Date: Wed, 14 Mar 2001 23:46:41 -0800 (PST)
From: Sun Child <heartmindsoulau@yahoo.com>
Subject: JC Dreams 17
Hey guys, I'm back with a new part of JC Dreams.
DISCLAIMER THINGY:
If you are underaged, offended by m/m concepts, then I will now ask you to
leave. I ain't gonna get busted if your mama walks in and catches you
choking the chicken to this if ya know what I mean. I don't know or claim
any personal knowledge of Nsync and their personal lives, I don't agree
with the arguements as to their sexuality, please don't put them to
me... this is purely a fan-fiction. Also all songs belong to respective
artists. All ownership will be listed at the bottom of the story.
Author's Words:
I want to thank all those who have written in and given me advice and so
on. It's all greatly appreciated. I wish to also note those who have
complained about the sex scenes I have written. They aren't long or
in-depth I know. Please remember that JC and Tony have only just started
having sex and are taking their time with this. Please bear this in mind
when you write in and bitch to me about it because I will tell you the
exact same thing in the reply that I have just told you now.
Author's Thanks:
Thanks to all those who have written in to me and told me what they
think. It is greatly appreciated. To our fav Nifty Archivist, thanks for
your support with the postings and series that you have let me put on your
web-site. Thanks also to Casey who has given me support with the story from
day one. Also, my fav guy, Alex, thanks for everything... you're cool
man. Also, how could I forget me mate Casey. Thanks for your help and
support throughout the entire series. You're a legend.
Stories Recommended:
Jamie's Romance -- (boy bands) brilliant in every sense of the word. I
wish to thank the author for his support in the writing of JC Dreams and
the advice he has passed on to me. I only hope I can one day write to his
standard.
Alpha Male -- (college) I am enjoying reading this story hugely. It puts
forwards some different ideas on different topics. An interesting read at
times to say the least.
Garden of Songs -- (boy bands) This is my fan-fic story on Savage Garden
which I am writing along with JC Dreams and enjoying writing. I hope that
you can enjoy reading it.
Yesterday's Child -- (high school) I'm working my ass off on this story,
just like the other three... I hope you can all enjoy it.
Black the Promise - (boy bands) A new series that I have started... I am
doin' my best to get the next part up I promise. I'm kinda just finding it
hard to write and find inspiration in at the moment, but I am working on
it... it's starting to grow on me.
Thanks to all my readers for their support, I hope you can also support these other authors.
Feedback Details:
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Well, I've taken enough of your time, let's get on with the story. Keep
safe and see ya at the end. SC.
This series is dedicated to Brendon Alexander James. 10-Jan-1980 to
20-08-2000. Eternal rest granted I pray. I miss you Boo.
JC Dreasm 17
by
Sun Child
JC sat there, Britney and Tony watching him. He drew on his smoke and
exhaled slowly.
"Look, just let me deal with my demons my own way." He finally said
standing and turning away. Tony stood and moved after him.
"Josh, I want to help you. I want to help you get through this. Like
you helped me deal with things."
"This is different Tony."
"How Josh? You're feeling down and needing help. I was down and needed
help. It's the same."
"Circumstances aren't though." Tony, turned and leant on the railing
over looking the city, JC facing the hotel room. Britney stayed in here
seat and looked between them. She slowly stood and placed a hand on Tony's
arm. He looked at her then shook his head and she moved away. She walked
over to JC and gently placed her hand on his shoulder. JC made no response
at all. Removing her hand and looking down, the young girl walked quietly
from the room. She had just witnessed, what seemed to be the death of two
of her closest friends relationship. Walking down the hall, she leant
against the wall next to Lance's room. Sliding down the wall she felt the
tears build and slip down over her cheeks. She sat there crying quietly.
Never before had she seen such hurt and sadness. She didn't lift her head
as Justin walked out of the room. He turned and almost tripped over her.
Kneeling beside her he lifted her face.
"Brit, what's wrong?" Britney leant forwards into his arms.
"It's over for them Justin. It's all over and the room. It's so sad
and painful that I can't be in there. It hurts too much." Justin hugged
her then lifted her up in his arms and carried her inside. He looked at
Lance
"Emergency group meeting. Everyone apart from Tony and JC." Lance set
to work quietly of gathering the group.
Soon the group gathered together.
"Guys, from what I can understand, JC and Tony are just about over."
Justin told them. The others bowed their head, not knowing what to say and
feeling the pain that Tony and JC were.
"Lance, I want you to call Jive and request a new tour manager. I don't
want Jason a part of this company any more. Tell them what you have to, I
want him out of here." Lance nodded and moved to the phone and started
dialling. While Lance talked Justin looked at the rest.
"Who has the room next to Tony and JC?" Chris raised his hand.
"Britney, where are they?"
"They were on the balcony when I left." Britney told them
quietly. Justin went to his bag and pulled out a CD.
"Here, I have a copy of when Tony and JC did 'Promise You'. I say we
play it so they can hear what they mean to each other."
"Don't bother." Came a voice from the door. The group all looked over.
They all saw Tony standing there.
"I'm leaving the tour. It's best for everyone." He told them. Joey
jumped to his feet.
"No you're not." He told Tony angrily.
"We are a family and not about to let one hiccup pull that family apart.
You are a member of Nsync like it or not." He told Tony. Tony looked at
Joey.
"I've already called Lynne and talked to her about it. She's giving me
an hour then she's doing the calls to pull me out." The others all looked
at each other. Justin then strode from the room, a storm cloud over his
head. He returned five minutes later with JC over his shoulder and dumped
him on the bed. JC had a hugely pissed off look on his face.
"What the fuck do you think you're doing?" Fumed JC.
"Telling you to build a bridge and get over it." Justin told him, just
as heatedly.
"Why? Your perfect tour disrupted?"
"No, because you won't let someone who loves you help you, they're
leaving tour and frankly, if Tony walks so do I." Justin spat at him.
"The contract won't let you." JC glared at him. "Besides what do you
care? You're the one who dragged his ex out of the closet and threw it
infront of him."
"Justin didn't know. It wasn't his fault." Tony threw in Justin's
defense.
"He could have broken up with Steve when he learnt what he was like."
"JC it isn't up to me or you who he goes out with." Tony told him
firmly. JC recoiled as if slapped. The second time Tony had ever called
him JC and not Josh. The others all saw it and knew things were in bad
repair.
"Meeting closed." Announced Lance. "Tony, you can sleep in here
tonight, you're not leaving tour. JC, I suggest you wake up to how Tony
feels about you and work it out or tour's gonna be a shit." Tony shook hs
head.
"Never mind. I'll sleep on the bus. Butterscotch will need me." With
that he turned on heel and left the room, heading down to the bus. The
others looked after the departing Tony and looked at JC who didn't meet any
of their eyes. He just stood and left the room, walking the other way to
which Tony had gone.
Tony climbed wearily onto the bus and made his way to where his cat was
waiting for him. Standing before him was the cage she was kept in. She
was lying down, not looking at him, glaring at Busta. Opening the gate,
Tony bent down and picked Butterscotch up and then closed the gate.
"Well kitten, looks like you have me to yourself again now. Josh and I
are over." He smiled sadly at her and kissed her lightly on the top of the
head. He then found his bunk and climbed in, holding his family close. He
lay there wondering what he was going to do without JC. A tear ran down
over his cheek, wetting his pillow.
In the hotel room, JC sat there holding Tony's shirt close. Holding onto
his memories that he would probably never have again. He replaced Tony's
shirt into the suitcase and lay down, wondering what he was meant to be
doing now Tony was gone. A tear traced his cheek and dropped to the
pillow, making way for another to follow.
Tony got up off the bunk and left Butterscotch sitting there and collected
his guitar from the luggage compartment. Playing a few chords, he started
to sing.
When the visions around you
Bring tears to your eyes
And all that surrounds you
Are secrets and lies
I'll be your strength
I'll give you hope
Keeping your faith when it's gone
The one you should call
Was standing here all along
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right here when you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Sitting up in his bed, JC flicked on MTV and walked out onto the balcony.
Hearing 'Promise You' playing on the TV, JC sang along sadly.
I've loved you forever
In lifetimes before
And I promise you never
Will you hurt anymore
I give you my word
I give you my heart
This is a battle we've won
And with this vow
Forever has now begun
Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And know this feeling won't go away
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you
This I promise you
Neither Tony or JC knew what the other was singing or if the other was even
awake but both knew the felt the other's heart breaking.
Over and over I fall
When I hear you call
Without you in my life, baby
I just wouldn't be living at all
And I will take you in my arms
And hold you right here where you belong
'Til the day my life is through
This I promise you, baby
Just close your eyes
Each lovin' day
And knwo that this feeling won't go away
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
Every word I say is true
This I promise you
I promise you
Thinking of JC's handsome face Tony replaced his guitar back in lugage
compartment and lay back down on his bunk.
"I love you Josh." He whispered as Butterscotch cuddled into him and he
scratched her head absent mindedly.
JC clicked off the TV and lay down on the bed, tears streaking his face.
"I love you Tony, and I miss you so much." He rolled onto his side and
wished that it was Tony beside him and not the empty space.
The next day, Tony knocked lightly on Lance's door. Lance opened the door
sleepily. Seeing Tony he was instantly awake.
"I've called Lynne." Tony said looking down. "I'm staying on tour."
Lance smiled and hugged Tony.
"I'm glad Tone, I'm glad. We'd all miss you if you left." Tony smiled
and nodded.
"Do you have the spare key to Josh's room. I need to get clothes and I
don't want to wake him." Lance nodded and disappeared for a moment,
returning a moment later, key in hand. Tony smiled and took the key.
"Thanks, everyone needs an albino, I mean friend like you." Lance smiled
and hit Tony playfully in the arm.
"You watch yourself, I might take offense." Tony smiled and walked down
the hall.
'Please be asleep, please be asleep.' Tony prayed as he quietly unlocked
the door. Opening the door, he walked in quietly. There was JC, asleep on
the bed. He looked so peaceful. Tony felt his heart break as he realised
that he would never wake beside JC, kissing him first thing in the morning.
Tony quietly collected his belongings and wrote a quick note to JC.
Josh,
I came and got my stuff. I would have woken you, but I didn't have
the heart. Love always,
Tony
Putting the pen and paper down, he walked out of the room, closing it
quietly. Returning to Lance's room he knocked again and Lance opened the
door and Tony held the key up.
"Thanks man, I owe ya one."
"Nah, don't worry about it."
"Could I bug you for one more favour?" Tony asked.
"Bathroom is all yours." Lance smiled knowingly.
"Thanks man." With that Tony walked into the room and padded quietly by
Justin and into the bathroom. Setting down his bag, he selected a few
items of clothing. Got undressed and showered. As he felt the water
cascade down over him, he remembered all the times that he and JC had
shared the shower at home. Usually after they had... had... Tony couldn't
bring himself to remember the details. He sank down in the shower and
cried. After a time, Tony reached up and shut off the water. He then
climbed out of the shower and towelled down.
Exiting the bathroom, Tony put his bag down beside the bathroom door, out
of the way. He looked at the others.
"I'll catch ya all later. I've got sound check. See you in an hour or
two." With that he headed for the door.
"What about food?" Justin called after him.
"I'm not hungry." Tony called back. As Tony walked out of the door, he
almost collided with JC. Looking up to see who it was, he saw it was JC
and looked back down.
"Sorry." He mummbled and walked towards the elevator. He pushed the
button to go to the lobby and looked up as the doors were closing and saw
JC still watching him.
At sound check, Tony was off key and not doing so well. In the end he
called a break and headed to the rest room. He pulled out his cell and
gave Lynne a call.
"Hi Lynne... Things are okay I guess, I'm not sure I can stay on
tour... I sound like shit... I know I'm bound by contract... okay, well can
you at least do me a favour?... I want to do a special song at the concert
and I need permission... okay... well..." Tony gave Lynne the details and
hung up. He stood and walked out to the stage where the official people
were waiting. He handed his cell phone to an assistant.
"If this rings, answer it and if it is Lynne, ask if I can sing it or
not. She'll understand." The assistant nodded and sat down with the phone
next to her. The sound check continued but was soon interrupted by the
screaming of fans out the front, Tony guessed the guys had turned up for
the meet 'n' greet. As the screaming got worse, Tony's cell rang. The
assistant answered and took the message then looked up at Tony.
"She said you can." Tony smiled and nodded then looked at the band.
"We got a new song to learn before tonight guys. Time to get crackin'."
The band sighed good naturedly, Tony was a pleasure for them to work
with. He was a musician and knew how draining it could be. With that the
group set to work learning the song. By the time the meet 'n' greet was
over and Nsync entered the stage area, the song was perfected and they had
moved on to the next song. Tony lost his guitar and stood with Fatima as
he started the next song. Nsync sat back in the seats watching Tony
rehearse and were amazed at how talented he was. He could sing, dance,
write great songs and had a source of inner strength none of them had seen
before. The only member of Nsync who couldn't watch the high energy
display was JC who looked away.
Dare to dream your dreams
Dream of what no one else knows
Dream of your delighted screams
Dream of what only you can know
Don't be afraid to dream
Dreams are what keep us sane
It's like hopes and nightmares on the silver screen
It's what says you are the one who remains
Dare to dream your dreams
Dream of what no one else knows
Dream of your delighted screams
Dream of what only you can know
Unleash your soul and dreams
Don't be afraid of what is on the inside
Only you can be brave to face what it means
Because only you know the tears you've cried
Dare to dream your dreams
Dream of what no one else knows
Dream of your delighted screams
Dream of what only you can know
Tony did the last twist and finished the routine along with the rehearsal
for his set. He then bowed and headed backstage. The group sat there,
they heard the song so many times before, but he had really belted it out
with gusto they had never seen before. Tony reappeared a few moments
later, a bottle of water in his hand a towel around his neck. Fatima went
through a few of the steps he needed to clean up and he worked through it
with her. When she was happy she hugged him and he collected his towel and
water bottle and made his way to the steps where he would be able to access
the others. As he was talking to them, JC and Tony finally made eye
contact and held it. JC was about to speak when they head a voice behind
them.
"TONY!" Tony looked up and smiled when he saw who it was. He kind of
pushed through the guys, right by JC without really acknowledging him. He
moved up to the guy and picked him up and swung him round. They hugged for
a moment and talked. As JC watched, he felt his heart break. Tony and the
stranger then moved down to the others.
"Guys, I'd like you to meet Mark." The others all looked at Tony
questioningly and JC looked like he was about to walk away. His face had
gone cold.
"Hi, how do you know Tony?" Justin asked stepping forwards.
"We're brothers." Tony told them. A total look of relief washed over
JC's face. It didn't last long but long enough for Tony to notice it.
Mark, meet Justin, Chris, Joey, Lance and Josh." He smiled. Mark shook
all their hands and when he went to shake JC's there was a slight
hesitation on JC's part to shake the hand but he did anyways. Tony smiled
at JC who smiled back faintly. Tony felt a surge of hope course through
him. Maybe the relationship could be saved. Tony was about to say
something when they were interrupted again.
"JC!" Came a happy cry. The group all looked and Tony saw Justin, Lance
and Joey flinch and saw Chris clench his fists in anger. JC had left the
group and was swining the stranger around. Tony nudged Justin.
"Who's that?"
"That, is Bobby.
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Can the relationship be saved? Here's hoping huh. What's the song Tony's
arranged? Fine out in part 18 (when I get it out).
1) This I Promise You - Nsync (I LOVE THIS SONG!)
2) Dreams - Mine
Well keep safe y'all. Feedback to above addresses. Laters,
SC.