Date: Sun, 26 Dec 1999 23:18:47 CST
From: Mystic Darkness <mysticdarkness13@hotmail.com>
Subject: Kissing Me Softly (Part 5)
Disclaimer: This is a fictional story and there is no way
that this story is true... I wish it was but it isn't. This
story does not mean anything about The Backstreet Boys or
anyone else that will be mentioned in this story.
If you are under 18 please leave.... if not enjoy.
Authors Notes:
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Hey I would also like to give a shout out to LAUREN!!!
and please if anyone has time!! go read her story: "Lucky Me"...
Please read my friend EG's story "Adam Zach and the BSB"
And Dan... DUDE!!! What's up!!!!
Kissing Me Softly
"Kevin... I'm.... I'm Wiccan. Kevin I'm a witch I follow the
religion of Wicca, and well I know that witches are not thought of
being good people but its not true. Wicca is a positive religion that
has been like given the 'thumbs up' from the government for a positive
religion. I don't believe that Satan is good... I believe that it is
evil and everything.... My god Kevin, I'm sorry if it bothers you and
all but I can't change me, it's who I am, and I am worried I may lose
you if I keep it from you and you find out," I sped out pretty fast,
but slow enough have him hear everything.
I looked at him. He really didn't have an expression his
face. He was totally dumbfounded.
***
It worried me a bit, I was really scared I might lose him. I
squeezed him tight. He reimbursed the hug, which gave me a bit more
feeling of hope.
"Rich.... woa... well lets see..." He was still dumbfounded.
"Rich I'm not going to love you any less," a huge wave relief came over me.
"But..." oh great that's not what I wanted to hear. "It will
take a while to get used to... okay?"
"Yes," I replied nearly about to squeeze him to death for
being so open-minded. This was a reason I loved him even more.
"Kevin, I love you even more. Thank you for being so open-minded, and
caring, and just you. I love you Kevin"
"I Love you too Rich." He kissed me softly on the lips. Our
lips barely touched, yet it felt like it was one of the hottest kisses
I've ever had. Why couldn't I find love before this, and have such
great feelings before? I rested my head on his shoulder, held Silver
in my arms petting her gray and white coat while looking at the candles
that were burning there. They danced across the wall slowly, and
gently. It reminded me of the love I had with Kevin, It was
beautiful, soft, and something I could feel comfortable with.
"Hey do you think we should go to bed now? I really want to
hold you in my arms, lay down and relax."
"Yeah, I would love that Kevin." I kissed him again, and we
got up from the chair, and walked up the huge staircase to my bed
room. We walked hand in hand, and at the top of the stairs, Kevin
lifted me into his arms and carried me to my room. I laughed at
his cuteness factor there and kissed him when he let me down,
inside my room.
"I love you Kevin."
"I love you Rich. Rich, Do you mind if I ask you a
question?"
"I guess," I said wrapping my arms around his waist.
"Rich, about you being a witch, does your religion, go
against mine or push away others? I mean I want to understand,
I want to be there for you."
"No babe, our religion, doesn't discriminate. But
would you mind if we drop this subject?"
"Well just one more thing, I want to say one more thing.
Rich, I love you, and I want you to know that I will be okay with
everything that you think or believe."
"Really?"
"Of course, I told you I just need time to soak everything
in." He leaned in and gave me a long, soft kiss.
I wrapped my arms tighter around him, and his hand caressed
the shape of my face. We slowly moved our way over to the bed and
soon onto it. The kissing became more intense and our tongues
wrestled in our mouths. We slowly started to peal off each others
clothing. We were both soon down to our boxers and Kevin began to
kiss at the nape of my neck, quietly whispering 'I love you' after
every three or so kisses. I moaned slightly. Kevin began to kiss
down my body, I gasped, and flinched.
"Kevin wait." He stopped, looking up at me. "Kevin um,
I'm a virgin... and well I'm scared a bit, I love you but I'm
unsure about this whole thing."
"Oh... baby, I'm sorry I shouldn't have came on so strong.
I'm sorry, I really am," he said with a bit of embarrassment in his voice.
"Kevin, It's okay, I just am not sure if I'm ready for
you. You would be a wonderful person to share myself with, but I
need time for that." I kissed his forehead, and he looked up at
me and smiled.
"So you'll forgive me?"
"There is nothing to be guilty of... Kevin, It's okay,
Now will you just hold me tonight? I want to be in your strong
arms all night. Oh but one thing Kevin, I have school tomorrow
so you're gonna have to put up with an alarm going off early in
the morning."
He nodded, smiled, wrapped his arms around me and hugged
me close. I sighed lightly and he ran his hand along my back as
I lay in his arms. I really did love him, and he loved me. I
kissed Kevin one last time, and we both drifted off sleep. I
feel asleep in his comforting arms and my head upon his
muscular yet soft shoulder.
~*~
BBBBBRRRRRR!!!! The annoying sound of my small alarm
clock rang through the room. I wriggled my hand from Kevin's
grasp and hit the alarm. The room became silent and I
covered most of myself up again with the blanket.
Just as I was about to fall asleep again I felt Kevin
Kiss my neck a few times, while he slowly pulled down the sheet
covering me. I groaned and turned over to face him. He was
beautiful even in the early morning. He laid therewith a cute
grin on his face.
"Come on, baby, you have to get to school," he said in a low,
soothing whisper.
"You had to wake me didn't you?"
"Of course baby, I don't want to see my baby get in
trouble for being late, which would limit my time with you even more."
He had a good point. I slowly rose up out of bed and he
kissed me, but I pulled back.
"Kev, no kiss morning, me have bad breath."
"I don't care, and besides you taste good all time," he
said laughing at me a bit.
I smiled and walked towards the closet to pick out my
clothes. I pulled out a pair of black pants and a black shirt
that had the saying 'Put the fun, back in funeral'. He laughed
and gave me a pair of boxers. "You like the freaky things in
life don't you?" he commented referring to my clothes.
I nodded and he kissed me on my forehead. I smiled
and proceeded to the bathroom to shower and get ready for the day.
The warm water helped me wake up and I came out of the
shower with a huge smile on my face. Kevin was not in the room
so I cam jumping down the stairs in search of my wonderful
boyfriend. I found him sitting at the kitchen table waiting
for me, no one else around. The others must have been sleeping or
something.
I sat down on his lap and he wrapped his arms around me.
"I love you, Kev"
"I love you too baby."
"Kevin... I want to thank you for being so good tome,
and so sweet."
He smiled. I could go for hours upon hours just
looking at him smile. "Well, you're someone I've fallen in
love with, therefore I'm going to be good for you."
"I love you too." He kissed me on my forehead, and
I laid my head down on his shoulder. I drank some orange
juice that he had out and grabbed one of those fruit bars.
Jen came bouncing down the stairs with a huge smile
on her face. For once I didn't have a clue in the world what it was for.
"Hey you two," she said in a peppy mood.
"Okay, who the hell are you and what have you done
with the Jen that has lived here with me?"
"Rich, can't a girl just be in a really good mood for once?"
"Yes, just you can't"
She gave me a bad look and poured herself a cup
of coffee.
Soon enough it was time for me and Jen to leave
for school. We got up and went to the door. I kissed
Kevin good-bye, over and over it seems. Jen had to pull
me off of Kevin, so we could get to school on time. ~*~
School was mostly a bore, and I forgot that I had to
stay after for this stupid tutoring thing. Jen agreed
to just stay in the library while I did this tutoring, so
that was good. Now I had to tell Kevin. I ran out to my
car and called Kevin and told him that It would be another
hour or so. He said that would be fine, would see me later
and that he loved me. I told him the same, and hung up.
I made my way to the library for my tutoring.
I really didn't like tutoring, it was boring, and well
some were just plain stupid. Today for once, I actually
had someone who had more than half an able brain.
I arrived at the library, or a lower pit of hell
(school) with Jen and we went our separate ways. I sat
down in the open area where most people met for tutoring,
and waited for J (as the school calls him, the person
I was supposed to tutor. Jason was a good person sometimes,
he is pretty nice, kind of cool, and well your athlete of
the school that actually didn't care about the popularity
stuff, even though he was one of the most popular people in the school.
After about 5 minutes of waiting, J walked up in his
usual American Eagle, or whatever preppy brand he wore. We
greeted each other and he sat down. He usually talks some more
and I asked him what was wrong, but he just said it was nothing.
I just shrugged it off and went on with the tutoring.
Soon enough 20 minutes had passed by and we decided to
take a break. He usually got up and went to grab a soda, or
something. But today, he just sat there, and stared off into
space. I got really worried because he was not acting anything
like he usually did.
"J, what's wrong? You're not acting like yourself, and well
I'm kind of worried about it, because you've only got about half
of the problems correct that we've went over."
"Nothing Rich, its nothing, really, I just am kind of
fighting with my friends, and well my parents are really pissed,
don't worry about it's not your prob."
"Your friends, your conformist egotistical friends?
I can see why you might get into a fight with them, I get into
them with them all the time. And J, yes it is my prob,
'cause I need to see you are learning something, and the fact
that you are a friend pretty much kinda makes me want you to see
you better."
"Really?"
"No that was all a lie." I dramatically rolled my eyes,
and hit him lightly on his arm. He smiled a bit. "Look J,
I'm a really open-minded person you can tell me if you need to
talk to someone."
"Okay, Rich don't freak out please, because my parents
already did, and so did my so-called friends. Rich how do I
say this." He paused for a while.
"Well usually a sentence with a subject and a verb is good."
He laughed, and tried to continue, "Rich, well...Rich,
I'm... oh fuck it... Rich, I'm gay," he mumbled out.
"Wait did you just say you were..."
"Yes, now are you going to hate me, push me aside,
call me a fag, and then kick me out of your life, and well
any shelter like my parents? Huh, Rich? Is that it? because
well here's a news flash, my life couldn't get any worse.
My family has kicked me out, my friends have gotten rid of me,
and well everything else is just falling apart."
He got up and stormed out the library doors, down into
the school's main area. I ran after him leaving my things
where they were. I caught up with him at his car. He just
sat down on the hood. Placing his head in his hands.
I placed my hand on his shoulder, and he jerked around
tears forming in his eyes. "What do you want? Are you going to
kick my ass now, because you surely can, I've seen you use
that martial arts stuff. I mean just get the fag-beating over
with and let me be."
I was shocked... I really was. "J... I don't want to
hurt you, outcast you, or lose you as a friend."
He looked at me confused, he was nearly going to cry
in front of me, and he really wasn't the person who was likely to
cry. "What? You mean?..."
He trailed off and I pulled him into a hug. He
clinged to me and shed a few tears onto my shoulder. I just stood there,
hoping he would be okay.
After a few minutes he looked up. "I don't even know
where I would have went... I don't know why I came out here, there was
no point." He looked at me and I just shrugged. "Rich, Thanks
for everything, I really do mean it. After being thrown to the
side by both my family and my friends I really need someone to talk to"
"No problem, really. And you were thrown out of your house?"
"Yeah, my dad was furious, he just told me to gather up my
things and get out of my house. All of my things are in the car."
I looked and sure enough things were piled up in the back of it.
"Hey J, ummm well since you don't have a place to stay
anymore, would you like to stay with Jen and I?"
"You're kidding me."
"No. Well, as long as you find a new place by the week of
Finals, sure."
"Really?" I nodded. He grabbed me into a very strong hug.
He was taller and stronger than me, so he easily had me begging for
air soon enough.
We made it back towards the library, and gathered up my
things, found Jen, told her what was up, and she comforted J too.
We made our way out to the parking lot.
"J, give Jen your keys, I don't think you're up to driving
well, you can ride with me." He did as I said and we both jumped
into the cars.
I called Kevin, without saying those love words
for once, and told him everything except for the reason for why
J was staying with us. He understood, and that we could have
to be hands off (and lips off). He said if I trusted J enough
I could tell him, because he felt my judgment was a good one.
I decided not to until later whenever that might be. I really
liked the fact that he trusted me. I turned off the phone, and
made small talk with J for a while. He soon brought up the fact
of himself, and questions popped up here and there.
"Rich, why were you so understanding?"
'Shit' I thought, should I tell him that I am gay, or
just make up something. "Ummm, J, you aren't the only gay one
in this school," I said rounding the street that led to my house.
"What?" His eyes bugged out when he heard that.
"Yes, but don't even try anything, I have a man."
He smiled and just relaxed. 'Well that was good' I thought.
We arrived at my house and we jumped out of my car.
We walked in as soon as Jen caught up with us.
As we walked in, Silver came running up to me and hopped
up into my arms. I loved my dog. J reached over and pet her,
smiled and we moved on. I set her down, and we entered the
Kitchen, where AJ, and Kevin just happened to be.
"Woa," escaped his mouth as he saw the two pop stars,
just sitting there.
Aj got up and made his way over towards us, followed
by Kevin a bit nervous of what to do.
"Hey, I'm AJ, this is Kevin, and you are?" he asked
extending out his hand.
"Jason, but my... friends call... me J," he stuttered,
wowed by the pop stars in front of him. He was in total shock,
and shook both of their hands. "Nice to meet you J," Kevin said.
We walked into the living room and sat down, and talked.
AJ and J quickly became friends and talked their freaking lungs out.
"Umm Rich, I don't mean to be rude, but where am I staying
tonight?"
"Ummmm..." I became nervous. If he realizes that there
are only 7 rooms and 7 people already here, well he could do the math
once I gave him an empty bedroom.
"Fuck," I whispered. "Hey AJ, Keep J busy while I go figure
that out." He nodded knowing exactly what I meant. "Kevin, could
you help me find a room."
He got up and followed me upstairs. We walked down
the halls a bit just to stop in the middle.
"Kevin, what are we going to do? What if he sees you go into
my room, or he can figure out that someone is sleeping in the same
room with someone else. My rooms don't have two different beds."
"Rich, Don't worry about it, everything's going to be okay,
It's okay if he finds out, he doesn't seem to be like someone who
would tell the world." "Are you sure it's okay?"
"Yeah baby, I'm positive." He pulled me in close into a hug.
"I've been wanting to hold you all day."
"Yeah..." I sighed.
He leaned in and gave me a soft, long kiss. His lips were
so welcoming and comforting. I loved it when he kissed me like
this. There was no tongue, but it was so sweet, and wonderful.
"I love you," I said after the kiss.
"I love you too, baby."
"Oh my god..." a voice said about 10 feet to our right.
Kevin and my head whipped around to see who said that.
We saw J standing there his chin dropped and nearly on the floor.
"Well I guess we don't need to tell him now."
To Be Continued....
Okay pplz well that is Chapter 5...
I'm sorry for the shortness of this
one but the Holidays are brutal now because its so close...
Thank you...
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