Date: Fri, 07 Apr 2000 10:50:02 PDT From: Purple Raven <purpleraven81@hotmail.com> Subject: Friends and Lovers 6 Friends and Lovers Six Disclaimers: This is not real.. Wait if you don't know this why are you still reading the story.. Okay one last time.. If you are not eighteen leave now... Homosexual content... Notes: WARNING WARNING..... Kevin is going to be hurt at some point just letting you all know now... *********************** Nick walked down the hall to his room, he stopped, turning to Howie and AJ's room, he needed to talk to Howie. He knocked on the door. "Come in" Howie called. "Hey, D can we talk?" Nick asked as he entered the room. "Sure, come here," Howie, answered pushing the wedding photos out of the way. "I'm in love." Nick blurted. "With?" "Brian." He whispered so low that Howie could hardly hear him. "Does he know?" "Yeah." "How?" "I told him." Nick replied. "How'd he take it?" "He told me that he's attracted to me, but he can't pursue it." Nick replied, he was trying so hard to hold the tears inside. "Let it go." Howie pulled the younger man into his arms, he needed the release, Nick sobbed hugging Howie. "I love him." Nick sobbed. "Let him think" Howie advised, making a mental note to have AJ talk to him, AJ had a way with people. He could get them to see all the sides. "He kissed me, really kissed me, he held my hand, and fell asleep on me." Nick rambled. "Nick I don't know what to say to you." Howie said holding him. "I can't do this." "Do what?" "Love him, it hurts to much." "Why?" "I can't have him." "Nick you are soo strong. You can survive this." "Howie it hurts." "I know, I know" Howie soothed him. They both heard the door rattle, and turned to see platinum tipped AJ walk into the room. "Like?" "No." Howie cried. "Wait, It'll grow on you." "I'll leave." Nick said whipping his eyes. AJ noticed the tears "What's wrong?" "Nothing." "Nickolas Gene Carter." "I don't want to talk about it." "You sure?" AJ asked, he knew they all did, that if he didn't want to talk then they couldn't press him. "Yeah. I'm gonna go get ready." Nick said glancing at his watch realizing that they had only twenty minutes. "See you down stairs." They called after him. AJ turned to look at him. "So?" "He's in love." "Cool. Right?" "No, he doesn't return it." "Who?" "Alex." " I know you can't tell me." "Right. Now about the hair." "Latter, grab your stuff." AJ brushed him off "Alex." "Latter, we'll talk latter I promise." AJ replied, as he headed to their bed to grab their stuff. "Grab my sandals. I'm going to wear them." Howie called. "Got em." AJ called back, walking over to him, and handing him the shoes. He pulled on his leopard print hat and signature sunglasses. Howie chuckled, pulling him down for a quick kiss, AJ played coy, until Howie pulled him in-between his legs, and grabbed his ass, tracing around his lips with his tongue. AJ moaned as he opened his mouth, Howie's tongue began to move around his, engaging him in a deep kiss. "We have to go." He said pushing AJ away and standing. "No fair. That's teasing." AJ complained, trying to readjust his pants to hide his growing erection. "We're going to be late. "Howie said pulling him out the door. ******************* The guys waited in the lobby for the happy couple to get off the elevator. Kevin and Brian were discussing the play list, as Nick sat on a couch staring off into space, behind a pair of dark sunglasses. "Sorry" AJ said as they walked up. "Let's go." Kevin said as the limo pulled up to the door, they raced through the fans. "Nick you coming?" Kevin asked, nudging his shoulder. "Yeah." Nick said standing up and heading out to the car. He climbed into the limo, and took the seat next to AJ and Howie. Sitting as far away from Brian as possible. Kevin was the last one in; he waved to the fans before the door closed. "So a five hour rehearsal, and then a hour and a half sound check." Kevin said. "Great," they all groaned and moaned. "Hey. At least Fatima is here." Kevin tried to cheer them up. "Oh great the slave driver." AJ clutched his heart, leaning on Howie. "Old me she's scary," he tired to hide against him, knocking the hat off. They all stared at him. "It'll grow on us." Howie laughed, before he went back to soothing his boyfriend. "I like her, but I promise to tell her that you had your workout for the day." "Ewww, no more details." Nick chuckled, covering his ears. "Sorry forgot little Nicky ears." AJ pulled him into his arms, leaning down to whisper in his ear "Sorry." It was for everything, and to let him know that it wasn't nice to rub it in his face that they were so happy. Nick smiled at him telling him that he was all right, shrugging his shoulders. "Okay we're here." Kevin said cheerfully trying to get everyone hyped for the torture coming. They all pilled out, and headed into the arena, quickly finding their way to the stage. "Guys over here." Fatima called from the other side. They all jogged over to her. "Hey," Nick smiled at her, nodding hopping that she would get the message, she did. Fatima was almost as close to him as Tera was. "Get your ass's over here." She pointed to their marks. "Do we have to?" AJ whined, "Yes, now get up here or I'm going to kidnap Howie." "Okay, let's go." AJ said as she finished, he was standing in his spot. For the first three hours they worked on the basic steps and then put them together, they got their break when that was done. After that, things went really well, they finished an hour early. "Go do your sound check" Fatima pushed them towards the sound people. "Fatima can we talk?" Brian asked her. "Sure have a seat. Sound?" "They aren't ready yet." "Okay, so what's up?" "Nick loves me." "I know." "You do?" "Yeah, I told him to tell you." "Why?" "It needed to be said. Brian even if you don't want to hear it, Nick needed to say it." "I know, it's just that, I'm attracted to him." "How?" "He's sexy and soo cute." "Like?" "I want to kiss him, I did." "You kissed him?" "Yeah." "So, how is he?" "Soft and nice." "No. How is he feeling?" "Not good." "Why?" "I told him I can't be with him." "Why not?" "I can't" "Tell me why you can't" "I'm Christian." "So is he, and Howie and AJ." "It's a sin." "Is it a sin to love someone?" "No." "So why is it a sin to want to be with someone?" "He's a guy." "So. Brian I love you, but if you kissed him, then rejected him, you hurt him, and that is not being a good friend." "I know, but he is really cute." "Brain you have to think. But before you do, if you were to see Nick with another guy, how would you feel?" "I'm not gay." "Really, you wanted to kiss him and did. Did you like it?" She asked, Brian nodded. "Okay, sorry this is going to shock your entire world, you are probably at least bi." "Bi?" "You are attracted to both sexes." "How would I know if I could be with Nick?" "Answer the question." "It would kill me." "There you have it." "What?" "It would kill you if he was not with you." "Yeah. Ohh." Brian said as he, realized what Fatima had just gotten him to admit. "Go find him, talk to him." Brian smiled as he ran off to find his Frack. ************************** Nick sat alone in the dark, dressing room, he asked of his own when they. The tears were falling, and he did nothing to stop them, he sat alone, crying, his heart breaking into tiny little pieces. He didn't hear the door open, or hear the footsteps; he sat in oblivion until he felt a hand on his face. "I love you." Brian whispered before he kissed him. "What?" Nick pushed him away. " I love you. I thought about it and I love you." "So?' "I want you in my life." "Why? What changed your mind?" "Fatima asked me how it would feel if you loved someone else." "And?" "It hurt, I couldn't bear it if you didn't love me." "Really?' "Nick I love you, I hope that you believe me, I'm not doing this to hurt you, it would kill me if you weren't in my life. If I couldn't hold you." Brian said, taking Nick's face in his hands, brushing his tears away. "I'm sorry," he murmured, apologizing for all the pain that he caused. "You love me, that makes it all better." Nick assured him, pulling him into a hug. "Can I kiss you?" Brian asked. He looked at him shyly. "Yes." Nick replied pulling him into a kiss. They kissed chastely at first then more and more passionately. Nick let Brian control this, as he knew that his friend was still unsure of what was supposed to happen. "Nick have you seen Brian?" Kevin opened the door, stopping as he saw his cousin kissing the youngest member of the group. "Hurry up you to." Kevin said turning to leave. "Kevin you are okay with this?" Brian's question stopped him. "Do you care about each other?" "Yes." They replied. "Then it's fine." "Kevin?" Brian asked. "Brian it was a shock seeing you kissing Nick, but come on even I can see the love there." Kevin smiled at them. They rushed off to sound check, holding hands. "Guys you're holding hands" AJ said as he noticed them, Howie elbowed him, looking at Nick and then back at his husband raising his eyebrow. "Oh. Cool guys." AJ smiled at them, the sound check went off with out a hitch, and they were let go. "Food." Nick said holding his stomach. They all laughed, Brian smiled at him, and grabbed his hand. He was hungry to. "Let's go eat," he said, the other three agreed. **************************** The end for now..... Raven. comments welcome. purpleraven81@hotmail.com