Date: Tue, 23 Jan 2001 02:27:39 EST
From: Angel36745@aol.com
Subject: Gemini2

  Disclaimer: I do not know the BSB nor have I ever met them in
person. This is just a story something I made up in my own little world. In
other words it's not real in anyway. ok now that that's over with on to
more important stuff.

  Warning: Like so many of my other stories I have no clue where I'm going
with this. Ok I've failed but I'm not taking it to the max. But I'm not
making promises so this really is a warning. There might be sex in this
story I don't know yet. You've been warned, oh and it's a little sad.

  Authors note: Ok I love these don't you? And yes I lost my mind, it was
really easy. So if you find it, tell me I could use it. OK these *** mean a
character change in the story. A name will follow the little symbols or
will be in the middle of the symbols. I'll try not to jump around to much,
no promises there either. Ok for those of you that are still upset with me
over Broken, I'm sorry. So please quit yelling at me, I know it was a
little sad. I promise I'll try to give this one a happy ending, notice I
said try. Anyway on with the story, oh and if you feel like it mail me with
your thoughts.

  I added a song to this chapter so I have write another disclaimer. The
song is If You Sleep it's not mine in anyway shape or form. It's on the
Here On Earth sound track and it's performed by Tal Bachman, he also wrote
it. I think I've spelled everything right and got all the words right. Some
of them are a little hard to understand so please don't get mad.

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***Chris***

  I found out an hour and twisted arm later that Jessie had freaked them
out. He had told them right when I was at the door that I was to come
in. To say the least I wasn't happy with him at all. He had used that bound
we had in the wrong way, he invaded my space. Most people didn't understand
it and called us freaks. It was how sang it was our secret it wasn't like
he could read my mind. I couldn't read his so I knew it didn't go that
deep, but I could feel him. The further away we got from one another the
weaker the bound. To say the least we never really stayed to far apart. One
time he had flown to New York by himself to handle something with our
single. That's when we found out after a hundred miles we couldn't feel
each other. I had almost had a heart attack, I thought that he was
dead. Twenty minutes later he called thinking the same thing had happened
to me. It was also the first time we had ever been completely alone. There
had always been something there, but at that time there wasn't. I had
enjoyed the time so much, it freed me feel whatever I wanted. Then it
started to get to me, when you live your life with someone always
there. Then that person is gone all together, it messes with your mind. By
the time I could feel him again, I knew that he had been feeling the same
thing.

  And now we stood before new friends, and they knew. "I swear it wasn't my
fault it was Kevin's. He said that if I could prove it to him he would make
sure we were the opening act. I had to Chris, it's all we have now." I let
him go and just looked at him, he had broken his word. We had promised to
never tell anyone about the true bound we shared. I walked to the table and
sat down, I refused to run off again. All of the guys stood a little bit
away from us. None of them had gotten in my way when I had started fighting
with Jessie. It wasn't really a fight, just us rolling on the floor until I
had his arm behind his back. I looked at each of the Backstreet Boys and
tried to see what they were feeling. "It's a twin thing, almost all twins
have some version of it." I tried to keep my voice from cracking but it
didn't work. I was starting to get upset, they looked at us like we were
freaks. "Come on Jess, let's leave these guys alone." Jessie nodded and
followed me out of the room. I had thought them better than that, at least
Nick. I walked into our room and told Jessie to get dressed. I put what
clothes we had out back in our bags. After Jessie was dressed we headed
out, Jessie looked really down. "I'm sorry Chris I didn't mean for that to
happen." I sighed and looked at him, he was really down.

  We sat in the lobby for a while it wasn't like we had somewhere to
go. "It's ok Jess, really man you didn't know. I just got to think of a
place to go, maybe Jason will let us stay with him." Jessie was nodding
slightly, I could feel how upset he was. "Where are you two going, we have
to sign contracts in an hour." I looked up at Brian, he looked really
confused. "We thought you didn't want us after the mind thing." He started
laughing at us and shook his head. "It's a little freaky but we keep our
word. Plus you can't read our minds, so it's cool, you can't read our minds
can you?" He looked like he was worried for a few seconds. "No, we can't
read minds, we don't read each others either." He smiled and wiped the
sweat off his forehead. "It's more of a we know what each other is feeling
kinda thing. And it get stronger the closer we are to one another. So he
knew when I was outside the door because the bound got stronger." Brian was
nodding and smiling brightly. "So you know when the other is having sex,
damn that would come in useful." If I had been drinking something I would
have choked on it or spit it everywhere. Jessie smiled sweetly and put his
arm around Brian's shoulder.

  I still couldn't speak much less move, how could he ask that. "I can tell
you stories Brian, you wouldn't believe." I tackled Jessie the floor and
held him there. "Your not telling anyone about anything, at least not my
sex life." He smiled and I tried to move fast enough to cover his
mouth. "What sex life, you haven't even had sex, you came close but no
cigar." I was once again shocked with him how could he say that about me. I
stood up grabbed my bags and stormed off, back to my room. I heard a lot of
laughter behind me. I hit the button and watch the doors to the elevator
close. I stormed past Kevin and went into my room. "Wait up Chris, what's
wrong man?" I stopped he knew who I was, it made my heart do back
flips. "It's nothing Kevin I'm sure Brian and Jessie will tell you when
they get up here." I went to close my door and Kevin stopped me and
smiled. "I'm sorry Chris really I am, if you need someone to talk I'm down
the hall." I looked at him, why was he sorry, he hadn't done anything. "I
don't understand what there is to talk about." It sounded a little colder
than I had wanted it to.  "Well, there is the small fact that Brian and
Jessie are now dating." My jaw dropped open and I could talk.

  I almost fell down when those words left his mouth. He wrapped his arms
around me and helped me to my bed. "When did that happen, I didn't know
Brian was gay?" Kevin's eyes got really wide and I caught him from falling
this time. "You mean that's not what you were upset about?" I shook my
head, and then it hit me. "Oh my God I'm so sorry Kevin, I was upset
because Jessie told Brian I was a virgin." My hand flew over my mouth the
second the words left my mouth. Kevin took a deep breath and looked at me
slowly. "Your a virgin, but you had a boyfriend for so long. I just thought
that you had already taken the plunge." I looked at Kevin who had just
managed to piss me off. "For one I don't see there being a problem with me
being a virgin. Two I was in love not lust there is a huge difference." I
jumped off the bed and stormed out of my room. I saw Nick in the hallway
and decided I would talk to him. I walked up to him and looked into his
eyes. "Could we talk in your room please?" He smiled at me and opened his
door pulling me in. "Sure so what's up?" He was so cute but I was still to
angry to notice that second. "I just needed some time away from everyone
else and you looked like my best bet." He smiled at me and wrapped his arm
around my should and led me to the bed.

  I talked with him for a while just venting. He was such a good listener,
I just hoped he knew who I was. "Damn I'm sorry to hear all that Chris,
Kevin didn't mean to hurt your feelings. I'm sure it's just a shock to
hear, I mean look at yourself. Your a hottie and any guy would be lucky to
get you. It's just even I would have never thought you were a virgin. Not
that it's a bad thing, in fact it's a huge turn on." I laughed at him, at
least he didn't make it sound bad like Kevin had. "I got to jet, I'm going
to go take a nap and listen to some music." Nick smiled at me and then
hugged me tightly. I liked the feel of his body against mine. I pulled away
slowly, I had almost kissed his cheek. I stood and left the room and
returned to mine. I locked the door behind me and turned the radio on. I
was starting to fall asleep when the worst song that could come on did.

Think your out to find perfection No ones loved with more affection Soul to
soul we breathe Oh I won't let fate succeed

Worried eyes of contemplation Whispered bit's of conversion I'm afraid to
go to leave Our disinfected rooms and hallways

And if you sleep you sleep with God And if I cry I cry it's for my heart
Why should I hope to make it threw Cause if you sleep I'll sleep to

Jagged thorns and pretty petals Butterflies and stinging meadows Sunny days
and nights of blackness Where's the joy to cure my sadness

And if you sleep you sleep with God And if I cry it's for my heart Why
should I hope to make it threw Cause if you sleep I'll sleep to

Cleaning cars and covered faces Teary eyes and hollow places Cross and
granted stone No ones been more all alone

And if you sleep you sleep with God And if I cry it's for my heart Why
should I hope to make it threw Cause if you sleep I'll sleep to

Why should I hope to make it threw Cause if you sleep I'll sleep to

  I hadn't been able to turn the radio off, it had frozen me. "That was If
You Sleep, By Tal Bachman." I turned the radio off and walked to the
bathroom. I closed and locked the door soundly. I sank to the floor and
cry, it was like losing Jake all over again. It was the same song I had
been listening to when I had gotten the news. I heard someone beating on
the door to the room. I didn't want to answer it so I didn't, I just let
myself get lost in my own world. We had planned everything in our lives
together, we even had a song. That song had just played on the radio, I had
played it at his funeral. Now whoever was beating on the front door was
beating on the bathroom door. "Chris let me in man, you know better than
this." I looked at my hands and then to the mirror, it would be so easy. I
could just go to sleep to, it would all end. "It's ok Jessie, really it is,
I'm just a little tired." I slowly stood up and opened the door he looked
pretty bad. Brian was right beside him along with Nick. I wondered when
they had joined forces, I shrugged. I moved past them slowly and walked to
the bed. I fell on the bed and started crying again, no one heard me. I was
sure the Jessie knew what was happening, but that didn't matter.

  I woke up with Kevin standing over me smiling. "I got the contracts and
you have to sign here, and here." I looked at the contracts and started
reading. I was having a bit of a hard time, so I grabbed my glasses. I
looked the papers over and saw that Jessie had already signed it. I took my
time which for some odd reason impressed Kevin. After I was happy with what
it said I signed. I handed them back to Kevin and smiled at him he was nice
looking. "I'm really sorry about what happened this morning. It's just that
I don't really know a guy that's a virgin. It's not like I think it's a bad
thing, it's just so cool. Your the only guy I know that's got those kind of
balls." He was trying really hard to get me to forgive him. I sat up and
pulled him into my arms and hugged him tightly. "It's cool man, I'm sure
you straight guys don't get it." He laughed and left the room slowly, he
had poked me with something. I was to tired to think about it now, maybe
I'd find out later. I woke up two hours later, I felt a lot better. I got
up from bed and took a shower, then got dressed. I didn't know what time it
was, but I didn't really check either. Jessie was no where to be found. I
knew he was close, but where I had no idea until I felt this huge amount of
release. I had felt it before and knew what it was, he was getting a blow
job.

  I leaned against the wall for a little bit, it was almost like it was
happening to me. I closed my eyes and let myself ride it for a
while. "Chris are you ok, you look a little out of it." I looked up at
Kevin and smiled like a little kid. "Trust me I'm fine, in fact I feel like
I'm on top of the world." He had this strange smile while he walked toward
me. "Your glowing, well not glowing, but I could swear you have a look in
your eyes. You said you were a virgin, but right now you look like your
recovering from an orgasm." I almost laughed he had hit it dead center. "I
didn't but Jessie did, I wonder who he's with right now?" Kevin had this
really weird look coming over his face. "You mean you can that? Like
whenever the other, whenever they cum?" I thought it was cute that he was
trying so hard to sound his age. "Yes, it can be really helpful in times of
crisis, there have been times. Where I really wanted to go out and hop in
bed with the first person I saw. Then Jessie would go out and have his fun
and I wouldn't worry anymore." I was now pulling myself back together
enough to stand up straight. "I feel better now, so want to hit a club?"
Kevin smiled and nodded and off went together. I took him to some of the
boring clubs, it wasn't like I could just take him to a gay club. "Let's
hit that one over there it look's really cool" I looked at it and knew
instantly it was a gay club. The music kicked ass and you could dance to
it. Plus I had pretty much lived there back in the day.

  I looked at Kevin and patted his back shaking my head. "Kev, I don't
think your going to find a girl in there." He smiled at me and started
laughing really hard. "Who said I was looking for a girl?" It took a few
seconds for what he said to hit me. "So your telling me that your gay?" He
nodded and continued to smile at me brightly. "Ok mind telling me why you
couldn't have said something sooner?" He started laughing again, he shook
his head and looked back at me. "You never asked, if you would have I would
have told you." Then he reached over and kissed me lightly on the
lips. Then it hit me again but not as strong this time. My brother was at
it again, but something was different. He was in pain and pleasure, the
pain was leaving but it was still there. I was kissing Kevin I didn't even
know that I had been doing so. I pulled away and looked into his eyes, I
wasn't ready for this. "I'm sorry Kev, I can't man I'm really sorry." I
jumped out of the car and started running. He'd be able to get back to the
hotel, that shouldn't be a problem. I had to think and there was only one
place I could go. I ran for what seemed like forever, it was hard. I was
still feeling my brother, it was driving me wild wanting something. I
jumped the fence to the grave yard. I ran up to Jack's gave and sat beside
it for a while. I just looked at the head stone and cried.

  I woke up with someone shaking me gently. The sun was coming up and it
was really cold. I looked up to see a nice old man starring at me, he was
smiling. "Are you all right son, how long have to been here?" I looked
around then remembered the night before and started crying again. "All
night, it's the only place I have left, I'm sorry sir." I stood up and
moved away, he put his hand on my shoulder. "You look like you could use
some coffee. Come with me and I'll get you some." I nodded and followed him
to a building. I walked in and noticed it was a church of some sort. I
didn't belong here, their bible said I was a sin. I then noticed the white
band that went around his neck. "Father I don't belong, I'm sorry for even
walking in the doors." I turned to leave and again his hand was on my
shoulder. "Nonsense everyone belongs here one way or another. Maybe not
this church but one or another. If you believe in God then you belong here,
if you don't then you really need to be here." I looked at him and smiled
he was really trying to be nice. "Father I believe in God, but I don't
think he would want me in his house." His eyes seemed to fill with worry
and sadness. "God loves all of his children regardless of what people
think. It doesn't matter what color your skin is or who you sleep with. Be
it a woman or a man, if it's done in love then it's done with his grace." I
had tears streaming down my face.

  He hugged me a man of the cloth, someone that I was told would hate
me. "Now let's get you some coffee and we'll have a nice little talk." I
followed him into his office and he made a pot of coffee. After drinking
two cups I noticed that he was watching me. He was waiting for me to tell
him my problems so he could help. "I while back I lost the man I loved to a
car accident. That was his grave I had fallen asleep on, he was my world. I
thought I would always have him with me. Last night another man kissed me
and I felt like I had betrayed him. He was better than I was and he always
will be, he deserved better. I keep thinking that, he's looking down on me,
that he knows that I'm starting to fall again. I can't help but to think
that it's hurting him to see me with someone else. The man that kissed me
last night isn't the one I'm falling for. I felt bad that I had kissed him
back. I'm just so confused and I'm so afraid that it's hurting him in
someway." My body was being rocked by the pain. The tears fell and I
couldn't see straight, so far the man hadn't said anything. "Would this
man, the one that passed on want you to hurt?" I shook my head, Jake would
never want that. "Then why would he be in pain seeing you happy?" I didn't
understand the question, I wasn't happy.

  I looked at him he had managed to confuse me, an easy task lately. "You
loved him with all of your heart while he was alive. He loved you, but now
he is gone to a better place. I'm sure that he would want to see you happy,
that would make him happy. Don't close your heart to the world son. If you
close yourself up, it's going to hurt you in the end. Now that would hurt
this man that you love so much, he would see you in pain." I looked at him,
could he be right? Would Jake want me to move on? I had a lot of questions
to ask and more importantly. I had to call Jessie I could feel his panic
rising every second. I didn't see a phone, so I decided to walk back to the
hotel. "Thank you father, this has meant a lot to me." He nodded as I stood
up and left, it was the last time I ever saw him. I walked down the street
and felt Jessie get further and further away. I knew I was going in the
right way, I had a good sense of direction. With him panicking the way he
was, he couldn't track me down. I was starting to understand that as I
walked into the hotel. I went to the elevator and hit our floor, Jessie was
still getting further away. I pulled the key out of my pocket and opened
our door. I walked in stripped down and got into the shower.

  After I got out of the shower I laid down on my bed. I didn't worry about
getting any clothes. I just laid there and started to drift off into a
wonderful dream world. I knew that Jessie would find me, he was getting
closer ever second. Someone walked into the room and sat down beside me. I
slowly woke up thinking it was Jessie, when I vision cleared it was
Nick. "We have been looking for you all night, Jessie started freaking out
big time. Kevin came back asking if you were here, he was a mess, what
happened?" I didn't think about covering myself up. "He kissed me and it
freaked me out a little. Plus at that same moment, I felt something that
was happening to Jessie. So I went with the kiss for a second until I found
out what was happening. I pulled away and ran to Jake, I fell to sleep
there." Nick was nodding and looked like he was wanting to ask me. I nodded
toward him giving him permission to ask whatever he wanted to. "Who's Jake,
I mean you've never said any names until now?" I took a deep breath and
calmed my nerves. "Jake is the boyfriend that died in the car accident, I
went to his grave and talked to him. I know it sounds crazy, but he's all
I've ever really known. I'm so sorry I hurt Kevin, I didn't mean to. I
don't feel love toward Kevin, I feel it toward someone else." Nick nodded
and stood and moved toward the door.

  He opened the door to reveal Kevin and the rest of the guys standing
there. I don't know how much they had heard nor did I care. "It's ok Chris,
I shouldn't have kissed you. I was out of line, and I'm really sorry that I
ran you off like that." I stood up and moved toward them slowly. "No, I'm
sorry Kevin I did start to return your kiss, it wasn't really your fault."
He held his hand out and I shook it, smiling. "Well, at least I got a free
show." He shrugged and I looked down, then I ran to the bathroom. I grabbed
my robe. I walked back out blushing a little. "Oh and I'll be able to tell
you apart from now on." Nick said smiling sweetly, he took Jessie's hand in
his. I smiled warmly, I was happy for Jessie. It was just to bad that I now
had a reason to be jealous of him. I had been falling for Nick, now he was
taken. "I'm happy for you, really I am. I'm sorry I worried you Jessie,
I'll try to not run off again." I wanted to be alone for a while, I had
just lost Nick. I now knew who he had been with last night. "Well, you
won't be able to run off any more we all leave tomorrow." I looked at Kevin
and smiled warmly, nodding slowly. "I'm not feeling to well right now, so
I'm going to go back to sleep." Everyone nodded and moved away, it almost
looked like Brian wanted to say something. I closed the door before he
could.

*******Jessie

  I still couldn't believe that Chris had lost it like that. I had known he
was upset but I didn't pay any attention to it. I didn't want to think
about him, I was in pure bliss. Nick and I had gone further than I had ever
gone before. Chris was a virgin in every way, he had only ever kissed. I on
the other had done just about everything but have pure sex. I had let Nick
take my final cherry last night. It had hurt a little but there was more
pleasure than pain. Soon after we both climaxed that night, we fell to
sleep. Then Kevin was beating on our door. He had told us what that Chris
had taken off like a bat out of hell. He had also told us that it was his
fault, he was crying so hard. Then for the first time that night I had let
myself feel my brother. All I got was pure mental pain from him, he was
beyond tears. I panicked, I had let this happen, he needed me and I wasn't
there. I could have been there I could have stopped and gone after him. I
didn't I had only been thinking of myself. We had searched for the rest of
the night, I could feel the bound getting weaker. I had thought that he was
dying, on the inside at least. Then it all stopped, I couldn't feel him
anymore. I had started shaking and looking around, I drove to the grave
yard. Even now I was having a hard time connecting with him. It was like
the bound was fading.

  I knew that somehow I was to blame for this. I didn't know if he could
still feel me or not. I almost got nothing off of him, just the slightest
bit of pain. Then nothing every second it was getting weaker. The biggest
problem with all of this was I was kinda happy. I had never wanted this
before, I was happy with the connection. That was changing, I now wanted my
feeling to be private. Now Chris had closed the door on us, he was gone. I
didn't feel anything coming from him and I was happy. I took Nick's hand
and slowly walked toward his room with him. I saw Brian standing at our
door with the saddest look on his face. Everyone else had gone their
separate ways, but still Brian remained. I turned back to Nick and walked
into our room, I had some plans in mind. Once the door was closed I pulled
him into a deep kiss. I let my hands slide up his back pulling his shirt up
as I did. I broke the kiss long enough to remove his and my shirt. I then
pulled him back into my embrace. His hand's were like magic, where ever
they touched it was like lighting striking. I pulled him on top of me as I
fell onto the bed. I unbuttoned his pants and slid them down slowly. He
kicked them off once they were far enough down.

  He was pulling my pants down slowly, I lifted my waist to help him. I
then kicked them off and continued to kiss him. I gridded my cock against
his exciting a moan from him. It only turned me on more, I reached down and
gave his cock I few jerks. I turned quickly putting him under me. I left
little kisses going down his throat pausing to lick his adams apple. He
moaned and I went further down flicking my tongue against his left
nipple. I moved to the other and did the same thing again. He was breathing
deeply, his eyes closed tightly. I started kissing my way down his body
once again. I licked around his member then licked the tip of his head. I
deep throated his whole cock in one go, it wasn't all that easy. He was a
lot larger then my last boyfriend, he was at least eight. His moans were
getting louder as I bobbed my head up and down. I stopped and slid back up
his body. I placed the tip of his cock against my hole and he pushed
upward. He was his and I took a deep breath, there wasn't pain this
time. He sat up and pushed me on my back and started thrusting. I moaned
loudly as he went harder and faster, his breaths were coming quick. He
leaned down and kissed my passionately, he moaned in my mouth.

  I started ramming my hip's into him as I got my legs wrapped around his
waist. I pushed him back and now I was riding him. I rocked my body hard
and fast against his, I was getting close. I pushed my body against his
harder, I wanted him deeper in me. "I'm getting close Jess, so close." He
breathed the words out a moan soon following. I decided to send him over
the edge, I blew my load on his chest. I knew the muscles in my ass were
contracting like wild. His eye's got really wild and he started filling my
bows with his seed. I slowed down and leaned in kissing him, we were both
out of breath. I fell on top him letting his member slide out of my bows. I
rolled to my side and laid there for a short while. "That was so intense, I
have never blew like that before." I smiled at him then kissed him
sweetly. I let myself fall to sleep slowly wrapping my arms around him
pulling him against my body. I spooned him laying my head on his
shoulder. I fell to sleep shortly after, his even breathing told me he was
out. I thought I would have a good dream. I was quickly proven wrong, I saw
my brother standing before me. He had tears streaming down his face, then
he opened his shirt. He was bleeding from three different places on his
body. I tried to move toward him to help, but he faded away.

*******Brian

  I laid back on my bed and let my thoughts flow freely. I picked up my
phone and dialed Howie's number. It ringed four times before he picked up
laughing at someone. "It's your dime spill or be killed." I was a little
shocked by his new hello. "With that said I think I'll call you back later
D." I hung up the phone and started thinking about Chris. He looked so hurt
when Nick took Jessie's hand. I had wanted to hold him and tell him
everything would be ok. I wanted to kiss his lips and pull his body against
mine. I wanted to wait until he was ready, I wanted to make him happy. I
heard someone knocking on my door, so I answered it. Howie was standing
there with a frown on his face. "What's up B, you sounded a little down?" I
opened my door wider and waved him in. He took a seat on my bed and looked
at me. "I like Chris, but I don't know about how to get him. I need some
advice, something that'll blow his mind. But I want to take things really
slow, I don't want to rush him in anyway." Howie was looking at me like I
was nuts, normally I would go to Kevin. This time was different, Kevin
wanted Chris as much as I did. "Well, I would go with sending him roses, or
maybe a teddy bear." It sounded like a good idea, but I didn't want him to
know it was me.

  I took a few deep breaths, I would have to take a chance. "Thanks D, I
just hope I can get to know him a little bit better. I don't want to send
him something that may bring back a memoire that'll hurt him. So I guess
I'm going to wait a while, thanks again man." Howie looked at me and
nodded, once he was at the door he looked back. "Bri, sometimes waiting
isn't the best idea. We never know when our time is up, so don't wait to
long." Then he was gone, his words left a big weight on my heart. I didn't
really know why but they did, it was like a vision of the future. I decided
that I should go check on Chris, maybe we could get to know one another. I
walked to his door and knocked softly, no need to wake him. Seconds later
the door opened, he smiled waved me in. "What's up Bri?" I took a seat on
his bed and laid back. "Nothing just wanted to come hang out if that's ok
with you?" He smiled and laid down beside me, I could feel the heat off his
body. "It's cool, not like I got anything planned." We started talking and
before I knew it he was asleep. I was starting to get tired myself, but the
door looked so far away. I didn't think he would mind if I fell to sleep,
so I did. I woke up with his arms wrapped tightly around me. Somehow he had
managed to move us both under the covers.

  To Be Continued