Date: Sun, 08 Aug 1999 19:59:42 IST
From: "Nathaniel C." <nathanielstories@hotmail.com>
Subject: Question of Faith

This story is pure fiction. None of the members of BSB, Five and Nsync are
GAY -- as far as I know. I don't know BSB, Five and Nsync AND I am in NO
way related to them.

I would like to thank Toby for the great help and the editing, thanks mate.

It is my first story so be gentle on the feedback. If you like it or not
tell me at NathanielStories@hotmail.com


Kevin rested his head on his arms and stared. He didn't see anything. He
just enjoyed the peace and quiet. Nobody was awake yet as he sat on the
balcony on the 54th floor. The sun was slowly rising and already Kevin
could feel the temperature rise. The last few years had been very hectic
for him. It all started when he was rushed to hospital with an infected
appendix. When he woke up he heard someone cry and pray that he would
survive. From that moment on there was something lingering beneath the
surface. It all came out when Brian had his surgery and Kevin needed
someone to talk to. It just happened. It started with a hug and a cuddle. A
shoulder to cry on and someone there when he had a nightmare. Than a kiss
and another one. Soon they would spend the nights together. Luckily no of
the other band-members reacted strange. They had seen it coming. Things
were great. They went on tour again and suddenly Nick started to loose
weight. The doctors all said that he had the flu and if he had a few days
rest he would be back on his feet. But after spending a week in bed the boy
was still sick. Kevin dragged him all over the country to find what was
wrong with him. One doctor said it was an ulcer the other said something
different. Slowly but surely what disease Nick had it was draining all the
energy out of him. When they did three concerts in a row Kevin could carry
Nick upstairs to their room, as he was exhausted. The next day he wasn't
able to do anything anymore but lay in bed and softly whimper. It was a
daily struggle to get him out of bed and Kevin was slowly losing his
patience. He loved Nick dearly but he wasn't able to be a full time nurse.

Kevin sighed. And than the new tour. The management came up with the
idea. If they would throw several boybands together and let them tour
America. That would lift the pressure of Nick and they only had to perform
for an hour instead of the two and half-hours they did now. Reluctantly he
had agreed. The only thing he wanted right now is for Nick to get
better. He wanted to make love to him again. His right hand was getting
tired. Kevin smiled. The tour would start tomorrow. The boys were already
in town. The other two bands would arrive later today. Off course the love
between Nick and Kevin had to be a secret. The band knew and their dancers
knew. Off course their management knew. But the rest of the world didn't
know. And Kevin preferred it to stay that way. It would only cause more
stress and he and Nick couldn't handle much more stress. He knew that they
would have to lie to the other bands but they were used to it. Most of the
time Kevin would be playing his piano and Nick would be hanging out with
Brian when he had the energy or he would be sleeping on the couch.

'Kevin?' A soft voice called out for him. Kevin shook his head. He just
wanted a few more minutes alone. 'Kevin?' The voice came closer. He slowly
turned around. Nick stood in the doorway. His thin frame draped in a
sheet. Kevin had to fight the urge to cry out. 'Can you massage my back? It
hurts.' Kevin nodded. Nick slowly shuffled inside again. Kevin followed
him. Nick lay down on the bed and Kevin pulled the sheet down. He grabbed
the bottle of babyoil and poured some on his hands. He started on Nick's
shoulders working his way down his back. Nick sighed contently. Kevin
decided to try something. He slid one hand inside Nick's
boxers. Immediately Nick froze.

Kevin sighed.

'Sorry.' He mumbled. Nick turned around. 'Just hold me okay.'

Kevin wrapped his long arms around him and pulled Nick close. Nick looked
at him. 'I am sorry. And if you want to end this relationship I
understand.' Kevin couldn't believe his ears. 'What brought this up?' Nick
shook his head.

'We haven't made love in months. I am always too tired or too sick. I can't
give you what you want.'

Kevin nuzzled Nick's neck.

'I want you. And if that means I have to wait until you are better. Than
I'll wait.' Kevin pulled him closer. 'Are you nervous about meeting all
those new people today.' He could feel Nick nod. 'Don't worry we'll pull
you through. And when you are sick of all those people you just come and
sit with me for a while.'

'Will we tell them?' Mumbled Nick.

'That is up to you.'

Nick managed to snuggle closer to Kevin. 'No, it will be our little
secret.' Kevin kissed his blonde hair.

'Try to get some sleep. It will be a long and tiring day.' Nick nodded, he
was almost asleep.

AJ paced the little room.

'They can't not be late. Not today.'

'Relax.' Said Howie. 'I think Nick had a rough night.'

AJ sighed. The door opened and Kevin came in

'And?' Three voices asked in unison.

'He is not coming down today. His back hurts and he just threw up two
times.'

AJ shook his head.

'Poor kid. Well we have to meet the rest of the bands joining us on tour.'
AJ and Howie walked to the door. 'Are you two coming?'

Brian nodded.

'Give us a minute.' Brian turned to Kevin. 'Now how are you doing?'

Kevin could not fool his cousin.

'I feel like I've been hit by a truck.' Kevin sat down on the sofa. 'I
can't handle much more. It hurts so bad to see him walk like an old man. He
should be outside playing basketball enjoying himself.'

Brian looked at Kevin.

'Maybe you need a break from him.'

Kevin's head snapped up.

'And leave him alone at night? He needs someone there to comfort him after
he throws up and when he has cramps all over his body.'

'Stop thinking about Nick for a change and think about yourself. You are
slowly breaking down Kevin.'

Kevin shook his head.

'I don't want to talk about it anymore. Let's go and meet the others.'
Kevin stood up and walked to the door. Brian knew it was no use to say
anything more. Silently they walked to the big conference room where they
would meet the other two bands. Brian opened the door and let Kevin in
first. The cheerful chatter hit him right in the face. He put on his happy
face and walked in the room. Kevin looked around. He had seen the other two
bands on TV but never had the change to properly meet them.

'Kevin, come over here.' Denise called out to him.

Kevin smiled at her and made his way through the room.

'I want you to meet the first band.' Kevin looked at the five guys in front
of them. 'I want you to meet Abs, Scott, J, Richie and Sean. They are also
known as Five.' Kevin shook all their hands.

'Hi, I am Kevin.'

The five guys smiled.

'So first time with the competition?’

Kevin looked at J. 'Yeah, let's see whose recordsales will go up at the end
of the tour.'

J started grinning.

'Hey, I thought there were five of you or did you ditch one member last
night?' Kevin already expected this question.

'Nick is sick. He decided to stay in his room today. You'll meet him
tomorrow.'

'Cool.' J looked around the room.

'So how are Nsync? You have met them before.'

'They are cool. Never put JC and Justin in one room as you get them in
hyper overdrive.'

J nodded.

'Like Rich and Scott.'

Kevin pretended to feel faint. 'No, don't tell me you have a couple of
those guys too?'

J nodded again.

'Come on, I'll introduce you to the other guys.'