Date: Mon, 6 Mar 2000 07:03:20 -0800 (PST) From: Francis O'Ratigan <frnceso@yahoo.com> Subject: Rude Awakening Chapters 9 & 10 Rude Awakening Chapter 9 & 10 Copyright 2000 by Francis O'Ratigan All rights reserved. With the exceptions of short excerpts for critical reviews, no part of this work may be reproduced in any manner whatsoever without permission in writing from the Author. This is fiction and in no way reflects the actual views of real persons WOW!!! I got my first negative comment on my story. Now I know that some people would be upset by this. But a true writer would welcome critical feedback along with the positive feedback. I can't thank you enough for taking my writing seriously. Wow!! This guy is serious!! I've been told to remove Justin from the love Triangle or I will lose a reader. The majority of my readers like where the story is headed so I intend to keep it going. Like I have always said in the past. Remember that your input decides the course of the story. While I am on the subject of readers, I would like to extend a heart-felt thank you Send your comments to tnagitar@yahoo.com Previously on Rude Awakening This will never work," said Justin in a small voice. "It could work if we wanted it too," insisted Kevin. "Ok I have a compromise. No sex unless you and Jason want to. But I still want to be a part of your life. I am sure that Jason wants to be a part of your life too." "Yes I would love to be a part of your life Justin," spoke up Jason. *********************************************************************** "What it means is that all three of us have deep feelings for each other. Where that will lead no one knows. But we are sharing something here and we want to continue it," spoke up Justin. Kevin walked up to him and kissed him on the lips and than walked over to Jason and kissed him too. "Ohh God, I can't watch this!" groaned Brian as he walked into his bedroom slamming the door. "I don't pretend to understand this. But if you guys are happy than I'll butt out of it," relented Nick walking into Brian's room. ********************************************************************** Justin leaned forward and looked closely at Jason's shoulders. He grabbed something and took it into the kitchen. "Hey!" shouted Jason. "What did you do?" "Kevin," said Justin going up to Kevin. "Take a look at this." Kevin looked at what was in Justin's hand and his eyes filled with tears. "He is already losing his hair Kev," Justin stated pulling Kevin in a hug. "You guys want to tell me what is going on?" asked Jason. Seeing Kevin sobbing in Justin's shoulder he joined the group hug. Planting a kiss on Kevin's cheek. "What's wrong babe?" he asked softly. Justin showed him the pieces of hair he had pulled off of his shoulder. "So it's started," Jason said softly taking the pieces of hair from Justin. "Don't worry Kevin, this is only temporary, it will grow back," soothed Jason rubbing Kevin's shoulder. "I know it will Jas," he sniffled. "But it still upsets me to see you like this." *********************************************************************** "First thing you need to do is be honest Jason. If you're tired tell him. If you're sick, tell him. If you need to be held, tell him. And here is the hard part. But it will come. If you need to be alone tell him," said Tom. "I know from experience how hard that is. Jack didn't want to hurt my feelings on days that I wanted to be close to him and he didn't want me anywhere near him. It almost ruined our Marriage." "I could never be away from Kevin or Justin," spoke up Jason a little angry. "You say that now but as the treatments progress you will start to loose your sex drive and you will start feeling claustrophobic. Not to mention that you will feel like crap for most of the time. Take some space to yourself if you start feeling this way and you two," gesturing to Kevin and Justin. "Give Jason the space he needs. Trust me it will save your Marriage," said Jack. All three of the nodded silently. "You and Justin need to be prepared for the future. The Jason that was wrestling with you tonight, well let's just say he is going away for awhile. That is not to say that he won't have his good days. But unfortunately the bad ones will outnumber the good," Jack started but stop when he saw Kevin put his head in his hand sobbing. Jack waited a few moments as Jason comforted his husband. When Kevin finally calmed down enough to continue Jack continued. "You three are very lucky to have such a powerful love. I see how you lean on each other. But be warned it won't be an easy road." *********************************************************************** "Good consider this an advance. I want you to do a job for me. You will find instructions in the briefcase," she said. Her voice sent ice daggers up his spine. He shuddered at the sound. "It involves a certain Backstreet Boy and his Husband!" she said saying the last word like it was poison. "Kevin and Jason," he said with equal distaste. "So we can work together," she stated. He nodded, "Good than let us toast our alliance," she said pushing a drink in his direction. "Just who are you?" he asked taking drink. "All in good time Luke," she whispered as she walked by him humming "Crazy" to herself. *********************************************************************** The man nodded yes. Luke got up and headed into the kitchen and made a Breakfast shake. He went to the cubbard and took out a bottle of pills and removed one and opened it and poured the powder in the shake. "Can't have him getting his memory back just yet now can we?" he said stirring the shake before heading back to the bedroom. "Yes Kevin my friend I am about to set your safe little married life upside down!" he laughed softly to himself *********************************************************************** "Something is wrong with him," sobbed Jason. "I just got this horrible feeling. He as calling for me." Jason got up and turned on the TV. CNN was on and a newscaster was standing outside of an airport. Emergency vehicles were racing down a runway. "We have just received confirmation that a plane carrying several of the Grammy nominees has developed difficulties and is making an emergency landing. We have a live report from inside the plane where one of our reporters is talking to us via phone. John?" asked the Reporter. "Are you there?" "Yes I am here, the cabin has lost pressure--," started the reporter. "NICK," shouted Brian's voice in the Back ground. "Hold on Nick! Don't let go!" There was another screeching of metal and the line went dead. "Come on Justin," ordered Jason going into full panic mode. "We've got to help them!" *********************************************************************** Now begins Chapter 9 "Nick hold on!" shouted Brian. The plane started its descent to the runway. A huge gaping whole ran the whole length of the first class section of the plane. Nick was hanging on to a piece of metal and was in danger of being sucked out of the plane. Brian inched his way towards Nick. AJ and Howie were also trying to reach him. Brian got to him first and grabbed on to Nick's hand and started to pull him to safety. AJ and Howie reached Brain and helped pull Nick to safety. After getting themselves strapped into their seats and the O2 masks on they looked around and spotted Kevin. He was slumped forward in the seat out cold. Blood was streaming down the side of his face. One of the flight attendants reached him and slipped the o2 mask on him. He let out a moan and looked around dazed. "Kevin, don't worry you'll be all right!" shouted Brian through his o2 mask. Kevin nodded although he couldn't hear a thing. He got the impression that every thing was going to be fine. He heaved a sigh of relief when he felt the wheels hit the runway. At Kevin's apartment. Justin was trying to calm Jason down and wasn't having much success in doing so. "Jason you need to calm your ass down!" shouted Justin. "I don't own an ass and I don't have time to calm down. I need to pack so I and go rescue Kevin!" yelled Jason as he tore around the bedroom throwing things in a suitcase. The phone rang and Justin picked it up. "Hello," he spoke into the phone. "Hey Justin!" said Kevin on the other end. "Give the phone to Jason." "Oh my God Kevin!" exclaimed Justin. "Thank God you are alright!" He handed the phone to Jason. "Jason!" He shouted at him. "It's Kevin on the phone! He wants to talk to you. Jason rolled his eyes and grabbed the phone from Justin. "Hey Kevin, I don't have time to talk right now. I'm busy packing so I can go and rescue you," he said. He handed the phone back to Justin after he hung up on poor Kevin. Justin looked at Jason in shock. "Uhh Jason?" he asked. "What?" shouted Jason. Justin was getting on his nerves. He was trying to get packed so he could get to Kevin. "Uhh you kinda hung up on Kevin," Justin said starting to laugh. "I know I hung up on him I have to pack so I can go and --- and --- and," he stuttered. "Uhh Justin, was that Kevin on the phone?" he asked. Justin nodded smiling trying not to laugh. "Oh my God! Oh my God!" sobbed Jason. "I hung up on my husband!" wailed Jason. "He must think I am completely nuts!" Jason put his head in his hands sobbing. He didn't hear the phone ring. He felt a tapping on his shoulder. He looked up to see Justin smiling down at him handing him the phone. He took it, "Uhhh hi?" he said sheepishly. "Hi babe," giggled Kevin. "Uhh why did you hang up on me?" he asked. Jason could tell by the sound of his voice that he was grinning from ear to ear. "I don't know," Jason admitted. "Never mind that! Don't you ever do that to me again!" he shouted into the phone. "I almost lost you dammit!!" "Jas----," started Kevin. "And don't you Jas me mister, for now on no more planes for you do you hear me? And I am on my way to meet you and to keep you safe and - and- and-," Jason broke down sobbing uncontrollably as the realization hit him that Kevin was safe and sound. Justin wrapped his arms around Jason and rocked him making comforting noises in his ear. Justin heard Kevin frantic voice on the phone. "Kevin?" he said into the phone. "Can you hold for a moment? Jason is having a rough time getting himself together." He looked down at Jason. "Jas?" he asked softly. "Are you all right now? Cause Kevin is really getting worried about you and he really wants to talk to you." Jason nodded and Justin handed the phone back to Jason. "Kevin?" he asked. "Yea Babe, I'm right here," said that smooth and sexy voice. "I am so sorry I scared you," he sniffled. "I'm sorry I hung up on you," Jason sniffled back. Kevin choked back a laugh. "You know that Brian and Nick will never let you live that one down," he giggled. "I'm just glad that they are alive to tease me about it," Jason giggled back. "How is everyone? Did you get hurt?" Jason asked suddenly worried. "Yea every one is fine, no one got hurt," Kevin told him. "I'm coming to be with you Kev," Jason said preparing for a fight. "Jason I don't want you to travel in your--," started Kevin. "Don't try and stop me Kevin!" said Jason a little loud. "I need to hold you tonight!" There was silence on the other end. "Kevin?" asked Jason. "Yes Jason I'm still here," Kevin said. "Are you going to stop me from coming?" Jason asked. "No Jas, I'm not going to try and stop you. I want you to come," Kevin relented. "Can I talk to Justin?" "Are you going to try to talk Justin into stopping me from coming?" asked Jason. "No Babe," sighed Kevin trying not to laugh. "I am not going to try stop you from coming. I just want him to come with you." Jason handed the phone to Justin and headed back into the bedroom to resume packing. Once inside he looked at the bed. "Just a few moments of napping than I'll get up and finish packing," he said aloud to himself. He lay down on the bed and picked up Kevin's pillow and buried his face into inhaling deeply Kevin's scent. Closing his eyes he nodded off to sleep. "Justin," Kevin said into the phone. "Yea Kevin I'm here," answered Justin. "Where is Jason?" he asked. "He is in the bedroom packing, why?" Justin asked confused. "Cause I need you to try and keep him home. He doesn't need to travel," pleaded Kevin. "I don't know Kevin, you know how Jason can be," Justin said uncertain. He walked over to the bedroom door and peeked in. "Uhh actually it might be easier than I thought. He is asleep right now." "Good keep him that way," Kevin said hopefully. "Ok Kevin I will," Justin assured him. "I love you Kevin." "I love you to Babe," he said hanging up. Justin went back into the bedroom and drew the blinds and turned out the lights and closed the door. It was going to be a long night. He went into the living room and lay down on the couch to watch TV. At the hotel Kevin plopped down on his bed and closed his eyes. He thought about the close call he had. In just a few seconds his life could've changed forever. He turned over and looked where Jason would've been if he were home. His heart ached for Jason's touch. He reached for the phone to call Justin back and ask him to bring Jason with him. "No!" he scolded himself loudly. "Jason needs his rest. And this trip would be too stressful for him." He swung out of bed and walked across the hall to Brian's room and knocked on the door. "It's open!" shouted Brian. Kevin opened the door and walked in. Sighing he plopped down on the bed next to his cousin. "Want to talk about it?" he asked raising an eyebrow. Kevin was never this evasive. Whenever he had something to say he just came out and said it. "I miss him," Kevin mumbled. Brian turned around so that he was facing his cousin. "I want him with me." "You know that it wouldn't be good for him to travel like this," said Brian. Kevin nodded. "Are you upset about the plane ride?" To his surprise Kevin started laughing. "Pray tell, what is so funny?" asked Brian. Kevin told Brian what Jason had done when he talked to him on the phone. And even Brian had to laugh. "Well I have some ammunition to pick on him now," he giggled. "He starting to loose his hair," Kevin commented. "Well that is going to happen Kevin," said Brian pulling his cousin in a hug. "But this soon?" Kevin asked tearing up. "I hate what this cancer is doing to him." "Well you love him very much. He is part of your life now. So it stands to reason that this would hurt you," comforted Brian. "But you have to be careful Kevin." Brian warned him, for he knew that Kevin could easily slip into a depression like he did when his first husband died. "I am not going to sink into another depression Brian, you don't have to worry about me," sighed Kevin. "I am going to worry about you Kev, you are family and family watches out for one another," insisted Brian. "Thanks Brian I needed that," said Kevin. "Uhh can I stay with you tonight? I really don't feel like being alone tonight." "Sure Kevin," said Brian. "I'll order dinner and a movie." ---------------------------------------------------- The Next Day In another room. Luke through back his head and let out a moan as he shot his load down the young man's throat. "Oh God Ben! That was so good!" he gasped out slowly coming down from his orgasmic high. He reached for Ben's cock and guided it down his throat letting the head tickle the back of his throat. Ben let out groan and started thrusting in and out. Luke hated sucking cock but did it to keep Ben around. If he plan was going to work he had keep Ben on a short leash. Ben blasted his load down Luke's throat. Luke struggled with the urge of spitting it out but managed to swallow. Both men collapsed on the bed breathing heavily. "You are to good to me Luke," said Ben trying to catch his breath. He reached over and stroked Luke's well-defined chest. Luke let out a small moan as Ben's lips found his nipple. "I gotta go to the bathroom," said Luke lightly brushing Ben aside. Once inside he rammed his finger down his throat and bent over the toilet. After he was done he looked at himself in the mirror. "God Luke what a fucking slut you are!" he sneered at himself. But than he thought of Kevin and what he had in store for him. He heard Ben calling for him. He rolled his eyes and headed back into the bedroom. As he walked in he spotted Ben's ass sticking up in the air. His dick got hard almost at once. He hopped over and rammed his cock up Ben's ass in one thrust. Ben threw back his head and let out a scream. Luke held on ramming in and out. Now fucking he could do. He took pleasure in screwing Ben's brains out. After about five minutes of fucking he shot his load up his ass and pulled out wiping the excess off on Ben's ass cheek. "I'm going to get showered and ready to go eat. You coming?" he asked looking down at Ben in disgust hiding it behind a smile. "Yea I'm coming in a few moments," sighed Ben. He watched his boyfriend walk into the bathroom. "I am so lucky to have you Luke," he whispered out loud. He heard a knock at the door and got up and opened it. There standing in front of him was a man. He wore a pair of shades, had wild hair and several tattoos. Ben was a little shocked by his appearance. "Yes can I help you?" Ben asked. The young mans face went pale. "Are you alright?" he asked. "Benjamin?" he whispered. "No I'm just Ben," the guy smiled. "How do you know me any way?" The young man just mumbled and walked away. Ben shook his head and closed the door. He heard Luke yelling for him rolling his eyes he made his way to the bathroom. --------------------------------------------------- AJ ran to Nick's room and pounded on it. He was looking behind him and didn't see Nick open the door and pounded on Nick's forehead. "OWWWW!" shouted Nick rubbing his forehead. This shocked AJ back to reality. "Oops," said AJ. "Sorry about that," he said rushing into the room. "Gee AJ wont you come in? Why thank you Nick I think I will," said Nick sarcastically. "I think I just saw a ghost," whispered AJ. Nick grew concerned because AJ didn't rattle easily. "Why don't you start from the beginning AJ?" asked Nick. "Do you remember Benjamin?" he asked. "No that was before my time, Why?" he asked. "Cause I just saw him," said AJ shaking. Nick got him a bottle of water from the mini bar and tossed it to him. AJ took the lid off of it and drank it down. "Uhh AJ, isn't Benjamin Kevin's first husband?" AJ nodded tossing the empty bottle in the trash. "He is dead!" "Well than he has a twin or something," insisted AJ. "Are you sure that it was Benjamin? Nick asked. "I don't know maybe I was seeing things," he thought for a while. "No! No!" AJ insisted. "It was Benjamin. Kevin showed me pictures of him one time. This guy was Benjamin." "What were you doing at his door any way?" asked Nick. "He and his lover was making a lot of noise so I went to ask them to please be quiet and he answered the door," AJ explained. "So do we tell Kevin?" asked Nick. "Are you nuts?" shouted AJ. "First we're not even sure that it is him. And second how do you tell Kevin that his first husband who has been dead for almost 8 years has come back from the dead?" "Good point, so what do we do?" asked Nick. "We keep our fucking mouths quiet!" said AJ. "Do you think you can do that Nick?" "Do I have a choice?" asked Nick. AJ glared at him. Nick had locked horns with AJ once before, it wasn't pretty. "All right I'll keep it a secret." AJ smiled triumphantly. "For now!" Nick warned him. ----------------------------------------------- Back in Florida in Kevin's apartment Justin steps into the bedroom and saw that Jason was still sleeping. Justin had spent the night in the guestroom because Jason was restless all night. He looked like an angel just laying there with his eyes closed and his mouth turned up in a small smile. Justin found himself getting hard. "I'll just lay here with him and keep company for awhile." he said aloud. Justin laid down next to him. Jason instinctively wrapped his arms around Justin's bare chest and pulled him close. Jason than leaned in for a kiss on Justin's shoulder. The touch of Jason's lips set his skin on fire. "Mmmm good morning Justin," moaned Jason. Justin's eyes got big as Jason's hands slid down his boxers and latched onto his cock. Justin bit his bottom lip to prevent himself from groaning out loud. He felt Jason's lips travel down his back. He realized that he had better wake Jason up fast or something was going to happen. And he thought that Jason would not like it. "Uhh Jason?" Justin said in a high and squeaky voice. "Yea sexy?" asked Jason as his head popped up and looked Justin in the eye. "You're awake!" squeaked Justin. Jason grinned and leaned down and kissed Justin full on the lips. Justin resisted at first but soon gave in to Jason's demands. He looked into Justin's eyes with lust and desire. "Don't think Justin. Just feel!" he demanded as he raked his tongue down the young man's well-sculpted chest and abs. Justin threw back his head and groaned loudly. He felt his boxers being lowered and heard Jason gasp in shock. "Wow!" he exclaimed. He gazed down at Justin's rock hard cock. It twitched gently as his hot blood raged through it. Jason stuck out his tongue and captured a drop of precum before it fell. Justin let out another groan as soon as Jason's tongue hit his cock. "You like that?" asked Jason in a husky voice. Justin bit his bottom lip and nodded silently. "Well if you liked that than you are really going to like this," Jason purred as he slowly engulfed Justin's cock. Than he went nuts bobbing up and down on Justin's rod. Justin just held on for the ride. He closed his eyes enjoying the sensation of being sucked off by Jason. Justin could feel the orgasm building. He grabbed the sheets and tightened every muscle in his body to prolong it. But alas Jason's hunger would not be denied. Justin shot volley after volley of his seed down Jason's throat. Jason tried to swallow it all but couldn't. Some of it dribbled out the sides of his mouth. Finally when he was done he gently eased Jason's head off his tender cock. Jason looked up licking his lips dry and grinned. "You like?" he asked winking at Justin. All Justin could do is nod yes. "Wow what a way to greet the day," Justin said pulling Jason up to him and allowing him to lay on his chest. Jason snuggled up close. He tried to get comfortable but couldn't. Justin figured this out and let out a laugh. "So I'm not like Kevin?" he asked grinning. "Well Kevin is so snuggable," complained Jason trying to mold Justin's skin to his liking. "Stop!" laughed Justin. "That tickles." Jason finally gave up and laid his head on Justin's chest. He frowned; even the heartbeat was all wrong. "Is snuggable even a word?" Justin asked stroking Jason's hair. Jason shrugged his shoulders. "Who would've thought?" asked Jason. "Who would've thought what?" asked Justin back. "Who would've thought that you and I would be here in bed like this?" Jason asked looking at Justin. "I mean I knew that you were attracted to me and all but I never thought it would get this far." "Yea well I thought you were beyond my reach. I mean when I first laid eyes on you last May I knew that I had found someone special," he said with a smile. "Oh yea you found someone special alright. I had just been raped by JC and I wasn't the most attractive person right then," Jason said shuddering as he remembered those days. Justin pulled him into a hug. "Those days are past Jas, and yes I thought you were a God come down from the Heavens and I spent the rest of that time trying to get you to notice me. You were beautiful then and you are beautiful now," soothed Justin. "I will make sure that no one hurts you like that again." The phone rang and Jason rolled his eyes and got up and answered it. "Yea this is Jason," he said. After a couple of moments he interupted the person who was talking. "Whoa whoa, JC slow down!" he yelled into the phone. "Justin turn on the TV please?" Justin turned on the TV. "MTV!" I instructed him. He switched the channel and Kevin's face appeared on the screen. "In an interview earlier today with the Backstreet Boys they had this to say about their biggest rivals Nsync," said the Newscaster from MTV. "It's more frustrating on the creative side like, who you choose to write music with, who you choose to work with and produce your record, who you choose to direct your videos," Kevin said looking into the camera. Justin just stood there staring at the screen. Jason could tell he was hurt. "I mean, it's like. Find your own identity." The news interview continued with the other guys complaining about how Nsync was always stealing their ideas. "Fuck him!" hurled Justin at the screen as he headed out of the apartment slamming the door. Jason chased him out the door grabbing his arm and stopping him. "Let me go Jason!" he shouted at him. "You're just going to take his side anyways!" "No I am not going to take his side Justin but we do need to talk about this!" shouted Jason back at him. "Now please come back in side." Justin rolled his eyes and stalked back inside and plopped down in the couch. He reminded Jason of a child who was pissed because he wasn't getting his way. Jason walked into the kitchen and started coffee for Justin and tea for himself. He was feeling sick again. He knew he was getting a fever again and his throat hurt. He would have time to rest later. After the hot drinks were done he carried them into the living room. "Now mister!" he scolded Justin as he handed him his coffee. "We are going to talk this through!" ------------------------------------------------------------------- Chapter 10 "Wow cool interview Kev!" said Brian slapping his cousin on the back. Kevin glared at him. "Hey it needed to be said," Brian insisted. "Ever since they joined our label they have been stealing our ideas." "I am just worried about how Justin is going to take this," complained Kevin regretting letting Brian talk him into this route. "I don't want to loose him!" said Kevin. "Screw Justin!" shouted Brian. He reached down and grabbed Kevin's crotch. "Stop thinking with your fucking dick! You are married and you have no business screwing around with 19 year old kid!" "I love him!" shouted Kevin shoving Brian away. "I will not destroy his career." "Well whether you like it or not Kev he is fucking your carreer straight to hell! Him and the rest of Nsync! And if we don't do something to stop it they'll drag us all down!" Brian was centimeters from Kevin's face. The rest of the Backstreet Boys were hanging in the back ground and a camera man from MTV had a camera in their faces. Kevin shoved the camera man back and ripped the camera from his hands and threw it against the wall and he started to walk way. Brian grabbed his shoulder and turned back towards him. Kevin clenched his fists, "I'm not done with you Kevin!" Brian warned. "Not here!" Kevin shouted at Brian. "Why not here?" demanded Brian. Kevin glared at him and stalked off to his dressing room. Brian took off after him. Nick took off after Brian. AJ looked at Howie. "Well what are we waiting for?" asked AJ. "Come on Howie! Someone has to stop them from killing eachother," ordered AJ as he took off after them too. "Life was so much easier before love stepped into the picture!" groaned Howie as he too took off after his band mates. Luke stepped into the light and smiled at the retreating group. "Well well looks like we have a little threesome. This is better than a fucking soap opera," he laughed. He motioned around the corner and Ben stepped around the corner. " "Yes Babe?" asked Ben as he kissed Luke's shoulder. Luke looked over at Ben and grinned. "It's show time Benjamin Richardson," he laughed at the confused look on Ben's face. ------------------------------------------------------------- Back in Florida at Kevin's apartment "So what you are telling me is that Kevin still loves me as Justin the person but he doesn't like Justin the singer?" asked Justin looking very confused. He placed his fingers against his temples and rubbed them. He was getting a headache. "You know how weird that sounds?" asked Justin taking a sip of the now cold coffee. He frowned and put it down on the table. "All I am saying is that Kevin as a professional performer is feeling threatened. I mean think about it for a moment. Nsync leaves RCA and signs up with Jive rocords the same label as the Backstreet Boys. I mean come on Justin, wouldn't you feel a little threatened?" Jason asked. He got the chills and started shivering. Justin looked at him concerned. "I'm fine, I'll rest later," ordered Jason. "I said we were going to talk this out and I meant it!" he scolded Justin. "I mean you all did take that flying through the air thingy from them," Jason said. "Well what about the comic book that they are planning?" demanded Justin. Jason looked confused. "We did a few comics with Disney Adventures. And Now the Backstreet Boys are working with Stan Lee and comming up with their own comic book. So who is copying who?" demanded Justin. "Point taken, listen do you love Kevin?" asked Jason. "Yes if love him," insisted Justin. "And I love you." "Well think about this Justin. I love Kevin with everything I have and I will not loose him. I feel something for you but I am not sure what that is right now but if you leave Kevin than we are through too." "I don't want to loose you both," Justin sniffled. Jason gathered him in a hug and held him. "Than make it work with Kevin. He loves you Justin and you love him," soothed Jason. Justin noticed that Jason was burning up again. "You need to rest Jason," he said touching Jason's forehead. "Come on let's get you to bed." Jason started to resist but Justin looked at him in a scolding look. "You are not feeling well. Bed is the right place for you!" "When are you leaving?" Jason asked as he walked into bedroom. "I have to leave in an hour," said Justin. "Kevin has arranged for Jack and Tom to stay here with you until Kevin comes back." "You're not coming back?" Jason asked sadly. "No I have to be gone for the rest of the month. You know promotional stuff for our CD." Said Justin sadly. He held Jason until he went to sleep. Than he lightly kissed him on his cheek and left the bedroom. Justin ran into Tom as he walked in the door. "How is Jason?" asked Tom. "He is not feeling well. He is napping. The phone numbers are on the kitchen counters and Kevin says not to let him stay up to late. He'll want to watch the grammy awards tonight. He also is working on a new screen play so don't let him stay on the computer too long," explained Justin. "I think I can handle him," Tom said. Justin headed out the door and Tom went to check on Jason. He crept into the room and found Jason sleeping. "You are so lucky to have them in your lives," whispered Tom. In Kevin's hotel room. "Dam him anyway!" shouted Kevin punching a pillow. "It is none of his fucking business who I sleep with!" Nick cringed at Kevin's harsh words. "He is your cousin and he loves you man," said Nick trying to calm him down. Kevin glared at Nick and threw a pillow at him. Nick dodged the pillow and it hit AJ in the face with it. Brian stepped forward and put his arm around Nick. Nick bent down and kissed Brian's hand. "Come on Nick let's leave him alone!" sneered Brian. "It is obvious that he is only interested in Justin's dick!" "I seem to remember a time when that was all you ever thought about too!" Kevin shouted at him. "So don't act all high and mighty Brian!" "But you are Married!" Brian shouted at him. "It is our marriage. Jason and mine. We are happy about it like this. We want Justin in our lives. So stay the fuck out of it!" Kevin shouted at Brian. Brian grabbed poor Nick and stomped off. Once they got in their own room Brian fell on the bed. "Man what a jack ass!" he shouted. Nick laid down beside him and placed his hand over his crotch. Brian looked at him and grinned. He stood up and slid his pants down. Nick grabbed his waist band and pulled his boxers down. Brian's cock slapped Nick in the face. Nick looked up at Brian. "You want this?" asked Brian pointing at his cock. Nick nodded and slid Brian's cock in his mouth. Brian plunged his cock all the way down Nick's throat. "OHH yea Nick take it all in," he breathed as he started thrusting in and out. "You like sucking cock don't you Nicki?" Nick answered by a muffled moan. Brian grabbed the back of Nick's head and held him in place while he fucked Nick's face. He was getting close. "Ooh fuck Nick!" he groaned out. "Here it comes!" He slammed into Nick's face one last time and shot his load down Nick's throat. Nick swallowed it all not missing one drop. He walked away leaving Nick kneeling on the floor. He turned to see Nick still kneeling there. "What?" he demanded coldly. "What was that all about?" demanded Nick standing up glaring at Brian. "I mean you were so hard and cold. Don't you love me?" Brian rolled his eyes as he pulled his pants back up. "Of course I love you Nick!" he said. "How come I got the impression that you just used me to get your rocks off?" Nick asked tears coming to his eyes. Brian went over and pulled him in a hug. "I'm sorry Nicki," soothed Brian bending down and kissing him on the lips. "I do love you and I would never just use you like that." He reached for Nick's chin and looked him in the eye. "Will you make love to me?" he pleaded. Nick smiled and started unbuttoning Brian's shirt. "Did you bring a condom?" he asked Brian as they lay naked in bed. Brian shook his head no. "I want to feel you come in me," said Brian as he reached down and stroked Nick's long and narrow cock. Nick let out a groan which Brian quickly silenced with his mouth. Nick laid on top of Brian and position himself so that his cock was pointed at Brian's ass. Brian pulled his legs up so Nick could have access to him. "Come on Nick," he panted. "Hurry and slide it in." Nick grinned and rammed his cock into Brian's ass feeling Brian's muscles close in around Nick's cock. "OOOH God Nick!" yelled Brian. "You feel so good!" Brian was thrashing around the bed and Nick was slamming into him with all of his might. Brian loved to be fucked hard and Nick was giving it to him good. "You like that don't you?" teased Nick as he withdrew his cock out. Brian let out a whimper begging Nick to put it back in. "You want this?" laughed Nick as he slammed into him again. Brian let out a scream as pleasure raged through is body as Nick's cock head slammed into Brian's prostrate gland. Brian's cock was rock hard and oozing precome. Nick wanted to finish so that he could suck Brian off again. Just thinking of that caused him to go over the edge. He blasted his load up Brian's ass. Quickly moving he engulfed Brian's cock once more just in time to catch Brian's load as it shot out. Nick eagerly swallowed Brian's load for the second time. Brian just laid there gasping for air. "Man that was incredible," breathed Brian. "Tell me about it," sighed Nick as he licked his lips catching the remaining drops of Brian's cum. "You hungry?" Brian asked laying his head on Nick's bare chest. "Uh uh," giggled Nick. "You filled me up." "Ewww!" laughed Brian. "Well you did and you were very tastey!" smiled Nick. They held eachother and went to sleep until they heard a knocking on their door. Nick woke up and looked at the clock and saw it was time to get up. Nick got up and threw on his boxers and opened the door. Kevin was there glaring at him. "Come on you two the limo is waiting on us. It's show time," he said. Soon the Backstreet Boys were on their way to the awards. Kevin sat by the window glaring at the passing car. He vaguely heard the ringing of his cell phone. Brian tapped him on the shoulder. "What!" he shouted at Brian. "Your phone is ringing," Brian told him. "Yea what do you want!" Kevin yelled into the phone. "Well if you're going to answer it like that I'll just hang up!" giggled Jason. "Oh hi Babe!" Kevin said grinning from ear to ear. "Sorry about that, but Brian is being a jerk." Brian flipped him off and Kevin kicked him in the ankle. "How are you feeling?" "I'm all right," said Jason. Kevin picked up on his tone at once. "Remember what Jack said about being honest?" scolded Kevin. Silence on the other end. Kevin could almost picture that stubborn look on Jason's face. He almost laughed but restrained himself. "I love you Jas," he whispered. "I love you too," Jason whispered back. "Uhh Kev?" "Yea Jas?" asked Kevin whispering. "Why are we whispering?" Jason giggled. Kevin giggled too. "Now back on the oringinal question, how are you feeling?" asked Kevin. "You are not going to let this go are you?" sighed Jason rolling his eyes. This time he was met with silence. "Ok," he sighed giving up. "I had a fever today. Justin tucked me in bed and made me rest. All though he told Tom not to let me stay up late," Jason pouted. "He's right you know," agreed Kevin. "You need to rest. You have another chemo session in a couple of days. You need to conserve your energy especialy when you start loosing red blood cells." "I want to watch you on TV," whined Jason. "OK you can watch us. But please promise me you will watch in bed and no Junk Food," instructed Kevin. "Yes Daddy," teased Jason. Kevin busted up laughing on the other end. Jason laughed to happy to hear Kevin laughing. Kevin didn't laugh very often these days. "It's good to hear you laughing again. Oh by the way I saw your interview this afternoon." "Oh oh," sighed Kevin. "Oh oh is right Kevin. Justin saw it too," Jason said. "He was crushed." "Did he take it personal?" asked Kevin worried. "Yes he did at first but I talked him down, and Kevin?" asked Jason. "Yea Babe?" asked Kevin back. "You need to talk to him too," instructed Jason. Now Jason could amost see the stubborn look on Kevin's face. "Kev?" he asked in a scolding tone. "Ok!" Kevin said a little loudly. "I'll talk to him." Jason and Kevin talked until they pulled up to the door. "Hey Babe?" asked Kevin climbing out of the limo. "I have to let you go." Kevin heard Jason whimper in the back ground. He smiled and made kissing noises into the phone. "Ok I guess I have to let you go," said Jason sadly. "You have a good time at the awards. And I will be watching you Babe," he said excited. "Ok I love you Jas," whispered Kevin as he closed his cell phone. They were escorted back to the dressing rooms. Due to the number of guests at the show they were given just one room. As Kevin walked up to the door he felt someone tap him on the shoulder. He turned around, "Yes what can I do--," he started. Justin was standing there looking very pissed. Kevin looked down at his feet. "I love you Justin," he mumbled. "You sure have a funny way of showing it!" he hurled at Kevin. Brian elbowed hs way between them. "Get the fuck out of here show stealer!" he shouted in Justin's face. "We don't need your kind here!" The rest of the Nsync gang came rushing over. JC was livid. "Leave Justin alone Brian!" he shouted at him. "And just what the fuck are you going to do if I don't?" sneered Brian. "Don't push me Kentucky Hick!" warned JC. Kevin could see that this was getting out of hand. He stepped inbetween the two pop stars. "Stop it both of you!" he shouted. Turning to Justin, "Can we go somewhere private and talk?" Justin nodded and Kevin grabbed his hand and started pulling him down the hall. "I knew you were going to hurt him Kevin!" shouted JC trying to take a swing at him. That was all the excuse Brian needed. He plunged towards JC with fists swinging. Thankfully there was enough security present to pull the two apart. Kevin managed to get Justin into the restroom. Once there he pulled Justin in a hug and pressed his lips to Justin's. Justin resisted at first. But anyone who resisted Kevin's charmed soon realized that it was hopeless. It wasn't long before Justin surrendered and allowed Kevin's tongue in. After about three minutes of kissing Kevin broke apart. "I love you Justin Timberlake!" he insisted. Justin took a step back a little dazed from the lip lock he had just recieved. Than he got angry. He halled off and slapped Kevin in the face hard. Kevin's face jerked back and he was stunned and hurt. "You are an ass Kevin Richardson!" Justin hurled at him with tears streaming down his face. "How dare you use my feelings for you to get your way. You hurt me this afternoon!" "I didn't say anything on that interview that wasn't the truth and you know it!" Kevin shouted back. "You guys did steal some of our stuff. I mean Jesus Christ Justin you signed with Jive! Our record label!" Tears were flowing down Kevin's face as well. "We were getting screwed by RCA and Lou!" screamed Justin. "Jive offered us a good deal and we took it. You think we took it because of you guys?" Justin asked. Kevin just glared at him rubbing his face. 'God that kid had a good right hook,' he thought to himself. Justin just stood there shaking his head. "What?" demanded Kevin. "God what a conceited ass!" Justin said shaking his head. Kevin was confused. "Oh come on Kevin, don't act all fucking shocked. You guys think your the best and no one comes close to you! Well I got news for you Jack asses! We made a business move. That is all! Just a business move. So get over yourselves!" he shouted at Kevin. They glared at each other for a few moments. Kevin finally whent over to him and touch his shoulder. Justin didn't move away. "So what do we do now?" asked Kevin. Justin shrugged his shoulders. "Do you still love Jason and me?" Kevin asked worried. "Yes," Justin sniffled. "I love you too Curly!" said Kevin pulling Justin to him. He bent down and kissed Justin on the lips. "We don't have to agree with what we do professionaly but I don't want to loose what we have." "I don't want to loose that either," said Justin kissing Kevin back. Kevin looked around saw that the bathroom was empty. It was so he locked it and knelt down infront of Justin. Kevin reached for Justin's belt and undid it. In a matter of seconds he had his pants around his ankels. "UH Kevin?" asked Justin looking a little scared. "What are you doing?" "You look a little tense so I am going to loosen you up," Kevin said as he pulled his boxers down. Justin cock sprang out and Kevin engulfed the entire thing. Justin let out a groan and started thrusting in and out. "Ohh fuck Kevin!" he groaned as he stared down at Kevin as he bobbed up and down on his cock. Kevin took hold of his balls and gently massaged them driving Justin over the edge. "I'm cumming!" shouted Justin as he shot stream after stream of his cum down Kevin's throat. Kevin worked his tongue and throat muscles swallowing the entire load. Finally he let Justin's spent cock fall out of his mouth. "Man that was great!" breathed Justin. "I thought you needed it," grinned Kevin as he pulled Justin's pants back up. "Come on we have a show to do." During the show. Luke sat as close to the front as possible. Benjamin was sitting beside him. "Now when I say, you stand up and turned towards the stage," he instructed him. "I still don't understand what is going on. And why did you call me Benjamin Richardson?" he asked still confused. "All in good time Mr. Richardson," soothed Luke leaning in and kissing him on the forehead. Back stage "Every body ready?" shouted an excited Nick. Brian rolled his eyes. "Yes Nick we're ready," sighed Kevin. "Some one give him a valium or something." "Ok guys your up!" shouted the stage Manager. "Everyone put on your show faces," grumbled Brian as they busted out onto the stage. The crowd errupted into cheers. The Boys waited until things calmed down some. Kevin looked into a cameral and blew a kiss into it and smiled. The music started and they broke into their medly of past grammy great winning songs. Finally they broke into Show me the meaning and when it got to Kevin's solo he stepped forward just a little. He scanned the crowd looking out over the performers and fans. "Now!" ordered Luke elbowing Benjamin. Benajin stood and looked at Kevin. He stared hard at the very attractive young singer and than it hit him. "Kevin?" he sobbed out. Kevin looked out over the crowd and opened his mouth to start singing. A movement caught his eye and his gaze moved to the movement. All time stood still. His face went pale. "Benjamin?" he asked to himself. The two men stood staring at eachother. Brian nudged Kevin. "Brian are you alright?" he asked in a hushed voice. Kevin shook himself and started his solo. Benjamin sat back down and looked over at Luke. Only Luke was gone. Benjamin heart started slamming in his chest. "Where was Luke?" he screamed into his head. He looked back up stage and into the eyes of Kevin. Kevin locked his eyes on him too not wanting to let go. After the show Kevin sat heavily down on the couch. Brian came storming into the room. "God Kevin!" he shouted at him. "What was your fucking problem out there?" "I saw him," whispered Kevin. Brian looked confused. "What the hell are you talking about?" demanded Brian. "Benjamin!" yelled Kevin. "I saw Benjamin!" Brian took a couple of steps back. "Kevin," Brian said in a soothing tone. "Ben is dead. He's been dead for almost 8 years." There was knock at the door. Brian got up and opened it. "Can I see Kevin please," asked a voice from the past. He stepped into the room. Kevin looked up with his mouth hanging opened. His eyes filled with tears. "Ben?" ********************************************************************** Ok that is it for this one. Let me know what you think. Has Kevin's first love returned from the dead? How will poor Jason react to this. And the most important question. Should Justin remain a part of Kevin and Jason's life? e-mail me at frnceso@yahoo.com