Date: Wed, 5 Jan 2000 21:22:13 EST
From: Hanhm16@aol.com
Subject: Lances Love part 11

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homosexual experiences or acts this story is not for you.  I
am not implying that anyone of the group N'SYNC are gay or
Bi sexual.  This is strictly fictional, all of the
characters are also fictional and for the entertainment of
you, the readers.Let's Get It On
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Lances Love
  part 11

    "Jamie what's wrong sweetie.  Lance can you leave the
two of use alone for alittle while." I asked my baby.

    "Yeah, no prob babe I'll be in the living room." Lance
said as his hand left mine.

    "Now tell me What the hell is going on."

    "She left me.  She left me this morning."

    "How do you know she left you."

    "She left me a note saying that she wanted to leave
along time ago but didn't want to disappoint me or upset me.
But she did both to me all at once."

    "Jamie I am so sorry but that bitch doesn't deserve you
and you know that.  She is a ugly ho dyke.  Just forget
about her.  There are more and I mean many more women out
there that would love to be with you."

    "I loved her so much though.  How could she do this to
me.  She told me that she loved me more than anyone."

    "Jamie listen you need to let her go.  Besides you knew
it wouldn't last it never does." As I said those words I
thought about what I was saying and broke down in tears
myself.  I would have to let Lance go one day, but I don't
know when that will be.  Tommorrow maybe, or even a year
from now but someday.

    "Chris, you're right about her.  She isn't worth it.  I
knew that it wouldn't last.  Lance is better than that
though.  I see something in his eyes, that I never saw in
Nicoles, when he says he loves you.  I love you and you have
been here for me and vise versa.  I always will be here with
a shoulder to lean on."

    "I love you to babes.  It just hurts me to see you cry
and to think, actually I know that it can't last.  He is
famous and his image doesn't involve me what so ever.  I
love him though.  I mean I have said that about others but
there is more to it now.  Because I know I mean it and not
just wishing that it was true.  What can I do?  How am I
going to deal with it when he does leave me.  I had a dream
and it seemed real and the scary part is it could
happen...." I sat there still crying and told Jamie about
the dream I had the night before.  Jamie's eyes began to
tear up again.  She felt for me and went to my side and
rested my head on her shoulders.  I just cried there and let
the sorrow and pain out through my tears.  It felt good to
do that.

    I hope everything is going to be ok.  I don't know
Jamie very well.  But I really should be in there trying to
help.  I really want to but Chris asked me to leave the two
of them alone for a while.  I love him so much and the only
way I can think of proving that to him is to completely give
myself to him.  Tonight we will go all the way.  I am still
scared but I will do this to prove to him that I truely love
him and want him to be with me forever.  Lance just sat in
the living room thinking about me, Jamie, and us.

    "Everything will be ok.  He is the one Chris.  The one
you need.  He means so much to you after such a short time.
I know you, this isn't lust I would see it in your face if
it was.  I bet you haven't even gone all the way yet have
you."

    "No I want to but I don't want to rush him.  When we do
it will be on his time not mine.  I would rather have him to
love than to have sex.  I love him without it so far and if
that means that it can stay this way I don't want sex." I
said as I dried the tears on my face and looked into Jamies
deep blue eyes.  She is right though she has been here with
me for so long and this is what I need to go on with my
life.

    "Dry those tears and go talk to your man.  He needs you
now more than I do."  Jamie said as she stood up.

    "I have to use the restroom. Can you tell him I will be
right out." I said as I stood to meet Jamie.

    "Sure just don't keep him waiting."

    "I won't, I promise." I watched Jamie walk into the
hallway and shut my door.  I grabbed my notepad and a pencil
and went into the bathroom.  I know how to show and express
my feelings but it is easier for me to do it through poetry.
So I decided to write him a poem.


I know how I feel
I wake up
I go to sleep
Thinking or you

I need you
At least that's what my heart says
I put all my faith into that
Is it a bad thing
I hope not

My heart has been wrong before
But this time
I hope and pray that it's not
The way I feel about you
Keeps me going day in and day out

LOVE
Is the way I feel about you
You feel the same way
Don't you?

If not let me know now
Don't keep the tender flesh
Which is my heart
Hanging above a fire of despair

But if you do
Tell me
Show me
With those Suttle eyes
Which I fall into
Make me fall into them and find
the comfort of..
Your love

BY:Chris

    Finished finally I pull the page out of the pad.  I
slowly fold the paper and put it in my pocket.  I put my
heart, soul, and love for him in it.  I walk out to the
bedroom to find Lance sitting on the bed in a very sexy pair
of boxer briefs and a smile.

WHEN I WAS WRITING THE POEM.............

    "Jamie are you ok"

    "Yeah Lance I am a lot better.  Thank you for asking.
Chris has helped me keep my head on straight, so to speak,
many times."

    "He is a great person.  I noticed that when I first met
him.  That's one of the things I love about him."

    "Lance listen.  I love Chris as a friend and brother.
If you hurt him ever just remember that you will have a
really pissed off dyke after you.  Chris is scared.  He
loves you but has realized that ya'll can't last.  If you
know ya'll can't last let him go now before he gets the
wrong idea."

    "I love him too.  You are a great friend to look out
for him like this.  I don't want to hurt him.  I will never
hurt him.  I want him to be with me forever.  It will last
even if I have to give up the group.  I will not leave him.
He means the world to me now.  I plan on giving him the last
part of me he hasn't already had.  I am going to make love
to him.  I want him to, well this is really hard to say but
I want to ask him the big question."

    "No way.  You're thinking of asking him to marry you.
Are you sure I mean that is moving things really fast."

    "It is what feels right in my whole body.  Not just my
heart.  I will stay by his side through death even if we
aren't married."

    "Lance I want to welcome you to the family then.  I
won't say anything to Chris about this.  I really need to go
and leave you two to talk.  Good luck and treat him good and
that's all you will ever recieve from him." With that Jamie
got up and left.

Present...................

    "Lance don't say anything just read this please." I
handed the poem to Lance to read.  He opens it up ans starts
to read it to himself.  I saw tears forming in those
beautiful green eyes of his.

    "Baby this is beautiful.  I do, I do love you with all
my heart and than some."

    "I love you to"

    With that I met him on the bed with a kiss.  A long
passionate kiss that makes your heart skip a beat.  Lance
started to roam my body with his large soft hands.  He took
my shirt off.  He didn't stop there though.  Before long I
was naked with him on top of me.  I took control and took
his boxer briefs off.

    He is gorgeous.  I have waited 20 years for this and I
am not turning back now.  I hope I do this right.  Before I
knew it Lance was taking my cock in his mouth.  I felt his
tongue moving up and down the shaft of my cock.  The
sensation was orgasmic.  I have had my fair share of
blowjobs but this was just to much.  I blew not once, not
twice, but three huge loads in his mouth before he finally
let it go.

    "You even taste sweet.  I want some more please."

    "Stop don't do that.  You took me to the edge and so
far over.  Let me take a breather and you get to enjoy it
all."

    With that I shoved him off of his elbows.  I wanted to
taste him since that day in the bathroom.  I took his
gorgeous piece of meat into my mouth.  It was sweeter than
honey.  I went to town up and down.  I wanted his first to
be the best he'll ever have.

    "Ohhhhhhhhhhhh Chris that is ohhhhhhhhh YESSSSSSSS.
Please don't slow down.  IIIII'mmmmmmm gonna cu" Lance
stopped talking when the force of his orgasm hit him.  He
shot load after sweet delicious load into my mouth.  I
wanted more but he couldn't give it.  Which I understood and
let him go and looked up at his glowing green eyes.

    "I love you and all I can hope for is that you feel the
same way."

    "I do baby, I love you more than anything in this
world.  I love you more than music.  Hold on I got something
for you, stay right here." Lance said as he headed to his
bag and pulled something out but I am not sure what.

    "What are you hiding behind your back Lance." I said as
Lance knelt before me and peered into my eyes.  He took in a
deep breath and opened his mouth.

    "Chris I have never felt this strongly about anything.
To know you love me and I need you.  I have only known the
love for family and not for anyone else.  What I am trying
to say is that I would die without you.  I want to die with
you.  Chris will you marry me." Lance said as he pulled out
a tiny black box from behind his back.  He opened it to show
me a silver band with the inscription writen on the top TRUE
LOVE.  That is what we felt for each other.

    "Lance" I was literally speechless but my eyes spoke a
years worth of words but all in tears and expression.

    "Well don't keep a guy down on his knees."

TBC....................

I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter.  That poem was
actually written by me.  I would love to hear what you think
of it.  I put alot into this chapter.  It may be short but
it has alot to think about.  I think that it was my best
written chapter yet.  I want to hear from you to be certain
that it was indeed that.  Email me all comments at
Hanhm16@aol.com