Date: Tue, 31 Aug 1999 06:21:26 -0400 (EDT)
From: Nate Deep <nate637@mail.com>
Subject: Love and Friendship with Nsync Part "Four"

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Disclaimer:  This story is fiction and does not imply anything about the
group Nsync.

I am really sorry that I was really slow with this chapter.  There was this
thing in the family that was important.  I know that that was used so many
times, but it is all true.  Well, I really hope you guys and girls like this
story so far.  Also, I'll be going to college soon and the story might go a
bit slower.  Probably, it will be at least a week or two everytime this
story gets the next chapter.  Let's get it on!

Before on Love and Friendship with Nsync:

"C'mon now sweetie, lets go to breakfast." I asked him.
"Yeah, okay."  He said a little more happily.

I stood up, and held out a hand.  He accepted my hand, and our hands
connected.  We walked slowly out of the room.  There was only one thing to
be said the whole way from each of us.

"I--I never knew how strong you are.  You took this calmly and in the right
way.  I love you, I really love you."  Justin said with love.
"And I love you."  I returned.  The rest of the way, we just looked in each
other's eyes and smiled.

When we got back down, the guys were already done with their plates.  JC got
up and pulled me into the living room to talk in private.
"Listen Mark, I am--I am sorry I did that.  I wasn't thinking.  I'm sorry."
He sounded like he was desperate for me to forgive him.
"Wait just a minute okay?  You made a mistake and I forgive you about it.
Just next time, examine the thing that you are going to do okay?"
"So you forgive me?"  His face lit up.
"Yes, I do forgive you."  I gave him a hug.
"Then we got back in the kitchen, no one asked about what has happened.

Joey brought up, "Hey, who wants to play 64 with me before we go?!?"
"I'll go!"  Lance said getting up.
"Same here!" Chris said.

Soon enough we finished the Tour at  the Concord Pavilion.  It was a
success.  Although most of the crowd was for Nsync, there was enough for me.

Love and Friendship with Nsync: "Part Four"
The tour at Concord was great.  I wasn't the main attraction, although I had
quite a few fans out there.  It was great but tiring.

**Backstage**

Before the fans were let in, we had about a 15 minute rest.

"So how was your second concert with us?"  Joey asked.
"Oh, it was the bomb!" I replied with cheer.
"That's good to hear!" JC said looking tired.
"Hey!  Umm.  Mark?" Justin asked.
"Yeah?  What is it Curly?" I replied.

"Can I talk with you alone for a minute?"

I replied with concern, "Umm.  Sure."

With that, we walked over to a secluded room.  None of the guys interfered
with us or objected to our actions.

"So sweetie, what's up?"

"Umm.  I don't know how to bring this to you but umm."

"Yeah?"  By then, I was getting nervous of what he was going to say but I
couldn't show it in the outside of me.

"I don't think I want to be in a relationship anymore."  Justin replied
sadly.

I had never seen this coming.  Justin looked so fine with everything, during
the rehearsals, concert, and breaks, he didn't seem like anything was
bothering him.  I mean, he wasn't distancing himself from me, or anything
like that.  I broke down right then and there.  In my head said, 'I thought
Justin loved me, how can anything like this happen so quickly?'  I cried out
then asked, "Why Justin?  Why?"

"Well, if anyone found out about us, it would be really bad.  So I thought
this out during the rehearsals and concert and decided that it wont be good
if we were ever together and just stay friends.  I'm sorry Mark, I really
am."  Justin said in a sad tone and got up and left the room.

I just sat there and cried my eyes out, thinking over what has just happened
and trying to find out why.  I didn't get any answers.  There were also no
other thoughts in my head, it was as if, everything went blank.

**Backstage when Justin came back**

"Hey Justin.  What did you two talk about?" Lance asked, not knowing what
had happened.

"Oh, Umm," Justin was interrupted by me storming out of the room crying.

"Hey, Mark you ok?"  JC asked with pure concern in his voice.
"Yeah, what's up?" Lance also asked.

I just ignored them and kept walking until I reached the door and walked out
to my dressing room.  I reached it and fell on the chair sobbing.  My hands
were over my face in complete sadness.  I then ran out of tears to cry with
and fell asleep in the most uncomfortable position, on the chair.

**In the backstage area**

"Justin?  What happened?  Why did Mark just storm out of the room like
that?"  Chris asked.

"I have no idea."  Justin said completely lying and it was obvious that he
was.

"Then why don't you go after him Justin?"  Joey said getting really annoyed
that he was lying.

"Well--" said Justin.

"Well what?" Joey said.

"I told him that I broke up with him.  I didn't want to be in a relationship
with him because if someone found out, then I would be done for."

"What?!?"  Was what everyone said in unison.

"I said I broke up with him!"

"But, but why?"  Lance asked.

"I didn't want to take the risk of the press finding out."

"I can't believe you did that?  We thought you loved him, and now, you don't
because of your career?"  JC said getting angry and he just went out of the
room to find me.  JC thought to himself, 'I can't believe Justin did that to
him!  How can he be such an arrogant person?  I better go find him!'

"JC, wait!"  Lance said.  "Was that the reason why you broke up?  That is
the worst reason I have ever heard someone say!  We thought, and I mean we
REALLY thought that you really love him, you said it in front of us, you
expressed it in front of us, and now, it seems that you don't have any love
for him at all!"

"I DO love him, its just that... if anyone finds out--"

Justin was interrupted by Lance saying, "If you love him, then there would
be ANYTHING in the world that would not get in the way, not even your
career."

"But--"

Once again, he was interrupted by Lance who was now furious, "But what
Justin?  That guy is probably thinking who knows what now, and thinking that
it is his fault.  He loves you SO much, and now his heart I broken.  You
need to do something about this Justin!"  Justin started to cry.  He put his
hands over his face, now thinking of what Lance said, and what he has done
to Mark.  Many thoughts went and go through his mind.  He asked himself in
his mind, 'Why did I have to be such an idiot?  I have to go find him.'
Then another thought said, a rather negative thought, 'At least now, you
won't have to deal with or worry about the press finding out.'  Then another
thought, 'How could you do this?  You two love each other, and not even a
career should get in your way.  Just find him now, or the love will be
lost...Forever...Forever...Forever...Forever.'  That was the last thought that
seemed to echo in his mind.  He finally came to his senses.  The guys were
calling his name and asking.  "Guys, I have to go find him, I made a huge
mistake."  As he said that, he ran out of the room and thought at first that
he would be in his dressing room so he headed for that area.

**In Mark's Dressing Room**

JC finally reached his room and saw Mark crying.  JC ran over have put an
arm over my shoulder.  I just used my have and threw his arm off
immediately.

"It's only me JC, Mark.  Justin told me what happened and I got mad and
looked for you."

"Just leave me alone JC, I don't need this right now.  I know you mean well,
but please?"

JC knew that he needed some time and then he just agreed then left.  I
started to get angry.  This was an angry side of me that NO ONE has ever
seen, not even me.  I thought, 'I can't believe I was such a fool to EVER go
with him.  I should have seen right through him, but I was stupid.  I can't
believe that I believed that I would ever get a chance at this.'  At that
thought, I just cried more.  Justin then entered the room.  Before he could
say anything, I spoke out, "What is it that you want Justin?  Leave me
alone.  I can't believe what a fool I was that I thought I would be able to
make it with you.  I guess I was wrong."

"Mark, I'm sorry.  I wasn't thinking.  I really love you and I was an idiot
to let you go.  Please?  Can you forgive me?"  Justin asked and said with
tears flowing out of his eyes.

"Oh and what?  What if I do go back with you and you think about that again
and act upon it?  I'm too hurt right now Justin, I couldn't believe my ears
when you said those words to me in the room that you broke up with me, and
now you came to realize that you were wrong?"

"Please Mark?  I'm SORRY!  It's NEVER going to happen again please?  I know
I was wrong, but please?"  Justin by now was on his knees, begging me.

"You know what?  It's going to take long for me to forgive you.  You can't
just hurt me then apologize.  It takes time.  For me, I am a really
sensitive person and its hard for me to just take these things for granted.
Now please?  Would you just leave me alone so I can think?"

Justin got up, and was really saddened by my actions, but he knew I was
right and said, "Okay." Then left the room.

It has now have been a week and we were now in the Los Angeles area of the
tour.  During that week, I still let the guys stay at my house, although I
distanced myself from the guys.  Especially Justin.  I was ready to tell him
my decision about what was going to happen with us.  The concerts that has
went by was a success however, the distancing between me, and the group was
on.  Only a little bit talking came between us, but it was mostly about how
we were doing, business, and everything that you would consider boring and
not personal.

One day at the Roosevelt Hotel in Los Angeles, I decided to tell him about
us.

I called him on the hotel phone and asked him, "Hey Justin, its me, Mark."
"Oh, Umm, hi, Mark.  Is there anything you need?"

"Yeah, umm, I need to, uhh, talk to you.  Can you come over?"

"Sure, I'll be there in a minute."

A minute passed, and there was a knock at the door.  I opened it and saw
Justin standing there looking nervous.

"I think I'll start Justin.  I've thought everything over and I have come to
a conclusion."

"Yeah,  umm...  I'm listening."  He was to the point where he looked like he
was going to faint.

"I think--I think, no, I want to start over again.  I mean, I have thought
that I love you too much to ever give you up."

"You--You do?"  Justin's face lit up and tears started falling.

"Yeah, I think or I know that our love cannot be broken, although it will go
through a lot of emotion, ups, and downs, I thing the struggle to keep it
alive is worth while."

Justin just got up and hugged me tightly.  He said, "I'm sorry that I put
you through all of this.  I am such a fool to do that."  Justin started to
cry more on my shoulder.  I hugged him and told him that it will be alright
and that I forgive him.  We stayed like that for a while then we separated a
little to look at each other.  We then kissed.  It felt like our first kiss
all over again.  There was now so much love in the kiss that I couldn't
believe it.  We finally broke our kiss and lied down on the bed.  We
communicated by our inhales and exhales.  Justin snuggled up close to me and
kept me warm.  I then did the same for him.  I kissed him on the forehead
and let a tear roll down my face, as I knew that our love was back and
stronger than ever.  We finally slept.  We didn't have anything to do for
about 2 days until we got back to tours and appearances.  Justin fell asleep
first, and I listened to him breathe until I fell fast asleep.

The next morning, I woke up to a phone call with Justin's arms still wrapped
around me.  It was Lance.
"He--Hello?"  I asked groggily.
"Hey Mark!  We are going to get some breakfast up in JC's room at 8am and
its 7am right now."
"Oh ok.  Anything else?"
"Oh, and do you know where Justin is?  I tried calling him in his room but
no answer."
"He is probably still sleeping or in the shower."  I said not wanting to
give the news to hem yet.
"Oh ok then.  Bye!"
"Bye!"

I hung up and tried to wake up Justin.  All he did was mumble and hold me
tighter, snuggling his head more into my neck.  His breaths sent down
electrical shivers through my nerves, making me so weak.  I turned my body
around a little so I was now facing him.  I went and planted a sweet genuine
kiss and he woke up.

"Nice way to wake up sweetie!"

"Thanks, I try my best" I said.

"So, why did you wake me up?  I feel so comfortable right now."

"Well, Lance called about breakfast.  He asked me where you were cuz when he
called you, you didn't answer.  I told him that you were just still sleeping
or in the shower.  I think he bought it and I don't think he knows about you
and I are now back together."

"You evil little devil you!"  Justin smirked then kissed my nose and got up.

"Okay, now go to your room, take a shower, and we will play a joke on the
guys okay?"

"Ooh!  Okay.  Bye sweetie!  I love you SO MUCH!"  He then kissed me with a
lot of pressure into it then got up and left.

I showered and got ready.  I wore a Polo Sport Tee-Shirt, and some Carpenter
pants and Polo Sport Underwear.  I put on some Freedom Cologne by Calvin
Klein.  I then went out and gone to JC's room for breakfast.

I went in and Justin was the only one not to come in yet.  I took a plate
and took some food.  I sat down as Justin entered a room.  He had a fake sad
ace as he entered.  I think I only noticed that.  The room went silent once
he got in and everyone started to exchange glares between me, and him
wondering what was going to happen.  This same thing has been happening for
the past week.  When he sat down, someone finally blabbered out, "So how is
it between you two?"  Chris asked as Lance kind of hit him on the arm
indicating for him to shut up.

I answered, "Oh, well AHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!"  I couldn't hold myself from
laughing.  Justin soon joined me in the laughter.

All of the guys looked so dumb and clueless.  They obviously had no idea
about what was happening.  All of them said simultaneously, Huh, What, or
Guh?

Justin finally regained his composure and said, "We were trying to keep this
man started laughing."
"Shut-Up!" I snapped at him jokingly.

The guys were still dumbfounded at what was happening.

"What's going on with you two?"  Joey asked sounding dumb.

"Well, we talked last night, then we fell in love all over again."  I said.
"Mark was SO sweet to me, he is poetic and everything.  I made a HUGE
mistake that time, and he's so intelligent too, I mean he handles all
problems carefully and smartly." Justin said looking very happy.  Then he
went on my lap and kissed me on the lips.

Everyone else just then smiled and that they were happy that we were back
together.  We finished eating and were wondering what was the agenda going
to be like in the next two days they had off.  They decided on going to play
basketball later on in the afternoon.  Then after, just take the day off and
go to dinner.  Then the last day, they would go to Disneyland or Six Flags
and have a little fun.  But for Justin and I, I planned on leaving early
with him for a surprise.  When we were done, I told Justin that I'd meet him
in his room because I wanted to talk to the guys for a minute.  Justin
agreed looking a little suspicious of what would happen, but he just shook
it off.  When he left, I started talking.

"Hey, can I ask you guys a favor, a really big one?"

"Sure!"  They said in unison.

**Authors Note:  I will make the chat with the guys in 'Internet Chatting'
form.

Lance: What's on your mind?
Me: Well, I'm planning to surprise Justin with something.
JC: Cool!  What do you need help with?
Me: Well, I was hoping I would be able to leave early with Justin while at
the theme park tomorrow.
JC: Okay!  That would be okay.
Me: Great! You see, I am planning to have a BIG surprise for Justin in the
hotel room.  Before we go to the park, I am going to set up my hotel room.
When we actually get back to he hotel, I will tell him to shower and change,
which will give me time to set it up.
Chris:  You really love him don't you?
Me: Yeah, I really do.
Joey: Aww, That's so sweet!
Me: HAHAHA. Very funny.
Lance: So is this all set up?
Me: Yeah, well, I better go now, Justin is expecting me I believe.
All Guys: BYE MARK!
Me: Bye Guys!

I then left to Justin's room to find him sleeping soundly on the bed,
smiling.  I had to smile at that because he looked so cute.  I lied down
next to him looking at his angelic face as he slept and hear his cute little
snore he made.  I whispered, "You are just too cute and so sweet!
Especially when you sleep!  I love you with all my heart."  I smiled and
laid my head on his chest, putting my arms around him, and finally, I fell
asleep to the song his heart beated.

To Be Continued...

There you go!  Part 4!  Hope you liked it!  Sorry it took SO LONG to get it
through, but I had personal problems.  Since school is coming, this story
will have the next chapters released every 1-2 weeks.  Well I love getting
email!  Send it to nate637@mail.com
Part 5 coming soon!