Date: Fri, 19 Jan 2001 20:30:25 EST
From: SweetAngel472023@aol.com
Subject: 'A Second Chance' Chapter 10

'A Second Chance'
Chapter 10

Disclaimer: The usual stuff applies. This is a work of fiction, the product
of my over active imagination. I am not implying anything about the sexuality
of the members of the two bands. If you are underage, please leave or at
least make sure you don't get caught. If you are homophobic...what are you even
doing here?

Hi everyone.
Wow...chapter 10. I never thought I'd get this far. And it's all thanks to the
encouragement I've been getting from you guys. I really appreciate it.
This chapter will finally have Justin's and Nick's long awaited 'first time',
so enjoy!
PS: There will be more flashbacks in this chapter. I put them in italics last
time, but for some reason the italics didn't show up. I hope you didn't get
too confused. This time I'm going to put these ~~ when the flashback starts
to avoid further confusion. Oh, and it's from AJ's  point of view.
Take care,
J

    Kevin was standing in front of the mirror in his room. It was only 8 am
and yet he felt like he'd already been through an entire day. After having
another long talk with AJ, Kevin had forced at least a liter of coffee down
his bandmates throat and told him to take a long, hot shower. After all, he'd
have to appear halfway sober at breakfast. Now it was time for Kevin to make
himself presentable. He was still wearing nothing but boxers and a robe. His
hair was sticking out in all directions, and there were dark circles under
his eyes. With a sigh he turned around and entered the bedroom. There he
found JC and Lance, asleep on his bed. He woke them up and told them to get
ready for breakfast.
    AJ turned on the water in the shower on and stripped. He looked at his
body in the mirror and let out a long sigh. At first glance, there was
nothing to be dissatisfied with. He was muscular and tanned, there wasn't an
ounce of fat. But across his abdomen there was a long scar. It wasn't from
surgery, or even from an accident. It was from the first time that AJ had cut
himself. He turned away form the mirror quickly and entered the shower.
    ~~It had always been there, from the first time I saw Nick. God, to think
how long it took me to realize that what I feel for him is more than
friendship, or even brotherly love. But after a year of working with him,
singing with him, hanging out with him, and becoming one of his best friends,
nothing changed. I still felt more for him than was allowed, given the
situation. I played basketball with him at day and jacked off thinking about
him at night. Finally, about a year ago, I admitted to myself that I was gay
and that I was in love with Nick Carter. It was a pretty unhealthy crush,
considering the fact that he was straight as an arrow (or so I thought). I
decided to come out to him anyway. I had to get this off my chest. After half
a year of waiting for the perfect time and place, Nick decided to ruin my
life. It's not his fault, really. I waited to damn long. I f I had told him
earlier, he wouldn't have fallen in love with Justin. They wouldn't have
gotten together. I could be with Nick right now. All these thoughts were
running through my mind that morning when Nick and Justin came into the room
holding hands and cheerfully announced that they were a couple. Everyone was
pretty happy for them. Except for me. I murmured something about business I
had to take care off, and raced out of the room. I don't remember much about
the days immediately after that. I was wasted for three days in a row. I
still wonder how I had managed to be either drunk of hungover for so long
without any of the guys noticing. But after a while, I stopped drinking and
allowed myself to think about what this meant for me. I should've just stayed
drunk. At lest then I wouldn't have realized that I had had a chance with
Nick all along, And that's when I discovered that cutting yourself is great
to get your mind off things. For a short while, you can only think about the
pain. And the physical pain is easier to bear than the emotional pain. Don't
get me wrong, I'm not advertising cutting. I don't live on the moon, I know
it's addicting. It took me a while to realize that though. A couple of
months, actually. I never did anything as drastic again as I had that first
time. I didn't want huge, noticeable scars all over my body. But I did keep
cutting until Kevin caught on, about a month before the tour. At that point I
had already decided to stop and found it harder than I had expected. I didn't
need Kevin's lecture to realize that I had made a major mistake. But I
managed to stop. And I was fine for a while. Until the tour started, to be
exact. It's no fun to see the man you love making out with his boyfriend all
day long. And I couldn't' take it. So here I am, back where I started.~~
    Absentmindedly, AJ reached for the soap and spread the lather all over
his body. And his arm. The sharp pain snapped him back into reality. With a
short course he washed the blood off his arm that had started running anew.
He'd totally forgotten about his arm and had opened the wound by rubbing it
with the soap bar. Not only had the wound start bleeding again, soap had
gotten into it and it was stinging like crazy. He waited for a while until
the flow of blood subsided and stepped out of the shower. With only a towel
wrapped around his waist he stepped into the bedroom where he found JC
sprawled out on the bed.
    "Man, you take forever. I was just about to fall asleep." JC complained.
    "Sorry. I didn't know you were waiting for the shower. It's all yours
now." AJ apologized.
    "No sweat. Listen, about this morning...I still don't know what's going on,
but if you wanna talk...I'm here." JC offered. AJ nodded.
    "Thanx. I appreciate that. And I have to apologize...it must've been quite
a shock to you."
    "It's ok. We all have our ups and downs." JC replied. He vanished in the
bathroom.  He shed his clothing and stepped into the shower. On the tiles
were tiny red spots. Blood. The sight almost brought tears to JC's eyes. He
didn't know why this affected him so much, but for some reason he was more
shook up about the happenings of that morning than he dared to let on. At
that moment, AJ entered the bathroom.
    "Don't get any ideas if you see blood in the shower. I didn't do
anything. The wound just opened." He explained. JC just nodded, he didn't
trust his voice.
    AJ leaned against the closed bathroom door. His heart was pounding like
crazy. He had only been in the bathroom for less than a minute, but that had
been enough to seen the reflection of a completely naked JC in the mirror. He
didn't think JC had noticed, but AJ sure had. And so had his cock. It was
completely erect. AJ shook his head. Why had the sight of JC turned him on
like that?

                                  ** That evening **
    The date was going exactly like planned. They had eaten at a Chinese
restaurant, and now they were in a limo on their way back to the hotel.
Justin was positively glowing, thinking of what was finally about to happen.
Nick wasn't feeling any different. He'd been a little nervous at first, but
now, sitting there with Justin's head in his lap, he knew that it was right.
He sighed in anticipation and anxiously looked out the window. Where was that
hotel? He couldn't wait to be up there in that room with Justin.
    And then that moment was there. They were standing in the hotel room,
across from each other. Both had a goofy grin plastered on their face. Erotic
tension was running high. It was not an awkward moment. They were simply
enjoying the silence and each other's company. Then Nick took one step
towards Justin and, as if that had been a secret signal, they closed the
distance between them and met in a passionate kiss. Sparks were flying as the
world and everything in it vanished into oblivion. There was only this
moment, only lips and hands and red, hot desire. They stumbled onto the bed,
never once breaking their close embrace. They undressed each other with a
frantic need, as though their lives depended on it. Then, as they both lay
there naked and out of breath, time stopped. There was no need for hurry
anymore. Nick turned to face his lover. He sank deep into his eyes and wished
that they would never have to leave this moment, this place. He drew Justin
closer and placed soft kisses all over his face, along the jawbone, then down
his throat and neck, along the collarbone, inhaling the sweet smell of skin
and cologne. Justin breathed a deep sigh. This was heaven. He allowed his
hands to wander over Nick's smooth chest, then further down over the stomach
and even further, to the fully erect tool. He teased it for a while with his
fingertips, then moved his way back up.
    "Are you ready?" Nick asked breathlessly. Justin nodded.
    "I  need you inside of me now." He whispered. Nick took the condoms and
lube form the nightstand and pulled the condom over. He spread the lube on it
and positioned himself on top of Justin who had rolled over on his stomach.
He directed his penis at the entrance. A rush went through his body and he
began to enter. Justin moaned, and Nick stopped.
    "Tell me when it hurts." Nick said. Justin shook his head.
    "Keep going." He urged. Nick nodded his head and kept going. He pushed a
little deeper, paused for a while, then went on. Finally he was all the way
in. Slowly he pulled out and gently pushed back in. He developed a rhythm and
kept going. After a while he felt Justin relax beneath him, then tense up
again. Both were coming closer to climax. Justin moved up to meet Nick, to
get him in deeper. The pain was gone now and had made room for the most
intense feelings of pleasure he had ever experienced. And then his body
exploded in the most powerful orgasm. Nick could see and feel that Nick was
coming, and it pushed him over the edge. He released his semen into the
condom. Both lay limp, letting the last ripples of their orgasms wash over
them. Nick pulled out of Justin and sank down next to him. Exhausted they lay
side by side. Nick placed a small kiss on Justin's lips and then pulled up
the blanket over both their bodies. Deeply satisfied and happier than ever
before, the lovers drifted of to sleep.

There it goes. I hope you enjoyed it. I certainly had fun writing it. J Keep
in mind though that I'm a girl. So if anything doesn't make sense...just let me
know. And don't hestitate to e-mail me. I love feedback, and i promise  I'll
reply.
Take care,
j