Date: Fri, 21 May 1999 12:46:25 -0700 (PDT)
From: CJ <magik77_1998@yahoo.com>
Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 13

General Disclaimer:  This story is purely FANTASY and
does not mean that Howie D, Brian Littrell, or AJ
McLean are gay.  They are just characters in a
FICTIONAL story.  SO therefore if YOU have a problem
with homosexual versions of them then READ NO FURTHER.
 If you have a problem with gay sex or relationships
READ NO FURTHER.  And if you are underage, or this is
illegal where you live READ NO FURTHER.

 Aight now that THAT is out of the way, I want to say
I am sorry for taking so long, but c'mon guys I have a
life too.  I hope you all like this version.  There
have been at least 20 different ones and I decided to
go with this one.  Of course I want ALL your reactions
sent to me at magik77_1998@yahoo.com  GOOD OR BAD

And before we begin I want to give a shout out to all
my pals: AJ, Jon, JM, JJ, Nicky, Meg, Jess, Chris,
Leprechaun...I feel like I am forgetting someone but
if I am you know I love ya :)

  And thank YOU the readers.  I love getting responses
from all of you.  And I was touched when ya'll wrote
and were worried about me, scared when I got threats
of guns being held to my head to write faster, and
confused by one in particular, YOU know who YOU are.



My Night
Part 13
by CJ


"Don't even talk to me.  I can't believe a word you
say anymore."

  This kept echoing through Howie's head as he walked
to the condo.  And so did the image of giving Craig
back his engagement ring.  And the look on his face
when he did it.  Then the reason for it all came and
he put the tears out and concentrated on the task at
hand.  Going into his birthday party and pulling off
happiness in front of family and friends.  And here
comes the first test.  As he got to the condo the guys
were standing there.

"Howie?  What happened?  Where's Craig?" Kevin asked.

"He's on the beach, we....ummm...well we had an
argument." Howie responded.

"How is he?  Is he okay?" AJ and Zaid asked
simultaneously.

"I guess." Howie responded and walked in the house.

  The guys all exchanged looks and without a word
Kevin, Nick and Brian followed Howie, while AJ and
Zaid went to find Craig.


   They followed him into the condo and saw him being
mass attacked by family and friends with  the usual
"Happy Birthday's".  He looked strained, but smiled
and made the rounds.  He ended with his family who
immediately began the questions.

"Where is Craig at?" Paula asked.
"He's out right now, but he should be in soon." Howie
replied.
"And what is this news you have for us that is so big
it has to wait for us to be here in perso?" Hoke
asked.
"Umm, well I still want to wait and tell you guys when
its a little more one on one, ok Dad?"
"Well we are going to be here all tomorrow.   Our
flight doesn't leave until 6 pm so we can spend all
day with you and Craig." he replied.
"Well, maybe we can just have some family time." Howie
said and they all looked at him oddly.

Meanwhile on the beach, AJ and Zaid had found me.  I
was sitting on the beach just watching the waves and
toying with the ring.  They came up and sat on either
side of me.

"What's up?" AJ asked.
"Howie thinks that me and Zaid are fucking.  We are
over.  He gave me back the engagment ring.  There is a
party going in my uncles condo that I really should
get to, but right now can't face all those people just
yet." I responded.

  The two of them just sat there shocked and looked at
me.  Finally Aj broke the silence.

"What do you mean engagement ring?"

"Oh well you see when we first got here, I had it all
planned out.  I was so in love with Howie and thought
he was with me too so I figured that it was the thing
to do.  And he accepted." I said.

"When was this?" Zaid asked.

"Before the guys got here." I responded.

"So why does he think the we are fucking?"

"Remember all those times I went out with you and the
guys and told him I was at the studio?  Well he called
one day to get me a message and found out I hadn't
been there.  And then he saw us having lunch and put
those together and came up with us fucking."

"Well all we have to do is set things straight.  Zaid
is with Brian and you were meeting with us to set this
party up." Aj said.

"No, its not that simple AJ.  I lied to him.  He's
right.  I shouldn't have.  And now he can't trust me.
And without trust how can you have a relationship.
No, the ball is in his court."

"Okay, but what do you want to do right now?  We can
go to the party or we can take you somewhere else."
Zaid said.

"No, I have to do this.  Besides, what if he wants to
talk and I am not here?" I said.

"Good point, okay you ready to go then?" AJ asked.

"Yeah."

  We got up and made our way to the condo.  We walked
in and saw the party was in full swing and everyone
was having a good time.  Zaid went off and found Brian
but AJ stuck to my side.  We went and got some drinks
and bumped in to Howie's parents.

"Craig!!  Long time no see." Paula exclaimed and
embraced me in a hug.

"How are things with you?" Hoke asked.

"Pretty good.  I am filming three episodes for the
series and looking over scripts." I said and saw Howie
coming over to us.

"Well there he is." Howie proclaimed and put his arm
around me.

  I was shocked and by the looks of it so was AJ.
Especially when Howie leaned over and kissed me.

"Just go  along with it ok?" he whispered.

I nodded and got involved in the conversation with his
parents.  Then his sisters Angie and Pollyana and his
brother John came over and we were being asked about
getting engaged and everything and I picked up the
fact that Howie hadn't told anybody and that he wanted
them to think everything was alright.  This gave me
some hope, cause if he was hiding the fact we broke
up, then maybe we were gonna make up?

   Finally breaking away from the conversation, AJ and
me went to get drinks and Howie drifted with his
family.  The evening rolled by and we had the usual
festivities.  His cake and the presents.  At about
midnight his family left after making us both promise
we would meet them for lunch the next day.  After that
Howie cold shouldered me and AJ was my companion for
the night again.

  The music was going , people were dancing and the
alcohol was flowing.  And the more I drank the worse
Howie got.  It seemed like he was flirting with every
guy and girl in the place. To me at least, everytime I
turned around he was with someone new and they were
all smiles and giggles.  I tried to ignore him but
couldn't handle it anymore and went out to the
balcony.  Of course AJ followed.

"Craig, stop this.  You guys are going to make up
eventually but in the meantime YOU are going to have a
 hangover from hell in the morning." he said and took
my bottle of vodka.

 I sank into a chair and sighed.

"Why does this always happen AJ?  When everything is
going great I do something.  Last time it was that
stupid argument over coming out.  This time I lie to
him and make him think I am screwing around.  Maybe
this is a sign that we aren't supposed to be
together." I said.

"Don't say that!! Everytime I see you and Howie, I
think to myself that that is what I want.  Me and D
are best friends Craig.  Ever since we started the
group there has been no time for love.  There is never
time or anything.  But then D met you.  And everything
changed.  It didn't matter if you were in Cali while
we were in Canada.  The fact that he knows he has you
is all he needs and THAT gets him through everything.
Look, we are like a second family and even WE couldn't
help him through Caroline.  YOU did. He loves you
Craig.  And he wouldn't tell his parents about the
fight.  Do you know why?"

"No I don't." I said.

"Because he doesn't want to tell anyone its over until
he knows it is." Kevin said as he walked out.

"What?" I asked.

"Thats how D is Craig.  He may blow up, but then he
needs time to cool down and think about it."

"Okay, then what about inside.  Why is he flirting
with everyone?"

"What are you talking about?" Kevin asked.

"Craig, he is talking and dancing with his friends.
How much have you had to drink?" AJ asked.

  Too much obviously.

Meanwhile inside, the party is winding down and after
everyone leaves its just Howie, Nick, Brian and Zaid.
They are all sitting in the living room after picking
up the mess.  Howie in a chair glaring at Zaid. Seeing
this Brian brings up what he has wanted to all night.

"Howie, we need to tell you something."

"What, that you knew Craig and this guy were fucking."
Howie spits out.

"No that Zaid and me are fucking." Brian says with a
wicked grin.

"What?"

"Yeah, Craig hooked them up when we first got here
Howie.  About three days ago." Nick continued.

"Wait a minute.  You guys have been here for three
days.  Why didn't you tell me?"

"Because we were planning your surprise party with
Craig.  THAT is why he told you he was at the studio
on all those days.  And the reason you saw him with me
and lunch was because we were talking about....well
how I feel about Brian." Zaid said and blushed.

"So you mean Craig was doing all this for me?" Howie
asked.

"Yeah.  And he actually was at the studio today.
Working his ass off to get here in time to get YOU out
of here for us to set up." Kevin said walking in from
the patio.

"Oh shit.  And I sat there and accused him of screwing
around on me and I gave him back his engagement ring!"

"Engagement ring?" Brian, Nick, and Zaid asked.

"Yeah, he proposed to me when we got here.  I said
yes.  But on the beach I threw it in his face and told
we were over!   Oh god I am such a fucking jerk its
not even funny.  Where is he Kev, I need to talk to
him?"

"He's out on the patio with AJ, but Howie, he's REAL
drunk so be careful." Kevin said.

  Howie went out on the balcony and saw Craig on a
lawn chair with his head in AJ's lap.  Aj was stroking
his hair and consoling him.  He knew it was just AJ
being a friend, but he still couldn't help but feel
jealous.  He shut the door and AJ looked up.

"Is he okay?" Howie asked.

"Yeah, he's just really drunk and his head is
alternating between throbbing and spinning." AJ
answered.

  Howie sat down next to us and took my hand.

"Craig, I really want to talk to you, but I don't know
if now is a good time or not."

  I lifted my head and a thousands lights went on, i
grimaced but held my head up.

"Howie, I love you and don't want to lose you, but if
I don't get up right now I am going to make a mess all
over the three of us."

  With that they jumped up and AJ picked me up and ran
like hell to the bathroom.  He got us there just in
time and I started hurling in the toilet.  He sat
there and held my hair back while I did this and
rubbed my back.  Howie stood in the doorway taking
this all in and started getting ticked.  After I
finished and he was sure I wasn't going face first
into the toilet, Howie asked AJ to step out and have a
word with him.  They got into the hallway and closed
the door partially.

"What the hell is going on AJ??  You trying to get
with Craig or something??  You know that we are only
fighting and that he is still my boyfriend." Howie
yelled.

"Hey calm the fuck down aight?  I am NOT trying to
move in on your territory.  Its just that while your
my best friend, Craig is also and he  has been hurting
all night and needed someone.  I AM that someone.
There are some things that need to be discussed
between the two of you and they should be done when he
is sober.  So I am being both your friends when I say
that you guys need to spend the night apart." AJ said.

"WHAT??"

"Calm down!  Think about it Howie.  You accused him of
screwing around and gave him back his engagement ring
and pretty much told him your through, right?  Okay,
then he gets totally shitfaced and is in need of
someone and you come along and help him through it
when he is VERY vulnerable.  If you are to get back
together it needs to be fairly.  I am not trying to
stop it, just keeping the sides good."

  Howie thought for a minute and grudgingly saw AJ's
point.

"Well, let me just go in there and make sure he's
okay." Howie said.

  Aj let him pass and he walked into the bathroom and
knelt down beside me.  I felt horrible and more than
likely looked the same.  He took my hand and kissed
it.

"Craig, I love you and I want you to know that we are
gonna sit down tomorrow and talk through ALL of this,
okay?  But for now I am going back to the hotel with
the guys.  I'm gonna have AJ stay with you alright?"

"NO!! Stay with me Howie.  I love you and I need you
and...oh god..." I said and pushed him out of the way
and started throwing up again.

  But he just stayed there.  He still held my hand and
talked to me the whole time I hurled.  Then when I
stopped and collapsed against the tub, he helped me up
and half carried me to the room.  He laid me in the
bed and kissed me on the forehead.  He whispered,"I
love you", and then left the room. I laid there for
awhile drifting in and out of sleep until I felt
someone taking off his clothes.

"Whu?" I asked and looked blindly in the dark.

"Shh, I'm just trying to help you."

  At first the voice was unfamiliar and unable to see
in the dark I didn't know who it was, but then it
dawned on me.  It was Howie.  I sat up quickly and the
room starting to spin. I had had WAY too much to
drink. I moaned and felt him grab me.  After the
spinning stopped I  realized I was in his arms and
suddenly wanted to kiss him.  I lifted my hands and
felt his face and stroked it gently.

"I just want you to know, I am sorry about tonight and
want to make it up to you." I said.

  And with that I kissed him.  Surprisingly he
resisted.  But after  minute of me kissing the lips
parted and a tongue came out to play with mine. We
stayed locked like this for what felt like an
eternity.  Then I pulled back and started to remove
his clothes.

"Whoa!!  Wait!  We can't...I mean we shouldn't...we
should stop"

"NO!! I want this, just let me, please?" I begged.

 He still protested, but those protests stopped once I
got his cock out of his pants and went down on it.
Soon he was thrusting harder and faster into my mouth
and blew his wad.

  Although I had not done much, the alcohol was
definetly hitting me now, and I laid back and almost
passed out.  But then I felt my pants being taken off
and my own cock getting sucked.  Either it was the
alcohol or Howie was doing something different, but I
found myself unable to hold back and shot off what
seemed like a weeks worth of cum. And he wouldn't let
go until my cock had gone totally soft.


  Both exhausted we laid there in each others arms.  I
felt his fingers running through my hair and before
drifting off to sleep I whispered,"I love you."  And
he said" I love you too."

  The next morning I awoke with a funny taste in my
mouth and strong arms wrapped around me.  At first
confused, but then the previous night came back to me
and I remembered it all.  The fight, the confusion,
the drinking.   But it was okay now because I was in
Howies arms.  Naked.  Pressed up against each other
all night long.  I felt Howie stirring next to .

"Good morning Craig."

And with that I leapt out of the bed.  That wasn't
Howie's voice and when I turned around what did I
see??

AJ.  Naked.  Having been in bed with me all night.
After having sex.  Oh.  My.  Gawd.

****
  To
    Be
     Continued
           *****
Don't ya just hate that?
         *****
--
I'll be the one
Who will make all your sorrows undone
I'll be the light
When you feel like there's nowhere to run
I'll be the one

-Backstreet Boys- The One