Date: Mon, 4 Sep 2000 17:04:27 -0700 (PDT) From: It's Gonna Be Me <itsgonnabemestory@yahoo.com> Subject: It's Gonna Be Me - Issue 8 *OPENING GREETING - Ok... here you go. The issues will start coming out at a quicker pace and more often from now on... or atleast I hope they will. Anyways, this one is kind of short but it fits a lot in! I can cram... i'll tell you that! =) Enjoy!* *DISCLAIMER - You know it. You hate it. But everyone has to do it. I am in no way affiliated with anything to do with *NSYNC and the Backstreet Boys and I am totally unsure of any of their sexualities. Except Kevin and Brian. (Honestly I hope that Brian's future marriage is a cover up but, well, whatever! Hehe - Think about it though! One of them has to be gay! You don't spend 5 years on a bus with 4 other hot guys and not get a little curious! LOL) I do not mean to imply that any of the boys are gay even though it might seem like it in the story. Blah, blah, blah, yadda, yadda, yadda, let's get on with the good stuff!* ********************* It's Gonna Be Me - Part 8 ********************* "You're right!" Brian laughed. I do need those clothes back you know. That was one of my favorite shirts. "Well, Bri, I would... but" Lance paused. "But what?" Brian asked impatiently. "Well..." Lance continued. He unzipped his black leather jacket to reveal Brian's long sleeved green shirt. "I'm wearing it." Lance shyly smiled. Brian looked confused and was then excited. "You are??" "Ya, I hope you're not mad. It's really confortable and I just feel like a total idiot... I'm sorry..." Lance looked at the ground. "Lance, don't sweat it. I'm a nice enough guy to share my clothes." Brian lifted Lance's chin. Lance laughed a bit. "If you like that one, you should see the rest of my wardrobe... you'd be in heaven!" Brian made Lance laugh once again. "I'll give it back to you the second I change for the show." Lance assured Brian. "Keep it." Brian smiled. "But, you said it was one of your favorite shirts..." Lance was confused. "I have lots of favorite shirts Lance." Brian smiled again. "Keep it." "Thanks Brian." Lane returned his smile. "I feel like such an ass-a-holic." Lance pouted. "That's a new word!" Brian giggled. "But I told you... It's just a shirt." "Not the shirt Brian. Everything!" Lance explained. "I've been such a complete asshole to you from day one and I feel aweful." "Lance, it's ok - "Brian was cut off. "No it's not Brian! Here you are helping me out and being an all around nice guy who has done nothing but try and be my friend and I turn out to be the biggest loser ever!" "Lance, I said it's okay.." Brian assured him. "Don't dwell on the past, what's important is the present and you're being a great guy now." Brian smiled. "I just... I don't know how I could ever make it up to you..." Lance said looking down towards his feet. "I do." Brian said plainly and placed his finger under Lance's chin. He brought his head up and moved his lips towards the beautiful blond before him. Without any hesitation or objection from Lance, Brian pressed his lips against Lance's. Brian knew not to press his luck so his casually pulled away after a few seconds. He waited for a reaction from Lance. Both of them said nothing as their lips met once more... this time by way of Lance. Lance placed his hands behind Brian's head and gently moved his lips with Brian's. After realizing what he was doing, Lance quickly pulled back. "Oh my God." Was all Lance said. "I'm sorry Lance. It was totally and completely my fault. I'm so so sorry." Brian felt bad for moving so quickly. He didn't want to hurt Lance in any way. "Oh my God." Lance said, still in disbelief of himself. "What did I just do??" "You just broke the heart of someone who loves you more than anything in this world." Lance and Brian's head shot over to the door where Justin stood with tears streaming down his face and Nick in shock. "Oh, God.. no!" Lance stood up quickly and ran over to Justin. He pulled him into a strong embrace and cried on his shoulder. "Justin I love you more than anything too! Please... I don't know what I was thinking..." Lance sobbed. "I thought you hated him Lance." Justin was confused and heartbroken. "So did I." Lance continued to cry but he looked up into Justin's crystal blue eyes. "Does this mean I have to make you hate you for you to love me?" Justin asked also crying. "No, no, no." Lance balled. "I already love you and I always will... only you... I know what I did was stupid but you know me. You know how much I love you. You know that I would do anything to be with you and I would do anything for you to love me. I'm sorry Just. The last thing..no, not even the last thing I would ever want to do would be to hurt you. I would never want to hurt you even when I do. I love you so much and I can't live without you and your love Justin." Lance rambled as his heart nearly exploded with his feelings for Justin. "I think we need some time apart." Justin said absent mindedly as he avoided Lance's eyes. "No!" Lance yelled. He hugged on tighter to Justin. "Um, Justin?" Brian spoke for the first time. Justin said nothing. "I know what you must think but you have to know... it was all my fault. I'm the one who forced Lance into it. I kissed him first. It was me.. not Lance. Don't punish him for something that I was responsible for, please!" Brian couldn't believe those words were coming out of his mouth, nor could he control it. Even more in disbelief was Nick who stood wide eyed at what Brian was saying. 'How could he mess this up for himself... for me? Shut up Brian!' Nick thought over in his head. Justin still said nothing to Brian. "Lance..." Justin started. He pulled Lance back and looked into his eyes. "I think we both need to spend some time away from each other as much as possible. We both have done stupid things and we need to realize what we mean to each other. I know it will be hard for both of us to do, but try and understand what I'm saying. I love and will always love you...and I know how much you love me... but we need to recognize that love before we can go anywhere in our relationship." Lance just shook his head as the tears kept falling with Justin's words. Justin placed a simple kiss on Lance's cheek before saying "I love you Lansten." and leaving the room. ********************* *Well, that's the end of the series... HAHA! Just kidding. I would never leave it at something like that! Please send any questions comments or suggestions or whatever to me at ItsGonnaBeMeStory@yahoo.com - is anyone reading this story? I know there are a few regulars but I would like you to let me know so I can decide wether or not it's worth writing to 4 people each time. No i'm not going to stop writing but I'd like to know who's reading, and who's liking it. Thanks... see ya later! Jamie*