Date: Sat, 19 Feb 2000 09:00:28 -0800 (PST)
From: Francis O'Ratigan <frnceso@yahoo.com>
Subject: Rude Awakening Chapters 3&4

Here is Chapters 3 & 4 to Rude Awakening.  When we last saw Kevin he was
praying before the Blessed Sacrament in the Chapel at the Hospital.  Jason
was resting in his room preparing himself for his first dose of chemo.
Some questins unanswered are.  Who is this Luke character and How does he
figure into Jaon's and Kevin's life.  Remember that this is fiction.  The
is not an acurate representation of the Actual Backstreet Boys.  On that
note I would like to send a big way to go on Kevin's and Brian's
engagements.  I wish you the best that life has to offer.  May both of you
find happiness in your married lives.

Like or dislike?  Send me your comments at frnceso@yahoo.com

Now on with the story!!

Rude Awakening

Chapter 3

"Kevin!" shouted Brian.  "Wake up cous." shaking Kevin's shoulder.  Kevin
groaned and opened his eyes.  He sat up and looked around.

"Where am I?" he mumbled rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.

"You're in the Hospital Chapel.  You must've fallen asleep," said Brian.

"What time is it?" asked Kevin getting up and stretching.

"You've got about five minutes before they start the Chemo on Jason," said
Brian rushing Kevin out of the Chapel.  They rushed into Jason's room.
Jason was worried about Kevin because he hadn't seen him all night.  Tears
filled his eyes as he realized that Kevin may have left him.  The door
opened and in rushed Kevin.

"Baby, I am so sorry I scared you, I fell asleep in the chapel last night.
Can you forgive me?" pleaded Kevin taking his hand and kissing it.

"Only if I get a good morning kiss from my baby," Jason said smiling in
relief.  Kevin bent down and pressed his lips to Jason's.  Jason's arms
wrapped around Kevin's neck and he pulled him down on top of him.  Running
his hands down Kevin's well muscled back.

"Uhh Mr. Richardson?" asked a voice.  Kevin turned around and grew pale.
Luke was standing there.  "Umm it is time for your chemo," he explained the
interuption.  Jason nodded and reached for his rosary beads and held them
in his hand.  Luke raised his eyebrows when he saw that.  Kevin glared at
him daring him to say something.  He decided not to.  He plugged in the IV
line that had the Chemo and quietly left the room.  Kevin sat down and
watched the amber color liquid run the length of the IV tubing.  He let out
a sobb when the amber colored fluid entered Jason's vein.

"It's started," sobbed Kevin laying his head in Jason's lap.  Jason gently
stroked Kevin's hair as Kevin quietly sobbed into Jason's lap.

"SHHHH," soothed Jason.  "It is going to be alright my love.  It is going
to be alright. I promise we will get through this."

Brian stood in the background watching the scene before him.  Kevin laying
his head sobbing in Jason's lap.  Jason comforting his husband.  He was
watching true love in action.  Tears filled his eyes as he watched the two
people he cared deeply for suffering.  He lifted his eyes to heaven.

"Hear my cry O God: attend unto my prayer.  From the end of the Earth I
will cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock that
is higher than I.  For thou hast been a shelter for me, a strong tower from
the enemy---," he said aloud the prayer looking at Jason and Kevin willing
the hand of God upon them.

Four hours later.

"Hey Kev," said Brian comming up behind him.  "How is Jas doing?"  Kevin
had just come out of the room.  Brian could tell that Kevin had been
crying.

"He is sleeping now," sighed Kevin.  Brian looked at him with worry.  He
looked as if he had aged ten years.  "God Brian I don't know how he does
it.  He is so strong and I am so weak," he sobbed into Brian's shoulder.

"You are stronger than you think Kevin.  Jason knows that and he relies on
you more than you know," insisted Brian.

"If only you had seen him.  He as so sick," Kevin said shaking his head and
shedding fresh tears.  "I've never seen anyone throw up like that.  I just
sat there holding him in my arms.  I couldn't do anything to help."

"That is where you are wrong Kev.  You did help.  By holding him you helped
more than anyone in that room."

"Thank you Brian," Kevin said kissing his cousin on the cheek.

"For what?" Brian asked confused.

"For the prayer, I needed it and I am sure that Jas appreciated it to."
The door opened and a nurse came up to Kevin.

"Mr. Richardson?" she asked.  Kevin turned and faced the nurse.  "Your
husband is asking for you," she said smiling.

"How is he?" he asked worried.  She smiled and took his hand.

"He is through the worst part of it.  He'll still have episodes of vomiting
but not as bad.  Now go in and take care of him," she said smiling.  Kevin
smiled back and headed into the room.  Jason was sitting up in bed.  He was
pale and weak but he was smiling ear to ear.  But most importantly he was
laughing.  Kevin also noticed some one else there.  Luke was there doing IV
therapy on Jaon's IV.  He was the sourse of Jason's laughter.  Kevin kept
his anger in check.

"Hey sweetie," he said smiling glad to see Jason in good spirits.

"Hey yourself Babe," giggled Jason winking at Luke.  "So you want to tell
me about your attempt at tap dancing?"

"What else has this clown been telling you?" laughed Kevin and blushing at
the same time.

"All good," said Jason reaching and kissing Kevin on the cheek.  "I want to
go home!" he demanded.

"Let me get your doctor and she can discuss you discharge instructions,"
said Luke excusing himself.  Kevin glared at him as he passed him.  Jason
caught it but decided not say anything.  A few moments later his Doctor
walked in.  She had a look of worry on her face.

"What's wrong Doc?" asked Kevin grabbing Jason's hand.

"We are concerned how you reacted to the first dose of Chemo.  We normally
don't have that strong of a reaction to it.  Some of your emisses had blood
in it.  We would like to keep you overnight for observation," she said.

"You're the Doctor and you know what is best," mumbled Jason halfheartedly.
Kevin could tell that he was not happy with staying over night.  He put his
arm around Jason's shoulder.  "I'm real tired right now Kev," he mumbled
turning over and closing his eyes.  Kevin was hurt but tried not to show
it.  The Doctor motioned him outside.

"He is really upset isn't he?" asked Kevin.

"This is normal for him.  He just got his first dose of chemo.  It will get
worse before it gets better.  There will be days when all he'll want to do
is sleep.  It will be your job to make sure he doesn't slip into
depression.  It does happen and I know about Jason's slip in the past," she
advised Kevin.  "There is also a support group that I want Jason to get
involved in as soon as possible.  He will resist at first, they all do.
But it is vital to his recovery that he gets involved with that support
group.  I'll give him the information on it.  And in the mean time you need
to get some rest.  And that is an order!"  Kevin nodded and headed back
into the room.  He laid down on the couch where he could see Jason and
closed his eyes.  He woke later to find that all of the guys were there
joking with Jason.  He sat up rubbing his eyes.

"So sleeping beauty decided to wake up," joked Jason.  The rest of the guys
laughed when he said that.  Kevin noticed a food tray on Jason's table.  It
was untouched.  Brian was holding some kind of stuffed animal.  He and Nick
were arguing over what it looked like.  Kevin looked at it closely and
couldn't decide what it was either.  One thing was for sure it was the
ugliest thing he had ever seen.

"How are you feeling?" he asked sitting next to Jason.

"Better," he said sliding his hand up Kevin's shirt.

"Good enough to eat something?" asked Kevin hopefully reaching for the
tray.  Jason didn't look happy about the prospect of eating but he decided
to give it a try anyway.

"May be a little something he said smiling.  He lifed the cover of the dish
and grimaced.  He picked up a spoon and ate some chicken broth.  Kevin
looked sastified.

"So what have you yard birds been up to?" he asked Nick.

"Well you missed a photo shoot this morning--," started Nick but stopped
when Brian glared at Him.  Kevin picked up on this right away.

"Hey wait aminute I thought you said we had the day off," Kevin said to
Brian.

"We did, management decided at the last moment to throw in this photo
shoot.  I didn't want to pull you away from Jason," explained Brian.

"Next tell me and I will decide what I need to do!"exploded Kevin getting
up in a huff.  There was an silence in the room.

"You needed to be here for Jason Kev," said Nick in a small voice.  Kevin
got mad and turned on Nick.

"I will decide if I need to be with him!  Don't make my carreer decisions
or decisions concerning my marriage with out consulting me!"  shouted
Kevin.

"They are just looking out for you Babe," spoke up Jason in a consoling
voice.

"Don't you start!" Kevin hurled at him.

"Don't start what Kevin?" Jason said back in a quiet voice.  Kevin just
shook his head and started walking out the door.  "Don't you fucking walk
out on me mister.  Get your scrawny ass back in here now!"  But Kevin just
kept walking.  "Brian go chase him down and dragg him back in here!"
shouted Jason pushing his tray away.  Nick went to his side and put his arm
around him but Jason tried to push him away.  Nick looked hurt and sat
down.

"You don't need this stress Jason," said Brian not moving.  Jason growled
in frustration throwing a pillow at Brian.  Brian ducked and the pillow hit
Howie.

"Don't coddle me!" he shouted at Brian.  "Now go get my husband dammit!"

"Why don't you give him some time to calm down Jason?" asked Howie placing
the pillow on the foot of the bed.  Jason concidered throwing another one
at Howie but decided against it.  He was breaking out in a sweat again.  He
laid back against the pillows and sighed.

"Is this the way it is going to be?" he aksed with out emotion.

In the Bar

"Give me a cold one," he asked the Bar tender.

"So you're here again, what's the matter you and lover boy had a quarrel,"
taunted Luke.  Kevin glared at him for a second and turned away from him.

"Go away Luke, there is nothing for you here," he said looking into his
mug.

"I think there is," presisted Luke sitting beside Kevin laying his hand on
Kevin's crotch.  Kevin grabbed his hand and twisted it around his back
causing Luke to yell out in pain.  He shoved Luke away and Luke turned back
rubbing his arm.  "I think there is Kevin.  You still owe me!" he said with
a menacing look in his eyes.  "What you have, the group the fame the
husband it should've all been mine and you took it away from me!"  He got
in Kevin's face and grabbed him by the back of the head and planted a kiss
on Kevin's lips driving his tongue down Kevin's throat.  Kevin bit down
hard on Luke's lip.  Swearing in pain Luke broke away.  Kevin spit the
blood from Lukes lip in his face.

"Stay the fuck away from Jason and me or you will be sorry!" he hurled at
Luke.

"No Kevin, it's you that will be sorry," said Luke dabbing his lip with a
cocktail napkin.  "You know strange things can happen in a hospital, maybe
a little to much of this or not enough of that.  Jason's immune system is
going through some pretty rough stuff now.  All it would take is---," he
started.  Kevin grabbed and shoved him against the bar.

"Don't even try it!" he shouted at Luke.  Luke just grinned at him showing
him those perfect teeth.  Kevin drew back his hand to hit him but decided
against it.  Luke decided to push his luck.

"Who knows what is happening to your precious Jason as we stand here
talking.  Tic toc tic toc, come on Kevin times a wasten," laughed Luke.
Kevin swore and took off running back to the hospital.

"Hey who is going to pay for his drink?" asked an angry bar tender.

"Second time this week I am stuck paying for his drink," commented Luke.
"Oh well small price to pay for alittle revenge."  He picked up Kevin's mug
and drained it.  The cell phone in his pocket started ringing.  He answered
it and heard the song "Crazy" playing in the back ground.  "Who is this?"
he demanded.

"Shut up blondie," ordered a female voice.  "You and I have a common enemy.
I think we need to meet."

Chapter 4

Kevin crept back into the hospital room.  It was dark and all the guys had
left.

"I waited up with you," said Jason's voice scaring Kevin.  Jason turned the
light on over his head.  Kevin looked at his husband.  He could tell that
he had been crying.

"I am so sorry Jas," said Kevin looking to the floor.

"Come here and sit with me," said Jason patting the bed.  "I think we need
to talk about our future."  Kevin looked up at Jason and saw the love and
heard the hurt in his voice.  His heart started to pound in his chest.  He
made his way over to the bed and sat down.  Jason looked down at his hands.

"Am I lossing you?" he asked, his voice thick with emotion.

Mean while at Kevin's apartment.

"Hey Brian!" shouted a hyper Nick.  "Let's go eat!" walking into Kevin's
room.  He saw that Brian was busy arranging flowers for Jason's home
comming.  "Jesus Brian, he's only been gone for a day."

"Well he needs to be cheered up," said Brian making the final touches on
the flowers.  He turned around to walk out and walked right into Nick.
Nick looked at him and smiled sheepishly.  Brian just stood there staring
at him.

"Uh sorry about that," mumbled Nick still looking at Brian's eyes.  They
were so blue.  Brian leaned forward and pressed his lips against Nick's.
Nick backed up against the dresser.  Brian backed off.  "Oh fuck it!" said
Nick wrapping his arms around Brian's neck and kissed him back.  Brian let
out a soft moan and drove his tongue into Nick's mouth.  Nick started
tearing at Brian's clothes.  Brian started tearing off Nick's clothes too.
Soon they were standing there dressed only in their boxers.  Both of their
erections was clearly present.  Brian reached forward and stroked Nick's
chest.  Nick reached forward and took hold of Brian's erection through his
boxers.  "It seems that someone one wants to come out and play," he said
huskily.

"Nick?" asked Brian.  Nick slowly slid Brian's boxers off.  His heart
quickened at the sight of Brian's erection.  He gently wrapped his hand
around the throbbing cock.  Brian let out a small moan.  "Please Nick," he
moaned out.

"Shh don't talk, just feel," ordered Nick dropping to his knees.  He
engulfed Brian's cock. As the 8 inch cock slid in his mouth he shuddered
with pleasure.  This was where he wanted to be.  He looked up Brian's chest
and watch it heave in and out.  He buried his nose in Brian's crotch
inhaling deeply the scent that was Brian.  Brian let out a groan and began
to thrust in and out slowly.  Nick closed his eyes concentrating on his
mission.  He could tell that Brian was getting close.  His moans were
louder and more frequent.  His cock started to swell and twitch.

"OHH fuck Nick," he groaned out.  "I'm gonna cum."  Nick just grinned up at
him and picked up his pace.  Reaching around Brian's nicely formed and
tight but he inserted his finger to the opening of his rectum.  He waited
until the orgasm just started when he rammed his finger up Brian's ass.
"OOOOHHH shit Nick!!" Brian screamed ramming his cock all the way.  "OOOhh
God here it comes," he rasped out shooting load after load of his seed down
the blondes hungry mouth.  Nick pulled Brian's shooting cock out of his
mouth and allowed Brian to shower his face with his seed.  Brain looked at
the sight of his best friend being showered with his seed.  Nick's face was
in an state of pleasure.  Finally his orgasm subsided.  Nick slid the
softening cock back in his mouth cleaning the remains of Brian's cum off of
it.  After Nick was done cleaning him off Brian slid down and slid off
Nick's boxers.  He was in awe of Nicks erectin.  He had seen Nick naked
before but never in a state of arousal.  He reached up with trembling hands
and touched his cock.  Nick let out a groan.  It was longer than Brian's
and narrow too.  Brian just stared at it for a few moments.  Nick's soft
laughter broke Brian's concentration.

"You like what you see Babe," he laughed out.

"You are beautiful Nick," breathed in Brian as he bent forward and licked
off the drop of precome that threatened to drop to the floor.  Once his
tongue touched the engorged member Nick shuddered.  At his first taste he
was hooked.  He started bobbing on Nick's cock.  Nick let out a groan and
started meating Brian's assault with matching thrusts.  Brian eased off of
Nick's cock and looked up at Nick with lust glased eyes.  "Fuck me Nick,"
he pleaded.  Nick grinned down at Brian and nodded.  Brian laid down on the
bed and Nick positioned himself.  His cock at Brian's entrance to his ass.
He rubbed the head of his cock along the opening of Brian's ass.  Brian let
out a whimper.

"You want this?" asked Nick teasing Brian.  Brian nodded yes licking his
lips.  "Beg for it B-rock."

"Give it to me Nick.  Shove that hot cock up my ass," pleaded Brian.  Nick
shoved his cock up Brian's ass in one swift stroke.  Brian threw his head
back to scream but Nick clamped his mouth over the top of Brian's and Brain
screamed into Nick's mouth as a mixture of pain and intence pleasure seared
through his body.

Back at the hostpital.

"What makes you think you're going to loose me?" asked Jason softly.

"Because of the way I treated you today," sniffled Kevin.  Jason pulled him
in a hug.

"When we said our wedding vows I took them very seriously.  Did you?" he
aked stroking Kevin's hair.  Kevin nodded not speaking.  "Than we are in
this together.  That is not what I wanted to talk to you about.  I wanted
to talk about your career."  Kevin looked up at Jason.  He saw tears
streaming down his face.  "You are a singer and a performer.  That is when
you are happy.  I am keeping you away from that--," he started.

"I want to be--," interupted Kevin.

"Please Kevin let me say this," sobbed Jason.  "I need to say this so don't
stop me."  Kevin nodded for him to continue.

"I want you to hire a full time nurse for me while you are on the road," he
stated wiping tears from his face.

"I wont leave you alone to fight this disease!" insisted Kevin stubbornly.
"I want to be by your side fighting this with you."

"What about your carreer Kevin?" Jason asked.

"Fuck my carreer!" he shouted making Jason jump.  "I will not leave you
alone during one of the worst times in your life.  I did that once, never
again will I do that!" he sobbed out.  "I love you and I want to be a good
husband to you.  And part of that is being with you through this cancer
thing.  Please don't talk me out of this."  They stared at each other for a
few moments.  "You're not going to change my mind on this Jas."

"I guess I am not am I?" Jason asked stroking Kevin's face. Kevin shook his
head no.  "Ok so what are you going to do?"

"I'm going to do what ever is needed so that I can be with you through
this.  No arguments Jason.  I love you and I will stand by you," said Kevin
kissing Jason.

"And I love you too Boo," he said snuggling up to Kevin.

"Boo?" he asked shocked that he knew one of his unknown pet names.

"Brian told me," Jason giggled.

"Remind me to beat him up!"  grumbled Kevin.

"Shut up and hold me Boo," said Jason grabbing Kevin's arm and pulling it
around him.  Kevin smiled and spooned Jason and watch his husband fall
asleep.

Brian held Nick in his arms and watched the 19 year old sleeping.  "What
have I started?" he asked aloud.  Nick groaned and turned over.  "Do I love
you?" asked Brian again for the 100th time that night since their make out
session.  He had started something tonight and he wanted to see it to the
end.  But a face kept comming up before him.  And that face was Justin.  To
Brian's knowledge Nick was dating Justin.  He slid out of bed and slipped
on his boxers and padded out into the living room.  He was looking for
Kevin.  He would have answers.  But Kevin hadn't come home that night.  He
had probably stayed at the hospital.  So he went to AJ's door and knocked
on it.  A sleepy voice answered.  "AJ can we talk?" Brian asked.

"It's three in the morning Bri," said AJ.

"It's really important," insisted Brian.

"I'll be out in a few moments," sighed AJ.

"I wonder what Brian wants," said AJ out loud to himself.  "Probably girl
problems.  Oh wait he don't do girls.  Shit! that makes it boy problems.
Uggh! Why me?" he threw on some sweats and headed out into the living room
where he found Brian sitting there with his head in his hands.  AJ sat down
and put his arm around him.  "What's wrong B-rock?" he asked softly.

"I'm confused and I think I drew Nick in the same mess," said Brian wiping
a tear from his face.

"Tell me what you did and maybe I can help you," coached AJ.

"Nick and I had sex tonight," Brian said bluntly.  AJ sat up shocked.

"You did what?" he yelped out.

"We had sex.  I don't why we did it it just happened," sobbed Brian.

"How do you feel about it now?" asked AJ.

"I loved it.  I don't want it to stop," Brian answered truthfully.

"How do you feel about Nick?" asked AJ.

"I would like to know that too," said a voice from the front door.  Brian
turned in shock.

"Justin!" he said standing up.  (Hmmmm doesn't it bother you that no one
knows how to knock in these stories.)  Oh well Another cliffhanger.