Date: Wed, 20 Jun 2001 11:49:40 -0700 (PDT)
From: Mel J <melanjea_bsb@yahoo.com>
Subject: Full Circle-Chapter 4

Disclaimer!!! This is fiction and has no reflection on
Nysnc's sexuality or sexual preference.
  I hope you are enjoying this story.. I am having fun
writing it.. feedback always welcome!!-Mel


Full Circle-Chapter 4
By Mel
2001


    They wasted no time getting to the hospital and
Joey and Justin filled Jc in on the way. They knew
they couldnt keep it a secret any longer, not if they
had any hope of saving Chris.
  Jc was white by the time they got to the hospital.
They all ran to the emergency room, where they found
Lance, pacing up and down the  hallway.
   "Is he ok? Where is he? Is he gonna make it?" They
all said at once and Lance had to shout to make
himself heard.
  He ignored Jc's eyes, filling them in. "They had to
pump his stomach, that much I know. I am waiting to
hear more, just like all of you." Jc nudged Justin and
Joey looked sick to his stomach.
   "Ok.. what is it you are not telling me?" Lance
asked, his green eyes narrowing. Justin looked at the
ground and Joey wouldnt meet his eyes. Finally Jc
spoke.
  "Lance. Chris has been doing cocaine."
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      Chris was in pain. Through a red haze, he could
see the nurses and doctors bustling around him. He
groaned, and was rewarded by a smile. "I see you have
decided to join us."
   Chris opened his eyes slowly, trying to sit up.
"What happened?" he croaked. The nurse gave him water,
then the doctor spoke. "You Od on cocaine. You are
lucky to be alive."
    Chris sank back against the sheets. Oh dear god.
"My friends?" he asked. He knew they must know by now,
and he could feel his cheeks get red with shame. "They
are outside. They are very concerned about you."
    Chris nodded and took a deep breath.
    Lance was first. Chris met his eyes, scared at
what he might find there. "You almost died. Dont EVER
do that to me again."
   Chris nodded, a tear falling down his face. "I am
so sorry Lance, help me."
   "We will, we will."
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Justin and Joey sat together, talking softly, while Jc
took Lance's spot, pacing up and down the hallway. He
couldnt believe he had been so involved with Lance
that he had missed all the signs.
   Involved with a man who obviously didnt love him.
He ignored the voice in his head that kept remembering
that Lance had called him baby.
    It was safer that way. Besides, Chris was going to
need all of their time and support to get through all
of this. That is when he made the decision to let
Lance go.
   He didnt know how hard that was going to be, but he
knew he had to try. For the sake of the group. Or at
least that is what he told himself.
    Justin shook. This was all his fault. If he had
told the others sooner, this wouldnt have happened.
Joey knew instinctivly what his boyfriend was
thinking, and put his arm around him.
   "Its not your fault. I am surprised it didnt happen
sooner, its obvious Chris has been taking this shit
for months."
   Justin looked up, tears streaking his handsome
face. "Do you really believe that?" He whispered, his
eyes full of torment.
  "Yes, Just, I do." Joey said, and pulled him into a
bone crushing hug.
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  It was Justin's turn next. He couldnt believe how
white and frail his friend looked. "I am so sorry
Chris." were the first words out of his mouth. Chris
stared at Justin's tear streaked face in shock.
   "This is not your fault. This is mine." he said,
for the first time taking full responsibility for his
actions.
    Justin couldnt believe that Chris didnt blame him.
"I am gonna need your help if I am going to get over
this." His friend continued, grasping Justin's hand.
Justin nodded. He couldnt seem to bring himself to
speak, as if he did, Chris would disappear.
    Chris seemed to understand. They sat there for a
few minutes, not saying anything just holding hands.
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When it was Joey's turn, Lance and Jc did their best
to keep thier distance, deliberatly keeping their
thoughts on Chris.
   Justin went to go call Chris' mother, knowing it
had to be done. "you know we have to keep this quiet,
and get him help." Lance finally said, breaking the
uneasy silence. Jc nodded.
   "I know. I cant believe I didnt see the signs." He
admitted, running a nervous hand through his hair.
 "Me either." Lance agreed, trying not to notice the
way Jc's body moved. "Look, I am sorry." He said,
finally looking Jc in the eyes.
   Jc forced himself to hide the burst of emotion that
he felt just looking at his bandmate.
  "No harm done. Let's just put our... behind us" he
said, faltering over the words. Lance came over and
sat down beside him. "Friends again?" he smiled,
pushing his feelings down where they couldnt be seen.
    "of course" Jc replied, hugging him. As soon as
his body touched Lance's he felt the electric current
between them flair. He felt Lance stiffen, then melt
against him.  Neither one planned what
followed...tbc...