Date: Tue, 2 Dec 2003 21:39:56 -0800 (PST)
From: JC Fanfic <jc_fan_fiction@yahoo.com>
Subject: Picking up the Pieces of my Life:  11

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Picking up the Pieces of my Life: Chapter 11

"Home!" I exclaimed as I walked into our house.  Josh giggled at my
happiness.  I could hear the thunder of little feet.  I counted down the
seconds before I saw him running full speed across the hard marble floor.

"Daddy, Daddy!" Donny exclaimed as he lept into my arms.  I grunted happily
as his weight pushed me back.  Thankfully Josh was there to hold me up.  "I
missed you!" Donny announced.  "Don't ever leave again!"  I noticed that he
was glaring up at poor Justin.

"Donny," I scolded him.  "This is my work.  And Justin is my boss.  I have
to go where he goes.  It is how I pay the bills."

"Yes but I miss you!" Donny insisted.  "I don't like it when you are gone
all the time."

"Well your Daddy has a couple of months off now," Justin said kneeling down
so that he was eye level at Donny.  "And I am really sorry that I had to
take your Daddy away."  Justin give Donny his most sorrowful look.  Donny
looked at Justin for a few minutes before giving Justin a big hug.  After
Donny was done with the hug he took off running to find his puppy, only his
puppy wasn't such a puppy an more.  Trixy was quite large now towering
almost as tall as Donny.  I could hear Trixy's loud almost dog barks as he
and Donny were running around the house.  I looked up at Josh and he just
shrugged his shoulders.  "I'll leave you guys alone now," Justin said as he
gave me a quick hug and kiss on the cheek.  When the door closed finally
leaving Josh and me all to ourselves I fell into Josh's waiting arms
shivering with happiness as he arms wrapped around me.  Josh's lips crashed
down on mine and I whimpered from the feeling of his lips against mine for
the first time in over three months.  Josh was making these really cute
grunting noises as he continued to kiss the daylights out of me.  I just
stood there with my arms wrapped around him pulling him as close I could.
I was really enjoying our time alone when I felt a small hand tugging on
mine.  I whimpered softly and broke away and looked down at my son.

"Yes son?" I asked softly.

"You guys are yucky!" Donny said with a frown on his face.  "I want to eat
lunch!"  I giggled softly when I heard Josh whimper softly too.

"After we feed him and put him down for a nap than you and I can make love
all afternoon," I whispered to him.  I watched in amusement as Josh took
Donny by the hand and swung him up on his shoulders and took my hand and
led me to the kitchen.  I do have to believe that was the fastest lunch I
had ever seen prepared in a very long time.  All too soon my son was
snuggled in bed taking his nap.  I looked up at Josh who was watching Donny
sleep.

"He is so innocent," Josh whispered.  "Were we ever that innocent?"

"Oh I would love to think so," I replied by wrapping my arms around his
narrow waist.  I noticed that it was easier to wrap my arms around him.
"You've lost weight," I commented as I pressed my lips to his neck.  That
worried me a little.  Josh was skinny enough as it was.  He didn't need to
loose any more weight.

"Well I don't eat to well when you are gone," Josh said looking down at his
feet.  I couldn't help but smile at him.  He looked just like a little kid
who got caught with his hand in the cookie jar.  I kissed him on the
forehead.

"Well I'm home now sweetie," I said as I nuzzled his nose with mine.
"Promise me you will eat more?"  He looked into my eyes with such love that
it shook me to the core.  He nodded quietly as he placed his forehead
against mine.  I loved that gesture so much.  It was like the most private
and most intimate gesture that we shared.  "I love you Josh," I smiled into
his blue eyes that drove me nuts.

"I love you too," Josh replied.  His usual naughty glint in his eye was
appearing again and I knew it was time to let Josh have his way with me.

"Ok love," I said softly.  "Time for Josh Jr. to come out to play."  Seeing
the grin light up his beautiful face was worth it all.  Three hours later I
woke up to find myself wrapped up in his arms.  There was no way I was
getting free.  I could if I wanted to wake him.  But looking at my angel
sleeping so peacefully made my heart melt.  So I just laid there letting
him hold me while he slept.  It gave me chance to get reaquainted with his
beautiful body.  I frowned when I saw how much more his ribs showed.  I
wasn't too happy about Josh not eating.  I ran my fingers over his pec
muscles and ribs and down to his tight rock hard abs and just when I was
getting wake up his cock I heard him giggle down at me.  I growled softly
having been interupted on my mission.  I looked up at him and saw his
sleepy eyes looking lovingly down at me.

"Having fun?" his sleepy voice drifted over me.  I smiled sheepishly up at
him.  "What are you doing?"

"Just getting aquainted with you again," I replied as I snuggled up to him.

"You were great," Josh smiled down at me.  I could feel him getting hard
again.

"Want to go another round?" I asked as I turned over to give him better
access to me.  I felt his hard cock slide into me and heard his whimpers as
he started to thrust in and out of me.  Soon I was in heaven again as my
lover made sweet love to me.

Later I walked down stairs with Josh in tow.  I glanced back at him and saw
that he was still tired.  I giggled at him.

"Stop picking on me," he pouted.

"You love it," I snickered at him.  "Man you were like some kind of
energiser bunny or something."

"Who is a energiser bunny?" Kevin's voice sounded from behind us.

"Josh is," I replied as I wrapped my arms around him.  "And now he is going
to eat dinner."

"Good," Kevin spoke up.  "He's been skipping a lot of meals when you were
gone."

"Can we not talk about my eating habits?" Josh glared at Kevin.

"We're just worried about you is all," Kevin said a little deffensively.
"Any way I can't stay for dinner.  I have to pick up a friend of mine."

"Any one we know?" I asked.

"Nope," Kevin said way too quickly.  I knew he was lying.  But than again
it was his business who he saw.  Not ours.  But for some reason I knew that
this was not going to turn out good.  Josh and I headed into the dining
room as Kevin quickly left the house.

"I wonder who he is picking up?" Josh asked as he sat down at the table.  I
sat down next to him and reached for his hand.  Once I got it I rose it to
my lips and kissed it tenderly.

"Don't really care," I said softly.  "Right now all I am interested in is
spending some well deserved time with my very sexy boyfriend."

"You two are hopeless," Danny's voice came from behind us.  "You would've
thought you two had been seperated for years instead of just three months."

"Leave the love birds alone Danny," Justin said as he walked in with Brian.
I noticed a few extra hickies on Brian's neck.  I giggled and Brian blushed
and looked down.  "We were bored and decided to come by and bug you two,"
Justin explained their sudden appearence.

"Want to join us for dinner?" I asked.

"What's to eat?" Justin asked looking around seeing the lack of food.

"We're going out to celebrate our homecoming," I announced.

"Good idea," Josh agreed with me as he wrapped his arms around me and
pulled me closer to him.  "Where are we going?"

"You pick," I smiled up at him.

"Planent Hollywood!" Josh said with a huge grin on his face.  I giggled at
the moans from the other guys."

"Hey!" I said loudly to protect my man.  "If my sexy man wants to go eat at
Planent Hollywood than that is where we are going to go!"

"Thank you sweetie," Josh cooed down at me.

"You're welcome sexy," I cooed right back up at him.

"You two are so mushy that I'm going to catch a cavity from your
sweetness," Justin gagged.  This earned him a bop on the back of the head
from his lover.  "Hey!  What was that for?"

"Don't pick on the love birds," Brian said in our deffense.  "They've been
apart for over three months.  So they get to act all sweet and mushy."
Josh was so cute as he stuck out his tongue at poor Justin.  Justin just
shook his head and looked down.  "Now are we going to go and eat or what?"

"I'm ready to eat," Josh said as he kissed me on the cheek.

"Well let's get Donny and go," I smiled up at him.

An hour later from Kevin's point of view.

"What the hell do you mean you still love me?" I demanded at Nathan.  "We
were never a couple!  So how the hell can you say that you love me?"

"I can't help how I feel," Nathan said softly.  "You were all I thought of
while I was in prison."

"I have people on the inside Nathan," I said glaring hard at him.  "For
someone who swears he loves me you sure did spend a lot of time on your
back and on your knees servicing your jail buddies."

"Well I was horny!" Nathan said in deffense of himself. "I can't help it.
But I do love you Kevin!"

"What is your status?" I demanded.

"Status?" Nathan asked looking confused.  "What do you mean?"

"Taking as many cocks as you did and having little if no protection you
know percisely what I mean!" I demanded.  I was suspecting that he was up
to something.  And I was going to find out what he was up too.

"I had a test taken before I was released.  I'm negative," Nathan said with
a very honest look on his face.

"Well just make sure you have your self checked in another six months," I
advised him.  "Now I have given you a lot of money.  Take it and leave.  I
don't want to see you again."

"Why Kevin?" Nathan asked.  "You afraid I'm going to tell Donny what you
had planned for him?"

"Sorry Nathan," I said shaking my head sadly.  "I make it a habit not to
allow myself to get in a position where I can be black mailed."

"I have no intentons of leaving.  But I will take the money," Nathan said
sweetly.  "It should be enough to get me started."

"Why won't you just take the two million and leave town for good?" I
pleaded with him.  "This revenge thing is not you."

"How the hell do you know what is my thing or not?" Nathan hurled at me.
"Because of you I got tossed in the clink."

"It was your idea to knock off Don in one night!  I wanted to do it nice
and slow.  But no!  You were horny and wanted in JC's pants right away.  So
you got what you deserved!  And I didn't want him dead.  I just wanted him
out of the way," I reminded him.

"What about now Kevin?" Nathan asked me.  "How do you feel about Don now?"

"I like him," I admitted.  "He is sweet and like or not he is perfect for
JC."

"That wouldn't have anything to do with the fact that you're shoving your
cock up his little brother's ass does it?" Nathan smirked at me.

"We love eachother," I hurled back at him.  "And we make love to each
other."

"Yea I'll believe it when I see it," Nathan snickered.

"Where can I drop you?" I asked as I got tired of this game.

"Drop me at the hilton," he replied.  "I'm going apartment hunting this
afternoon."  By now I was tired of having this talk with Nathan.  I
instructed the driver to take him to the hotel and than headed home myself.
I had a lot to think about.  And I was missing Danny a lot.

At the reasturant

"So are you enjoying yourself?" Josh asked me.

"Any time spent with you is a very good time," I smiled at him.  I heard
the high pitch giggles of Donny and glanced over in his direction.  He and
Justin were having some kind of napkin war.  From the looks of the number
of napkin wads in his hair and shirt Donny was on the loosing side.  I
coughed gently and they both gave me these really cute guilty looks.  "Are
you two having fun?"

"Yes Daddy!" Donny giggled.

"Well just make sure that you two clean up after yourselves," I said
kissing him on the top of his head.  I turned to look at Josh and shuddered
at the amount of love pouring out his eyes.  "I love you," I whispered to
him.

"Ditto," Josh replied grinning his usual naughty grin.  You know the kind.
The kind that almost makes me want to rip off his clothes right here in
front of everyone.

"Daddy!" Donny exclaimed loudly.  I growled softly and Josh giggled at me.

"Yes son," I said with as much love as I could muster.

"Is tomorrow turkey day?" he asked.

"Oh shit!" I yelped.

"Little ears love," Josh said softly.

"I forgot all about thanksgiving!" I blurted out.  I guess I was a little
loud because some of the patrons in the reasturant laughed softly at my
outburst.  "We have work to do!" I demanded as I quickly threw some money
down on the table and grabbed Donny's hand and pulled him out of the booth.
We were half way out of the resturaunt when I heard Josh and Justin and
Brian giggling their heads off.  I turned and saw them sitting in the both
grinning at me.  "Come on you three!" I demanded.  "We have work to do!"
They followed me out to the car still giggling.  They continued to tease me
about my little outburst until Josh realized that I wasn't laughing
anymore.

"Baby?" he asked concerned.  "What is it?"  I tried to hold back on the
tears but couldn't.  Once one escaped my eyes the rest quickly followed.
Justin was quick to distract Donny while Josh pulled me into his arms.
Once there I let it out.  After a few minutes I sniffled loudly and blushed
and looked sheepishly around.  "You ready to tell me what that was all
about?"

"Later," I whispered to him motioning to Donny.  He nodded as he soon
understood what I was going through.  I had made it through the smaller
holidays but now that the really big ones were upon us I was hit really
hard.  I knew that Donny would be hit too.  This was the first Thanksgiving
with out Pam.  If I was already falling apart how would poor Donny react?
I shivered with comfort as I felt Josh's hold tighten around me.  I loved
being held by him.  It gave me such a feeling of comfort and security.  I
looked up into his incredible blue eyes and saw nothing but love in them.
"I love you Joshua Scott Chasez."

"I love you too sexy," Josh whispered as he kissed me lightly on the
forehead.  "Now what do you say that we go shopping for a turkey!"

"I love turkey!" Donny blurted out.

"Oh and why is that?" Justin asked.

"Because as soon as we are done with the turkey than Santa comes!" Donny
squealed clapping his little hands together.  Leave it to an innocent three
year old to lighten the mood.

"Yes son," I smiled softly at him.  "Than Santa comes."  The rest of the
ride to Wal Mart was pretty quiet after that.  When we got there I divided
the group into two groups and sent them on their missions.  Donny
suspecting that his daddy was upset insisted on going with Josh and me.
After a little over an hour we had everything we needed for our
Thanksgiving day feast.  Once home we unloaded our goods and Justin and
Brian said good bye even offering to take Donny home with them for a "Sleep
Over."  Donny was happy to go with his two "Adopted Uncles" and begged me
to let him go.  I of course relented and let him go.  Once he was gone Josh
turned to me.

"Ok now it is time to have that talk," he said seriously.  "Go upstairs and
change into a nice comfy pair of pajamas or something.  I'll start the
fireplace."  Josh headed into the living room and I walked up stairs and
was soon changed into a pair of silk boxers and a silk robe.  After getting
all ready I headed down stairs.  I had to admit that the feeling of the
silk against my skin was very erotic.  I heard soft music playing in the
living room.  Once in I saw that Josh had turned off the lights and was
laying on a pile of furs infront of the fire place.  He was stripped down
to his boxers.  I had to admit that he was hot.  "Come and lay with me
love," he whispered.  I slid off my robe and stretched out on the furs
allowing Josh to wrap his arms and legs around me and pull me as close to
him as he could.  I shivered as his hot flesh touched mine.  "I love you
Don," Josh whispered.  "I hate to see you in pain."

"I'm sorry I had a melt down tonight," I said softly as I snuggled up to
him.

"Now you listen to me.  You have done nothing to be sorry for.  You're
hurting because you are missing Pam this time of the year.  And you know
that Donny is really going to miss his mommy when Thanksgiving and
Christmas comes around," Josh replied.  "I'm here for you sweetie.  And if
you'll let me I want to be here for Donny too."  I don't know whether it
was the closeness and love that I felt or what but I started to cry again.
Josh just held me and kissed me and told me over and over again that he
loved me and that everything was going to be all right.  At some point the
tears stopped and I started to return the kisses.  The kisses became almost
frantic and soon we were naked and Josh entered me like a man starved for
love.  I welcomed him into me again and again until my love shuddered and
moaned my name as he shot into me.  I too shot my load inbetween our two
sweaty bodies.

A few minutes later I noticed that I was alone.  I looked around for my
lover and saw him walking towards me with a couple of towells.  I let him
clean me off and than he handed me a flute of sparkling cider.  He took one
too and we sipped on the cool cider and watched the fire flicker and listen
to eachother's heart beats and the soft music playing in the background.
At some point I fell asleep in Josh's arms.

>From Josh's point of view.

The fire light from the fire place played across Don's face.  He was a
picture of innocence laying there nestled in the confines of the pile of
furs.  I could still see the sadness that he was feeling on his angelic
features.  How I longed to take away his pain.  I could do that for a short
period of time.  I loved making love to Don.  It made us both forget about
the world around us.  For a brief few moments all that mattered was us.  Me
making love to Don.  Listening to him moan and whimper in pleasure was just
like getting a very small glimpse into heaven itself.  But than reality
sank back in.  He was still hurting from the loss of his wife and most
importantly he was still hurting because his son was going through his very
young life with out his mommy.  That alone was enough to bring me to tears.
I wiped one free as I looked down at my lover.  I heard the front door open
and I quickly slipped on my boxers and Don's robe and made sure that Don
was covered up.  The door opened and Kevin walked in.  "Hey," I said
softly.

"Oh hi," Kevin said shocked at seeing us by the fireplace.  "Is Don
sleeping?"

"Yea," I said blushing.  "I'm afraid I kinda sorta wore him out."  Kevin
just smiled and shook his head as he whispered good night and quietly left
the room.  I moved quickly and turned off the fire place and picked up Don
and carried him up stairs to our room.  After making sure my sweetie was
all snuggled in bed I slid in between the sheets and wrapped my arms and
legs around him.  After all I couldn't very well have him escape now can I?
For the longest time I laid awake holding my lover.  I though about a great
many things and the one thing.  I wanted a relationship more permanent than
what we had.  I wanted to ask Don to marry me.  But was he ready?  Was he
ready to leave his life behind?  A life that included his wife?  Another
thing that kept coming back to me was Donny.  God, how I loved that little
boy.  He was such a cutie.  He filled my life with such joy.  Everytime he
would call me Joshy I would feel all warm inside.  I wanted to be his other
Daddy.  I wanted to help raise him.

"Hey," a sleepy voice drifted over me.  I looked down and saw a pair of
sleepy eyes looking adoringly at me.  "Why aren't you sleeping sweetie?"

"I was watching this really cute guy sleep," I replied.  "Why are you
awake?"

"I felt that you were watching me sleep," Don replied.  "What are you
thinking about?"

"About how much I love you," I rpelied.  "Are you happy?"  Don sat up in
bed looking at me with his intense blue eyes.

"Of course I love you baby," Don said looking a little confused.  I shook
my head and took Don's hand and placed it on my chest.

"I know that you love me," I said softly.  "That has never been a question.
I asked if you are happy?"

"Of course I am happy!" Don exclaimed grinning.  "Why do you ask?"

"Well today you were so sad," I explained.

"I was sad because I realized that the firsts were fast approaching," Don
explained matter of factly.  I scrunched up my nose in confusion.  Don
giggled as he kissed me on the nose.  "The first Thanksgiving and the first
Christmas with out Pam," Don explained.  "Not because I'm hurting all that
much, I mean I am but I was really thinking about poor Donny."

"Oh," I said frowning.  "Do you expect it to be really bad for him?"

"I hope not," Don said softly.  "I hope that he is going to be all right.
I expect him to cry some.  I just don't want him hurt.  I love him Josh."

"I know you do sweetie," I said as I pulled him close.  "I love him too.
That is one of the things I was thinking about.  I want this to be more
permenent.  I want us to be well I ummm well ---," I stammered.  He cocked
his head to the side waiting for me to finish.  "Marry me!" I blurted out.
The look of total surprise on his face was priceless.  His eyes were wide
and his mouth was wide open in shock.  "Well?" I asked grinning my naughty
grin.

"Yes!" Don blurted out too.  Than I was all wrapped up in his arms and his
lips were crushed against mine in a very passionate kiss.  "Yes yes yes
yes!" he said over and over again.  Finally he stopped kissing me and
looked up at me with a cute little grin on his face.

"You will?" I asked shaking my head in dibelief.

"Yes I will," Don said blushing.  "I love you Josh.  I want to share my
life with you completely."

"Well you know that this won't be legal to the world don't you?" I asked
sadly.

"We'll go to Vermont and do it," Don replied with a naughty grin.  "I want
to have a big wedding!"

"So do I!" I agreed.

"But what about your celebrity status?" Don asked worried.  "If we plan a
big wedding than it is bound to get out."

"Let it!" I replied.  "I want to go public!  I want the whole world to know
that I am in love with you."

"But your career," Don gasped.  I noticed that his eyes were getting large.
I also saw the fear in them.

"Don," I said softly.  "I love you.  I want the whole world to know.  I'm
tired of hiding the closet.  It is time that the world knows that I am gay.
I'm gay and in love with this really incerdible man.  Please Don I want
this."

"Are you sure?" Don asked again.  I leaned down and kissed him fully on the
lips driving my tongue deep into his mouth.  His body melted against mine
and whimpered.  That was all I can really remember because the rest of it
was lost in the lovemaking that we engaged in.  By the time we were done we
both fell asleep.

The next morning from Don's point of view.

"Wakey wakey!" Josh's voice sounded above me.  I grunted and turned over.
"Baby?" he asked in his sexy voice.  "I have a surprise for you."  I
grunted again and turned over again.  I heard Josh sigh and than he took my
left hand and slid something cold and very heavy on my ring finger.  I
opened my eyes and looked down at it.  "Do you like it?" Josh asked with a
worried look on his face.  I held my hand up to the light.  There on my
finger was the biggest ring I had ever seen.  There was a huge diamond on a
very manly ring.  The diamond was surrounded by saphires.  Tears filled my
eyes as I looked into his loving blue eyes.

"I love it," I sniffled.  "And I love you too."  Josh leaned down and
kissed me fully on the lips again.  After being kissed breathlessly he
released me.

"Let's go down and show the rest of the house," Josh said as he took my
hand.

"Nope," I said with a naughty look in my eyes.

"Why?" Josh asked.

"Because I'm horny!" I said with a smirk.  "And if I knkow you, and I do,
you're horny too."  With that said I pushed him back onto the bed and
jerked his boxers down.  "Yep!" I said with glee.  "You're horny!  And I am
going to take care of my very sexy fiance first."  He let out this really
cute whimper as I scooted down so that I was face to face with his raging
hard on.  I shivered with lust as I reached out and touched it.  It was hot
and hard and I loved the silky yet hard and strong feel to it.  It was
Josh.  All wrapped up in 8.5 inches of male throbbing flesh.  I moaned with
desire as I slid my lips over the head of his cock.  Josh groaned loudly as
he lifted his hips off of the bed driving his cock deeper into my mouth.
This was where I wanted to be.  Right between Josh's legs making love to
him with my mouth tongue and lips.  I worked fast because I wanted to hear
his whimper when he released his seed down my throat.  I didn't have to
wait.  He let out this really cute yelp and his cock twitched in my mouth
and the first spurt hit me in the back of the throat.  I backed off and
relished the taste and force of his cum.  His taste filled my senses as I
too whimpered loudly and shot my load into my boxers.  He always had this
effect on me.  The feel of his tight body quaking and shivering and his
moans and whimpers and the fact that his hands were wrapped in my hair
holding me as a willing hostage between his legs would always through me
into orgasm.  Finally his flow stopped as mine did too.  I gently licked
him clean and slid out of my boxers and took his hand and led him into the
shower.  I giggled at his still dazed look on his angelic face.  But once I
started to wash him he respounded.  Soon his cock was rock hard again.  I
turned around so that my ass was pressing up against him.  "Fuck me Josh,"
I ordered him.  He growled as he latched onto my lips and drove his cock
deep into me.  The force of that first thrust caused me to scream into his
mouth.  Josh begin to slam in and out of me as fast and has hard as he
could.  He wrapped his arms around my waist and one of his hands around my
dripping cock and begin to jerk me off.  "God Josh!" I rasped out.  "You
are so fucking hot!"

"You too stud!" Josh wrasped into my ear as he bit down on my earlobe and
sucked it into his mouth.  "I'm close baby."

"Fill me up with your cum!" I begged him.

"You want it?" Josh asked smirking that incredible sexy grin of his.  "Beg
for it baby!"

"Please Josh," I whimpered.  "I want to feel your cock jerking in me and
feeling me with your hot cum.  I want to feel it slam into me and than run
out my ass and run down my leg.  Please Josh.  Fill me up!"  Josh let out a
shuddering growl and bit down on my shoulder and his cock started to pump
it's load deep into me.  The heat of his cum slamming into my guts sent me
over the edge and I shot all over Josh's hand and the shower wall.  All too
soon I felt the gentle feather kisses on my bruised shoulder and neck.

"I love you Don," Josh whispered as he started to suck on my neck.  I
sighed happily and allowed him to mark me as only he knew how.  "There!" he
said with pride.  I turned around and kissed him on his lips.

"Now be a good boy and clean me off so we can get dressed and go eat some
breakfast," I scolded him.  He kissed me again and pressed his body against
mine making sure that every part of his body was pressed up against mine.
I shivered with pleasure and let him have his way with me.  After a half
hour of him gently and lovingly cleaning me and sucking down another orgasm
from me he pronounced me ready to meet the world as his fiance.  I blushed
and looked down.

"You are so beautiful!" he breathed out.

"Stop it," I giggled.

"Nope and you can't make me!" Josh giggled back.  "Come on let's get
dressed."

  After dressing we left the room and walked down the stairs and walked
into the living room.  Josh was a sweetheart and hired a cook to cook our
thanksgiving feast.  So really good smells were coming from the kitchen.
He guided me into the dinning room where a buffet table was all set up for
us.  We each took a plate and filled it and sat down with the others.
Justin and Brian were here too having brought Donny home.  Kevin and Danny
were being all cuddly at one end of the table.  Donny was busy eating his
pancakes.  Justin looked at me and smirked at my new hickey.  I blushed
like a fool and snuggled closer to Josh.  Josh shook his head at Justin and
kissed me breathless.  There was lot's of teasing and ewws and awws and I
of course blushed even more.  Finally Josh cleared his throat.  "Umm can I
have everyones attention please?"  Every looked at us.  Josh took my left
hand and kissed it making sure the ring was visible to everyone.  Silence
racked the room.  "Ummm I asked Don to marry me and he has accepted."

"Well it is about time," Kevin said simply as he continued to eat.

"I'm happy for you," Danny said smiling at me.

"Does that mean you're going to be my daddy too?" Donny asked looking at
Josh with big eyes.

"Only if you want me too," Josh said seriously.

"Yippppeee!" Donny exclaimed loudly.  "I get to have two Daddies!"  A
ripple of laughter rang through the room.  The subject quickly progressed
to when the wedding was, where the wedding was and who was going to get to
be best men.  JC looked at me with a little fear in his eyes.

"They love you and they will support you in any thing you want to do," I
urged him.  "But most importantly do this for you not for them."  I leaned
forward and gave him a quick kiss on the lips.  He leaned forward and
gently placed his forehead against mine.  We shared a private moment for a
few moments before he looked up at the table.  All eyes were on us.  For
some reason I blushed and looked down.  Awws filled the air and than the
jokes started in on how cute we were.  Finally Josh held up his hand for
silence.

"Ummm I have something else to say," Josh said softly.  The room grew
silent and he squeazed my hand.

"Don't tell me that you are going to do what you think you are," Justin
said with a hard edge to his voice.  I quickly looked into his eyes and was
shocked to see them glaring at me.

"I'm going to come out," Josh said softly.

"Dammit!" Justin shouted as he stood up and stormed out of the room.  I
heard Josh sniffle and I immediately wrapped my arms around him.  His head
lowered onto my chest as he sobbed quietly.  The rest of the room was
quiet.  I felt Donny's small arms wrap around us too.  The comfort he added
was what helped Josh to stop crying and take a deep breath.

"Excuse me," Josh said softly as he pushed back his chair and quietly left
the room.

"Ok so now what?" Danny asked softly.

"Now we wait for Justin to pull his head out of his ass," Kevin muttered.

>From Josh's point of view.

I walked out onto the back deck and spotted Justin sitting on a bench in
the gazebo.  Sighing heavily I walked up to him and sat down next to him.
"You ok?" I asked softly.  He looked at me and I saw that his eyes were
wet.  "Talk to me buddy."

"Why do you want to come out?" Justin asked in a small voice.

"Because I am happy," I replied wrapping my arms around him.  He leaned
against me.  "I want the whole world to know just how happy I am."

"But what about us?" Justin asked glaring at me.  "I mean what happens if
the public thinks that because there is one gay in Nsync than there is
probably more?"

"Why would they think that?" I asked shocked.

"Come on Josh!" Justin hurled at me.  "If you come out they are going to
assume that I am gay too.  My career is fucked!"

"Is that the only thing you think about Justin?" I asked trying really hard
to keep my voice calm.  I didn't want this to turn into a fight.  Justin
looked down for a few moments before looking up.

"No that is not all I think about," he replied softly.  "I'm also thinking
of the assholes out there that are going to have a field day with you."

"Let them," I said waving my hands.  "Justin I'm happy.  I'm really happy
for the first time in my life.  I have found my soulmate!  I love him so
much.  I don't go a second a day without thinking of him.  So if there are
a few ass holes out there that want to fuck with my happiness than I say
let them!"

"Are you sure about this," Justin said with a tear rolling down his face.
Out of habit I reached out and wiped it free.  "There are some really
fucked up people out there.  And I don't want them hurting you or Don or
that little boy."

"I won't let that happen," I said solemly.  "I love that little boy in
there too.  And I love Don so much."  Justin was silent for a few seconds
before he launched him self into my arms.

"I happy for you Josh," he whispered in my ear.  "I'll stand behind you and
support you and Don in anyway I can."

We were quiet again before Justin looked up at me with that famous naughty
grin he had.  "What?" I demanded.

"So I get to be right?" Justin asked still grinning at me.

"You get to be what?" I asked pretending to be confused.  I knew what he
wanted but I decided to have some fun with him.  Still grinning that very
cute naughty grin of his he dug his fingers into my side and started to
tickle the daylights out of me.  Soon we were rolling on the ground
laughing our fool heads off.  "Stop!" I pleaded.  By now he was sitting on
my chest.

"I'll stop when you say yes!" Justin ordered me as he continued to tickle
me.

"What are you doing to my man?" Don's voice sounded from behind us.

"I'm tickling him until he says yes!" Justin replied.

"Yes to what?" Don asked giggling.

"I wanna be his best man," Justin said casually as he continued to tickle
me.

"Josh honey," Don said scolding me.  "Be a good boy and say yes to Justin."

"Ok ok!" I gasped out.  "You can be my best man!"  Justin got this really
proud look on his face as he got up and helped me up and gave me another
hug.

"I love you man," Justin said as a tear rolled down his face again.  Again
I wiped it away.

"I love you too Juju," I said with a twinkle in my eye.

Later from Don's point of view

I looked at Josh sleeping on the couch.  Snuggled up to him was my son.
You see we had just finished eating our Thanksgiving dinner and Josh and
Donny was napping.  Kevin and Danny had insisted on going out and finding a
Christmas tree.  Justin and Brian had brought down all the Christmas
Decorations from storage and was sorting.  Me?  Well I was sitting on the
couch with Josh's head in my lap.  The fireplace was going and I was all
warm and snuggly inside.  I glanced down at the huge engagement ring that
Josh had given me.  Finally I had moved on with my life.  Finally I was
ready to commit to Josh fully and completely.  I was happy.  Truly happy
for the first time in a very long time.  And this Christmas was going to be
the best one I had ever had.  For you see I was sharing it with Josh.  My
lover and soulmate.  We were starting our lives together as lovers and my
son was really exited about being a part of Josh's life, his "other daddy"
as he put it.  I heard a huffing noice and looked over at Trixy.  He was
stretched out in front of the fireplace napping too.  Yep, it couldn't get
better than this.  I sighed happily and snuggled deeper into the sofa and
continued to watch my new family napping.

TBC