Date: Mon, 03 Apr 2000 20:33:27 PDT
From: Purple Raven <purpleraven81@hotmail.com>
Subject: If you knew 4

If You Knew What I Knew

Raven

Disclaimers: THIS IS NOT REAL.. IT IS FANTASY... If you don't know the rest
by now.. oh well.....

Notes: Things pick up here...

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	Tuesday rolled around quickly, Brian and AJ tried to spend the time
alone, but with Nick hiding out at their place that was almost
impossible. Although Bri did tell Nick everything as he found him one
afternoon, when AJ was grocery shopping after he had had a nightmare. Biran
was screaming no and stop at the top of his lungs, scaring the dogs into
barking drawing Nick in from the pool where he was drawing.
		'Bri?'
		'What?'
		'You were dreaming. What about?'
		'My past. It's not something that you need to hear.'
		'I want to. Tell me, we are best friends.'
		'Kay. Nick before I joined the Backstreet Boys, I was raped
by my boyfriend.'
		'You were raped?'
		'Yeah.'
		'Brian are you okay?'
		'I'm fine, I was tested and am healthy.'
		'No I mean emotionaly.'
		'I will be. AJ and I are going into counciling.'
		'You did tell him good.' Nick smiled at him pulling him
into a big hug.
		'Why the hug?'
		'You looked like you needed it.' Nick replied, as though it
was the most natural thing in the world. Brian was grateful that his friend
could handle the truth so well. It showed how mature Nick was.

	When AJ and Brian walked into the room all eyes fell on
them. "Private time." AJ announced, all the managers and other people who
were there left.
		"So what's up?" Howie asked, he was the only one who didn't
know what was to come.
		"I've something to tell you." Brian said, turning to Aj,
finding his strength in his eyes. Nick looked up at him waiting for him to
continue, willing to focus on him instead of Kevin.
		"I...I" Brian couldn't get the words out, he looked to AJ
for help. Seeing the distress in his eyes AJ grabbed his hand.
		"It's okay I can tell them." AJ murmered, in Bri's ear. He
just shook his head, it was his to tell and knowing that AJ was willing to
do it for him was all that he needed to talk about it. He knew that if it
gout caught in his throat that he could rely on AJ to finish it for him.
		" I was raped, before I joined the group. My first
boyfriend used to abuse me, and I let him. You were a God send and saved my
life." Brian said simply, waiting for their reactions. He hadn't told Nick
the abuse part, so he looked to him for his reaction.
		"I love you. Frick and Frack forever, no matter what." Nick
smiled at him.  Howie simply stood and pulled him into a hug, letting him
know with his actions that he was loved. They all cried, as they rushed to
give him a huge group hug.
		"Kev. I can't breath." Bri said as all the others let him
go but his cousin. "I'm sorry I love you." Kevin looked at the gound.
		"I'm sorry Brian. I wish that you had told us before."
Howie smiled at him from his seat.
		"You don't have to be sorry." Brian replied walking over to
sit beside him.
		"You're strong Brian, you survived."
		"Barely. We, Alex and I are going into councilling." Brian
wanted them to deal with all of it.
		"When?" Kevin asked.
		"Thursday for me." AJ replied, "Friday" Brian
finished. They all nodded, it was never in question that they would support
each other. What they told the public about them being brothers was not
just talk, they really were.

	Kevin stood, and grabbed their attention. "Well since we are
revealing secrets, I have one" he said, causing Nick to look up sharply.
		"What?" Howie asked, noticing the glances that Nick was
throwing Kevin.
		"Yeah what?" Brian said, winking at his cousin, AJ elbowed
him.
		"I'm in love. I'm Bisexual, and I love NICK."
		"You love me?"
		"Yeah. I have for a long time. With my whole heart, it just
took me a long time to realize it."
		"Why do you love me?"
		"You're smile, the way you make me smile to. The way that
you make me have fun. You're smart, and the way you laugh. I love the
little quirks, like when you distroy a hotel room the minute you're in
it. That you always have to hook up your nientendo. That you always play
pranks and you sense of humor. The.."
		"Stop. Enough." Nick said jumping to his feet, and kissing
him deeply.
		"Hey guys. Since when is Kevin Bi?" Howie asked.
		"Since forever." Kevin answered, pulling out of Nick's
embrace, resting his head on his shoulder, as the younger man turned in his
arms to look at them all.
		"You've never been with a guy."
		"Lance." Kevin wisphered, afraid that Nick would take it
bad, Nick leaned back against him.
		"Oh. Kay." Howie replied.
		"Congrats."AJ clapped his hands, Nick blushed it was hard
to believe the man in front of them was going to be twenty soon.
		"Thanks." Nick turned to hide his face in Kev's cheast.
		"Embaresed Nicky" Kevin teased him. "Not as much as you
will be when I'm done." Nick replied, placing his hand over Kevin's cock
through his jeans, while kissing his neck right below his left ear, an
exteremly erogenous zone for him.
		"Brat" he hissed at him, Nick moved away, showing Kev's
package. It was clearly defined in his tight black jeans.
		"Kev's hving problems?" Brian asked, laughing at him.
		"Help?" Kev looked at AJ.
		"Sorry man.It's a family thing." AJ laughed at him, opening
the door for their management and PR people to come back in. They all
laughed as Kevin dived for the nearest chair. Nick grabbed the one next to
him followed by Howie and then AJ and Bri.
		"Okay guys, you have to be in the studio on Thursday at 1,
then all day on Friday. You get a break for lunch." Mike their head of
management said.
		"Is there anything that we need to know?" Katya their PR
asked them.
		"Yeah this." Nick replied, climbing out of his chair into
Kev's lap, pressing his lips to the older mans. Running his tounge against
the seam of the shocked man's lips, seeking entrance, unable to deny Nick
anything he opened his lips. They wrapped their tounges around each others,
the passion flareing between them.
		"Uh.. GUYS!" Brian yelled at them, it had no effect, he
looked at AJ.  Eveyone covered their ears preparing for AJ's patened yell
from the begining of Larger than Life. Nick pulled his lips from Kevin's
looking at them.  "Yeah?" he quiped, as Kevin lifted him and turning him to
face the rest of them. Cuddling him.
		"You're a couple?"
		"Naw I just wanted to French Kevin." Nick replied. "Yeah
we're a couple."  Kev replied, hugging him closer.
		"Okay. So Howie you get the single room while on tour."
Mike replied.
		"Hey I like this." Howie replied.
		"Thank's always knew that we could count on you support."
Nick laughed.
		"If it means my own room, sure." Howie agreed. They all
laughed.
		"So are we done?" AJ asked bored.
		"Yes, wait, NSYNC will be here tommorow to dicuss the
tour. Be hear at 3."  Mike said. "You're free. Get out of here." He waved
his hand at them, they waved back, heading out the door, Brian shawdowing
AJ, as Kevin held Nick's hand.

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The end for know...

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