Date: Sun, 7 May 2000 20:47:11 -0400
From: Christopherunknown <Christopherunknown@hotmail.com>
Subject: Hearts Combining (Chapter 3)

This story is all fiction and is not implying anything on the Backstreet
Boys, 'N sync, or anyone else mentioned in this text. If you don't approve
of gay relationships and/or are under 18 years old, please stop and leave
now. If you are over 18 (or younger with the exception of not getting
caught) and approve of homosexual types of sex and relationships then
please keep on reading.

	I would like to thank everyone who has written me about the last
couple of chapters. I would really like to thank Kenitra for all of her
help and support while I'm writing this story. Thanks a lot you have no
idea how much help you've been to me! Okay now on to the story!!!

Hearts Combining (Chapter 3)

Jen and I sat there staring into the 5000 eyes staring back at us. I was
nervous but I just wondered how the guys could do this every night. Don't
get me wrong I've been in front of large crowds before, but for some reason
I was more nervous. Was it because I had no idea what Brian had planned, or
was it the fact that most of the people were here to see my boyfriend. Jen
looked just as nervous as I was. I noticed that Jen was starring across the
stage into one of the wings. I followed her eyes to where they were
fixated. There I saw Howie and AJ blowing kisses at her then they both ran
out toward us on the stage. AJ and Howie both gave Jen a kiss on the
cheek. They then ran back off the stage. Once they were off the stage I
looked into Jen's eyes. I could not hold back anymore.

"You're in love with both of them!" I yelled.

"Yeah but they may not love me after they find out something about me!" Jen
sobbed out.

"What could be so bad that they would not love you any more?" I asked, then
I saw something that I had only seen once before in my life, and that was
with Amber! "Are you Pregnant?"

" Yeah I'm pregnant, but there's a little more to it though. And I don't
want to get into it right now." Jen said.

"Okay I won't push but I want to know!" I yelled at her just as the lights
went off and the music started.

Everybody began blaring out of the speakers. A few seconds later the guys
rose from the floor. Every time the word sexual was sung Brian would look
towards me. As the song ended, Nick walked over to Jen and asked her
something with her nodding her head in agreement. Nick disappeared
backstage, and then reappeared with Jase on his shoulders.

"Excuse me everyone! I would like to introduce the sixth Backstreet
boy. This is Jase and he and his father are good friends of ours." AJ
said. Brian ran over to me and pulled me up to him.

"Okay everyone this is Chris and Jen. Chris is Jase's father and my best
friend." Brian said still with his arm around my shoulder.

"The reason they're up here on stage is because they did something that
many would not have done. They gave up front row seats for lawn, just so
that a little boy could see the show. So we would like to help the little
boy see a little bit better." Kevin said as AJ and Howie jumped off the
stage and ran towards the women I had pointed out earlier.

"Okay everyone, are you ready to PARTY!" AJ yelled as he and Howie walked
back on stage with the woman and her son in tow.

******************** The concert was great! Brian had pulled all of us on
stage a couple of times, but nothing to long. Right before intermission
started, I had snuck backstage while the guys were changing. I walked into
their dressing room without anyone noticing. Brian was the only one still
changing, when I quietly opened the door and peeked in. Kevin saw me and
quickly moved the guys out of the dressing room. I tiptoed over to where
Brian was hopping around with one leg in his pants trying to get the other
in and a shirt covering his face. He was mumbling under his breath about
how he hated the person who designed these clothes. I was standing right
behind him staring at his silk boxer covered butt, god I was staring at a
slice of heaven. Brian started falling backwards, and without even
thinking, I put a hand on his back and, of all places, one on his
butt. Brian jumped, then he relaxed and moaned. I thought I heard him moan
Kevin's name, but I quickly dismissed that thought. When Brian had
stabilized himself he quickly turned around to face me. When he moved the
shirt away from his face, I could see the fear flaring in his eyes.

When I saw his eyes I rethought what I thought I had heard him moan just
moments before.

"Brian I have one question! Did you just moan Kevin's name?" I asked unsure
of how he was going to answer that and of how I was going to react to his
answer.

"Chris there is some of my life I need to tell you. But now is not the time
or place. I will tell you later though. But after I tell you everything you
may want to rethink your choice in this whole relationship deal." Brian
said as the corner of his eyes started to water up.

"Brian do you really want me to rethink everything? Well after everything
that has happened in my life, I just need someone who can be truthful to me
and can trust me with anything. Baby if it is that bad then we can work
through it, but if not then we can at least say we tried." I said staring
deep into his soul.

"Chris its not that we can't work it out, its that I feel that you would be
disgusted by it! I will tell you later when we are completely alone and not
so rushed. I need to get out there before we start again. Why did you come
back here?" Brian asked.

"Well I came back here to tell you that I was going to head to the
hotel. That way I won't be stuck in traffic later. I'm going to drag Jen
back with me." I said

"Can I bring Jase back when we get done? He is loving being on stage!"

"Yeah he can stay, but if he acts up then call me!! Then I'll have to beat
the...." Brian interrupted me.

"He'll be fine! Don't worry! We have 15,000 people around here if something
happens!" Brian joked.

"Okay I'm really not so sure about it now! But I trust you! And do know
that Amanda is here somewhere."

"Okay I'll see you in a couple of hours. I love you." Brian said as he
kissed me. The kiss was passionate but not forceful. The kiss showed the
meaning to his earlier statement. I slowly moved away, keeping my eyes
shut.

"Brian, baby, I love you!" I said with my arms still around his neck.

"Baby I gotta go! I'll call you before we leave." Brian said as he ran out
the door.

I found Jen and hauled her off the stage kicking and screaming. As we
walked out I stopped and bought five pictures from a souvenir stand. The
ride to the hotel was the usual argument about who had the cutest butt out
of the whole world. And sorry to say for Brian, Kevin won that one hands
down! I stayed away from any talk about her being pregnant because I knew
that she would eventually tell me everything.

When we pulled into the parking lot of the hotel I saw James, the big black
security guard, standing by the front entrance. We walked over to him and
he stopped us once again! I was really beginning to get sick of this guy!!

"Excuse me sir, Mr. Littrell sent me to make sure you would have everything
you needed until he got back. And I would like to apologize about the
incident earlier. You don't have any idea how many people try to use the
same line you used just to get backstage!" James said as he walked us
through the front of the hotel and into the elevator.

"I understand what you're saying and I hold nothing against you for doing
you job. Are you a regular body guard for the guys?" I asked.

"Yeah actually I am. I've been with them for over four years now!" James
answered.

"Okay then, I have a feeling that you will be seeing more of us, so lets
start over again. Hi I'm Chris and this is my cousin Jen." I said pointing
toward Jen during my little introduction.

"Nice to meet you! I'm James body guard extraordinaire!" James said
offering his hand to me. I shook it but soon regretted it. I swore he could
have crushed my hand without even thinking about it.

The elevator doors opened on the guys' floor and we walked down toward
Brian's room. We thanked James and walked into the room. We sat around
talking about nothing for about an hour and a half, when both of our cell
phones rang. Jen answered hers and I answered mine.

"Hello" "Daddy!!!! Brian let me talk into the black stick thingy!!" Jase
yelled through the phone.  "Oh did he? Well I'll have to talk to him about
that now won't I young man!!" I tried to act fatherly but I just couldn't!
I loved it when Jase would call me just to tell me something that he had
done for the first time.  "Daddy Brian said that I was the new singer!!!!
Can I daddy? Can I???" Jase asked.  "I think not!! Is Brian around?" I
asked "No but Tevin is." Jase tried his hardest with names but just
couldn't get the hang of it.  "You mean Kevin?"  "Yeah."  "Let me talk to
him, Jase!" I said knowing Jase would never give up the phone until someone
would tell him to!  "Brian did it not me!!!" Kevin said laughing "Oh but
you're the adult of the group who allowed it though!! So you're still to
blame!" I joked back at him.  "Brian told me to tell you we'll be leaving
in about a half an hour! He's in the shower trying to act as if he can
sing, can you believe that. He only wishes that he could even have an
attempt to be able to sing!" Kevin joked

"Don't tell him that! You'll make him sing even more!! And heaven forbid if
he did. Okay I'll have you guys packed and ready to go by time you get
here!" I said knowing that Kevin was going to argue of it. And just as if
on cue he started arguing against it.

"Don't do that! We're big boys! Or at least some of us, but don't tell
Nick! We'll pack when we get there!!" Kevin argued.

"Okay I'll leave it for y'all to do but don't say that I didn't offer." I
said with my fingers crossed behind my back.

"Okay then I will get of here and finish getting ready. And we will see you
in less then an hour."

"Okay then Bye. Oh and tell Brian that I love him."

"Okay tell Brian that I love him okay! Talk to you later bye." Kevin said
hanging up.

I turned to Jen just as she hung up. We both looked at each other, then our
phones, and then around Brian's room. We both came to the same conclusion
at the same time. "Lets pack them!!"

We started with Brian's room, since we were already in there. He had most
of his things already packed but there were some things that needed to be
put up. After finishing up with Brian's the next room down the hall was
Nick's. OH MY GOD!! A goddamn tornado must have gone through some time
while he was here! There were clothes thrown from one end of the room to
the other. I looked at Jen and then started picking up and folding up what
looked clean and throwing what looked dirty in a pile on the floor. It
probably had taken about twenty minutes just to pack his room. After
finishing there the rest of the rooms were easy. Kevin already had most of
his things packed with just a few odds and ends laying around that didn't
take long to pick up. AJ and Howie's room was not messy nor was it as clean
as Kevin's room, but it didn't take long to clean it up. We had all of the
suitcases sitting out in the hallway from each room. Once we had finished I
call down and asked James if he could help us carry the luggage out to my
car.

James came up to the floor followed by about four bellboys. They each had
taken two suitcases leaving James and I one each to take to the car. After
we had loaded everything into my Durango, we could hear the distinct sound
of girls screaming for their favorite teen band. I gave my keys to James so
that he could move the car to where the guys could get into it easily. Jen
and I walked back through the entrance and into the elevators to the floor
that once held the guys' belongings. We both sat on the floor talking about
our favorite subject "Cute Asses".  We heard the elevator stop on the floor
and the guys walked out. Jase automatically ran to me.

"Daddy I was scared because everyone kept yelling!" Jase said as he grabbed
my leg.

"You're fine!" I said as I looked up to see the guys staring at us. "Okay
everyone check your rooms to see if we have forgotten to pack anything!" I
yelled at them.

"No you didn't!" Kevin, AJ, and Howie said at the same time and ran towards
their rooms. I looked at Jen, wondering if she had the same conversation
with AJ and Howie as I did with Kevin. The three of them quickly answered
me by running out of the rooms. "I told you not to pack my stuff. I would
have done that when I got here!" all the three of them said at the same
time. Okay question answered!

"Just check and see if we forgot anything! And that goes for you two also!"
Jen said staring at Nick and Brian.

They both saluted her and yelled, "Yes ma'am, your royal bitchiness!" and
then ran down the hall. To tell you the truth, they have more balls than I
do because I would have been bitch slapped for that.

After the guys checked their rooms, they all checked out at the front desk
and made their escape out the back and into the freedom of the weekend. On
the way to Nicole's, Jase filled me in on everything that Brian and Kevin
had allowed him to do. But I bet that they never give water guns to him
again! Brian sat up front with Jase sitting in between us with a seat belt
on that made it look as if he was tied down. Jen, Howie, AJ, and Kevin sat
in the back seat, with Nick sitting in the storage trunk with the
suitcases. When I bought this car I never thought I would be hauling this
many people! Nicole was waiting outside for us when we arrived.

I helped the guys get settled in and removed my things so there was more
room in the spare bedroom. While the guys were putting their stuff in Nic's
house, Nicole and I discussed the arrangements for tomorrow...

"Okay I'm planning on having dinner around 5 o'clock. I'll need you to
bring the guys up about 11 or 12 tomorrow so that I have enough help." I
told Nic.

"Okay I'll have them up there by then, but I want to know what you're going
to tell your mother about Brian. You know Jase is going to say something
eventually so you might as well tell her this weekend sometime." Nicole
tried to rationalize with me.

"I'll probably do it Sunday afternoon. I'll make Jen baby-sit the guys and
I'll go talk to her." I said trying to avoid the subject.

"Okay then but if you don't then I will! She needs to know!" Nicole said.

I saw Brian walking up behind Nicole saving me from anymore questioning. We
both said our good-byes and then left for home. Brian carried Jase out to
the car after a great protest from me. The discussion on the way home
turned to what they had allowed Jase to do on stage. And then how they
regretted giving him a water gun to play with on stage. The ride home
seemed so short. I was wishing that it could have lasted a little bit
longer. But a part of me wanted to hear Brian's story about earlier
tonight. As I pulled into the driveway, I noticed that my mother's car was
gone out of the drive from her house across the street.  I just shrugged it
off and went on with my life.

Brian carried Jase out of the car and up to the house. I unlocked the door
and guided Brian into Jase's room. When I had turned on the light, Brian
gasped at what he saw. All over the walls were posters of *N sync, Britney
Spears, and Christina Aguilera. Brian just stood there staring.

"Oh I see how it is! I date his father, but he doesn't even have a poster
of BSB!" Brian joked in a whispered tone.

I walked over to the closet and opened the door. On the inside of the door
was one small photograph of BSB. I stood there thinking about what I just
did. I leaned over to Brian and kissed him, then whispered....

"Hey baby at least you're in the "Closet!"" It had taken Brian a minute to
comprehend what I had just said, but when it finally clicked he just had to
comment.

"Will you be in there with me?" Brian asked

"No my new boyfriend may not like that. Come on lets go into the living
room!"

We walked into the living room. I went and started the fire while Brian
walked around looking at pictures on the walls. Brian stopped at two
pictures side-by-side.

"Chris who are the twins?" Brian asked

I turned around to find out what he was looking at.

"Brian they're not twins. The one of the left is about fifteen years older
than the one on the right." Brian stood there thinking, but seemed to be
struggling a little about the picture. "Brian, baby, the pictures are of
Jase and I. My grandmother put those up after Jase was born to prove how
much he looked like me. But after she died I never could take them down."

"Chris I'm sorry! I didn't mean to upset you." Brian said as he walked over
to me and comforted me, again!

I made Brian sit down on the couch. I just stared at the man so lovingly
staring back. My mind was racing! I needed to know what Brian was hiding,
and I think that he knew that I was trying not to say anything. Brian
looked at me and then at the floor.

"Chris about earlier, I'm sorry I hid this from you, but I have no idea how
you'll take it. I know I upset you earlier and I'm extremely sorry for it!"
Brian said as tears started to form in the corner of his eye.

I moved over to where he was and hung onto him to show him the support that
he had been showing me for the last day and a half.

"Chris I know that we've only known each other for less than two days, but
I know for a fact that I love you, but". ...Pause.... "but I also love
another! Chris I know this is wrong but I love Kevin for more than
family. I love him the same way I love you!" Brian had tears falling hard
now.

I just sat there listening. I felt hurt, betrayed, torn, but to beat all, I
felt excited, happy, loved, and a new fire lit my soul. Was this the love
and help I had been promised by Amber? Was this all Amber's work to help
find love for Jase and I?

"Brian, I love you!" I said suddenly.

"Chris you're not mad? You don't want me to leave?" Brian asked.

"Brian should I be worried about you and Kevin?" I asked.

"Not if you don't want too!" Brian said almost in a whisper.

"Brian is there something else that is suppose to go along with this?" I
asked.

"Well yes, but I don't want you to take this the wrong way! Last night when
I brought you into my room Kevin was worried that people had seen me
carrying you, but he was most worried about what would happen if you found
out about us. Well when he left, he asked me if I really and truly believed
that you were the one. I told him were and then he got the saddest look on
his face. Chris, Kevin also likes you, not as a friend but as a friend and
possibly more." Brian saddened while saying the last part.

"Brian I won't lie and say that I don't like Kevin in more ways than one,
but I won't do anything to hurt you or the guys! How do you feel about a
open relationship with Kevin?" I asked.

"Truthfully, I would love to because I love both of you. I don't know what
I would do if I had to choose between the two of you. Chris would you want
a relationship with Kevin and I?" Brian asked.

"Yes, I would! But I want to talk to Kevin and then both of you about
this. I don't want to rush into a relationship because I have more than
myself to think for. After I talk to both of you, I will talk to Jase about
Kevin, you and I about the possibility of a relationship between the two or
even three of us. But nothing will be done until after I talk to Jase about
it. I know that he likes you and Nick, but haven't had a chance to watch
him around the other guys. Tomorrow, we will see what happens. But Brian,
remember that no matter what, I still want you as my boyfriend." I said as
I grabbed Brian's hands.

"Chris no matter what I will still be your boyfriend and I will always love
you! But I'm not forcing you to do anything that...." Brian was interrupted
when Jase came running down stairs.

"Daddy, Daddy I had a bad dream!!" Jase said as he jumped into my lap
shaking and crying.

"Jase you can sleep with me tonight, okay?" I asked without even thinking
about Brian staying here.

"Daddy can I sleep with Brian too?" Jase asked. I'm beginning to believe
that he could read my mind at times.

"I don't know, you'll have to ask Brian about that!" I said looking at
Brian.

"Well since Jase wants me to then how could I resist the offer!" Brian said
picking Jase up off my lap and following me into my room.

My room has a King sized bed in the middle of the room. I could never
figure out why my grandparents had such a large bed until Jase started
sleeping with me just about every other night. Brian laid Jase down in the
center of the bed and then looked over at me for approval to get ready for
bed. I nodded and he started stripping for bed. My god I was staring at a
god! His body was completely perfect! And I could have it if I wanted, but
I did not want to push him or myself any farther than I was prepared
for. He finished stripping and crawled into bed. I followed him shortly,
after making sure everything was locked and turned off.

When I returned to my room, I was surprised to see that Jase was lying on
Brian's chest asleep with Brian hugging onto him asleep. I sat on the edge
of the bed watching the two of them. I slowly untangled Brian's arms around
Jase and laid Jase down in the center of the bed. Brian woke up enough to
help a little. I lay down and turned off the light. Jase snuggled into my
side and I soon fell asleep.

I awoke the next morning with me behind Brian and Brian hugging onto
Jase. I thought I had heard someone knocking on the front door but it
stopped. Just as I was about to fall asleep again, I heard keys opening the
front door. I quickly and quietly unwrapped myself from Brian. I grabbed my
housecoat and ran toward the door, only to stop when I saw who was coming
through the door.

"Chris you're up!!"

"Justin, Britney! Why are you two here?" I asked.

"We're here for Jase, but you called saying that you need to talk to me
about something. So figured I would kill two birds with one stone!" Britney
answered.

"God I need to talk to you! Come on you both look tired!" I said leading
them into the living room.

"Well we flew out right after the show last night. We got here about 3:30
last night!" Britney said.

"Well if Josh would have stopped flirting with the woman taking out tickets
we probably could have been here sooner!" Justin said.

"Josh's here?!?! Who else?" I asked.

"Josh and James are the only ones. Joe and Chris went home for the
weekend." Justin said.

"So what do you want to talk about?" Britney asked moving closer to me.

I sat there running everything through my head. 'I won't tell them exactly
who it is. I won't until Brian is up!' I thought to myself. Well it was now
or never here I go...

"I finally found my perfect man!" I said suddenly and very quickly, but
that did not stop their reaction time.

"Who?"

"Where?"

"When?"

"Why didn't I know sooner?"

"Is he here?"

"Does he know about Jase?"

"Does Jase like him?"

I swear that they had said all of that using only one breathe each.

"Hang on! His name is Brian Thomas. We met two days ago! And I tried to
tell you but you don't answer your phone! Neither of you do! Yes he knows
about Jase and Jase loves to be around him. I really think he is the one!
Oh he is here and he is asleep. I had him up all night." After saying that,
I realized how it sounded, and so did Justin and Britney. "We were talking,
nothing more! Get your minds out of the gutter! Mine's in it enough for the
three of us!"

Just as I had finished saying that the phone rang.

"Hello" I said.

"I love you!" Brian said

"I do too! Hang on for a second."

"Okay!"


I turned to Just and Brit. "I'll be right back!" I put the phone on hold
and walked toward my room. When I got in there, Brian was singing along to
the music on the phone, you know that music you get when normally a
business puts you on hold. I crawled up behind him and hung up the phone.

"I love you, but why did you call me?" I whispered because Jase was still
asleep.

"Well I heard you talking to someone and I didn't know how you would have
felt if I had just walked down there. So I called my cell with your phone
to see what the number was." Brian said.

"Well I had some surprise guests this morning, but you will have to face up
to them eventually so how about you get ready and then come down
stairs. I'll put Jase in his bed and then go down." I said voicing my
thoughts.

"Okay but who's here?" Brian asked getting up to go shower.

"Well right now Brit and Just, but Josh and James are over at my mother's
house." I said staring at the floor.

"Do they know about us?" Brian asked.

"Yes and No. They know that I had found a new boyfriend but they don't know
who you are though. I wanted you there for that. But once you walk down
there I think they will figure it out." I said quickly walking out of the
room with Jase in my arms, trying to avoid any more questions about the
people down stairs.

I laid Jase in his room and then made my way down stairs, but before I did,
I walked by the bathroom to make sure that Brian was in the shower. When I
made my way down stairs, Brit started in on the questions about this new
boyfriend.

"Do we know him?" Brit asked.

"You know I would not answer that question even if you knew him! So those
type of questions are always off limits and you both agreed to that a long
time ago!" I said trying to avoid that question.

"Yeah Brit you agreed to that! So try again!" Justin shot back at Brit.

"Okay then I will wait right here until I meet him! And if he does not meet
my standard then he goes! Am I understood?" Brit asked.

"Yes Ma'am!" I said saluting at her.

We talked about everything that had happened since the last time I had seen
the two of them. Brit talked about everything that had happened to her
since Christmas and Justin talked about everything since last summer. I
talked about graduation and then touched slightly around the BSB concert,
but Justin just had to catch me saying something about the concert.

"Hey Chris too bad you couldn't get with Brian. You know I have always
thought that him and Nick were a couple. But I still think that he is
cute!" Justin said with a silly grin, which said that he was just playing
with my emotions. I just stared at him, thinking about how close he was to
the truth. Just as that thought escaped my mind I heard Brian walking down
the hallway towards the living room. Then I heard him stop for a moment,
probably to collect his thoughts before he walked in.

Brian slowly made his way down the little stairway leading into the
room. When he hit the living room floor, I could hear the air being sucked
out of the room by Brian, Just, and Brit as they all noticed each other. I
tried as hard as I could not to laugh at the sight of the two of them
staring at Brian, and Brian staring back at them with the same goofy
expression on his face.  I did decide that this was the time to break the
barrier that had just been formed by the people in the room.

"Okay everyone stop staring at one another and sit down Bri!" I said as
everyone snapped out of the trance that they were in. Brian slowly made his
way over and sat down beside me. "Okay I think that everyone knows each
other so I won't go into that! But I will say that you two will need to get
use to him being around because this is my boyfriend!" I said.

As soon as the words escaped my mouth, a huge smile crept across Just and
Brit's faces. I know that they approved right then. Brian just looked at me
with a questioning look in his eyes, telling me that I needed to explain
some things.

"Okay Brian here is the whole story. I met Britney about ten years ago
after I had moved down south. I lived next door to her for about four
years. During that time we had become best friends. After Britney moved to
Orlando for the Mickey Mouse Club, I visited her just about every
month. During that time I had met Justin and Josh and quickly became
friends with them during my visits. After I had turned twelve, my parents
moved down there for about a year or so. Well, I grew closer to Brit,
Justin, and Josh, even became very close with all three of their
families. Justin's mom kind of adopted me while I lived down there. Brit's
parents did the same also. But my parents were different, my mother loved
the three of them as her own but my father totally disagreed with my mother
and I. He thought that they were just going to turn their backs on me and
rub their money in our faces. If there was one thing that he had been wrong
about, it was that! My father made my mother and I move back up here with
the rest of my family about a year later. That was when Jen and I became
closer. Brit and Justin were the first to know what Amber had done and then
about the pregnancy. They were there every time I tried to kill
myself. After Jase was born, both Brit and Justin's parents adopted him
just as they had done me. Jase calls them all his grandparents because he
never really knew his real grandparents. Brit and all of the guys call my
mother mom and call me their brother." I said explaining the current
situation to Brian.

"Chris is family to us! He and Jase are as much family as they are friends
to all of us. But let me tell you one thing! He won't take money, special
privileges, or just plain good gestures that would resemble the idea of
just mooching off of all of us. He won't take tickets to concerts for free,
or if he does he'll give them away saying that there is someone else who
could use them more than he could." Justin said.

"Well I know now that he won't take anything for free! I tried to get him
front row tickets but he refused to take them. He even gave up the tickets
he had to sit in the lawn just so a little boy and his mother could see. It
took all I could do to drag him up on stage to the VIP seating!" Brian
said.

"Well you did better than we had! We couldn't even drag him up there! He
has only been up on stage three times with us, and it took us tricking him
to get there. But Jase loves to be on stage! He really loves water guns,
but I don't recommend giving him one though!" Brit said.

"I found that out the hard way. Last night during the show, we brought out
silly string and water guns. Lets just say that we were running to try and
stay dry! Every time we would start dancing Jase would try and do the same
moves we did. It seemed as if he was made for the stage." Brian replied.

"Well he has enough experience! If you ever want Jase to do something ask
Jen or my permission because his dad here won't let him do it! So our poor
baby has to suffer until he can find one of us to allow him to play." Brit
said with a god-awful grin towards me.

"But when you do that then I can never get him to listen to me! You guys
spoil him too much. You need to limit what he does before he gets hurt." I
argued using the fathering side of my brain.

"We would never spoil him too much. You don't let us spoil him that often,
so we do it whenever we can get a chance." Justin said.

"Well I know that no matter what I say you're still going to do it so why
allow myself to get upset over something that is going to happen no matter
what I say!" I said realizing my defeat.

"Well that is what Aunts and Uncles do! We spoil our nephews!" Britney
said.

"Where is Jase anyway?" Justin asked.

"He's still asleep! Chris made him stay up all night!" Brian joked.

"Me? You're the one that asked if he could stay for the rest of the
concert! And then you and Kevin complain about giving him water guns. Don't
you guys realize that water and a four year old don't mix?" I asked.

"Yeah well we had to learn the hard way!" Brian said.

"Hey Brian, where are the other guys?" Justin asked.

"They're at Chris' Aunt's house right now but they'll be here later." Brian
said.

Just as I was about to say something, the front door opened and I knew
automatically who was here.

"Josh! James! We're in the living room!" I yelled.

Josh and James walked down the hallway and stopped mid step. They both
seemed a little confused but knew that if Justin and Britney were there
then everything was fine. They also knew that they would drag the
information out of Justin as soon as they had the chance.

"Okay I'm not doing the intro. Again! Everyone knows each other, so we'll
let that rest!" I said.

Josh and James walked the rest of the way in and sat down. Josh was sitting
on the chair, while James was on the floor beside him. I noticed the
closeness and Josh knew I noticed because he gave me that "I'll tell you
later" look, but I wanted to know now.

"So Josh, I heard you were flirting with the woman taking your tickets last
night!" I said calling all the attention to him.

"I was not! I was flirting with Jam..." Josh said catching himself there at
the end.

"What was that there Josh? I'm not quite sure of what you said." I said
making him more nervous. Josh looked at me and then at Brian. I know he was
nervous because of Brian, so I decided to make it a little easier on him.

"Josh if you were flirting with James, then just say so!" I said noting
fear in his eyes. "Joshua a simple yes or no will work and don't worry
about Brian. I'll make sure he doesn't hurt you!"

"Yes but what about Brian? James and I are missing a large piece to this
puzzle aren't we?" Josh asked.

"Actually I think that you're the only one missing the piece Josh!" James
said sweetly.

"Okay what's going on?" Josh asked.

Both Justin and I looked at each other and said "Blonde Moment!" at the
same time. Brian looked at us with a strange look on his face, while Brit
and James just rolled their eyes.

"Joshua look at me!! You truly don't see anything?" I asked. Josh looked at
me for a moment and then moved on to Brian. The little light bulb in his
head must have flipped on because his mouth just lost all muscle control
and sprung open.

"You mean.... You mean.... You mean that Brian is gay? And with You?"  Josh
asked.

"What do you mean, 'with you'?" I asked.

"I had just always figured that Nick and he were together. But I'm
happy...no ... I'm more than happy.... I just don't know what to say." Josh
answered.

"Daddy?" Jase yelled through the house.

"Hang on Jase. I'll be right there!" I said with a huge smile. "You guys
stay here and I'll send Jase down!" I told the guys as I got up and walked
up the stairs. As I walked into Jase's room I found him jumping on the bed.

"Jason Brian Christopher Green! You better stop right now!" I yelled.

"But uncle Justin lets me!" Jase cried.

"Well the next time you see him, you tell him you got in trouble for doing
it and that he will when I see him. Now go down stairs while I fix you
something for breakfast." I told Jase.

"Is Brian still here?" Jase asked.

"Yeah he's in the living room. You go on down." I said.

I had just walked into the kitchen when I heard Jase scream. I just laughed
it off and started breakfast. I was just getting ready to start when I felt
a pair of arms wrap around my waist.

"I love you!" Brian said and I leaned back into his chest to enjoy this new
comfort, which I hadn't felt in a long time.

"I love you too!" I said. I closed my eyes when Brian started to softly
kiss down the back of my neck.

"I missed you!" Brian said softly into my ear.

"I missed you too, but this food won't cook itself!" I said enjoying the
love a little bit too much for this point in time.

"Can I help?" Brian asked, unwrapping his arms.

"Well... Yeah you can cut the cheese and mix the biscuit dough." I told him
and then finished what I had started.

We had everything finished in about twenty minutes. When I finally looked
at the clock it was already 11:15, so that meant that the rest of the guys
would be here soon. I made everyone come into the kitchen and eat. We
quickly ate and got everything cleaned up. I then started passing out
assignments to everyone, so everything would get done on time.

"Okay this is what I need everyone to do. Josh and James can you clean the
back yard?" I asked.

"Yeah we'll get it done for you." Josh said.

"Brit can you and Brian help me cleanthe house?"

"Yeah!" both Brit and Brian said.

"Okay now for Justin! Can you go into a store this time without attracting
more attention to yourself than you already do?" I asked giving him the
death stare.

"I guess I can but it was not my fault that Wal-Mart had a sale on all of
those toys!" Justin said trying to defend himself.

"NO TOYS! You go in, get everything on the list and then leave, nothing
else better be in that bag!!" I warned him.

Just then Nicole, Jen, Kristen, Little Bryan (Nicole's son, and will be
called by little Bryan from here on), Jeff, and the rest of the guys walked
in. The next thing that we heard was a loud scream and then Jen and Brit
started running after each other yelling at one another.

"You fake breasted, whore! How dare you do that to me on National TV!" Jen
yelled as she chased Brit down the hall.

"You two timing, back stabbing bitch! You deserved every moment of it!"
Brit yelled.

"Me? You're the one who liked him but you called me out on it though!" Jen
yelled grabbing a hold of Britney and bringing her down.

"God I hate you so much that I cannot stand to be around you!" Brit yelled.

"I can't stand you either but I still love you!" Jen said with a serious
look on her face.

"I love you too, but the next time I will kill your ass for that stunt!"
Brit said.

Brian and the rest of BSB looked at me with a questioning look. I looked at
the two laying on the floor laughing at each other and then looked at
Nicole for help explaining this.

"Okay here's what happened. Nicole and Justin I need you to help me
explain!" I said as Nic and Just walked over and stood beside me just as we
had always done while explaining what happened six and half months ago.

"Okay you have to picture this now. I'm Brit, Justin's Carson Daily, and
Nic is Jen, okay?" Everyone shook his heads in agreement. "Okay it all
started the week before Christmas last December. Jen, Jase and I had flown
to New York to see Brit for Christmas. Well Brit had rigged something up to
where the three of us could be on TRL with her. That day Jen, Jase, and I
were backstage of the TRL room while they were taping. The next thing I
know is that Britney was talking to Carson. Okay we have to act this out so
that you can get the whole effect!" I said.

"Britney may I say that you are looking FINE in that outfit. I wouldn't
mine going out on a date with you looking like that!" Justin said using the
best Carson voice he could.

"I think not but I know someone else who would love to go out with you for
a night! Her names Jennifer and she's backstage in my dressing room." I
said using that Miss. Priss tone of voice that Brit uses.

"Oh really! How about we bring her out here and ask her ourselves!" Justin
said.

"Okay that's when the whole mess started! Jen was dragged out on to the
stage about two minutes later." I said.

"Okay what's going on here? Why am I out here?" Nic said sounding exactly
like Jen.

"I want to know what you think about me?" Justin asked.

"I think.... that you're.... cute." Nic said.

"I heard that you would like to go out with me on a date!" Justin said, "Is
that so?"

"Who told you that?" Nic asked.

"Britney did actually! So do you?" Justin asked.

"Let me think about it for about ten years and I'll get back to you!" Nic
said.

"Okay right after that was said, Jen called and had a plane ticket set up
so that she could leave that night to go home. And this is the first time
that they have seen each other since!" I said filling them in on the rest
of the information.

"Okay now that everyone knows the story, we need to start getting
everything done. Okay for the new slaves that have just walked in I had
just finished assigning jobs! So that means that I have to add more people
to the work groups!" I said.

"Howie and AJ I don't want you making out or anything! And make sure that
these two don't either! I need you four to clean up the yard!" I said
pointing at Josh and James.

"That's fine!" AJ said with a grin. "So you two are batting for the same
team also?" AJ questioned as the four of them walked out the back door.

"Nick can you help Brit, Brian, and I clean up this house?"

"Yeah just tell me where to start!" Nick said.

"Kevin can you do me a huge favor?" I asked as I walked over to him.

"Yeah what do you need?" Kevin asked softly.

"Well actually I need two things. One I need to talk to you alone later
tonight! And two can you go with Justin and make sure that he gets
everything on my list without getting in trouble?" I asked quietly.

"Yeah I'll go, but does this talk have anything to do with what I think it
does?" Kevin asked.

"Yeah but don't worry. We'll talk later!" I said.

"Chris can I take Red?" Justin asked with a hopeful look in his eye. "I
won't hurt her! I promise!"

"Why do you always want to take Red for? You know she's my baby and you
know how much she means to me!" I said knowing that I would eventually let
him take her.

"Because I have to go in style! And you know that you're going to let me
drive it anyway so why argue?" Just asked.

"Because I like to make you wait! And you do know that if you scratch her I
will personally keep you from having any children!!! Do you understand?" I
asked.

"Yes Sir!!!!" Justin said as he saluted me and then grabbed the keys off of
the keyboard.

"Okay Little Bryan and Kristen I need you to take Jase somewhere else,
anywhere but here and the mall!" I said making sure that they understood
their orders.

"Yeah we're gone! And we're taking your Durango!" Kristen said as she took
those keys off of the board also.

"Okay last but especially least, Jen and Nicole! I need you two to go get
Jase's presents from me! I have a list and you have four hours to do it!
Can you do it?" I asked

"Yeah we can!" Nicole said.

"Hey can you take mom with you? She needs to get out of the house! Oh and
here is my credit card! You may need it for all of this stuff." I said
handing them everything as they walked out the door.

After they all had left on their assignments, I made the other slackers
start on theirs. I was working up stairs thinking over everything that had
happened in the last day or two.

Two days ago I was single when I woke up. Graduated to be an adult. Then
met the man of my dreams who I love with all my heart and soul. He seems to
like Jase; in fact, all of the guys seem to like Jase. I slept with that
man on the first night, but without the need of a sexual encounter. I woke
up the next day to find out that Nick had seen us in the bed
together. Howie and AJ announced their relationship to the guys and me.
Brian and I decided that we want this relationship to work, and I finally
have my second Boyfriend ever! Jen tells me that she has started a new
relationship with Howie and Aj. Brian tells me about the relationship
between Kevin and himself. The funny thing is that I don't want to end
their relationship; I just want to be a part of it. I want to be with Brian
forever, but I want Kevin to find someone that he can love as much as he
does Brian. Could Kevin really want a relationship with Brian and I? Who
could I find that Kevin would like? Is this all the work of my guardian
angel? Is this the strength that I was promised so long ago? But there is
still the little factors from the past that keep popping up that I still
need more strength than anyone can provide. But the major question that
keeps popping up in my mind is, what is Justin's reaction to my
relationship with Brian? I know it's hard for him, just as it is for me,
but I still would do anything to keep that wonderful smile on his face.

During the whole time I was thinking over my last couple of days, Brian and
Britney had been talking down stairs.

"Brian do you love him?" Brit asked.

"What?" Brian asked stunned by the question.

"Do you love Chris?" Brit asked again, stopping what she was doing just to
see Brian answer the question.

"Well... does the fact that I would do anything to keep a smile on his face
answer that? Or does the fact that I would rather be around him and Jase
than be on stage in front of millions of people, mean any thing? But if
those don't answer your question, then yes I do! I would give up everything
just to be with him every second of the day. If he asked me tomorrow to
stop touring just so that we could live together and have a "Family", then
I would have my contract with the record label pulled! I would out myself
to the world for him, just so that we could go in public to show the world
how much I love him." Brian said with a tear in his eye, knowing that every
bit of that came from the heart and not his head. He knew that he meant
everything that he said, but only wished that he would not have to actually
do any of it until the right time.

"Brian I know that you love him, I could see it in your eye when you walked
down here this morning. But I can tell you that everything that you said
you would do to prove your love will never go over too well with Chris! He
would never ask you to stop your dreams, just to regret it later in
life. He may ask you if he could be a part of them but would never ask you
to stop touring or out yourself. Brian, you may not see this but Chris has
built a solid shell around himself, one that only a select few have ever
entered. You were born with the key to open it, and the rest of us who have
been inside, were only meant to help keep the walls from crashing in. I
don't know if he told you or not but ever since Justin started working in
the music business, their relationship has slowly weakened in areas but
grew in others. Brian they were each others first male relationship!" Brit
finally voiced out knowing that Chris would probably never say anything
about it unless someone brought it up first.

"Justin and Chris were together? Why didn't he tell me that?" Brian asked.

"Did he tell you that he and I were each others first "Love" relationship?"

"I think so but I don't think that he went into real detail about it."
Brian said as he started cleaning up again.

"Well he was like ten-years-old and I was nine, we had one of those "I
think I'm in love but I don't know what love is" things. He was my first
kiss. But from that point on I knew that he was different than any other
boy. I noticed that when I started MMC, that he, Justin, and Josh had
become close. I also noticed that Chris and Justin were spending a lot of
time together. After Chris and I broke up, I started seeing Justin. Justin
still won't admit it but he knew then that there was something special
between him and Chris." Brit said.

"Did they ever have a serious relationship? Something that I should be
worried about?" Brian asked.

"No I wouldn't worry right now about that. I think that all you need to
worry about is Chris and Jase. Justin is more important to Chris as a
friend than a lover!" Brit said.

"Okay... I'll try not to screw anything up in his life...." Brian said but
was quickly interrupted by Brit.

"Brian, I can tell you right now that the only thing that you could do to
screw him up is to not be here right now. I've seen a side of Chris today
that I have not seen for almost five or six years! You're good for him! And
so will Kevin! And before you even think about saying anything, I know
about you two. I've noticed the closeness of the two of you; it's not the
closeness of a family member or a best friend but that of a lover. Don't
worry about anything being said because I'm the only one who has noticed
and that was only because with everything that has happened in Chris' life,
I have learned to noticed every slight move anyone makes. I think that the
two of you are exactly what he needs. He needs more strength than any one
person can provide. He is someone with a lot of heart, but there is a lot
of room for heartache in him!" Brit said as they finished up cleaning the
down stairs.

"Britney, you are the closest to Chris right?" Brian asked.

"Yeah, but Jen comes in a very close second! Why?" Brit asked.

"Well I know that we have only known each other for a couple of days but I
want to be able to keep him forever. I want to find him a promise ring
until we're ready for the next step. Do you think that this is too early
for him?" Brian asked while watching that little microscopic dirt molecule
on the floor.

"Brian, it may be that you have only known each other physically for two
days, but you two have known each other for your whole lives! You've seen
pieces of him in other people around you, and he the same. It's just now,
you both have taken all of the scattered pieces and placed them in the one
person that they were meant to be. So I think you should! But I will tell
you that he will refuse it, don't let him! Make him see that he's not
mooching off of you by accepting the ring, let him see that it is love that
the ring is made from." Brit said.

"Thank you Brit! You're more of a friend than many people have. You're his
rock..." Brian said, but was interrupted by Britney again.

"And you are his sword... from which life will only allow him to take."
Britney said.


Back up stairs.

Nick and I were having a hay day trying to clean everything up and still
talk, play, or just goof around. Then Nick became serious...

"Chris, do you love Brian?" Nick asked.

"Honestly... I do! I never thought I would say that again until yesterday
morning when you saw Brian and I in bed asleep." I said.

"Good, because he deserves someone great. He has Kevin, but he needs
someone more. I know that he will always love Kevin far more than a family
member but that relationship could only cause more harm than good. And
Chris don't give me that look of "I don't know anything!" because I know
you do. Brian told you last night!" Nick said.

"How do you know?" I asked.

"Because I'm his best friend, plus I already knew about their
relationship. I have heard them talking and then Brian finally said
something about it, a year or so ago." Nick said.

"And you're alright with it? You're not disgusted with it?" I asked.

"Why would I be? It's their lives, not mine! I want someone who loves me
for me, and not for my fame or money. I don't want someone in the public
eye, but I want someone that knows how hard my life actually is and is
willing to be there for me when I need them." Nick said sitting down on the
bed.

"I'm sure that you will find the right girl eventually, Nick!" I said
sitting down beside him and hugging onto him for support.

"That seems to be the problem for this group, the right girl never seems to
be there! But maybe the right guy will be!" Nick said.

"Nick are you gay?" I finally asked.

"Yeah.... I think... I'm not sure; I have never been with either one! I
just want someone, or 'some ones' for that matter, to hug onto or just to
sit around and stare into their eyes trying to figure out what exactly they
are thinking." Nick said as a tear slipped by his defense.

"Nick you'll find that right person or persons one day!" I said in a
confident tone.

"Yeah you're right! You know what though... I want to be there when
Leighanne finds out about you!" Nick said with a laugh.

"Who is this Leighanne that everyone is talking about?" I finally asked the
thought that was in the back of my mind.

"She would be Brian's ex-girlfriend. She thinks that they are still
together, even though they have been broken up since like last Christmas,
and even then they had only been going out for like less than five
months. She thinks that she owns him." Nick informed me.

"Oh really...I want to meet this woman! And I will let her know that there
is no relationship between the two of them, even if I have to pound it into
her head, literally!" I told Nick.

"Can I be there when you do? I hate that woman with my whole being! She
treats me as if I'm some little four-year-old that has no idea of the
world." Nick said.

"Well we'll see who acts like a four-year-old when I get done with her!!!"
I said.

"Good! Hey anyway, how many people are coming today?" Nick asked.

"Oh about thirty people or so, ranging from about ...... OH FUCK!!" I said
as I remembered a little detail that I had over looked. "Nick go get the
other guys really fast I need to tell y'all something that I have
forgotten!" I said.

"Okay!" Nick said as he ran out the door.

I walked down stairs just as everyone was walking into the Kitchen.

"Okay I had forgotten one little bit of information about this party
tonight! The ages are going to be ranging from newborn all the way up to
elderly people. That means that somewhere in between I guarantee that there
will be fans of one group or the other! So I understand if you guys want to
leave before the party..." Everyone quickly interrupted me.

"Woo Woo Woo...." AJ said quickly, "Do we all look that stupid to not have
figured that much out all ready? Howie, Kevin, Nick, and I decided, last
night, that we would stay no matter who showed up to this party. We
could...maybe...even put on a small private show for everyone."

"Hey that goes for the *Nsync group too, but minus two people!" Lance said.

"Okay then...that is one less worry now! Okay is everyone done now?" I
asked.

"Brit and I are done down stairs!" Brian said.

"The four of us are done outside! And are waiting to get into the pool. But
against some orders, we all did find some time for private time!" Josh said
sticking his tongue out at me, which was a major mistake for him, because I
quickly grabbed it and held it tight.

"For one, you should know not to stick your tongue out at me unless you're
going to use it for something, and yes my mind is in the gutter! Second,
you should know better than go against my orders, Joshua! Do you remember
the last time you did?" I said loud enough for James and Brit to hear.

"Yes I do but lets not go into that!" Josh said as I allowed him to have
his tongue back.

"For your sake I won't tell everyone that you had to lick my feet for
sticking it out!" I said quickly but still making sure that everyone had
heard.

"Good-bye... I'm leaving now!" Josh said pulling James with him.

"Hey you two better not be doing anything I wouldn't!" I yelled at them.

"God you take the fun out of everything!" James yelled back.

"If I don't get any, then you don't!" I yelled

"That's only because you don't want any!" Josh yelled from down the
hallway.

"Yeah that's true!" I said.

Just then the front door came flying open, and Kevin and Justin came
storming through. They sat the stuff down and then walked to two different
areas of the house. Justin went to my room and Kevin went into the living
room. Then, not two seconds later, we heard...

"I HATE YOU, Kevin!"

"I HATE YOU, Justin!" They both screamed at each other like two
five-year-old children!

**************************************************************************

Okay what's going on? What's going on between Kevin and Justin? How will
Kevin and Chris's talk work out? Okay you have to wait until next time to
find out!!  All comments are welcome, but I know that there are grammar and
maybe some spelling errors, no ones perfect, so don't comment on them
please! If you have problems understanding some places then email me with
the confusion and I will try to clear it up for you! Until next time, bye.

Christopherunknown

Christopherunknown@hotmail.com