Date: Mon, 11 Dec 2000 11:35:20 -0800 (PST) From: Cody Phalpher <eternaleyes2000@yahoo.com> Subject: Loneliness Knows Me By Name Loneliness Knows Me By Name - Chapter 4 Disclaimer : If you are not at least 18 or of legal age to view sexual content please leave now and if you're offended by homosexual experiences or acts , this story is not for you.This story is pure fiction.I don't know anyone from the Backstreet Boys as a friend or whether they are gay or bi. All the characters except the celebrities and my friends are fiction and non-existing Bonjour. This writing is great. I've been writing three installment and I know I have a few grammar mistake because of my typing and so on...please sent me an e-mail to inform me of the errors I've done, please? Thanks a lot!!! And now, here it is...chapter 4 ____________________ Previously on chapter 3 : *In my room* 'What a day...Nick must be back in his room after I agreed to wait at the lobby for some sort of surprise...but he didn't show up, what a promise-breaker..." I thought. As I walked into my room,I felt another presence in there too. "Who is it? Nef? Is that you?" I called out to the person laying on my bed. 'Nef ain't that tall and her shoulders ain't that broad either...who could it be?' I thought again. The shadow rose from the bed and started to carresed my cheeks with is hand and gripping my crotch with the other. As he was right in front of me, I realized who it was..."Brian" ___________________ Chapter 4 : "What the hell are you doing here !?" I shouted. "Hey...I thought that you like what I did, didn't you? " Brian asked looking down at my crotch which as a matter of fact really, really hard ! " That is not the point, you are suppose to be married with Leighanne !!!!" I said . "Screw her...she's just a slut that I paid to cover my sexuality. " He answered. "You're gay then? " I asked flatly. "Correction, I'm bi 'cause Leighanne can really give good head. " He said. The door was already open and we didn't realize who had stepped into the room. As I notice it...to Brian's left, there was Nick. Standing there crying. "Nick ?" Brian said. "HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO ME BRIAN??? HOW COULD YOU!!!" Nick said crying hard. "Nick...I...didn't know you liked him at all cause I thought you were straight...could you forgive me, please?" Brian said. "You didn't asked me whether I'm gay or not ? " Nick replied. "You didn't either and I'm not gay...I'm bi." Brian answered. Without hearing what Brian said, Nick stormed out the room...passing Kevin, A.J. ,and Howie. Leaving confused looks on there faces. "Howie, you go get Nick and asked him whats the problem. A.J. and I will go look for Brian. The guys split up and Kevin with A.J. went to look for Brian. By now, Brian left my room leaving me with confusion and a little...you know, unexpected 'lil thing ie. "What just happened here?" Nef said entering the room. "I just saw the BSB Brian Littrell leave your room...what just happened?" she continued. "Honestly..I really don't know either...honest." I said and started to cry. 'So Brian is gay and Nick now thinks I'm in love with Brian, why is everything so...so screwed up?' I asked myself. 'How am I going to tell Nef ? I hope she would handle things fine...I hope'.So I took the first step and told Nef about what just happened in here (Which it was a HUGE misunderstanding don't you think?) *Nick's room* 'Why did Brian do this to me? I never said that he was gay or anything? Now I have to fight for the guy that I have a crush on. Thats bad enough but fighting with Brian? It's like fire putting out the water and water burning things!!!' Nick thought. Then suddenly *Knock**Knock*, "Who is it? " Nick asked. 'Could it be Brian? I hope not!!!' Nick thought. "It's only me, Howie," the stranger said. Nick let out a big sigh. "Thank god." Nick said stressfully. "Whats going on? Have you been arguing with Brian? 'cause if you did..it's like fire putting out the..." Howie said but was interrupted by,"I get the picture so drop it and leave me alone, please?" Nick said with a saddening tone in his voice. Howie gets the picture and leaves saying," If you ever need me buddy, I'm in room 1109. My door will be always open for you, okay? Seeya! " Howie said an left. Nick just stared at Howie as he left the room and he started crying. *At the hallway* Brian was running after Nick but he knew Nick was already far from him. Kevin and A.J. ran towards Brian. "What has happened to Nick? And look at you...you look like shit!!" Kevin said. "Well, Nick kinda knew that I was bi and he kinda freaked. I guess." Brian reply. "You didn't tell him??? I thought that you are his best-friend? You should have told him that you were bi a long time ago!!!" Kevin said raising his voice. "I'm sorry but I hate rejections and especially from my best friend!!!" Brian says sadly. "I know, Brian." Kevin said in a lower voice hugging Brian. *Nef's room* "So ,that is how it ended." I said finishing my explanation. "So now, Brian is bi and Nick is freaking out...that would be like fire putting out the..." Nef said. "Okay, okay, I've had enough of that sentence already!!" I said, interrupting her. "Anyways, are you interested in Brian then?" she asked. "Nope, I think I'm starting to like Nick and that's final." I answered. 'But I think that Nick is a homo and even a biphobic...what am I to do now? Think Cody...think!' I thought. "But, if Nick freaked when he knew that Brian was bi, how would he think about you? " Nef asked, as if reading my mind. "I don't know what to do...really, I don't," I said. *The next morning in Kevin's room* "Morning all !!" A.J. greeted. "One, two, three and four. Where is Nick? Howie, can you go fetch Nick please?" Kevin asked. "Sure ,no prob!" Howie said and left the room. "Nick? Wake up, Nick ..." Howie called outside of Nick's room. "Yes?" said a groggy voice, the door opened and there stood Nick. "Man, Nick...I mustn't say this but you look like SHIT!!!!" Howie replied. Nick was in a mess, his hair were sticking out in all directions and his eyes were like the eyes of a panda bear. "Here, let Howie the stylist get you all clean up." Howie said again. In 10 minutes time, Nick look as good as new !! "Well, I guess that I'm not so bad in this after all!!!" Howie said laughing to cheer Nicks depression. "Where are we heading? " Nick asked. "To Kevin's room, you gotta tell us what's up with you and Brian!!! " Howie said sternly. As they reached the room, Kevin was leaning against the wall, A.J. sitting on the couch and Brian sitting on the chair. "Morning everybody..." Nick said uncheerfully. "Somebody woke up on the wrong side of the bed this morning?! "A.K. said with a smirk. *At that same moment* The hotel's restaurant : "What is the big idea?! Waking me up so early in the morning ,you know that I am all groggy and grumpy in the morning? I'm not those morning birds you know!! " I said. "Hey, I had to get you off your mind for a while, and the party is today...no point avoiding them," she said. 'You know., I'm scared 'cause I'm starting to think that she is right, and thats scary!!!' I thought as my expression turned blue then yellow then back to normal. "Anyways...I'm going 'there' to practice my voice, where are you going then? " I asked. "Maybe I should follow you just to make sure you don't do anything silly." she said. We arrived at 'that' place, it's an old abandoned house in a very secluded area. I usually go there to practice my singing.(I'm majoring in musics,mind you!) The place is calm and very inspiring. We took our positions, me practicing my vocals while Nef plays the portable-keyboard. We practice for a good 45 minutes and were starting to get tired, so we headed for the hotel. As we walked in, we were knock down by a guy. "WoAH!!!!" Nef and I said in unison. The stranger held his hand up offering us help. "I'm sorry..." he said as I realized who it was. " MARTIN????" I shouted. in my excitement, I leap towards him, giving him a kiss. *Kevin's room* "Nick, are you upset because that Brian is bisexual? " Kevin suddenly asked throwing everybody off-guard. " B, you didn't tell 'lil Nicky here that you're bi? " A.J. asked. "Why does everybody knows that Bri was bi except me?" Nick said. "Well, 'cause I thought you might freaked unlike the other guys..." Brian said. "Hey, I'm not freaking here and what makes you think so? I'm gay for your information," Nick said. "WHAT?" the four of them shouted in disbelief. "You didn't say anything about that, Nick. Are you the 'in the closet' type?" Howie asked. "Nope, I would have told you guys if you just bother to asked!?" Nick replied. " Little Nicky is finally growing up!" A.J. joked. Nick was totally surprised with the way the guys received the news. "Aren't you guys mad at me or something?" Nick asked with a little surprised tone in his voice. " <sigh> What a relief, by the way Nick...why did you freaked then?" Brian asked. 'Could it be that he isn't used to me dating his friend, Cody.' Brian thought. " Nothing really." Nick replied, his answer not sounding too convincing. 'I may have to fight with Brian to gain Cody's love, I guess.' Nick thought. *In my room* "When did you arrived here at NYC?" I asked as I cuddled up in is arms. "Just yesterday, I was about to call you but since I know which hotel you're in, I thought it would be best that I dropped by to say hello!" Martin answered. He then places his hand on my thigh an squeezes it . _______________________________________ This installment doesn't have much of a sex scenes...might just come up later. Again I would like to apologize for the grammar mistakes I had on no.1,2 and 3. If you have any suggestions on the story, please send it too the following address :<eternaleyes2000@yahoo.com>.I will try my best to reply all the e-mails. I might just put you in my story, pairing you with Brian ,A.J. , Kevin or Howie...thats all I can do for this chapter and the sex scenes, I like to take it slowly so I hope you stay tuned. Buh-bye!!!