Date: Sat, 15 Feb 2003 02:08:32 -0800 (PST)
From: slpwriter <slpwriter@yahoo.com>
Subject: Nick Lachey: My Everything-46

Hey all, I'm back and ready to write again. It's been
such a long time, I've had to re-read the story to try
to remember what my next plot was going to be.

 Now on with the story.


First of all, let me just say that this is my first
time writing any kind of fiction like this.

DISCLAIMER: This is a work of total fiction and is not
meant to imply anything about the sexualities of Nick
and Drew Lachey or anyone else mentioned in this
story.

If you are too young to read this, or if Homosexuality
offends you, then please don't continue any further
and leave.

Other 98 Degrees stories I'd like to recommend are.

"Give Me Just One Night" by Unanoche.
"69 with Jeff Timmons" by Zachary Scott Pritt
"Nick Lachey" by Ken.
"98 Degrees Is Hot" by Gay Night
"The Reunion" by RinSong.
"Loving Nick Lachey" by Jordan

and finally:
"This Gift" by Sprout



Now, I"ll let you get on with the story.

Enjoy.


Previously on "My Everything".....


I took off my clothes and shoes until I was in nothing
but my boxerbriefs and socks. I climbed into my bed
and crawled underneath the covers.

It was then that the loneliness that I was feeling now
that I was in bed alone really hit me. I started
crying, knowing that Nick was going to be upset with
me for leaving. But I couldn't just go back. I had to
figure things out. Even if it meant risking everything
that I had with Nick.

I didn't think that it was fair for me to have to keep
Nick in the dark about what I was going through.

I then asked myself: "Do I trust Nick? I mean REALLY
trust him?"

After all, that was the most important part of any
relationship. Trust. Without trust, it won't survive.

And with Drew still in love with me, my invalid
marriage, and lying to Nick about it, I wasn't liking
the answer I was coming up with.

I couldn't think anymore and I ended up crying myself
to sleep.

*******************************************************
NICK'S HOUSE, THE NEXT MORNING...............

Drew awoke to the sound of sobbing coming from Nick's
room. Someone was crying.

Concerned, Drew got out of bed and walked over to
Nick's room, where the door was open.

He glanced in and saw Nick sitting on his bed, crying
his eyes out. Drew noticed that he was holding a piece
of paper in his hands.

"Nick?"

Nick looked up and saw Drew standing in his doorway,
staring at him with concern in his eyes.

"Nick, what's wrong? Why are you crying?" Drew asked.
He then looked around the room and noticed that Sean
wasn't there.

"And where is Sean?" Drew also asked.

Nick's lower lip trembled as he swallowed and tried to
get out the words:

"He left me, Drew." Nick sobbed. "He left all of us."

Drew was shocked at this news. "Are you sure?" He
asked, holding his hand to his chest.

Nick then held out the piece of paper, that he was
holding, to Drew.

"Read it, Bro." Nick said, as Drew accepted the paper.

Drew noticed it was written in Sean's handwriting. He
then started reading it.

When he had finished, he also had tears in his eyes.
He then sat down beside Nick and pulled Nick into his
arms.

"Nick, I'm so sorry, Bro." Drew said. "I can't believe
it's come to this. And it might be my fault."

Nick let go of Drew with a confused scowl on his face.

"Why would it be your fault, Drew?" Nick asked him.

Drew took a deep breath.


"Nick, there's something I need to tell you..........

**********
CHAPTER 46
**********

THE NEXT MORNING AT THE SPA...............

I woke up to a day that the sun wasn't shining for
once. I guess it matched my mood. The day seemed as
unhappy as I was.

I got up out of bed and headed to the bathroom to do
my business and get ready for the day ahead of me.

I turned on the shower, getting the water to the right
temperature, and stepped in to get washed up.

I stood under the water, letting the warmth of it
relax my tired body. I wet my hair and grabbed the
shampoo. I squeezed some out into my hand and worked
it into my hair and scalp.

When I was finished, I stepped under the shower head
and let the water rinse the shampoo out of my hair.

As I rinsed, closing my eyes, my mind drifted back to
Nick, wondering if he was up yet and if he'd found my
letter.

My heart was breaking for what I knew Nick would be
going through right now. But I wasn't yet ready to
face him. I wasn't sure when I would be, but I did
know that he and I couldn't go on this way for long.
Lots of questions needed to be answered and decisions
needed to be made.

Decisions that would determine our future.

*******************************************************
LATER, BACK AT NICK'S HOUSE.....................

"Well, guys, are we all in agreement for what needs to
be done where Sean is concerned?" Nick asked, everyone
in the room. "When I say your name, you give me an
agree or a disagree."

"Drew?" Nick asked, looking at his brother for
confirmation, a look of sadness and hurt in his eyes.

Drew nodded. "Agreed." He said, sadly.

Nick turned to the next person. "Justin?"

"Agreed." Justin said.

"Kandi?"

"Agreed" She said.

"Jeff?"

"Agreed." He said.

Then all eyes were on Danny, for his answer
*******************************************************
AT THE SAME TIME THAT DAY, BACK AT THE
SPA..............

I felt totally refreshed when I got back to my room. I
had gotten a massage, taken a yoga session, a mudbath,
and last but not least, a meditation session in the
meditation room alone.

The meditation had helped more than everything else
since I'd had a chance to think about things and I
finally had my answers about what I needed to do and I
made a decision.

I'd decided that I no longer cared about whether or
not Nick and I were legally married. Just having him
by my side should have been enough than by me being
shattered over a marriage that wasn't legal on paper.
It may not have been legal, but Nick and I did take
vows and we'd made a commitment.

As far as I was concerned, Nick was my husband in
every way and a piece of paper couldn't change that. I
needed to go back home to my sexy husband.

My thoughts were interrupted by the ringing of my
cellphone. I walked over to the bedside table and
picked it up.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hello, Sean." I heard Nick's voice say. I could tell
he was really upset.

"Hi sexy." I said. "I'm so sorry that I had to leave.
I know you must have been upset."

"That's an understatement." Nick said, in a tonal
voice. "I can't go on like this anymore. I need you
back here today."

"No problem, baby." I said. "I'm on my way home right
now. I have so much to tell you."

"I'll bet you do." Nick said. "Be here within the
hour. I'll be waiting."

"Alright." I said. " I love you."

After I said that, I heard the phone hang up. I
frowned as I put my phone away and grabbed my suitcase
to go downstairs to check out.

After checking out and paying the bill for only 1
night, I walked to my car and put my bags into the
trunk of the car and shut it.

I got into my car and started driving home to Nick's
house. On my way, I couldn't stop thinking about the
fact that Nick didn't tell me he loved me back and
hung up on me instead. I was even more determined to
set things right with him.

I just hoped I wasn't too late...........


After about 30 minutes, I pulled into the driveway to
Nick's house and shut off the engine.

I jumped out of the car and ran towards the house,
forgetting about my suitcase in the trunk.

I opened the door and walked inside.

"Nick, baby, I'm home!" I announced as I walked
towards the living room.

When I got to the doorway to the living room, I saw
Nick, Drew, Jeff, Danny, Justin, and Kandi all sitting
in the living room, looking up at me.

And they did not look happy to see me.

Nick got up off of the couch and came over to me. He
just stood there for a long while, just looking at me,
his eyes full of emotion. Then he slowly put his arms
around me and hugged me.

I held onto him tight. It felt great to be back in his
arms again.

"I'm so glad to be back home." I said as he released
me.

As I looked up into his eyes, I noticed that he still
wasn't even smiling. I could see the sadness in his
eyes.

"Where did you go?" Nick asked, flatly.

"To "Cloud Nine." I told him. "It's a Spa about 30
minutes from here up towards the mountains."

Nick just nodded. Then he looked at me, his eyes
demanding answers.

"Do you care to tell us now why you took off and left
like that?" He asked me.

I wasn't sure where to start, so I just decided to
start from the beginning.

"Alright." I said. "It all started with a phone call
that day that I got on my cellphone.......

"And you said that it was someone trying to sell you
something." Justin said, interrupting me.

"And that was your first lie." Nick said, looking
angry now.

"Yes, Nick, and I'm so sorry for that." I said. "The
call was really from someone who could be stalking
you. Maybe even me."

Nick just nodded. "Go on." He said.

I then proceeded to Drew's outburst.

"Then, Drew had that outburst later and he stormed up
to his room." I said, looking over at Drew, who looked
away when I met his eyes.

"Then I left and you went up to talk to him to see
what was wrong." Nick put in. "What did he tell you?"

I was really starting to get uncomfortable now. I
didn't want to get into what Drew had told me. I tried
to talk my way around it.

"That doesn't matter now." I said. "But what you
really need to know is after Drew and I talked, he
went to take a shower and while he was in it, I got a
call that changed everything for you and me." I found
out something that devastated me so much that I passed
out by the bedside table afterwards.

Everyone was shocked when they heard that. Nick turned
to his brother for confirmation.

Drew, is this true?" Nick asked him, looking a little
worried.

Drew nodded.

"Yes." He said to Nick. "I found him lying on the
floor after I got out of the shower. When I finally
got him to come to, he tried to lie and tell me that
it was nothing, but I didn't believe him."

Nick's face then turned back to me.

"And that's when you told him about the stalker who
called on your cellphone earlier."

I nodded.

"Wait a minute!" Jeff said, frowning at me. "You said
you lied about someone trying to sell you something
when you got that call on your cellphone. If it was
actually the stalker, then who called the house
phone?"

I swallowed, starting to choke up a little bit,
knowing that this was going to be a devestation
revelation.

"It was a minister named Rev. Jace from the wedding
chapel in Vermont where Nick and I got married." I
told Jeff. "He said he had bad news for Nick and me."

Here, Nick frowned. "What did he say?" He asked me.

"He told me that the minister who married us was a
fraud." I said, as tears came to my eyes. "Do you
realize what that means, Nick?"

Everyone was stunned beyond words. They could not
believe what I was telling them.

"It means that you and I are not.........really
married." Nick asked, as tears of hurt and anger
formed in his eyes.

"And that's why you passed out." Kandi finished for
me.

I could only nod, since the tears were coming full
force, causing my eyes to close.

When I opened my eyes, I saw that Nick was really mad
now.

"And not once did you feel you could come to me with
this?" Nick asked, shaking his head, as a tear made
it's way down his face.

I hung my head in shame.

"I was your husband, Sean!" Nick said, sharply. "I had
a right to know about this too! But you decided to
keep all of this to yourself and not be honest about
it!"

"Nick, I'm sorry!" I sobbed. "I knew that I'd have to
look into your eyes and break your heart and I
couldn't do it! I couldn't bear to see that look on
your face! Just like the one I'm seeing right now!"

Nick turned his back to me and looked at Drew.

"See Bro." He said to Drew. "He lied to both you and
me. How can you still be in love with him when all
he's done is lie!"

My heart stopped at that moment. Nick knew about
Drew's feelings for me?! How did he find out?

"Nick, how do you know that?" I asked him.

Drew looked up at me. "I told him everything, Sean."
He said, sadly.

"Drew, how could you do that to me?" I asked him,
horrified.

"Don't you dare blame this on Drew!" Nick yelled. "At
least he was honest about his feelings!

I couldn't believe Nick was defending him.

"You're actually defending him?!" I asked in
disbelief. "Did he happen to tell you that he was the
one who made the moves on me?"

"Yes, He told me that too!" Nick said, sharply. "At
least he was man enough to admit what he'd done. You,
on the other hand, have some growing up to do!"

Now I was starting to get mad.

"What the hell are you talking about, Nick?" I
scoffed, annoyed.

"Listen to me, Sean!" Nick said, his voice getting
louder. "You want to be a man? You need to start being
honest with me, and stop second guessing yourself
every time my brother opens his mouth!" Otherwise,
Sean, you're no man at all! You're an adolescent,
immature boy! And that sure the hell is not the kind
of husband I want!"

Nick turned away, leaving me to process those hurtful
words.

"What are you saying, Nick?" I asked him,  quietly.

Nick turned back to me, his expression stony cold.

"After Drew told me everything this morning, He and I
talked and came to a decision together. The rest of
the guys support me on this."

I didn't know what he was talking about, but whatever
it was, I knew that I wasn't going to like it.

"What is it, Nick?" I asked, slowly.

Nick turned away and motioned the guys, and Kandi to
stand up, which they did.

"We all decided that it would be best if you weren't a
part of our lives anymore." Nick said. "As far as I'm
concerned, you and I are finished."

"No, Nick, you can't mean that!" I sobbed, walking
over to him and throwing my arms around him.

"Come on, I know I screwed up, big time, but I came
back didn't I?" I continued. "I came back because I
love you and I want to make things right with us."

Nick didn't hug me. Instead, he pulled my arms from
around his neck and pushed me away.

"I don't want you to contact me again, and I don't
ever want to see you again." Nick said, coldly.

"Drew, talk some sense into him, will you?" I
whimpered.

Drew walked over and stood in front of me. He shook
his head.

I'm sorry, Sean, I can't do that." Drew said. "After I
saw what Nick was going through this morning when he
found out you'd left, I knew right then and there that
I was not willing to lose my brother for you. You're
not worth it. I realized that if you could hurt Nick
like that, you could do the same thing to me if I was
in his shoes. So I think it would be best if you left
and never looked back."

I didn't get to object, because Jeff stepped in next.

"We thought we knew you, Sean." Jeff said, sadly. "The
Sean Perry I knew had class, integrity, and self
respect. Obviously, you're not the man we all thought
you were."

"How can you say that to me, Jeff?!" I shouted at him,
in between sobs. "Have you forgotten that I helped you
out during the worst time of your life when Danny
treated you the way that he did?! Hell, if it wasn't
for my accident, you two wouldn't even be together!"

"And I will always be grateful to you for everything
that you've done for me." Jeff said.

"Well, you have a pretty fucked way of showing it!" I
snarled.

"Sean, come on, calm down." Danny said. I just gave
him a dirty look.

"Calm down?!" I screamed. "My life is being changed
forever by all of you and you're telling me to calm
down?!"

Danny didn't say anything. Neither did anyone else.
That is until I turned back to Nick.

"Nick, please, don't do this." I begged him.

"Dont do this?" Nick sarcastically asked. "I didn't do
anything. You're the one who left.

"Damn it, Nick!" I swore. "Don't you understand that I
had to leave?!"

"No, I don't." Nick said. "I don't because you DIDN'T
have to leave. You could have come to me and we could
have talked about it and worked it out. And as for our
marriage, It's not like we couldn't have gotten
married again. But now, I have to wonder if that's
what I even want anymore."

I turned away from Nick and looked towards the door.
As I did, something caught my eye.

"What's my other suitcase doing there?" I asked
outloud, more to myself, than to anyone else.

"I packed the rest of your stuff earlier today." Nick
said, coldy. "Because I want you out of my life
tonight!"

I whipped around and looked at him, noting the
seriousness in his voice.

All I could do was look at everyone else, even Danny,
and notice that they all were definitely in agreement.

"What about you, Danny?" I asked him. "Are you really
going to give up the best friend that you ever had? I
always thought that's what I was to you."

Danny shook his head.

"No, Sean, I'm not going to abandon you." Danny said.
"Even though everyone else agreed that you shouldn't
be here anymore, I wasn't about to break all ties with
you. So, look at it this way. At least Nick, and the
rest of us still care about you enough to let you have
at least one person in your life still."

Danny hung his head.

"I just won't get to see you much anymore." He said,
sadly.

"Why? What do you mean?" I asked, my voice cracking.

"Well, I love Jeff very much and I don't want to give
up what we have, even if I think that this is a bit
extreme what they're doing to you. So, it's looks like
I'll be staying here in L.A. with Jeff."

I stood there, staring at Danny for the longest time.
Then I wrapped my arms around him.

"I'm gonna miss you, man." I told him, as I cried on
his shoulder.

"I know." He said, softly. I'm going to miss you too."

I released him, and gave Jeff a sad look.

"Despite your harsh words, Jeff, I still want you to
be happy. So you take care of him, you got that?"

Jeff nodded.

"You can count on that." He said, putting his arm
around Danny.

I nodded to him and then walked back to Justin and
Kandi, who had not said anything.

"I wish you two nothing but the best, despite
everything. I just hope you two will always be happy."
I told them.

Justin smiled. "Thanks, Sean."

"We will be happy." Kandi said. "Don't worry about us.
I'm just sorry that things couldn't have worked out
differently for you and Nick."

"So am I." I whispered, as I hugged her.

I released her and wiped at my eyes. I turned back and
was face to face with Drew. I gave him an angry look.

"I will never forget this, Drew!" I snarled. "Not as
long as I live! As far as I'm concerned, this is all
your doing! You couldn't stand to see me and Nick
happy could you? No, you just had to go and tell Nick
your feelings for me, but it wasn't because Nick was
hurt by my leaving, it was because you rather would
have seen him miserable than with me!"

The look on Drew's face was too much for me to bear.
It was like my words had no effect on him.

"You can think whatever you want, Sean." Drew said,
his voice so calm, it was almost eerie. "If that's how
you think I am, than you don't know me at all."

"You're right." I said, angrily. "I don't know you."

Then I brushed past him to see Nick just looking at me
coldly.

"Just know this, Nick." I told him. "I'm not giving up
on us. Do you hear me? No way. Because I love you too
much!"

Nick looked down to the floor.

"Look, Sean, I would love nothing more than to get
past this."

Here, he looked up into my eyes.

"But I don't know if it's possible. Not the way I feel
now."

I looked away, not wanting to look in his eyes again.
I knew that if I did, I would break down.

"I know that isn't what you want to hear, Sean, but
that's the way it is." He said.

I walked past him and picked up my suitcase and opened
the door, ready to step out. But not before I looked
back at Nick for the last time.

I set my suitcase down and walked back over to Nick
and kissed him with everything I had, as two tears ran
down my face.

After a few seconds, Nick returned it, just as
passionately. But we were broke apart way too soon, as
my emotions were starting to get the better of me. I
was about to break down at any moment.

"I will wait for you as long as it takes, Nick." I
said, trying to keep my voice steady. "I hope that
once you've had time to really think about what you're
doing, you'll come to realize that this is not what
you want. And when you do, I'll be waiting for you!"


I picked up my suitcase and looked at Nick one last
time.

"You are my everything!"

Those were my last words before I walked out that door
and shut it behind me.

I walked out to the car and threw my suitcase in the
back of my SUV, and hopped into the driver's seat.

I started the engine and drove off, sobbing the entire
time, knowing that things would never be the same
again.

"I'm never going to stop loving you, Nick." I sobbed
to myself. "I will love you until the day I die."



TBC............?

Well, that's about it for this installment.

"Will Nick and the rest of the gang really be able to
live with their decision. Or will their guilt
eventually win out?

But the big question is....................

"What will become of Sean now? Will he be able to
survive without love?

I can't tell you what you want to know, but I will
tell you this...........Sean will no longer be the man
he used to be.

Be prepared as this story continues with a new
beginning.

Sean will change into a whole new person with a new
outlook on life.

Stay tuned.

Slpwriter