Date: Mon, 28 Feb 2000 13:33:07 -0800 (PST) From: Francis O'Ratigan <frnceso@yahoo.com> Subject: Rude Awakening Chapters 7 & 8 Rude Awakening Chapters 7 & 8 Copyright 2000 by Francis O'Ratigan All rights reserved. With the exceptions of short excerpts for critical reviews, no part of this work may be reproduced in any manner whatsoever without permission in writing from the Author. This is fiction and in no way reflects the actual views of real persons I would like to thank all of the readers who commented on my story. It seems that the Love Triangle I started has created a little debate as to where my story is headed. I really don't know where it is headed yet so bear with me. I must say that the response has been favorable for the most part. I also must admit that I have never attempted something like this. I've also noticed a trend with some of the other stories that seem to be leaning towards a triangle scenario to. The story "Forever" is really heating up. The Love making scene is really hot. Way to go!! Also another story to start following is Dealing. There is some really good talent out there. Now on with the story. Previously on Rude Awakening "Justin you don't understand--," started Brian going up to Justin. "Why don't you make me understand Brian. I really want to know why my boyfriend is fucking your brains out!" He shouted at Brian tears streaming down his face. Brian didn't know what to say he just hung his head in shame. "I deserve an answer Brian, are you and Nick lovers?" Justin asked calming down a little. "I think I can answer that," said Nick's voice from the doorway. ************************************************************************ "Are you hungry?" he asked. Jason shook his head no. Kevin brow crinkled with worry. "Jas, you really need to eat something." "I'll eat later, I promise," Jason smiled at Kevin climbing out of bed and shuffling into the Bathroom. Kevin brought in his clean clothes so he could get dressed and ready to go home. There was a knock at the door. Kevin opened it and let in Justin. "Hey Curly," Kevin said grabbing Justin in a hug. "What are you doing here?" "I'm here for Jason," he said. "How is he doing?" "He gets to go home today," Kevin said with a smile. Justin looked closely at Kevin. He could see the lines around his eyes. Justin grabbed him in a tight hug. Kevin looked confused but hugged him back. "Thanks Justin I think," he said smiling a little. "With Jason sick you really need to take care of yourself Kev," Justin said worried. Kevin went to say something but Justin stopped him. "Look at yourself you're dead tired and if I know you, you haven't slept right or eaten right in about three days." Kevin looked away. "I'm fine," he grumbled. "No you're not fine Kevin. Your husband is sick and part of his treatment makes him sicker. Come on Kevin you owe it to Jason to take better care of yourself. Jason needs you healthy!" insisted Justin. Kevin knew he wasn't going to win this one. ************************************************************************ Kevin looked down the hall to see Nick and Brian coming down the hall joking around. There was something different about those two. Justin looked away and headed back into the room. "Ok now I know something is going on," Kevin said aloud to himself. As Nick and Brian approached they calmed down when they saw Kevin staring at them. "Morning Kev," said Nick grinning. Kevin nodded at Nick and caught Brian's arm before he went in. "What is going on?" he asked Brian. ************************************************************************ Kevin turned around and glared at Luke. "You stay away from him!" he shouted getting in Luke's face. "Kevin!" shouted Jason. "What are you doing?" "He is trouble Jason," yelled Kevin standing in between Luke and Jason. "I don't want him near you!" Luke just shrugged his shoulders and handed Kevin the papers. "Fine have it your way Babe, Just make sure he signs them and takes home a copy," sneered Luke leaning forward to kiss Kevin. Kevin didn't let him get near him. He punched him in the face. Luke tried to hit him back but was restrained by Brian. "Break it up now!" shouted Brian man handling Luke out of the room. Once outside he slammed Luke against the wall. "What the hell are you doing Luke?" "Just trying to kiss my former boyfriend," he whined wiping the blood from his lip. "Yea you got that right, "former" is the key word here!" shouted Brian. "Now get the fuck out of here!" Luke flipped him off and stalked off. Brian turned and headed back into the room. ************************************************************************ "I'm Kevin Richardson, and I uh need some information on the support group for cancer patients," he said shaking her offered hand. "Are you the patient?" she asked beaming at him again. "No my husband is," he said. Her eyes widened a little calmed down right away. "I am so sorry, this must be a difficult time for you," she said leading him into an office. He nodded and sat in the chair that was offered to him. "Why don't you tell me a little bit about you and your husband." So Kevin outlined the basics of their life and she politely nodded and took it all down on a pad of paper. "I think I have the perfect group for you. It is called the couples group. It mainly consists of Married couples going through what you and Jason are going through. I would like to send the Smiths over to your place and talk to you and Jason about joining the group. Is that alright?" she asked. Kevin nodded. "Good I will send them over at about 8 this evening." Kevin picked up the literature for the group thanked her and headed out. He climbed into the car and the driver pulled away from the curb. He felt two arms wrap around him and he turned and smiled. ************************************************************************ Jason felt surrounded by security. He snuggled up against the Kevin. His hand reached up and stroked Kevin's hair. He stopped, something was definitely wrong. Kevin did not have curly hair. He leaned forward and sniffed for his cologne. This was not Kevin! His eyes popped open. "AAAAAAUUUUUUGH!" screamed Jason. "AAAAAUUUGGGH!!" screamed Justin. "AAAAUUUUGH!!!" screamed Kevin. "What is going on!" asked a confused Brian. "AAAAAAUUUGH!!!" screamed all three. "Will you three stop screaming and tell me what is going on? Why are all three of you in bed together?" demanded Brain. *********************************************************************** "Please Justin don't go!" he pleaded. "Man you guys really know how to put a boy through the loops," sighed Justin. "All I know is that I care for you Jason. A whole lot. Maybe it's love maybe its not. I know this, I see you in pain and my heart wants to make you better. I've never felt this way about anyone before." Jason backed up and sat back down on the bed. Kevin sat down beside him. "I do love you Jason," said Kevin looking him in the eyes. Turning to Justin. "And I love you too!" "I love you Jason," whispered Justin. All three young men were sitting on the bed. Jason was in the middle. No one knew who made the first move. But all three lips met in the middle. Three tongues dancing and dueling emotions running high. The door pops open and in steps Brian. "What the Fuck!!!!" he shouts. *********************************************************************** Now Begins Chapter 7 All three broke apart staring in shock at Brian. Brian was standing there staring at them in complete shock as well. "What just happened here?" asked Justin turning pale as a ghost. "I uh think we just kissed each other," stuttered out Kevin. They looked at Jason who was staring off into space. Kevin waved his hand in front of Jason's face. "Uh Jas, are you in there?" asked Kevin. Jason shook himself awake. "Uhh I need to go to the bathroom," he said quickly and bolted to the bathroom. Brian walked in the rest of the way. "Now would someone please tell me what is going on?" he demanded. "It was just a kiss Brian!" exclaimed Kevin. "A kiss between all three of you!" insisted Brian. Kevin got up and took his arm and led him to the bed and sat him down. "Are you three doing it?" he asked worried. "No Brian we are not doing it!" sighed Kevin. Though the thought of doing it with both Jason and Justin turned him on. "But we do have feelings for each other." "But you two are married!" yelped Brian. "Yes we are married but maybe we want to explore this," said Kevin. "Look it all started out when Justin was sleeping with Jason," Brian's eyebrows went up. "On top of the blankets. He was just comforting Jason and fell asleep. I didn't have the heart to make him get up. Well when Jason woke up he freaked." "But that still doesn't explain the kiss," stated Brian. "Brian don't worry about the kiss. It just happened ok? No big deal now can you please leave us alone?" pleaded Kevin. Brian shrugged his shoulders and got up and left. Justin sat down beside Kevin and put his head on Kevin's shoulder. "I didn't mean that," Kevin mumbled to Justin. "Didn't mean what?" Justin asked. "About the kiss, it was a big deal. I liked it a lot," Kevin stuttered out. "This will never work," said Justin in a small voice. "It could work if we wanted it too," insisted Kevin. "Ok I have a compromise. No sex unless you and Jason want to. But I still want to be a part of your life. I am sure that Jason wants to be a part of your life too." "Yes I would love to be a part of your life Justin," spoke up Jason. He had just returned from the bathroom. He was pale and sweating. Justin went to him in a hurry and helped him to his bed. "God Jason, you look terrible!" exclaimed Justin. "It is the chemo," explained Jason. "I think I want to lay down for a little longer." They got Jason under the blankets and left him alone to rest. "Come on Justin let's go face the wolves," said Kevin taking Justin's hand. They walked into the living room holding hands. Nick was drinking from a glass and kept on drinking with out swallowing. Swearing he dried himself off and set he glass down. "Uhh what is going on?" he asked pointing at Kevin and Justin holding hands. "Oh you're going to love this!" exclaimed Brian. "Brian, lay off!" warned Kevin. "No Kevin I won't lay off. This is not right!" he shouted at Kevin. "You are married to Jason. How could you even think of doing something like this?" "Jason is happy with this," defended Kevin. "You can't tell me that Jason is happy with Justin sharing you with him!" shouted Brian. "Keep your voice down. Jason is trying to rest," Kevin said trying to hush Brian. "It's a little late for that," said a tired voice. They all looked up to see Jason standing at the door. "Now what is all the arguing about?" he demanded. "Jas you should be in bed," said Kevin going to him and taking his arm. Jason swatted his hand away. "Don't coddle me Kevin. I know my limitations," insisted Jason sitting beside an enraged Brian. "So Brian you have a problem?" "Yes I do!" shouted Brian. "Please don't tell me that you are ok with this Justin thing." "What is wrong with Justin?" demanded Jason. "Kevin and I are taking Justin in. He needs us right now and we need him. So I'll thank you for minding your own business." "I'm sorry for getting mad. It is just that I not used to group relationships is all," apologized Brian. "If it is any comfort to you neither are we," giggled Jason. "What is so funny?" demanded Kevin. "I still can't get over the look on Brian's face when he caught us kissing. I thought he was going to have a stroke!" laughed Jason. "No actually I almost had a heart attack. I do have a condition you know," he said placing his hand over his heart. "Yea sure Brian, whatever you say," laughed Jason. "Does this mean you three are a threesome now?" asked a confused Nick. "What it means is that all three of us have deep feelings for each other. Where that will lead no one knows. But we are sharing something here and we want to continue it," spoke up Justin. Kevin walked up to him and kissed him on the lips and than walked over to Jason and kissed him too. "Ohh God, I can't watch this!" groaned Brian as he walked into his bedroom slamming the door. "I don't pretend to understand this. But if you guys are happy than I'll butt out of it," relented Nick walking into Brian's room. "Now that everything has calmed down I am going to lay back down," said Jason headed back to the bedroom. "I am going to the store and pick up something for dinner. We have company coming over tonight," spoke up Kevin. "Company?" asked Jason. He was hoping for a nice quiet evening with his husband. "Yea a couple who is going through the same thing we are is coming over to talk about the support group," explained Kevin. Jason nodded and headed into the room. "You want some company?" asked Justin. "No why don't you stay behind in case Jason needs something," suggested Kevin. Justin nodded and turned on the TV and sat down and started flipping. He thought he heard someone crying in the bedroom. He got up and headed to the room. Quietly opening the door he peeked in. He saw Jason sitting up in bed holding his stomach. He was obviously in pain. Justin sat down beside him on the bed. "What's wrong Jas?" he asked softly. "I'm just in some pain is all," said Jason not wanting to worry Justin. "It will pass," he said lying back down. Justin lay down beside him and pulled him close. Jason snuggled up to him closer. "So are you really ok with this?" asked Justin stroking his hair. Jason shrugged his shoulders. "What's that supposed to mean?" giggled Justin. "Do you really love me?" Jason asked. "I feel something for you," said Justin. "I'm not sure what it is but I do know that I want to continue feeling what I feel." Jason's breathing became regular so Justin rolled over on his back and stared up at the ceiling. What a day it had been. A thousands emotions raged through the young star's head. He needed to talk to someone. Picking up the phone he dialed a number. "Hey Josh, you have a moment?" he asked. "Sure Curly, for you anything," replied JC. "But first things first. How is Jason?" "He started his Chemo and is having a rough time of it," said Justin looking over at Jason to make sure he was sleeping. "He is in so much pain JC," he said sobbing in the phone. "I know you are worried about him Curly," consoled JC. "We just has to hope he'll be alright. You want me to come over?" Justin smiled, that was so like him. He could be over here in a few moments if he wanted to. Maybe talking to him face to face would be better. "Would you?" he pleaded. "Of course I will. I'm leaving now!" he said. "Thanks JC," he mumbled. He heard Jason moan out Kevin's name and he smiled at him. "Ohh Jason if only you thought the same way about me." He leaned down and planted a kiss on his cheek and got up and left the room. In Brian's room. Brian leaned in for a kiss. Nick turned away. "What's wrong Babe?" he asked softly stroking Nick's face. "You!" Nick said loudly. "Me!?" asked Brian shocked. "Yes you!" he said again. "You were to hard on Kevin and Jason!" "Ok let's talk about this," said Brian. "Why do you think I was to hard on them?" "Jason is going through a lot of crap right now and they don't need you judging them," started Nick. "Ok maybe I am judging them a little. But I'm still not comfortable with them being involved with Justin," Brian said shuddering. "What business is it of yours if they are involved in some kind on love triangle?" asked Nick. "I don't know Nick. It just seems weird is all," complained Brian giving up. Nick leaned over and slipped his hand up Brian's shirt and started playing with his nipple. Brian let out a moan and kissed Nick deeply. The doorbell rang and Justin got up and answered it. "Come on in JC," said Justin letting his friend in. They walked into the living room and sat down. "There is more to this than what you said on the phone right?" asked JC. Justin couldn't help but smile. JC was always good at picking up on things like this. He nodded and looked down. "I don't know where to start?" he mumbled. JC reached out and touched his shoulder. Justin jumped a little but relaxed under his touch. "Why don't you start at the beginning?" JC said softly. Justin looked around to see Nick coming out of the bedroom his hair was a mess and he was stripped to the waist. "Let's go out side on the balcony," suggested Justin so the two friends look their conversation out side. "All right Curly enough stalling, spill it," ordered JC firmly. "Well you know I've always liked Jason right?" asked Justin. JC nodded for him to continue. "But what you don't know is that I also have feelings for Kevin too." "Justin," said JC in a stern voice. "They are married and you know that!" "Let me finish please?" he pleaded. JC nodded and leaned back in the chair. "Well this afternoon when we got Jason home he laid down because he was tried. I asked Kevin if I could sit with him. And he said yes so I did. Only Jason started crying in his sleep so I held him for awhile. Only I fell asleep. Next thing I knew Kevin is waking me up," continued Justin. "Oh shit!" exclaimed JC running his hand through his hair. "And you are still alive?" "Kevin was real understanding and all in fact he asked me to join them while they took a nap together," JC's eyes got real big. "Well Jason woke up and freaked when he discovered he was snuggling up to me and not Kevin. Than we started screaming and Brian came rushing in and than every thing got all messed up," finished Justin. "Is this what I think it is?" asked JC. "What do you think?" asked Justin. "Are you in wrapped up in some kind of weird sex thing with two other guys?" asked JC. He was starting to get concerned. "No no JC," Justin quickly spoke up. "No weird sex thing." "That what does it mean?" JC was starting to get confused. "Kevin has feelings for me and so does Jason. They want to include me in their lives," seeing the concerned look on JC face he got up and walked over to the railing. "I love them both," he mumbled. He felt two arms wrap around him and JC's head rested on his shoulder. "OHH, Curly," he whispered. "You are going to get your heart broken again I just know it." "I want to try this JC," he whimpered. JC looked at the young man. He saw a hurt and confused boy trying to figure out where he was headed. "Are you happy?" he asked. "I can be," he said wiping a tear from his face. "Well I am here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on," smiled JC. He had this sinking feeling that poor Justin someone he loved as a brother was going to get hurt by this. Justin nodded and kissed JC on the cheek. They saw that Kevin was back. He walked out on the balcony. "Hi Kevin," said JC. Kevin nodded at him. Kevin still wasn't comfortable with JC. He still didn't trust him although Jason had assured him that JC was fine now. "How is Jason doing?" asked Kevin. "Last I checked on him he was sleeping. He did have an episode of pain but it passed in a few moments," said Justin. "I'm going to head home cause you and Jason have company coming over and I don't want to be---," started Justin. Kevin stopped him with a hand on his shoulder. "Please stay?" he begged. "I don't want to be in the way," insisted Justin. "You're not in the way Justin. Jason and I both want you in our lives. Please stay?" he pleaded again. Justin looked at JC and JC shrugged his shoulders. "Ok I'll stay only if it is not going to cause any problems," agreed Justin. Kevin's face lit up like a light bulb. JC walked up to him and pointed his finger in his face. "Don't hurt him Kevin. If you do you are going to be in a world of hurt!" he said glaring at him. "Don't worry JC I wouldn't dream of hurting him," said Kevin honestly. "Ok JC I've got to meet Lance at his house. Remember we all have a meeting tomorrow to discus the Grammy's," he said heading out the door. "Thanks for coming over JC," Justin shouted at him waving good bye to his friend. Kevin came over and pulled Justin in a hug and planted his lips on Justin's. Justin let out a small moan and wrapped his arms around Kevin's neck and slipped his tongue in his mouth. They heard the door open and broke apart. Chapter 8 "Hi Jas, said Justin walking up to him. "You feeling better?" Jason nodded yes and sat in the couch. "You guys get comfortable while I fix dinner," suggested Kevin heading for the kitchen. "You want some help?" asked Jason. "No, I have it all under control," said Kevin smiling and pushing Jason back down in the couch. He also stole a kiss from him. Jason liked his lips and smiled. "I could get used to this," he said blushing. Justin leaned forward and looked closely at Jason's shoulders. He grabbed something and took it into the kitchen. "Hey!" shouted Jason. "What did you do?" "Kevin," said Justin going up to Kevin. "Take a look at this." Kevin looked at what was in Justin's hand and his eyes filled with tears. "He is already losing his hair Kev," Justin stated pulling Kevin in a hug. "You guys want to tell me what is going on?" asked Jason. Seeing Kevin sobbing in Justin's shoulder he joined the group hug. Planting a kiss on Kevin's cheek. "What's wrong babe?" he asked softly. Justin showed him the pieces of hair he had pulled off of his shoulder. "So it's started," Jason said softly taking the pieces of hair from Justin. "Don't worry Kevin, this is only temporary, it will grow back," soothed Jason rubbing Kevin's shoulder. "I know it will Jas," he sniffled. "But it still upsets me to see you like this." Jason pulled him in a hug and led him to the couch. Justin started work on dinner. "You know Kevin, it's going to get a lot worse before it gets better," Jason told him touching the side of Kevin's face drying his tears. Kevin nodded. "But why does this has to happen to you?" he asked shrugging Jason off. Jason got up and pulled Kevin to him. "I don't know why this has to happen to me," Jason said to Kevin. "I love you." Kevin giggled softly. "Well I do!" Jason insisted with mock hurt. "I love you too Jas," he answered giving Jason a kiss on the cheek. About this time they heard Justin yell for help. Kevin rolled his eyes and ran to the kitchen. "OUT! OUT!" ordered Kevin laughing and pushing Justin out of the kitchen. Justin came back into living room and sat down beside Jason and put his arm around his shoulders. "He Uhh kinda threw me out," complained Justin. "And just why would he do that?" asked Jason smiling though he knew the answer to that one already. "Wellll you see I kinda sorta burned the chicken," admitted Justin in a small voice. Jason laughed and messed up Justin's hair. "AWWWWW man!" whined Justin swatting Jason's hands away. "Now I have to fix my hair." "You two behave in there!" ordered the fatherly tone of Kevin's voice. "Don't want to!" whined Jason lightly smacking Justin on the shoulder. "Dad!" whined Justin. "Jason hit me." "Dad!" yelled Jason trying hard not to bust out laughing. "WHAT?" shouted an annoyed Kevin. Jason and Justin looked at each other and busted up laughing. Kevin just shook his head and went back to cooking. "Hey Jason," said Justin looking sly. "What?" asked Jason looking worried. "You want to play Rogue Squadron?" he asked walking on his knees to the TV and turning on the Nintendo 64 and tossing Jason a controller. Jason and Justin spent the next 30 minutes playing and arguing over whom was the best. Jason beat Justin in three games. Justin at one point decided that he wanted to wrestle so he tackled Jason just as Jason was completing his mission. Kevin walked into the living room growing concerned about the noise level between Jason and Justin. He walked in to see that Justin had Jason in a headlock. Jason was tickling Justin trying to get loose. "A little help would be nice Kevin?" gasped out Justin. "Hey husband dear?" whined Jason reaching out for him. Justin managed to flip Jason over and had him pinned in about two seconds. "YESSSSS!" exclaimed Justin as he jumped around doing a little victory dance not seeing Kevin coming around to the other side of him. Kevin tackled him and had him pinned in a couple of minutes. Jason decided to take pity on Justin for some reason and started to tickle Kevin. Kevin started laughing and that was when Justin made his move and pinned Kevin. The three of them broke apart breathing heavily. Kevin crawled over to Jason and pulled him in an embrace covering Jason's body with his and kissing him deeply. Jason let out a moan and relaxed in Kevin's arms. He allowed Kevin to ravage his mouth with his tongue and his body with his hands. Kevin hadn't been this intimate in a long time and Jason was enjoying it. The doorbell rang and Kevin growled in frustration and broke apart and got to his feet and trotted to the door. He opened it and a young couple walked in. Two young men to be exact. One was wearing a ball cap. You could tell he was the one with the cancer. He was also rail thin. "Hi!" he said cheerfully grabbing Kevin's hand. I'm Jack and this is my husband Tom," he said pointing to the other man standing behind him. "I'm Kevin Richardson and that guy over there is Jason my husband and that is a close friend of the family Justin Timberlake," he said gesturing to the wrestling couple on the living room floor. "They are in child mode right now so you'll have to excuse them." The couple laughed and followed Kevin in the living room. "OK children, company is here time to stop playing," said Kevin tapping Jason on the shoulder. "BUT DAD!" whined Justin. "I was beating him!" Kevin glared at him and Justin let Jason go. He shook hands with Jack and Tom and sat down on the couch. "Hi," said Jason. He was nervous and he sat on the other side of Kevin. Kevin put his arm around Jason. "It will be all right Jas," he whispered in Jason's ear kissing him on the cheek. The five guys talked for a few moments and than got up to go eat. Kevin had fixed a good dinner of Italian Chicken. Jason had gotten some of his appetite back and ate reasonably well to the point that Kevin didn't see the need to bother him. Justin continued with his "let's amuse Jason" by playing footsie under the table. Jason of course joined him in the game. He deliberately ran his foot up Justin's leg so that it rested right on his crotch. Justin was taking a drink of water when Jason started to stroke Justin off through his pants. Justin's eyes got real big and started to laugh. Needless to say he started choking on his water. After getting himself under control he kicked under the table. "OUCH!" shouted Kevin looking under the table to see what had happened. "OOPS sorry Kev," stammered a red faced Justin. Jason just giggled to himself. "So when were you diagnosed?" asked Jack looking at Jason. "Three days ago," answered Jason taking Kevin's hand. "Is it treatable?" asked Tom. "The Doctor seems to think so?" spoke up Kevin. "Jason?" asked Jack anxious to get started. "Do you know why we are here?" "Well I assume it has something to do with this support group," answered Jason. Jack nodded. "How long have you had cancer?" asked Jason. Hey Jack asked first so it was only fair. "I've battling it for almost a year now. They are pretty sure it is in remission," Jack answered looking relieved. "How do you feel about attending a support group like this?" "I'm not to comfortable with spilling my feelings around strangers. But I am willing to do it if it is going to help Kevin and me," he answered truthfully. Kevin gave his hand a squeeze. Justin went to get up but Kevin grabbed his arm and gently pulled him back down. "Please stay?" he asked. "What does Justin have to with this?" asked Tom looking confused. "Justin is a member of this family," stated Kevin. "In what way?" asked Jack raising his eyebrows. "Jason and I love Justin and Justin loves us," answered Kevin. There was a silence for a few moments. "Soooo, what you're telling us is this is a threesome," said Jack slowly. "Do you two have a problem with that?" asked Kevin. "No we are not here to judge, we are here to help you and Jason and now it seems Justin, with Jason's illness," said Jack. Kevin looked over at Jason and he could tell that Jason was getting tired. "Tired Babe?" asked Kevin. "I'm fine Kev," insisted Jason. "First thing you need to do is be honest Jason. If you're tired tell him. If you're sick, tell him. If you need to be held, tell him. And here is the hard part. But it will come. If you need to be alone tell him," said Tom. "I know from experience how hard that is. Jack didn't want to hurt my feelings on days that I wanted to be close to him and he didn't want me anywhere near him. It almost ruined our Marriage." "I could never be away from Kevin or Justin," spoke up Jason a little angry. "You say that now but as the treatments progress you will start to loose your sex drive and you will start feeling claustrophobic. Not to mention that you will feel like crap for most of the time. Take some space to yourself if you start feeling this way and you two," gesturing to Kevin and Justin. "Give Jason the space he needs. Trust me it will save your Marriage," said Jack. All three of the nodded silently. "You and Justin need to be prepared for the future. The Jason that was wrestling with you tonight, well let's just say he is going away for awhile. That is not to say that he won't have his good days. But unfortunately the bad ones will outnumber the good," Jack started but stop when he saw Kevin put his head in his hand sobbing. Jack waited a few moments as Jason comforted his husband. When Kevin finally calmed down enough to continue Jack continued. "You three are very lucky to have such a powerful love. I see how you lean on each other. But be warned it won't be an easy road." "I hear allot of gloom and doom from you guys," complained Justin speaking for the first time. "I mean you two seem very happy." "We believe in honesty, friend!" said Tom a little harshly but soften his tone quickly when Jack put a restraining hand on his shoulder. "What Jack and I have took months of hard work and tough love. The last 10 months were hell. I had to sit back and watch my baby suffer through those fucking chemo and radiation treatments. I watched his hair fall out. He was throwing up all the time. He lost weight. In 6 months he went from 172 to 120 pounds. Everytime he suffered I suffered right along with him. Oh he tried to get rid of me but I wouldn't leave his side. I wont ever do that. The person who leaves someone alone to suffer what he's gone through doesn't deserve to live!" Tom was sobbing now and Jack was holding him. Jason looked over at Kevin. Kevin's chair was empty. Looking around he saw him standing at the balcony his shoulders' shaking as his body was wracked with sobs. Jason got and headed out in the cool night air. Out on the balcony. "OOHH Benjamin!" Kevin sobbed. "I was such a coward back then." "Was Benjamin your first husband?" asked Jason coming up behind him sliding his arms around Kevin's waist. Kevin jumped at first but relaxed when he discovered who it was. "SHHHH Baby," soothed Jason kissing the back of his neck. "You're not that person any longer. You are a kind and loving and wonderful person. And I thank God every day that you bumped into me." "How can you love me when I did that to someone," said Kevin so softly that Jason almost didn't hear him. Jason turned him around so that he was looking at him in the face. "For better or for worse I love you. "In sickness and in health I love you, and in richer and for poorer I love you and into eternity I love you!" said Jason with such emotion that it shook Kevin to his very soul. "Now this is your life now. Here and now you have decision to make. I don't want to know what happened to Benjamin nor do I want to know how horrible Kevin Richardson was those years ago. Because Benjamin is dead and believe it or not he forgives you. And that Kevin is no longer alive either. The Kevin I have before me is a kind and loving Kevin and he would never leave me! Kevin Scott Richardson, will you stand by me as I am standing by you through this fucking cancer?" asked Jason with tears streaming down his face. "Yes I will," said Kevin with new conviction. He smiled down at Jason and leaned in for a kiss. "Only let's get one thing straight mister," he said grinning. "And what is that?" asked Jason grinning to. "You bumped into me!" laughed Kevin pulling Jason in a tight hug. They stood there in silence for a few moments enjoying the company of each other. Jason leaned against Kevin laying his head on his chest. "Mmmmm," sighed Jason. "My favorite music." "What music?" Kevin asked. "I don't hear any music," smiling down at Jason. "Oh yes there is Kevin," sighed Jason. Jason soon fell asleep in Kevin's arms and Kevin picked him up and carried him back into the apartment and into the bedroom. After making sure that Jason was tucked in he joined the guests. "How is he?" asked Justin. "He is sleeping. He has had an interesting day," Kevin said yawning himself. Jack and Tom took the hint. "I think we need to be going too," said Tom. "Jack needs his rest too." So the couple left and Kevin and Justin was left alone. Justin laid his head in Kevin's lap. Kevin ran his hand through Justin's hair. Justin let out a small tired moan. Kevin laughed softly. "It seems that maybe Jason wore you out," he commented wryly. Justin nodded and wrapped his arms around Kevin's waist snuggling up to him and closing his eyes. Late that night. Jason woke up in a cold sweat. He sat up in bed trying to call for Kevin but couldn't. His voice was rough and he needed some water. Climbing out of bed he discovered that he was sleeping alone. He shuffled out of the bedroom and into the living area. Going to the kitchen he opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of water. Removing the cap he made his way to the living room. He saw Kevin and Justin on the couch asleep. Justin looked very confortable laying in Kevin's lap. Kevin on the other hand did not look so comfortable. He reached out and gently shook Kevin's shoulder. Kevin opened his eyes and smiled sleepily up at Jason. Carefully laying Justin's head on a pillow Kevin and Jason headed back into the bedroom. Kevin frowned when he saw the soaked sheets. "Let's change these sheets and get you in the shower," advised Kevin. Jason started to argue. "I just want to go back to bed--," he started. Kevin put a finger on his lips. "You'll feel better after a shower and clean sheets Jas," he soothed. So Jason let Kevin have his way and grabbed a clean pair of boxers and headed to the bathroom. As Kevin changed the sheets he noticed that Jason had lost even more hair. At this rate Jason would be bald inside of a month. He shook his head sadly as he thought of the prospect of his baby's hair all gone. He tried to remind himself that it would only temporary. After he got the bed made with fresh sheets he smiled slyly to himself and crept into the bathroom. Quickly removing his clothes he slipped into the shower. "So you decided to join me?" asked Jason smiling widely. Kevin nodded quietly leaning against the shower wall admiring the view. "Like what you see?" Kevin nodded reaching and taking Jason's cock in his hand. A shiver went up Jason's spine and he let out a small moan. Kevin started to slowly and gently stroke him off. Jason reached for Kevin's cock but found Kevin's hand in it place. "Please let me give you pleasure first," pleaded Kevin as he dropped to his knees and catching Jason's cock in his mouth. Kevin started bobbing on Jason's cock. Jason let out a moan grabbing Kevin's head and holding it inplace. "Ohh God Kevin!" he rasped out. "That feels so good." He felt the orgasm growing. He didn't know how the chemo would affect the taste so he gently removed a reluctant Kevin off the of his cock and let him finish with his hand. He shot his load all over the wall. Kevin gathered Jason up in a loving embrace slowly dancing to the music their heats made to each other. It wasn't long before Jason was asleep again. So Kevin dried him off and carried him into the bedroom. He climbed in beside him and spooned him holding him safe through the night. In a bar across town. Luke walked into a dark room. The owner had guided him to this room. He looked around the dimly lighted room trying to find the person he was supposed to be seeing. He hated not having the advantage. "Over here Blondie!" ordered a female's voice. He saw her sitting by a fireplace. He made his way over to the table and sat down. "Well I'm here, what can I do for you?" he asked. "Reach under your chair," the female instructed. He did and found a briefcase and he pulled it out and placed it on the table. "Go ahead and open it. I think you will like what you find in it. If you do we can discuss business." He fumbled at the latch and finally opened it. It was full of money. "What the hell is this?" he demanded. "You don't like money?" she asked. He tried to get a good look at her but the light was not good in the room. "Quit trying to get a look at me. If you and I can work together than you can see my face. Now back to my original question. Do you like money?" she asked impatiently "Of course I like money!" he retorted. "Good conquered this an advance. I want you to do a job for me. You will find instructions in the briefcase," she said . Her voice sent ice daggers up his spine. He shuddered at the sound. "It involves a certain Backstreet Boy and his Husband!" she said saying the last word like it was poison. "Kevin and Jason," he said with equal distaste. "So we can work together," she stated. He nodded, "Good than let us toast our alliance," she said pushing a drink in his direction. "Just who are you?" he asked taking drink. "All in good time Luke," she whispered as she walked by him humming "Crazy" to herself. After she left the room Luke was left with his thoughts. "How come I get the impression I've just made a deal with the devil?" he thought out loud. She walked into her study. She opened her diary and a picture of Jason fell out. "You will finally pay for what you did to me and my career," she seethed at him slamming the diary shut sending dust in the air. Jason groaned and turned over. Kevin let out an amused laugh. He enjoyed mornings like this one. He was up to his tricks again. Kissing Jason awake a task that he was enjoying intirely too much. He had started on Jason's forehead and when that didn't work he moved to his eyes than his nose than his lips. Jason was sleeping rather soundly this morning and he would miss his appointment with his agent if he didn't soon get up. "Come on Kevin," he whined. "Just a few more moments?" he begged. Kevin smiled down at his angel. "OK Babe," he relented. "Maybe I can get him to come to the apartment." Climbing out of bed he went to Jason's dresser and pulled out his organizer and found his agent's number. After a few moments he convinced Jason's agent to come over. He made his way to the Kitchen to find that Justin had made his way there first. "Morning Justin," he said smiling him leaning in for a quick kiss. Justin wrapped his arms around Kevin's bare waist and pulled him close. Kevin nose wrinkled as he sniffed the air. "Where are they?" he demanded looking around. "Where is what?" Justin asked innocently. "Muffins!" Kevin exclaimed. "I smell muffins!" Justin laughed and pointed the covered basket on the counter. Kevin swiped one and bit into it. Justin laughed again and poured Kevin a cup of coffee. "Is Jason awake yet?" he asked handing Kevin the cup. "He wants to sleep in this morning," Kevin mumbled through a mouth of blue berry muffin. "But he'll have to get up in a little bit cause his agent is coming over in a couple of hours. "I woke up alone," mumbled Justin. "Jason got up in the middle of the night. He had another fever. I slept the rest of the night with him," Kevin said taking a drink of coffee. "I missed you," Justin said laying his head on Kevin's shoulder. "You could've joined us you know," Kevin insisted. "I didn't want to interfere with your time with Jason," explained Justin. "I keep telling you Babe, you are part of our lives now. We love you and want you to be part of us. Don't feel like you are intruding on us because you are not," said Kevin looking Justin's eyes. "Now how about you and I go wake up sleeping beauty?" Kevin said getting a mischievous glint in his eyes. "What are you going to do to him?" asked Justin getting a little worried. "You'll see," giggled Kevin as he headed to the bedroom dragging a reluctant Justin with him. In a one bedroom apartment across town. "Hey babe," whispered Luke. "It's time to get up." He was talking to a dark haired man laying in bed with him. The man groaned and turned over and smiled at Luke. "Well it is good to see you finally awake," said Luke. "Are you hungry?" he asked. The man nodded yes. Luke got up and headed into the kitchen and made a Breakfast shake. He went to the cubbard and took out a bottle of pills and removed one and opened it and poured the powder in the shake. "Can't have him getting his memory back just yet now can we?" he said stirring the shake before heading back to the bedroom. "Yes Kevin my friend I am about to set your safe little married life upside down!" he laughed softly to himself. "Hey Luke," spoke up the man. "You coming with my breakfast?" He was confused. Always wondered why Luke insisted on him drinking these shakes. "Oh well my baby loves me and that is all that matters," he said aloud to himself. As he stood to go to the bathroom he got a dizzy spell. He grabbed the side of the door for support. He heard a voice in his head. He shook it off, "What the hell is going on?" he asked himself. By this time Luke came in carrying the shake. "Here you go Babe," said Luke smiling. He handed him the shake and the man drank it down. "There now you are ready to face the world again," said Luke happily. Back at Kevin's Apartment "Mann," whined Justin. "We are going to get into trouble." "SHHHHH," ordered Kevin holding a glass of water as he crept towards the door. "This is going to be great!" He grabbed the handle and flung open the door and snuck inside. SPLASHH!! "What the fuck!" yelped Kevin. Both he and Justin were soaked to the skin. They heard Jason laughing his head off pointing at them. "What did you do that for?" demanded Kevin wiping the water off of him. Justin was laughing too for he knew that Kevin deserved it. "Oh yea and you were just going to bring me a glass of water do drink right?" said Jason with his hands crossed. "Well kinda," said Kevin looking down at the now empty glass. "Yea right!" laughed Jason as he headed out into the kitchen leaving the soaked would be pranksters to themselves. "Well wise guy I hope you are happy," said Justin grabbing a towel from the bathroom drying himself off. Kevin just stood there looking at Justin allowing his mind to wonder over the younger man's body. "Is it possible to love two men at the same time?" he asked placing his hand on Justin's chest. Justin found himself drawn to him. His lips moving closer to Kevin's. Soon they were wrapped in each other's arms kissing with such passion that they didn't see the door open. "Can any one join this or is this a private party?" asked Jason. Kevin grabbed Jason hand and drags him into the circle pressing his lips to Jason's. Kevin was shocked to find that his boxers were being lowered. So was Jason. The married couple looked down in shock as Justin moved from one cock to another. As Justin sucked off Kevin and Jason they kissed each other moaning and groaning into each other's mouths. Kevin was the first to cum. Justin eagerly swallowed down Kevin's load. Jason followed soon after Kevin and Justin swallowed his too. The three broke apart and stared at each other. Justin remained on his knees looking up at his two lovers. "Wow!!" breathed Jason. "What just happened here?" he asked. "I think our relationship just moved to the next level," said Kevin. "Are you ok with this?" he asked both Justin and Jason. Jason's eyes filled with tears and ran into the bathroom. "Oh God what did I do?" asked Justin staring at the closed bathroom door. Kevin wrapped his arms around Justin. "I'll talk to him Justin," soothed Kevin. "I promise to make it better." Justin nodded and left the bedroom. "I have a meeting with the guys," he said. "How long will you be gone?" asked Kevin. "Only for an hour at the most. Why?" he asked. "Well I have to leave at 12 today and will be gone overnight. I really don't want to leave Jason home alone," Kevin explained. "I'll stay with him," Justin offered as he headed out the door. Kevin walked to the bathroom and opened the door. He saw Jason sitting on the counter with his back to the door. "Want some company?" he asked going up to him and sliding his arm around Jason's waist. Jason turned around and buried his head in Kevin's shoulder sobbing. "You want to talk about it?" he asked. "I betrayed you," he sobbed. "How?" asked Kevin. Jason looked up at him with guilt-ridden eyes. "Because I enjoyed it!" he sobbed out. Kevin let out a small laugh. "I don't think this one bit funny!" Jason hurled at him. "I love you and only you!" "Ok so you enjoyed it," said Kevin. "I enjoyed it too Babe." Jason got down from the counter and headed into the bedroom. "I love you both," he whispered. "I don't want to loose you though." "I love him too," whispered Jason looking down in shame. "I shouldn't but I do love him. Is that wrong?" he asked with pleading eyes. "I was always taught that you should love only one person. Why do I love him?" "Probably the same reason I love him," explained Kevin. "Because he is great guy. Wonder sense of humor and very kind. Not to mention he has a great body," he finished with a grin. Jason laughed a little too. "The point is we that we both love each other in a special way that will never touch Justin. He knows that and he will never try to get in the way of what we have." Kevin and Jason talked some more when the doorbell interrupted them. "That would be your agent. I convinced him to come by the apartment to discuss your next screen play," said Kevin going to the door. He opened the door and let the Agent in. "Kevin honey I want you to meet my Agent Daniel," spoke up Jason. "Daniel, meet my husband Kevin Richardson." Daniel nodded at Kevin and walked right up to Jason. "Jason you look like crap!" Daniel said grabbing Jason by the shoulders. "I thought I told you take better care of yourself." "Well, there is a reason for why I look like this," started Jason. Jason and Kevin went on to explain the situation to Daniel. After the finished explaining it to him Daniel said he understood. "So Jason, want to tell me what the next screen play is going to be? The public is crying for another one like The Medic," asked Daniel taking a cup of coffee from Kevin. "Well the Title is going to be "Trail of Tears," said Jason. He let Daniel think about the title for a few moments before continuing. "It is a historic movie about a young Indian brave and his family as they are forced to relocate," he explained. He noticed that Kevin was leaning forward listening intently. "Sounds good," said Daniel. "I'll start lining up some people to take a look at it. If it is anything like your last one you'll have no problem finding a market for it." Daniel finished up talking with Jason and rushed off for another meeting. Kevin went into the kitchen to clean up. When he was done he wondered out into living room to look for Jason. He couldn't find him any where. So he headed into his study, if he knew Jason he would be working at the computer writing or doing research. He was worried about Jason because he had seen Jason like this. Jason had an idea rattling around in his head and he would not rest until he had it down on paper. He peeked into the study and sure enough there was Jason engrossed in the web. Kevin crept up behind and caught what was on the screen. It was a web page on "The Trail of Tears" smiling and shaking his head he placed his hands on Jason's shoulders. Jason let out a small scream and jumped. "Jesus Kevin!" he exclaimed. "You scared the shit out of me!" Kevin let out a small laugh and Jason smacked him on the shoulder. "Whatcha doing?" he asked leaning over Jason's shoulder reading. "Doing some research is all," commented Jason as he continued to scroll down the page. "Man they sure didn't treat them very well back then did they?" asked Kevin. Jason shook his head no. "Not very talkative are you?" Kevin asked. Jason sighed, he knew he would not get anything done if he didn't pay attention to Kevin. Once Kevin made up his mind that he wanted attention it was impossible to ignore him. So he gave up on getting any work done. He turned around in the chair and turned himself over to Kevin's care. Kevin grinned because he got his way and sat in Jason's lap and wrapped his arms around his neck and kissed him. "You are a brat!" Jason stated matter of factly. Kevin raised his eyebrows in mock hurt. "Me a brat!" he asked pointing at himself. Jason giggled and kissed him again. "Yes you are a Brat!" he giggled again. "I just wanted to spend some time with you before I left for the Grammy Awards," Kevin said pouting. "I wish I could go with you," Jason mumbled quietly looking down. Kevin took his chin and looked him in the eye. "You need to stay home and take care of yourself Babe," he lightly scolded Jason. "And that means not spending every waking moment at the computer," he added turning the computer off. Jason glared at him for a few moments and Kevin just glared right back at him. Jason knew that Kevin would not give up until he got his way. "Four hours a day," he bargained. "One hour," Kevin bargained back. "Three hours no more," laughed Jason. Kevin glared at him. "Two hours and that is my final offer," he said crossing his arms across his chest. "Two and a half," tried Jason. Kevin shook his head no. "Oh alright two hours it is than," Jason finally agreed. "Sooo," Jason said shyly. "Soooo what?" asked Kevin. "We are all alone," Jason said. "You know you are right, God we haven't been alone like this in a long time. So what do you want to do?" Kevin asked. "I want to go for a walk," Jason said. "Are you sure you're up to it?" asked Kevin worried. "Come on please?" he begged. Kevin threw back his head and laughed. "Ok, but I have to be back by noon. Our plane leaves at two," said Kevin grabbing Jason's hand and pulling him out the door. Once outside they headed for the park. "I'm going to miss you," spoke up Jason interupting their silence. "I hate being alone." "Justin will be here until tomorrow evening," Kevin said soothingly. "He loves you." Jason didn't say anything just letting his silence speak for him. "You want to talk about it?" Kevin asked sitting on a bench. He could tell that Jason was getting tired. "I have feelings for him too. But I just can't shake the feeling that I am betraying you," Jason said looking at Kevin. "you're not betraying me Baby," insisted Kevin. "I love you just as much before Justin came into the picture." "Justin wants to have sex with me," Jason said in a small voice. "How do you feel about that?" asked Kevin. "Honestly?" Jason asked. "Yes Jason how do you honestly feel about it. And don't worry about hurting my feelings," said Kevin leaning down for a quick kiss. "I would love to have sex with him," admitted Jason. "Than if you want to have sex with him than do it," said Kevin. "Trust me Babe I wont get angry at you. I want us to have an open relationship." He noticed that Jason started to shiver. "Right now I think we need to get you back home and get you warm." The two lovers headed back to Kevin's apartment. Both of them had a lot on their minds. Once back to the apartment they spent the next hour and a half making love. Justin came back from his meeting and crept into the bedroom and found the couple wrapped in eachothers arms asleep. He looked at he clock and saw that it was noon. "Kev?" he asked softly. Kevin opened his eyes. "Hi Justin," he said sleepily. He looked at the clock and scrambled out of bed. "Shit!" he exclaimed. "I'm late!" He ran around the room throwing on clothes and grabbing his luggage. Jason woke up and got up to help Kevin get out the door. "I'm going to miss you Kevin," whimpered Jason burying his head in his shoulder. "I'll be back in a couple of days Jas," Kevin tried to soothe him. Brian came running in the door. "Come on Kevin!" he yelled. "We're running behind!" Kevin grabbed Jason in a hug and kissed him one last time before leaving. Jason wondered back into the living room and sat down on the couch. Justin sat down beside him. "So it is just us two," commented Justin. Jason nodded and leaned against Justin so that his head was on his shoulder. "You miss him don't you?" he asked stroking Jason's hair. Jason nodded sobbing quietly. Justin scooted down so that Jason was laying his head in Justin's lap. Justin took the comforter that was laying over the couch and laid it over Jason. At some point Justin fell asleep holding Jason. On the Plane "Hey Kev," said Nick slapping him on the back. "Whatcha doing?" he asked extremely hyper. Nick always acted this way when he was bored. Kevin rolled his eyes and resigned himself to spending some time with Nick that way Nick would eventually leave him alone. Kevin scooted over and let Nick sit beside him. "Not much Nick, just thinking is all," he mumbled looking out the window. "You worried about Jason?" he asked. Kevin nodded, "Well if I know Justin they are probably wrapped up in some kind of nintendo war or something." "That is what I am afraid of, Jason needs his rest, he doesn't need to be playing games all day," he grumbled. "How come I get the impression that you're not looking forward to this gig?" asked Nick. "Well for one thing my husband is sick and alone and I really don't feel like celebrating right now!" he said harshly. Nick looked a little hurt at the harsh tone Kevin used. "Sorry Nick," he mumbled. "Hey it's all cool!" said Nick trying to convince Kevin that he wasn't hurt. Kevin assured Nick that he wasn't mad. Nick got up to go back to Brian when the jet lurched downward. A horrible scream filled the air. The scream that only metal could make when it was being ribbed apart. "Get down!" screamed the stewardess. The sight of Nick flying through the air as the cabin lost pressure was the last thing Kevin saw before he was hit in the back of the head. Darkness descended down upon him. His last thought was, "Jason!" Jason was dreaming peacefully as he slept in Justin lap. Kevin and he was walking along a peaceful beach. No words were needed to convey each other's love. Jason looked up into Kevin's eyes and saw love. The love was quickly replaced with fear. Kevin was being pulled away from Jason. Jason tried to hold on but couldn't. "JASON!!" screamed Kevin in Jason's head. "KEVIN!!" screamed Jason as he fought to sit up. He accidently hit Justin the mouth. "Kevin!" he shouted again. "Kevin is on a plane Jason," said Justin rubbing his mouth. "Something is wrong with him," sobbed Jason. "I just got this horrible feeling. He as calling for me." Jason got up and turned on the TV. CNN was on and a newscaster was standing outside of an airport. Emergency vehicles were racing down a runway. "We have just received confirmation that a plane carrying several of the Grammy nominees has developed diffilculties and is making an emergency landing. We have a life report from inside the plane where one of our reporter is talking to us via phone. John?" asked the Reporter. "Are you there?" "Yes I am here, the cabin has lost pressure--," started the reporter. "NICK," shouted Brian's voice in the Back ground. "Hold on Nick! Don't let go!" There was another screeching of metal and the line went dead. "Come on Justin," ordered Jason going into full panic mode. "We've got to help them!" **************************************************************************** Well I hate to do this again. But That is it for this installment. E-mail me and let me know what you think? e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com