" Nothing...B..Brian didn't do anything." Isaid in pain.

" Look Jason. I am so tired of Brian's shit. Now you better tell me now."
Kevin angrily said.

" B...B..Bri..Brian rrr....rrra..raped me." Was all I could muster out.
Kevin's jaw dropped.

" What. Oh he's going to pay. This time he's gone too far. That's the second
time."

" What! That little shit has done this before!" I yelled in anger.

" Yes, but that was a long time ago." Kevin explained. I just started to cry
again.

" H...hhh...he told me....that he was a virgin." I said between sobs.

" Oh Jason , i'm so sorry."

" Don't be! That shit head should be sorry not you. He fucking lied to me.
Kevin I can't stay in the same house with him anymore." I said looking at
the floor.

" Let's go. We'll talk about this on the way back."

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In Kevin's truck
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      " I left home to get away from my fucked up life. And now my life is
fucked up again." I said

" Look Jason. You have no money. Where are you going to go. Let me help
you." Kevin pleaded.

" Your such a good friend. Thank you."

" Where are we going?" I asked.

" To the bank. I have a lot of extra money. It's yours now, and don't argue
with me. I consider you as my brother and I love you. Were also getting you
a cell phone and a place to live. No arguments." Kevin sternly said.

" I love you too brother." I smiled. Kevin smiled too.

" Kev don't worry about me telling this to the public. I would never do that
to you guys, n...not even Brian."

" What! Don't tell me you forgive him." Kevin yelled.

" I have to, so I can move on. But, I never want to speak to him again. I
know that he was drunk when he raped me. Though, that's not an excuse I
still have to forgive him. He just really let me down." I sighed feeling the
tears form in my eyes.

" I'll always be here for you. I want you to stay here in Orlando. You have
nowhere else to go, I'll take care of you until you can get on your feet.

      We went to the bank. Kevin withdrew some cash and gave it to me. He
also got me an account and a credit card. Then, Kevin bought me a cell phone
to keep in touch with him. We stopped for lunch. After lunch Kevin got me an
apartment. He handed me the clothes he bought for me and said good-bye.

" Kev."

" Yeah?"
I ran to him and gave him a hug.

" Thanks. I'll repay you someday, and don't argue. Your the only real friend
I have. I love you."

" I love you too. Tomorrow, I have to leave to go to New York to take care
of some business. If you need help getting around check Nick. The others are
too much of jerks." Kevin said.

" Okay. Bye. Call me when you get back." I waved as he pulled out.

  I plopped down on the couch and thought about the first time I met Brian.
How he helped me during the plane ride. I got up and left the apartment.
I wasn't going to sit there and cry all day. I hailed a cab.

" Where too sir." The driver asked.

" The beach."
I thought that maybe the beach would relax me and clear my mind a little.

TBC.....................................

There. Different huh? Hope you liked it. Please e-mail me your comments and
suggestions. sheragem@ite.net