Date: Wed, 3 Nov 1999 00:54:06 EST
From: Storywrightr@aol.com
Subject: singing-4-wrighter Part 3

Disclaimer: The following is a work of fiction. It contains
characters who share names, descriptions, etc., with real-life
people (specifically members of the group *N SYNC); however,
this is all fantasy and in no way is to insinuate anything
about those people. To read this work, you must be 18 or of
whatever age is legal in the area you reside.

After a very long delay, I'm posting a third part to this
story. It's primarily a gift (and fulfillment of a promise) to
Tonny. I hope he and many others will enjoy it. Comments are
welcome. E-mail me at storywrightr@aol.com. Thanks.



JC awakened, momentarily disoriented before he realized that
he was in Jared's bed. Thinking back, he realized that he must
have fallen asleep while Jared went to get the ice cream. He
saw Jared asleep next to him, sharing the sheet and blanket
spread over his own body. Looking at the digital clock on the
night stand, JC saw that it was 2:30 a.m. He had awakened due
to nature's call and tried to quietly slip out of the bed to
go to the bathroom, hoping not to knock anything over or make
too much noise making his way through the dark room.

When he returned, he slipped into bed and lay there thinking
about the evening. He smiled remembering how exciting and how
loving Jared had made his first sexual experience. He did find
himself a bit angry about falling asleep. Tomorrow he had to
leave, and he felt he had wasted precious time by sleeping.
The guys wouldn't be surprised--they always made fun of how
much he slept.

The guys--if only he could tell them. It was one of the most
important and joyous experiences of his life, and he had to
keep it a secret from his closest friends. He wanted to call
them all, wake them up, and tell them how wonderful he felt.
And tell them that he was in love. And he was--he was sure of
that; he was in love.

JC looked at Jared sleeping peacefully next to him, barely
able to make out his features in the dark room. He felt such a
warmth, such a wonderful full feeling, just from looking at
Jared. He suddenly realized that he needn't just look--he
could touch. He could hold Jared. Like in the movies or books
or the way he had seen others holding the one they loved.

As JC moved close to Jared and placed his arm across Jared's
chest and his leg across Jared's thighs, Jared moaned in his
sleep. JC worried momentarily that he might wake the sleeping
man, but there was no further sound and no movement. JC
quickly settled into holding his love and was asleep again in
moments.

Jared awakened before the alarm went off. He felt JC's arm
across his chest and their legs intertwined. Jared smiled.
This had to be what heaven was like. He looked at the clock to
see that it was just before 6:00, almost an hour before he
usually got up for work. He suddenly realized that it was
Saturday, meaning he didn't have to get up for work. That made
him smile. Then he remembered that JC had to leave--not only
to go home, but to catch a plane to Nashville. That made him
sad.

Jared started mentally yelling at himself. He would not allow
himself to become sad about JC's leaving. He couldn't keep
himself from being angry at his own actions that had prevented
them from spending the last week together. Last night had been
so special; why had he denied himself those experiences? Why
hadn't he met Jared on the twelfth, as JC had wanted. He
became sadder and more serious as he thought about the
emotions he had been experiencing over the past couple of
weeks.

JC awakened slowly. As he opened his eyes, he was happy to be
looking at Jared's face. It made him smile. Then he noticed
that Jared had a serious expression on his face--even sad.

JC pulled his arm tighter across Jared's chest and reached
over with his head to kiss Jared's cheek.

"Oh! You startled me! I didn't know you were awake."

"Sorry. Just woke up. And that was the first thing I wanted to
do. Hug you and kiss you." JC smiled as he looked into Jared's
eyes.

Jared's face softened. "What an unbelievable night. And what a
perfect morning."

"That's what I think too."

"So you are all right with everything that happened last
night?" Jared asked, with a little concern showing in his
voice.

"Well, now that you asked, not really," JC answered with a
small frown as he looked away from Jared.

"Oh. I'm sorry. I pushed you, huh?"

JC couldn't keep from laughing. "What?" Jared almost yelled.

"I was just kidding you! The only part I didn't like was
falling asleep and missing out on more time with you!"

"You jerk! You scared me!"

JC was still laughing. "I'm sorry. I really enjoyed every
minute we spent together. I was just mad at myself when I woke
up in the middle of the night and realized that I had fallen
asleep. But I loved being able to hold you as I went back to
sleep."

"Yeah, it was nice waking up with you holding me." They looked
into each other's eyes and leaned in for a kiss. "Hmmm . . .
that was nice," Jared whispered. "Hmmm . . . something else
feels nice too . . . against my leg."

"Oh yeah? Well, it is morning, you know? And I'm lying here
naked hugging on the best looking guy I've ever seen," JC
cooed with a smile.

"Yeah, I know what you mean. I sort of have the same problem."

JC moved his arm down Jared's chest, across his abs, until his
hand came in contact with Jared's erect penis. "Ah, I see what
you mean. Funny, this is always embarrassing when I'm on the
bus and have to get from my bunk to the bathroom without being
seen. But it doesn't feel like a problem this morning."

"Well, at least not a problem that we mind solving!"

"Nope," JC smiled. "Maybe we can help each other? I usually
have to solve this problem by myself."

"Oh yeah! You're my buddy! I don't mind helping you out!"
Jared kidded with JC.

"Oh, I'm your buddy, huh? And do you offer this help to all
your buddies?" JC asked with a smile.

"No," Jared answered, suddenly getting serious. "And you're
much more than just my buddy--at least I hope you are."

"Hey, I was just kidding with you! I hope I'm much more than
your buddy!" JC tried to reassure Jared and was pleased to see
Jared's face relax. After a pause, JC continued, "I meant it
last night Jared. I meant it when I said that I love you. And
I still mean it this morning."

Jared turned swiftly, pushing JC onto his back. Jared came up
on top of JC, straddling him and sitting down on JC's crotch.
He held JC's arms out to either side and looked down into JC's
eyes. "And I love you!" JC quickly recovered from the shock of
Jared's surprising movements--and the feeling of Jared sitting
on his crotch--and smiled broadly as he looked up at him.

Jared continued, as he began to grind his butt around on JC's
erection. JC's eyelids lowered as his eyes began to roll back
in his head; his mouth opened to allow a groan. "I believe
you," JC whispered.

Jared laughed, enjoying driving JC crazy with pleasure. He
lowered his face to JC's to first rub his lips across and then
lick JC's eyelids. JC couldn't believe how erotic it felt. He
made a mental note to remember that one.

As Jared continued to stimulate JC's penis, trapping it in the
crack of his ass, JC wondered if another new experience was
about to be offered to him. He found it both exciting and
frightening. Was Jared indicating that he wanted JC inside
him? All this was so new to him. Is there some book he could
read about what's polite in bed with another guy?

JC opened his eyes to look up into Jared's face. "What are you
thinking?" asked Jared.

"Um, nothing," JC answered.

"Liar!" Jared answered--then rolled off of JC to lie next to
him with his head propped up on his fist.

"Just that I feel so ignorant and so naive. You must think I'm
so stupid about sex."

"What? Are you crazy? What do you mean?"

"Well, just that like when you were just sitting on me . . .
that felt incredible. But what did it mean? I mean, what was I
supposed to do? I just feel stupid!"

"Oh Josh! I'm sorry! Don't feel stupid! It doesn't matter how
much experience you've had, every couple--especially every gay
couple--has to work out what they enjoy doing together and how
and when. That's part of getting to know a partner--learning
what you each enjoy and what you enjoy together. It can be fun
exploring. And sometimes expanding what you do or enjoy doing.
But it shouldn't be scary. I'm sorry--I just loved sitting on
you like that. I wasn't trying to suggest that we do anything
more than that right now. I just wanted to give us both
pleasure. . . . And to enjoy looking down at your face. You're
so beautiful!"

"I love you. I want to explore everything with you. I just
want to make you happy and to make you know that I love you
and love to be with you. . . . So you'll be patient with me?"

"Josh! If all you ever wanted to do was hold hands, I'd make
do with that just to spend time with you."

JC laughed. "Well don't worry! I want to do an awful lot more
than that!"

Jared joined in the laughter. "Good! But only when we're both
ready."

"You know what I'm not ready for?"

Jared became concerned as he responded, "Whatever it is Josh,
we don't have to do it!"

"I'm afraid we do--I'm not ready to say good bye for even a
few days."

"Oh--you scared me! . . . Oh but that scares me too."

"Yeah," JC almost whispered. "It scares me too."

"When are you back in town?"

"The show is Wednesday night. I think we're coming back here
Thursday. Not sure."

"Well, that's not so bad. I mean, if we were getting to know
each other and starting to date, we probably wouldn't see each
other again before that."

"But it feels like we're beyond that. I mean, I can't believe
that I just laid eyes on you for the first time last night. I
feel like I've known you for so long. And I want to lay my
eyes on you a lot to catch up with how well I know you
inside!" JC's flirtatious tone in that last comment was not
lost on Jared, who smiled in response.

"And I want to get to know you beyond all those pictures and
videos I've always seen. And the parts no one else GETS to
see!"

"You're going to make me blush!"

"Already did!" Jared answered, laughing.

JC joined in the laughter as they enjoyed their time lying in
bed together.

"Um, Jared?"

"Yeah?"

"About the last couple of weeks . . . I don't want to harp on
anything, but are there some things we need to talk about? I
mean, about what happened between us?"

Jared looked away, turning onto his side with his back to JC,
but JC's hand moved with Jared's body and still rested on his
side.

"Yeah, we need to talk about me being an asshole, I guess.
It's just really embarrassing. I wish it had never happened. I
kept us from being together for the whole past week because I
was scared or stupid or whatever."

"I didn't mean to make you feel bad," JC answered. "But I
wanted to know if we had resolved things. If your fears were
gone."

"Or if I'm going to make you crazy again anytime soon . . . "
Jared answered. "I wish I could promise I won't be stupid
again Josh. But I guess it's just insecurity. And let's face
it, if I'm insecure with your average guy off the street,
how'm I going to hold up with you--Mr. Gorgeous International
Pop Star?"

"I'm sorry that that's how you think of me," JC said, as he
allowed his hand to slide off of Jared's body and turned his
own body away from Jared. They now lay side by side, but back
to back on the bed.

Jared turned and lightly placed his hand on JC's side. "Oh
Josh, that's not how I see you--I see you as the most loving
and most real man I've ever known. Ha! Remember how hard it
was for me to think of you as real when we were first writing
e-mails to each other? . . . But at the same time, you are JC
too! And I can't forget that. I guess I just need some time to
put the two together--and to learn that you are really you.
Please forgive me."

JC turned and looked deeply into Jared's eyes--eyes that
showed fear and concern. "I forgive you--if there's anything
needing forgiveness. Maybe I'm the one who's insecure--still
afraid no one will love me for Josh instead of JC. This is all
so new to me. I'm sure I'm going to make lots of mistakes--
with the loving and the relationship and the sex. But I really
want to try Jared! I really think we have some kind of really
special connection, you know?" As he was saying these words,
he watched Jared's eyes soften from fear and concern to love
and hope. It encouraged JC in what he was saying. "You'll try
with me?"

"Oh yeah! Yeah! If you'll put up with my silliness. And my
need to be reassured. I've never felt about anybody like I do
about you Josh! You just make me feel all alive and warm and
good! I better not mess it up!" Jared laughed at his own
words, and JC joined him in soft laughter.

They kissed slowly and softly.

"There," JC said, "Sealed with a kiss!"

"A commitment?" Jared asked with raised eyebrows and slightly
cocked head.

"Yeah. I'd say so. . . . Seriously--a commitment to try and
make this work--even when it's not so easy. Like when I have
to be gone or have to be secretive about being gay. That
bothers you, I know. But you up to it? Up to trying to make it
work?"

"Yes. . . . Yes. I'll take that challenge. Because I can
already tell how wonderful the rewards will be."

The smiles on both men's faces grew and they came together in
a kiss as they wrapped their arms around each other and rolled
over first onto Jared's back and then back onto JC's. They
were each determined to make the other aware of just how
strong their feelings were; of how hard they would each try to
make this budding relationship--this new adventure--work for
them both. And they did feel it--they felt the combined
strength and the enormous joy. At that moment, no obstacle
posed the slightest problem for them. They had each waited
much too long for this feeling of love, and they would each
treasure it as long as possible.