Date: Mon, 13 Dec 2004 02:13:45 -0800 (PST)
From: Sean <sneaker_sean@yahoo.com>
Subject: My Family: For Better or Worse Chapter Three

Disclaimer:
      This story is fiction, totally fake. I don't know
NSYNC, or any of the other celebrities that will show up,
don't know anything about them, besides the usual fan stuff,
I don't know anything about any of the guys sexuality. This
is simply a story that I wanted to write. I hope you enjoy
it.

Legal Stuff:
      This story does contain some adult material, and not
necessarily sex. It covers a sensitive subject. Eventually
there might be some sex involved and if you are underage you
better not being reading this. Or if it is illegal in your
area to view this material. If it's not then enjoy and
remember authors need feedback to make the story better, so
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Authors Note:
     To all the people that have written me I want to say
thank you for all your kind words and also say I am sorry
for taking so long to post. I am trying to get better at
that.

Dedication:
     I wish to dedicate this story to my one and only love,
I love you Cupcake and I always will.

     Chapter Three: Spending time with Justin.

     From the time we left the hotel room till we got to the
hospital, Justin never once let go of me; if he didn't have
his arm over my shoulder he had it around my waist or was
holding my hand. I was becoming increasingly stressed as we
neared the hospital. Justin and I were in the back of an
SUV, our bodyguard was also severing as a driver and I was
glad not to have to deal with that particular problem.
Justin squeezed my hand.
     "You okay?" He said.
     "Not really, but I will deal." I said he pulled me over
to him and wrapped me in a hug. I laid my head on his
shoulder and concentrated on my breathing. Finally we pulled
up to the hospital it was a nice looking place as hospitals
go, but it was still a hospital. As our bodyguard go out
Justin pulled out a baseball hat and some sunglasses,
standard celebrity disguise he told me. We walked into the
hospital, I balked a few times but Justin gently but firmly
pulled me along, and finally we were in the elevator.
     "What floor?" Justin asked me.
     "Fifth." I said and fell silent again.
     "Sean, Bro, what's wrong?" Justin said pulling me into
a hug, he looked upset himself.
     "Bro, I just don't want to go up there too many painful
memories." I said as I let out a breath. "But I have to, I
have to get better." I finished; Justin pulled me into a
tight hug.
     "You are taking a big step today. And I am so proud of
you Bro." Justin said then he kissed my cheek. "And I will
be there the whole time." He added.
     "Promise?" I asked.
     "As long as your doctor doesn't object." He said.
     "I am sure I can convince him." I said. The elevator
dinged, we were here the doors opened up and we stepped out
on our floor. I hooked my arm in Justin's and practically
pulled him along. "Come on I will sign you in and then we
can get this over with." I suddenly came to a stop "Justin"
I said in an urgent whisper. "I can't sign you in, it might
cause a riot and this is a hospital." Justin just smiled at
me.
     "Don't worry about it Bro, I have already thought of a
plan. Just sign me in as James Fantone." He said.
     "Yeah, that should work." I said looking a bit down.
     "What's wrong?" Justin asked.
     "I was just hoping to show you off a bit." I said, and
then felt bad because it sounded like I only wanted him to
there for show. "Not that that is the reason I wanted you to
come." I said as the smile fell form his face as he realized
what I had said. "I wanted you to come because I want to
spend time with my big brother." I added, that wiped the
frown form his face and replaced it with a smile.
     "That and you knew you would chicken out with out
someone to push you." He said with a laugh.
     "True." I agreed. We walked down the hall arm in arm
again, good mood restored. Coming to Nurse's Station I was
hoping to see someone specific, and God heard my prayer.
Dani looked up just in time to see me wave at her. She
jumped up ad ran over to me, but stopped halfway there when
she noticed Justin and his arm around mine.
     "Sean what is going on?" She said.
     "Dani, I need a huge favor." I said with a smile,
Justin caught my wink to him and he knew what I was
planning.
     "Another favor isn't it enough I helped you get out of
here to go see your angels in concert, now you want more."
She said trying to look mad but failed.
     "Yep." I said. "Come on Dani, it's me please." I said
giving here those big puppy eyes.
     "God, some days I hate you, you know I can't say no to
you. What do you need and what will it cost me?" She said
with a laugh.
     "I need you to let us into my room here, and for you to
bring the sign in sheet to us." I said. "I will explain the
rest in the room." I said.
     "Sean, you know that is breaking hospital policy, they
have to be signed in first." She said like she was reciting
the manual, then she smiled, "But to hell with policy. Go on
I will be in there in just a second." She added. As we were
walking down the hall towards my room Justin leaned over and
whispered.
     "I can see why you like her she is fun."
     "I heard that." She said in a raised voice. Justin
turned red.
     "Sorry about that Justin, I should have warned you, she
has ears like a bat." I said.
     "I heard that too." She said, again. We busted up
laughing as I pushed open the door. As soon as the door was
open and I saw the bed my laughter died, I felt like I was
going to pass out. Justin grabbed my arm and led me towards
the bed, but I pulled away and backed against the wall. As
soon as my back hit the wall I let out a yelp and jumped
forward.
     "Sean what's wrong, please talk to me Bro." Justin said
he voice starting to panic.
     "I can't do this; I can't get back on that bed. Look
you can still see the blood stains." I said in a cracking
voice, pointing to the bed. Justin looked at the bed, it was
covered in snow white sheets there wasn't a spot on it.
     "Bro there is nothing on that bed. It's okay." He said
as he pulled me to him.
     "I can still feel the blood there." I whispered. Just
then Dani walked in as the tears fell down my face.
     "Sean what's wrong?" I just held on to Justin tighter.
     "He is afraid of the room, is it possible to move him
somewhere else?" Justin said.
     "Yeah, the room across the hall if free lets take him
in there." She said. "What happened?" She asked Justin as
they got me to the door.
     "The blood." Was all I could say.
     "What is he talking about?" Dani asked.
     "He looks at the bed and sees it covered in blood."
Justin said quietly. When we had gotten into the other room
I finally started to calm down.
     "I am sorry guys; I know I am making a fuss over
something stupid." I said. Justin just shook his head.
     "If it's important to you, it's important to me." He
said.
     "Me too." Dani agreed. "So are you going to introduce
me to your cute new friend and his shadow?" She asked
changing the subject.
     "First I need a promise form you. I want your most
solemn vow you won't tell a soul what I am going to tell
you." I said.
     "Sean, on my honor as a nurse, on my love for my family
and on my promise to heal you, I won't breath a word to
anyone. Now tell me I am about to burst." She added with a
laugh.
     "One last thing, no screaming remember we are in a
hospital."
     "Okay no screaming, but first how was the concert was
it everything you wanted and more? Did you make it to see
your angels perform?" She asked me.
     "I got to do more than just see them." I said as I
reached up and pulled off Justin's hat as he pulled the
sunglasses away. Dani's eyes went round and her mouth fell
open. "No screaming remember." I said. Her mouth clamped
shut. For about two minutes she just stared at us.
     "How?" She said finally.
     "Long story, maybe I will tell you later. For now, Dani
meet my brother Justin Timberlake, Justin this is Dani one
of the nurses that saved my life."
     "It's nice to meet you." She said holding out her hand,
as Justin took it she looked like she wanted to say
something else. She didn't so I did it for her.
     "OH MY GOD. I am shaking hands with Justin Timberlake."
I said in an excited whisper. I jumped up and down for added
effect. Justin laughed but Dani fixed her death stare on me,
I stopped looking down like a child having been caught with
his hand in the cookie jar.
     "That wasn't nice Bro." Justin said in his best big
brother scolding tone.
     "And laughing at it was?" I shot back. He smiled at me.
Dani held up her hands in a stopping motion.
     "Wait, I am confused." She said.
     "You're just not getting confused." I said raising an
eyebrow.
     "Stop, Bro." Justin whispered, placing a hand on my
shoulder. I stopped talking.
     "What are you confused about Dani?" Justin said. She
turned to me.
     "He is your brother?" She asked.
     "Yes." I answered
     "You have two different names."
     "I am adopted."
     "But you told me you're step brother's name was Mark."
     "It is."
     "Then why did you never mention Justin before?"
     "I think I see where she is confused Bro." Justin said.
"Why don't you explain to her how I came to be your
brother?" He added
     "Oh I see." I said. "Justin isn't really my brother
Dani. He and the guys of NSYNC kind of adopted me after an
incident after the concert. I am NSYNC's little brother I
guess." I explained.
     "What happened after the concert?" Dani asked.
     "Something I would rather not talk about." I said.
     "Okay. I can accept that." She said. "So NSYNC has
adopted you as a brother that is so cool." She said changing
the subject. I pulled the sign in sheet form her hands and
signed Justin's name to it. Only later would I remember I
was supposed to sign in a different name. Then I looked over
at the bodyguard.
     "I don't think I know your name yet." I said to him.
     "Darrell." Was all he said, I just made up a last name
to go with it. I handed the sign in sheet to Dani.
     "I bet if you have a piece of paper or something I can
get someone to autograph it." I said. Dani seemed to snap
out of her trance. "Why don't you go call the doctor so I
can get out of here?" I said with a smile. Dani nodded and
walked out the room. "Darrell, can you keep an eye out in
the hall. Don't let anyone one in here yet, I have to talk
to my brother." Darrell just grunted but walked out and
closed the door behind him.
     "What did you want to talk to me about?" Justin asked.
I looked at the ground remembering what I wanted to say to
him.
     "Justin, it's about this morning, when you reached out
to comfort me and touched my back." I looked up into his
eyes. "I wanted to say I am sorry for yelling at you." My
eyes filled with tears. "I am so sorry."
     "Bro you don't have to apologize, you were under a lot
of stress, and your back is a sensitive area." Justin said
in a soothing tone.
     "I just didn't want you to think I was mad at you about
it." I whispered.
     "If I thought you were mad at me, you erased that by
asking me to come here with you, to be here with you." He
said.
     "So you forgive me?" I said in a hopeful tone.
     "There is nothing to forgive, but if it will make you
feel better then yes. I forgive you." He said as he pulled
me into a hug. I felt like a weight had been lifted off of
me.
     "Thank you, Bro." I said. I pulled away when there was
a soft knock at the door. I walked over to it and there was
Darrell blocking the door, in front of him was Dani and Dr.
Ashter, both of whom didn't look pleased with being kept
out. I reached up and tapped Darrell's shoulder. "Its okay
Darrell we're done." Darrell moved out the way, letting in
the other two. He closed the door and took up a post outside
the door. "Sorry about that Dr. Ashter, my brother and I
were having a private moment." The Doctor merely nodded.
"Dr. Ashter, I have a question for you." I said. "Anything I
tell you is strictly confidential right?" I asked.
     "Of course, I would never reveal how a patient of mine
had an international pop celebrity in their hospital room."
He said with a smile.
     "How did you know?" I asked.
     "I have two teenage daughters; believe me I know who
you are. It's nice to meet you Mr. Timberlake." Dr. Ashter
said, holding out his hand to Justin.
     "Nice to meet you to Doctor." Justin said.
     "Dr. Ashter Justin is my new big brother; can he stay
in the room with us?" Dr. Ashter frowned. "I don't think I
can go through it all by myself" I said.
     "Very well, but Justin try and stay out of the way,
please." He said. I took a hold of Justin's hand and pulled
him over to the bed. It was already in the lay down
position, kicking off my sneakers. I laid down with my head
hanging off the end. I held onto Justin's hand as he knelt
down in front of me. I try to concentrate on just Justin not
on what was going on in the room, but it didn't work. As Dr.
Ashter started to lift the back of my shirt up I let out a
pained gasp. "The blood has seeped all the way threw the
shirt and the bandages are now attached to each other. Dani
we will have to cut the shirt off of him." Dr. Ashter up a
reassuring hand on my shoulder. "This may hurt a bit, but
you will be okay." Justin looked up at him.
     "What will we do about another shirt, he can't leave
here shirtless."
     "Justin its okay, the rest of my cloths are in the room
across the hall."
     "Oh okay," I went back to focusing on his hand, his
face the sound of his breathing anything but what the doctor
was doing. Unfortunately even with the hot guy sitting in
front of me I still felt everything and sometimes heard it
too. I felt the scissors slide up under the shirt the cold
metal touching my lower back. I gripped Justin's hand like
it was a life line, for the most part he kept his eyes on my
face, but I could tell he wanted to look at my back. After
like ten minutes Dr. Ashter had the back of the shirt cut to
ribbons. I could feel the cold air on my back, making goose
bumps appear, the skin was painfully tight. As Dr. Ashter
removed the bandages, I gave into the pain and let loose
with a scream as the tears fell down my face. Justin was
instantly focused on me; he wiped the tears away with his
hand, told me it would be okay, and all the while held on to
my hand. The pain was intense I thought I would pass out a
couple of times. Finally all the bandages were gone; my back
lay open to the world. I wanted to jump up and hide it; I
felt the tears start again. "Sean Bro what's wrong? Please
talk to me. Say something anything." Justin begged me.
     "Ju.Ju." Was all I could say, the pain was like a cloud
that was closing off my mind.
     "That's right it's Juju." Justin said, I felt his hand
on my face it blocked out some of the room. "Just focus on
me, just think about me, and just listen to me." He said
desperate to get me away form the pain. I looked into his
pale blue eyes so full of worry and fear, the doctor had
taken a moment to get the next set of things ready and the
pain was fading.
     "Juju?" I asked Justin.
     "I am right here." Justin said, and then he noticed the
confused look on my face, so he explained it to me. "It's a
nickname, Josh gave me, he hasn't used it in years but I
still remember it." He said.
     "Can I call you it?" I said in a small pained voice.
     "You can call me anything you want Bro." Justin said. I
smiled at that and then passed out form the pain.


     I awoke to the feeling of being smothered. I sat up
slightly to discover my face had been lying on a pillow. I
took a deep breath once free of the pillow. My back felt
funny but it still hurt, in fact every movement was an
indication of the pain. I bit back a scream and tried to
even my breathing, so it wouldn't hurt. I was facing a wall,
but I was sure he was still in the room with me. "Juju?"
     "I am right here Bro." Justin said as he placed a hand
on my right shoulder.
     "How long have I been out?" I asked.
     "About two hours." He was massaging my shoulders trying
to ease the pain.
     "When will the pain go away, Juju?" I asked I felt like
crying but also felt that would be weak, Justin sighed.
     "The physical pain should be gone in about a week to
two weeks." He said in a soothing voice. "However the mental
scars I just don't know."
     "At least my physical scars have some company." I said
trying to lighten the mood. However I felt the tears fall
down my face. I felt Justin move, he lifted me up and then I
found myself with m head in his lap. He just ran his fingers
threw my hair as I cried.
     "It's going to be okay Bro. The doctor is real hopeful
about the scars; he said you should see about seeing a
plastic surgeon to see if they can be removed altogether."
Justin said.
     "Really?" I asked looking up at him.
     "Bro I would never lie to you." Justin said sounding
hurt.
     "Oh Juju I didn't mean it like that, it's just it
sounds too good to be true." I said looking sad again, no
mater what I do I just end up upsetting people. I was trying
so hard, I laid my head back in his lap and tried to fight
the tears I felt slide down my face.
     "Bro what's wrong?" Justin asked concerned.
     "No matter how hard I try I always end up upsetting the
people I care about." I sobbed.
     "Oh, Bro, you didn't upset anyone well besides
yourself." Justin said with a chuckle.
     "But you were hurt by the fact that I thought you would
lie to me, even if that wasn't what I meant." I said, Justin
helped pull me into a sitting position.
     "Bro I understand that trust and belief is hard for
you. Yes I was hurt but just for a second; please believe me
when I say I am not hurt anymore." Justin's pale blue eyes
burned into me telling me it was true. I just nodded I laid
my head back on his shoulder. "Anyway back to what we were
talking about, Dr Ashter says you should talk to the
resident plastic surgeon, but I think you should go to a
specialist, if you're up to it I know a place we can go."
Justin said once our good, or at least better, mood was
back.
     "Juju, I can't" I said.
     "Bro, it's okay we can go tomorrow or something, we are
here until Sunday anyway." He said quickly.
     "No Juju, I can't go at all." I said.
     "Why not?" Justin asked perplexed.
     "Juju, I am not sure how I am going to pay for this." I
said gesturing around us. "Let alone a plastic surgeon. I
will just have to live with the scars." I said, I exhaled I
felt tired but more mentally then physically.
     "Oh" Justin put his hand under my chin, so that we were
looking eye to eye. "About that, the hospital bills have
already been taken care of." He said in a low voice.
     "What? Who? Justin tell me you didn't."
     "I can't say that, because I did." Just said with a
smile, I frowned.
     "Justin." I said.
     "Juju." He interrupted me.
     "Justin, you knew I didn't want your money. I just
don't feel right about it." I said.
     "I know Bro but technically you are not getting the
money the hospital is." He noticed this tactic wasn't
working on me. ""Okay, lets try it this way, we're brothers
right?"
     "Yeah, unless you don't want to be anymore." I said my
face clouding up.
     "Never, you will always be my little brother." Justin
said. "Well what do brothers do when one is in trouble?" He
asked me.
     "They help each other out." I said
     "And if one needs money and the other has it?" Justin
asked.
     "He lends it to the one who needs it." I said in a low
voice. "But I might never be able to pay it off." I added.
     "Take as long as you need to pay it off, there is no
interest attached. However I do have an idea of how you can
start." Justin said to me with a big grin.
     "How?"
     "Come with us when we leave on Sunday, come on the tour
with us." Justin said.
     "Juju, I c."
     "Before you say you can't you should know two other
things." This time Justin looked really nervous, he was
starting to make me uneasy.
     "What?"
     "Dani told me where you work." He said, taking a deep
breath he continued. "I called them to see if you could get
the time off." He added.
     "You did what?" I said, stunned I just sat there as he
repeated what he had said.
     "Should you like to know your boss said take all the
time you need. So you can go." He said triumphantly.
     "What was the second thing I needed to know?" I asked
my mind still processing the information I was given.
     "Well.um.you see the thing is." Justin really seemed to
have a hard time with this one. "Promise you won't get mad?"
He asked.
     "I can promise to try not to, is that good enough?" I
said. He nodded.
     "Your cell phone rang while you were unconscious. I
didn't want it to wake you so I." he stalled out again.
     "You answered it." I finished his sentence for him.
"Who was it? What did you tell them?" I asked.
     "It was your Aunt Cate." Justin said. "And I told her
everything." He said quietly, I saw a tear slide down his
cheek, then he turned away form me. "I am really sorry." He
said in a broken voice.
     "Juju, look at me please." I said, he turned around and
looked into my eyes. "Its okay, Juju, she would have found
out eventually anyway. About everything, I did kind of want
to tell her about you myself but oh well." Justin let out a
breath.
     "So you're not mad at me?"
     "Never Juju, you are my brother and I love you." I
said, as I pulled him into a tight hug. "When did she call?"
Justin pulled back form the hug and glanced at the clock.
     "About half an hour ago." He answered.
     "So when do Nicky and Drewby get here?" I said.
     "As soon as you call them." He responded, "I got your
Aunt not to tell them." He said.
     "How did you do that? They never keep stuff form each
other, least of all stuff like this." I was stunned.
     "I explained to your Aunt."
     "Our Aunt."
     "Aunt Cate, then, that you should be the one to call
them and ask them to come down. She agreed but you have to
do it before two o'clock today or she will."
     "Why two o'clock?"
     "She is already checking into plane reservations and
such, this way they have time to pack." Justin explained.
     "Well no time like the present. Hand me the phone
Juju." I said, Justin leaned back and grabbed my cell phone.
"If you happen to end up talking to them while I get myself
back together, their names are Nick and Drew, Nicky and
Drewby are my personal names okay?"
     "Okay, I understand." He said as he handed me the
phone. "You don't have to do this right this minute." He
added.
     "Yes I do. Aunt Cate hates keeping things form them,
especially something important, so the less time she has to
keep it the better." I said, Justin nodded, I opened the
phone and called up the number I needed.  "Here we go." I
said with a smile. I pushed the button and held the phone to
my ear, the first ring didn't even finish before someone
picked up.
     "SEAN? Is that you? What happened? Are you okay? Say
something." About that time the voice took a breath, the
voice sounded high and strained.
     "First off Nicky, take a deep breath and calm down. Yes
it's me, but I am not okay," my voice was failing, I felt
the tears.
     "Sean what happened what's wrong?" Nick asked me, I
tried to answer him but I couldn't. I felt Justin's hand on
my shoulder, his other hand wrapped around mine, I drew
strength form him.
     "Nicky, I need you." I whispered.
     "I am right here." He said.
     "No Nicky I mean I really need you, I need you here." I
said.
     "I will be there as soon as I can, but Cuz what
happened?" By this time I was practically hyperventilating,
I knew I would never get it out, I passed the phone to
Justin.
     "Hello Nick?" Justin said tentatively into the phone.
     "WHERE THE HELL IS SEAN? PUT HIM BACK ON THE PHONE
NOW." Nick screamed.
     "Nick calm down, Sean is right here beside me." Pause.
"Who am I? I am his new adopted big brother, but we can talk
about that later as for what happened, Eric found him
again." There was a gasp on the phone even I could here,
Justin handed me the phone again. "He wants to tell you
something."
     "Hello?" My voice sounded weak and scared.
     "Sean are you in any danger? Will you be okay till we
get there? I am contacting Drew now. We will both be there
as soon as possible. Just say in the apartment and don't go
anywhere." Nick sounded like he was racing around the room,
which he probably was.
     "Nicky I am not at the apartment, not even in Pasadena"
I said.
     "What where are you?"
     "LA."
     "What are you doing there?"
     "Went to the NSYNC concert remember?" My face lit up.
"It was so wonderful. I got to meet them in person." Nick
laughed. "By the way thanks for the passes Nicky, you have
no idea what they mean to me."
     "Anything for my favorite cousin."
     "Nicky I am your only cousin." I said with a laugh.
     "All the more reason for you to be spoiled," Suddenly
the banging and the crashing stopped and it sounded like he
sat back down. "I have some bad news for you too, but I
don't want to tell you like this, I will tell you when I get
there okay."
     "Drewby?" I said in a panicked voice.
     "He's fine I promise. In fact he just picked up the
other line, give me just a second and I will conference the
three of us together." I let out a breath as I was put on
hold.
     "Your cousin?" Justin asked worried.
     "Our cousin, Drewby, is fine. I just over reacted." I
said Justin hugged me. "I am on hold for a second Nicky is
going to conference me with Drewby so the three of us can
talk together." Justin just nodded. He was resting his chin
on my shoulder and it felt so good.
     "I am back, everyone still here."
     "I am." I answered.
     "Sean, thank God, I have been trying to get a hold of
you for two days, why aren't you answering the apartment
phone?"
     "Drewby, I am not at the apartment, I went to LA to go
to the concert remember?" I said.
     "Oh yeah, had to go see that group didn't you?" He said
sounding stuck up.
     "Don't be insulting to my boys, Drewby. Be nice or I
won't let you meet them." I said there were three intakes of
breath. "Hold on just a sec guys." I said as I put my hand
over the phone, "Juju, can I tell them?" I said I looked
into his eyes. "I trust them with my life; they won't say a
word to anyone." Justin nodded.
     "If you trust them that is good enough for me." I
kissed his cheek.
     "Thanks." I put the phone back up to my ear just in
time to be deafened.
     "WHAT?" Drew screamed out. "SEAN? SEAN? Nick what
happened to him where is he?"
     "I am right here Drewby."
     "Sean we are on out way out there to you. I just have
to get plane tickets." Drew said to me.
     "Talk to Aunt Cate, she should have everything ready
and probably bags packed."
     "Mom? How does she know?"
     "She called about thirty five minutes ago, and before
you get mad, Justin convinced her to let me call you to tell
you myself." I said.
     "Who is Justin?" Drew asked.
     "I was wondering the same." Nick added.
     "Justin Timberlake is my big brother, he and the rest
of the guys of NSYNC adopted me as their kid brother, after
the concert."
     "Wait let me get this straight; Justin Timberlake is
the guy I yelled at earlier?" Nick asked.
     "Yep so you better apologize and be nice." I said. "And
don't worry we are going to go back to the hotel after one
more stop and I will stay there till you get in to LAX."
     "Where else do you have to go?" Drew asked.
     "A plastic surgeon Justin said he knows we are going to
look into having what happened to me and what happened
before removed for good." I said with a smile Justin
squeezed my shoulder.
     "Put him on the phone, Sean, I want to talk to him.
Drew call mom and find out about our flights and such."
     "Okay" Drew and I said at the same time. I handed the
phone to Justin.
     "Nick wants to talk to you." I said Justin took the
phone form me.
     "Hello Nick, yes he is perfectly safe there is a
security guard outside the door right now." Pause. "We are
staying at the Plaza I will tell Lance to get you guys a
room." Pause. "I will I promise you. Beverly Hills, then
right back to the hotel." Pause. "No somehow I don't think I
can convince him of that. You can try. I am really really
sure that won't happen." Pause. "No I will go with him he
won't leave my sight I give you my word." Pause. "Thank you,
I can't wait to meet you too." Justin said and handed me the
phone again.
     "Nicky what all did you say?" I asked,
     "I will tell you when I get there, for now know that
you are in good hands. I have to go Cuz, but Drewby will
call later with the flight info. I love you Cuz."
     "I love you too Nicky." I said then hung up the phone.
Justin pulled me into a tight hug, he felt my body relax and
knew I was falling asleep again, it was all too much for me
to handle.
     "It's okay Sean, get some rest, we can go to the
doctor's office later or even tomorrow in necessary." Justin
whispered.
     "Juju, call Josh please we were suppose to be back a
while ago. Let him know we are okay so he doesn't worry." I
said in a tired voice.
     "You got it Bro, just rest." Justin said and with that
I was out again.



     I awoke to find I was once again on my stomach, God I
hate sleeping like that, but I knew I had to, Dr Ashter said
I needed to so the stitches could heal, only this time the
pillow seemed more lumpy, not as soft but still nice. I
opened my eyes and almost screamed, Justin was under me, I
had been sleeping on his chest. I guess Justin could see the
look of fear on my face, because he wrapped his arms gently
around me. "It's okay Bro, it's just me and I am not going
to harm you." Justin said soothingly,
     "I know Juju; I just didn't expect to find you in the
bed." I said with a slight laugh, "Just threw me off a bit."
     "Well I noticed you were having a hard time sleeping
earlier you kept trying to roll over." Justin said.
     "I normally sleep on my back." I said.
     "So I gathered, well since the doctor said you can't do
that anymore. I thought this might be a better idea." Justin
said looking really worried. "Unless you don't like it then
we can never do it again."
     "No I just have to get use to someone being there in
the bed," I said, "But I do like waking up to my big
brother." I added with a smile.
     "Me too, but if you ever don't want this please let me
know. I don't want you to do it because you feel like you
have too." Justin said seriously.
     "Deal." I hugged him tight and felt his strong warm
arms wrap around me the pain in my back was fading slowly, I
guess some pain medication or something had kicked in.
     "Oh how sickeningly cute." A voice said, I struggled to
get up, Justin held me to him.
     "It's only James; calm down Sean you are perfectly safe
here. Darrell isn't going to let anyone in here who isn't
cleared." Justin said as I started to settle down.
     "I am sorry Sean, I didn't mean to startle you." James
said as he came to my side of the bed so I could see him.
     "Sorry I overreacted." I said with a weak smile, I felt
exposed with my back out. I wanted to roll over but I knew I
couldn't do that. James knelt down so we were eye to eye.
     "You don't have to apologize Sean you weren't expecting
anyone else to be here. It's totally understandable that you
would be unnerved by a strange voice in the room. So let's
just forget this and move on okay?" James said to me.
     "Okay," I said in a small voice, I was still grappling
with the fear.
     "I know something that will make you feel better."
James said in a sing-song voice. "I know something you don't
know." He said teasingly.
     "What? Oh tell me." I said.
     "I know something you don't know."
     "Tell me. Please." I tried my puppy dog eyes on him,
but James was prepared he clamped his eyes shut.
     "James" Justin said in a warning tone, as he watched me
become flustered at not knowing.
     "I can't tell you, I was sworn to secrecy." He said.
     "No fair you bring it up and then say that." I pouted.
     "Would it help if I told you, that you will find out in
like two minutes?" James said with a smile.
     "A little bit."
     "Then you will find out in like two minutes." He said
with a laugh. Probably not a minute went by before there was
a soft nock on the door. I sat up and asked James to get the
door. As he pulled it open there was Josh, I felt a funny
flutter in my chest, he stood at the door like he was
waiting to be invited in, and something was hidden behind
his back I would have bet on it.
     "Come in Josh." I said quietly, I didn't know why I was
suddenly so shy around him. Josh crossed the threshold and
slowly walked towards me. I had the sudden urge to jump up
and pull him into a tight hug, but I wasn't fast enough,
because in seconds he was by my side.
     "I thought you might be feeling a bit down and low so I
got you something to hopefully perk you up." Josh said in
that wonderful soothing loving tone. He pulled out what he
was hiding and my eyes went round, yellow carnations I
gently took them form him looking at them lovingly.
     "Looks like it's a hit." James said. Suddenly the
silence in the room was broken by my sob; three sets of eyes
snapped to me as my shoulders shook form the crying. Justin
instantly pulled me into a tight hug, holding on to me as
tight as he dared.
     "Sean, Bro, what's wrong?" Justin asked franticly. A
few minutes went by before I was able to regain control.
     "Carnations are my favorite flower." I whispered, so
low everyone was huddled around me so they could hear.
"Yellow denotes friendship." I added.
     "I don't get it, if you like them why were you crying?"
James asked.
     "Carnations are not just my favorite but my mothers
too." I said as a lone tear rolled down my face.
     "But I thought you didn't like your mother?" James was
still confused.
     "No James I love my mother, I hate my step-mother." I
said.
     "Where is she?" Josh asked, and instantly regretted it
as my face clouded up again.
     "She died." I whispered barely making a sound, I felt
Justin pull me close again.
     "Oh God Sean I am so sorry." Josh was practically in
tears, I felt a tug at my heart for the pain he felt. "I had
no idea." He mumbled.
     "I know Josh." I pulled out of the hug with Justin and
stood and pulled Josh into a tight hug. "You had no way of
knowing, there is still a million and one things we don't
know about each other." I said. "It's okay, I will be fine."
     "When did it happen?" James asked tentatively.
     "I was five maybe six." I said slowly. I got kind of a
dazed expression on my face. "I don't really remember much,
just a touch or a smell. Her skin was always so soft, and
smelled of lavender; she use to sing said it helped the
flowers grow." I gazed down at the flowers in my arms.
"There was a crystal vase that sat in the front entry it was
always filled with carnations, of every color. Mommy use to
say that she like carnations more then roses because
everyone always thought of roses but few people thought
about carnations. Maybe she felt bad for them being
ignored." I looked up at Josh suddenly. "She also told me
that someday a true and honest friend would bring me
carnations and that I should hold on to that person for as
long as I can because someone like that doesn't come along
very often." I added.
     "What did she mean?" Justin asked.
     "Just what I said, that Josh is a true and honest
friend, and I have to hold on to his for as long as I can."
I answered.
     "But how did she know he would bring carnations?"
     "My guess would be because they are my favorite, or
possibly because the gift shop downstairs only sells these
and roses." I said with a laugh, Josh looked down at his
sneakers.
     "I didn't think red roses would be a wise choice." He
mumbled. I lifted his chin.
     "And you would be right, though I like roses too, but I
do prefer carnations. And it was a lovely gift and I love
it." I said as I kissed his cheek, I felt that flutter of
emotions again, what was happening to me? I blushed a deep
red and sat back on the edge of the bed, I focused on the
flowers.
     "Looks like someone is embarrassed." James said, my
head snapped up then back down with me trying to blush more.
Justin fearing I would get whiplash if this continued
stepped in.
     "James leave my little brother alone." Emotions were
running rampant in my head; I tried to figure out what was
going on but I couldn't I was so confused the more I thought
about it the more my head hurt. I reached up and started
rubbing my temples. "Are you okay Bro?" Justin asked.
     "Just a headache Juju." I answered.
     "Juju? That name hasn't been used in a while." Josh
said. Justin caught me frowning.
     "Bro what's wrong?" He asked me.
     "I thought you said no one uses that name anymore." I
said.
     "Sean no one does, I was just asking why you are
suddenly." Josh said soothingly, he is so good at that.
     "Oh, I tried to say Justin while the doctor was working
on my back, but I couldn't get past the first two letters, I
stuttered and it sounded like Juju. Once the doctor took a
small break I asked about it and Juju said I could use that
name." I explained, my head was still pounding, I felt so
badly. "I am so confused about everything lately, my head
hurts form trying to figure stuff out." I said.
     "Do you want to rest some more, or see if Dani has
anything for your head?" Justin asked the concern clearly
visible in his every movement.
     "Yeah let's ask Dani for some aspirin and then go
home." I said.
     "Home?" Josh asked.
     "Uh, I mean the hotel," I stammered. As we got up to
leave a thought struck me. "Wait, what about my cloths and
stuff?" I asked.
     "Way ahead of you Bro, while you napped Chris and Joey
packed it all up and took it back to the hotel." Justin
informed me.
     "Oh," I said, "where will I stay?"
     "With me of course," Justin said, then seeing the odd
looks of Josh and James, he added. "Unless you want a room
by yourself or something."
     "I would prefer that Sean at least stays with one of us
for the time being." Josh said.
     "Ever the protector, Josh." I said with a smile, as I
slipped my hand into the crook of Justin's arm. "Juju, I
would love to stay with you."
     "Actually in a way you will be sharing a room with all
of us." James said, then seeing the look of utter confusion
on my face he explained. "When we heard of our impending
guests we asked the hotel if we could upgrade to a suite.
The one we have has seven rooms so technically no one has to
share." James said looking pleased with himself.
     "Actually someone will have to share." I pointed out.
     "What?" James said confused.
     "Well there is the five of you guys, then there is
Nicky and Drewby that makes seven." I paused, it only took a
second for the light to go on, so to speak, and James
realized what I meant. Seeing as the other two were still in
the dark I continued. "And me making it eight." James' head
fell
     "I am so sorry Sean; I guess Justin isn't the only one
to forget you." James said, I could tell he was really upset
about it.
     "Wow, glad to know I am so forgettable." I said with a
smile. James' head hung lower, he had obviously missed the
humor in my voice. I placed my hand on his shoulder, his
pale green eyes looked into my own blue eyes. "James, it was
a joke. Its okay, if I wasn't staying with Juju, I would
probably be sharing with Nicky or Drewby or both." I said,
"So it's okay.
     "Yeah," he said, I slipped my arm into Justin's.
     "Let's go find Dani and get out of this place."
     "Okay, Bro." Justin said as we walked down the hall
towards the Nurses Station, body guards in tow.  Once I had
gotten some headache stuff we headed for the bank of
elevators. Before we got there, one of the elevators opened
and Chris and Joey walked out and up towards up, looking
worried. "Hey guys what's up?"
     "What's wrong?" Josh asked them.
     "Word spread, the fans know we're here." Joey said.
     "So a few fans know you guys are here, it can't be that
bad." I said.
     "A few fans? Try around a thousand or so." Chris said.
     "Around a thousand!" I was stunned. "How are they all
in the lobby? It's not that big." I said as Josh pointed out
the window.
     "They are not all in the lobby." We rushed over to see
the hospital practically under siege
     "We have to do something," I said, "People who need to
get into the hospital can't."
     "What are we going to do?" James asked, we had begun to
walk back to my room to wait, but an idea struck me, I
turned around and headed for the elevator.
     "Bro where are you going?" Justin asked me.
     "To ask them to go away." I stated. Chris stared at me
like I was crazy.
     "And you think they will just go away with us still in
this hospital?"
     "Yes, once I explain to them that you don't want them
to be here because it could endanger people, your fans love
you, but I don't think they want to be the cause of people
getting hurt." I said, by this time I was back at the
elevator.
     "Wait, Bro, if your going to do this lets do this
right. Joey are there any news people down there too?"
Justin asked.
     "Yeah a few why?"
     "Let's send a body guard down there to tell them we
will be sending down a representative form NSYNC with a
statement to the public." Justin said.
     "Sounds like a plan to me." James said.
     "I second that." Josh said, with a grin.
     "All those in favor?" I said with a laugh, everyone
agreed, after sending one the body guards down stairs we sat
on the benches around the room. "So now I am a
representative form NSYNC, oh how the mighty have fallen
form brother to pee-on. How sad." I said with fake hurt.
     "Stop you're still our brother, we just added on the
pee-on part." Joey said with a laugh.
     "Thanks a lot, guys."
     "Remember Sean this was your idea." Josh pointed out.
     "True, next time I have a great idea someone stop me."
I said with a smile.
     "No way, besides it really is a great idea." Chris
said.
     "I just hope it works." James said.
     "Hey with my little brother planning it of course it
will work." Justin said, giving my shoulder a squeeze.
     "Thanks, Juju, but now that it's actually going to
happen I am a bit scared." I admitted.
     "You will be fine and I will be there right beside
you." Justin said.
     "What? I thought the idea was to keep you out of harms
way." I said.
     "Normally that would be the idea, but I promised Nick
that you wouldn't leave my side until we pick them up at the
airport, so you're stuck with me." Justin said.
     "No one I would rather be stuck with." I said with a
smile.
     "Well Justin if you going down there we all should."
Chris said.
     "Only if you guys agree not to say anything, remember
the idea is to get them to go away, you guys are not giving
an interview." I said.
     "Agreed." Joey said, five minutes later the body guard
we send down returned to say that everyone would be ready in
five minutes. As the minutes started to tick by I was
getting more and more nervous. Josh sat down beside me and
took my hand, Justin still had his hand on my shoulder.
     "You're going to do great, Sean."
     "Yeah, Bro, you will be fine, just go out there and
tell them to get out, but in a nice way." Justin said with a
laugh.
     "Alright guys, it's show time." James said, I got up
and pushed the button for the elevator, everyone noticed my
hand was shaking. "You're going to fine."
     "I know I can do this." I said trying to put on my own
game face. The doors opened, and we piled into the elevator,
down to face the hoards and masses of screaming girls. God
how did I think this would be a good idea? The doors opened
and the crowd went wild, screaming went form mild to
hysterical, other than that noise all sounds stopped except
the flashing of the cameras. It was like being in the worst
thunder storm, ever. I felt the panic take hold, how did I
ever think I could do this, I felt my heart start up a mile
a minute, my breathing was becoming labored, I thought I was
going to faint. Justin took one look at me and started
pulling me back over to the elevators.
     "Justin what the hell are you doing?" James demanded.
     "Bro, we can stop this right now, just say the word,
you don't have to go through with this." Justin pulled me
into a tight hug, about then everyone realized I was
panicking. I wrapped my arms around him and held on for
life, I felt the calming presence form everyone, the crowd
seeing the guys crowd around me went silent.
     "Juju I have to if I can't do this now, I won't ever
get over it. The panic attacks will just get worse instead
of better." I whispered.
     "Bro you don't have to push yourself beyond what you're
capable of we love you just the way you are, you don't have
to do this." Justin said.
     "Yes I do, and I can do it." I pulled out of the hug
and walked to the microphone they had set up, with every
step my feet felt as though they were incased in lead. The
room was dead silent, I step in front of the microphone and
cleared my throat lightly. "May I have you're attention
please." Totally unnecessary as all eyes were riveted to me
anyway. "NSYNC would like to thank everyone for coming out
here to show support for them, but we now must request that
you please vacate the hospital property, this is a place for
people who need help not for fans to show up screaming and
yelling. As much as the guys enjoy you're support they would
rather be able to enjoy the hospital in peace. Thank you." I
said, I thought it went pretty well, no one said anything.
Then chaos reigned supreme. Cameras went off, the fans
started screaming a few I think started crying, people
started shouting, I was totally overwhelmed. Justin stepped
up besides me, giving my shoulder a quick squeeze, and
raised his hands for silence.
     "Please everyone quiet, we will take a few questions,
but then as said we would like everyone who doesn't need to
be here to have the decency to wait off the hospital
property. Everyone that is here that doesn't need to be
here, please you're blocking the entrances to the hospital
and the emergency room, and people need to be able to get
into these areas." Justin said, as the din of noise tapered
off. I shot a glance at Justin; he covered the microphone
with one hand and turned to me. "Sorry, Bro, but we got to
answer at least a few questions, other wise these people are
going to be here all night.
     "Okay Juju." Justin turned back to the microphone and
pulled his hand away.
     "Now let's have a few questions and try to make this as
short as possible." Justin said, to the waiting crowd. Hands
shot up, I could make out a few, but the bright lights and
the constant flashes were really doing a number on my eyes,
my headache was getting worse by the second. The guys all
gathered around the microphone and started to answer
questions, I was feeling a bit forgotten, when a hand
settled on my shoulder. I whipped around and about jumped
out of my skin, it was Darrell.
     "You look really pale, Sean, do you want to go
upstairs?" Darrell said.
     "As much as I would, I have been told not to go
anywhere with out the guys. So I guess I am stuck here." I
said.
     "If you're sure, personally I think you should be
upstairs in bed or something."
     "Thanks for caring Darrell, but I guess I will be okay;
Juju said he wanted to keep this short."
     "Hey it's all part of the job." He said dismissively.
     "No it's not," I argued. "You're paid to insure that
the guys and I are safe not to actually care." I countered.
     "Justin told you that you weren't just getting him as a
brother right?" I nodded. "That goes for everything, you get
the whole NSYNC family, form management, to the crew, and
even security, you get us all." Darrell said as I wiped the
tears form my eyes.
     "Thanks Darrell" I whispered as he gave my shoulder a
squeeze. Suddenly I was brought back to reality when I
caught one of the questions form the reporters.
     "Who is the representative you sent down, he seams to
be someone the group really cares about?"
     "Sean is NSYNC's little brother and he is the reason
we're here." Justin answered.
     "Is there a last name to go with Sean?" Another
reporter asked.
     "Uh." Justin stalled out, he turned to the rest of the
guys, it was comical as there all realized they had no idea
what my last name was. I stepped behind Justin and tapped
him on the shoulder.
     "VanGarason." I whispered.
     "VanGarason." Justin repeated automatically, there was
an audible gasp for the reporters, and then one of them
spoke.
     "VanGarason? Any relation to Gregory VanGarason?" I
stepped up to the microphone again.
     "I can answer that question." I said. "Yes I am related
to Gregory VanGarason, he is my father." The reporters
gasped again.
     "Does VanGarason Inc. have any interest in NSYNC or
there management at Jive Records?" Someone shouted.
     "VanGarason Inc. has no interest with either at this
time. The guys are my friends and adopted brothers, they are
visiting my while I am here." I responded. "Again, all we
ask is that if you need to be here fine, if not please wait
off of the hospital property, so that people who do need to
get in here can get the help they need." I stated, my head
was pounding I knew my face was red due to all the blood
rushing to my head. My eyes unfocused, I felt faint the pain
in my head intensified, and the pain in my back doubled. I
gave out one gasp of pain and grabbed blindly as I fell
forward. I missed, and landed with a thud on the floor of
the make shift state. Justin was beside me in a second.
     "Little brother are you okay?" he was at the edge of
panicking himself.
     "Juju, pain so much pain, it hurts so much." I sobbed.
     "Sshh, let's get you upstairs" Justin said, he took my
hands and started to pull me up, I cried out in pain. I felt
strong warm arms wrap around me, lifting me off the ground.
     "I got him, Justin get the elevator." Josh said as I
wrapped my arms around his strong neck. I actually felt
safe, still in pain, but safe; my mouth was right by his
ear.
     "Thank you Josh." I whispered.
     "Sshh, just hold on Sean." Josh whispered back, I
stayed in his harms until he sat me down on the bed in the
room we were using. Dani was right beside him checking on
me. The pain was fading finally.
     "What happened?" Dani asked Justin and Josh.
     "Ask me Dani, I was there." I said irritated at being
talked about like I wasn't there. "I experienced it and
surprisingly enough I am still conscious to talk about it."
I added.
     "Sorry Sean, what happened?" Dani repeated, focusing on
me.
     "My headache was so bad, and all the flashes,
screaming, yelling and such just made the pain worse, then
my back started throbbing too, the pain was so intense." I
said squeezing Justin's hand in mine.
     "Are you still in pain?" Dani asked.
     "It's fading now, but it was so bad, my eyes wouldn't
focus, and I don't recommend falling onto a make shift
stage." I said with just a touch of a smile. Justin had
moved so he had his arms around me protectively, holding me
close to him. Dani reached into her pocket and produced a
pen light.
     "Look up at me, Sean." She said, and I did, she shined
the light in both my eyes. "They look okay to me, but I want
to have Dr. Ashter look at them when he gets a chance." She
said.
     "Oh but I wanted to get out of here." I said pouting.
     "There is no use pouting; you can't leave until Dr.
Ashter checks you out." Dani said firmly and I knew I
wouldn't win this argument. "I will try to get him here as
quickly as I can. For now I would suggest a nap." Dani
added, as she made her way to the door. Justin laid back
onto the bed, gently pulling me with him.
     "You heard the nice nurse, time for sleep." Justin
said.
     "Justin what are you doing?" Joey asked as I rolled
over and laid my head on his chest, I was facing a blank
wall.
     "Sean has to sleep on his stomach, but he doesn't like
it, this way he is not being smothered by the pillow."
Justin said as if it perfectly obvious as to what was
happening.
     "Can someone come and sit on this side of the room? I
don't want to just stair at a blank wall." I said. Josh and
James dragged chairs over to that side and sat down facing
me.
     "Are you okay with this Sean?" James asked me.
     "James if I weren't Juju wouldn't be doing it, but
thanks for asking." I said.
     "So long as you are okay with it, Sean that is the
important part." Josh said. "I guess this explains why you
two will be sharing a room together."
     "Yeah it does." Justin said.


     I guess I dozed off because the next thing I heard was
Justin telling the guys how he wanted me to come on the tour
with them. Josh seamed to agree with Justin that for now at
least I was not to be left alone at all. Justin told them
about his promises to Nick that he wouldn't leave my side
until at least Nick and Drew got into town. I was just about
to say something when the door opened up again.
     "Just so you guys know Sean's plan worked, everyone is
off of the hospital property. Also Dr. Ashter should be here
in about ten minutes so someone should get the joy of waking
him. Make sure you cover your ears." Dani said with a laugh
as she walked out the door.
     "Why?" Justin asked the closed door.
     "Because when I am woken up I tend to scream." I said
muffled by Justin's chest. Justin felt me tremble and
wrapped his arms around me keeping his hands on or very near
my shoulders.
     "Careful of his back." Josh said, I turned my head
slightly so I could see him more clearly.
     "It's okay Josh; Juju knows where he can and can't put
his hands." I said.
     "Oh, well for the rest of us can you point it out."
James said.
     "Sure, James come here please." James stood up, God he
was tall at least to me. "Can everyone see?" I heard the
guys gather around. "Where Juju's hands are now is a safe
place. The tips of his fingers are just grazing the top edge
of the bandages. The other spot is here." I bent my arm
behind me grimacing in pain. "James where is your hand?" I
asked. I felt his hand rest on mine, I placed it gently on
the small of my back, I pressed down on his pinkie. "Feel
that?" I asked.
     "Yeah."
     "That is the beginning of the bandages so no higher,
and anything below your thumb is off limits too." James
giggled slightly as his hand moved lover. Justin felt me
tense up, he opened his mouth to say something, but I was
quicker, letting out a blood curdling scream.
"AAAAAAHHHHHHH. I said `DON'T TOUCH ME THERE'" Then the
tears started falling. I clung to Justin. "Don't let him
hurt me. Please don't hurt me." I sobbed. James hand pulled
away form me as I held on to just for dear life.
     "Bro, call down. I am sure James was just kidding.
RIGHT JAMES!" Justin said through barely controlled anger.
     "I think it best if right now you take off James." Josh
said though clenched teeth.
     "But I."
     "NOW JAMES." Justin was shaking with anger I was just
shaking and crying.
     "I didn't mean."
     "James, go back to the hotel, we will talk about this
there when everyone has had a chance to calm down." Josh
said I heard the door open.
     "I will go with you James." Joey said.
     "Me too." Added Chris.
     "We will see you guys later." Josh said, I hear the
door close. I saw Josh step up towards me with his hand out.
     "Please.don't." I whispered. Josh dropped his hands to
his sides; he knelt down by my side. I could see the worry
in his eyes. "I.am.sorry." I whispered again.
     "For what?" he was confused.
     "It's all my fault." I said Josh shook his head.
     "No it's not."
     "Yes it is, if I hadn't put his hands on me and said
what I said he wouldn't have done it, so it's all my fault."
I said. "I am so stupid, I should know better than to let
someone be in a position to hurt me again." I sobbed, my
voice tired and broken.
     "No Sean, It's not your fault at all. It's James' fault
you told him not to we all heard you say it. Don't blame
yourself." I reached out and touched his face his hand came
up and held mine. "And you're not stupid, I can't explain
James behavior, but I know he would never actually hurt
you." Josh added.
     "Listen to Josh, Bro, you know he is right. James is
the one who should feel badly not you. And Josh is right
about James he might have gotten a bit out of hand with his
jokes the last two days but I know he would never force
himself on you." Justin said I nodded and squeezed Josh's
hand in mine and hugged Justin tight with my other arm. I
heard the door open again and tensed. "It's just Dani, Bro."
     "What do you mean `Just Dani'" She said, and then she
saw my face and rushed over. Dani whipped a tear from my
cheek. "I heard the scream and figured that was just the
guys waking you up, Then I saw the rest of the guys leaving,
they looked like they were having a fight or something, so I
thought I would come check on you guys." Dani said.
     "Thanks Dani." I said.
     "So what happened?"
     "I don't want to talk about it." I said quietly.
     "Okay we won't talk about it, Dr. Ashter should be here
shortly I think he heard the wake up scream." Dani said with
a small forced laugh.
     "Thanks Dani."
     "So what seems to be the problem?" Dr Ashter said as he
walked into the room. I wiggled around so I could sit up and
face the doctor.
     "I don't know, Dr. Ashter, all of a sudden my vision
blurred then there was a sharp pain in my back and I fell
forward. The pain was so bad, but it's faded since then I
barely feel anything besides the normal pain I have in my
back." I said.
     "Well let's check you out." Dr Ashter said, he checked
me out totally. "Everything seems to be in order but I think
you should stay an extra day for observation. Just to be
safe." He said.
     "What you want me to stay?" I said I don't think it had
quite clicked in my head.
     "Well we can't keep you here but I would recommend it."
Dr. Ashter said.
     "Maybe you should." Justin said.
     "But Juju, Nicky and Drewby are coming; I don't want to
be all alone." I said.
     "Bro you won't be alone, I will be here right beside
you." Justin said.
     "Umm." Dr. Ashter said. "I really can't allow that, its
real family only after visiting hours." Justin saw me frown.
     "Sean." I stood up and looked Dr. Ashter in the eyes.
     "Just because Justin isn't a blood relative doesn't
mean a thing! Nothing do you hear me. He has shown more
respect and love then anyone has shown me most of my life.
And if Juju isn't welcome here then I don't want to be
here." I shouted. I was shaking in rage. Darrell who had
opened the door looked at me in shock. I felt Justin's hand
on my arm, I looked at him.
     "Bro calm down, there is no need to yell." Justin said
softly. I felt the anger drain form me I pulled him in a
tight hug and cried.
     "I'm sorry. I'm sorry." Was all I could say.
     "It's okay Bro, it's okay." Justin said.
     "Sean I am the one who is sorry." Dr. Ashter said.
"You're right, Sean, Justin has shown more love and
compassion then I have ever seen in a brother in all my
tenure as a doctor. Both of you are welcome to say as long
as you nee to." Dr. Ashter added.
     "Nice speech doctor, but if it's all the same to you I
want to leave. My cousins are arriving in a few hours and I
will be there." I said.
     "Very well you are free to leave." Dr. Ashter said
sadly.
     "Don't worry Dr. I will be here tomorrow to have my
bandages changed." I said.
     "And if anything happens we will come right back to the
hospital right Bro?" Justin said turning to me.
     "Right"
     "Okay you guys have a good night and I will see you
both tomorrow. And here." He pulled a card form his jacket
and wrote on the back, then gave it to Justin. "That is my
cell number, pager number and the number to the hospital,
and if anything happens call me."
     "Thanks Dr. Ashter." Justin said. Dr. Ashter and Dani
left. I felt Josh squeeze my shoulder; I had almost
forgotten he was there.
     "Let's go back to the hotel." Josh said.
     "That sounds like the best idea I have heard in a
while." I said.
     "Well then let's go." Justin said. We got up and left,
three body guards in tow, I was hopping I would never have
to see that room again. But I knew I would, after all I had
to come back tomorrow but for now I was leaving it behind.
We got downstairs and got into the SUV, Darrell driving
again, Josh sat upfront and Justin and me in the back seat.
The other bodyguards got in a matching SUV. We headed for
the hotel.