Date: Sun, 4 Feb 2001 20:11:51 -0800 (PST)
From: Sarah Gauthier <sarah96_1999@yahoo.com>
Subject: In Search of Love:  Chapter 1

All right, this is my first time posting anything on
this site. This is actually also my first slash fic,
so don't expect too much out of me right from the
beginning. This is an 'N Sync story, and pairings are
Justin/JC, Justin/Lance. I always get mad because
people never let you know who it involves before you
read it.

Disclaimer: I don't know them or their sexual preferences,
nor do I know anything else about their personal lives.
This story is purely fictional, and not meant to offend
anyone. If you're not old enough to read this sort of
material or you don't like slash, then please don't read it.


In Search of Love: Chapter 1

by: Sarah



     "So, you'll call as soon as you get to the
hotel?"
     "Yes, Justin.  The very second I get there. Is
something wrong?" Britney Spear's face was clouded
with worry. Something was up with Justin, but she
couldn't place her finger on it.  He had seemed more
sad, more concerned, and more distant.  Maybe it was
her imagination.  It was almost like his heart was
trying to push her away, while his body was only
bringing her forward. As of late, his concern and love
for her had seemed feigned.  Could that be possible?
Could he really just not love her anymore?
     "No, I'm fine.  A little worn out and all, but
I'll be ok." 'What is up with her.  She's been asking
how I'm feeling a lot lately.'
     "Are you sure?  There's nothing you want to tell
me before I go?" Justin felt a rush of panic shoot
throughout his entire body.  Could it be possible that
she knew. No, it wasn't. She couldn't know.  'Neither
of them told anyone,' Justin thought. 'They wouldn't.'
     "I'm positive, Brit.  Don't worry about me."  She
studied his face for an answer, a clue, anything.  He
did his best to make his face appear unreadable, but
it didn't work. His eyes gave him away.  The unusual,
mysterious glow in them sent Britney a definite
message.  He didn't love her, and something more than
that was bothering him, eating at his soul, causing
him to push her away and pull her close at the same
time.  What the actual secret was, remained concealed
though, leaving Britney now more confused than
ever.  "You better get going.  Don't wanna miss your
flight," he said to her gently, not wanting to seem
like he was pushing her out the door or anything.
     "Yeah, you're probably right." She stepped a
little closer to him, stood on her tip toes, and put
her arms around his neck tightly.  His arms gently
wrapped around her midsection, holding her close.
"Good bye," she whispered softly into his ear.
He slowly moved her face so that it was in front of
his, and kissed her lips tenderly.
     "Bye, I love you."  He said the words, but she
knew that he didn't really mean them.
     "Love you, too."  With that said, she stooped
over to pick up her bag.  She slung it over her
shoulder, and turned toward Justin again.  He offered
her a small smile, which she faintly returned.  Then,
Britney was walking away, out the door of his home,
and getting into a cab where her bodyguard was waiting
for her. She was going to New York for awhile to work
on her new album. She really would have preferred to
stay and record in Orlando, that way she could be near

Justin.  But her manager relentlessly persuaded her to
do it at the studio in New York.  As Justin watched
her leave, his thoughts were less than happy.  'How
long can I really keep this up? How long will it be
before she figures it out?'  Little did he know how
soon it would be.  'I do love her, I really do. Just
not the way that she wants me to.'


End of chapter 1


Ok, remember that this is my first slash. I know that
this part didn't really tell you very much, but I
promise you that it will get better. The second part
is already written, and remember that feedback is
always appreciated.

Questions, comments, ideas? Feedback inspires me to
write, and that means more parts in a shorter time
period. (Hint, hint.)

Sarah96_1999@yahoo.com


~Sarah