Date: Sat, 07 Feb 2004 12:10:09 -0500
From: joey miller <pandora0071@lycos.com>
Subject: 'Learning how to Fly'     Chapter 9

LEARNING HOW TO FLY

Chapter 9
~ Flying ~

Hi all. The incredible Joey is back with yet another chapter of this
gripping tale. Comments, praise, and criticism are appreciated and should
be send to Pandora0071@lycos.com

Disclaimer: The usual BS about how this is fiction and shouldn't be taken
seriously cause it's nothing but a figment of my imagination.

Homophobes or citizens of a state where this kind of stuff is illegal
should probably not be reading this.

***

	Nick left the group meeting as soon as he could and hurried over to
Colin's room. To his relief, Colin was there and opened the door for him.
	"What happened? Why was the rehearsal canceled?" He asked. Nick
shook his head. His eyes were red-rimmed and still shiny from the tears
that had just kept on flowing. But now there were no more tears left to
cry. He felt exhausted and tired.
	"Could you please just hold me?" He whispered. Colin nodded, took a
step forward, and wrapped Nick into his arms. Nick rested his head on
Colin's shoulder. Colin closed his eyes, relishing the feeling of holding
Nick, having him so close.

	Finally they broke apart and Nick held on to Colin's hand, leading
him to the couch.
	"The Backstreet Boys are dead. For now anyways."  He almost had to
laugh at the mask of horror on Colin's face.
	"Brian saw me leaving your room last night and started a huge fight
with me. I ended up coming out to him, which caused him to kick me out. So
we had a group meeting this morning. Brian was already threatening to leave
the band cause of me, but then Alex came out as well..."
	"Good God, I should've known!" Colin exclaimed. Now he was the one
laughing.
	"Known what?" Nick asked, confused.
	"Jamie is experimenting with someone and he wouldn't tell me who. I
should've known that it's Alex."

	"Alex and Jamie, huh? Figures."  Nick shook his head. "But
yeah. Brian lost it at that point and said that he would no longer be a
part of the Backstreet Boys."
	"Just like that? Are you upset?"
	"I don't know how I feel. I'm mad at Brian for the way he treated
me. I mean, he's been like a big brother to me for so long. He practically
raised me and I could always trust in him to be there for me. But lately
nothing has been the same between us. I've been lying to him because I knew
that this would happen. I'm just disappointed in him." Nick sighed and
closed his eyes for a moment. Colin pulled the younger man's body close so
Nick's head was resting on his chest.
	"I can't believe he did this." Nick whispered.
	"What are you guys gonna do now?"
	"I have no idea. The Backstreet Boys have been my family and my
sole purpose in life for like a century. I feel so ... lost now."
	"It'll be okay, Nick. If you need me, I'll be there to help you."

	"Could I kiss you?" Nick asked. Without waiting for an answer, he
leaned in and pressed his lips against Colin's. Colin was surprised at
first, ready to pull back, but then he gave in and melted against Nick.

When they came up for air Colin asked
 	"What does this mean?" Nick smiled.
	"It means I'm falling for you. I don't know how it happened, but I
think I am falling in love with you."
	"Well, that fits perfectly." Colin replied. "Cause it just so
happens that I am falling in love with you."

	They kissed again and when they broke apart, Colin grabbed Nick by
the hand and led him to his room. The bed hadn't been made that morning and
clothing was strewn all over the floor and furniture. It didn't
matter. Nick lied down on the bed and Colin crawled on top of him,
straddling him between his legs. He bent over to gently kiss Nicks face,
still swollen and damp from the tears. Nick closed his eyes and bit his
lip, savoring the unfamiliar but oh-so-welcome sensations shooting through
his body. Colin moved downward, exploring Nicks jaw line, neck, collarbone
with his tongue and lips. A slow moan escaped Nicks lips and Colin stopped
and looked up.
	"Are you sure you want to do this?" He asked. Nick nodded
furiously, not trusting his voice. Instead of a reply, he moved up and
pulled Colins shirt off over his head. Slowly, gently, like a blind person
reading Braille, Nick traveled the length of Colin's torso with his hands,
taking in the texture of the skin, feeling the warmth. He took off his own
shirt and leaned back on the bed, looking at Colin in nervous
expectation. Colin took his cue and fidgeted with the waistband of Nicks
jeans. He pulled down the zipper and followed with his lips, kissing the
exposed skin. He pushed the jeans and the boxers down at once and Nick
shuddered, feeling suddenly vulnerable. Again Colin paused and locked eyes
with Nick. Nick's eyes were open wide, but the look of hurt and innocence
shattered was gone. Instead the eyes fixated on Colin displayed a mixture
of desire and curiosity. Colin bent down and looked at Nick's erect
manhood. Carefully he rounded the tip with his tongue, teasing him.
	Nick grabbed the sheets and held on to them, fearing he might
explode with pleasure. Colin took the penis in his mouth, enveloping the
shaft and bobbing up and down slowly. He developed a rhythm, moving faster
and faster until he could feel Nick tensing up. Slowing down just a bit to
draw things out, he suddenly felt Nick's hands on his head, playing with
his hair, pushing him on, urging him to keep going. He continued to suck
and lick, feeling a tremor go through Nick's body as he came with all his
might. Eagerly Colin licked up the juices. Moving back up, he cradled Nick
in his arms and placed kisses all over his face.
	"Mhm." Nick closed his eyes and let a smile spread over his face.
	"How are you feeling?" Colin asked.
	"Better than I have ever felt in my life."  Snuggled close
together, they fell asleep.


Outside, the sun was already beginning to set when they woke up again.
Colin reached over to switch on the lamp on the nightstand and Nick scooted
up to rest his head on his lover's chest.
	"What happens now?" Colin asked, gently playing with Nick's damp,
blond hair. Nick sighed.
	"Well, the tour's gonna get canceled. After that -- only time will
tell."
	"Where will you be?"
	"That's easy." Nick replied. "Wherever you are, that's where I'll
be."

***

So Nick insisted on this. Really. Cause obviously, the male physique isn't
quite my forte. But I try. Hope you enjoyed it.

Much love
joey