Date: Sun, 3 Aug 2003 18:36:02 -0700 (PDT)
From: francis oratigan <francisoratigan@yahoo.com>
Subject: Moving Forward Chapter 14

Moving Forward Chapter 14
Copyright 2003

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On with the story!

I walked into the living room when I heard the laughter of Cory.  Once
inside the living room I spotted my sweetie as he tickled Cory.  I frowned
when I heard a deeper laughter.  I looked up to see Kevin standing there in
my living room.  The man who had raped me three years ago.  The man who had
made our lives hell all those years ago.  We had seen each other maybe two
or three times during those times.  Always it had been at very public
events.  Never at my home.  I couldn't help but feel just a little bit
invaded.  "Hello Kevin," I said in an even tone of voice.  "How are you?"
He swallowed deeply and took a deep breath.

"I'm good," he stammered.  "How are you?"

"Fine," I replied.  I noticed that the giggling of my son had stopped.  I
looked down to see that he had wrapped his arms around Brian's leg and was
looking up at Kevin with wide eyes.  "Listen I'm going to put Cory down for
his nap."

"When you're done I would like to talk to you," Brian said to me with hope
in his eyes.  "Well actually Kevin and I really want to talk to you."  I
nodded quietly and took my son and swung him up on my shoulders and walked
quietly up stairs.  A thousand thoughts raged through my mind.  As I
quickly put Cory to bed I headed back down stairs and into the kitchen.
"Kevin is buying the Beach house next to ours," he said simply.

"What?" I asked sharply.

"Kevin is--," Brian started.

"I heard you the first time," I sighed.  "Why?" I asked turning to Kevin.

"Because I love it here," Kevin said with a small smile.  "I've always
loved this part of the country and I love the beach and I want to live
here."

"Why here?" I demanded.  "Why right next door to the man you raped?"

"Babe--," Brian started but stopped when I glared at him.

"Why?" I asked Kevin again.

"That was three years ago," Kevin whispered tightly.  "Can't we let it go?"

"No we can't!" I shouted at him.  He jumped and so did Brian.  "I can't let
it go!  You raped me!"

"It was three years ago in a very dark period of my life!  I was drunk at
the time!  I wasn't myself!" Kevin shouted back at me.

"There hasn't been a night that hasn't gone by that I don't relive that
horrible night!" I shoted back.

"Do you think it has been easy for me?" Kevin asked in a quiet voice.  "God
I feel so dirty for what I did to you.  I violated you!  I fored myself on
you!  I have never forgiven myself for that!"

"Good!" I screamed.  "I hope you go to your grave with out ever forgiving
yourself!"

"I deserve to be happy!" Kevin insisted.

"Good!" I hurled at him.  "Be happy somewhere else!  Just don't do it next
door to me!"

"To late!" Kevin hurled back.  "I signed the papers this morning.  I move
in tomorrow."

"I gotta get out of here!" I said looking around.

"Baby?" Brian asked in a choked voice.  I looked at him and saw the tears
in his eyes.  I walked up to him and pulled him in a hug.  I shivered as I
felt him sigh heavily.

"I love you Brian," I said looking into his eyes.  "I'm not leaving you.
I'm just going for a walk."

"Can I go with you?" Brian asked as a tear rolled down his angelic face.

"No," I said firmly.  "Please baby, this is something that I need to do for
myself.  I love you and I'm not leaving.  I just have some things to think
out for myself."  Brian nodded and smiled a small forced smile.  I quickly
walked to the refridgerator and grabbed a bottle of water and walked out of
the kitchen through the dinning room and living room and out the front door
and down onto the beach.

>From Brian's point of view.

"Well that could've gone better," Kevin said in a bitter tone.

"What did you expect Kevin?" I asked looking at him sadly.  "Did you expect
him to bake you a cake and say welcome to the neighborhood?"

"I really don't know what I expected," Kevin sighed.  "I was just hoping
that maybe just maybe we would beable to set aside some of this crap that
has been keeping me away from my family."

"Some day Kevin," I said softly.

"I see you and Chris and I want that!" Kevin said looking at me with
pleading eyes.  "I see you with your son and the love that you and Chris
show and I want that!"

"I know you do cousin," I said putting my hand on his shoulder.  "Chris is
a forgiving person.  He really is."

"I want to believe you Brian," Kevin said sadly with his eyes filling with
tears.  "But after what I saw this afternoon I really don't think that I
will ever be able to be a part of your lives."

"Give him time," I pleaded.  "Please Kevin."  Kevin sighed and nodded and
gave me quick hug.

"I gotta go," he said softly.  "I want to make sure that my new house is
ready for me to move in tomorrow."  I watched with a heavy heart as my
cousin walked out of our house.  Than I walked into the living room and
plopped down in the easy chair over looking the beach.  I wondered just how
long it would be before I saw my lover again.  This was the first time he
had ever walked away from me before resolving our differences.

>From Chris's point of view

The sun was setting and I was bone tired. I had pretty much walked myself
out. I wearily made my way back up the stairs and into the beach house. I
heard voices in the living room. I could definitely make out Brian's. The
other I wasn't too sure about. Once inside I knew at once who it was. I
smiled softly as I saw him sitting there with a glass in his hands. It was
Justin. "Hey," I said announcing myself as I walked in. Brian looked up at
me with tired eyes. My heart went out to him. "Is Cory still up?"

"Nahh," Brian said rubbing his eyes. "He just went to sleep."

"Hey Justin," I said as I smiled at him. "What brings you to these parts of
the woods?"

"Just wanted to stop by and see how things were doing," Justin replied
shrugging.

"How long has it been?" I asked giving him a quick hug.

"Three years give or take a month or so," Justin replied. "Brian tells me
that Kevin is moving in next door."

"Yea that is what he tells me too," I sighed.

"How do you feel about that?" Justin asked frowning. I knew he wanted to
ask the question but he was being kind and gentle and worried about how I
would react.

"He deserves his happiness," I sighed. "It has been three long years and
quite frankly I am real tired of harboring all of these hard and negative
feelings. If Kevin wants to try to reconcile with me than I'm ready." I
almost laughed at Brian's shocked _expression on his face. "That was a very
long and heart searching walk Brian," I said to him. "I love you Brian and
it is unfair of me to keep you from your cousin. It is unfair for me not to
try to reconcile with Kevin. Kevin is a good guy at heart and three years
ago he made some really bad mistakes. I think it is time that we all put it
behind us and try to move on with our lives." I watched as Brian got up and
walked over to me and wrapped his arms around me and pulled me into a deep
hug. I pressed his lips to mine and savored the moment of being one with my
lover again. I also noticed that he had been bad and had pizza again. "So
is there any left?" I asked smiling at him.

"Any what left?" Brian asked trying to act all innocent.

"Cheese Pizza," I giggled. "I could still taste it."

"Ok ok you busted me," Brian giggled. "Cory wanted Pizza so I ordered in."

"You hungry?" I asked Justin.

"Yea, I could eat something," Justin replied.

"Come on mister, share the wealth," I said to Brian pointing to the
kitchen.

"And yes I did do some very serious thinking. And Kevin is right on a lot
of counts. We do need to move on with this. We need to put all that
negative crap behind us and move on with our lives. And that means if you
want Kevin to be a part of it again than so be it. I am ready to work with
him."

"Do you know how much I love you?" Brian asked looking down at me. Yea I
know. I'm about an inch shorter than he is.

"Yea I kinda have an idea how much you love me," I giggled. "Now get busy
and warm us up some left over pizza!" I swatted him on his very shapely but
for good measure. He giggled and walked over to the small stack of pizza
boxes on the stove.

"I got your fav," he said over his shoulder.

"Pepperoni?" I asked grinning. He nodded as he slid the pizza onto a pizza
pan and slid it into the oven.

"What do you want to drink?" he asked both of us.

"Wild Cherry Pepsi," I called out as I got two glasses out of the cubbards
and filled them full of ice. I handed one to Justin and one to Brian and
than got another one for me. Soon we were all sitting around the table and
eating and talking.

"So Chris," Justin said putting his glass down. "How is your work load?"

"I'm actually in between jobs right now," I replied. "Why do you ask?"

"Well my web site needs revamping. I was thinking of asking you to do it,"
Justin replied. "Now that I am pretty much solo right now and I think that
I should have my own web site."

"Let's meet about it," I replied.

"Where is your office?" Justin asked.

"Right here," I replied.

"Can I see some of your work now?" he asked hopefully. I looked over at
Brian to see if it was ok. He smiled and nodded. By now we had all eaten
our share of pizza and was in no mood to eat anymore. I picked up my glass
and plate and walked over to the dish washer and put them in. Justin and I
than headed up to the office.

>From Brian's point of view

I was so proud of Chris. He had been through so much crap in the last three
years and yet he still had a warm spot for Kevin. Kevin had been through
hell as well. He has had to come to grips with his homosexuality along with
Nick's Alcoholism. And he had finally gotten enough counseling on his
temper that he was able to go for weeks without blowing up. Of course the
main reason for his temper tantrums had grown up him self. I'm speaking of
Nick of course. Speaking of Nick I wondered where he was. This was his
night to spend time with Chris and me. The door bell rang and I smiled. I
walked to the door and opened it. "Hey Nickers!" I said cheerfully.

"Hey Frack," Nick said grinning. I noticed that he had someone standing
behind him. "I umm brought a friend."

"The more the merrier," I smiled as I stood aside and let him in. I was
pleasantly surprised to see that JC was standing behind him. He smiled
shyly at me. "Come in JC."

"Thanks," he said softly. I noticed that when he was inside that Nick
latched on to his hand.

"Umm we are um kinda sorta dating," Nick stammered.

"Umm Nick?" I asked grinning at JC. "How does one kinda sorta date
someone?"

"Ok ok," Nick said grinning and blushing. "We are dating!"


"I'm happy for you Nick," I smiled at him as I pulled him in a tight
hug. "Now you be good to poor JC here."

"Oh don't worry," JC giggled. "He is really good to me." By this time we
had all sat in the living room.

"I see someone is moving into the house next door," Nick said.

"Yea Kevin bought the place and is moving in," I replied.

"Why?" Nick asked sounding pissed. "Hasn't he done enough to Chris?"

"Nick that was three years ago," I said softly.

"He raped him!" Nick shouted. "Where is he? I'll make him change his mind
about living next door to his rape victim. Isn't there a law about that
somewhere?"

"Chris is ok with it Nick and no there is not a law about that," I said in
a scolding tone of voice. "Please Nick, we've had enough drama for
today. Let's not ad more to it."  Nick nodded slowly.  I had the feeling
that Nick wasn't too happy about letting it drop.  I decided to move the
conversation to JC.  "So JC, what is a good looking guy like you doing
dating a loser like Nick?"

"Hey!" Nick yelped looking hurt.  "I'm not a loser!"  JC giggled softly
before kissing Nick lightly on the lips.

"What can I say?" JC said with a very naughty look in his eyes.  "I had
pity on the loser."

"I know someone who is sleeping in the dog house tonight!" Nick said with a
pout on his face.

"Who is sleeping in the dog house?" Chris's voice drifted over us.  I
looked up to see my sweetie walk into the room.  I patted the seat beside
me and he sat down and snuggled up to me.  This was the favorite part of
the night.  Us sitting in the living room and snuggling and talking to our
friends.

"Where is Justin?" I asked looking around.

"He had to go home," Chris said as he laid his head on my shoulder.  "I'm
going to be doing his new web site."

"I'm happy for you sweetie," I said kissing him on the top of his head.
"Is Cory still asleep?"  Chris nodded and yawned.  "Are you tired?" I asked
concerned.  In the past stress has always tired out Chris.  Some times I
had to make him sleep.  "We can call it a night if you want too."

"But we have guests," Chris looked up at me with his adorable blue eyes.

"Guests that know when to leave," Nick said softly.  "You're tired, you've
had a long day.  JC and I will come back tomorrow.  You and Brian go to
bed."  Nick kissed Chris lightly on the forehead and hugged me good bye.  I
walked them out and once they were on their way down the drive I headed
back into the house.  I walked into the living room and found Chris sound
asleep on the couch.  I didn't have the heart to wake him.  So I covered
him up with a comforter and than headed up stairs to our room and went to
bed myself.

The next morning from Chris's point of view.

I woke up on the sofa and looked around for my lover.  It was still dark
out and I glanced at the clock on the wall.  It was just after three in the
morning.  I wrapped myself in the comforter and shuffled up the stairs and
into our room.  After quickly stripping I slid into bed next to my sleeping
lover.  I glanced down at his angelic features as he lay sleeping.  Brian
truly was a incredibly good looking man.  I always told him that and he
just blushed and looked down.  That was one of the things I loved about him
was his humility.  He moaned out my name and reached for me.  Once he came
in contact with me he proceeded to wrap him self around me.  Some times I
think that he did it just so that I couldn't get away.  Not that I would
get away.  I didn't want to.  I snuggled deeper into his hold and allowed
myself to drift back to sleep.

I woke up when it was still dark out.  I swung out of bed after I of course
detangled myself from my sleeping lover.  I noticed with regret that he was
rock hard this morning.  A perfect time for me to wake up my lover with my
usual skill and love.  But unfortunately my bladder was demanding
attention.  After using the bathroom I crept into the Cory's room and
looked down at his sleeping form.  It was at this time that I heard
something.  Voice is what I heard.  I walked to the open window and
listened.  I discovered that it was coming from Kevin's new beach house.

"Listen faggot!" a harsh voice said.  "You either continue paying me or the
whole world is going to know that you are a fucking faggot!"

"When is it going to stop?" Kevin asked with anger in his voice.  "I've
already given you over three million dollars!"

"You will continue to pay me what I want for as long as I want it!" the
voice sounded again.  The voice sounded familiar but I couldn't place it.
I heard the door slam and than I heard a car door slam and start up and
back out of the drive.  I looked out the window and saw Kevin standing out
on the deck.  His head was hung low and I could tell he was crying.  My
heart ached for him.  I wanted to go up to him and wrap my arms around him
and tell him everything was going to be ok.  But I didn't.  At least not
now.  If I offered him help he probably wouldn't accept it.  No, I needed
more info.  And for that I would need help.  It was time to go back into my
past and make contact with a couple of old Marine buddies.  They would be
able to help me out.  They still owed me a dept.  A big one.  And I for one
was going to collect on it.  I turned back and walked out of Cory's room
and walked back to mine.  I slid back under the covers and went to work at
giving my lover as much pleasure as I could.  Listening to him groaning in
pleasure was worth it.

"Thanks love," a sleepy voice sounded over me.  I finished licking him
clean and snuggled back up to him.  "I love you," Brian smiled at me.

"I love you too baby," I cooed up at him.  I found my self growing hard as
well and needed some relief too.

"You're hard," Brian smiled down at me.  He peeked under the sheets.
"Hello jr.," he giggled as he dove under the sheets and soon had my cock
buried down his throat.  I was in heaven as my lover made love to me with
his mouth.  Afterwards we were snuggled back in each other's arms and
sleeping soundly.

"Daddy!" Cory shouted as he hopped up in bed.  "I'm hungry!"  I looked
around to see if I could see Brian.  I let out a small pout as I realized
that my lover had gotten up ahead of me.  "Daddy!" Cory whined again.

"What little man?" I smiled down at him as I ruffled his hair.  He swatted
my had away and giggled loudly.  "What do you want for breakfast?"

"Pancakes!" he squealed loudly.

"Ok pancakes it is!" I laughed as I started to tickle the daylights out of
him.  I loved to hear him laugh as hard as he could.  Finally I stopped
tickling him and let him up.  He ran out of the room to find his other
daddy.  Sighing I got up and walked to the shower and got ready for the
day.  After showering I walked into the kitchen and frowned.  Kevin as
seated at the table drinking a cup of coffee and talking to Brian.  I
noticed that Brian had beaten me and fixed a huge pile of pancakes.

"Good morning love," I smiled at him.  "Morning Kevin."

"Good morning Chris," he said with a small smile.

"So it is moving day," I said as I poured me a cup of coffee.  "You want
some help?"  Silence racked the room.  I turned around to see Kevin staring
at me as if I had sprung an extra head or something.  Brian was staring at
me too with a mixture of awe and love in his eyes.  "Come on guys!" I
smiled.  "Breakfast isn't going to finish it self!"

TBC