Date: Sat, 16 Sep 2000 20:50:07 EDT
From: Christine Murphy <heymickey43@hotmail.com>
Subject: Hey Mickey 11:  Tear in My Hand

AHH!!!!  Sorry this took so long to come out...it's been like over two
weeks.  School started and I had so much to do.  Really sorry...between
classes, my school's huge anniversary celebration, and spending quality time
with my friends, my imaginary world went on the back burner.  Sorry I
haven't responded to many emails lately, either.  I'll try to do that
tonight!  Yeah, so, here's part 11.  Thanks to those people who are actually
still reading!

****DISCLAIMER:  This is fiction, I don't own anyone, I don't know anyone in
the story.  Therefore, I don't know their true sexuality, and I don't mean
to imply that anyone is something they're not.  Also, if it's illegal where
ever you are to read this, then don't.  Hmm... and if you're against male
homosexuality, then don't read this.


Last time, on Hey Mickey:

"*I* love you, JC."  JC turned his head from Justin to hide the pain, the
pain because Justin loved him, but was not in love with him.

"No, Dan was *in* love with me."

"No, he wasn't.  He never said it.  But I am.  Someone who's in love with
you wouldn't do those things to you.  I love you JC; I'm in love with you.
Can't you see that?  And I will never hurt you, I will always be there for
you, and I'd never cheat on you . . . because I don't know of anyone who's
sexier than you are," Justin proclaimed, his soft round lips turning up into
a devilish smile at his last statement.  JC couldn't control his shock at
Justin's words.

'You . . . you really feel that way?"

"Of course," Justin grinned, as he kissed JC's forehead.

"I . . . I feel the same way."

"I know."
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Hey Mickey 11:  Tear in My Hand

"So, do you still feel the need to go back to Dan . . . ?" Justin asked
nervously.

JC smiled sadly, "No.  The man of dreams is in love with me.  I didn't even
like Dan all that much."

"So, why did you keep going back to him in the first place?"

"I'm afraid of being alone," JC's eyes fell to the floor.

"You know you have me, no matter if we're both in love with each other or
not."

"Yeah, but not knowing that you loved me made me feel even more alone.  I
couldn't take it.  I just wanted you to hold me every night all night, and
when you couldn't . . . I tried to fill that void."

Justin swallowed and gently took JC's trembling hands in his.  He began to
knead his fingers with his own and looked down into JC's eyes until JC
pulled his face up to look into Justin's warm inviting eyes.  "You know that
you'll never need to feel alone ever again, right Jace?  I'll always be here
for you.  I love you unconditionally,"  he said sincerely.  JC couldn't
control his emotions any longer and he began to cry tears of joy and relief,
pulling Justin into a desperate embrace.

"Oh, Justin, I never knew I could feel this good," JC whispered into his
neck.

"I know, babe.  I'm sorry you had to go through so much these last two
days."

"But that's over now, and, if it's responsible for this moment, it's worth
it," JC whispered, pulling out of the embrace a little in order to look into
Justin's crystalline eyes.  Their eyes locked, the two began to move
together, their lips touched, and they finally kissed, releasing years of
love and desire.  It began sweet and pure, the two proving that what they
felt was real.  Soon JC's tongue began to push against Justin's lip, and
Justin allowed him to enter him.  JC's tongue probed against Justin's teeth
and finally entered fully into his mouth, and Justin began to suck on it
gently.  JC moaned in pleasure, still shocked that all this was real.

Justin could see the shock in his eyes, so he ended the kiss by moving his
mouth over to JC's ear and whispering, "I love you, Josh.  I really do."

"I love you so much Justin."

"I know baby."  Justin then proceeded to nibble playfully on JC's ear.  "You
have big ears," he giggled.

"Hey!  Way to ruin a beautiful moment!" JC laughed.

"I think they're the most perfect ears ever!" Justin replied childishly.  JC
blushed at Justin's remark and put his head on Justin's chest.  Justin began
to rub the back of JC's neck.  "Are you going to be OK?  So much happened to
you in the last two days."

"I will be, since I have you.  But I'm a little worried about some stuff.
Before we . . . now I need to go get tested . . . since Dan seems to have
slept with half of LA while we were dating," JC replied.

Justin looked at him wide-eyed, fear entering his mind.  "Di-didn't you use
pro-protection?" he asked nervously.

Now it was time for JC to allay Justin's fears with a comforting embrace.
"Of course we did; I'm not stupid.  But nothing's one hundred percent safe.
Plus, I want to make sure I'm completely clean for you . . . when we're
ready, of course . . . I don't ever want to make you sick.  I don't ever
want to hurt you," JC rubbed his thumb along the edge of Justin's chin as he
responded.  Justin just nodded and buried his head into JC's chest.  "Don't
be afraid, Just.  I just want to make sure . . . it's really not a big
deal," JC smiled up at Justin cautiously.  Justin smiled, temporarily
letting go of his anxiety.  He just got JC, and if anything happened to him,
he knew he couldn't take it.

"OK, but you're not allowed to be sick," Justin whined.

"Man, you act so childishly sometimes!" JC laughed.  "It's really cute," he
added, wagging his eyebrows up and down in a goofily suggestive manner.

Justin rolled his eyes playfully.  JC then threw Justin down against the bed
so that he was on top of him, on all fours, around Justin.  He leaned in and
kissed him again.  "Mmm.  This can't be real.  It's too good to be," JC
mumbled.

"Would you stop saying that, Jace?  If you feel half as good as I do right
now, you deserve it.  You are so . . . mmmm," Justin stopped, interrupted by
another kiss from JC.  JC moved his head down so that he could nuzzle
Justin's soft neck.

"You're so beautiful."

"I know.  Every eight year old girl in the country wants me," Justin
laughed.

JC grinned, "Are we ever going to take this seriously?"

"What?" Justin asked innocently.

"Making out with each other."

"Ooooh!" Justin replied sarcastically.  "Well, it's our first day.  Guess
we'll just need some practice at it."

"Ohhhh . . . definitely . . . Just," JC mumbled in between planting small
kisses onto the delicate skin of Justin's neck.

"Mmm . . . I think I'm taking this seriously."

"Good then.  But we're gonna take all this slow, right?  I need to get
checked out -"

"Please don't mention that again tonight.  But, yeah, we'll take it slow.
This is completely new for me, you just, like twenty minutes ago, got out of
an abusive relationship, and . . . yeah."

"And what, Just?" JC asked, pulling himself back up onto his hands, so that
he was hovering over Justin.

"Nothing," Justin replied ashamedly.

"No, what, Just?  I want to know . . . you don't have to be ashamed or
embarrassed or anything.  Just be honest.  I'll always love you, because I
always have."

"OK.  I don't want to fuck anything up.  I don't want to do anything wrong,
I don't want to move too fast, or anything.  I guess I'm afraid."

JC moved back so that he was sitting up on the bed.  He grabbed Justin's
hand and gently pulled him up into a sitting position so that he could put
his arm around Justin.  "We won't fuck anything up Justin.  There's no need
to be afraid.  What we have, most people would kill for it.  You are my best
friend, the love of my life, and, when we're both ready, my lover.  You just
have to trust 'us' Just."

"I trust you."

"There's a start," JC smiled, pulling Justin's head up against his shoulder.
  "C'mon.  Let's get some sleep."

"Uh, Jace, isn't it like four in the afternoon?" Justin laughed.

"Eh, shut up.  You think you're so smart, don't you?!"

"Fine.  You take a nap," he said, then he realized that JC probably couldn't
sleep last night after he caught Dan.  "Oh, yeah, you probably are
exhausted, aren't you?  I'm sorry.  Why don't you take a nap and I'll plan
something for dinner, OK?"

"Sure," JC smiled, "Is this like a date?"

"Uh, I guess."

"Eeeeeeeeeee!," JC screamed like an eight-year-old girl, "I WON A DREAM DATE
WITH JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE!  LIKE, OH MY GOD!!  Susie will be SO jealous!"

Justin scowled his lips up jokingly and threw a pillow at JC, "Just take a
freakin' nap, you screwball.  I don't see why *I* get stuck with the dud of
the group."

"Hey!  We all know Joey's the dud!"

"Just take your damn nap, heart throb."