Date: Sun, 3 Oct 1999 11:37:22 EDT
From: GADawg4242@aol.com
Subject: Life Saver Part 13
Life Saver
Part 13
Written by: GADawg4242@aol.com
Legal Disclaimer: OK if you are under 18 don't read this please! It is
against the law you know. Also if you are offended by this type of writing
or gayness then please goto another website. Also this story doesn't
assume that Brian Litrell, Nick Carter, AJ Mclean, or Carson Daly is gay so
this story is ALL fantasy. This story doesn't have anything to do with
their real sexuality. Although I wish it did. Anyway...ENJOY!
Author's Note: Wow, another BSB story. Well this is my first time writing.
All of your compliments and constructive criticisms are extremely welcome.
Just email me at my e-mail address and I will get back to you. I am going
to try to make this different from all the other BSB stories. You may see
some similarities from other stories. . . but there are so many how can I
not do some of the same things? Well I hope you give me a chance with this
and if you like it and I get enough response I will continue this. For now
thanks for reading!!!! The next part will come out ASAP. Again please
e-mail me with your thoughts.
Well guys! This is part twelve. I've been getting some good comments
from my readers and it is great to know that I have some fans out there. I
am going to continue to write but, I am going to be extremely busy with
school NOW IN SESSION! and the more support I get will encourage me to get
these parts out ASAP. As all of you know it has taken a couple of weeks to
get this part out...actually longer than that so if you are reading this
story please send your comments for encouragement....I need all I can get!
If you guys are reading this please e-mail me and tell me if you hate it or
like it. Do ya'll like my addition of Carson Daly? Do you like the fact
that Nick is gay? Any suggestions on where I should take this story? Even
if you think I should throw it in the gutter? A few people have told me
they don't like AJ being gay. Does anyone else feel this way? I will get
back to you I promise ya! Just write to me PLEASE I love all of my
readers!
If you didn't read the results of the 2nd bi-annual BSB-NSYNC awards
I didn't win anything but, that is ok. I know I have a lot of faithful
readers and people like Keith keep me going. THANK YOU SO MUCH KEITH.....
If you don't know Keith his is an author and his story is really good so if
you want to read it is called...'Keith and Brian'. Now...all of my reader.
As I have been writing I have lost track of time and I don't know
what day it is in my story and I am a lazy man....SO, I am offering an
early edition of the next part of Life Saver for the person who tells me
accurately what day the story is currently on....as in Monday or Tuesday or
Wednesday....and I mean ACCURATE.....So, whoever emails me first with the
correct day will get an early edition of Life Saver Part 11.
Well, the above paragraph only two people responded and one person
was right but, he didn't want an early edition of the next part of my
story. So now that I have the answer I am still holding the question open.
Whoever can tell me what day the story is on you will receive an early
edition of Life Saver Part 12.
Ok...the last time I had a question about the sex scenes....I didn't get
any response so I guess I am doing ok ????...if you think my sex scenes
suck...PLEASE TELL ME and give me suggestions....Also if you think the
story is boring because of the lack of sex tell me that also! Thank you
for reading and enjoy this part of Life Saver!
Hurricane Floyd is expected to hit just North of where I live. I live in
Savannah so if you want to know where that is just look on a map! I won't
be writing for a while. My house my get destroyed and I might not be
writing for a REALLY LONG TIME. If you read my story send me your email
address so I can email all of you when I get back online to write. I hope
my house is ok through the storm and I pray for all of those who are being
hit by the Hurricane other than me! I tried to get this part out before I
evacuate. It is 2:40 on Tuesday and we are leaving my house at 5!
Anyways...I still want you to comment about this part! I LOVE YOU GUYS!!!
: I asked people about the weekly question thing and people said it was
stupid and they said that the only reason to do something like that is if
people aren't reading my story. If people aren't reading my story I am
sorry that you don't like it. I will continue the weekly newsletter though
so If you want to get it please email me with your comments or just your
email address!
*********NEW MESSAGE: I am so sorry for this part being out so late!
School has tied me up so much. I am sorry for this part being so short
too. I just seem to have no time on my hands. The past three days have
been bad for me emotionally too. I don't know why. I just haven't felt to
great about myself. Hopefully, I can get over that. Well, as many of you
may know, Hurricane Floyd missed Savannah so I am all right. Thank you all
for being so considerate and sending me notes of love. My ICQ is not
working so I don't know when I will be back on ICQ. So that means if you
have comments PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE send them to my email address. Some
parts may seem stupid because I was just in a bad mood. I am sorry for
this part being out so late and I don't think that other parts will be
prompt either. All of your encouragement helps me greatly though. I may
end this story because I feel like no one is reading it and because school
doesn't allow me to work on it as much as I would like to. So if you think
Life Saver is done for tell me. I'll end it in the next chapter if you
guys want. I don't want to clutter Nifty up with a bad long story! Well
anyways, please send your comments! I love all of you guys!
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It had almost been a week since I met my favorite band and my idol.
I was sleeping in the same bed as Brian Litrell and I had met his parents.
My life seemed to be shot through a cannon and was going at the speed of
light. I had gone to bed ending my day in an argument with my boyfriend
and I fell asleep upset; knowing that Brian was just as upset.
I woke up to an empty feeling as the sun shined through the open
blinds. I turned to look at Brian and found that my bed was empty with a
note in the place where Brian has slept the night before.
Baby,
I woke up early to help my mom fix breakfast for everybody. Im
sorry about last night. I'll make it up to you Robbie, I promise. When
you wake up come downstairs ok? I miss you baby!
Love
ya
Bri-
I held the note in my hand and smiled at the though of Brian's
kindness. I pulled the heavy covers off of my body and crawled out of the
warm bed I had slept the night before. I pulled on a shirt of Brian's and
walked down the stairs to the kitchen to find everyone else sitting down
eating their breakfast. I walked over to the table and pulled a chair up
next to Brian. Brian noticed my presence and pulled away from the table
and took me into another room.
"Good morning baby....I'm sorry about last night. I just wasn't
feeling well and I took it out on you.", Brian said as he hugged me.
"It's ok Bri. I forgive you and I am sorry for not understanding
better."
"Cool. Did you get my note?", Brian asked smiling.
"Yep. I sure did! You are so cute when you want to be!",I said as
I kissed Brian on the lips.
"UHHHHH!!! Morning breath!",Brian yelled as he laughed out loud.
"SHUTUP! You are the one that asked me to come down when I woke
up!"
"I know. I still love you though.", Brian comforted me as he we
gave each other a quick kiss. "You want so breakfast?"
"I will pass on that Brian. I am not a big breakfast eater. I
think I am gonna take a shower and get cleaned up. Will you die if I am
away from you that long?", I asked sarcastically.
"Of course! I am just gonna shoot myself now to save myself from
the pain!", Brian joked.
"Don't say that stupid! I would die if you killed yourself. You
mean to much to me ya know!", I chastised him lovingly with a kiss on the
nose.
"You know you are just too irresistible!"
"Whatever Brian...I am gonna go take that shower. I will see ya in
a little while! I love you Brian."
"See you in a bit Robbie...", Brian whispered as I walked towards
the bathroom and Brian walked back to the kitchen area.
Brian walked back to the table and sat down next to his mother and
Nick. Everyone was in their separate conversations at this point and Brian
had no one to talk to.
"What are we suppose to do today Kevin?", Brian finally asked.
"Well, we have to practice at the arena today at 4 and we have to
meet with the record company about gross sales but, other than that we are
pretty much free. Although, fans will be everywhere since that were told
about the surprise concert we are giving tomorrow!", Kevin said
annoyed. looking in Carson's direction
"Hey! Don't blame me! I was only doing my job guys!", Carson
justified himself to Kevin.
"Just don't do it again lover boy!", Kevin teased Carson and Nick.
"Anyway! What do you wanna today Carson?", Nick asked his
boyfriend.
"How 'bout we go to the mall and shop? I wouldn't mind getting some
new clothes for your tour.", Carson smiled.
"Ok, maybe Brian will bring Robert and he can show us some cool
stores! Ay Brian?", Nick said poking at Brian.
"Yeah, sure Frack. I'll ask Robbie and if he wants to then we can
go.", Brian gave into Nick' request.
"Just don't forget about practice and our meeting with JIVE records
aight!", AJ reminded the other guys.
"No problem AJ! Come on baby! Let's go take a shower and get some
clothes on!", Nick proposed as he pulled Carson out of his chair and ran
off to one of the showers in he massive house.
I walked downstairs once I had finished my shower and getting
cleaned up for the day. I saw Brian sitting by himself on the couch
watching tv. I slowly made my way over to the couch and I laid my head in
Brian's lap and gave him a puppy dog look. Brian couldn't contain himself
and began to smile uncontrollably.
"What! What are you doing! Why are you so cute!", Brian screamed
in laughter.
"I dunno....I guess I am just in love.", I said innocently.
"Yeah...I would hope so. Because I know I love you more than
anything in this world!", Brian said as he kissed my forehead. "Nick and
Carson want me and you to go to the mall with them today. Wanna go?"
"Sure...but, don't we have other things to do today?"
"Yeah, but, we should have enough time to go to the mall anyway."
"If you say so then sure! I would love to go to the mall. As long
as you get to go!"
"Well, Nick and Carson are getting ready to go so I think I need to
go find some nicer clothes then these and I need to go get a disguise. If
anyone recognizes me then our day at the mall is ruined.", Brian said
cautiously.
"Well, ok. Let's go find you a disguise and get my shoes on and we
can go.", I stated as I helped Brian off the couch and we walked hand in
hand up the stairs to his room.
Once Nick and Carson had gotten ready all four of us piled into
Brian' car and drove off to the mall. Brian parked the car in a reserved
space for him and his family and we all exited the car. Brian had selected
a Kentucky University cap and dark Oakely glasses while Nick just tied his
hair up into his hat. Carson felt that no one would recognize him so he
didn't disguise himself. We all followed Brian into the Abercrombie and
Fitch store and started to browse throughout the store. I went with Brian
and Nick went with Carson.
"I love this store Brian!", I said as I looked at the rack of plad
shirts.
"Yeah, I like this store too. What do you think of this shirt?",
Brian asked as he held a shirt up to himself.
"Well, I think it is too dark for you. I think you looked better in
light colors. But, whatever you like, I like so if you want it get it!", I
gave my opinion.
"Well, I don't like it anyway!", Brian laughed.
"Brian! You are such an idiot!", I said punching him lightly in the
stomach.
"Yeah, Yeah, I try for ya!", Brian sighed as he kissed me quickly on
the cheek. I touched my cheek where Brian had kissed and went into a daze.
Brian waved his hands in front of me and I finally woke up.
"You ok baby?", Brian asked concerned.
"Yeah, you just surprised me Bri.", I said gasping for air. I
walked over to another rack of shirts and saw one I particularly liked.
"How about this shirt?", I asked as I held one up to Brian's chest.
"Oooh. I like this one a lot!", Brian said staring at the shirt.
"Me too! You wanna go try this one on?", I asked smiling heavily.
"Sure, would you like come with me?"
"Yeah, but, what would the people already dressing think when they
see two guys going into the same dressing room?"
"Oh, yeah, I never thought of that. Well, I let's find some more
clothes and then we can go in the dressing area together but, not in the
same room aight?", Brian suggested lovingly.
"Sounds like a good idea to me!", I agreed. Brian and I continued
to rummage through the store and we found many clothes that we liked. We
piled the clothes into a cart and carried them into the back where the
dressing rooms were. I got into one and Brian got into the one adjacent to
me. I hung up the clothes I had selected on the hook and took off my
clothes so I could try on the new clothes. As I pulled on the shirt and
shorts I felt like someone was watching me. I stopped in my track and
looked up to see Brian peering over into my room over the wall.
"Will you get down!", I screamed, laughing hysterically.
"Sorry...." Brian whispered as he hopped down and began trying on
his clothes. I had finished changing on my clothes and picked out the
clothes that I was going to buy. I opened my door to see Brian sitting in
a chair, just outside the dressing room. I walked over to him and sat down
wondering why he was being so timid.
"Im sorry for yelling at you.", I apologized.
"You didn't yell at me. You were just punishing me; in a way.",
Brian spoke with a sarcastic grin.
"I didn't mean to make you mad. I was just look out for you. You
know I still can't believe the things that have happened to me lately and
everything you do is a surprise to me. I don't know how to react
sometimes. Will you forgive me?", I asked cautiously.
"Uhuh, I wasn't mad at you. I just like hearing you talk." Brian
confessed as he laughed and gave me a quick hug.
"You are so crazy...you know that?", I giggled.
"Crazy for you babe! Anyway, let's go buy these clothes and get out
of here. We have practice and that meeting to go to.", Brian reminded me.
Brian and I went up to the cashier and bought our clothes. Nick and Carson
followed behind us and we all headed out to Brian's car to head over to
Rupp Arena for practice and the meeting.
We arrived at Kentucky University and got out of the car quickly as
to not get caught up in the crowd of screaming girls. Brian held my hand
tight as we ran towards the Arena and got through the back door in record
time. Brian quickly kissed me goodbye as we went our separate ways. I
went towards the stage to practice as Brian went into an office to meet
with the record company.
I walked into the Arena to hear the band warming up. I walked on
the stage and saw Tim on the drums making sure they were all in tune. I
grabbed my trumpet and went over to my stand with my music I began to
warm-up with lip slurs. It was good to play the trumpet again. I went
into my own world as I did the one thing I love to do. Tim tapped off each
song as we went through them with ease. I was getting more and more used
to the routine as we went through it time and time again. I knew exactly
when to throw in a trill or when to improvise. After a break we went
through the show again and fixed all of the kinks. As we finished our
practice I saw Brian walked onto the stage with the other guys laughing and
playing with each other as they came towards me and the rest of the band.
"You've got a pretty talented boyfriend there Brian.", Tim commented
on my talents.
"Yeah, he's pretty good at what he does. I'll give him a treat for
being a good boy when we get home.", Brian teased me. I stared at Brian
angrily and he came over to me and wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Well boys! What are we gonna do for entertainment tonight!", AJ
said excitedly.
"Yeah Brian! Are there any good clubs here in Lexington?", Howie
asked curiously.
"Well, yeah but, none that Robbie can get into.", Brian said
disappointedly.
"I am sure we can get him into a club Brian. Come on! We are the
BSB! And you and Kevin are from here!" Howie complained.
"Yeah, I guess so. Let's go back to my mom's place and eat before
we go aight?", Brian proposed.
"Good idea, Frick. Come on guys! Let's go and get to Brian's
house! I am starvin!", Nick said in a southern accent.
We rode to Brian's house and ordered pizza's for all of us. I at
Pepperoni with Brian and everyone else had everything on it. We finished
the pizza and got cleaned up to go to the club.
We had all gotten ready and decided to take two separate cars.
Brian took his own car with me, Nick, and Carson while Kevin took his car
with AJ and Howie. It took about 30 minutes to get to the club and by the
time we were there it was about 9. Brian and Kevin walked up to the front
of the long line waiting to get inside and talked to the security guard.
Brian waved over to us and we were all allowed in. As I passed the guard
he grabbed my arm tightly and pushed me aside.
"Where do you think you are going boy? You think you can use the
Backstreet Boys to get in here free? I don't think so! Go home kid!", the
man yelled at me.
Brian stopped inside the club and made sure that everyone had made
it inside ok. The guys all got in a huddle and waited to be seated at a
private bar table.
"How many people do you have in your group Mr. Litrell?", the woman
asked trying to keep her star-struck emotions in check.
"Well we have 5+2 so that makes 7 of us.", Brian stated.
"I only see 6 people Brian...I mean Mr. Litrell.", the woman
stuttered telling Brian that his counting was wrong. Brian looked around
and noticed who he was missing.
"Hold on! I'll be right back!", Brian yelled at the girl as he
raced to the door. Brian exited the club and saw me sitting down across
the street on the curb with my hands crossed.
"Why didn't you let him in with us?", Brian asked the security guard
angered.
"Because he was using you to get in this place for free!", the guard
stated his position.
"That guy is one of my best friends. He was suppose to get in here
with us!", Brian screamed at the man.
"I am sorry Mr. Litrell. It won't happen again.", the guard
recoiled.
"That's right it won't happen again!", Brian yelled at the guard a
last time. Brian walked over to me sitting on the curb and sat next to me.
"You left me out here Brian!", I said sarcastically mad.
"I am sorry Robbie. It is all my fault. I understand if you hate
me.", Brian said as he leaned his head on my shoulder.
"Brian, you are such a ditz! You actually left your boyfriend
outside the club! Geez!", Brian insulted himself.
"You aren't a ditz. You are just a dork!", I teased him. Brian
looked up from his sob and smiled.
"Shaddup! I didn't too!", Brian complained.
"Well, we can fight about this all night but, I wanna have a good
time so let's get in there!", I suggested forcefully.
"Good idea baby!", Brian agreed as he gave me a hand off of the
curb. We walked towards the door as Brian eyed down the guard with an evil
star.
"Let is go baby! We are here to have fun ok?", I whispered into his
ear.
"Alright...come on babe.", Brian finally gave up as we walked in the
club and sat down where the young woman had sat the other guys. Brian and
Carson were on the dance floor and the rest of the guys were drinkin' it
up. Brian slid into the booth and I sat next to him.
"Did you get left outside Rob?", AJ asked laughing.
"Yeah, I guess you could say that.", I said looking at Brian.
"Well, I don't know about you guys but, I am gonna go dancin' SEE
YA!", AJ screamed as he ran out onto the dance.
"I guess I am gonna go with him...see you guys later.", Howie said
as he followed after AJ.
"Do you want anything to drink?", Brian asked sincerely.
"I'll just have some water."
"Ok, Is it ok if I have a beer? I am really stressed out right
now.", Brian asked timidly.
"I don't care. You are old enough to make your own decisions.", I
said matter-of-factly.
"Ok, thank you baby.", Brian said as he pecked me on the lips and
went towards the bar to get our drinks.
"You better watch what he drinks. Because when Brian gets goin' ,he
has a hard time stoppin'!", Kevin warned me taking the final sip out of his
beer bottle.
"Looks like you aren't doing to well there yourself Kevin."
"Yeah, well I warned you so don't go running to me when Brian does
somethin stupid.", Kevin said as he walked out on the dance floor.
Brian walked back over to the table with my water and his beer. I
scooted over and took a sip out of my water taking what Kevin had said to
heart.
"I am not really in the mood to be here right now Brian.", I yawned
out of boredom.
"Why not?", Brian asked surpisedly.
"Because, I am not a dancer. I never was and I never will be. I am
a musician. I can't dance as good as you can Brian and I am not going to
make a fool out of myself by trying ok.", I said taking another sip out of
my drink.
"Well, let me teach you how to dance.", Brian asked.
"No. I don't want to. I am tired and I would like to go home.", I
said pushing Brian's hand off my arm.
"How are you gonna get home?", Brian asked angrily.
"I could walk. Or I could catch a cab or bus. But, I would prefer
that you take me home."
"Well, I am not going home.", Brian said standing his ground.
"Why not?"
"Because I am here to have a good time. I have had a boring day and
I haven't been to a club to have fun in a while. I am in my hometown and I
have seen a lot of my friends that I haven't talked to in a long time. So,
you can stay here with me and party or you can be a party pooper and go
home. You don't like to have fun?"
"I don't call drinking having fun Brian!"
"I have had one fuckin' beer and don't even start that shit!", Brian
warned me.
"I wasn't implying anything Brian. Kevin warned me about you and
drinking and I just don't want to see you get drunk."
"Yeah, well, whatever, I don't have a problem with drinking! So get
over your concern. I am going to dance so you can come with me or stay
here."
"I want to go home Brian."
"Go home then!", Brian yelled as he went on the dance floor. I sat
in disbelief as to what had brought this fight on. I didn't know he was
mad at me. I thought he would respect my wishes but, as he had shown
tonight he can't. I left a tip on the table and walked out of the club
towards the road. I waved for a cab and gave the driver the address of
Brian's house. I walked into the house to see Brian's parents sitting in
the living room watching TV.
"Hi Robert. Where is everybody?", Jackie asked smiling.
"They are at a club. I wanted to go and everyone else wanted to
stay so I left and caught a cab home."
"Even Brian didn't want to come home with you?", Jackie asked
curiously.
"Yeah, even Brian didn't want to come home. Well, Mrs. Litrell, I
am going to go to sleep. Goodnight.", I whispered as I walked upstairs
into Brian's room sat on the bed. I was still in shock from what had
happened earlier at the bar. This was the first real fight of me and
Brian's short relationship. I had no idea where Brian was coming from and
I was too tired to figure it out. I took off my shirt and my shorts and
slipped into the bed with my boxers on. I fell asleep wondering if Brian
was still mad at me and wondering if we would make-up the next day.
Brian pulled into his parents drive-way with Carson and Nick making
out in the back of his car. It was 4:30 in the morning and Brian was drunk
out of his mind. He had had an angel watching over him as he drove to 10
miles from the club to his house. Brian walked up to his house and was
laughing uncontrollably. He found that his house was unlocked as he opened
the door and he found that no one was awake. Brian took off his jacket and
climbed up the stairs to his room and pushed open the door. Brian turned a
bedlamp on and saw that I was in his bed cuddled to a pillow.
"You are such a baby Robert. I can get drunk when I want to and I
can have a good time when I want to.", Brian giggled out drunkenly.
"Oh yeah? Well, I can slap you when I want to and I can kick you
when I want to and I can even break-up with you WHEN EVER THE HELL I WANT
TO!", I screamed at the drunken Brian on the floor.
"Oh shit, Fuck you ok. I am goin to bed!", Brian yelled back
pulling of all of his clothes so that he was naked. Brian pulled himself
up onto the bed and tried to cuddle with me.
"Did you hear what I just said Brian?", I asked furiously.
"Yeah, somethin about slappin and...and....break-up...", Brian
stuttered.
"Yeah, B-R-E-A-K U-P! BREAK-UP! Understand?"
"Break-up....break-up...", Brian repeated to himself trying to make
sense of the words he just heard. "NOOOOO, please, Robert....I am sorry.
Don't leave me! Please Rob...", Brian cried out as he realized what had
just happened.
"Good Night Brian.", I said as I turned the bed-lamp off and rolled
over not thinking twice.
I woke up to a bright morning and to an exhausted Brian still
asleep. I looked at him in disgust and went over to my suitcase to get
some clothes for the day. I walked into the bathroom and took a quick
shower and did all of my cleaning up for the day. When I got out of the
bathroom Brian was still asleep so I walked downstairs to see if any of the
other guys were here. I saw everyone eating breakfast just as the day
before so I decided to join them. As I sat down Kevin whispered something
into my ear.
"I told you so." I looked Kevin in the eyes and he understood the
pain I was feeling. He leaned over to me and hugged me.
"I hope he didn't do anything stupid.", Kevin said trying to console
me.
"Well, let's just say me and him aren't on the best of terms right
now."
"Did you break-up with him?", Howie asked curiously.
"No but, I made him think that I did. So don't tell him that I
didn't break-up with him. I hope he learns something from this.", I said
as I finished up my cereal.
"Knowing Brian, there is a 50 50 chance.", AJ commented.
"Here's for hopeing.", I whispered to myself as I crossed my
fingers. I walked into the living room and as I walked past the stairs
Brian was at the bottom. I stopped in my tracks and stared into his eyes.
I woke up from my trance and walked past him and sat down on the couch.
Brian shook off the chill that he got from seeing me so angry and
sad at the same time. He could tell that I was extremely upset and he
could do nothing about it. Brian walked towards the kitchen grasping his
head.
"Momma, do you have any asprin?", Brian asked in pain.
"Yes sweetie, are you ok Brian?", Jackie comforted her son.
"Yeah mom, I just have a killer headache.", Brian explained.
"From what?", Jackie asked knowing the real answer.
"I dunno...I just woke up with it.", Brian lied.
"I think it was something else but, I am not going to doubt my son.
I hope you feel better son.", Jackie said hugging her son and kissing him
on the forehead. Brian poured himself a bowl of cereal and ate it staring
off into space. After he had finished eating he ran up the stairs and
proceeded to take a shower and get clothes on. Around 130 Brian came
downstairs to join the rest of us and he sat as far away from me as
possible. I kept a disgusted look on my face as Brian buried his face in
his arms. The day flew by as Brian and I stayed away from each other as
much as possible. When we ran into each other we would stare and then move
on.
We got ready to leave Brian' house to go to the Arena and Brian
tried to came up to me as if he wanted to ask me something.
"Do you wanna ri...", Brian was cut off by me asking Kevin if I
could ride with him to Rupp Arena.
"Nevermind then. Come on Nick!", Brian yelled as he drooped his
head and slowly walked to his car.
"I think you and Brian need to talk before the concert. Brian is
not going to have a good concert if he is like this.", Howie commented as
he again blamed me if the concert went bad.
"If I forgive him now, then he is going to think he can get away
with it again. I don't want him to get drunk again. He insulted me and he
insulted himself! I can't take that again!", I answered Howie' comment.
"Here we go boys! Off to another concert!", Kevin said excitedly.
"OH Whoopy!", I said sarcastically.
"Oh cheer up Robbie! You get to show off your skills!", AJ said
laughing.
"What do you want me to say! OH BOY I AM SO THRILLED!!! Is that
better?"
"Uhuh!", AJ answered pleased. The ride to the arena was not so
great for me. I found myself staring outside the window very often and I
saw thousands of girls screaming as we passed by getting closer the the
venue. Kevin parked the car and we all went through the back gate with our
passes. The Arena was already packed with people and it was a good 2 hours
before the start of the show. I warmed up quickly for about 30 minutes and
got my lips nice and mushy. I saw Brian sitting on a couch in the dressing
room crying with Nick by his side comforting him. I couldn't do anything
to help Brian. Brian made a mistake and everyone knows you have to pay for
your mistakes. Show time was nearing faster and faster and Brian was still
crying off and on the whole time. The band got together for our final
warm-up and then we got into our circle to pray for a good show. Brian led
the prayer while sniffling:
"Heavenly Father, We come to you in our highest blessings as we pray
for another great show. We pray that you give us the power to come
together and give performance of a lifetime. Also, I pray that you forgive
me for everything that I did to the one person I truly love. And I pray
that that person will forgive me as well.", Howie continued the prayer and
as the prayer ended Brian walked over to me.
"I am sorry Robert. Please forgive me.",Brian pleaded.
"I don't care Brian! No!", I said not changing my decision. It was
time for me to run on the stage and get ready for the show.
The lights went out and the Rupp Arena went crazy. The BSB ran out
on the stage as the volume level went up and we began "Larger than Life',
the song went great as Brian belted out his part. He was mustering up all
the emotion he could to get through the concert. His dance moves were
slower and he seemed to be staying mostly stationery. We went through ' I
Want it that Way' and 'Show me the Meaning of Being Lonely' with ease. We
started 'It's gotta be You' and ran through it perfectly at the end of the
song fireworks were suppose to go off right in front of the boys. The song
was at the end and the fireworks exploded as we ended loudly with a lot of
metal guitars and drums. I was smiling at the other band member because I
knew we had nailed that song. Then I looked over at the boys. Brian was
on the ground and everyone was screaming as Kevin yelled for help.
"Oh my god.......OH MY GOD!!!! BRIAN!!!! NOOOOOO!!! PLEASE GOD
NOOOOO!!!", I screamed as I ran towards Brian.