Date: Tue, 05 Sep 2000 18:15:08 EDT
From: Adam I <aci_85@hotmail.com>
Subject: Loneliness Unmasked - Chapter 16

Legal Disclaimer - This story is ficticous. If you disagree with men being
intimately together, then do not continue. If you do not like to read about
The Backstreet Boys and NSYNC in gay roles, then stop. This story contains
both boy bands, and some pop divas, all of which are not presumed to be gay
in real life. This story is just that, a story.

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**Chapter 15 left off with a big shock. Howie gave Brian head. In this
chapter you will find out what is going to happen in the aftermath of it
all. Basically how Kevin, Brian, Justin, and Howie are going to handle the
whole situation.**

**I used your e-mails and ideas, so you should like this if you had input
in.**

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CHAPTER 16 - AFTERMATH

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STUDIO DRESSING ROOM

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Brian was still on the floor crying. He heard the door close, and assumed
Howie had left. In fact he had, but Nick had entered. Nick heard the muffled
sounds, and was confused to find Brian, naked, on the shower floor. Crying
was the other thing confused Nick, he didn't think Brian was that upset
about Justin's sickness.

"Brian, are you okay?" Nick grabbed him and helped him to his feet. Brian
just shook his head, muttering out nonsense to Nick. Nick grabbed a towel
and wrapped it around him. "Come on, let's get you dressed." After drying
him, Nick helped Brian dress, and then looked at him for an answer. "What
happened Brian?"

"I didn't mean to, I didn't want to. I tried, I couldn't stop it. I love
Justin." Nick didn't understand a word of what Brian was trying to say. He
knew that it obviously was something bad, he had never seen Brian cry so
hard. He tried to piece it together, but the only thing he really understood
was that Brian loved Justin, something he had always known any ways.

"Brian, start from the beginning. And think clearly." Nick talked calm,
wrapping an arm around Brian's shoulder for support.

"Um, I went to take a shower. And I was masturbating, ya know, because
Justin's sick. Howie, he, he, started blowing me. I tried to stop him, but
it was to late, and I came. And I love Justin, I didn't mean to cheat on
him. I didn't want to. I love him, I can't lose him." Brian broke down
again, the moans following his words. Nick was shocked, he couldn't believe
what he was hearing, but instinctively pulled Brian into a hug.

"I know, and he knows that too. I'm sure he won't leave you. He loves you
too." Nick tried to think of something to reassure Brian, to make him feel
better. "Maybe you should stop crying, and forget about it. Get in some
practice, and we can talk about it later, when we can really be alone." Nick
said, trying to get Brian to wipe away his tears. Brian nodded, and grabbed
his towel. Wiping away the tears, he stood.

"Thanks Nick." Brian wrapped around him in another hug. The two left the
room, and headed out towards the stage. Brian and Nick both stared with evil
eyes at Howie, Kevin looked at them but shrugged it off. AJ was busy talking
to Brittany and Christina. Nick thought that would be the best place to go,
and so they made there way over there.

"Hey guys. Where ya been?" Christina questioned, looking at a sad Brian, and
a worried Nick. She wanted to know what was worrying her boyfriend. Brian,
tried hard, but burst out into tears again, breaking down into Nick's arms
again. "Um, Brian, are you okay?" Christina was worried, and so were the
others. Kevin and Howie didn't hear it, but Brittany and AJ along with
Christina all were shocked to see the break down.

"He's fine, just a little problem." Nick answered, not wanting to tell every
one.

"Do you want some water, or something?" AJ questioned, with a total look of
disarray on his face. Brittany grabbed him and held him still to calm him.
Letting him know it probably wasn't anything serious. "What is? What's the
problem?" AJ now asked, looking for an answer.

"Brian, do you want to them?" Nick asked hesitantly, rubbing Brian's back to
calm him.

"I, I, I um, Nick tell them." Brian couldn't, he started to cry again,
barely having enough time to get out his few words he did manage to say.

"Well, Brian was in the shower, and um, Howie came in, and before Brian knew
it, Howie was giving him head. He made him, ya know, cum, and Brian didn't
want it to happen, it was to late for him to stop it though." Nick told
them, hoping they would all understand. Christina, wrapped her arm around
the both of them. AJ wrapped his arm around the three, and attention turned
to Brittany. She had anger in her eyes.

"I have to tell Justin. He has to know." Brittany's words were hitting Brian
like a knife. He didn't want to tell Justin, and he didn't want him to hear
it from some one else.

"Please, Brittany, please don't tell him. I will, I just, I love you, I
didn't mean to do this." Brian cried out, loud enough that the walking away
Brittany, and Howie and Kevin heard. Kevin ranned over to see what was
happening, but Howie slowly walked behind.

"What, what are you going to tell him?" Kevin asked running over. Howie had
now caught up, and was getting evil looks from everyone.

"Get the fuck outta here Howie." AJ barked, causing a weird reaction from
Howie and Kevin. Kevin had no idea what had happened.

"What did he do?" Kevin barked back at AJ.

"Maybe he sucked off Brian in the shower, with out Brian's permission." AJ
barked back, the arguing dying after his comments. Kevin looked at Howie
with pain in his eyes.

"Is it true?" Kevin asked.

"Um, let me explain." Howie tried to speak, but was to late. Kevin was gone,
running out of the building. Howie took chase, as Brittany returned to
Brian.

"You have to tell him Brian, or else I will." Brittany wasn't being
sensitive, and she knew it. She wasn't even trying, she knew what she wanted
and she was making it perfectly clear.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I love him." Brian kept uttering the words over and
over again. Fatima called off rehearsal, and Nick decided it would be best
if he drove Brian home. Christina went along. Pulling into the house Nick
looked at a still crying Brian.

"Are you ready?" He looked over to see if Brian was ready for what layed
ahead.

"No, but I have to." Brian's cries were filled in between the words, as he
opened his door. Nick and Christina followed, and as the door entered,
Jackie was seen in the kitchen. She made a hush with her finger, and ushered
them to the kitchen. Still not aware of her son's tears.

"Brian, what's wrong?" Brian fell right into her arms. Sobs rolling down his
face. He made no motion of speaking, leaving her eyes on Nick for an answer.

"Howie, um, Howie gave Brian head. Brian didn't want it, he didn't, he
tried, but it was to late. And he came." Nick tried to use words that were
appropriate around elders, but found none to replace the ones he had said.
"He loves Justin, he really does, and he's sorry. He didn't want it to
happen."

"I know Nick, I know." Jackie ushered them towards the door with her hand.
They did as they were told and left, leaving Brian and his mother alone in
the kitchen. "You can have some time to think, Justin is asleep." Jackie
knew Brian wanted to tell him, but knew he also didn't.

"Okay, I'm gonna go out back and think." Brian walked out of the house, and
into the back yard. Falling into a chair, his tears enveloped him. He didn't
want to lose Justin, he couldn't. He meant to much to him, Justin would
understand. He hoped he would, but then got second doubts. Knowing Justin
would be upset is what hurt him the most.

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BRIAN'S HOUSE - DINNER TIME

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Brian and his mother sat in the kitchen eating some chicken. Justin still
had no clue that Brian was home, as he was still sleeping. It had been
almost a good 10 hours since Brian arrived home, and he had stopped his
crying, but still was obviously distraught.

"Well, what are you going to do?" Jackie asked, nervous to hear an answer.

"I don't know. I love him, I can't lose him. But he has to know." Brian
stated what he knew he had to do. Partially to tell his mother, but more to
tell himself that it was a reality.

"I'm sure he will understand honey. Just explain to him how it happened, and
that it wasn't your fault." She tried to give ideas and suggestions for the
next 15 minutes. But nothing sank into his mind. He pondered until dinner
was done, and went to the living room. It was time for him to face the
music.

"Justin." Brian shook Justin, trying to keep his mind off crying was going
to be tough. He knew if he showed tears, that Justin would know something
was wrong. Looking up, a smile crossed Justin's face. He uttered no words
when his mouth opened, and gave up on talking. He leaned up and hugged
Brian. Brian's hug was not as strong, and Justin could tell.

Releasing the hug, Brian took a seat next to Justin. Justin leaned back,
relaxing on Brian's chest. Brian wrapped his arms around Justin's body. The
moment was something Brian wanted to last forever. What he was about to say
could end that.

"Um, babe, I have to tell you something. When I went to rehearsals today, I
got a shower. Well, I was jacking off, and then um, well, Howie came in, and
he tried to blow me, but I pushed him away." Justin jerked away at the
comments, but then relaxed and layed back down. Brian knew what would come
next would get the same reaction, only most likely he wouldn't lay down
again. "Well, he started again, and since I was jacking off, I couldn't hold
it, and he made me cum. I tried to stop him, I really did, I love you. It
was an accident." Brian made pleads, but stopped when he realized that
Justin had moved from the position he was in.

With his finger and hand, he made a signal that he wanted a pen and some
paper. Brian grabbed the sheet on the stand next to him, and handed them to
Justin.

'Its okay. I believe you. I know you wouldn't cheat on me. I still love
you.' Justin handed the paper to Brian, and was surprised to hear Brian's
tears flow down. He looked back, as if questioning why.

"I'm just happy. I thought you would have left me." Brian wrapped tight to
Justin. Pulling him close, and rubbing his chest with his hands. "I'm so
sorry, I really am." Brian started apologizing again, as Justin took the
paper.

'I know, and you don't have to apologize any more. But how are Howie and
Kevin?'

Reading the paper, Brian looked down towards Justin. How lucky he was for
Justin to forgive him so easily. For not leaving him. He lost himself in
staring, and felt himself beginning to get hard, before reviving himself.

"Oh, um, I don't want to talk about Howie." Brian answered, almost tearing
up again. Justin smiled, and felt himself becoming weak again. His arms fell
limp, and he practically fell right into sleep. Brian could only smile,
pulling the covers up over both bodies, Justin's and his own.

"Brian, where are you?" 2 hours had passed since Justin had dozed off. In
those two hours, the phone had rung a whopping 10 times. He knew most of the
calls were probably for him, but he didn't want to move from Justin. He
could no hear his mother walking around the house, most likely carrying the
phone for him. Entering the living room, she quieted seeing Justin asleep.
Brian pulled out and slipped off the couch, he didn't want to, but he had to
take the phone call.

"Who is it?"

"It's Howie." Jackie gave a disgusted look and handed her son the phone. She
walked away towards the kitchen, as Brian headed for his office upstairs.

"Hello."

"Brian, listen."

"Howie, I don't want to talk to you."

"Brian, please, just hear me out."

"Fine, you have one minute."

"Alright, I'm sorry about today, I really am. It's just, I couldn't help
myself. It was an urge, and you were there, and I had the chance. You had to
have felt some thing, you moaned and you didn't try and stop me the second
time."

"I didn't have a chance to stop you."

"Yes you did, you had all the chances you needed. Admit Brian, you felt
something too."

"I didn't feel anything Howie. I love Justin. All it was to me was a major
fuck up."

"Kevin and I broke up."

"So, do you want me to counsel you, and comfort you."

"No, I'm just saying since I don't have a boyfriend, and once you tell
Justin you won't have a boyfriend, may be we could hook up."

"Whoa, first off, I would never date you now Howie. And second off, I told
Justin, and he doesn't blame me."

"Oh."

"Oh is right, now to end it, I would never date some one who would do
anything so mean to my cousin, or for that matter me and my fiance. It's
gonna be a while before I can talk to you again, being bandmates is going to
be tough enough." And with that Brian hung up the phone.

Brian angrily walked out of his office. He made his way downstairs, into the
kitchen. His mother stood with questioning eyes, as Brian took a seat by the
counter.

"Well, are you going to tell me what happened on the phone, or am I going to
have to use my mother's intuition?" Jackie quiestioned, looking with a smirk
at her son. She was hoping to get him to laugh, failing, she waited for an
answer.

"He wants to be my boyfriend." It wasn't much, just a little simple thing.
He didn't state the whole conversation, just the main reason Howie had even
called.

"And you turned him down didn't you?" Jackie's questioned seemed like an
idiot was speaking to him. Brian only laughed and nodded his head yes.

"Of course mom. He thought Justin would have dumped me. To tell you the
truth, I thought Justin would have dumped me. And when he didn't even get
mad, I realized that I was the luckiest guy in the world." Brian smiled,
saying multiple things in one combination. Jackie couldn't help but let out
a small laugh.

"I know son, I know. You and Justin are both lucky, you found each other.
Now, go upstairs and freshen up, you should go to bed soon, if you want to
get up tomorrow." Jackie smiled, pointing towards the clock. 10:45 was
ticking by, Brian didn't say anything, only nodded and headed towards his
bedroom.

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STUDIO

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The day was going by fast. It was 3 in the afternoon and rehearsals had
started at 7. Every one was talking again, except for the few. Brian was not
talking to Howie, and neither was Kevin. The same went for Kevin who would
not speak to Brian. Brian didn't understand it, but didn't press the issue.
Howie followed Brian around all day, practically begging him to leave
Justin. Brian angrily walked away each time.

"Alright guys, you have an hour and half to eat and break. Then we will
start rehearsing the ending act, with all of you." Fatima barked, clapping
her hands. Groans and Moans were all she recieved as the groups disbanded
towards the snack table.

Brian fixed himself a plate of food, and headed towards the dressing room.
He was followed by Nick, AJ, Brittany and Christina. Kevin sat by himself in
the corner, while Howie chatted with Fatima. Entering the room, Brian too a
seat on the couch and was surrounded by his friends.

"So, did you tell Justin?" Brittany was the first to ask the question that
was plaguing everyone's mind.

"Yes, I did." Brian smiled, not even looking up. He continued to munch away
on his food. Leaving the results of what had happened, up to them to
question.

"And?" AJ looked around the room, noticing that everyone else was about to
ask the same question as he had done.

"Well, he understood. Said it wasn't my fault, and knew I still loved him."
Brian answered smiling. His smile was large, and covered his entire face, if
that was possible.

"That's it?" Christina asked a little shocked, getting a nudge from Nick.
She didn't mean to say it rude, but was surprised that Justin had taken it
so well.

"Oh, he wants Howie to join us one night when he is feeling better." Brian
didn't want to make the joke, but couldn't help but tease the group of
friends that stood around him. "No, seriously though. Howie called me last
night, and he wanted me to dump Justin for him."

"You didn't think about it did you? It's a no answer straight out. Right?"
Nick looked at Brian in shock, waiting for the answers to the questions.

"Of course not. I said no right away. I've just been thinking about Kevin
and all. He won't talk to me, I guess he thinks that it is somehow my
fault."

"I'm sure he will get over it. It will take him a while, since it was his
first boyfriend. But I'm sure he will find another one, and get over it." AJ
wrapped his arms around Brittany. They made an odd couple. AJ with his
freakish look, and Brittany with her young beauty. Odd enough, they did seem
to love each other, something Brian knew all to well for himself.

"I just wish he wouldn't take it out on me. I didn't do anything. I didn't
want him to jeoperdize his and my relationship. I wish he knew that I would
never hurt him like that. I'm his cousin after all." Brian stated out flat,
setting down his now empty plate of food. "I think I'm gonna run to the
house and check up on Justin quickly. Any one wanna come?"

"Sure, I'd love to." Brittany smiled, anxious to see Justin. It had been two
days, but it seemed longer. She was still a little worried that Justin was
sick, but knew he was getting better. "Ya wanna come Bone?" Brittany asked
her boyfriend, using a nick name he hadn't heard in a while.

"Why not?" AJ and Brittany followed Brian to his car. Leaving Nick and
Christina alone in the dressing room. The only smiled, before grabbing each
other and passionately making out. Outside, Howie was working up the nerves
to talk to Kevin.

"Kev, could we talk?"

"No, I don't want to talk to you Howie."

"Please Kev, I wanna apologize."

"I'm listening."

"Alright, hear me out before you say anything. It wasn't my fault about what
happened. I walked into the bathroom, and I saw Brian in the shower. He
called for me, so I went to see what was going on. All of a sudden he pushed
me down, and put his dick in my mouth. He started fucking my mouth, and I
didn't know what to do. I tried to pull out, but he pulled me back. And
that's what happened. I didn't trick him, he tricked me." Howie's lie had
taken time for him to think of. He had tested it, over and over again,
before his discussion with Kevin.

"Howie, I ain't believing that shit. My cuz would never do that to me, or
Justin. You on the other hand, are always trying to get some. From a girl, a
guy, me, and then Brian. Just give it up, and back off. It's gonan be a
while before either of us will talk to you. And you still have to deal with
Jutstin."

"Oh, like Justin is such a big deal for me. All I have to do is raise my
hand, and tell him Brian is mine and he'll back off." Howi laughed.

"What did you say?" Kevin stood in anger.

"I was just joking man. I wasn't serious. I would never hit him." Howie was
starting to get a little fear in his voice. He backed away, and Kevin took a
seat.

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TWO DAYS LATER - 8:00 p.m. - BRIAN'S HOUSE

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"Hi mom." Brian walked into his kitchen. Just returning from work he was
beat. He had all the hopes of getting a shower, and heading to bed. "How was
Justin?"

"Fine, he threw up once today. He's awake now, he's been waiting for you. He
didn't get to see you yesterday at all." Jackie had discouraged Brian
yesterday when he went to bed on arrival of the house, but Brian didn't
listen. He had been tired, just like he was today, but he knew he would have
to see Justin.

"I'll go talk to him for a while." Brian turned to walk away.

"Brian, how's Howie handling this?" Brian didn't want to answer the
question. He knew he couldn't tell his mother about Kevin and Howie, so he
had to make it seem like Howie was single all along.

"I don't care mom, why?"

"Well, because you and Justin seem to be handling it well, so I wanted to
know if he was." Jackie didn't understand why Brian wouldn't answer the
question. "He's one of your best friends Brian, he made a mistake. Maybe you
should forget and forive."

"I will, but not yet. I'm gonna go talk to Justin now." Brian didn't wait to
see if his mother was finished talking to him. He turned and headed straight
towards the living room. Justin was sitting on the couch, flipping through a
magazine. He fondled the page he was on, running his finger on it. When he
saw Brian, he smiled. "What ya looking at?" Justin turned the page, to show
him that it was a picture of him. Brian smiled back, taking the magazine and
setting it down.

"Mom says you were sick today. You okay?" When Brian took his seat, Justin
fell down onto him. Resting his head on Brian's chest. Brian couldn't help
but smile. It was like an instinct now, something they couldn't help but do.

"Yeah, I'm fine." Justin's voice was still hoarse, but he could talk now. To
Brian it was a surprise, he hadn't known this. He thought Justin still
didn't have  a voice.

"I'm glad to hear you again." Brian chuckled, running his finger through
Justin's curls. "I've missed your voice."

"I missed talking to you." Justin smiled up, loving the touch of Brian's
hands in his hair. "I've been waiting for you. I haven't seen you for a day
and a half." Justin stopped his smile. It as obvious that he was visibly
upset that Brian hadn't seen him in days.

"Sorry about that, I was really tired." Brian didn't know how else to
apologize. He knew he should have stopped in the living room when he
returned the night earlier, but he was to tired to think right.

"I'm tired all the time, but I manage to get up when you come home. I waited
yesterday, and when I heard you come in I was so happy. Then when you didn't
come to see me..." Justin stopped, trying to clear his throat. "I almost
started to cry. I know it's stupid, but.."

"It's not stupid babe, I'm sorry. I know how hard it must be to lie around
all day, and not get to see your friends. And then when your fiance doesn't
stop in, it makes it worse. I'll tell you what I'll do, I'll call off work
tomorrow, and send my mother out. It'll be just me and you tomorrow." Brian
smiled, intent on keeping the promise he was making. Even if it caused an
arguement with management, he was prepared to fight.

"You don't have to, really, it's not that big of a deal. Any ways, I'm sure
the guys will want you to practice. You missed a couple days of work
already, with me, and then with the Howie thing." Justin's voice trailed off
as he ended his sentence. Not because he was losing it again, but because he
was coming close to crying. It was true he had forgiven Brian, but the
thought of another man bringing ecstasy to Brian hurt him straight to the
heart.

"Justin, please, don't talk about it. It will only cause us to fight. Now,
I'm calling off tomorrow no matter what." Brian changed the subject, hoping
Justin wouldn't cry. He wiped away the tear forming in Justin's eye, and
smiled. "I'll make you a great dinner, soup and some crackers." Brian got a
laugh out of Justin with that. It was all Justin had been eating the past
few days, but none the less he knew it would be great. It would be the first
meal he had with Brian in a while. "I'm really tired babe, I think I'm gonna
grab a shower and hit the hay." Brian stood, to Justin's disappointment.

"Okay. Good Night I guess." Justin was showing his disappointment in his
face. He was intent on notting get mad or sad, but it was obvious to Brian
that he wanted him to stay.

"Never mind, I can shower in the morning." And with that Brian slipped off
his shirt, and slid back down. Justin smiled, relaxing in the same position
he had been in before. "I love you Justin."

Brian waited for an answer, but didn't get one. He was upset that Justin
didn't say anything, but when looking down, he could tell that Justin was
sound asleep. And probably had been before he even said that he loved him.

Morning came quickly for Brian. He managed to pull out of Justin's grasp and
get a quick shower. Afterwards he sent his mother out with some cash to shop
and get lunch and dinner. He called up the studio and told them he wouldn't
be in. They were upset but he didn't stay on the phone with them long enough
to get upset himself.

After talking to management, he decided he should wake Justin, just to say
good morning. He so wanted to kiss him, but he knew he couldn't risk getting
mono. If it wasn't for being on tour he would have said the hell with it,
and gone for it, but not this time.

"Justin, it's time to wake up." Brian shook Justin. Justin rolled, but
didn't open his eyes.

"What time is it Jackie?" He must have forgotten that Brian was staying home
today. Brian only smiled.

"Well, if you really want my mom, I guess I'll head to work today anyways."
Brian laughed, and fake turned. Justin shook up, with hurt in his eyes.

"No, no, I just forgot." Justin was about to get up, when Brian pushed him
back down gently.

"I was just teasing you babe. Just stay put, I'll take care of anything you
want." Brian's laughter was slowly beginning to fade, as Justin did as he
was told.

"I thought you were really gonna leave." Justin pouted. "I'm mad at you
now." Justin mocked anger, as Brian just smiled.

"Then theres no need to stay, except for this." Brian turned and took a seat
next to Justin. He quickly grabbed him, and started sucking at his neck.
After suceeding in making a hickey, he smiled. "I can still do that with out
getting mono."

"I wish you could kiss me." Justin was acting as if it was his fault. "I
guess that's why you had to jack off the other day. But ya know, I can still
jack you off, that wouldn't hurt me." Justin tried to make up for it.

"You aren't going to do anything today. I will be the one taking care of
sexual needs babe." Brian smiled, winking at Justin suggestioningly. "If
your up for it that is."

"Sure, I'm up for it." Justin smiled back, knowing very well what Brian was
talking about. Brian slid down on Justin, lightly pulling down his pants.
Justin shivered at the brush of cold air against his crotch, but was met
with the warmth of Brian's mouth.

Brian made laps across the bottom of it with his tongue, being careful not
to make Justin cum to quickly. Justin was in the mean time moaning, and
panting heavily. Usually it took long for that to come, but Brian knew it
would take a lot out of Justin. Brian waited until he felt Justin constrict,
and then sucked as lovingly as he could. Taking in all of Justin's juices,
he finished and stood. Pulling Justin's pants up, and smiling.

"Thank" "hhhhhh" "you." Justin let out in moans, as he was visibly tired and
out of breath.

"Go to sleep babe, I'll wake you when lunch is ready." Brian really didn't
have to say it, as Justin was already practically asleep. Brian lost in
staring, barely realized that the phone was ringing 10 minutes later.
Rushing he ran to the kitchen to answer it.

"Hello"

"Bri, it's Kev."

"Oh, hey Kevin. I guess you are finally talking to me then."

"Sorry about that, I just had to cool down some. But there was something I
wanted to tell you."

"Yeah, sure what is it?"

"Howie says you forced him. That before he had a chance you were cumming in
his mouth. I don't want to believe him, but I don't know who to believe any
more."

"Kev, just think about it. I love Justin to much to do that. And I would
never do that with your boyfriend, not to my own cousin."

"Well, that's what I thought any ways. But Howie and I are broken up now. I
hope you and Justin dind't break up."

"No, we didn't. Justin didn't even seem to be upset about it. He said it
wasn't my fault. I was surprised by it, I know if he had done that to me, I
wouldn't have been able to forgive him so easily. I guess I'm just lucky."

"Yeah, I think you are little cuz. Afterall your first boyfriend was the
one. Mine was a horny freak. I guess it just proves my bisexuality isn't
meant to be. I'll just go back to being a normal hetero with Nick and AJ."

"What ever works for you cuz, what ever makes you happy. Well, I can't talk
much longer."

"How come?"

"I called off work today remember."

"Yeah, but they didn't tell us why."

"Well, the other day I didn't talk to Justin at all. I didn't even stop into
see him. It really hurt him, so I took today off to be with him. I sent my
mom out, so it's just the two of us."

"Ewwwwww, do I sense a little sexual expedition?"

"Well, I don't mean to brag Kev, but I sorta put him to sleep only 15
minutes ago."

"Whats to brag about? You put him to sleep so what?"

"No, I put him to sleep because he was out of it."

"Yeah, usually when you are sick, you usually do get out of it alot."

"Kevin, listen to me. I tired out Justin. I put him to sleep afterwards,
because he was out of breath, and tuckered out. Do you understand now?"

"Oh, I get it. Didn't understand you at first, sorry. I guess I should let
you get back to him." Kevin felt stupid on the other side of the phone. He
couldn't believe that he didn't get the hint.

"That's okay, I have time to talk. You can keep me company while I make his
lunch." Brian wanted someone to talk to, he didn't want to wake Justin, so
talking to Kev was the next best thing.

"If your sure, I guess I have some free time." Kevin wanted to talk as well,
he just didn't want to seem anxious about it. "So, Justin really didn't get
mad?"

"No, he didn't. I was shocked, I thought my life was going to be over, and
that he would have left me. But all he did was wrote down that it wasn't my
fault, and he believed me. My love for him would have grown ten times
stronger at the point if it wasn't already the strongest it could get."
Brian found himself caught up in his words. Going on and on about his
relationship.

"That's great to know Justin, but you don't have to brag about it. We all
know that you have it great. But some of us, don't." Kevin was getting
annoyed on the other line. He didn't enjoy listening to Brian talk about his
great love life, while Kevin had just lost his boyfriend, because of him.

"Sorry cuz, I really am. It wasn't fault that any of this happened. But
believe me, if I could have stopped it, I would have. I never would have
wanted to hurt you or Justin." Brian apologized, he knew it was the right
thing to do. Not only that, but he had a soft spot for the things like that,
and always found himself apolozing for things.

"I know it wasn't your fault. Sorry for getting pissed about it. Anyways,
what's for lunch?"

"Well, I was thinking some chicken soup, oj, and a few crackers. Only if
he's up for it though. I don't want to wake him, I just wanna let him
sleep." Brian smiled, relaxing into a stool at the kitchen island. He took
out a can and began to open it with the can opener.

"What about dinner?" Kevin interrupted the noisy background of Brian's house
to question the other meal of the day.

"Oh, chicken soup, oj, and a few crackers." Brian repeated the same thing he
had mentioned for lunch, causing a laugh from both himself and Kevin.

"Great, sounds like a perfect meal day. How's he doing though, really, is he
fully recovered, or what?" Kevin finished off his laughing, made his small
joke and went to what was bothering him. He was unsure if Brian should be
sexually pleasing him when he was still sick, and wanting to know if he in
fact was still sick.

"He's still tired, and weak. His voice isn't great, and he definetly still
needs more rest." Brian answered the question, wondering why it was plauging
Kevin so much. Although he knew the answer was because Kevin was always
concerned with every thing. That's why he was the father of the group.

"Are you sure you should be, ya know, pleasing him then? I mean if he's
still weak, you can't make him lose his breath. It isn't the smartest thing
to do in that type of a situation." Kevin started lecturing, but was caught
with a small ahem from the other side of the line.

"Kev, trust me, he's fine. Any ways, I wanted this day to special, to make
him feel better. Not feel better physically, but mentally. I gotta go
though." Brian answered back to the lecture, and decided that he better be
getting off the phone. He had been talking for twenty minutes, meaning
Justin had slept for half an hour.

"Alright, I'll talk to you later."

"See ya." Brian clicked off the phone. He placed it down on the counter, and
went back to the soup. It would take him half an hour to get the meal ready,
and then he would see if Justin was awake. Serving him lunch in bed would be
romantic. Then maybe a bubble bath together, and a candle lit dinner. After
Kevin's speech, Brian decided that there had been enough sexual pleasing,
and the rest of the night would just be romantic.

The thought of romance slipped from Brian's head, as sadness filled in. It
couldn't be very romantic, since Justin couldn't kiss him, and he couldn't
kiss Justin. But he knew Justin would love it just the same, as long as they
were sharing the romance, it would be a great evening.

Brian flicked on the stove, and set down the soup. Thinking in his mind, he
went to the phone. Clicking it on, he dialed up the number of his cell
phone. He had given it to his mother so they could keep in touch while she
was gone.

"Mom, hey it's Bri."

"Hi, how are things going?"

"Great, where are you?"

"I'm just at the mall, you caught me right before I entered a store."

"Oh, well, I just wanted to talk to you, kinda bored right now."

"Why is that?"

"Well, Justin is taking a nap, and I'm making lunch. I already talked to
Kevin, so I figured I would call you."

"Really, how is Kevin?"

"Great, he says the guys are doing good too. They all got practice off
today, so we have to catch up tomorrow. Which is going to be tough."

"I know, but I'm sure you will get right back into the groove of things."

"I bet I will too. Any ways, one of the reasons I called is because you can
probably go home after tomorrow. I'm sure he will be up and moving by
tomorrow, and I can take you to the airport for a flight."

"That would be nice, I should be getting back home anyways, god knows how
you father and brother are managing with out me." Jackie laughed as her soon
did too. She could only think of how messy her house was. How the dishes and
laundry would be stacked up. "Well, I'm going to get back around 10 tonight,
I hope that isn't too early."

"Don't worry it isn't. I'm thinking about lunch, then a dinner, followed by
a nice bath, and then bed." Brian smiled, relaxing on the kitchen stool
again. Glancing back he noticed the soup was getting close to done. "I gotta
go though, the soup is almost done for lunch."

"Alright, I'll be home later tonight, love you."

"Love you too mom, bye" Hanging up the phone, Brian turned to get in view of
the soup again. Seeing that it was now about done, he decided he should wake
Justin first.

Walking out of the kitchen, Brian could hear moaning. He knew it to be
Justin's. Upon walking in the living room he saw that Justin was sleeping.
He could tell that Justin was having a dream, and from the moans, either a
really great one, or a horrible one. He didn't know if he should wake Justin
for the happy dream, or save him from the bad nightmare.

"Justin, Just, wake up." Brian took the first option, hoping he wouldn't
make Justin mad. Justin flinched up quickly, breathing heavily. Looking
around his eyes focused in, and he could make out Brian's form above him.

"Lunch time already." Justin looked up, smiling. Sitting up he looked into
Brian's eyes. He could see a little frustration in them, and didn't get the
picture at first.

"I told you that you didn't have to get up all day. This is supposed to be a
day for you to relax with out any worries." Brian let out the words behind
the frustration. Trying not to be mean, he was only trying to make the day
special.

"Sorry." Justin frowned, laying back down and pulling the covers up over his
body. Grabbing the pillow he had been using he put it over his face. He was
obviously a little mad that Brian had gotten upset. Brian just shrugged,
nothing he could do about it, except get lunch.

Brian grabbed the soup off the stove, turned it off and proceeded to the
center island. Pouring the soup in a bowl, he put in a spoon. Grabbing a
packet of crackers, and the oj he had already poured while on the phone, he
proceed to place it all on a tray. He was hoping Justin wouldn't be mad,
especially not with everything he had planned.

"Here you guy Just, a warm lunch." Brian entered the living room, Justin's
head still under the pillow. Justin barely moved to acknowledge that Brian
was there. Brian knew what might work, setting down the tray on the floor
next to the couch, he lifted Justin's upper body. Justin let out a slow moan
of anger, but was quickly set back down. Brian had managed to place himself
down behind Justin, and allowed Justin to lean back on him. Justin
insticitively relaxed as Brian picked up the tray and placed it on Justin's
lap. Followed by wrapping his arms around Justin's chest. "Eat up babe."

Justin took a few sips of the soup, and realized it needed to cool down a
little before he could take any more. "Ya know, I'm sorry for getting mad.
You were just trying to make me feel better." Justin frowned at his own
anger, thinking of how childish he had been about the whole thing.

"It's okay, I shouldn't have gotten mad myself. But let's forget about it."
Brian smiled, clutching Justin tighter. It was something he loved, and it
was something Justin shared a love for too. The touch of their bodies was
electric. As Brian clutched tighter, Justin could feel Brian's crotch right
up against his leg. The feeling began to arouse Justin too.

"Um, do you want me to handle you?" Justin smiled, turning to face Brian.
His smile was wide, as he could tell that Brian was getting the picture loud
and clear.

"No, you shouldn't do anything that would make you lose your breath. We're
just gonna relax, and take it slow today. Two nice meals, and a nice warm
bubble bath together." Brian smiled, thinking of cold trying to make his
erection go down. It would be hard, it had been a while since he had been
pleasured by another person. And the last person wasn't even Justin, it was
Howie. The thought of Howie turned him down right away.

"Alright." Justin pouted again, laying back down, and starting on his soup.
He smiled when Brian kissed his neck quickly, knowing that Brian was right.
"When is your mother coming home?" Justin changed the subject, his smile
still on his face.

"Um, around 10. By then I think you should be asleep. But she is leaving
tomorrow, I figured you would be up for coming to practices with me." Brian
brought up his opinion, looking to see if Justin felt the same way.

"Oh, so I am going to the studio tomorrow?" Justin questioned, not quiet
understanding what Brian was saying at first.

"No, my mom will leave tomorrow night. So after that, I was hoping you would
be able to make it into practices with me. We only have 5 days left before
the tour starts." Brian was hoping this would convince Justin that he would
be able to make it to rehearsals with him.

"Alright, I guess I will be up for it." Justin smiled, in his mind he
thought that he would be. But at the same time, his body was still telling
him no. He was tired, and obviously slow as he yawned often.

"Maybe you should get some sleep. I'll wake you for dinner." Brian smiled,
releasing his hold around Justin's chest.

"I don't want to get any sleep, at least, not by myself." Justin smiled,
giving Brian a pleading look in his eyes. Brian just smiled and laughed,
wrapping his arms around Justin again. Setting the tray on the floor, Brian
pulled the covers up, covering both himself and Justin.

Justin was soon asleep, having flipped himself around so he was lying with
his head on Brian's chest. Brian smiled, adjusting his arms to lie around
Justin comfortably. Justin moaned in his sleep, Brian knew these moans were
from a great dream, and found himself sleeping to the moans.

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THURSDAY - STUDIO

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Tuesday had ended quickly for Brian and Justin. After dinner, Justin and
Brian shared a bath together, Brian bathing Justin. Justin fell asleep in
the tub, and Brian made sure the water stayed warm. Jackie Litrell returned
at 10:30 to find them both asleep in the bedroom. She soon went to bed too,
after planning a flight for Wednesday at 8:00 p.m.

On Wednesday Brian went back to work. Justin stayed at home and slept most
of the day. His voice had by then now been fully recovered, and all that
plagued him was the sleep. Brian returned from work at 6, and he and Jackie
left the house. Leaving a note for Justin in case he would have woken up
during their departure. Brian and Justin watched a movie, and went to bed at
12.

Now Thursday, Justin and Brian woke up at 7, and were at the studios by
8:30. Justin was still tired, and had been placed in the dressing room to
sleep. Brittany and Christina had stayed with him, talking until he fell
asleep. Brian practiced with the guys, giving Howie dirty looks through out
the songs. He didn't know how Justin would handle it when he saw Howie.
Especially since Justin hadn't seen him yet, and it would be the first time
since the whole scandal. 12:00 rolled around quickly as the group prepared
for there tour.

"Alright guys, lunch break. Go to the dressing room and send out Brittany
and Christina." Fatima yelled as the guys walked away. She had been the only
one who had witnessed Justin's arrival besides Brian, Brittany and
Christina. She had some slight worry that Justin may not have been up for a
visit, but let it off as Brian's decision.

"Well, where's Justin today Bri?" Howie questioned as the guys neared the
dressing room door. He smiled at the thought of the same place he had
debautchered his relationship with Kevin. He thought it over and decided
that they weren't right for each other any ways.

"In the dressing room sleeping." Brian answered the question, only shrugging
off the smile. He decided it would be best if he just put it behind him and
talked to Howie. Not best for him, but best for the group. "And I don't want
any of you to mention any thing about what happened. I know he handled it
fine, but I don't know what he'd do if we started talking about it." Brian
now gave a sharp warning, not just to Howie but to everyone. Opening the
door, Brian walked in the others following.

"Hey Britt, Fatima wants you two out there now." AJ grabbed his girl, giving
her a kiss on the cheek. "Hurry up and maybe we can get a joint break for
dinner." Brittany ran out of the room, hoping that they would be able to
make it to a dinner together. Christina and Nick kissed for a few seconds,
before Christina followed. Pointing to the sleeping Justin and then making a
quiet signal with her fingers.

"Well, you guys wanna head over to a McDonald's or something?" AJ looked
around after wiping his face with a dry towel. Nick shook his head in
agreement. Brian hadn't noticed that Nick and AJ had become closer while he
had been away and busy with Justin. Apparently there girl friends kept them
together alot, enough to make a bond that Brian used to share with Nick.
Kevin agreed with a nod as well, leaving Brian and Howie left to decide.

"I'm up for it." Howie smiled, standing next to Kevin. Kevin just backed off
a little, in obvious disgust.

"Let me see if Justin wants to go." Brian turned to wake Justin. Justin was
sleeping on the couch, no pillow or blanket. He was shaking slightly, but
seemed to be sleeping peacefully besides that. "Um, I don't know if I should
wake him. Could you just bring me back a burger meal?" Brian didn't want to
wake Justin, nor did he want to leave.

"He doesn't need to sleep, he's fine now." Brian went to speak but Howie was
already shaking Justin. Justin looked up to see him, and shook on the couch
into a sitting position. He could see Brian behind him and the others behind
him. "Come on, we're going to get some food." Howie smiled, as Justin just
looked on in anger.

"Sorry about that." Brian sat down next to Justin, placing an arm around
Justin's shoulder. AJ and Nick began to leave the room taking Howie with
them. Kevin trailed behind shutting the door. "Do you want to go?"

"Sure, I guess so." Justin stood up, dizzy a little. Brian held on to him as
they walked to the exit. Justin got into the car in the back with Nick, AJ,
and Kevin. Howie was driving, leaving Brian to sit in the passenger's seat.
Howie pulled out, the car silent for a while.

"Put on the radio." AJ broke the silence, waiting for Howie to do so.
Flipping it on, he found a station. The station just happened to be playing
'The Meaning of being Lonely'. Brian smiled, knowing he wouldn't be lonely
any more, not as long as he had Justin. In the back AJ and Nick felt the
same for there girlfriends. Kevin sat thinking, of how he was still lonely.
Howie was in his own world, not even paying attention to the radio.

"Ya know, I think that was one of our best songs." Nick said, smiling after
the song had finished. No one else really answered verbally only shakes and
nods. Justin didn't make any motion at the opinion, he only stared at Brian.
Waiting for the car ride to end, so he could sit comfortably in something
that wasn't moving.

"Well, we're here." Howie smiled, jumping out of the car. Running to the
other side of the car quickly he got the door for Brian. Brian looked at him
awkwardly and then at Justin.

"What are you doing?" Brian was confused.

"Just trying to make up for what I did." Howie smiled, in his mind he was
thinking it would make Brian reconsider his offer days earlier.

"Maybe if you wanna do that, you should get Justin's door. But, never mind
because I don't think I want you to do anything for him. I'll get it." Brian
stepped out of the car, and turned opening the back door. Helping Justin
out, a smile crossed his face. "Come on Just." Brian grabbed Justin's hand,
and they walked into into Mc D's followed by every one else, Howie dragging
last.

After every one had ordered. They took there seats. Three to a side. Brian,
Justin and Kevin sat on one side, Nick, AJ, and Howie on the other one.
Justin didn't have a meal for himself, just a drink.

"So, what's planned for the tour so far?" Howie questioned, breaking the
silence that had filled the table. He gave an awkward look at Justin,
causing Justin to feel a little hurt.

"Well, we start the 10th on the tour bus. Our first date is on the 12th in
New York. Then we travel around for a while. The whole time on the bus. I'm
pretty sure the bus will be comfortable, plenty of open beds. Brian and
Justin, AJ and Brittany, Christina and Nick will all share. You and I get
seperate beds." Kevin answered the question bitterly, emphasizing his anger
towards the end.

"Oh, I didn't think Justin would be coming with us." Howie smirked, making
another look at Justin. Justin felt anger and sadness, but said nothing
again.

"He is, always has been." Brian gave Howie a rude smile, hoping he would get
the picture. Apparently he did, because his smile turned as he put his head
down. Justin's smile appeared, happy Howie had been quieted.

"Well guys, I think we should finish up our meals in the car. Fatima is
going to be pissed if we aren't back soon." AJ picked up his fries and
drink, hoping to usher the group out of the restaruant. The guys followed,
this time Nick sitting in the front.

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**This chapter took a little longer, because like I said I was on vacation
over Labor Day weekend. I got back late Monday, and didn't have much time to
write. Lucky I had it half done before the weekend. I hope you like it.**

**Alot of people were sad with the way Chapter 15 ended, but I hope this one
makes up for it. Since everything was resolved, and Justin isn't mad at
Brian. Howie and Kevin broke up, much to every one's requests in doing so.**

**The next chapter will be out shortly, not sure exactly when though. Let me
know what you thought of this one though.**