Date: Mon, 26 Jul 1999 23:51:47 -0400 (EDT)
From: CJ <magik77_1998@yahoo.com>
Subject: My Night With Howie D. Part 14

****DISCLAIMER:  If you are under 18 or homosexual sex
and situation offend you then read no further.

Also, this is fictional and is not meant to imply that
Howie, AJ or Brian are gay......

Now if you are over 18 and homosexual sex and
situations interest AND you can remember this is
fantasy and NOT reality then read on....

Well here we go again guys (and girls).  Here is the
next part of the story.  I am sorry I kept you all
waiting (especially with the ending of 13) but you
know I love ya'll and gotta draw out the suspense
somewhat ;)

  Anyways, a shout out to all my friends: you know who
you are but I'll say anyways: (Mickey Mouse Roll Call)
Aj,  Allen, Chris, Jesse, Jessica,  Meg,  Nicky,
Donnie, Rob,  Shawn,  the Vascardi's, Zaid, those four
weirdo's I hang out with  and just about everyone else
who has ever sent me an email.

  And of course to my heart: I love you and you KNOW
its you I was thinking about when I wrote this aight?

 And the story goes on.........

My Night
Part 14
by CJ or Ceej ;)


**********just so ya'll don't get confused, the story
is told in three parts.  Part 1 is AJ, Part 2 is
Howie, and Part 3 is Craig***************************

Part 1  AJ

  I awoke and saw the sun coming through a window and
felt Craig in my arms still.  I knew what we did last
night was wrong.  The very thing I did was what I had
preached to Howie not to do.  But at the moment I
couldn't feel bad.  I felt good.  For months after
lusting after Craig, I finally had had my chance.  We
had sexed and slept.  I told him I loved him.  Now I
just had to wait for him to wake up and hope to hell
he could forgive me.  I was alternately wondering what
to wish for.  That he and Howie would make up or that
they would be over and me and him could have chance.

  I felt Craig wake up and he snuggled into me.  Wow.
So of course I say the first thing that comes to mind.

"Good morning Craig."

  And with that he flies out the bed.  I mean
literally flies.

"AJ?!  WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?" he screams.

"Craig, calm down.  Its just me."

"Yeah, I know its just you.  Its just you, naked, in
bed, with me.  Oh god, oh god oh god." he starts to
chant as he collapses in a chair.

  Now very concerned I jump out of bed and go over to
him.  He is starting to hyperventilate.  I rub his
back and he starts to calm down but then starts
shaking.  At first I think it is tears but then I hear
laughter.  He looks up at me and I see I am right on
both counts.

"AJ, what the hell is happening??  We just slept
together didn't we?"

"Yeah.  We did.  Craig, I..."

"No let me say something first.  I was drunk and i
thought you were Howie and things obvisouly got out of
hand.  I am sorry.  And I hope that you can forgive
me?"

  I sit there in shock for a minute.  He was drunk.
He had thought I was Howie.  He didn't know it was me.
 He thought it was all his fault.  And he didn't mean
he loved me, he loved Howie.  Shit.

"AJ?  You there?" he asked.

  I was in love with him, but he was in love with
Howie.  My best friend.  The guy who trusted to me
take care of his boyfriend.  Fuck.

"Yeah I'm here.  Look, it was late, you had had a
bunch of alcohol and didn't know up from down and it
was an honest mistake.  I mean we can both agree on
that, right?" I asked.

"Right, right.  And we are both mature responsible
adults and understand that things like this happen and
we can agree not to say anything, right?"

  So he was ashamed of it now.  The only way I could
be with him was drunk.  Fuck.  Oh man, I could be such
the bitch right now and blackmail him.  But no, just
look at him.  Sitting there afraid of losing Howie.
SO of course I come to the logical conclusion.

"We keep this between us Craig.  We can't tell Howie.
Look what just happened with you guys last night.  No
this is between us because I want my best friends to
be happy." I said as I felt my heart breaking.

  He looked at me for a minute and then stood and bear
hugged me. It felt good and I hugged back.   Then i
noticed something, we were both poking each other in
the stomach, Craig noticed too and quickly broke the
hug.

"Sorry about that, morning wood ya know?" he said and
scrambled for some clothes.

  I just sat there watching his naked bod move aroun
the room and shook my head when i realized what  I was
doing.

"Hey AJ what time is it?" he asked.

 I glanced at the clock and responded,"About nine
thirty."

"Well we better get showered and shit cause I dont
know when the guys are getting here." he said

'Meaning Howie' I thought. "No problem." I said and
trudged out of the room and got into the shower.

  But once there thoughts of Craig returned and with
my dick still hard I just had to do something.  I
started to soap and stroke myself.  I leaned up
against the wall an with one hand stroked and the
other toyed with my niples.  I heard a noise and
looked up and saw Craig in the doorway holding his own
throbbin dick.  I looked into his eyes and saw
something there, not sure what, but something.  I
decided to see how far I could go.  I nodded to him
and he slowly came over to the shower.  I opened the
door and he came in and kneeled down and slowly
brought himself closer to me.  He reached around and
groped my ass and his mouth got closer to my dick.  He
looked up at me making eye contact and then........

   I heard a knock at the bathroom door and Craig
telling me to hurry up.  I looked down and saw I had
shot a load and half all over the shower wall and
realized I had been daydreaming.  I wiped up and
finishedup and got out.  Craig had left some clothes
outside the door for me.  Well, they werent really my
style, but they were his and i had nothing else to
wear so I changed into them.  I came out of the
bathroom and made my way down to the kitchen and saw
Craig cooking at the stove.

"Need any help?" I asked.

"Nah just have a seat." he responded.

"You know, for someone who got as drunk as you did
last night, you sure don't seem to have a hangover."

"I know, I'm funny like that.  I just got little
aversion to brightness, but thats about it." he said.

"Well if thats the case I got MANY pairs of glasses
you can use."

"Haha thats true, exactly how many do you own
anyways?" he asked.

"Too many!" we said at the same time.

  Dammit, why couldn't it be us instead of him and
Howie?  We have the same humor and everything.

"Well you know that we gotta get you hooked up, right?
  I mean I got Brian with Zaid, so why don't you let
me do the same for you?"

"Honestly Craig, I dont need ya to hook me up.
I.....I just need to find my  "one".  I have had
enough of the one nighters and I want someone who will
wake up with me the next morning and not think "Oh my
god I just fucked AJ!".   I want to wake up the next
day and they want to be with me like I want to be with
them."

    It was silent and then I looked up and saw Craig
looking at me kinda funny.

"WHAT?!"

"Nothing, its just...........nevermind."  he said
quickly and turned back to the stove.

"Craig?"

"How do you want your eggs?" he asked avoiding the
question.

  I stood up and walked over to him.   He was cracking
egss into the frying pan.  I hopped up onto the
counter and sat there till he looked at me.

"What!?"

"HA!  Got you to look at me.  What's wrong?  I hate it
when people start to say something and then say
nevermind.   Spill it or I'm gonna get REALLY insulted
and REALLY whiny." I said.

"Its just that I hate to see you alone.  And......okay
without touching on the subject much.....you are a
really GREAT guy.  I mean you sat there with me while
I was drunk as fuck......and well....hehe, your good
in bed." he said with a red face.

  I was shocked.  I didn't know what to say.   Was
this just to stroke my wounded pride or was it more?
But before I could say anything we heard the front
door opening and the noise of the guys.

"Craig?  Aj?  Where are ya'll?" Kevin shouted.

  Drats!  Foiled again!  Okay so maybe I should just
give up on Craig.

"We're in here Kev," I said.

   Then I turned to Craig and saw he was about to say
something but I couldn't take anymore.    I hopped off
the counter and as the others were entering the
kitchen I exited and went out of the condo.    I
exoited through the back and came out onto the beach.
The sun was pretty bright, but I always have my shades
so it wasn't a problem.  I just started walking down
to the waters edge when I heard someone running up
behind me.  I whirled around and saw it was just
Howie.

"Hey you left the condo so fast I didn't have a chance
to talk to you." he said.

"I just felt like coming out and getting some air." I
said.

"Well I kinda wanted to talk to you in private
anyways."

 Oh great.

 "Aight, go for it." i responded.

"Well you know how last night you were giving me the
speech about leaving Craig alone and all?  Well after
a full nights sleep........I wanted to thank you.  It
would have been bad for the two of us to go to bed
together instead of sitting down first and talking.  I
want us to be together so bad, you don't know how much
I love him bro."

"Actually D, I think i do.  Listen, lets get back
there and I'll take the guys with me and the two of
you can be alone aight?"

  He hugged me and said.," Your the best friend a guy
could ask for."

  And inside I died.  But on the outside we went up to
the house talking about how we were going to have to
head back to Orlando soon and how the two of them
would have sparse time with the conflict in schedules.
 We got in the house and saw Kevin and Nick waiting
for us.

"Where's Craig?" I asked.

"He's out on the patio.  Aj, we are gonna leave and do
some shopping and then meet up for lunch with Brian
and Zaid. " Kevin informed more than asked.

"Yeah no problem, just let me go say lates to C."

  I went out to the patio and shut the door behind me.
 Craig was leaning on the balcony.  I walked over and
looked to where he was and saw mine and D's
footprints.

"Been out here long?" I asked.

  Nothing.

"Craig?" I asked.

  Nothing.

"Yoohoo anyone home?" I said and this time turned him
around.

  His eyes were glistening with tears.  He refused to
meet my eyes and just stood there.

"Craig, whats wrong?"

"I'm scared AJ."

"Of?"  I asked already knowing.

"Howie.  He trusted me last night.  And I......broke
it.....theres no lying......I have to tell....."

"Hold up there.....this is a two way thing...You go
and tell D about last night and its my ass too.  We
agreed that it was better left unsaid.  Craig you
can't do this to yourself.  It was an honest mistake.
No one has to know."

"But its the trust AJ, if you cant have that then what
kind of relationship can you have?"

  This is tearing me up so bad.  All I need to do is
say it and they are through.  And the funny thing is I
am thinking Craig almost wants me to.  But.....Howie.
Aargh!!  I hate being a good person sometimes.

"Do you trust him Craig?"

"Yes."

"And he trusts you.  And so do I..  And I know that
what happened last night will never happen again with
anyone.  And you just stay out of the alcohol ok?"

"I promise."

"Alright.  Now I am leaving with Kev and Nick.  You
kiss and make up with my boy now, ok?"

"Ok."

   I hug him and go to kiss him on the cheek and
instead find his mouth.  I give him a kiss, and am
surprised when I find it returned.  I brush my lips
against his again and feel them part as I thrust my
tongue in and start making love to his mouth.  But
then I realize what we are doing.   And rip away.  He
just stands there.

"Craig?  What....how......why?"

"AJ, I dont know.
You........I.......breakfast.......now.......Howie."

   Oh god.  I was right.  I was right.  If they would
have shown up later.......if only like five minutes
more.

"Craig....no.  Its Howie you want. "

  There was no disagreement.

"Okay, I better go." I said and turned to walk away.

"Wait!  Aj, we're still friends right?"

"The best.  NEver forget that." I said and walked back
into the condo,

  The others were standing there waiting.

"Aight fellas lets head out and leave these two
alone."

  We started heading to the door and Howie pulled me
aside.

"Thanks Bone.  You dont know how much I owe you."

"Don't worry D.  Just doin my job." I said and
halfheartedly smiled.

   We hugged and I walked out to the limo and got in
with the guys.  We pulled away and I felt tears in my
eyes.  I ignord them and listened to Kev and Nicky
ramble on about someting.  Soon they were gone and I
started thinking of ways to keep them gone.


Part 2   Howie


  I waved goodbye to the limo and turned back and
closed the door.  I had to pace myself.  I wanted to
fly to the patio and take Craig into my arms and NEVER
let him go.  But I know that I can't do that.  Just
like last night my first impulse was to take Craig to
bed and make love to him like nothing had happened.
We need to talk first and then we can do this.  I came
out onto the patio and saw Craig sitting there with a
sad look on his face.

"Whats wrong baby?" I asked and kneeled in front of
him.

  He looked at me with those gorgeous hazel eyes and
smiled.

"Nothin, cause your here."

  I felt a tear escape my eye and he reached down to
wipe it away.  We held eye contact and our head came
together.  We hesitated like it was our first time and
then we met.  My lips brushed his and he pulled me to
him.  I climbed onto his lap and felt his tongueslip
into my mouth.    I pushed my into his mouth and felt
his arms wrap around me and pull me tightly to him.
He rubbed his hands up and down my back and I ran my
fingers through his hair.    We played a little tongue
hockey until I noticed the tears in his eyes.  I
pulled away and he sat up.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

"Nothing is wrong baby.  We just need to talk
remember.  Alot of shit happened between us last night
and I want to make sure we got everything ironed out.
I never want to go through that again. "

"Okay."

"First, let me tell you that I totally and completely
trust you.  I know it seems like I don;t becasuse I
was so quick to jump to consluions but it was because
I love you so much and I am afraid of losing you.  And
all those three days I felt like I was being dumped.
You never had time for me and were always running off
to work.   I was shocked that you rememberd my
birthday.  Byut that was just my insecurites.  You see
I have quite a biut of thoise Craig.  I hve never
loved someone as strongly as I love you.  I think of
you every moment and want to be with you always.  I
knowI cant and when I am not i am scared."  I said and
looked down, not wanting to see his reaction.

"Howie.  I love you.  And to see and hear that your
love for me does this?  I don't know what to say.  I
feel the same. " he said with tears.

"Don't cry."

"I won't, if you tell me this one thing.  Will you
marry me?"

"yes."

  He moved me a little and got into his pocket and
came out with the ring.  He put it on my finger and
looked and me.

  We both hugged and started kissing again.   I start
moving my ass so it is grinding against his jean
encased cock and feel it thickening.  He starts dry
humpin me and my own cock gets hard.  I want nothing
more than to make love to him, but not here on the
balcony.  I stand and pull him up with me and lead him
into the condo and up the stairs to the room.

   We enter the room and I start to remove his
clothes.  I pull his shirt over his arms and head and
when the air hits his bare chest his nipples start to
stand.    I unbutton his jeans and pull them with his
underwear to his ankles.  He reaches over and takes my
shirt off and pulls my shorts down in one swoop.  We
lay naked on the bed and.............made love.


   Two hours later

  I lay in bed with Craig's head upon my chest and my
fingers running through his hair.  He is asleep and I
am hapy.  We are together and not fighting.   And in
an hour we are meeting my family for dinner.  I smile
and hug Craig.  After this last obstacle we can do
anything.  We lay like this for about twenty minutes
and I wake Craig up so we can get ready.  He showers
and I call my parents to confirm

My father picks up on the second ring.

"Hello, Dad?"

"Howie?  We were getting worried.  So you and Craig
will meet us in an hour and the restaurant?"

"Yeah Dad, thats what I was calling for."  I smiled.

"We are reserved under our last name if you get there
ahead.  We will see you then."

"Okay, love you dad."

"Love you to Howie."

  Craig gets out of the shower and I see him standing
there with just a towel wrapped around his waist
and.......well you know what i want to do.

  He put on a black Tommy dress shirt with a pair of
tan slacks.  I went for a white one with a pair of
khaki's.  After we finished primping in the bathroom
we hopped into the Jeep.  As we were driving I was
deep into thought and Craig had to repeat himself a
few times.

"Howie!" he said and I snapped to attention.

"Yeah babe?"

"What are you thinking about?"

"Craig, I want to tell my parents about our
engagment."

 "Okay, how do you want to do it?" he asked.

"I don't know yet but will you follow my lead."

"I'd follow you to the ends of the earth babe."

  I smiled and leaned over and kissed him.


  We arrived at the restaurant just as my parents did.
 We all hugged and greeted each other.  I was glad
tosee how much my family like Craig.  They totally
approved of him and were very supportive of us being
together.  We went in the restaurant and were seated.
We ordered and started small talk.  It was a big round
table and I was between my parents and Craig was
between my sisters.  My bro was  between my mom and
Pollyana.


"So Craig, Dad tells us you are going back to the
series?" John asked.

"Yeah,  its a three part cliffhanger.  After that I am
going to be making appearances.  And my agent is
trying to get me to do another movie.  But I kind of
want to keep my schedule open until the guys get their
recording and touring schedule set.  Then we can work
out something." Craig responded.

"I think that is so sweet!  You are keepin your
schedule clear for my baby bro!" Angie said.

  I blush and that makes everyone laugh.  But it is
good.  I feel right.  My family and Craig.  I want to
tell them now but I want towait til we are done with
the meal.  Besides there are a few things I want to do
that will lead up to it.

"SO you two are like the perfect couple, aren't ya?"
Pollyana askd.

"I like to think so" Craig answered.

"Actually.  We have our fights.  We just got over a
big one." Isaid.

   Evreryones eyes were on me.  Especially Craigs.

"What do you mean Howie?" my mom asked.

"Well I accused Craig of some pretty bad things.  I
was being insecure and jealous and I almost lost him.
Luckily, he loves me and was able to forgive me."

 "You will defiently fit in with our family Craig." my
dad said with a smile.

"Now if you'll all excuse me I have to go to the
restroom."  I said and got up.

  WHile I was away they all told Craig incidents of
how I could be pigheaded, but was quite the one for an
elaborate make up.  Little did they know what was
coming.  My surprise was about to happen.

    The waiter came up to the table and said," Excuse
me, your dinner will be delayed for another five to
ten minutes."

"Why is that?" my dad asked.

"The entertainment has arrived." the waiter said and
pointed to the corner.

   They all turned and saw Kevin, Nick, Brian and AJ.
And me in front with my guitar.

"This song is for you Craig.  There was somethin about
the way you treated me from day one.  Something  I
never realized, but your tone is always timid and your
way is always in love with me.  This....is Timid
Voice."

Oooh, oh
Oh, ho
Mmm, yeah baby

[Howie]
Not just anyone
Could take my gray clouds away
Not everyone
Can make me smile everyday
And I don't have to be near you
To know that you are there with me
Cause you have my heart
And deep down within in me

Chorus

I can hear your timid voice
Telling me everything's okay
I can see your gentle eyes
Looking into a new day
And when I'm lonely
I just think of the way you are
And everything is fine
Because your love is in my heart

[Howie]
Not just anyone
Can take my hand and guide me
You're not just someone
Loves me for what's deep down inside of me
And you couldn't hurt me
And I would never say goodbye
Because you have my heart
And deep down, deep down inside

Chorus

I can hear your timid voice
Telling me everything's okay
I can see your gentle eyes
Looking into a new day
And when I'm lonely
I just think of the way you are
And everything is fine
Because your love is in my heart

Bridge

It doesn't matter
Whether you're here or not
Because I'd rather
Tell the world about our love

[Howie]
Your timid voice
Your gentle eyes
Your caring hands
Your sentimental heart

And I love you baby
And only you

Chorus

I can hear your timid voice
Telling me everything's okay
I can see your gentle eyes
Looking into a new day
And when I'm lonely
I just think of the way you are
And everything is fine
Because your love is in my heart

[Howie]
I can hear your timid voice
And everything....
Everything is okay, baby


  The whole restaurant applauded and I could see tears
in Craigs eyes.  We went to the table and he jumped up
and hugged me.  Right there in front of everyboy.   I
love him so much.

 "Family., I wanted to wait until later to tell you
this, but oh what the heck!  Me and Craig are
engaged."

  The reactions were instantaneous.

"I am soo happy for you guys" Pollyanna gushed.

"Way to go bro." John said and slapped me on the back.

"Its about time." Angie said smiling.

"You couldn't have picked a better man." my dad said
and shook Craig's hand and then pulled us both into a
hug.

  And mom.  She just sat there and evilly stared at
us.

NOT  (haha!  got you for a second there ;)

  And mom?  She had no words .  She hugged us both and
kissed us.

   After we had all calmed down we sat and our dinners
arrived.  The guys pulled up a table and their food
was brought also.  This had all been worked out ahead
of time.  We all ate and had a noisy loud
conversation.  We finished and over coffee discussed
plans.  Then it was time to take my family to the
airport.

  In the Jeep Craig drove.

"I love you so much Howie."

"Not as much as I love you babe."

"Well, its nice to know what you writing about all
that time." he said with a smile.

"You thought it was something bad?"

He smiled and said,"Yeah like maybe a plot of revenge
or something.:"

We both laughed and he grabbed my hand and held it.

  We arrived at the airport and got my family checked
in and went to their gate where the plane was
beginning to board.

"You are both coming to Orlando and we will start the
arrnagments.  And I will be talking to your mom and
get the plans underway." my mom said.

"See Paula THIS is why I told Howie we should tel
yuou. you and mom can do al the work for us" Craig
said and everyone laughed.

"And thats another thing.  Your gonna be another son
now so you better start callin me mom" she said and
hugged him.

"Sure thing Pau,....I mean mom."

 With that she smiled and we all said goodbye.  They
loaded and the plane took off safely.  The guys asked
if we were interested in catching a movie.  We all
agreed and they said they would meet us at the condo.
But once we were in the Jeep Craig changed his mind.

"I just feel like going to the condo and sleeping
Howie.  But don't let me stop you ok?"

"As long as your there for me to hold when I get home
I will be ok."

  We got to the condo and I told the guys the plan and
I said a long personal goodbye to Craig in the front
hall and then joined the others in the limo.  I looked
out the window and saw Craig waving to us.


Part 3 Craig

  Howie left with the others and I breathed a sigh of
relief.  What was wrong with me?    I was totally and
completely in love with Howie.  But last night with AJ
wasn't just the alcohol I knew on some level that it
had been him and not Howie.  And this morning when he
was in the kitchen what he was talkiong about.  If I
wanted it, I could have something more than sex with
AJ.  And god, why was I even thinking this?  If I
loved Howie then AJ shouldn't even be a thought.

  I started pacing the condo.  Howie and me were
engaged.  I loved him an totally and completely.  Yet
I wanted to have more with AJ to see how deep it could
get.  AARGH!!!!!!!!

  Not able to take  anymore, I grabbed the Jeep keys
and left.   I started driving down the coast.    My
cell rang and I picked up.

"Hello?"

"Hey Craig."

"AJ!  Umm what's up?"

"Not much, I am at the hotel.  I couldn't go out with
the guys.  I needed to talk to you."

"umm ok."

"What is happening between us?  All I know is that I
have loved you and wanted you for so long and last
night it all came true.  But it wasn't suppposed to
cause your D's.  But I dont regret it.  And I am
getting the signs from you that you liked it as well
and I want to know that i am wrong.  Tell me I am
wrong Craig."

"I can't.  I would be lying.  But AJ I love Howie too.
 I am engaged to him and hapy to be.  I don't want to
lose him."

"I see."

  It started to rain and my luck had left the top off.
 SO there I was getting wet.

"AJ, I dont know what to do." I sobbed.

"Craig, where are you?  I am hearing a lot of
background noise."

"I am in the Jeep.  Look AJ, I need to go.  I'll talkt
to you later ok?"

"Sure, but Craig.  Dont do anything harmful ok?"

"Ok."

  We hung up and I concentrated on the road.  For all
the good that did.  I took the next turn TOO fast and
the next thing I know I am slicing through the
guardrail and the Jeep achieved flight.  Shortlived
though bevcause what goes up MUST come down.  And that
I did.  Right on the rocks.


The End?




The credits:

I want to thank JM for writing Timid Voice for me.  It
is  beautiful song and I was able to use it for my
"one".

Allen, you need to be thanked for kicking my butt into
writing.  As do all my readers who emailed me and kept
asking when I would write this.

And remember all questions and comments (good or bad)
go to magik77_1998@yahoo.com



===
I'll be the one
Who will make all your sorrows undone
I'll be the light
When you feel like there's nowhere to run
I'll be the one

-Backstreet Boys- The One