Date: Wed, 12 Feb 2003 22:56:52 -0800 (PST)
From: slpwriter <slpwriter@yahoo.com>
Subject: Nick Lachey: My Everything-45

Hey all, I'm back and ready to write again. It's been
such a long time, I've had to re-read the story to try
to remember what my next plot was going to be.

 Now on with the story.


First of all, let me just say that this is my first
time writing any kind of fiction like this.

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not
meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick
and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this
story.

If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality
offends you, then please don't continue any further
and leave.

Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.

"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche.
"69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt
"Nick Lachey" by Ken.
"98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night
"The Reunion" by RinSong.
"Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan

and finally:
"This Gift" by Sprout



Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.

Enjoy.


Previously on "My Everything".....


"I'm sorry, Nick." Drew said. "I guess I just didn't
feel much like swimming today."

I could hear the sadness in Drew's tone. I think Nick
picked up on it too because he then asked Drew if he
was alright.

"I'll be ok, Nick." Drew said. "I just have alot on my
mind."

"Would It help to talk about it, Drew?" Jeff asked,
from his place beside Danny at the table.

"No, not right now, Jeff." Drew replied. "I just need
to sort out a few things, that's all. I'll let you all
know if I need to talk, ok?"

"Alright, if you're sure, buddy." Danny said.

"I am." Drew insisted, nodding.

"Well, guys, I'm beat. How about we all go home now?"
Kandi suggestes, combing back her wet hair and pulling
it back in a ponytail.

"I'm down with that, idea." I agreed. I was ready to
go home and finish what my sexy man had started in the
water earlier today.

"Hey, now that I'm seeing you pull your hair back,
Kandi, I just noticed how long Sean's hair is
getting." Jeff said, checking me out.

Everyone looked at me and noticed that my hair was
already long enough to pull back as well. They were
surprised at how different I looked with longer hair.

"Would you guys be alright with it if I choose to grow
it even longer?" I asked everyone.

They all looked at each other for a moment, then
looked back at me and nodded.

"It's your hair, baby." Nick said. "I still think you
look sexy with long or short hair. Hell, you'd look
sexy even if you shaved your head bald.

"I don't know about that, Nick." I laughed. "I can't
see myself doing that."


We all got engrossed in conversation as we packed up
our belongings and headed to our cars.

Drew told Nick and I that he was going to ride back
with the guys so Nick and I could spend some time
alone together.

Nick and I got in his car and he started driving us
towards home. Justin and the rest of the gang were in
front of us in his van. Only this time Drew was
driving, giving Jeff, Danny, Justin and Kandi some
cuddly time with each other.

Nick and I got into the car and he drove the two of us
home.

**********
CHAPTER 45
**********

LATER THAT NIGHT.......................

Nick was fast asleep beside me, in bed, while I was
still awake. I wasn't able to sleep. That was because
I remembered about my decision earlier today about
what I had to do.

I got up out of bed and walked over to the dresser and
turned on the lamp, making sure the light was low
enough not to wake up Nick.

I quietly opened the closet door and reached for one
of my suitcases. I pulled it out of the closet and
opened it.

Then, I reached back into the closet and grabbed all
the clothes that I wanted and packed them into my
suitcase. It didn't take long since I wasn't planning
on taking too much with me.

I had decided that I wanted to leave town for a while.
I couldn't deal with everything that was going on
lately. Drew making moves on me, Nick about to become
a new father to Jessica's baby, not to mention the
fact that I no longer had a marriage. At least not in
the legal sense of the word.

I also had to deal with a possible stalker who could
either be after Nick or me, or maybe even both of us.
But that's not what disturbed me the most. What
disturbed me the most also scared me the most when I
realized what it was...........

I was developing feelings for Drew. Feelings that I
didn't think I would ever feel for another man. And
with Drew, flirting, and coming on to me as much as he
had been lately, It was getting harder and harder for
me to resist him. He was just like Nick: He had the
same level of attraction and irresistability that just
seems to draw you to him. I had come so dangerously
close to crossing the line with Drew once before, that
I knew right then and there that I needed to get away
from him.......from everyone. At least until I had a
chance to clear my head and do some major soul
searching.

I finished packing and zipped up my suitcase. I then
walked towards the bedroom door. Before I exited, I
looked over at Nick's sleeping form. He was so
beautiful when he was asleep.

I took one long look at him, before I carried my
luggage downstairs and sat it down by the door. With a
heavy sigh, I walked back upstairs and into Nick's
room to get into some clothes.

I put on a pair of jeans and a polo-shirt and then
grabbed my shoes and socks to put on. After doing
that. I walked over to the dresser and pulled open a
drawer. I grabbed an envelope, a pen, and some paper
out. I sat down and started writing...........


My Dearest Nick,

I'm leaving. I'm not sure when I'll be back, but I'm
sure I won't be gone long. I have alot of things that
I need to tell you, but I couldn't face you or our
friends. That's why I'm writing this letter.

The truth is, baby, I'm confused. Now that you're
about to become a father, I don't know how to deal
with that.

 But there is something you need to know........

I've been keeping some things from you. Things that I
haven't been able to bring myself to tell you. But I
will tell you at least one thing that's bothering me.

I lied to you yesterday when I told you that the call
on my cellphone was someone trying to sell something.
It was actually a call from someone who knows my name
and who seems to be obsessed with you. So in other
words, you and I are being stalked. But it seems like
you're the target than I am, but I'm sure that whoever
it is that wants you will do anything to get me out of
your life. If you need more info, talk to your brother
about this. I had no choice but to tell him about it
because he could tell something was wrong and he
wouldn't let it go until I fessed up.

While I'm gone, I will think long and hard about us
and about our future together.

 IF we still have one

I will be thinking of you, always. I will try and
hurry back to you as soon as I have my answers. Until
then, take care of yourself and tell the guys I said
goodbye.

I love you,

Sean


I finished writing and folded up the piece of paper
and then placed it in the envelope. I sealed it and
then turned it over and wrote Nick's name on the front
of it.

I turned around and walked towards Nick's side of the
bed, where he was sleeping, and set the note on the
bedside table beside him, near the phone.

I could feel myself starting to choke up, knowing what
my leaving was going to do to Nick when he woke up and
found me gone.

I then leant over him and lightly kissed him on the
cheek. He moved a little bit, but didn't awaken.

I turned and tiptoed to the door. I looked back at
Nick one last time before I walked out of the bedroom
and downstairs to the door, where I stopped to open
the closet and get my jacket out.

Tears ran down my face as I put it on. I grabbed my
suitcase and my keys off of the table and opened the
door. I slipped outside and shut the door quietly
behind me, locking it as well.

The tears were still falling as I made my way over to
my SUV, which hadn't been driven in a while. I opened
the rear door and set my suitcase inside. Then I shut
it and walked back to the driver's side and opened the
door.

I climbed into the driver's seat, closing the door
behind me, and fastened my seat belt. I put the keys
into the ignition and started the SUV.

I pulled out of Nick's driveway and started driving
through the streets of Los Angeles, while trying to
decide where I would stay while I figured everything
out. All I knew is that I needed a place where I could
relax and get my head together.

I then thought of the perfect place: "Cloud Nine Spa
and Fitness Center"

That was the perfect place to go when you wanted to
get pampered and feel like you're in heaven, all the
while getting the time to yourself to do what needed
to be done.

I decided that that's where I was going to go, so I
continued driving until I saw the on ramp that headed
onto the freeway.

I got on the freeway and drove for about 15 minutes
before I noticed that I was starting to driving into
mountain terrain. I knew then that I was almost there.

"Cloud Nine" was up in a quiet spot, up near the
mountains. But it wasn't in the cold parts. The
temperatures were a little cooler but were not the
least bit freezing.

After about another 15 minutes, I pulled up to the
Spa, which was still open.

I parked my SUV and got out. I walked to the back and
open the trunk door and grabbed my suitcase out of it.

I shut the trunk and locked all the doors. I started
walking towards the spa.

I entered and walked up to the check in counter where
a black haired girl was sitting behind the counter.

"Hi, how may I help you, sir?" She asked.

"Hello." I said tiredly. "I'd like to check in to the
spa for awhile.

"Certainly." She said, as she searched for any open
rooms in the database. "For how long?"

I then realized that I wasn't sure how long I was
going to stay. So I decided to sleep on it.

"Actually, I'm not sure." I said to her. "But for now,
I'll stay for 1 week until I decide whether or not it
will be longer or shorter by tommorrow. Right now, I
just want to get some sleep."

"Alright then." She said.

I gave the clerk, whose name was Maggie, my name and
everything else she needed to get me set up with a
private room. When she was finished, she gave me a key
card to my room.

"Alright, you're all set." Maggie said. "Would you
like anything else before you go up to bed?"

I smiled at how nice Maggie was. She had long black
hair and blue eyes. She kind of reminded me of Danny.
He also had black hair and blue eyes.

"Actually yes." I said. "Would you please set up an
apppointment for me to get a massage tommorrow?

"Sure." Maggie said, with a smile. "What time?"

"Around 1:30p.m." I decided.

She typed that in the computer.

"Ok, 1:30p.m. it is." She said, finishing up, and
giving me back my credit card, which I'd handed to her
earlier. "You'll be in room 106. Please enjoy your
stay."

"I will." I said, picking up my suitcase. "Thank you,
Maggie."

"You're welcome." She said back. "Goodnight now."

"Goodnight." I replied back, as I walked towards the
elevators. I pushed the up button and waited for the
elevator doors to open.

When the did, I walked into the elevator and pushed
the button for the first floor.

The elevator moved upward and stopped on the first
floor, where the doors opened and I stepped out.

I walked down the hall until I came to the door of
room 106. I slid my key card into the door and it
turned green, signaling that it was open.

I walked into my room and set my suitcase down in the
closet. I walked over to the bed and sat my keycard on
the bedside table there.

I took off my clothes and shoes until I was in nothing
but my boxerbriefs and socks. I climbed into my bed
and crawled underneath the covers.

It was then that the loneliness that I was feeling now
that I was in bed alone really hit me. I started
crying, knowing that Nick was going to be upset with
me for leaving. But I couldn't just go back. I had to
figure things out. Even if it meant risking everything
that I had with Nick.

I didn't think that it was fair for me to have to keep
Nick in the dark about what I was going through.

I then asked myself: "Do I trust Nick? I mean REALLY
trust him?"

After all, that was the most important part of any
relationship. Trust. Without trust, it won't survive.

And with Drew still in love with me, my invalid
marriage, and lying to Nick about it, I wasn't liking
the answer I was coming up with.

I couldn't think anymore and I ended up crying myself
to sleep.

*******************************************************
NICK'S HOUSE, THE NEXT MORNING...............

Drew awoke to the sound of sobbing coming from Nick's
room. Someone was crying.

Concerned, Drew got out of bed and walked over to
Nick's room, where the door was open.

He glanced in and saw Nick sitting on his bed, crying
his eyes out. Drew noticed that he was holding a piece
of paper in his hands.

"Nick?"

Nick looked up and saw Drew standing in his doorway,
staring at him with concern in his eyes.

"Nick, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Drew asked.
He then looked around the room and noticed that Sean
wasn't there.

"And where is Sean?" Drew also asked.

Nick's lower lip trembled as he swallowed and tried to
get out the words:

"He left me, Drew." Nick sobbed. "He left all of us."

Drew was shocked at this news. "Are you sure?" He
asked, holding his hand to his chest.

Nick then held out the piece of paper, that he was
holding, to Drew.

"Read it, Bro." Nick said, as Drew accepted the paper.

Drew noticed it was written in Sean's handwriting. He
then started reading it.

When he had finished, he also had tears in his eyes.
He then sat down beside Nick and pulled Nick into his
arms.

"Nick, I'm so sorry, Bro." Drew said. "I can't believe
it's come to this. And it might be my fault."

Nick let go of Drew with a confused scowl on his face.

"Why would it be your fault, Drew?" Nick asked him.

Drew took a deep breath.


"Nick, there's something I need to tell you..........




TBC............?

Well, that's all for this one.

Will Drew confess his feelings for Sean to Nick? if
so, how will Nick react?

 Will Drew's confession cause his relationship with
Nick to fall apart? or grow stronger?

You won't want to miss a minute of what happens next!

*******************************************************
"My Everything-Chapter 45 Sneak Preview:

Nick and Drew make a decision, in which the rest of
the gang agree with as well. What will this decision
be?

Sean makes a decision of his own. "What will his be?
and will it change things between him and Nick? or him
and Drew?


Stay tuned. Because what happens next, changes
Everything!"

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